tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

my parents just back from genting.
initially they ask me to join them.since i never been to genting before.
mayb i've been there before should be before my primary gua.
so i have no memory of me going to genting before.
erm... but also not really really interested in going to genting...

actually i'm long for a trip to penang to eat durian.
haha
nice nice durian, have to ask grandma to get me some of the penang best durian
erm so my target is to go there about next or the week after next.
go penang for a couple of days
meet some friends

my parents do have a nice time at genting.
but my mom say that during their way to genting my dad's car eventually nearly 'boil water'
so they stop the car and wait until the car cool down and continue their journey.
erm...
everything was fine after that.

i do think it's a good choice not following them to genting.
let them enjoy their short trip and also 'second honey moon'
let them enjoy their life a bit live a life without my existance for a few days.
let them forget about me for a few days.

seems to be difficult to wake up in the morning,
cos if i rely on my arlam clock i would end up waking up late.
however, if i rely on myself,
i would end up waking up so early.
now is about 6.45 and i've been up for more than half an hour.

seems that i should have a healthy life if i wanna rely on myself to wake up.
why? cos the alarm clock seemed useless to me already.
it does not wake me up and will not wake me up.
so cham.

uaed to wake up really really early during my secondary time.
have to go to school at about 7 in the morning.
erm...

miss those days.
really really miss those days.
when i'm really really damn hard working.
when i do not have to think so much about how to live my life.

忘掉你像忘掉我 ~~王菲
曲:张国荣 词:林夕 编:Richard Yuen 监:张国荣

想不再回头 又不想错过 想不想之间 着了魔
重逢后 白发后 又怎知道 是恋火
是如何 烧毁我 假使你仍然 认得这个我
不枉我换来 这结果 狂傲地 任性地
为想等你 望清楚 为你疯魔 这样错

* 爱我吗 不恋也恨
等到白头 未染尘
爱我吗 但如何敢问
忘掉你像忘掉我心
# 生死也为情 是否不会有
只得苦恋可永久
明明是没以后
但怎么我 仍牵手
让你减轻 你内疚 #
repeat * #
生也猜不透 死也猜不透 发白透
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
just saw faye wong's new compilation album online.
always like faye's canto song cos it's really really very very nice.
remember this song is one of the song in the movie 'bai fa mo nui' by leslie cheung and also lin ching xia.
the liking for faye is slowly slowly accumulated.
is because of my friend?
or just because she is faye and i like her:P
haha
but only one thing to say faye is always the best.

i already dunno what he want
he say dun like me to go so far to work and have to pick me to college everyday.
i ask my bf to pick me up to work.
and what he said?
'why you tell others everything?'
huh? i already plan about it early already wor?
wat's the problem about that?
i seems not able to find the solution to this problem...
seems that i do everything or anything also got problem and also will be wrong?
i'm confused....
i'm really really confused....
i'm blur
i dunno wat to do.
i think i dun reli understand him.
maybe is because of the fear of loosing a daughter?
maybe is the fear of her daughter knowing the wrong people?
maybe is the fear of ....
i cant think of any reasons lur

i'm not happy,
hope that you are just beside me.
yet you seems so near yet so far

hope that you would understand what i mean.
but you seems not catching what i mean.

hope that you are around when i need you.
but you arent there!

told you how i feel.
but you told me you want me to be independent.

you are always against me.
and i feel that i'm helpless
i cannot do anything about it.

wonder whether should i ever listen to you.
wonder should i care.

sometimes i wonder whether the status of boy and gal would ever be even?
sometimes i wonder why we need to be restricted to the old thinking?
sometimes i wonder why people are not improving as the time passes by?

why we are reluctant to changes?
why we are used to the old fashion way of doing things?
why must we locked ourself with the kolot thinking?
why must we restrict our mind to fly free?
why must we restrict our imagination and creativity?
why there must always be an answer for a question?

should there be a question without answer?
should we able to do things without caring what others think about us?
should we not concern about others view, which might restrict our ability to break trough?
should we be changing every second as the time passes by?
should there be improvement in our life as the time passes by?

today is my first day working as a temporary gal.
work? data entry.
and my brain is only the few figures that i key in and nothing other than that.
knows the powerful effect of learning curve.
erm...
i think i would not like to spend hours and hours doing the same thing over and over again lur.
but never mind,
since i only play play only and pass time only, while earning some pocket money.

some ask me very nice cos can work with my bf.
huh we all sit different place leh.
he inside a room enjoy the aircon and music with annother lousy guy (shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh dun let the fuller know i say him lousy k?)
while i'm sitting outside in the open office.
erm... how come i feel the air con like not no geh? feel so hot.
he is using his laptop and online inside,
while i'm using the big outdated computer.
gosh i miss my flat screen (lcd)at home....
gosh i miss my internet connection at home...
:'(

staying at home should be the best thing to do lur.
regret taking this job?
erm i take it as a challenge for myself la.

today li si's never ending story at 988 is talking about the thief and the police.
the police suspect and know the thief steal something.
everytime the police stop the thief with the bicycle and also two big bag of sand,
and he did not discover what had the thief steal cos the two bad of sand is just normal sand and nothing inside and nothing special.
every few days the police see the thief take the bicycle and two back of sand to a rural village.
the police cannot do anything. because he have not evidence to prove that the thief had stole anything.

after many many years,
after the police retired, the police become neighbour with the thief.
and one night the police and the thief sit down have dinner.
after drinking some bir,
the police asked the theif what had you stolen all these years?

the theif smile and said all the while i stole the bicycle and sell.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ponder:-
is it we normally see those small small things like those sand and suspect those little little things?
and we just ignore those most obvious things?
is a good story for us to ponder about.

recommen the program '乐在1102' for all my friends.
every thursday dj 林淑萍.
the story is told by:- 丽思(one of my favourite DJ)
hope you would tune in to it every thursday 11.00pm-2.00am

孩子 曹格
词:文康 曲:张蔚源

给你的思念塞满了箱子 托邮差安全送到你住的地址
你看到我的名字 忍着的眼泪多麽像个脆弱的女子
你的微笑却又像深情的男子 幸福的样子

爱你就像走不好的孩子 相信我可以帮你穿上心爱的鞋子
一路上难免有小小的石子 一点一滴都是一颗种子

慢慢的学习相处的方式 用你的小聪明填上我的无知
你看我双手合十 决定答应你
当你朋友不断问起时 你会得意的聊着我们的故事
快乐的样子

爱你就是为了过好日子 谁叫你已经成了无法改变的事实
只等着听你说一声要开始 我愿为你变成一个孩子

你看我双手合十 决心要为你
为你日夜不断祈祷时
希望生活里周围有你的样子 幸福的样子

爱你就像走不好的孩子 相信我可以帮你穿上心爱的鞋子
一路上难免有小小的石子 一点一滴都是一颗种子

爱你就是为了过好日子 谁叫你已经成了无法改变的事实
只等着听你说一声要开始
我愿为你变成一个孩子
我愿为你变成一个孩子

i was listening to this song online again and again.
first saw the lyrics on wen kang's book
heard this song on the radio station.
found the song really really suits the lyrics
feel sweet. ;)

tidy and tidy and tidy...
making the room in a mess and making it normal balik.
erm... i dun wan back to the old style
i think i want something new?
something fresh
something different
something not the same with the previous feel
something i dunno what is it?
something that would surprise me....

have not been posting anything on my blog lately.
have not been blogging lately.
why?
cos i'm staying at home and packing and arranging all my things together.

things in my room had been messy all the while
a lot of paper and a lot of notes.
a lot of news paper.
and a lot of dust

someone ask me how could i live in such an environment
like pig style...
erm...
wonder
but that's not the important thing for me again.

i always tell myself i would tidy it when i'm free
now...
is the time.
i'm free? but did i really go and tidy it? sometimes i doubt what i'm doing
haha... just home i'm happy gua.

很爱很爱你
作词：施人诚 / 作曲：玉城千春

想为你做件事 让你更快乐的事
好在你的心中埋下我的名字
求时间 趁着你 不注意的时候
悄悄地 把这种子酿成果实

我想她的确是 更适合你的女子
我太不够温柔成熟优雅懂事
如果我 退回到 好朋友的位置
你也就 不再需要为难成这样子

很爱很爱你 所以愿意 舍得让你
往更多幸福的地方飞去
很爱很爱你 只有让你 拥有爱情
我才安心

看着她走向你 那幅画面多美丽
如果我会哭泣也是因为欢喜
地球上 两个人 能相遇不容易
作不成你的情人我仍感激

很爱很爱你 所以愿意 不牵绊你
飞向幸福的地方去
很爱很爱你 只有让你 拥有爱情
我才安心
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
listening to the radio for this music now.
i do believe it sounds crazy to let someone who you love them very very much you would not let them go away just like that.
because love is not for a person to judge whether it is enough or not.
love is for someone to feel about it.
love is a feeling therefore it is intangible.
you could not count it,
you could not see it.
but you could feel its existance.

if you love someone try your best to keep them with you.
however, if their heart is not with you already.
just let them go.
let them search for their happinest.

caroline and me at college last week 

last sunday was father's day and we have had 3 free movie ticket to watch any movie with the star sign on it at any of the tgv cinema.
so dad decided to watch madacasgar.
initially we wanted to go 1U to watch it.
but the movie will only start at 5.30pm.
this would delay our plan a lot.
so we read the paper for other cinema nearby with the suitable time?
then dad decided to go to watch at sunway pyramid.

it should be considered as the first time i go to sunway pyramid.
actually i never been there b4.weird huh?
prior to this i only been there once to have hi tea with my friends.

dunno where is tgv at pyramid and we look all over for the cinema.
when i line up for the movie ticket the screen was blinking for the movie.
it seems that the movie is selling fast.
luckily there is still ticket. but the seats are at the front row and at the side.



after watching two movies consecutively at two different tgv.
found that i really do not like to watch movie at tgv as much as i like to watch movie at gsc.
why?
firstly because the pop corn are more expensive and the coke seems to be smaller in size.
you knoe la accountant sure want value for money service.

the show was a short one.
so when we came out from the cinema, it was still quite early.

mom was wanting to go this vegetarian restaurant for rojak.
cos she was looking forward to eat the rojak.
the restaurant was jus beside the sunway lagoon and there is a place where u can sit down and see how the people playing at the lagoon.

it was the first time for me to try vegetarian dumpling.
before this i never try it before.
the rojak was nice
but everything was expensive.
me and mom shared to belanja dad
why? cos it's fathers day.


it was an enjoyable and meaningful trip for me la...
spending some quality time wit my family

erm...
my cousin sis kena(got selected) for national service next year

my uncle say kena 4D also not so tepat(accurate) ar!

i reli dunno whether this is a good thing or not.
but i do think it is a good thing in the sense that you have a chance to be independent.
without your parents by your side and have to do some good work for the community
i do really agreed that it would be a good mental and physical training
i do reli hope tat i would get a chance to participate?
erm...
i wonder
but i really hope she would gain something from the national service gua.

me and seng joo ar!!!! 

me and hui ling... seems tat i look quiet 'big size' d.... erm have to keep fit la!!! 

jean, joo, me, hui ling and siew heoh 

finally exam is over already....
after so many months of hard work....
but i have no feeling that it is over already.
but whatever will come in the future i'm prepare to take it.
whatever will be will be.

now enjoy my life for the moment
but dunno can enjoy for how long.
because enjoy at an expense at my pocket money will be a very very terrible thing gua

but see watch will come in the future.
regardless of whatever it takes,
just think that,
i should do what is best for people around me
and also what is best for myself.

teckmin (dai lou) the legendary teddy and me. actually dunno why suddenly wanna take photo together? 

ACCA Malaysia helps the public understand tax

1,500 members of the public filled a hall to capacity in Kuala Lumpur on 18 March 2005. The audience listened to a presentation by Dr Choong Kwai Fatt, a lecturer from the University of Malaya, on the newly-implemented self-assessment taxation system.

As part of a community project, 200 ACCA students and affiliates joined Dr Choong and provided help to members of the public having difficulty filling in their income tax details.

Students and affiliates spent over five hours dealing with the attendees, explaining how to fill in the forms and the required documentation. All the students were either studying, or had completed, Paper 3.2, Advanced Taxation. This community project is not only a service to the public, but also an opportunity for students and affiliates to gain practical knowledge. They benefited from hands-on experience of income tax issues, which will better prepare them for future employment in this area.


me.. very far, soo wei and eugene helping to fill up the tax form.

haha... actually i did not know /expect that our picture actually muncul in the acca student accountant

today uncle beng yean was chattng with uncle beng chuan
they were talking about something relating money and the condominium.
actually i feel that later uncle beng chuan was kindda upset because the conversation between him and uncle beng yean.
when uncle beng yean was talking to uncle beng chuan...
when uncle beng chuan cannot stand/listen any more,
he would say you do not use your 'asia works' things on me.

but i think , or it is just my personnal feelings la.
sometimes people around you talking to you,
it is to remind you about the blind spot that you might not be aware about.
if you do not care much about to listen to it.
just ignore it.
no point to be upset about what other poeple think about you.
what's the point of getting up set for something that the person had said and the person might totally forget about it the next hour,
and you might get upset for the whole night, the next day or even the next whole week?

just now i feel a bit upset seeing uncle beng chuan about being down and think a lot about what uncle beng yean had said during the chat after dinner.
i definately don't like the feeling of them like quarelling.
eventough i don't have my own sibilings,
but i do really tresure the relationship of sibilings.

today is 'duan wu jie'
ask joo to fetch me back from the college
and 'sun bian' he can come and grab some dumpling
he said my grandma's dumpling is very very nice.
and i think eating too much of dumpling this few days make me gain a lot of weight.
and my first target after exam is to seriously loose some weight
if not i'll be growing sideways.

the kids come to my computer and play lots and lots of game.
i think i do seriously have to study d.
and after next wed. i'm totally free.
can watch all my favourite show.
and also start the loose weight plan.

原來，是你的終究會回來。
緊捉不放的人，就算再努力也好，不是你的，
就算用盡了所有力氣，也是徒然。

Song : One Moment In Time (Whitney Houston)

Each day I live I want to be
A day to give The best of me
(yeah give my best in my acca examination)
I'm only one But not alone
(a bunch of tar college coursemate sitting exam together wit me on 13,14 and 15 june)
My finest day Is yet unknown
(one of my finest day would be the day i get my acca)
I broke my heart Fought every gain
(loosing my scolarship in the second year of my advanced diploma)
To taste the sweet I face the pain
(besides getting so many c for my exam but yet i manage to pass with a merit)
I rise and fall Yet through it all
This much remains
(i'm sitting for my acca core paper for this 13, 14 and 15 june)

I want one moment in time
(that is 13, 14 and 15 june)
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
(a heartbeat away from getting at least fifty marks each to pass my three core paper)
And the answers are all up to me
(yes all hardwork had been done)

Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
(yes destiny is right in front of me)
(potential future accountant)
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel
I will feel eternity
(eternity... cos do not have to face any exam already?)

I've lived to be The very best
(acca exam is the best professional qualification exam!)
I want it all No time for less
I've laid the plans
Now lay the chance
Here in my hands
(now is the chance for me to pass my core paper in one goal)

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
(it's up to me to do my level best)

Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel
I will feel eternity

You're a winner for a lifetime
If you seize that one moment in time
Make it shine
(shine to be a star in acca graduation ceremony)

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will be
I will be
I will be free
I will be
I will be free
(free no more exam!!!!)

无印良品
我找你找了好久

可以彼此分享得意骄傲 不担忧谁的心里不是味道
可以传染给你心情不好 连说一个理由都不需要

可以直来直往提醒劝告 就算争吵也都是为对方好
可以和你商量秘密苦恼 不害怕全世界都会知道

我找你找了好久 一个互相了解的朋友
生活有人分享的时候 快乐就变得容易许多

我找你找了好久 一个拿心来换的朋友
伤痛有人抱紧的时候 未来有什么路不敢走

this song specially dedicated to my friend yu yee.
why? cos today is her b'day
why dedicate this song to her? cos this song have a very very special meaning for me.
;) i do hope she knows what i mean. (regardless whether she sees this post or not)

ever since we quarreled and din talk much since then, i always prevent myself from looking backwards,
always ask myself to look forward.

last nite just after mid nite i sent her a sms to wish her happy b'day
just when i tought there would not be any respond from her,
i actually received a sms from her
'tks,my dear fren.so hapy 2receive ur msg.bt,d happiest is our frenshi stil remain..tks'

hmmm... have you have some friends who you din contact them for a long time?
just drop them a sms and you would light up their heart and make their day feel different!

trust me ;)

hui ling wit the snoopy from lay qing, jean and me.... in the picture from left hui ling, lay qing, siew heoh, seng joo and me.... 

jean, joo and me, huiling and siew heoh dunno which camera to look at? 

jean, joo and me and also hui ling and her lovely snoopy from us;) 

me, hui ling, close eyes siew heoh and jean of course 

me, hui ling and the two lovely couple yen yeen and sam 

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

have a bad dream when i wake up this morning
dream that something about joo and me.
weird dream.. and i terus wake up already.

then realised it was already 8am.
nobody wake me up to go to college to study?
huh? how come?
where is my dad?
huh? today is not sunday wor?
how come i'm still at home at this hour?

ha...
just realised that my dad told me last week he will pick his boss worker dunno go where.
he will pick me up later.
erm...
luckily. i remember.
usually when you feel yourself waking up at the wrong side of the bed, you would feel very very blur and sometimes you might wanna scold poeple.
and you have to have very very good EQ management to avoid yourself scolding poeple gua..:P

sometimes i wonder how a gal choose her bf.
is it you have to choose a guy who got car,
and have a good job,
and will give you all those very very expensive gift.
and when he go outing with you, you would have to go places which is very very expensive, and you consider it as high class such as?
k*m g*ry? or even v*ctor*a st*t*on?

wonder how gals would have four eyes when they find the boy friend.
erm maybe is i have too much tought in this lovely nite.

sometimes i wonder about a gal's spending habbit.
on clothes... which is branded... you can use about a thousand just for shopping?
and you tell me you cannot support original books and music?

maybe i have very very bad spending habbit as well.
but i think the way i spending and save the money would be quite different gua...
dunno.
just feel that if i do not agreed with your attitude...
i might not be able share my toughts with you gua.
i dun like poeple who dun care about others' feeling but
they would definately 100% want you to take care of their feelings
and they would have you around like you must help them...

sorry having too much emotion before exam...
remembering got scolded by the someone just because i told him the truth
and how i feel about things.
just do not like people complaining about my attitude.
you can complaint that i'm a lazy person, dirty bug, naughty person or even an evil person.
but please please do not complaint to me that my attitude got problem.
i think i will burst that very moment.
cos i think i would always have a possitive attitude towards life and everything that i would encounter.
but if you told me that my attitude got problem does it means that possitive attitude is wrong?

do really think i'm very very very and extremely straight person.
and like to shoot people. especially those who are closed to me.
haha (sorry to those who are closed to me. you have to get sometimes to prevent being hurt badly by me)
but never mind, i would also invite you to shoot me.
dun really care that much whether it hurts a lot or not.

feel very very bad cos sometimes that things that you like hurt you the deepest.

sometimes is the friend that you trust hurt you the deepest.
heart breaking... why? cos already patah hati and putus asa d.

sometimes is the subject you favour the most, you did it badly
very very badly.

sometimes mayb things that you do not like would help you on the road.
sometimes is good to be neutral and not bias.

keep an open mind for everythings that is going to come
prepare to accept things that is going to come with open arms.

things are gonna be...
to be... will be...

one more week and seems that i did not touch much on 3.6
do hope miricle would happen.
haha
wonder how would it happen.
still sticking myself with the computer and the tv.
do not want myself to sleep too much
just tell myself i would have all the time in the world that i could have to do the things that i like.
i really wonder about it.

i should really motivate myself.
never give up...
acca exam starting 2moro.
but mine is one more week to go.
do hope that i would not panic at the last moment.

one more week. not consider very long.
however,
i would help much if i used it wisely.
do pray for myself, my friends and all my coursemate.
all the best in the exam.

always wonder whether taking a post of printing manager for the course is a correct decision.
always wonder why should i take the post?
from the very first day of the course committee election,
the senior was like saying gals cannot be printing manager since i have no transport and also printing manager would be a very very hectic job for a gal.
and after this two years,
i can proved this saying is rubbish and it also contains some kind of sex discrimination.
remembering the impression on nicholas's face.
saying he do not wanna take the post of course rep.
and he wanna be the printing manager of the course.
and i was scared and worried cos.. last time i would always critic my course's printing manager.
and i was suprised that he actually compromised that the would be the course rep.
remember people telling me that if you do not wanna hold the post there is a lot of other poeple wanted to hold the post.
remembering changing supplier without telling my x-course rep (nick) anything about it.
remembering that he was very very action.... and wanted to go agaist me.
and remembering that he eventually din able to come into our course since his cgpa din acheived the course entry requirement that year.
remembering that nobody wanna become the course rep of the course.
remembering everyone complaining about the course rep not doing anything.
remembering course rep and treasurer complaining me about my attitude to my friend the assistant course rep.
remembering i do not need their (course rep, assistant course rep and treasurer )help but i really been help by all the class rep a lot and a lot.
remembering miss chin ask me not to put too much effort on the course matter.
remembering miss karen told me that my over all paper was quite good.
remembering the concern on the lecture's face.
remembering my life in tar college as a printing manager in two years of my advanced diploma.

just received my result today...
a very every unbelievable result for myself
cant imagine...
get so unbelievable result
and actually i got an B for my finance and ...
the paper actually i got an C for one subject...
and the one and only C for my exam.
i see already i also think it is very very unbelievable.

so if you are interested is knowing wat the subject is please guess...
and i'll tell u trough msn or e-mail u...
cos i'm reli reli shy to disclose it here...:P

khai nien eileen... me and ker tying wit our lovely flowers..... 

eileen and me... oops my hair is messy d....haha 

khai nien and eileen.... graduating wit their beautiful flower..... 

today is my bf's convo....
hehe...
can't belive it that he actually graduated earlier than me (practically)
he is always the one who is very very lucky.
why?
he always tend to fail his exam...
and tends to make it during the final resit.
what a lucky guy.

annother friend of mine...
hui ling she also going to graduate today...
and she is going to fly to uk to shefield by 17 may if i'm not mistaken.

and many tough not much graduated.
in the graduation list there were about 196 people who completed and graduate from the course.
and this figure is about 70% of the population in the course of 285 poeple.
and out of this 196 people only 4 poeple got distinction and also 69 poeple got merit for their graduation.

erm... i'm one of the people who graduated... so happy...
and yesterday i met miss ng...
she was like trying to tell me wat is my grade for her paper.
erm... maybe a B? i think that's all i can get gua...
cos eventought i did not do badly on her paper.
but i feel that there are things which i did not do well enough to get an A

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

======================================
this song have a very very special meaning for me and a friend.
i'm not sure whether the person will still remember this song?
just wanna listen to this song again and again and again...

just close my eyes and listen to it every time.
brings me a lot of satisfaction.

today when i wake up my the flesh beside my tooth was in deep pain....
cannot describe the feeling but it does affect my emotion.
maybe too many spicy food lately.
damn...
it is like a pain in the ass...

it is really painful and i think the flesh is going to cover my wisdom tooth someday.
my god...
tired...
wanna cry already...
cham liao la...
how to continue to study?
and exam is coming soon again.....

today the graduate list was out on the board.
then i was worried and i went to look at the board.
haha... i've got merit for my exam wor....
not passed saje...
but merit wor...
erm... my c are not so strong this time i think
thank god again...
what a good news for me.
at least not the last one from the course being called on to the stage....
'sia sui' and 'lak sei' saje...

always think that i did not did my best
or i've did my best but my best was not good enough?

do not wish to be a distinction student but just do not want my parents to be 'lak sei' la...
at least i already proven to myself i did my level best to get what i need lur.

so now... focus on the dream of acca lur...
suddenly see other poeple graduate earlier than me...
also taking acca.
erm...
should i be crying?
erm... i do think if i really work hard enough...
i could realise my dreams.

sometimes i think it is very cruel that people are resiting and they wanted to graduate and the lecture do not want/intend to help the students.

mayb they left only this paper to graduated?

one of my friend have not failed the internal exam before,
and this semester he failed the final three paper.
and he have to sit for all five paper....
including external acca 2 option paper and
internal resit 3 core paper.

i think it would be a big burden to them since they are given little time to prepare for the subject.
i think lectures do want to help us pass.
but i do not understand why some lecture refuse to do so?

erm... to protect their good name?
or they do not want to be liable about the things they say?

i feel weird sometimes.....
cos when a lecture give guidance/hints before the exam...
after the exam there would be a lot of noice complaining about the lecture giving tips to the student....
aren't giving tips to the student one of the motif before exam?
then... why after exam already... the students want to complaint about the lecture giving tips to them?

lecture are just normal human being...
they also wanna protect their reputation and they wanted to secure their job.
since they already being kind hearted to give tips,
why dont you just listen,
and whether you wanted to accept or not...
it's all up to you.
and they are also not liable to the accuracy of the tips.
since you are liable for your own behaviour.

if you knoe the tips,
just share it with your friends,
and keep quiet after that lur...

erm... i do really pity....
because lecture do really suffer ethical dialema since they already setting the question and they have to spread something out to ensure that most of the student passed the exam.

today is the first day of orientation in tarcollege.
saw the fresheee's t-shirt...
'proud to be tarcian'
i think i would reluctant to wear the t-shirt after finished the orientation gua?
haha....

today the library have a very very long queue.
all of them applying for the id card.
and the procedure for applying the id card was quite 'ma fan'
have to go here and there...
and also attend the boring library tour...
then only can apply the library card.
haha...
glad that i do not have to been trough all this troublesome to ensure that i got my library card.

erm... already very very 'old' lo...
finished my 4 years in tar.

and i've observed something
nowadays...
the kids are very 'hang fuk'
cos they have their own transport to drive...
and they carry all those colour screen hand phone.
and their parents will go to the college with them just like they are little kids.

i remember that the first day of me being in tar.
my dad just sent me there and tell me this is tar...
just go inside.
huh? where is college hall? where is libarary?

that time i still carrying my erricsion... the phone which the dog see already also will run as far as it could.

the first day in tar, i remember i dunno the way back home.
my dad asked me to go back by myself.
and i remembered i walked about half an hour from the main gate to taman melati lrt satation.
when i reached kl (which means pasar seni there) then i feel safe,
and i know how to go home.
i remembered i was damn scared that time.
hehe

now everything already become history.
so... now have to leave the college soon lo...

weird weird weird...
suddenly notice there is RM30 extra credit in my handphone.
just now when i see my handphone suddenly notice that my credit had been reloaded with RM30.

i was wondering whether is joo who reload for me since i already told him that i dun hav credit already.
when i called him, who knoes that he say he din reload for me.
i tought he was kidding at first,
but i think he would not do such sweet things.

so asked dad had he done anything?
the answer is no.

so now?
the conclusion is this is the money which had fallen from the sky?
weird....

or the gift from god on wesak day?
anyway... just thank the god.
send me RM30 just when i needed some credit.
no need to use my RM 60 top up card yet.

or is it anyone who knoes that i do not have any credit d...
then send me some credit?
i wonder.....
hehe....
thanks god la...

today my dad woke me up very very early.
before 8am.
today actually do not have any class and i'm thinking of staying in the bed for a little longer.
but he woked me up so i have to wake up
then we wait for mom to get ready to go out.

when we are ready, we went to my parent's house.
we are going together for a free breakfast in the vegetarian shop.

then we wait for the uncle and auty's children
and when everyone was ready,
it was about 8.30 am already.

when we reached there,
we was just in time!
the breakfast just started.
we all line up and grab whatever in on our menu.
yes the breakfast was totally free and you can eat as much as you like.

why?
cos today is wesak day!!!!!!
the free breakfast was from 8.30am to 11.00am

since we were early there are not many people.
there are mee hoon, yellow rice, fried chun juang, fried man tou,
vegie curry, vegie fish, vegie cha siu, tofu....
erm....wow.... free you know!!!!

but not really greedy to take too much.
just wanna try everything out by taking some of each item lo.
i remember watching the tv that says that if the thing is free / cheap but you cannot finished it they would charged you extra for wasting the food.

but anyway, feel very greatful and thankful that i could have the opportunity to enjoy such nice free meal.
always remember that there is no free lunch in this world.

still very full now.
i think i would have nothing for lunch today la...

my room was in a mess....
busy studying for acca.
and attending in the intensive class
i think i've stress myself too much d.
until i have the pain in my neck.
seems very very scarry for me.

this few days was having dinner wit fz, yan er and pei li as well as wei wei.
erm... i think should be less chance to hav dinner wit them lur.

i found something interesting in the guy blog.
they eat vegetarian cos they wanna pass the exam...

then i eat vegetarian cos?
haha...
suddenly found that i have no memory about how i choose to be a vegetarian.
i found it very interesting that people say that they would not eat vegetarian.
however i would be a very very interesting point for me to argue.
cos?
if they only eat meat and no vegerable they would in very very bad health
vegetarian is only take away thier meat only ma...
so nothing so different and no big deal about eating vegetarian lo...
rite?

erm... seems like the studying process had slowed down lur...
no mood to focus on exam?
i'm not really sure about things that happened around me.
suddenly feel that have some kind of recognition from the coursemate.

sometimes i really feel that i do so manythings for nothing
i will always remember what miss chin had say.
you better focus on your studies do not do so many things...
i think maybe what she had said is correct gua...
do so much things for nothing in return.
but i do hope it will train my patient.
and do help the poeple who are in the fire and water and get them out of the mist.

still thinking that i'm damn luckily to that i've passed my exam...
so nice...
no need to sit for annother one other than my acca exam.

it seems that lecture tend to ignore you when you already passed your exam.
mr tho was like very reluctant to tell me what was going to come out on the resit paper.
however, i do not wish to know anything about it at all.
haha...
not my business... i can forget all about it. since i already passed the internal exam.

miss chin is kind enough to arrange specially a session for those who did not passed the exam.

and ms ng was kindda pissed off that the question she had set for part b was so easy and yet student din get the correct answer.
i think is cause they have a bias mind towards ms ng gua.
i think she had given us much guidance for the final exam during her lecture hours.
but yet few attended the lecture.
is this the reason for not passing the subject.

and annother thing that i've encounter today is that the junior had requested for her paper to be reviewed (year 1 paper).
however in actual fact for the paper to be passed, the examination board and the lectures had already put in their every effort to pass the candidate.
however, if they do not want to pass you must be due to a specific reason.
firstly the first year paper is an internally assessed paper.
so this involved the 'guai lou' in managing and controlling the passing marks and passing percentage.
if they do not want to pass you plese save your money for resit.
it is waste of money and time to wait for the exam script to be remark.
i'm not totally sure la...
but this is just what i see heard and feel during my four years in tar college accounting la.

finally the suffer of having to wait for examination results is over.
i do not need to sit for annother tar college exam anymore.
kindda like the very lucky that the god had protected me for so long.
always think that if because of one's poor performance and have to loose the chance to graduate fast.
i think i would rather kill myself la.
thanks to all the lectures who had done their very very best to help me to passed my exam. and let me graduate 'sun sun li li'

before that i was always imagining what it would be if i really tergantung one paper.
i knoe i did one of my paper very very badly.
and i know the chance of passing that paper was as thin as the air at the top of himalaya's mountant.
luckily i passed la.

thanks a lot to everyone who had helped me for the two years in my advanced diploma.
it had been a very very exciting year for me.
and i do forsee annother exciting year ahead of me.
i would try my best to do my best ;)

i cannot stand other people to misunderstood me.
but on the other hand, i'm those type of poeple who are not reli concern to explain myself.
maybe because of this,
i lost a lot of chance,
maybe because of this,
i lost of things which is precious to me?

i think i'm a very very protective person.
that's why some poeple would think that i do not have any friends.
but in fact, anybody also can be my friend,
but just notice that i did not have a friend who is very close to me.

maybe i like to keep all my things to myself?
i think i have a close friend once,
and i lost her.
i do not tend to believe much on people.
i just try to be innocent but not to believe anyone.
try to independent and helpful.

just heard that my heart break again.
just dun wanna be misunderstood.
but dun wanna explain what i am thinking.
just let it break into pieces.

my friend just msn me and she told me that annother friend's dad passed away cos he commited suicide.
i'm shocked. and i do not know what and how to react.
i think this is not a good time for me to call the friend.
i think this is not a good time to do anything

i'm confused with what i should do.
and with somebody misunderstood me.
i have no say.
i have nothing to say.

today when i want to go out for dinner,
i suddenly notice that my pendant is gone??????

OMG... if it is drop anywhere on the street?
how can i get it back?
why and how stupid i am not to notice that my pendant is gone?
the pendant is suppose to be around the neck geh mah....
why it is gone d?
where had it been?

i quickily called home and check with my dad to see whether it is in the house so that i would not need to look all over the house for it.
and my dad's attitude was like dun care enough to look for me.
the pendant eventough is not really expensive but,
i seems to be very meaningful to me.

luckily it was found in my room.
i think it droped when i'm using the towel.
luckily i found it back.

it seems that i have no luck for this few days.
it seems that not much good things had happened on me.
what can i do?
just hope that this not so good luck won follow me when the exam come out.

if 'A'= Success,
then the formula is;

A= X+Y+Z

where:
X is work
Y is play
Z is 'KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT'

cartoon MV-guang liang's tong hua
found this on the friendster post.
not really very very geng but i think it is worth go and have a look at it.

lots of things happened this few days since i have not blog.

revision class... is very very intensive revision class.
everyday also got class.
but anyway i like daniel's class.
i found it quite amazing that the daniel's class is almost full.
and it seems to be as pack as farmer's class lo...
but to be as pack as farmer's class should be seems to be crazy gua.
and uncle daniel gives us a lot and a lot of question to look at.
live saving question
question on calculation.
basic preparation question for those who din attend his class.

today when i went out to take the bus, my water bottle drop on the road and it pecah.
then... that was the end of the story of a bottle's life and it ended up in the rubbish bin of city center.
kindda felt sorry for it gua...

today is the first day of paper 3.6 in ftms
and this is the first time that i notice that,
if a lecture is really good, he will attract so many people to come to attend his intensive
i think this is so called the star effect.
but oh no have to move to the other place to study d,
since it is so packed.

not happy?
maybe is caused i already think too much about a lot of things every day.

heard that there is someone who had gave up on her cima paper.
do not want to sit for the exam this sitting.
i really wonder why?
cos scared of failing the exam?
cos the feeling of scared that will fail?

always remember what kwai fatt said.
if you already give up that means you already admit you will fail.
if you do not give up and just keep on writing,
the possibility of passing would be very high.

you do not need 100% to passed the exam.
you only need 50% to pass the exam.
this is an very important concept which i should always remind myself.

really tired this few days.
have not have a good enough rest.
should i rest myself.
or just like exam... just keep on writting.

have not been posting anything this few days
feel tired
upset and
not really happy gua.

tire?
tired of wearing a mask to disguise myself

upset?
upset of letting myself to keep on acting happy in front of everyone,
but actually i really notice that i'm not really happy.

happy?
everyone thinks that i'm happy.
but the little voice inside myself is telling me,
i'm not okay...
i'm not okay...

just pray that i'm okay soon.
just pray that the feeling of upset will be gone sooner that i can dream of.

this morning when i wake up the sky was totally dark.
it was going to rain.
if i were to stay in the bed it should be a beautiful day for me.
but, unfortunately i'm suppose to go to college and continue revision.
and the sky started to rain.
rain and rain and rain.

it seems very tiring when you have to wake up and study so early while others are still in their bed fast to sleep.
but for me i do hope the hard work would have a sweet pay back in the end.

life seems challenging yet tiring.
and i seems not to be giving my self some good rest for a long time.
should i just take a break and after that it would improve the quality of studies?

already sacrificed a lot during this whole years.
hope that what i have done would be worth while in the end.

In conjunction with the Non-Aligned Movement Conference, a dress rehearsal will be conducted tomorrow - the 5th of May, between 8.30am & 9.30am and also from 7.30pm till 8.30pm. Affected areas are within the City Centre, Putrajaya and Kajang.
Take note in the morning, traffic heading south (KL to Putrajaya) will experience these closures while in the evening, traffic heading north ( from Putrajaya towards KL & the Palace of the Golden Horses ) will experience these road closures.

The entire stretch of Jln Sultan Ismail,
The junction of Jln Raja Chulan & Bukit Bintang
The junction Jln Bukit Bintang and Sultan Ismail
The junction of Jln Raja Abdullah & Sultan Ismail
The junction of Jln Tuanku Abdul Rahman & Sultan Ismail
The junction of Jln Imbi & Jln Sultan Ismail
The junction of Jln P.Ramlee & Sultan Ismail
The junction of Jln Raja Chulan & Sultan Ismail
Jln Pahang and Jln Kuching to Jln Mahameru
Jln Parlimen to Jln D'sara
Jln Tun Sambanthan to Jln Istana Baru
Jalan Travers to Jln Istana Baru
Jln Sg Besi - KL - S'ban Highway
The Federal Highway to Desa Petaling to Kuchai Lama towards the Sg Besi Toll Plaza
MRR2, the Kesas Highway and from the Puchong Link towards Sg Besi Toll
Bes Raya Highway towards the Palace of the Golden Horses
Mint Hotel towards the Sg Besi Toll
UPM Toll towards the Kajang Toll
And from S'ban to the Kajang Toll Plaza.
In Putrajaya and Kajang, the following roads will be closed to traffic:

The entire stretch of the SKVE - South Klang Valley Expressway starting from the Kajang Toll Plaza Intersection until Persiaran Persekutuan Putrajaya.
From Sg. Ramal to Putrajaya
The entire stretch of Persiaran Kemajuan, Bangi and the Kajang/Puchong stretch to Putrajaya
City traffic Police is advising motorist to use the following roads as alternatives:

Motorist coming the East Coast are advised to use the MRR2
While motorist from Jln Sentul and Jln Ipoh are advised to use Jln Segambut and Jln Pahang.
Motorist from Rawang, Jln Duta and Jln Segambut can use Jln Kuching and Jln Tun Perak and then head to the Segambut roundabout and use Jln Duta and Jln Parlimen to get to the city centre.
Motorist from Jln Ampang are advised to use Jln Tun Razak
While motorist from Cheras heading north can use the Connought Highway, and then head towards the Kerinchi Link and Jln Duta to get to the city.

'got snake boss sure got snake employee gua'...wahahahah

this is the paragraph i took from my boy boy's web site.
always think he dun like to blog.
and he weird until he talk to his blog.
and always complaint to his blog about me.
and always say...
'good nite my blog'
'bye, my blog'

weird guy...
and i really dun understand why this weird guy can become my bf.
mayb because i'm weird as well?
mayb mayb huh?

there are always times that things have been arranged and they did not went according to what you have planned.
if something happened and affected your plan,
what would you do?
how would you face it?
change is the things we need to face in our daily life.

time had became the scare resources of exam.
and exam is approaching nearer and nearer.
and there is always obstacales on the way to complete the impossible task.
but i do believe that there is nothing impossible in this world.
it just depend on how we wanna face it.
i wonder how would i face the situation which going to happened 2moro lur....

the sky is raining again. in this great afternoon.
it seems that the sky is welcome tolo's come back?
which he always say that the weather is always too hot in kk.
mayb lur.
okay.. gotta go...
the library computer lab is going to close soon.

there are many people in the college today.
do not really know the reasons of their present in the college.
they should be the fresheee.
and we are the oldshee...
and we are gonna be delivered to the tar muzium soon....
cos we had become tar's history lur...

tar had many changes since the time i first went in lur.
now the library have many many books to borrow, but i already have to leave the college lur.
so kasian....

today have the same roti canai again.
60 sen saje...
today the roti canai was jus nice.
very crispy and just serve it with sugar since i dun wanna put any curry since i'm not sure whether i can eat the curry or not.
so rather eat it with sugar.
have to eat roti canai again 2moro?
i wonder....

seems to work my plan to study...
at least i see some results everyday
rather than sitting there doing nothing.

trying to adapt very hard to the acca question style.
i think it is still okay for the sfm question.
but for the sbpd question and the acr question,
i found it difficult.
but i will try my best to link all the masb that i've learned together.

this afternoon try many question but seems to give up easily.
but see one question i try to lay out all the masb which is possible to answer the question.
when u able to compelete the question you felt satisfied.

there are more and more people in the library this week lur.
maybe they already feel the tension of exam approaching gua.
maybe studying in the library is the best way to focus yourself gua.

jus now there were fire works again.
the people in my housing area seems very weird
and they seems to be very rich some how.

they seems to like to play with fire works no matter wat is the holiday that is around the corner.
it does not seems to be a problem to them.
i really wonder why they could spend their money like that.

if they save the money for the fire works and do some charity work,
isn't it better?
at least he/she could make somebody's life better,
or even change a person's faith.
rather then spend it for something which might last for a few minutes only?

mayb it is just my thinking gua.

i'm suppose to study...
but suddenly realise some little card might be missing.
then look up and down for that particular card.
seems to be very funny and very c2pid gua.
i'm not sure about it.
finally found the card d.
i guess i can go back to study again

looking at the youngster now adays taking more and more expensive hand phone i'm wondering myself when would i get a new one?
or still stick to thesame old 3310
always tell myself i wanna change handphone, but always tell myself i dun have the money to aford a new hand phone for myself.
not like some poeple who are lucky where they could get a free hand phone from some one special to them.
but i think things that we get with our own money we would appreciate its value more.

i really wonder what is the reason behind spending money on luxury goods,
but you do not want to spend more money to enrich your brain with knowledge?
sometimes i really wonder about this question.
okay lur...
better start my revision again rather than thinking all the while.
i think i should listen to wen kang's program.
since the song are so nice and his talking sometimes make me can focus on my studies.
amazing huh?

八打灵再也29日讯-快捷通巴士（Rapid KL）新车资收费率涨幅达15％至20％，相等于调整20仙至50仙，最低车资90仙，从第一区到第一区涨20仙，到第二区涨30仙、到第三区涨40仙及到第四区涨50仙，第四区之后每公里涨7.2仙。
根据快捷通巴士私人有限公司公布的车资新收费率，依然采用分区收费制度，即第一区内部川行，价格从70仙涨至90仙，涨20仙；第一区到第二区从1令吉20仙涨至1令吉50仙，涨30仙；到第三区从1令吉60仙涨至2令吉，涨40仙；到第四区则从2令吉涨至2令吉50仙，涨50仙。
超过第四区以10仙计算
该公司总营运长（巴士组）莫哈末阿里指出，如果行程超过第四区，例如到巴生、森美兰州的芙蓉等地，则是每公里7.2仙，为了方便计算，车资以每公里10仙计算。
他说，自从2000年调整巴士车资之后，巴士车资维持至今，如今政府批准公共交通系统涨价，所以快捷通巴士也将采用新的车资收费率。
莫哈末阿里在新闻发布会上发表谈话，与会者包括总执行长莱恩维斯特。
月票6月采新收费率
另一方面，快捷通巴士5月份的月票价格，将根据旧有的车资收费率计算，直至6月才采用新收费率，月票价格的计算法，以一个月有26天乘搭双程巴士的车资计算，不过月票持有者可以在指定区域内无限次乘搭巴士。
而7岁至14岁的学生、60岁或以上的乐龄人士，则可以以半价购买车票。

yesterday i was eatting curry and the curry stained on my white colour shirt wor.
then i panic....
erm.. i think it should be difficult to wash the curry stain lur..
and my white shirt should be donated to the tsunami victim or to those people who are in need of the clothes lur...

luckily my dad bring extra clothes for me to change.
so, i do not need to dig a hole of the careless act that i've done.
then i was putting dynamo on the clothes hoping it would be amazingly coming off the shirt.
but it seems it does not help much.
but the uncle say cannot wash the shirt immediately after putting on dynamo geh...
must let it soak...
and the stain will come out geh...

then i jus put the dynamo on places where the shirt was stain and praying that the stain will be gone by the time i wash it lur.
i put it in the plastic beg and put it in my dad's car,
to prevent me from remembering about the shirt thing.
since i'm not going home so soon.

and when i came home, i wanted to wash my clothes, to my surprise,
the stain were all gone,
and the blue blue thing of the dynamo also all gone already.
it's just like the blue blue liquid of dynamo had eaten all the curry stain...
'gon gon jeng jeng' .

thank god la... my white shirt do not need to be abandon lur.

todays seems to a very aimless day for me.
din know what to study.
cos most of the standard which are simple and i think that it is necessary for me to reinforce it into my memory.

i think i would start wit the question next week.
rather than aimlessly studying the text book.

today when i went out to buy sugar cane water during noon time,
there was 3 dogs at the basket ball field and the dog chase me for no reasons.
why? i do not know so no point of asking me for a reason.
the dog was like those very very fierce dog and then they just look like those in the movie resident evil.
like they already being infected by the virus and they had gone mad.
the dog came near me and bark at me fiercely.
at that moment i was really scared that it would really jump up and bite me.
i think of running away.
but there is a little voice in my head saying don't run!!!
i just stand there and stared at the dog for a second and jus walk toward the small gate of the college.
i think maybe if i really did run, the dog might chase me and then i might really got bitten
thanks god.

today again nobody come to college to study.
and the library is seems to be my big big study room.
then i discovered something,
the college had bought the latest version of the acca books and they have just finished catalogue it.
just in time for me to take a look for the 2.5 study text.
to see what are the main changes .
it seems that the main changes is the ifrs 3 on the business combination.

it seems to be quiet a boring day for me la.
however, now have to start do revision for 3.7 lur.
if not i think i'll be wasting the nite again.

din eat at the vegetarian restaurant again cos not in time for me to eat.
since by the time hui ling send me to the lrt station it was about 5.15 already.

then luckily myself was just in time for the lrt which came just when i step on to the place where we wait for the lrt.
it seems the lrt was shaking today.
and it seems to arrive at kl at a very fast speed.
faster than the usual time.
but it seems very very shaky wor...

then when i went down from the lrt station where there are a lot of poeple,
i saw the free sim card team again.
promoting celcom.
sometimes i really wonder is there such things call free in the world?

then i walk pass the back lane of the streets where everybody also walking... trough the streets to ftms.
and the uncle was standing there in front of ftms waiting to kacao the students.
i think he wanted to kacao me...
but i just walk straight passed him to annother lorong.
i think he must have wonder whether he had seen the wrong person.
nope....
but, i'm on my way to mc orange to submit the test which micheal had given us during his pre-course notes.
unfortunately there is no answers from micheal yet. but we would only get the answer when we attend the intensive class.
erm... wat a waste.

then, since there is not much time left,
i decided to take mc donalds today.
as usual mc egg and also the apple pie.
why? eat mc only?cos later joo is going to pick me back home since today daddy have something to do.and we are going to kepong for dinner together.
the employee there was kindda slow and they have not really good memory since that they could not really remember what the customers order and have to look at the screen again and again to pack the order for the customers.
and since i have to wait for my mc egg to be ready, i was wondering why i do not have free drinks to be served? so bias geh...
is it i do not pay enough money?
cheh...bias geh!!

today notice a lot of people from the class are taking mc donalds.
it seems to be a strategic location for mc donalds to open its outlet near ftms and also near the putra and star lrt station.

notice that the gardian selling coke light again. then decided to buy one to enjoy.
but i think i should really quit softdrink lur.
not so good for the health lur.
but i still enjoy drinking coke light than other drinks lur.

later at night finally see a guy standing in front of ftms waiting to pick me up.
then, we went to kepong to enjoy our dinner.
today is thursday.
the shop is selling prawn mee...
ooo.. gosh i like the prawn mee...
every time i visit the shop i would sure like to taste the prawn mee which is one of the famous dishes of the shop.
the shop is consider one of my favourite restaurant in kl for vegetarian food.
i would just feel very satisfied after eating the vegetarian prawn mee.
what an enjoyable time for me 2nite.

today's progess is better than what i'm expecting... enjin is starting to run lur... nice man.
it's kindda unbelievable for me lur.
i've started my revision wit the 3.7 paper where i did 3 simple question relating to CAPM and portfolio as will as the question on corporate governance.
and in the afternoon i did the question given by mr micheal for paper 3.5 which i have to submit during the evening.
when i'm doing the question, the sleepy virus came to attack me..
erm.. but the satisfactory of finishing the question was quite good.
and looking at the three question that i've did during the moring it is also a very very nice reward for myself.
i think my enjin is starting to move again lur.

today the three class rep from the course hui ling, shu fan and also wei kok came to the library to start the opening ceremony of their audit study group.
i think everything went fine with them since it is the first day they start their revision on audit. they are catching up with the style of group discussion. and adjusting themselves for better preparation during the next group discussion.

then at the end... i went to 'kacao' them, since i've completed my test for the 3.5 paper. and i keep on walk back and forth and back and forth and keep on telling them 'hi... i'm back... hi... it's me again....'
and the hui ling was like keep on asking me whether wan to eat biscuits.
i think its her way to ask me not to disturb gua.
but my intention is just to let them relax a bit for the tension of studying for the acca examination.

then when i came back from lunch i notice there are a lot of chinese book displayed in the first floor of the library.
there was the book by chai zhi heng the author who wrote the book with the title 'di yi chi qing mi jie chu' (means first close encounterment) actually i like his style of writing and the style of describing things around him.

then i think i should be either mad or crazy. i went to borrow two books by chai zhi heng. and i'm suppose to finished it when i'm preparing for my acca?
erm... just assume that it would help me to pass my time while i'm bored with all the studying and just help me release my tension a bit lur?

then later i went to the toilet and it started to rain.
and i have to walk further for toilet and notice that the toilet was closed.
luckily there is annother toilet around/nearby.

then the glass near the entrance/exit of the library was broken.
when i was standing outside the library....
i saw the floor full with broken glasses and also the floor with quite a number of blood stain.
the next time i went out, the blood stain was gone and the glasses was cleaned up.

it was a rainy day again and as usual.
but i think it is good for me to study in the library.
can give myself good constrain where i force myself to the limits which i can achieve.

erm... went to the same old vegetarian restaurant again.
today to my surprise there are two gang of guai lou there.
ordered choped meat with 'ho fan'
today the speed of them serving the meal was quite fast and the serving was kindda heavy taste for me.
it was quiet okay geh...
but seems kindda weird having to eat alone again lur.

looking at the guai lou and how they used the chop sticks it really seems very weird and ackward to me lur.
and i heard the guai lou was talking about this is the best curry that i have ever had in my life.
oh my god....

monday i went to kl and have dinner alone at one of the kl vegetarian restaurant.
something happened

i ordered 'lo mee' for my dinner but they cooked 'sang mee' (those type of wan tan mee but being fried.
i was kindda upset since it was not what i wanted.
but time was running out since i have only about fifteen minutes to finished my dinner.
so decided not to alter the order.
i was wondering the boss would give me some discount since they make the mistake.
but unfortunately they did not do so.
so upset huh....
ai... forget about it.
since it is the only vegetarian shop that cooks nice food around the place where i take my night class.
i do really wish that the vegetarian shop that i previously visit did not closed down lur.
i really still do not know what had happened to the shop huh.
i think i should do something to find out someday.
but i do not really wanna eat the mc donald lur.
since i seems un healthy and i like something like noodles and not fast food or western food.

then there is this indian guy who most probably is a drug addict where he come in to the shop and show sign language where it means he wanna beg for food.
then the lady boss of the shop as the worker to cook fried rice for him.
and the fuller wait and wait and keep on doing the samething again and again.
begging for food.
and one of the employee where she serve the food geh, she was quite upset with the lady boss decision to help the fuller.
she keep on mumbbling 'kick him out of the shop, don't give him anything, he will be coming back again and again, i saw he took the biscuits from the selves....'
the fuller was quiet not patient lur.
he keep on walking nearer and nearer. to the customers.
and it seems that he had chased away some of the customers who wished to enter the restaurant.
and at the end they told him that they fried rice for him to eat. but the fuller keep on asking for RM 2.
the boss say they dun have RM2 but have fried rice.
the fuller was kindda upset and he walked away.
they all say the guy should be a drug addict and he wanna get money from people so that he could buy some drug.
actually i was a bit worry when i walk out of the restaurant.
i looked around to make sure that the fuller was not around then only i walk toward my tuition center to have my class.

it has been some times since i last blog.
i'm suppose to start my study again.
everybody are still in their holiday mood.
and trying to recover from the internal exam hurt.
everybody is telling me that they would start their preparation for the external examination by next week.
but i keep telling and reminding myself there are not much time left.
studying 3 subject at one goal is terrible.
but i do not want to scared others la.
since my expectation is high and my requirement towards myself is very high also.
i do really think that i'm really really presuring myself to my limits.
and when i see the time table which i planed for myself to do the revision, i just noticed that i have not left any time for entertainment like movies, shopping etc.
is it i'm giving myself too much preasure?
is it too demanding for myself?
can i take this presure?

oh... i'm now in the college library.
using the internet facilities.
there are not many people in the college since it is the semester holidays and those poeple who are around the college are those who are taking form six and also a-level.
campus is like a death town/city... so quiet.
i do not know what i wanna do.
but i just keep pushing myself and always motivate myself.

now.
it is starting to rain outside.
hopefully it would stop by the time i wanted to go to kl for marty last class.
raining... and moody....
i think it would not stop myself form moving towards achieving the dreams of qualifying in june 2005 ;)

i'm wondering what is the motivation?
everybody have not start their revision yet?
why should i start now?
shouldn't i be enjoying my life now?
why make my life so misserable?
keep on fighting in my brain.
whether to study or not?

but i think it is better to start now than to regret later.
maybe i should take kwaifatt's advice to have a look at klcc and then imagine when i can afford to buy things at the shops which are kindda expensive.
but i'll still be stingy so.. maybe i will not consider to spend too much on clothing.

end of bull shit 1

the 'jie jing' of question and answer about tax finally come out.
it is the 'sui wu jing nang' by Dr Choong Kwai Fatt.
when you buy the china press please go to the special edition call 'sui wu jing nang'
you flip to the middle page and you can see many names and among them is my name
'tee chong'
the middle page have my face also but not clear.

if you are interested about the question and answer from Dr. Choong Kwai Fatt and you could not grab hold of the china press in time.
do not worry, cos you can grab it easily online please visit:-
Q & A about income tax
and you could easily find a lot of question (mana mana question you name it you can find the answer)

hope you would find it interesting...
but this is only available in traditional chinese character.

friday went to watch the pacifier wit jean and her classmate
the movie was quiet funny but not those very very good type but it's still worth watching la.

then there was a photography exibition about tsunami at the mid valley there.
i was thinking about whether is it we are too rich with what we posses and we do not know how to appreciate what we own.
what we posses we do not treasure it.
and we always have the idea of
'dapat betis mahu peha'?

i think knowing how to treasure things that we own is the very very important element in our life i we must practice it every day.

sometimes i wonder myself...
joo joo told me that his 'heng dai'/brother is chasing a gal who got boy boy.
he is using his spana to chase the gal.

i wonder how.
but for me, if i'm the guy i would rather not to do that.
why?
because i would always have the 'shadow' that my gal gal that is being spana by me.
and i would wonder whether my gal gal would be spana by annother guy next time?

sometimes i wonder if i'm the gal what would be my choice?
cos i'm still young.. it's still okay for me to choose what is best for me?
what about the time that is spent?
what about the 'gan qing'
is it all being expensed one off to the income statement as a current year lost/profit?

but love and relationship cannot have reliable measurement.
no fair value in the market.
therefore could not be compared.
but i really wonder... what would the relationship be. i wonder how

what if the problem between the guy and the gal exist now.
and you have sucessfully let the gal become your gal friend.
then later you found that you all are not suit for each other.
then?
the gal go back to the ex- boy friend?
erm.. i think it would be a very very big hurt lur.

i'm just concern saje.
but i think if you really like a person,
i think you should tell the person no matter what would the ending be.

there is a virus in MSN where it is an auto message where it sends something like a link to you,
please do not accept or click on it.
cos if not you would be in big big trouble!!!!
and the virus would be an auto message which will infect everyone who using msn in your contact list.
and now the virus had advance that it ask you to look at it.
it would be a message like
lol look at this....
and it will follow by a very very strange link where it contains your e-mail address.
please please please do not open it.
this will infect your computer and all your friends on msn.
i think it is a spyware.
and antivirus have no effect on this thing.
luckily the day before i encounter with the virus i have downloaded the microsoft anti spyware.
and luckily it had been blocked by the anti spyware.
if not i think i would not be online for now.

this is the grape biscuits that i'm looking all over the town for it 

today went out wit joo joo to one utama.
this is the first time that both of us go to one utama for shopping.
wore the shoe which is not really confortable for walking.
and during the time i bought the shoe i found that my left foot is slightly bigger than the right one.
it does not caused any problems previously cos i always buy sport shoe which is very very big size.
the shoe actually not very nice to walk.
and i dunno why i wore it.
mayb cos the joo joo complaint that i seems very shorty.

actually we have nothing special that we wanna buy.
joo come and fetch me at about noon and we went out for lunch in jinjang.
i was expecting to eat mee geh... but unfortunately there wasn't any mee served at the shop so have to settle for the mix rice la.

actually i was not familiar with the road to one utama and then just made a lot of wrong turning.
luckily it does not cost much
just realised that it's much more convienient to pay the toll with the touch and go card.
and i think if wanna go out to those shoping complex in kl on weekends or public holiday, we should go very very early as early as 10 something.
this is because, if not, you would waste a lot of time looking for parking space.
i really wonder how much time we had spent to look for the parking space.
and also dun need to think of going to places like ikano, ikea, the curve and tesco.
why? cos the traffic to find a car park is horrible.

actually not knowing what and where to shop we just simply walk around in one utama
then we wanted to find secret receipe to enjoy the cheese cake.
mana tahu the secret sudah naik harga.
erm... every thing already increase its price.
how about? the money that we would earn?

then we just really walk all around and walk with no motive.
before i wanna go home,
i went to jusco to find the grape biscuits cos really miss it and
really wanted to eat it very much.
look for it for many places liao. cant seem to find it leh!
finally let me found the grape biscuits.
find it for so many places already...
finally found it lur.

actually i enjoy the day lur.
but i think i still have not enough sleep after the exam leh

today after exam we went to pizza hut near carfour in wangsa maju to enjoy ourself a bit lur.
then the gal call siew heoh hoh...
she not only wanna show off her new hp and also wanna show off her new relationship lur...
she always like tat geh wanna play mysterious and like something very serious had happened lur.
erm... wat should it be my reaction?
i think i should be happy for her gua.
after being single for about 3 years, finally found someone that she can trust and also can see him as her boy friend.

always think that she is a very very choosy person.
but after being hurt so many times definately have to be choosy gua.
if not? if being hurt one more time who's gonna be responsible for the happening of this event?

i always wonder gals like guys to give very very expensive stuff?
wonder about this matter a lot of times leh.
to let people envy that you have such good boy friend that he is so good that he buy expensive stuff for you?
does love need to use materiality concept as accounting does?

in our life i think we always excercise materiality concept.
different people would have different definition of the materiality concept.
and we still see our friends using materiality concept gua...

劲歌金曲(medley)

歌手:古巨基 专辑:劲歌新曲

第一章:天大的爱
爱你:
爱你我管不了是祸
未想过是为何能爱着你苦也未去躲

爱是永恒:
有着我便有着你真爱是永不死
穿过喜和悲跨过生和死

我的骄傲:
see me fly i am singing in the sky
假使我算神话因你创更愉快

爱是最大权利:
凭我彻底的勇气爱是最大权利
不理场面不伟大我共你始终同游生死
还有哪一种结尾花光一切在乎你
没有想过太多我只需要你

恋爱大过天:
恋爱大过天
想不想也日夜怀念连甜梦也不够甜
怎么闪同学始终会遇见

第二章:讲情
shall we talk:
shall we talk shall we talk
就当重新手拖手去上学堂

哪有一天不想你:
我带着情意一丝丝凄怆
许多说话都仍然未讲
纵隔别遥远怀念对方
悲伤盼换上再会祈望

越吻越伤心:
越问越伤心明明无余地再过问
明明知道衷心一吻会有更亲厚质感

我说过要你快乐:
我说过要你快乐让我担当失恋的主角
改写了剧情无言地飘泊

假如让我说下去:
我想哭你可不可以暂时别要睡
陪着我像最初相识我当时未怕累
但如果但如果说下去或者

情深说话未曾讲:
我有说话未曾讲你这刹那在何方
如何能联系上与你再相伴在旁
如晨光

第三章:日月星辰风雨潮
太阳星辰:
太阳星辰即使变灰暗
心中记忆一生照我心

爱如潮水:
我的爱如潮水爱如潮水将我向你推
紧紧跟随爱如潮水她将你我包围

蓝雨:
冷冷雨 wo...
没焦点因找不到你
冷冷雨低泣彷佛要等你经过

爱如潮水:
答应我你从此不在深夜里徘徊
不要轻易尝试放纵的滋味
你可知道这样会让我心碎

风继续吹:
风继续吹不忍远离
心里亦有泪不愿流泪望着你

让一切随风:
各种空虚冷冷冷吹起吹起风里梦
过去的心火般灼热今天已变了冰冻

如风:
来又如风离又如风
或世事通通不过是场梦
人在途中人在时空
相识也许不过擦过梦中

约定:
就算你壮阔胸膛不敌天气
两鬓斑白都可认得你

第四章:两个人
现代爱情故事:
别离没有对错要走也解释不多
现代说永远已经很傻
随着那一宵去火花以消逝
不可能付出一生那么多

相爱很难:
也许相爱很难
就难在其实双方各有各寄望怎么办
要单恋都难
受太大的礼会内疚却也无力归还

谁令你心痴:
darling i want you 你竟不知
默默向风呆企去等心中戏子
曾无限次欲话我知却也停止

相逢何必曾相识:
同是天涯沦落人在这伤心者通道上同行
也许不必知道我是谁
无谓令你令你令你令你令你令你令你令你
令你令你令你令你令你令你令你令你令你

教我如何不爱她:
如何可以不爱她
莫非生命只配有一个他
到了没法相处再去记它好处
凭回忆制造这自欺的笑话

温柔的你:
随时日在远飞难舍弃
每次看见冷冬到访的你
那年冬天两心遇上没逃避

第五章:浪情歌
谁明浪子心:
可以笑的话不会哭
可相知的心哪怕追逐
可惜每次遇上热爱
无法使我感觉我终于遇上幸福

友情岁月:
来忘掉错对来怀念过去
曾共渡患难日子总有乐趣
不相信会绝望不感觉到踌躇
在美梦里竞争每日拼命进取

飞女正传:
世界将我包围誓死都一齐
壮观得有如悬崖的婚礼
也许生于世上无重要作为
仍有这种真爱会留低

第六章:神爱世人
少女的祈祷:
祈求天地放过一双恋人怕发生的永远别发生
从来未顺利遇上好景降临如何能重拾信心

神啊救救我:
神啊救救我吧一把年纪了一个爱人都没有
孤独是可怜的如果没爱我人生是黑白的

爱神:
僧人都不喜爱我神你不欢喜我迫我入了魔
爱侣几百万谁料我蠢得竟可重覆去犯错

完结章:好心一早放开我
小城大事:
吻下来豁出去
这吻别似覆水再来也许要天上团聚

献世:
眼泪还是留给天抚慰
你是前度何必听我吠

爱与诚:
别再做情人做只猫做只狗不做情人
做只宠物至少可爱迷人
和你不瞅不睬最终只会成为敌人

好心分手:
好心一早放开我
好心一早放开我从头努力也坎坷
通通不要好过来年岁月那么多
为继续而继续没有好处还是我
若注定有一点苦楚不如自己亲手割破

谁愿放手:
谁得到过愿放手
曾精彩过愿挽留
年年月月逝去越是觉得深爱你



劲歌金曲(medley)

erm... studying in tar college library for about one week plus lur!

keep wondering why those irritating tar college sot guys keep on doing those rude and no manners things.(i.e. move away my things on the table that i've book to sit and sit down on other people's place and make a lot of noise)

i really wonder god why those guys are so ignorant and i really pretend to be angry and they just pretend that nothing happened.

i really wanna set up a boarder telling everybody that this is reserve for acca study please do not come over and please stay away and be quiet!!!

thank god this is my last day to stay at library to study.

i'll be back next week lur!!! back to prepare for the one and half month more exam!!!

wonder how strong is my determinants. wonder how hardworking will i be.

but before anything happened... just let myself to enjoy a four days holiday first la!!!

herm.... kwai fatt is in wah fm again lur.

actually found that myself learn a lot of value from him

today he said a lot of things about what he see and hear from his 4 tour around malaysia for the awareness for the self assessment for income tax.

he mention about the chinese hawker /'xiao fan' marry the wife is not because of the love but marry the wife is because the wife is the free or cheap labour/philipino maid. he say hah you marry your wife not because of love but because of want her as cheap labour?

he also mention that the parent love the children so much that they take out all their EPF money to pay for the installment for the car or house. The child should really appreciate what the parent had done for them and repay them by treating them well and also spend more time with them.

mayb the chinese people in malaysia have too many bad habbit lur. and sometimes they like to listen to other poeple what they do and if they have done something that you have not done, the 'kiasu' attitude that it is within the ourself would have been exposed lur.

always learn a lot of things from kwai fatt.

but sometimes i think he is very very funny lur.but do not know how to describe about him lur!

anyone interested to get the question and answer about hints and tips about tax you can get a copy of the china press at 25 april.

i've lost my water bottle once again.left it at dunno anywhere.

this morning, woke up and want to go to the library to study and i just realised that my water bottle was not to be seen around. no where to be found.

did i left it at jean's car? but i remember i took everything out of her car before i left ma. so should be nothing liao geh.so decided to sms her and try and ask to confirm whether i really so big head prawn and left the water bottle there.but unfortunately the water bottle was not with jean

then oh my god where have my water bottle been gone? oh no i should have left it at the exam hall. luckily today got go to college and study and can go and find it.

when i go to college there were guard there guarding the venue and i've ask permission to enter the exam venue to get my water bottle back.

oh thank god it is there!!!!my poor-poor water bottle kena left out and ignore by me everytime.

already lost if for many many times liao.

thanks god again for bringing my water bottle back to me lur!!

today went to see my teacher which is also one of the mentor of my life lur.

suddenly felt teacher/lao shi already become very very old liao.

suddenly think liao shi become smaller and smaller in my eyes.

reminds me that there is a long long time that i have never pay visit to my teacher lur.

then my lao shi also say wan pay me to give her tuition on how to use internet. but for me teaching people is just like helping others it does not mean we really need anything in return geh.

sometimes we are very unconcious about the things which is happening around us and we seems to see what we want to see and care about what we want to care.sometimes i just feel that this world seems very cruel with this kind of people surrounding us.

weird it seems that time is running out lur.

but it seems that there is still a lot of things for me to study

wondering how i would face the exam tomorrow

the library just up graded their computer into p4 but with the oem still using win 98 just feel weird mayb it is because the licience for win 98 is cheaper compared to others since it is already obselete?
what is the fair value the company is going to recognise as an intangible assets?
oh my god i'm crazy between fair value deprival value minimum lease payment
bla bla bla.... dunno what it is...
finance lease, operating lease.
forencis audit corporate governance
esop ifrs 2

please please get all stuck in my head and get lost by the end of tommorow.

cos i need to get all the poter's five forces and also handy .... bla bla bla bla

into my head

the later need to get m& m into my head. i think my pc is going to over work lur.

so terrible!!!!

just hope this night mare is going to be over soon!!!!