all the pig pig and bear bear that are suppose to belong to me or my friends Posted by Picasa

convo photo

actually it's quiet tiring for me to look up and down for ways to upload my convo photo.
actually i'm kinda giving up to upload those photo.
anyway guys and gals if your interested to view my convo photo,
please visit the following site
t0m@k0's space

if you wanna request for a particular photo,
please contact me trough my e-mail
teechong_yap@yahoo.com
i'll send you the photo and also please give me ur e-mail.
sometimes there are things that we are afraid of.
sometimes sometimes we have to realised that things that we are afraid of are actually nothing.. and we should not have the fear of doing those things.
fear is just something that come from your heart and your mind
sometimes in life there are always regret.
but i remember the cima lecture clement said that at the very moment the decision is made, the decision is always your best decision available.
i do believe that there should be no regrets in life because you only live once.
no matter how much you regret time would turned back.


my friend told me she regreted she took the wrong package for the convo photo.
and she wanna confirm with me again the package and stuff.
sometimes when we realised that we made the wrong move we would not blame ourself.
we would blame the people and things around us.
we would start telling the victim story.

actually in fact we are the victim of what we choose to do.
whether we wanna live as a live of a victim or a person who is full with happinest,
it's depend on whatever we are choosing.

i believe that if it is to be, it's all up to me.
it's not up to other people.
對的時間,遇上對的人,是一生幸福;

對的時間,遇見錯的人,是一場心傷;

錯的時間,遇到錯的人,是一段荒唐;

錯的時間,遇到對的人,是一聲嘆息。

read this on a website think that it's meaningful so i post it here

translated:-
meet the right person at the right time is happiness
meet the wrong person at the right time is an heart break
meet the wrong person at the wrong time is crazy and nuts
meet the right person at the wrong time is a sound of sigh

原谅

原谅
也许有些人很可恶,有些人很卑鄙
而当我设身为他想象的时候,我才知道:他比我还可怜。。。
所以请原谅所有你见过的人,好人或者坏人。

i've taken it from bee's site...
thinks it's meaningful and suitable for me to ponder...
so decided to put it here.
sorry to friends who wanna post things in my chatter box..
it's down again.. dunno what's the problem.
whether it's mine or theirs?
be patient for me..
wait for some days.
mayb i'll update things later

this is my convo flower from francis Posted by Picasa

convo flower from my mom very very pinkiesh rite?the berry are specially ordered to put inside the bouqet... Posted by Picasa

mr goh joo joo.. my bf lo.. Posted by Picasa
suddenly feel that i miss my grandpa a lot and a lot.
suddenly feel that i really miss the time i spent with him.

always act like let people think that i never grow up.
just that i really miss my grandpa and the time i spend with him.
just wonder god would wanna take his live so soon as he is such a caring and loving person to everyone in the family?

sometimes i really wonder why there is generation gap?
why we always tell poeple that our father do not understand me la.. bla bla bla bla...
i had a bad relationship with my family member la...
sometimes i just feel that live is too short.
so no matter how hard or how pain your family member hurt you,
all you should do is just forgive them and give them all the love you can give to them.
no matter how you cannot erased the fact that they are your family member.
the things that you can change is only how you want to treat them.

is whether you wanna give them 1,2,3 or 4
1 - turn your back around (stranger)
2 - just look at them (ordinary friend)
3 - shake their hand (friend)
4 - hug them (buddy)

it's all about how you wanna rate people in your life.
sometimes you might really wanna rate them as 1 and just ignoring them and even hope they are out of your lives and hope that you would never ever see them again.

however, everything you do, there is a mirror.
if you rate poeple 1, have you ever think that there would also be poeple who will rate you as one as well?

sometimes we tought time will heal the wound.
but eventually the wound might be difficult to heal.
but there would alway be a scar there.
sometimes i feel that when people are complaining that they are very cham ar.. this and that, please just open your ears and borrow them your ears for the moment.
just let them express themself.
sometimes is just good to listen.

sometimes i reallised that things that i do not like about it i would show faces.
but somehow i feel that if other poeple do not want to follow your way of doing things, just let it be.
practice the culture of letting go.

eventough we would still tell ourself that it's easy to talk than taking action.
but sometimes and somehow you should learn to let go.

this coming saturday is my convocation day.
i would be returning my gown on the monday morning.
my friend kept on asking me whether wanna take photo with lecture.
somehow, i think it would be nice to take photo with lectures,
even we are without the graduation gown.

i suddenly feel that it is childish to purposely wear the convocation gown and take photo with the lectures after the convocation day.
i do not know why i suddenly have this feeling.

remember my mom always told me,
people acting like crazy you don't follow them also.
but usually i do not listen to them.
however, this time,
i feel that it's too acting to purposely go and meet the lectures and take photo with them.
i do hope that i am able to contact all the lectures to be around on saturday so that they could take picture with us after our convocation.

however, everything is perfect during the planning stage,
but in actual fact things do not always go as how we want it to be.
have to prepare for the unexpected event rite?

Malaysian style

the all time malaysian style.

today i went to college to collect my gown as this coming saturday will be my convocation day.
actually i reach the place at around 8.15am and i eventually slip in the line to get a better place hoping that i would be able to get the gown faster.

erm.. first thing happened is erm.. the person who i dun reli like is standing behind me, and i bulat bulat cut his que..(haha i'm bad i'm bad you know it)

the standing there waiting for almost an hour before the place open.
the line was becoming more and more and more group and group and more poeple are lining up in front of our que.

then the person who i dun like said that he go to the front to talk wit friends and the fuller never appear again. maybe he already slip into the line in front and never return or he dun like to see me haha...

and we line and line and line up until about 10 finally we almost reach the front.
and the crowd in front of us is like taking 3-5 lines and the indian lady in charge is asking everyone to make only one line.
and this had made the line longer and longer.

finally until 10.30 it's almost my turn and the bunch of guys and gals in front were making two lines. the indian aunty was kindda upset and ask those people to line up in one line.
i refused to give them to line in... i think i'm bad.

when it's finally my turn, i notice there is something wrong.
the indian aunty told me that my friend's deposit and also the form is not with her.
OMG... do i have to line up all over again to get the gown for my friend?
oh no if like tat i would be pengsan over and over again.
luckily the aunty say you do not need to line up again. just come and take the gown.

i have to run all the way to admission to get the form and deposit.
then run back to submit the form and deposit.
on my way, i think i drop someone's ticket and also the invitation card.
my friends was saying that who's card is that?
if nobody i take geh la.
then i say dun be so bad take other people's thing.
then i straight away went to take the gown for my friend already.
dunno whether they really took the invitation card from the people or not.
but it's already non of my business and nothing related to me already lo.
erm trying the gown see whether it fits on me or not.
this time i'm clever.
i took size S.
cos the convo gown eventough it's size S when u wear it on it would seems like size XL to u if your very very small size.

after taking the gown,
we went to tbr to have lunch.

the jean yee send lay ching and her friend to the lrt station.
lay ching is currently working in the fraud department for citi bank and the pay is about 2000++ but the work is boring and you have to face the computer for long hours.
long working hours. looking at the transactions to detact any suspecious transaction.
i cannot imagine myself working with this kind of job.

later me and jean went to one u for movie
since it is weekdays there was not many people around.
but the parking lot seems a bit full.
however we still managed to get a nice parking space.

jean suggested that we go watch the movie call stealth.
and after we bought the tickets it was still quiet early
we went for a walk.
i was looking for the shop which kononya from the radio advertisment is brought in from hk by the famous dj chan fong.
but when i walk inside the shop, the feeling of the dress of the shop not really suit my taste.

then about 1pm we went to watch movie.
we wanted to buy the pop corn when we are inside the cinema,
but there wasn't any pop corn selling inside the cinema.
therefore we have to buy the pop corn outside the cinema lo.
cham... but since we buy the pop corn combo large, they giv us one can of drinks free.

then we go in to watch the movie.
we sit inside the cimena for about half an hour to watch all the advertisement and preview and stuff.
as when we are thinking the show should be starting,
suddenly there was nothing on the screen.
totally dark.
me and jean yee was waiting patiently and eating up all our pop corn and stuff.
when we already finished our pop corn,
the show is not ready yet.
the show went on and off the screen later.
and we totally dunno wat's the show about.

finally the personnel of gsc went us due to technical problem... bla bla bla bla... please go outside and get your refund.
oh yes can get refund.
and then me and jean yee walk very fast out to the counter and claim back our refund

we give them back the ticket and we notice that they actually pay us back rm10 while we only pay rm6 for the movie. wow untung and get free pop corn lo..
haha...
fast fast cabut.
when we already go down, we notice that we went to the wrong exit and we went back the the gsc floor again and go out from there.

what an frustrating but interesting experience for me;)
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please go to the above website to vote for 全 球 华 语 歌 曲 排 行 榜 颁 奖 典 礼 which is going to be held in malaysia in the month of september....
told myself to clean up the messy room but my room still in a mess.
seems that i do not really realised my promise to myself rite?
i have a weird habbit about cleaning up.
i like to clean up during the middle of the nite.
seems that i have better mood doing that in the middle of the night.
weirdo me...
still have a lot of things which is pending.
my laudry...

2moro going to college to collect the gown for my convo.
yeah it has been a long long time since i had gone back to the college.
miss the lectures neh...
hope they are free to chat.
but it seems that this week they are busy.
why?
they are busy preparing exam scripts which is gonna used to sit for the september exam.
i think it would be a suitable time to sneak in and curi tengok the scrips
haha...
what a wonderful idea....
haha....

seems that i'm going a bit hair wayered.
crazy.. jus wanna express myself.
after a long long time not blogging.
just wanna split out my feelings and fill in the space on my blog
haha...
after so many months and days already....
my room still in a mess
too shy for me to post the picture of my room
cos it's really really in a mess
what to do?
i'm a lazy person.
have arranged too many program for myself.
and time is the limited resources

long long time never update my blog already
yeah... working life had used up most of your time.
but i think the thing which is more time consuming is pak tuo gua.
cos when you are with your bf or gf you would rarely think of blogging.

been to many shopping centres lately.
mid valley, sogo, carefour wangsa maju, one utama, tesco puchong, metro prima kepong.....
shopping for groceries
gosh...
i miss going to kl and shop at the book shop like popular.

normally people always complain about your this and that,
they would always say why your room so messy la...
why you do not tidy it la....
i would say why don't you help me to tidy it?
they would say you tidy yourself la.
then they would 'tambah'
if i tidy ar.. i would throw all these things away your 'rubbish' will gone half.

but for me... i think i'm really is a person who is very 'zhong gan qing'
i really prefer to keep things which other people thinks it is rubbish rather than throw it away and regret for live.

yesterday my uncle called and ask me to lend him a bag for camping.
and i'm searching all over the house for a bad which is suitable and
suddenly i just realised that i've so many bag which i carry to college.
i'm questioning myself.
whether i wanna start throw them away?
they have many many memory for me.
they have spend all of their life with me studying and stuff.

suddenly that i've think of i have the money to buy the bag.
and yet there are still children out there who do not have money to even go to school.
should we appreciate what our parents had done?
should we appreciate what our parents had given us?
and be thankful and stop complaining that our parents do not understand what we are thinking.
how about us?
do we understand how they think?
do we really care about them?
we always complaint about others din treat us like this and that...
and how about ourself? do we do the same thing?

twin brothers wit the dirty cat face Posted by Picasa

small little gift from my boss sarah... i heard it is made by herself... nice and cool leh? Posted by Picasa
it has been a long long time since i last blog.
it is not really nothing for me to blog,
it is just that i'm too tired to blog.

i wanted to stop for the part time job.
sometimes i feel not worth for my effort to do the job
but for the sake of reposibility i have to finished keying in the invoice for the company for the month of june.
E kept asking me to finished keying in invoice for the month of june.
i know i'm already being an expert to key in all the invoice and do not need to refer to anything to know the product code.
but however, i surender.

things cannot be finished.
i dunno.
sometimes i just do not like the way they beg u to stay back and finished all the things.
is not about money.
sometimes i just think that i'm wasting my precious time.
they would tell you, you stay back got money to earn ma...

the problem is money is not my problem ma...
it the value for my time spend there is not equavalent to the things that i wanted to learn.

most of the things i have touched and looked.
and have already tidy up somethings which is quiet messy
and sometimes i already have no eyes to see them.

lesson learn from the company:-
1. your senior would act like they are very superior than you. but in actual fact they are not. you would know who are willing to teach you and who are not. some they just cincai teach you and when you do something wrong they would question you. why you do like that.some of them prefer you to do it their way which is the long cut way or for me i call it the c2pid way.

2. nobody will teach you the shortcut way. they would usually tell you that there is no short cut way. but i notice is either they do not know the short cut way, or they want to keep the short cut way to themself.

3. sometimes i think no matter how good you are in your studies, you are still zero when you are fresh at work. you would have to be careful. and be prepared to be bullied by people lo.

take care for my friends who are going to get a job like me.

Somewhere Out There

Somewhere Out There
performed by Linda Ronstadt and James Ingram
from the movie An American Tail (1987)

written by James Horner, Barry Mann, Cynthia Weil

Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight
Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight

Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer
That we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there

And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star

And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star

And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
this is a song from a movie related to the mouse migrating to america.
its a very very touching movie
still like this song very very much

annother picture of the gife :P Posted by Picasa

the gift i win from 988 serento... seems a lot but should be able to get more but have to go to work already
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blog this picture again Posted by Picasa

goh joo joo driving... curi curi take his picture... he will scold me anyway... Posted by Picasa
i was waiting for the good show.
but eventually there wasn't any good show.

but sarah had actually employed someone who is better than the person who had run away after her pile of mess.

even the auditor had a lot of question that need to ask her.
but she is not around.
'this one is not me who handle it....
those document are lost during the time when we shift the office....
bla.. bla.. bla...'
actually we notice that she actually do not have much actual knowledge about accounting.
just that her experience result to her staying in the company for many years

now her privious manager had gone and the new finance manager is looking very closely at each transaction that had been made so that there would not be any possibility of fraud that would occur during the case of incuring any services.

i think i should be working until next week.
till then i would be unemployed again
today met my secondary monitor.
i think she came back from rusia for holiday.
still with the same boy friend.
actually i was glad to see her again.
basically i totally lost contact with all those secondary friend and don't mention about those in the primary.

sometimes i just feel that after so much time,
i am more and more protective and you would not easily see that i am nauty and very very true to my friends is i consider you as just friends.

i would like to help poeple
but sometimes i would feel very very reluctant to get close to people.
why?
cos sometimes i just feel that when you get close to other poeple,
some secret that you would wanna share with them only would become a know item among the friends.
sometimes i feel sick and tired about it.
so i decided not to be too closed to poeple.

but i also received complaint that i do not have many friends.
i think it should be part of my life gua.
since i'm to only child in the family and i already get used to those things that i should or should not do.
and already used to being distance from poeple and
enjoy doing things alone.

i do treasure that is always somebody who support me la...
treasure the friendship that i have la.
just now listen to chan fong's program.
he said if you feel that the person is not suitable for you,
you should better let go.

is not whether you scared to loss so that you would not let go of the relationship that is not good for you.
he said that if you already willing to give up something that is not good for you,
you already consider gaining form your action.
tought we will be having our convo by ourself.
but i was wrong.
my convo will be with other courses.
but we would be the first course to be on the stage.
convo info
kindda disappointed leh.
erm... hope it would be a special convocation for all of us.
if you always go to those company which is very very normal and have a very very good system, you would not see what's a problem that might occur in a company.

last time when we study audit, we know that there is a lot of document that need to have a serial number, and many document that need to have duplicate copy.

last time i working in a audit and tax firm i never notice why the receptionist should be the one who handle the courier services.
i know and notice the person who is handling the courier service should be a person who is very very feirce enough to fight for the best courier service for the company.
it would seems that on time delivery would be important for a service company.
but i think the delivery sheet for the delivery company is really like shit.
why? cos they are not serially numbered and cannot be traced easily.
told sarah about this problem.
but she really have to many problem that she need to tackle.
she really cannot put much attention on this matter lo.

yeah sarah is correct.
there should be proper documentation for services and good that we had incurred.
we do not simply pay for things that we did not incurred.
that is not the proper way of doing things.

the company system really got problem.
this is what my bf told me when he first went to the company to settle their previous year accounts.
i really dunno what is the problem.

when i come to this company i've realised that this company really have problem as what my bf had said.
there are a lot and a lot of paper work.
and a lot of paper document
income tax and law requires a company to keep proper documentation for 7 years wor.
how?
do they have so much space as they could file all this document?

and annother thing is they have many many document but they do not have people to key in the transactions.
then just get the figure using the spread sheets?
would the reporting be up to date?
erm i really wonder about it.
it seems really weird....
why? i can blog but i cannot view my web page lo.

is it something related to the bombing in london and my web site also kena bomb as well? how come?
what had happened?

the work load is very very heavy.
a lot of things to settle but should i tell myself.
there is nothing that i cannot handle.
there is nothing i cannot settle.

i just wonder i feel weird why must a son or daugther pay their parents when they get their first pay cheque?
i just wonder.
i really have a tight budget.
i really have no more money to save.
there is a needing to spend on something i longing for a long long while.
i do not like the feeling of being forced to do something.

i would like to do things i want to do.
and not forced to do.
but it seems difficult to realised this.
everyone also want to do things willingly or do things by yourself.

sometimes i really feel that if things that i wanna do i would do it perfectly
if there is things that i dun wanna do i would not do it nicely or just get it done.
and that's end of story?
erm...
i wonder i think this is one of the attitude that i should change gua
all my 'chat kaki' form college are in Shefied, UK for the moment.
poor me. kasian saya.
But, i just feel that i would not have the determination to continue my studies in acounting, maybe for the moment.
If there is more accounting stuff to learn ahead i think i should be vomiting already.

But for the moment, i would like to have a clear picture of something which is related to accounting.
that is the accounting standard.
every country have thier own accounting standard and most likely the accounting standards are similar to the international accounting standards.
therefore no matter where you are, if you are doing accounting you would still have to deal with accounting standards.

Eventough accounting standards are not law in accounting, but they are guilines for commercial , auditing and public sectors to follow in preparing and auditing the accounts.
the accounting standards is a guidelines for the company to decide how much information need to be disclosed when they are preparing the financial report.

however, for internal purpose, the presentation of accounting would definately depends on the requirement of the users and the purpose of using the accounting information.
sometimes there is information that is required by other department and some information is confidential.
therefore i could be considered that there is not fixed format for the internal reporting, however, it should not run away too much from the normal external reporting.
durian season come already
i was suprise that today i have durian to eat
yeah durian
why?
cos today my dad's boss give my dad some durian.

last time when the durian are those very very expensive fruits,
we usually say that my dad would not be willing to bye any durian
why?
cos my dad is kindda stingy.
and we always say if my dad will buy durian home then it would snow in malaysia.

now things are kindda diffirent
but it is stil same case that daddy would rarely buy durian.

but still like durian very very much?
why?
cos durian is king of all fruits and i like it very very much lo
haha
but after eatting during should drink a lot and a lot of water lur.
希望有你存在的地方就是自己的天堂。
那么没有你,生活就好像身处地狱了吗?

情愿放弃精彩的机会,选择了平凡的你。
可是自己这么样的牺牲,你会发觉吗?

希望你会是自己的天堂。
希望有你在身边的日子永远都是天堂。
now is already last hour of the first half of year 2005.
it had been a very exciting year for me
notice that eventually i grew a lot.
knoe a lot of people/friends
have to make a lot of difficult decision.
have to face a lot of problems in life.
have a lot of things that i need to face.

this first half year of 2005 really make me grow a lot
have to learn more to be better in my EQ
use your heart to treat people,
regardless of whether other people would appreciate it.
you would feel really really nice.
if you wanna receive more, just give more of yourself.
do not think my report is very very nice.
cos not everything i did is completely correct or completely right.

got 'yuan wang' by the 'small people' around me.
but whatever happened, i think the most important thing that happened is,
i already put my best for poeple around me.
and have nothing to be regret of.
regardless how poeple say.
i do not really wanna say bad things about other people.
sometimes things you know and you should only keep them inside your heart and let it be.

have a happy 2005 and also looking forward for a more exciting next half 2005.
my parents just back from genting.
initially they ask me to join them.since i never been to genting before.
mayb i've been there before should be before my primary gua.
so i have no memory of me going to genting before.
erm... but also not really really interested in going to genting...

actually i'm long for a trip to penang to eat durian.
haha
nice nice durian, have to ask grandma to get me some of the penang best durian
erm so my target is to go there about next or the week after next.
go penang for a couple of days
meet some friends

my parents do have a nice time at genting.
but my mom say that during their way to genting my dad's car eventually nearly 'boil water'
so they stop the car and wait until the car cool down and continue their journey.
erm...
everything was fine after that.

i do think it's a good choice not following them to genting.
let them enjoy their short trip and also 'second honey moon'
let them enjoy their life a bit live a life without my existance for a few days.
let them forget about me for a few days.
seems to be difficult to wake up in the morning,
cos if i rely on my arlam clock i would end up waking up late.
however, if i rely on myself,
i would end up waking up so early.
now is about 6.45 and i've been up for more than half an hour.

seems that i should have a healthy life if i wanna rely on myself to wake up.
why? cos the alarm clock seemed useless to me already.
it does not wake me up and will not wake me up.
so cham.

uaed to wake up really really early during my secondary time.
have to go to school at about 7 in the morning.
erm...

miss those days.
really really miss those days.
when i'm really really damn hard working.
when i do not have to think so much about how to live my life.

忘掉你像忘掉我 ~~王菲

忘掉你像忘掉我 ~~王菲
曲:张国荣 词:林夕 编:Richard Yuen 监:张国荣

想不再回头 又不想错过 想不想之间 着了魔
重逢后 白发后 又怎知道 是恋火
是如何 烧毁我 假使你仍然 认得这个我
不枉我换来 这结果 狂傲地 任性地
为想等你 望清楚 为你疯魔 这样错

* 爱我吗 不恋也恨
等到白头 未染尘
爱我吗 但如何敢问
忘掉你像忘掉我心
# 生死也为情 是否不会有
只得苦恋可永久
明明是没以后
但怎么我 仍牵手
让你减轻 你内疚 #
repeat * #
生也猜不透 死也猜不透 发白透
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
just saw faye wong's new compilation album online.
always like faye's canto song cos it's really really very very nice.
remember this song is one of the song in the movie 'bai fa mo nui' by leslie cheung and also lin ching xia.
the liking for faye is slowly slowly accumulated.
is because of my friend?
or just because she is faye and i like her:P
haha
but only one thing to say faye is always the best.
i already dunno what he want
he say dun like me to go so far to work and have to pick me to college everyday.
i ask my bf to pick me up to work.
and what he said?
'why you tell others everything?'
huh? i already plan about it early already wor?
wat's the problem about that?
i seems not able to find the solution to this problem...
seems that i do everything or anything also got problem and also will be wrong?
i'm confused....
i'm really really confused....
i'm blur
i dunno wat to do.
i think i dun reli understand him.
maybe is because of the fear of loosing a daughter?
maybe is the fear of her daughter knowing the wrong people?
maybe is the fear of ....
i cant think of any reasons lur
i'm not happy,
hope that you are just beside me.
yet you seems so near yet so far

hope that you would understand what i mean.
but you seems not catching what i mean.

hope that you are around when i need you.
but you arent there!

told you how i feel.
but you told me you want me to be independent.

you are always against me.
and i feel that i'm helpless
i cannot do anything about it.

wonder whether should i ever listen to you.
wonder should i care.

fikiran kolot

sometimes i wonder whether the status of boy and gal would ever be even?
sometimes i wonder why we need to be restricted to the old thinking?
sometimes i wonder why people are not improving as the time passes by?

why we are reluctant to changes?
why we are used to the old fashion way of doing things?
why must we locked ourself with the kolot thinking?
why must we restrict our mind to fly free?
why must we restrict our imagination and creativity?
why there must always be an answer for a question?

should there be a question without answer?
should we able to do things without caring what others think about us?
should we not concern about others view, which might restrict our ability to break trough?
should we be changing every second as the time passes by?
should there be improvement in our life as the time passes by?

a hard day's work!!!!!

today is my first day working as a temporary gal.
work? data entry.
and my brain is only the few figures that i key in and nothing other than that.
knows the powerful effect of learning curve.
erm...
i think i would not like to spend hours and hours doing the same thing over and over again lur.
but never mind,
since i only play play only and pass time only, while earning some pocket money.

some ask me very nice cos can work with my bf.
huh we all sit different place leh.
he inside a room enjoy the aircon and music with annother lousy guy (shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh dun let the fuller know i say him lousy k?)
while i'm sitting outside in the open office.
erm... how come i feel the air con like not no geh? feel so hot.
he is using his laptop and online inside,
while i'm using the big outdated computer.
gosh i miss my flat screen (lcd)at home....
gosh i miss my internet connection at home...
:'(

staying at home should be the best thing to do lur.
regret taking this job?
erm i take it as a challenge for myself la.

the never ending story~24 june 2005

today li si's never ending story at 988 is talking about the thief and the police.
the police suspect and know the thief steal something.
everytime the police stop the thief with the bicycle and also two big bag of sand,
and he did not discover what had the thief steal cos the two bad of sand is just normal sand and nothing inside and nothing special.
every few days the police see the thief take the bicycle and two back of sand to a rural village.
the police cannot do anything. because he have not evidence to prove that the thief had stole anything.

after many many years,
after the police retired, the police become neighbour with the thief.
and one night the police and the thief sit down have dinner.
after drinking some bir,
the police asked the theif what had you stolen all these years?

the theif smile and said all the while i stole the bicycle and sell.

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ponder:-
is it we normally see those small small things like those sand and suspect those little little things?
and we just ignore those most obvious things?
is a good story for us to ponder about.

recommen the program '乐在1102' for all my friends.
every thursday dj 林淑萍.
the story is told by:- 丽思(one of my favourite DJ)
hope you would tune in to it every thursday 11.00pm-2.00am

孩子 曹格

孩子 曹格
词:文康 曲:张蔚源

给你的思念塞满了箱子 托邮差安全送到你住的地址
你看到我的名字 忍着的眼泪多麽像个脆弱的女子
你的微笑却又像深情的男子 幸福的样子

爱你就像走不好的孩子 相信我可以帮你穿上心爱的鞋子
一路上难免有小小的石子 一点一滴都是一颗种子

慢慢的学习相处的方式 用你的小聪明填上我的无知
你看我双手合十 决定答应你
当你朋友不断问起时 你会得意的聊着我们的故事
快乐的样子

爱你就是为了过好日子 谁叫你已经成了无法改变的事实
只等着听你说一声要开始 我愿为你变成一个孩子

你看我双手合十 决心要为你
为你日夜不断祈祷时
希望生活里周围有你的样子 幸福的样子

爱你就像走不好的孩子 相信我可以帮你穿上心爱的鞋子
一路上难免有小小的石子 一点一滴都是一颗种子

爱你就是为了过好日子 谁叫你已经成了无法改变的事实
只等着听你说一声要开始
我愿为你变成一个孩子
我愿为你变成一个孩子

i was listening to this song online again and again.
first saw the lyrics on wen kang's book
heard this song on the radio station.
found the song really really suits the lyrics
feel sweet. ;)
tidy and tidy and tidy...
making the room in a mess and making it normal balik.
erm... i dun wan back to the old style
i think i want something new?
something fresh
something different
something not the same with the previous feel
something i dunno what is it?
something that would surprise me....
have not been posting anything on my blog lately.
have not been blogging lately.
why?
cos i'm staying at home and packing and arranging all my things together.

things in my room had been messy all the while
a lot of paper and a lot of notes.
a lot of news paper.
and a lot of dust

someone ask me how could i live in such an environment
like pig style...
erm...
wonder
but that's not the important thing for me again.

i always tell myself i would tidy it when i'm free
now...
is the time.
i'm free? but did i really go and tidy it? sometimes i doubt what i'm doing
haha... just home i'm happy gua.

love you very much?很爱很爱你

很爱很爱你
作词:施人诚 / 作曲:玉城千春

想为你做件事 让你更快乐的事
好在你的心中埋下我的名字
求时间 趁着你 不注意的时候
悄悄地 把这种子酿成果实

我想她的确是 更适合你的女子
我太不够温柔成熟优雅懂事
如果我 退回到 好朋友的位置
你也就 不再需要为难成这样子

很爱很爱你 所以愿意 舍得让你
往更多幸福的地方飞去
很爱很爱你 只有让你 拥有爱情
我才安心

看着她走向你 那幅画面多美丽
如果我会哭泣也是因为欢喜
地球上 两个人 能相遇不容易
作不成你的情人我仍感激

很爱很爱你 所以愿意 不牵绊你
飞向幸福的地方去
很爱很爱你 只有让你 拥有爱情
我才安心
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listening to the radio for this music now.
i do believe it sounds crazy to let someone who you love them very very much you would not let them go away just like that.
because love is not for a person to judge whether it is enough or not.
love is for someone to feel about it.
love is a feeling therefore it is intangible.
you could not count it,
you could not see it.
but you could feel its existance.

if you love someone try your best to keep them with you.
however, if their heart is not with you already.
just let them go.
let them search for their happinest.

caroline and me at college last week Posted by Hello

celebrating father's day at sunway pyramid

last sunday was father's day and we have had 3 free movie ticket to watch any movie with the star sign on it at any of the tgv cinema.
so dad decided to watch madacasgar.
initially we wanted to go 1U to watch it.
but the movie will only start at 5.30pm.
this would delay our plan a lot.
so we read the paper for other cinema nearby with the suitable time?
then dad decided to go to watch at sunway pyramid.

it should be considered as the first time i go to sunway pyramid.
actually i never been there b4.weird huh?
prior to this i only been there once to have hi tea with my friends.

dunno where is tgv at pyramid and we look all over for the cinema.
when i line up for the movie ticket the screen was blinking for the movie.
it seems that the movie is selling fast.
luckily there is still ticket. but the seats are at the front row and at the side.



after watching two movies consecutively at two different tgv.
found that i really do not like to watch movie at tgv as much as i like to watch movie at gsc.
why?
firstly because the pop corn are more expensive and the coke seems to be smaller in size.
you knoe la accountant sure want value for money service.

the show was a short one.
so when we came out from the cinema, it was still quite early.

mom was wanting to go this vegetarian restaurant for rojak.
cos she was looking forward to eat the rojak.
the restaurant was jus beside the sunway lagoon and there is a place where u can sit down and see how the people playing at the lagoon.

it was the first time for me to try vegetarian dumpling.
before this i never try it before.
the rojak was nice
but everything was expensive.
me and mom shared to belanja dad
why? cos it's fathers day.

Posted by Hello
it was an enjoyable and meaningful trip for me la...
spending some quality time wit my family
erm...
my cousin sis kena(got selected) for national service next year

my uncle say kena 4D also not so tepat(accurate) ar!

i reli dunno whether this is a good thing or not.
but i do think it is a good thing in the sense that you have a chance to be independent.
without your parents by your side and have to do some good work for the community
i do really agreed that it would be a good mental and physical training
i do reli hope tat i would get a chance to participate?
erm...
i wonder
but i really hope she would gain something from the national service gua.

me and seng joo ar!!!! Posted by Hello

me and hui ling... seems tat i look quiet 'big size' d.... erm have to keep fit la!!! Posted by Hello

jean, joo, me, hui ling and siew heoh Posted by Hello
finally exam is over already....
after so many months of hard work....
but i have no feeling that it is over already.
but whatever will come in the future i'm prepare to take it.
whatever will be will be.

now enjoy my life for the moment
but dunno can enjoy for how long.
because enjoy at an expense at my pocket money will be a very very terrible thing gua

but see watch will come in the future.
regardless of whatever it takes,
just think that,
i should do what is best for people around me
and also what is best for myself.

teckmin (dai lou) the legendary teddy and me. actually dunno why suddenly wanna take photo together? Posted by Hello

article taken from june/july student accountant

ACCA Malaysia helps the public understand tax

1,500 members of the public filled a hall to capacity in Kuala Lumpur on 18 March 2005. The audience listened to a presentation by Dr Choong Kwai Fatt, a lecturer from the University of Malaya, on the newly-implemented self-assessment taxation system.

As part of a community project, 200 ACCA students and affiliates joined Dr Choong and provided help to members of the public having difficulty filling in their income tax details.

Students and affiliates spent over five hours dealing with the attendees, explaining how to fill in the forms and the required documentation. All the students were either studying, or had completed, Paper 3.2, Advanced Taxation. This community project is not only a service to the public, but also an opportunity for students and affiliates to gain practical knowledge. They benefited from hands-on experience of income tax issues, which will better prepare them for future employment in this area.


me.. very far, soo wei and eugene helping to fill up the tax form.

haha... actually i did not know /expect that our picture actually muncul in the acca student accountant
today uncle beng yean was chattng with uncle beng chuan
they were talking about something relating money and the condominium.
actually i feel that later uncle beng chuan was kindda upset because the conversation between him and uncle beng yean.
when uncle beng yean was talking to uncle beng chuan...
when uncle beng chuan cannot stand/listen any more,
he would say you do not use your 'asia works' things on me.

but i think , or it is just my personnal feelings la.
sometimes people around you talking to you,
it is to remind you about the blind spot that you might not be aware about.
if you do not care much about to listen to it.
just ignore it.
no point to be upset about what other poeple think about you.
what's the point of getting up set for something that the person had said and the person might totally forget about it the next hour,
and you might get upset for the whole night, the next day or even the next whole week?

just now i feel a bit upset seeing uncle beng chuan about being down and think a lot about what uncle beng yean had said during the chat after dinner.
i definately don't like the feeling of them like quarelling.
eventough i don't have my own sibilings,
but i do really tresure the relationship of sibilings.
today is 'duan wu jie'
ask joo to fetch me back from the college
and 'sun bian' he can come and grab some dumpling
he said my grandma's dumpling is very very nice.
and i think eating too much of dumpling this few days make me gain a lot of weight.
and my first target after exam is to seriously loose some weight
if not i'll be growing sideways.

the kids come to my computer and play lots and lots of game.
i think i do seriously have to study d.
and after next wed. i'm totally free.
can watch all my favourite show.
and also start the loose weight plan.
原來,是你的終究會回來。
緊捉不放的人,就算再努力也好,不是你的,
就算用盡了所有力氣,也是徒然。

One Moment In Time ~~Whitney Houston

Song : One Moment In Time (Whitney Houston)

Each day I live I want to be
A day to give The best of me
(yeah give my best in my acca examination)
I'm only one But not alone
(a bunch of tar college coursemate sitting exam together wit me on 13,14 and 15 june)
My finest day Is yet unknown
(one of my finest day would be the day i get my acca)
I broke my heart Fought every gain
(loosing my scolarship in the second year of my advanced diploma)
To taste the sweet I face the pain
(besides getting so many c for my exam but yet i manage to pass with a merit)
I rise and fall Yet through it all
This much remains
(i'm sitting for my acca core paper for this 13, 14 and 15 june)

I want one moment in time
(that is 13, 14 and 15 june)
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
(a heartbeat away from getting at least fifty marks each to pass my three core paper)
And the answers are all up to me
(yes all hardwork had been done)

Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
(yes destiny is right in front of me)
(potential future accountant)

Then in that one moment of time
I will feel
I will feel eternity
(eternity... cos do not have to face any exam already?)

I've lived to be The very best
(acca exam is the best professional qualification exam!)
I want it all No time for less
I've laid the plans
Now lay the chance
Here in my hands
(now is the chance for me to pass my core paper in one goal)

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
(it's up to me to do my level best)

Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel
I will feel eternity

You're a winner for a lifetime
If you seize that one moment in time
Make it shine
(shine to be a star in acca graduation ceremony)

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will be
I will be
I will be free
I will be
I will be free
(free no more exam!!!!)

无印良品~我找你找了好久

无印良品
我找你找了好久

可以彼此分享得意骄傲 不担忧谁的心里不是味道
可以传染给你心情不好 连说一个理由都不需要

可以直来直往提醒劝告 就算争吵也都是为对方好
可以和你商量秘密苦恼 不害怕全世界都会知道

我找你找了好久 一个互相了解的朋友
生活有人分享的时候 快乐就变得容易许多

我找你找了好久 一个拿心来换的朋友
伤痛有人抱紧的时候 未来有什么路不敢走

this song specially dedicated to my friend yu yee.
why? cos today is her b'day
why dedicate this song to her? cos this song have a very very special meaning for me.
;) i do hope she knows what i mean. (regardless whether she sees this post or not)

ever since we quarreled and din talk much since then, i always prevent myself from looking backwards,
always ask myself to look forward.

last nite just after mid nite i sent her a sms to wish her happy b'day
just when i tought there would not be any respond from her,
i actually received a sms from her
'tks,my dear fren.so hapy 2receive ur msg.bt,d happiest is our frenshi stil remain..tks'

hmmm... have you have some friends who you din contact them for a long time?
just drop them a sms and you would light up their heart and make their day feel different!

trust me ;)


hui ling wit the snoopy from lay qing, jean and me.... in the picture from left hui ling, lay qing, siew heoh, seng joo and me.... Posted by Hello

jean, joo and me, huiling and siew heoh dunno which camera to look at? Posted by Hello

jean, joo and me and also hui ling and her lovely snoopy from us;) Posted by Hello

me, hui ling, close eyes siew heoh and jean of course Posted by Hello

me, hui ling and the two lovely couple yen yeen and sam Posted by Hello

Personality Disorder Test

DisorderRating
Paranoid:Moderate
Schizoid:Moderate
Schizotypal:Low
Antisocial:Low
Borderline:Low
Histrionic:Moderate
Narcissistic:Moderate
Avoidant:Low
Dependent:Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:High

-- Personality Disorder Test --
-- Personality Disorder Information --

have a bad dream when i wake up this morning
dream that something about joo and me.
weird dream.. and i terus wake up already.

then realised it was already 8am.
nobody wake me up to go to college to study?
huh? how come?
where is my dad?
huh? today is not sunday wor?
how come i'm still at home at this hour?

ha...
just realised that my dad told me last week he will pick his boss worker dunno go where.
he will pick me up later.
erm...
luckily. i remember.
usually when you feel yourself waking up at the wrong side of the bed, you would feel very very blur and sometimes you might wanna scold poeple.
and you have to have very very good EQ management to avoid yourself scolding poeple gua..:P
sometimes i wonder how a gal choose her bf.
is it you have to choose a guy who got car,
and have a good job,
and will give you all those very very expensive gift.
and when he go outing with you, you would have to go places which is very very expensive, and you consider it as high class such as?
k*m g*ry? or even v*ctor*a st*t*on?

wonder how gals would have four eyes when they find the boy friend.
erm maybe is i have too much tought in this lovely nite.

sometimes i wonder about a gal's spending habbit.
on clothes... which is branded... you can use about a thousand just for shopping?
and you tell me you cannot support original books and music?

maybe i have very very bad spending habbit as well.
but i think the way i spending and save the money would be quite different gua...
dunno.
just feel that if i do not agreed with your attitude...
i might not be able share my toughts with you gua.
i dun like poeple who dun care about others' feeling but
they would definately 100% want you to take care of their feelings
and they would have you around like you must help them...

sorry having too much emotion before exam...
remembering got scolded by the someone just because i told him the truth
and how i feel about things.
just do not like people complaining about my attitude.
you can complaint that i'm a lazy person, dirty bug, naughty person or even an evil person.
but please please do not complaint to me that my attitude got problem.
i think i will burst that very moment.
cos i think i would always have a possitive attitude towards life and everything that i would encounter.
but if you told me that my attitude got problem does it means that possitive attitude is wrong?

do really think i'm very very very and extremely straight person.
and like to shoot people. especially those who are closed to me.
haha (sorry to those who are closed to me. you have to get sometimes to prevent being hurt badly by me)
but never mind, i would also invite you to shoot me.
dun really care that much whether it hurts a lot or not.
feel very very bad cos sometimes that things that you like hurt you the deepest.

sometimes is the friend that you trust hurt you the deepest.
heart breaking... why? cos already patah hati and putus asa d.

sometimes is the subject you favour the most, you did it badly
very very badly.

sometimes mayb things that you do not like would help you on the road.
sometimes is good to be neutral and not bias.

keep an open mind for everythings that is going to come
prepare to accept things that is going to come with open arms.

things are gonna be...
to be... will be...

countdown one more week to go

one more week and seems that i did not touch much on 3.6
do hope miricle would happen.
haha
wonder how would it happen.
still sticking myself with the computer and the tv.
do not want myself to sleep too much
just tell myself i would have all the time in the world that i could have to do the things that i like.
i really wonder about it.

i should really motivate myself.
never give up...
acca exam starting 2moro.
but mine is one more week to go.
do hope that i would not panic at the last moment.

one more week. not consider very long.
however,
i would help much if i used it wisely.
do pray for myself, my friends and all my coursemate.
all the best in the exam.
always wonder whether taking a post of printing manager for the course is a correct decision.
always wonder why should i take the post?
from the very first day of the course committee election,
the senior was like saying gals cannot be printing manager since i have no transport and also printing manager would be a very very hectic job for a gal.
and after this two years,
i can proved this saying is rubbish and it also contains some kind of sex discrimination.
remembering the impression on nicholas's face.
saying he do not wanna take the post of course rep.
and he wanna be the printing manager of the course.
and i was scared and worried cos.. last time i would always critic my course's printing manager.
and i was suprised that he actually compromised that the would be the course rep.
remember people telling me that if you do not wanna hold the post there is a lot of other poeple wanted to hold the post.
remembering changing supplier without telling my x-course rep (nick) anything about it.
remembering that he was very very action.... and wanted to go agaist me.
and remembering that he eventually din able to come into our course since his cgpa din acheived the course entry requirement that year.
remembering that nobody wanna become the course rep of the course.
remembering everyone complaining about the course rep not doing anything.
remembering course rep and treasurer complaining me about my attitude to my friend the assistant course rep.
remembering i do not need their (course rep, assistant course rep and treasurer )help but i really been help by all the class rep a lot and a lot.
remembering miss chin ask me not to put too much effort on the course matter.
remembering miss karen told me that my over all paper was quite good.
remembering the concern on the lecture's face.
remembering my life in tar college as a printing manager in two years of my advanced diploma.
just received my result today...
a very every unbelievable result for myself
cant imagine...
get so unbelievable result
and actually i got an B for my finance and ...
the paper actually i got an C for one subject...
and the one and only C for my exam.
i see already i also think it is very very unbelievable.

so if you are interested is knowing wat the subject is please guess...
and i'll tell u trough msn or e-mail u...
cos i'm reli reli shy to disclose it here...:P

khai nien eileen... me and ker tying wit our lovely flowers..... Posted by Hello

eileen and me... oops my hair is messy d....haha Posted by Hello

khai nien and eileen.... graduating wit their beautiful flower..... Posted by Hello

happy convo

today is my bf's convo....
hehe...
can't belive it that he actually graduated earlier than me (practically)
he is always the one who is very very lucky.
why?
he always tend to fail his exam...
and tends to make it during the final resit.
what a lucky guy.

annother friend of mine...
hui ling she also going to graduate today...
and she is going to fly to uk to shefield by 17 may if i'm not mistaken.

and many tough not much graduated.
in the graduation list there were about 196 people who completed and graduate from the course.
and this figure is about 70% of the population in the course of 285 poeple.
and out of this 196 people only 4 poeple got distinction and also 69 poeple got merit for their graduation.

erm... i'm one of the people who graduated... so happy...
and yesterday i met miss ng...
she was like trying to tell me wat is my grade for her paper.
erm... maybe a B? i think that's all i can get gua...
cos eventought i did not do badly on her paper.
but i feel that there are things which i did not do well enough to get an A

Sometimes When We Touch - Dan Hill

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

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this song have a very very special meaning for me and a friend.
i'm not sure whether the person will still remember this song?
just wanna listen to this song again and again and again...

just close my eyes and listen to it every time.
brings me a lot of satisfaction.

pain in the tooth

today when i wake up my the flesh beside my tooth was in deep pain....
cannot describe the feeling but it does affect my emotion.
maybe too many spicy food lately.
damn...
it is like a pain in the ass...

it is really painful and i think the flesh is going to cover my wisdom tooth someday.
my god...
tired...
wanna cry already...
cham liao la...
how to continue to study?
and exam is coming soon again.....

merry merit

today the graduate list was out on the board.
then i was worried and i went to look at the board.
haha... i've got merit for my exam wor....
not passed saje...
but merit wor...
erm... my c are not so strong this time i think
thank god again...
what a good news for me.
at least not the last one from the course being called on to the stage....
'sia sui' and 'lak sei' saje...

always think that i did not did my best
or i've did my best but my best was not good enough?

do not wish to be a distinction student but just do not want my parents to be 'lak sei' la...
at least i already proven to myself i did my level best to get what i need lur.

so now... focus on the dream of acca lur...
suddenly see other poeple graduate earlier than me...
also taking acca.
erm...
should i be crying?
erm... i do think if i really work hard enough...
i could realise my dreams.
sometimes i think it is very cruel that people are resiting and they wanted to graduate and the lecture do not want/intend to help the students.

mayb they left only this paper to graduated?

one of my friend have not failed the internal exam before,
and this semester he failed the final three paper.
and he have to sit for all five paper....
including external acca 2 option paper and
internal resit 3 core paper.

i think it would be a big burden to them since they are given little time to prepare for the subject.
i think lectures do want to help us pass.
but i do not understand why some lecture refuse to do so?

erm... to protect their good name?
or they do not want to be liable about the things they say?

i feel weird sometimes.....
cos when a lecture give guidance/hints before the exam...
after the exam there would be a lot of noice complaining about the lecture giving tips to the student....
aren't giving tips to the student one of the motif before exam?
then... why after exam already... the students want to complaint about the lecture giving tips to them?

lecture are just normal human being...
they also wanna protect their reputation and they wanted to secure their job.
since they already being kind hearted to give tips,
why dont you just listen,
and whether you wanted to accept or not...
it's all up to you.
and they are also not liable to the accuracy of the tips.
since you are liable for your own behaviour.

if you knoe the tips,
just share it with your friends,
and keep quiet after that lur...

erm... i do really pity....
because lecture do really suffer ethical dialema since they already setting the question and they have to spread something out to ensure that most of the student passed the exam.
today is the first day of orientation in tarcollege.
saw the fresheee's t-shirt...
'proud to be tarcian'
i think i would reluctant to wear the t-shirt after finished the orientation gua?
haha....

today the library have a very very long queue.
all of them applying for the id card.
and the procedure for applying the id card was quite 'ma fan'
have to go here and there...
and also attend the boring library tour...
then only can apply the library card.
haha...
glad that i do not have to been trough all this troublesome to ensure that i got my library card.

erm... already very very 'old' lo...
finished my 4 years in tar.

and i've observed something
nowadays...
the kids are very 'hang fuk'
cos they have their own transport to drive...
and they carry all those colour screen hand phone.
and their parents will go to the college with them just like they are little kids.

i remember that the first day of me being in tar.
my dad just sent me there and tell me this is tar...
just go inside.
huh? where is college hall? where is libarary?

that time i still carrying my erricsion... the phone which the dog see already also will run as far as it could.

the first day in tar, i remember i dunno the way back home.
my dad asked me to go back by myself.
and i remembered i walked about half an hour from the main gate to taman melati lrt satation.
when i reached kl (which means pasar seni there) then i feel safe,
and i know how to go home.
i remembered i was damn scared that time.
hehe

now everything already become history.
so... now have to leave the college soon lo...
weird weird weird...
suddenly notice there is RM30 extra credit in my handphone.
just now when i see my handphone suddenly notice that my credit had been reloaded with RM30.

i was wondering whether is joo who reload for me since i already told him that i dun hav credit already.
when i called him, who knoes that he say he din reload for me.
i tought he was kidding at first,
but i think he would not do such sweet things.

so asked dad had he done anything?
the answer is no.

so now?
the conclusion is this is the money which had fallen from the sky?
weird....

or the gift from god on wesak day?
anyway... just thank the god.
send me RM30 just when i needed some credit.
no need to use my RM 60 top up card yet.

or is it anyone who knoes that i do not have any credit d...
then send me some credit?
i wonder.....
hehe....
thanks god la...

Happy wesak day

today my dad woke me up very very early.
before 8am.
today actually do not have any class and i'm thinking of staying in the bed for a little longer.
but he woked me up so i have to wake up
then we wait for mom to get ready to go out.

when we are ready, we went to my parent's house.
we are going together for a free breakfast in the vegetarian shop.

then we wait for the uncle and auty's children
and when everyone was ready,
it was about 8.30 am already.

when we reached there,
we was just in time!
the breakfast just started.
we all line up and grab whatever in on our menu.
yes the breakfast was totally free and you can eat as much as you like.

why?
cos today is wesak day!!!!!!
the free breakfast was from 8.30am to 11.00am

since we were early there are not many people.
there are mee hoon, yellow rice, fried chun juang, fried man tou,
vegie curry, vegie fish, vegie cha siu, tofu....
erm....wow.... free you know!!!!

but not really greedy to take too much.
just wanna try everything out by taking some of each item lo.
i remember watching the tv that says that if the thing is free / cheap but you cannot finished it they would charged you extra for wasting the food.

but anyway, feel very greatful and thankful that i could have the opportunity to enjoy such nice free meal.
always remember that there is no free lunch in this world.

still very full now.
i think i would have nothing for lunch today la...
my room was in a mess....
busy studying for acca.
and attending in the intensive class
i think i've stress myself too much d.
until i have the pain in my neck.
seems very very scarry for me.

this few days was having dinner wit fz, yan er and pei li as well as wei wei.
erm... i think should be less chance to hav dinner wit them lur.

i found something interesting in the guy blog.
they eat vegetarian cos they wanna pass the exam...

then i eat vegetarian cos?
haha...
suddenly found that i have no memory about how i choose to be a vegetarian.
i found it very interesting that people say that they would not eat vegetarian.
however i would be a very very interesting point for me to argue.
cos?
if they only eat meat and no vegerable they would in very very bad health
vegetarian is only take away thier meat only ma...
so nothing so different and no big deal about eating vegetarian lo...
rite?
erm... seems like the studying process had slowed down lur...
no mood to focus on exam?
i'm not really sure about things that happened around me.
suddenly feel that have some kind of recognition from the coursemate.

sometimes i really feel that i do so manythings for nothing
i will always remember what miss chin had say.
you better focus on your studies do not do so many things...
i think maybe what she had said is correct gua...
do so much things for nothing in return.
but i do hope it will train my patient.
and do help the poeple who are in the fire and water and get them out of the mist.

still thinking that i'm damn luckily to that i've passed my exam...
so nice...
no need to sit for annother one other than my acca exam.
it seems that lecture tend to ignore you when you already passed your exam.
mr tho was like very reluctant to tell me what was going to come out on the resit paper.
however, i do not wish to know anything about it at all.
haha...
not my business... i can forget all about it. since i already passed the internal exam.

miss chin is kind enough to arrange specially a session for those who did not passed the exam.

and ms ng was kindda pissed off that the question she had set for part b was so easy and yet student din get the correct answer.
i think is cause they have a bias mind towards ms ng gua.
i think she had given us much guidance for the final exam during her lecture hours.
but yet few attended the lecture.
is this the reason for not passing the subject.

and annother thing that i've encounter today is that the junior had requested for her paper to be reviewed (year 1 paper).
however in actual fact for the paper to be passed, the examination board and the lectures had already put in their every effort to pass the candidate.
however, if they do not want to pass you must be due to a specific reason.
firstly the first year paper is an internally assessed paper.
so this involved the 'guai lou' in managing and controlling the passing marks and passing percentage.
if they do not want to pass you plese save your money for resit.
it is waste of money and time to wait for the exam script to be remark.
i'm not totally sure la...
but this is just what i see heard and feel during my four years in tar college accounting la.
finally the suffer of having to wait for examination results is over.
i do not need to sit for annother tar college exam anymore.
kindda like the very lucky that the god had protected me for so long.
always think that if because of one's poor performance and have to loose the chance to graduate fast.
i think i would rather kill myself la.
thanks to all the lectures who had done their very very best to help me to passed my exam. and let me graduate 'sun sun li li'

before that i was always imagining what it would be if i really tergantung one paper.
i knoe i did one of my paper very very badly.
and i know the chance of passing that paper was as thin as the air at the top of himalaya's mountant.
luckily i passed la.

thanks a lot to everyone who had helped me for the two years in my advanced diploma.
it had been a very very exciting year for me.
and i do forsee annother exciting year ahead of me.
i would try my best to do my best ;)
i cannot stand other people to misunderstood me.
but on the other hand, i'm those type of poeple who are not reli concern to explain myself.
maybe because of this,
i lost a lot of chance,
maybe because of this,
i lost of things which is precious to me?

i think i'm a very very protective person.
that's why some poeple would think that i do not have any friends.
but in fact, anybody also can be my friend,
but just notice that i did not have a friend who is very close to me.

maybe i like to keep all my things to myself?
i think i have a close friend once,
and i lost her.
i do not tend to believe much on people.
i just try to be innocent but not to believe anyone.
try to independent and helpful.

just heard that my heart break again.
just dun wanna be misunderstood.
but dun wanna explain what i am thinking.
just let it break into pieces.
my friend just msn me and she told me that annother friend's dad passed away cos he commited suicide.
i'm shocked. and i do not know what and how to react.
i think this is not a good time for me to call the friend.
i think this is not a good time to do anything

i'm confused with what i should do.
and with somebody misunderstood me.
i have no say.
i have nothing to say.

my pendant

today when i want to go out for dinner,
i suddenly notice that my pendant is gone??????

OMG... if it is drop anywhere on the street?
how can i get it back?
why and how stupid i am not to notice that my pendant is gone?
the pendant is suppose to be around the neck geh mah....
why it is gone d?
where had it been?

i quickily called home and check with my dad to see whether it is in the house so that i would not need to look all over the house for it.
and my dad's attitude was like dun care enough to look for me.
the pendant eventough is not really expensive but,
i seems to be very meaningful to me.

luckily it was found in my room.
i think it droped when i'm using the towel.
luckily i found it back.

it seems that i have no luck for this few days.
it seems that not much good things had happened on me.
what can i do?
just hope that this not so good luck won follow me when the exam come out.
if 'A'= Success,
then the formula is;

A= X+Y+Z

where:
X is work
Y is play
Z is 'KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT'


Albert Einstein 1955 APRIL 18

cartoon MV-guang liang's tong hua

cartoon MV-guang liang's tong hua
found this on the friendster post.
not really very very geng but i think it is worth go and have a look at it.
lots of things happened this few days since i have not blog.

revision class... is very very intensive revision class.
everyday also got class.
but anyway i like daniel's class.
i found it quite amazing that the daniel's class is almost full.
and it seems to be as pack as farmer's class lo...
but to be as pack as farmer's class should be seems to be crazy gua.
and uncle daniel gives us a lot and a lot of question to look at.
live saving question
question on calculation.
basic preparation question for those who din attend his class.

today when i went out to take the bus, my water bottle drop on the road and it pecah.
then... that was the end of the story of a bottle's life and it ended up in the rubbish bin of city center.
kindda felt sorry for it gua...
today is the first day of paper 3.6 in ftms
and this is the first time that i notice that,
if a lecture is really good, he will attract so many people to come to attend his intensive
i think this is so called the star effect.
but oh no have to move to the other place to study d,
since it is so packed.
not happy?
maybe is caused i already think too much about a lot of things every day.

heard that there is someone who had gave up on her cima paper.
do not want to sit for the exam this sitting.
i really wonder why?
cos scared of failing the exam?
cos the feeling of scared that will fail?

always remember what kwai fatt said.
if you already give up that means you already admit you will fail.
if you do not give up and just keep on writing,
the possibility of passing would be very high.

you do not need 100% to passed the exam.
you only need 50% to pass the exam.
this is an very important concept which i should always remind myself.

really tired this few days.
have not have a good enough rest.
should i rest myself.
or just like exam... just keep on writting.
have not been posting anything this few days
feel tired
upset and
not really happy gua.

tire?
tired of wearing a mask to disguise myself

upset?
upset of letting myself to keep on acting happy in front of everyone,
but actually i really notice that i'm not really happy.

happy?
everyone thinks that i'm happy.
but the little voice inside myself is telling me,
i'm not okay...
i'm not okay...

just pray that i'm okay soon.
just pray that the feeling of upset will be gone sooner that i can dream of.
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