tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

sometimes wonder why inside the firm there are a lot of people wanna fight for accreditation...
just a small things.. it would not mean you would do it for the benefit of the firm...
wonder...
this is call politics...
dun like to get involved into it.
if you are so good... why not do it yourself in the first place?
why wait?

finally found the satisfaction of able to finished the stuff.
finally found the inspiration of moving forward.
do not like the attitude of people just sit down wait and pretend they know nothing..
and ask other to do the same stuff.

i do not like people who are not willing to share...
sharing is caring..
but if you wanna sit down and wait for the free lunch to fall in front of your face..
please wait for 10 thousand years...
trying to finish a task...
please wait ya...

today after lunch...
when i go back to the office...
suddenly realised that my pendant which i wore it for almost four years is gone..

did not feel panic...
and just have a heart that.. if reli cant find it..
just let it go...

then heard they are giving out letter today :)
suddenly feel panic...
and stomachache...
haha...
should say anybody wanna call me...
tell them i'm in the toilet...

erm...
finally stomach dun feel so pain...

get called to collect the letter...
and signed the 'mai san kai'

and got a good call from the IRB officer...
with some good news...

and when i went back...
i was happy to realise that the pendant is actually dropped on the floor of my room..
and my mom managed to pick it up to me...

all i wanna say for today is...
thanks god for giving me a special roller coaster day :)

earlier last month...
our MD send out an e-mail to everyone of us to inform that..
the practice of the firm to achieve D company Boleh semangat
and all our evaluation has been bring forward a month and
all the salary would be adjusted to a very competitive stage

actually i evaluated myself very poorly cos i do not think
i actually achive the standard of supervisor...

actually it's quite 矛盾"serba salah" for myself
cos i do not know whether should fight for promotion or just say i do not want promotion

but i'm okay...
if my boss is okay with my promotion
why not just accept it...

actually know will be promoted after the evaluation interview,
just want to know how much they would adjust my salary.
and eventually...
they adjusted slightly much higher than my expectation.
not to say a lot but maybe to many people it considered a lot already...

that should be what i deserve...
of course the opportunity cost behind being promoted is..
having to give two months notice..
meaning the higher they are going to pay u...
u have to giv much much longer notice..

and talking about promotion...
i should really take the opportunity to thanks those people who supported me..
and belanja them for dinner lo...

so shabu-shabu...
we will meet u there :)

today did nothing much in the office.

today start to see old file... feel tired.
today start to see old things... feel tired again...

today waiting for the new cabinet line up...
today waiting to see some changes in the cabinet line up...
wanting to see the government's determination in giving us a better malaysia.

today office black out at around 3.30
stay in the office doing nothing much...
everyone walk here and there...
chit chat...
but nobody dare to leave before 5.30

when 5.30 came,
i thought everyone would cabut..
but nobody did.
so i just packed my things..
and waited for the lift.
but the lift was packed.
so when somebody decided to take the stairs...
i went together...
but taking the stairs is not easy..
because you have not being trained to take the stair at one go..
so.. 12 floor here i walk...
walk walk walk...
until 6 floor... thinking how much further i need to go...
until 2nd floor... cham la.. my legs started to shake...
finally 2 more floor reach the ground and walk out and saw my bf waiting for me.
i feel a bit relief.
but i do think i need more excercise....
luckily it's not taking the stairs up 12 or even higher floor.

then later we went to have our dinner..
and during dinner time we decided when we should go to see HL...
since she say she and baby is going back to ipoh end of the week.
so we decide when to get something for her.
and decide what to get for her...
and we wanted to get chicken stock or bird nest for her...
then after finish dinner,
we drive pass uptown anakku and saw 'JUALAN PENGHABISAN STOK'
oh... that's great...
we go and get something for baby...
so.. we went in and look here and there to get something nicely wrapped for baby.
it's some clothes, with all the teddy bear on it..
haha.. we wonder whether someone would get and gift the same thing..
anyway.. my BF say since we are the first few person to give so...
he thinks other people will 'zhong sam' with us..
instead of us 'zhong sam' with other people.

so after ariving home and we changed our clothes.
we went to HL condo..
and see her cute little baby BOY...

my friend HL had just delivered her baby.
i think it should be exciting for her.
to take care of a new born baby.
a new life in the family.

i taught she would be staying in kl before baby's full moon.
but she will be going back to his husband hometown instead...

i wish i got so 'ho mia' as well.
can get a child at such a young age.

but reality is still reality.
why without money there is nothing.
as a responsible parent,
you would not want your kid to be born in a non conducive environment.

i also have been thinking of getting married and stuff.
but there is still a lot of uncertainty within me.

commiting ourselve in getting a house seems like a brand new journey for myself.
wondering whether both of us can really aford the house.
i wonder how and wonder why...

i have to be more committed, since there is more commitment within me lo :)

following the post that we say we have made a booking on a condo,
we have received all sort of non supporting voices all over the place.

"why u buy such places... this place all the low class people is staying there"

so... my class will jatuh jus bcos someone else who is staying there.

no matter what you say..
my heart is solid now.
i think

just do not want to think too much over my first investment.

在角落休息的魚

有個朋友去京都的時候，偶然進了一家店，
他說因為坐在隔壁桌的人講的話實在太有趣了，
所以就不知不覺聽了起來。

他們談的是養殖小魚的事。
小魚是養在架在海裡的四方形網裡，
小魚會在網裡繞圈圈的游來游去，
養殖的人讓魚充分的環遊，並不斷餵食，讓魚長大。

可是有一天，那位坐在隔壁桌的人，
也就是從事養殖小魚業的老先生一看網裡，
卻發現網的四個角落竟然有偷懶不游的小魚，
這些魚要是不游就不會長大。
所以，他就想了個辦法，
既然四方形網的角落會讓魚躲在那裡偷懶，
乾脆架成圓形的網算了。

他的構想的確很有效果，
小魚果然找不到休息的地方，
只能在圓形的網裡環遊，
可是問題卻發生了，架起圓形網的數個月後，
小魚全都死光了，因為太累而累死了。

結果，他再一次架起四方形的網，
然後往養魚網裡面看，
他這次發現偷懶不游的並非特定的魚群，
而是互相輪流，
原來魚兒們都是適度的休息後再游的。

' 休息是必要的 '

我们很多时候都認為人的存在價值是以做事來證明，
或是被人認可才能證明的人，
或許很難休息，但有時候什麼也不管就休息，
說不定反而會發現什麼也不做的自己，
其實也是很有價值。

休息是為了走更長遠的路。
別給自己太大的壓力，要懂得舒解自己的壓力，
別太累了！

記住下面這句話：
「 人在天堂，錢在銀行 」
辛勤奮鬥一輩子，啥也帶不走...便宜了誰？

how would u enjoy singing when all the people are requesting for songs which you do not know how to sing le?
i wonder what are we waiting for le?


basically the primary gathering wasss.......
still okay la...
but just suggest not to go such expensive places in the future.
:)

finally after chinese new year..
i marked another journey in my life..
and me and my bf we have decided to get ourselves a place..
b4 we plan for our wedding..
(but this will be a few years down the road)

i'm aiming for a good condo and actually i was touched when my bf say okay to buy a condo nearby my existing house.
because with the same price, we would have bought a landed property with same amount of money just that it would be even further from my current house and would need to think of it's convenience. maybe in shah alam or even rawang.

travelling is quite time consuming..
like what i say, i still like the place i'm currently staying.
i'm just wondering why my bf decided to let go the place he like with a cheaper /more affordable price. in taman melati.
and choose to get a house in jalan ipoh.

actually the condo is currently under soft launch..
but almost half the condo are being taken up before it's official launch.
it's weird...
cos it's quite pricey..

there would be a lot of suggestion or voice when you decide to get a house.
it seems like i'm deciding to settle down with him.
and wish that we would have a long long way to go further.

actually looking forward to a place to stay which is nearby where i used to stay.
and the place is actually near my primary school
and near by the KTM station.
even most of the people are saying KTM services is not good.
but for me it's better than nothing.

looking forward for a better lifestyle when i decided to get married.
and i do think there would not always be an opportunity.
i think we should grab it when we can.
and not to regret when the opportunity is gone.

澄豪、静雯、锦辉、緻庄、建文、迪庆、建南

toasting for a better rat year!!!!

i'm considering of getting myself an insurance policy...
dunno why i keep on rejecting myself from getting involved with insurance agent.

there is lots of conflicts within myself.

which insurance company to choose...
who to buy insurance with...
shouldn't i buy insurance with my primary friend
college friend?

why i choose someone who is a stranger to me?

somemore listen to my bf...
will make me change my mind?
maybe cos of the willingness to treat someone good...
willingness to listen..
willingness to care...

i ask my boss how many insurance have you bought?
what has resulted you to buy the insurance?

she say
'they say this is good, then i buy'
'people ask me to buy'

herm...
i wonder...
to me i do not see what's the importance of buying insurance for the time being...
other than claiming for income tax deduction.

chinese new year...
must wear RED RED
like what uncle freddie say...
红红不会害人
happy chinese new year and great chinese new year

it's amazing that after so many years you still get back to meet your primary friends after so many years.
frankly speaking i really treasure the friendship with them a lot.
even we only got the chance to meet them maybe once a year.

looking forward for the gathering..
and looking foraward when we manage to gether 50 people in the class :)

have not been blogging for long long time..
it's not because i do not have the time.
it's just because i'm lazy.

but if i continue to be lazy.. how am i going to achive at least 100 blog per annum?
weird...
last time when i'm studing...
i can blog almost everything.
maybe that time is really stressful
but i know how to release my stress through blogging...

but now i'm stress..
dunno who to talk wit
and just do not wanna blog it out.
and all the rubbish and toxic are inside me..
looking forward for someone i can share it with him/her...

one table full of food to pray before reunion dinner :)


Fish

chicken and specially fried pork


Fried meat ball


mixed vegetable,fried prawn and marmite chicken


ah ma's famous dish... "hai sim"


noddle for every1 :)

Aesthetic (Music:澤野弘之 Vocal:関山藍果)
作詞：今井麻紀子　作曲：澤野弘之 Vocal：関山藍果

Longing for you day and in dream
I'm hoping you are here and leading my way
You steers my road anytime I need
If you walk away, I will follow you
Trying my life
With your sacred gifts you gave to me
I won’t vain and succeed it as your precious soul
Holding your hand
And I'm walking through the all of the world
Carrying your wish like the Venus in the dim sky

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i've been watching this japanese drama this week
the name of this drama is called 医龍 "team medical dragon" or "iryu"

very short and interesting drama.
like it very much and the theme song are very very nice too :)

yesterday a manager ask me why seldom heard my laughter recently is it i'm not happy...
haha...
erm.. i look depressed recently.
now. i think i'm just understress..
a lot of things need to be done.
and i think that i'm not really careful enough lo.

jus feel not happy with my work.
just feel not living up to expectation.
just feel i need a long break.
staying at home doing nothing.

just feel i'm breaking down.

just bought gary's new album super sunshine.
it's nice super sunshine.

'you are my sunshine,
my only sunshine
因为有了你的爱，
从此不平凡‘

i always feel that his album need to listen for long long time
the longer u listen to it.
you will definately fall in love wit every one of it.

i tought his new album got canto song.
but there isn't any
his quite good in singing canto song.
but there is two of the song which are from the canto song which he sang earlier last year.

listening to his song..
and my new year is fill with his song..

haha
this month has over spend d...
out of control.

那天晚上又梦见你了。
我们和好了。
好开心
虽然它只是一场梦。

常听别人说，梦往往和现实是相反的。
那么你会就不要我这个朋友了吗？
内心总是矛盾的。

好想见你，
可是感觉上我们彼此就是大家不愿触碰的伤痕
只能遥远相望
却一点也不想去触碰的那一块

好想见你
一直在原地等你
是我赶不上你的改变
是我赶不上你的脚步
是我累了

希望可以回到过去
曾经的美好

have been thinking whether it's good to spend all our time together?
whether we should spend more time together or we should left each other alone.
and have more time for ourselves :)

sometimes i wonder whether love is all about two person only or it includes a lot of other poeple?
sometimes i feel it's not as simple as two people getting together.
when you wanna get together for live it involve a lot of people.
i'm trying to get used to it.

it's the begining of the year,
it's time to think of what i want to do this year.
and what's my target.

let me see what's in my plan this year.
1) i should be going to taiwan end of September
2) to speed up my work and work faster
3) to start driving ... (haha... this is target for every year, but still fail every year :P)
4) to learn something new this year

hehe.. hopefully my life will be meaningful this year.
hopefull.. everything is good this year :)

牙痛了好几个晚上，昨天晚上还痛得不能入眠。
感觉上对自己很内疚。
因为没有好好照顾自己的牙齿。

所以今天就下定决心要把我的智慧齿拔掉。
以为拔智慧齿钱包会和牙齿一样的痛。
因为常常听别人所自己拔智慧齿的故事，总是离不开痛和很贵。

我去看的这个牙医已经替我看了很多年了。
感觉上她是亲切而且收费是蛮合理的。

进去的时候就告诉她我左边的智慧齿坏了。
然后她就仔细地替我检查了一下，
就告诉我，你的智慧齿真的蛀了，
接着她就问我,你要拔牙吗？
我也立刻点头答应了。

医生用一种很奇怪的语气说你要拔牙吗？
我就告诉她牙痛让我彻夜难眠。
所以干脆把她拔掉算了。
在我同意了以后。
她就在智慧齿的附近，应该是进行消毒的动作。
然后给我打了一针，麻醉针。
然后她就叫我出去。
relax一下。
放松心情。

但因为要拔牙还是难免会有紧张的心情。
就会有一种忐忑不安的心情。
但医生只花了三两下的功夫就把我的智慧齿拔出来了。

感觉上有些解脱的感觉
痛。
但这应该就是短暂的痛吧！
希望牙齿不要继续痛下去了！

在新加坡的铁路等候火车的时候看见这十个字。
在新的一年与大家共勉之！
translate in to english is value life, act responsibily.
just want to share this thing i saw at Singapore MRT station.
i think it's not just you need it when you are at the MRT station.
you need it when you do whatever in you daily life.

my friend have some bad luck today..
bcos when she went to buy the monthly pass at the LRT station,
she accidentally gave the cashier 3 RM 50 instead of 2 RM 50.
and she did not notice it until she walk away from the counter..
and then she lost RM 50 at the end of the month where she just got her salary.
poor poor her...

but i do think it's a good dead that you do not cheat on other people's money.
not trying to be 贪小便宜all the time.

Have you ever been to kluang station at The Curve or One Utama? Ever wonder whether there is really a Coffee station at Kluang and the food are as good as Kluang Station.

Last holiday i went to Kluang and i had this opportunity to enjoy the goodness of the breakfast at Kluang station.



What is a breakfast without a good cup of coffee or one nice tick Milo?

it seems next year is something very far...
but now.. next year is just 2moro...
so... wonder are you looking forward for next year?
yes i'm...

i'm finally back to my home sweet home...
too tired to blog anything...
too many things to blog...
wondering...
and to be continue 2moro...

there is this vegetarian shop nearby my office...
i always like to stop by and have lunch/dinner there.
the dishes are nice and suits my taste a lot.
and annother thing i like about the shop is thier 镇店之宝


干嘛要拍我啊！

好吧。。快快拍完了，我要去招呼客人啦！

she's cute and she will come and distribute menu and collect money sometimes when she is pleased.
haha... how cute...
i like to call her 镇店之宝 because
most of the customer who came to the shop also cant take their eyes off her.
it seems like she is one of the attraction of the shop bsides the food is good..
but she always show her sour face...
and rarely say bye bye...
and she always run around the shop... hahaha...
cute cute gal...
and my bf like her also as well :)

19 more post to go to achieve 100 this year...
of course i would not want to post for the sake of posting...
hahaha...

feel like i'm getting sick soon...
sore throat and running nose...
so how m i going to enjoy my holiday?
ai... dunno la...

I always think that I know everything
But you insist I know nothing
I always fight to have very last word
But your thoughts were never heard

I'm sorry, so sorry
Didn't mean to hurt you
I'll borrow your sorrow
Don't tell me it's through

I wish I could take back some things I said
I wish I could make things better
I wish I could take back some things I did
Everyday I'm feeling sadder

I'm sorry, so sorry
Didn't mean to hurt you
I'll borrow your sorrow
It's my turn now to cry

Never fear I'll be here
Say a prayer
We can take on the hands of time
And I, I know we can make it
If we just stay together
And trust each other on this one
I'm sorry, so sorry
Didn't mean to hurt you
I'll borrow your sorrow
Don't tell me it's through,
don't tell me it's through
Said I'm sorry, I'm so sorry
I've never meant to, never meant to hurt you
I'll borrow, I will borrow your sorrow
It's my turn now to cry
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

this is one of the song i like...
i'm sorry and i meant it...

i had a bad dream...
it was weird cos the dream was real..
quite real..

luckily managed to wake up before the bad dream ended..
eventhough it seems like it would never be ending..
cos it's a dream which is talking about daily life..

i scare me a lot..
maybe it's trying to teach me to treasure the things around me..
not taking for granted.
and starting the appreciate the things that you own...

seeing my boss being so busy and i cant help much with her actually i felt myself a bit sorry la..

too bad.. i'm still too weak leh...
just hoping that i'm going to be strong soon.. hoping everything will goes well soon :)

it's about one and half year since i moved to the new floor.
and there are a lot of changes to it.
i.e.
from desktop to using laptop.
my neighbour from a guy.. become a gal..
things are getting more and more at my work place...
herm...
try to tidy up..
but it's sort of difficult..
but try to make my work place as cosy as possible to make myself like to work :)

this is how my work place look like one and half year ago :)

this is an extract of the article about the the polymer bank note i found in BNM's website :)

The easily recognisable feel, look and check security features of the RM5 Polymer banknote are highlighted as an identification guide for the public. Please note that the current RM5 paper banknote remains legal tender but will be withdrawn gradually from circulation.

Advantages of the polymer banknote :

Stronger and more durable than paper banknote
Does not absorb dirt or liquid
Cleaner and more hygienic as it minimise growth of bacteria
Difficult, time consuming and costly to counterfeit

hoh.. see the quality of the note?
durable...
yes...
need to use tape to tape it..
wonder whether it is usable..
and...
some of the poor hawker received such note.. which was torn into half..
they also din notice it...
and buy the time they notice..
they have not tears to cry on...
what i do wit it?

of course i'll use my tape to tape it..
and continue to use it lo..
what can i do with it?
hopefully can use it out quitely :P

this year i post lesser and lesser..
one main point is cos i'm busy...
another cos... i'm lazy...
yeah it rhythm..

but...
i'm try to hit the target of posting 100 post this year...

huh? this means that i've got 25 more to go to write?
meaning 3/4 post per day?
i'm crazy?
siao liao la...

to me...
my blog i would like to put something meaningful.
something i see and what i feel..
cos it's meaningless if i just keep on putting rubbish on my blog rite? :)

yesterday.. me, my bf and his housemate and roommate have their very first steamboat at home since they moved to kl...
cos i'm vegetarian..
so i have annother special rice cooker for myself.. :)




busy putting all you want to eat inside the rice cooker...
all you can eat...
and all you want to eat... :)
dinner is self service and you can watch downloaded tvb series while waiting for the food to be cooked :)



yi ta da ki ma su (我要开动了)

there is a lot of vege used in the steamboat...
mushroom too.. :)
a bit of the frozen fishball, seafood product, hotdog, seawead and egg...
end up we are too full and cant finished the mee we prepared just in case the food are not enough..

this is the first time that we prepare for seamboat and the conclusion is...
we bought too many stuff and we cant finished everythings leh :)
but we still have a very very enjoyable nite :)

actually i feel very sorry for you..
seeing you working so hard and yet..
there is someone so anti to work together wit you in the group.
i wanted to stand up for you..
but a coward like me would not know how to stand up for u.

i understand the purposes of you working so hard is to meet our group billing budget.
but would they understand?
they have been with the group one year plus.
and they have not been through the pain of need to bill to meet the budget
to them it's just nothing

you always ask them to put yourself into other's shoe.
but has they really put themselves into your shoe?

they just play and joke around..
just like they are still very young...
why you need to work so hard?
because you like it?
enjoy it?
what's life for you?

i just cant stand people being misunderstood..
and it's just very unfair in my eyes...

i would like to try to review the junior work..
but the work never came back to me.
it went straight back to you.
i was thinking then, what's the point of me reviewing their work?

yeah... maybe it's just like what you said,
i'm just too sensitive :)
sometimes i think only sensitive person would appreciate how other people thinks.

but... to me..
the most important things is not to be so stubborn on stuff which are mitty gritty.

it's the latest movie in town...
how? are you going to watch it?

bought a new handphone...
so.. looking forward to take very very nice picture of what i see and heard
looking forward to let people see the world through the eyes of tee chong...

so hope to blog more with photo..

have not been getting myself a new handphone since i enter college.
the last phone i bought was the 3310 i bought when i enter the college..
and it was about 6 years ago?

and on and off i switch to better phone...
but the phone are either second hand from my bf or third hand from my bf brot/sis...
so.. now with my better phone...
i would like to take more picture lo :)
looking forward for a better me :)

很好奇也并不晓得你会不会很偶然或很偶尔，跑到我的blog里头看看笨笨的我在写些什么东西。

感觉自己很傻。
还有期待和憧憬。
也并不知道自己期待和憧憬些什么东西。

很多的东西是自己忽略了
但回头太难了
事情或友情已经不复存在

希望有天你会读到这篇日志
发觉原来我偶尔也会想想你
虽然我们很早就已经没有共同的话题

很想念听梁静茹的歌。
因为她的歌陪伴我最伤心的时间
也常常让我想起你。

或许很多东西会因为我们
错过以后，遗憾过后更清楚，更清晰自己要什么东西

或许我和他一样
选择放弃是因为
希望你有更多自由
做你想要做到事情

请原谅我一厢情愿的
幻想我为你所做的都是为你好
虽然可能在你身边支持你
可能就是最好的

可是很多很多年以后
却发觉我还站在我们友情的原点
而你却已经跑了很远很远
怎么也寻找不到你的踪迹

yesterday meet my MD in the lift...
and ...
in a coincidence i wore skirt yesterday..
and he praised that i look smart yesterday.

actually sometimes i feel very pai seh every time i wear skirt cos will be tease by someone.
very used to wearing pants to work.
and to them it's as if i do not wear skirt at all.

it's little bit funny..
just i'm scared that it's very troublesome.
and cumbersome..
it's not because i do not like to wear skirt.
it's just more simple for me to wear pants.
that's it.

however, as it is more and more difficult to find suitable and nice pants,
i think i might need to wear skirt in the future d.

have not been treating myself good for the past few months...
just make myself busy..
living without quality...
my room is messy..
my table in the office is messy...
my table at home is messy...
all i care the most is work..
work and work...

so now.. when peak is coming to an end...
will try not to treat myself so bad...
tidy up the table..
tidy up the room...
treat myself a little bit better..

a little bit nicer...
a little bit better...
but do not relax myself..
keep myself moving...
keep improving..

bought 3 original album recently...
victor's "need you the most"..
micheal's "never apart"(不会不分离)
fish's "J'adore"(崇拜)

sometimes wonder why need to buy original?
cos..
i can easily DL them from the website at now cost...
with the fast Internet connection in the office...
and i just put it in my computer if i ever need to listen to it i jus on it.
i do not need the disc as well.

so i'm questioning myself why need to buy original...

and the debate is...

i'm an ethical person? (haha... i already downloaded all their song.. b4.. i bought the album... so what's the point...)

to support local singer? (the Malaysian boleh attitude.. so must support them?)

to play it inside my Kenari? (haha.. you do not drive.. and your bf dun like you to
play the CD and prefer to listen to MY fm... so.. what's the point?)

cos i got $$ (yeah.. buying the album meaning no $$ to save meaning getting poorer)

satisfaction of buying original (... ...)

end up... just like what my bf say...
(ai.. your wasting your $$)

but for me it's just feel it's good to reward myself...
doing something i like.. getting something i want at a price i think it's okay for me.

so.. conclusion is..
I can do what i like with the $$ i earn myself..
so.. i got nothing to complaint...

have been treating myself bad this few months...
not taking leave for half a year? cos got a lot of stuff to rush..
so now decided to treat myself better..
took one day off on the monday b4 sultan's b'day (public holiday)
reli need a good rest..

also to treat myself better..
today went for shopping and bought a couple of thins for myself..

fish new album..
SeeD working attire cot + skirt.. (with one free big SeeD bag)
dress for annual dinner..
and... the credit card limit(here refer to my internally set limit) for the month.. burst again... haha... scarry

and suddenly notice that i'm getting out of figure...
fat.. fatter... going to be fattest d...
got fat ever since started working..
mayb because i got very good appetite cos of working presure.
sometimes feel upset wit myself why i'm treating myself so bad..
i think need to control.
so that... i need to save $$ as well :)

erm...
sometimes wondering why need to work so hard...
sometimes wonder why money is always not enough..
sometimes wonder why i cant keep my $$

haha...
maybe it's time for me to cut my credit card...
gotta be better in controlling one's $$ spending..

erm..

有时候感觉上是很挣扎的。。
生活就是如此

Charming, poised and sociable you need peace and harmony around you and always seek to create a happy environment. Perceptive and with strong intuition you are able to make sound judgements. You show great flexibility in attitude being open and responsive to the needs and opinions of others. This ability gives you potential for success in business dealing with the public. Your warm personality and caring ways ensure you are loved by family and friends.

sounds correct wor?
what do you think/

it's seems to be super stressed for me this few weeks...
filing deadline is near and job cant be finished.

and i can sleep during the nite time...
but jus short short little sleep and will automatically wake up at before 6 and i will force myself to continue to work...
ai... wonder why i want to live this kind of life...
looking forward it to come to an end...
actually i think a lot of things can be avoided for the last minute rush.
maybe cos i did not did my part well enough...

just realised i did a tax computation using the wrong principle.
actually for me it's weird cos nobody notice the way of computation is wrong.
luckily i notice it when i'm doing some reading for another company with similar nature...
maybe this is one of the cause of my stress..
haha.. yeah i'm super stressed now...
last time is just the hand shivering ...
now it's cant sleep well...
my days does not end with the end of the tax filing for the month..
there are still a few companies to go.
all big big one...
it's gonna be super stressed for me up to Dec ...
looking forward to finish everything soon :)

so...
i'm sick again...
still reluctant to go and see doctor...
so.... doctor tee chong know how to cure me gua...

this time i'm having bad cough...
maybe it's because of the weather
maybe because the other side of the office is having renovation work on progress..
ai.. wonder why i'm sick...
haha... maybe i let some1 'gek dao'

sometimes i wonder whether i'm doing the correct stuff?
sometimes i wonder why i'm working so hard...

at least now i suffer less..
my manager dun have bad impression to me
haha.. i'm still weak in certain aspect..
trying to improve...
trying to move up..
trying to be better...

looking forward for something better in my work...
looking forward for something more interesting..

中文版
一场很美变成很惨的恋爱
泪流不止的心还包着绷带
又痛又愁看不开
我把自己藏成模糊的存在

爱情永远没有答案总要猜
眼角湿着嘴角笑着放大悲哀
又伤又累不明白
怎么躲不开得到又失去的无奈

all i wanna do is find a way
back into love
多想有一个人能和我分享快乐

是谁叫你这样傻傻闯进来
自以为是分析我有多奇怪
我却无从辩白
在狼狈中又被变新的痛快

你的加油让我有梦想不感慨
你的批评让我生气难忍耐
偏偏又命中要害
你的诚实变我的依赖

all i wanna do is find a way
back into love
找到了一个人能和我分享快乐
为什么当我牵你的手
会觉得天堂是散步就能走到的

当我又在犹豫应该不应该
爱我吻我让我气喘不过来
当我笨的想逃开
痛骂我能让我感觉到爱

all i wanna do is find a way
back into love
尽情享受两个人最靠近得快乐
一个人不懂那种快乐
两颗心摩擦着缠绕着
经历各不同的绳索
带我们攀越上爱得最巅峰

way back into love.
original version
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

[Verse 2]
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

[Middle-eight]
(Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

this is annother movie that i think i would like to watch..
yet..
it's not the type of movie he would like to watch...
sometimes there are a lot of consideration when deciding whether we want to watch the movie or not.
sometimes it's all becos of him.
yeah.. why?

so... i should find someone who will go watch those movie which he would not wanna watch with me???

so here comes the first day of my long raya break...
consider not so long only four days.
and one day of it i use it to go back to office to tidy my things...
end up nothing much was tidy up..
but managed to solve my last tax computation,
the queries raised by my manager...
so that i can pass it to my senior tax manager for review.

jus realised that i really can work very very hard to finish my job...
i just came out with 4 tax computation within a week...
and all of it not consider a dormant tax computation...
all tax computation are either big or medium in size and transaction.

jus feel thankful for what my manager did...
forced us to speed up.
and i managed to complete almost all the portfolio under her care.

so... the first day of my raya break..
gone.. finished...
so.. at nite.. what i did was to watch a movie..
call 生日快乐
wanted to watch the movie for long long time.
never watched it in the cinema.. cos
i know he would think it's not a nice movie..
waste of time..
and it's not the type of movie he would wanna watch..
din force him..
cos i know i'm not the type of person who will force him to do so.

feel agreeable with the movie...
i know i'll like the movie
with the cast of the actor, rene liu...
so...
there goes first day of the raya break...

so
what did i do on the second day?
to be continue...

sometimes if you ask me why i did not update my blog.
it's not because i got nothing much to update.

just that i'm not in the mood of writing or
i'm just simply lazy...

this raya...
did not follow him back to his hometown...

why?
cos i'm lazy...
lazy to ask my dad for permission.
lazy to have to teman him to be together with his friends.

so...
my raya plan started with a lot of tax computation
(usual what i need to do all the time)
a lot of hk tv series... and movies which i wanted to watch and no time or nobody would accompany me to watch it. and
my messy room to tidy it up...

so this is the begining...
will tell more on the next blog...

我不明白为什么你是表面上看来那么无知和无辜？
为什么小小的东西都没有做好？

为什么简单的事情你也那么善忘？
感觉上自己是很生气的
然后感觉上自己生气是不值得的

为什么要用一个笨蛋做的事情来让自己生气呢？
这样做值得吗？

我不知道为什么别人生气你的时候你却那么若无其事
可以这样的吗？

做人做事凡事都需要‘醒目’些！
这我们还需要教你的吗？

现在我只能祈祷时间能够让你清醒。
让你进步
大家让我们一起为她祈祷吧！！！！

the presure of working makes me mad and it has been a long long time since i last went to watch a movie.

then today i went to my IT guy place to get some movie to watch... (thanks to them la)
then i realised that there is this movie call 200 pound beauty...
i wanted to watch it for so long but never have a chance to watch it.
herm... my bf say he will copy for me but never...
but never mind la..
finally i get to watch it myself...

at least it helps me to release some of my tension.
take my mind away from work...

doing something which i'm happy with...
looking forward for something good soon..
hoping everything will be smooth sailing lo :)

my friend no longer is Ms Yong after today...
erm...
i wonder when is my turn...
but it seems there is still long long way to go.
sometimes you envy other people getting married.

but getting married seems not to be an easy job.
it involved a lot of people and a lot of money.

a lot of things you need to take care of.
need to inform a lot of people
and you need to consider who are the friends you need to invite them to your big day

to me...
i'm looking forward for that day sometime in the near future...
but it's definately not this year or next...

our committee has been planning for an outdoor programme to enable us to attract more people to join us at a lower cost on us.

and suddenly last Thursday our advisor told us it's too dangerous to organise it at a public place.

actually i do not like this type of last minute changes...
and it seems that you are not agreeable with what we did in the first place.
if you are not agreeable then you should tell us in the first place.
and your whole suggestion defeated our purposes.
and annother things which i do not like about is...
since you say is democratic..
why it's a programme orginised by our own committee and what's the purposes of organising it at your own way?

if you want to object it ...
please infrom earlier...
do not try to change the plan last minute...
and end up still fall back to square one again...

I'm delighted...
why? cos my scanner revived...
can scan document in PDF format again...
:)

it seems since it last kena a lot of virus it stop to being able to scan document in PDF format..
need to take care of my printer cum scanner lo...
cos it really help me a lot in terms of my work.

yesterday i was sick (i think today as well)
and then i went to see the doctor.

the consultation lasted for less than 5 minutes and
it just seems like i'm the doctor i tell him where i'm sick he just give medicine accordingly.

hello? come one...
doctor... aren't you suppose to do a complete check on me b4 you are going to give me the correct medication?
to ensure everything is okay with me?
he didn't even take my temperature...
and when i came home i started having fever....
terrible...

okay la... I admit i do not intend to take the medication...
but truly i'm sick...
and my intention to see the doctor is solely to get the MC :P
haha it's not because i do not want to work..
but i'm sick but i just need a good rest at home.

hey doctor....
be more ethical...
at least take my temperature...
see whether i got fever...
but i do not like clinics...
it make me sick and wanna vomit..
hope everything will be okay for me today..
pray for me...
and hope you all are in the pink health as well....

*blur blur tee chong*

have not been updating lately...
there is only one reason,
it's not because i have nothing to write...
but I'm just a bit far damn too lazy...
haha...

busy with another heavy filing,
busy with another annual budget seminar.
need to hit target,
need to call people.
boss saying this is how you are getting revenue for the firm
boss say this is how you are going to move up...

i know i sucks in the area
make me more and more demotivated.
why doing tax at the same time you also need to do marketing leh?
notice when you are high high up there you do not only doing tax computation,
but you need to talk to people, social with people..
learn how other become so successful.

I'm a bit tired..
and people asking you why you still in D company,
i do not know how to answer?
wondering whether my career would go further...
and you even have pressure when the MD started to know your name
asking you question
and people are telling you, you are targeted to be promoted to ATM soon...
and i wonder how soon is soon...
feeling that my motivation is fading away
feeling that i need some counseling..

it seems to be very very pressure for me...
cos filing dateline is two more months to go...
make a lot of promise to my manager...
and it seems I'm giving a lot of pressure to myself.

I wonder whether I can take it anymore...
but do not think of leaving the company soon...
just feel a bit tired.

wanna balance my life and also my work.
and then the would like to learn how to handle people.
sometimes feel very tired of the junior...

Just hope that after merdeka...
everything will sail smooth...

sometimes it come to a time in life there are a lot of surprise...
and you would not know what you would be expecting in front.

and sometimes there come a time that people suddenly bomb you with their red bomb...
without giving any signal.
haha...

cant say that it's not possible.
just think that anything is possible,
it's just that whether you want to do it or not...
whether you choose to do it or not.

now just wanna wish my friend all the happiness on her new life.

王:你是我心内的一首歌
ni shi wa sim lai ah zhi xiu gua

王:心间开启花一朵
xin jian kai qi hua yi duo

s:你是我生命的一首歌
ni shi wo sheng ming de yi shou ge

s:想念汇成一条河
xiang nian hui cheng yi tiao he

王:惦在我心内的一首歌
diam zai wa xim lai eh zhi xiu gua

王:不要只是个过客
bu yao zhi shi ge guo ke

s:在我生命留下一首歌
zai wo sheng ming liu xia yi shou ge

s:不论结局会如何
bu lun jie ju hui ru he

合:好想问你
hao xiang wen ni

合:对我到底有没有动心
dui wo dao di you mei you dong xin

合:沉默太久
chen mo tai jiu

s:只会让我不小心犯错
zhi hui rang wo bu xiao xin fan cuo

王:不小心犯错
bu xiao xin fan chuo

作詞：阿丹/鄔裕康　作曲：曹格　編曲：涂惠源

雨　不停落下來　 花　怎麼都不開
yu buting lou xia lai hua zenme dou bu kai
the rain doesn't seems to stop the flower doesn't seems to bloom

儘管我細心灌溉　 你說不愛就不愛 　我一個人　欣賞悲哀
jinguan wo xixin guangai ni shuo bu ai jiu bu ai wo yi ge ren xin shang bei ai
eventhough i take care of it carefully you but you directly reject my love leaving me alone admiring my sorrow

愛　只剩下無奈　 我　一直不願再去猜
ai zhi shen xia wu nai wo yi zhi bu yuan zai qu cai
love just leaving back messarble i do not wish to guess anymore

鋼琴上黑鍵之間　 永遠都夾著空白　
gang qin shang hei jian zhi jian yong yuan dou jia zhe kong bai
There will be always white keys in between the black keys on the piano
缺了一塊　就不精采
que le yi kuai jiu bu jing cai
if left out one it would not be perfect/exciting

緊緊相依的心如何Say goodbye　
jin jin xiang yi de xin ru he Say Goodbye
How to say goodbye to the hearts which was held so closely?

你比我清楚還要我說明白
ni bi wo qing chu hai yao wo suo ming bai
you are clearer than me, but you want me to clarify

愛太深會讓人瘋狂的勇敢　
ai tai shen hui rang ren feng kuang de yong gan
Loving too deep will cause someone to act crazyly brave

我用背叛自己　完成你的期盼
wo yong bei pai zi ji wan cheng ni de qi pan
I betrayed myself to fulfill your hope/dreams

把手放開不問一句Say goodbye
ba shou fang kai bu wen yi ju say goodbye
let go of my hand and saying goodbye without asking any question

當作最後一次對你的溺愛
dang zuo zui hou yi ci dui ni de ni ai
treat it as the last indulgence for you

冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管　
leng leng qing qing dan dan jin hou dou bu guan
Coldly, drearily, mildly (I) will no longer watch (over you)
(and there after, i do not care about you no matter what happened)

只要你能愉快
zhi yao ni neng yu kuai
as long as you are happy

心　有一句感慨
xin you yi ju gan kai
there is some regret inside my heart

我　還能夠跟誰對白
wo hai neng gou gen shui dui bai
Who else can i communicate with?

在你關上門之前　
zai ni guan shang men zhi qian
before you close your heart for someone

替我再回頭看看　那些片段　還在不在
ti wo zai hui tou kan kan na xie pian duan hai zai bu zai
please look backwards for me to see whether there is any of the memory left.

just for fun to translate the lyris :) to what i think it means

作詞：阿丹/鄔裕康　作曲：曹格　編曲：涂惠源
雨　不停落下來　花　怎麼都不開
儘管我細心灌溉　你說不愛就不愛　我一個人　欣賞悲哀

愛　只剩下無奈　我　一直不願再去猜
鋼琴上黑鍵之間　永遠都夾著空白　缺了一塊　就不精采

緊緊相依的心如何Say goodbye　你比我清楚還要我說明白
愛太深會讓人瘋狂的勇敢　我用背叛自己　完成你的期盼

把手放開不問一句Say goodbye　當作最後一次對你的溺愛
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管　只要你能愉快

心　有一句感慨　我　還能夠跟誰對白
在你關上門之前　替我再回頭看看　那些片段　還在不在


this song specially dedicated to my friend...
who his x jus got married/engaged on 070707....

i dedicate this song to him... is not bcos i mean the gal betrayed him...
but... with the meaning of the song...
i betrayed myself to let you go....

so... wish him luck in looking for his next target...
and also... wish that i do not need to dedicate this song to him again...
cheers....

PLUS :Pay Lebih Untuk Sami

KTM :Keretapi Taktau Masa

JKR :Jangan Kerja Rajin

PLKN : Perempuan Letup Kerana Najib

DBKL : Datuk Badawi Kahwin Lagi

RTM : Rehat Tunggu Mati

some of the very funny short form...

it's hard for me when you are tension...
and you try your very best to release it...
and you end of getting sick :P

just feel glad that i watched die heart 4.0 today.
quiet a great one...
at least better than HP5
haha... so bad for me to say like tat.
hehe... really nice show... and if you want me to say something regarding the show.
i would say... if you like action movie...
you would like the movie very much...
action packed movie :)

it's not that i do not want to update my blog... but it seems like i have not much time to do some quality blogging.

my pc in the office just being converted to laptop...
and with the laptop your responsibility become higher and greater...
and with that... it seems that you can work 24/7... haha :P

sien la...

actually life is in a mess lately...
why?
because it's peak period now..
and i realised things are in a mess..
as i need to take leave as my grandpa was sick...
and subsequently he suddenly pass away because his sickness could not be cured.

it's seems like things in life are just like tat...
people come and go...
and regardless whether you can take it or not..
it's already a fact.

i just hope that he would rest in peace...
and things will sail smoothly.

haha...
suddenly updated my blog...
with a lot of my tought...
hope it doesn't overload it...

因为刚刚把电脑format了， 然后有很多的东西都被delete掉了。
电脑就好像个刚刚呀呀学语的小孩一样，
然后我就拼命灌输它很多很多的软件让它能够恢复以前那个电脑。
可是instal软件需要很多的时间我也很忙没有很多的时间去照顾它。

电脑陪伴我的时间已经不知不觉有四、五年的时间还是觉得它是满争气的，
虽然我让它中毒很深，但它还是努力操作。
没有在我需要它的时候当机。

现在它已经被format了，也被防毒软体保护着，我会好好照顾它的。

Yeah... the latest show in town...
the hottest show in town...
all the ticket are fully booked and i managed to watch it on last Friday.. the second day the movie was on.

and i could tell you that the movie is superb.
it was being rated an 8 by the local Chinese news paper critic...
normally and usually they will give a movie 5/6 which you can go and watch and you would not think of watching it again.

however, transformer is different...
it give me a feeling that i might want to go watch it again.

and also being able to watch the movie on the second day it's very lucky and thanks a lot to jean who did the booking.
it was fun to watch movie with friends and rather watching with my bf all the time.

transformer is a cartoon who nearly every youngster in their 20 today will have a memory of it...
but it seems a bit blur for me.
actually I'm not that into this movie.
but it turns out a surprise for me..
and it's a really really great show which i think you should go to the cinema and you would agreed with what i wrote here.

go grab the movie ticket... which i think it's quite difficult to get nowadays... i heard the show was fully booked for the week...
crazy-man...

have not coming up to update my blog very often...

working is very stressful..
until my hands are shaking...
try to destress myself.

there are things which i'm upset about last week..
however managed to settle it..
try to talk to many poeple ...
and now..
i try to let go...

there are times which there are things which i cant let go...
things and job are keep piling up...
i'm trying to let myself to go to the best shape possible...

hopefully things will be alright soon...

发觉原来自己已经渐渐把你从很重要的位子给忘了。
然后彼此都不是心目中最重要的。

很难以想像自己竟然会把你的生日给忘记了。
虽然有有点迟了，
可是还是想告诉你，

我的朋友生日快乐。

have not been updating my blog as frequent as i promised myself.
have been making my life in a total mess.
have been stressing myself too much.

i just hope that everything would goes well.
try to move everything back to where it should be.
try to move up...

.... to be continue

Maybe this few days it's too stressful for me...
suddenly there is pimple poping out from my face.
maybe the deadline is near...
and there are too much things i need to handle.

however, today finally i managed to finished what has been dragged for a long long time.
hopefully everything went well and everything go smooth :)
work are coming in continously.
and i'm worried that i cant finished my work on time.

starting to be more and more organised...
starting to chart my work.
starting to be on time..
starting to move forward..
starting to advance :)

there are a lot of things i want to share and a lot of things i want and need to do :) however things seems to be difficult. as there are a lot of outstanding issues and i need to settle a lot of stuff before i can finalised things.

by end of the month i need to travel to KK for my KK trip.

looking forward for the trip and hopefully it would be a memorable one.

it's a big mess in my head and there are a lot of stuff that i need to clarify.
and i have to let everything be in order by end of the week.

hopefully with my determination, everything would go in order :)

Promised myself before that i would like to post something on my blog very frequently and continously.

however it seems that it does not work out for me.
because i'm quite busy and working on to get everything done before i'm going on leave by end of the month.

hoping that i would be able to get everything out by end of the week and settled everything before my boss leave for business trip to labuan.

a lot of things had happend and i have yet to update myself.

hopefully it would not be as busy as it would be in the next coming months:)
hopefully everything would be smooth sailing.

Are you drinking the right tea?

1. People who use their "brain" to work or students who study hard day and night.
--- should drink more chrysanthemum Tea.

2. People who need a lot of body energy to work or those people that do a lot of exercise everyday.
--- should drink Wu Loong Tea.

3. People who travel on a bike or work in dirty and polluted places.
--- should drink Green Tea.

4. For people who likes to sit down all day long and not doing anything even exercising
--- must drink Green Tea and Flower Tea.

5. People who smoke and drink a lot of alcoholic drinks.
--- should drink more Green Tea.

6. Carnnivore ( those people who must eat meat at least once a day, or feel sick or not feeling well)
--- try to drink some Wu Loong Tea.

7. People who go to the washroom too often or too less.
--- should drink more Honey Tea

8. People with high cholesterol and high blood pressure.
--- Wu Loong Tea, Green Tea.

9. Those who work with computers everyday.
--- need to drink a Lot of Tea (any tea will do).

Whenever you are working with the computer, you should make some tea, drink it when you are free.

Drinking Tea is healthy, it can protect and prevent the harmful Ultraviolet light from harming us (when using computer).

Furthermore, it can also cure us when we are tired and help making our body feel fresh again.

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All of us know that soyabean drink provides good protein to our body...
but many of us doesn't know that there are certain days we should avoid.

Soyabean drinks are best consume on hot sunny days where the sun is burning and glaring. The soya milk will gives lots of nutrients to the body, as the body is able to absorb the protein well.

However, Avoid the drink when the weather is cloudy or raining. Taking the drink in these weathers, the body will not be able to take in the protein thus will result in a disease called "GOUT" or "high acidic urine" due to the high protein residue in the body, after a long run.

This disease will cause pain to your knee joints and it will only be in control when you control your food intake of proteins and medications.
The pain is unbearable and usually you will have no idea what you have taken to cause the pain. Food like soya beans, ikan bilis, broccoli, spinach, peanuts, animal organs ( i.e. pork liver) etc will have to be avoided to prevent the pain from attacking.

So my friends, pass this to your family, relatives and friends to keep an alert of the pros and cons of soyabean milk and when it is to be taken and avoid.

Thanks for all your wishes..
Thanks to my cousins - Dee Ten, Tee Wei, Tee Ying, Keenan, Hector, Tee Jin, Foong Meng...
Thanks to Ah Ma, My Parents and 'Ber Zhim' for your Ang Pows

Thanks to Bee for your e-mail

Thanks for my colleague Mei Won, Sin Jol, Joshua, Keegan and Patrick for the lunch and the cake...

Thanks for Keegan, Joshua, Caroline, Helen, Su Ching, Patrick , Eric and Siew Heoh for your SMS...

THanks to many others for your b'day wishes...
looking forward for a better year ahead :)

失去的轉角是珍惜
the turning point of loosing is to know how to appreciate

傷心的轉角是開心
the turning point of sadness is happiness

阻礙的轉角是突破
the turning point of road block is breakthrough

失戀的轉角是勇氣
the turning point of failure in love is courage

叛逆的轉角是學乖
the turning point of being disobedient is learning how to be nice

挫折的轉角是學會
the turning point of failure is learning

i think the above are quite meaningful, as such took it and put it inside my blog and remind myself :)

Finally the conclusion is out.
Because of my hardwork for such a long long time, i only got promoted up one level.

haha...
a bit disappointed on myself.
why? cos i'm not performing up to the standard where others would like to

anyway, now the job start to be triple.
help to do review work,
help to do 'admin' work.

i can see there is more and more challenging job way ahead in the coming months
work would be harder and harder.

will try my level best to cope with it.
so i see bright future with my work la..

today i assisted my senior manager on the topic in relation to the audited financial statements.
i'm suppose to teach the junior staff on how to extract the information from the audited financial statements.

it things does not turn out well.
firstly i wrote something wrong on the board.
and then, i tried to restore the audit files.
how come some of the files are not working geh?
it feels very very weird.
so i say due to technical problem i cant open the file.
anxiao i'm clever rite?
got 'xiao chong ming'

actually from the presentation,
i found that i'm okay to face the crowd.
my face would not blush...
and i'm dare to speak out what i think :)

finally my friend got his answer.
his gf decided to breakup with him.
definately she wants a breakup no turning back.

felt a bit sad for them since i witness the starting of their relationship since the first year of our advanced diploma.
and now it ends.
should be around 3-4 years for their relationship.
i bit kasian... a bit 'ke xi'

but i have nothing to say but just to wish them to find their happiness in the future.

read my friend's blog.
suddenly notice that his gf decided to breakup with him.

just because what he wrote in his blog previously?
erm.. i wonder...
whether my bf read my blog or not?
or i just talking to an imaginary friend in the thin air?

sometimes you do not know what and how to do.
how to communicate in a better manner to the person you like or love.
the only way i know how to do is to write in all in my blog.
admit that i do not know how to express myself well.
sometimes there are a lot of tought which sometimes we do not know how to express ourself :)

do you think that you want a double promotion??
i say no...

now i'm a bit regret....
waiting for director's final decision to see whether i'm double promoted or single promoted.
there is no difference for me whether you are double promoted or single promoted.
the main difference is the expectation that others has on u.

work double and triple hard.
need to scarifies every saturday and everyday after working hours need to stay back.

still wondering whether i deserve for double promotion.
and now i think i should accept whatever my boss wanna promote me.

whatever to be it needs to be..
jus accept it...

jus work harder to get whatever i deserve :)

宝贝 ~~ 张悬
宝贝(in the night)
演唱：张悬
张悬-宝贝(in the night)
我的宝贝宝贝
给你一点甜甜
让你今夜都好眠
我的小鬼小鬼
逗逗你的眉眼
让你喜欢这世界
哇啦啦啦啦啦我的宝贝
倦的时候有个人陪
哎呀呀呀呀呀我的宝贝
要你知道你最美
让你今夜很好眠
捏捏你的小脸
让你喜欢整个明天
孤单时有人把你想念
哇啦啦啦啦啦yeah~woo
yeah~woo~

never hear this on the radio b4..
and recently i've been watching taiwan tv series on you tube...
and realised it's a very hito song at taiwan i guess.
it's a folk rock type of song..
song very nice..
the first time i heard is the song was sang by 陶子 on the tv series for the daugther..
sounds reli how nice...
maybe i could put it up in the near future...

wanna contact you for such a long time.
haven't got a chance to chat with you lately.
just wanna wish u happy b'day on ur special day.

remember that you have called me last time when my b'day comes.
i really treasure the frienship between us.
just hope that we could stay in touch..
miss ya so much...

today is evaluation day...
part 1..
talk a lot...
try to talk a lot..

and ending up i talked 3 points.

- training
- amendments on work
- and secondment overseas...

actually i have nothing much to talk about with my work..
i think the most i would laid out here.

and my boss think it would be a short one...
haha... to be continue tomorrow.

basically after finishing my acca.. it took life to another level.
what are my target and what do i want in life.
actually i guess i'm a bit blur about what i want for the time being...
but for the moment i just want be a sponge and absorb as much as possible.

we talk a lot.
talk about my senior leaving...
talk about coping with presure...
talk about my feeling back then when i feel a bit un-appreciated..
but i think the most important thing in work when you are a ground staff,
is you need to accept it..
realised it..
and let go of it...

Kajian baru-baru menunjukkan Digi (016 atau 014) tidak selamat digunakan.
Recent research shows that DIGI (016 or 014) is not safe for using it.

Apabila anda guna line Digi dan rakamkan dalam camera, dan perhatikan elok-elok.... anda boleh perhatikan kelibat seekor penunggu bewarna kuning akan mangekori pengguna tersebut. Jin atau toyol kuning ini akan ikut anda ke mana-mana: laut, gunung, hutan,
dalam komuter, malahan dalam kereta lalu kat terowong pun dia ada gak.

When you are using a DIGI line, please record with a camera and observe carefully....
You can notice that there is a stranger in yellow following the DIGI user. Gen or yellow sprit will following whereever: sea, moutain, forest, commuter, even in the car or inside the tunnel he's there as well.

Tak seram ke bila sentiasa diekori macam tu? Dah lah botak, pendek, tembam dan berwarna kuning cerah, makhluk ni jugak akan mengajuk-ajuk pergerakan anda! Pada masa yang sama, mereka akan menari-nari dan menyanyi lagi "I will follow Him" dari
filem 'Sister Act 1' yang diubahsuai liriknya.

Isn't it scarry when you are being followed by such person all the time? it's bold, short, fat and sharp yellow in colour, this 'creature' will also imitate your movement as well! At the same times they will dance and sing "I will follow Him" from the movie "Sister Act 1" which it's lyrics has been modified.

So, hati-hati dengan pengguna Digi yang dekat dengan anda, kerana anda diperhatikan. Gunalah Celcom atau Maxis, macam saya.

So be careful with DIGI user right beside you, because you are being watched. Use Celcom or Maxis just like me.

P/s: Ni bukan rekaan. Tetapi saya lihat sendiri dengan mata saya kat TV baru-baru
ini. Kenapa, tak percaya

P/S: This is not fiction. But what I see with my own bare eyes on TV lately. Why dont' you trust me?

i've been keep on loosing my mechanical pencil lately.
maybe it's because of carelessness..
and always just put the pencil just like that and dunno where it drop d..

maybe i'm too careless...
suddenly this week i found my mechanical pencil back..
haha :)
one of it is back with me so happy.
maybe it's just a good sign.
what is lost and will be coming back to me :)

happy chinese new year too all again..
even it's going to end by tomorrow :)

During chinese new year, we went back to my mom's home town, penang to celebrate chinese new year with grandpa and grandma.
and on the second day we are there we went to the restaurant for dinner and order the 120 steamboat set which is suitable for 6-8 person
the following are the pictures of what are the stuff we put inside the vegetarian steamboat:-

'bak choy', fake mutton, 'yam yu' which looks a bit the squit, fake prawn, fish ball, and nugget

'shang mee' and celery

raw mushroom, fake crab stick, some more fish ball, 'bak choy', bean curd and fake fish slice

some more vegetable, raw button mushroom, fish fingers, yam slice and the other type of fish ball

another look at the crab stick and material for steamboat.

is the soup ready? let's have a look at it

boiling soup waiting for us to put in all the ingredient.
the soup has a little milk and sesame oil
the soup taste like the soup base for fish head bee hoon.
and this dinner cost us RM120 excluding the drinks and rice

April it's the time of the year...
where they consider whether to promote you or not.
whether how much increament you are deserve to received.

actually frankly speaking,
i'm looking forward for a promotion this year.
why?
reason:-
1) because i think i deserve a promotion for my hardwork
2) because i'm looking forward for someone to sponsor my acca subscription
3) because i'm ready to accept more responsibility
4) because i want to learn more

sometimes i wonder how people fill up their evaluation form.
what is average performance and what is above average performance...

for me i think average performance is what normal poeple can do you also can do..
above average performance is what normal poeple can do you can do better than them...
excellent performance is what normal people can do you can do extremely better than them... in terms of speed and quality.

that's how i define the ranking on the work evalutation form..
and below average is always not the type of rating that i'm looking forward for lo :)

so i wonder how would my evaluation be and
would i be able to be promoted this round?

2007 has come..
and after new year and chinese new year has passed...
2007 officially have less than 10 months before it comes to an end.
time do flies when you are super busy.

i'm looking back on the past two months and looking forward on the next 9 months plus in 2007.
wondering what is my goal.
where should i be heading.
wondering how to make the year 2007 as meaningful as possible.
but i think rather than spending all my time to keep on wondering...
i should go out there and start to take action,
-to let myself have a better living environment
-to love myself more
-to love my family member more
-to love people around me more
-to try myself to blog as frequent as possible to share my tought and release my tention

i do not know why other poeple would write my name wrongly.
my name is 叶緻庄.
i feel sometimes it's weird that other poeple try to change your name to 叶"致"庄
which is in a way that is not correct.

i wonder why all my cousin sister's class teacher all say that their name is wrong.
they cannot use "緻" and in stead they need to use "致" as "緻" is considered a wrong word in the simplified chinese character.

i do feel weird that i've been using this name for 24 years in my life and i do not see how my name is wrong.
why do they not dare to fight for their own rights. the teacher has no right to say that someone's name is correct or wrong.
but now my cousin sister is used to writing the name as "致" instead of "緻" and now she feels very lazy to change back to "緻".

i do see the rasional of my grandfather giving us the name of "緻" which indicates a name of a gal and "致" which indicates a name of a boy.
by using "致" instead of "緻" does it indicate 男女平等?

but i do think that the name is so meaningful that not a teacher has the right to change the name which is given by your grand parents or parents.

so i do insist that if you wanna write my name, you have to write 叶緻庄. if not please call me tc. :)

above are picture of decoration of my office place.
actually i was shocked when i first saw the decoration.
and it really attracted a lot of attention to our group which we never have b4.

just think that life would be back to normal after chinese new year gua.

i'll be going off to penang 2moro...
have a lot of things which i have yet to do..
have to save all photo inside the pc
and also pack my clothes

it seems difficult task and many things to do..
but i think if you wanna do,
nothing is impossible
everything is possible..
and i'm working on it now ;)

i do not understand why you keep on say such things?
why need to keep on saying those not very good things?

just because other people's occupation then we say other people is not good?
i wonder why.
i do not understand...
i do not understand...
i do not understand...

what should i do?
should i listen to you?
or should i listen to my heart?
what else should i do?
i do not understand..
i cannot understand..
i do not understand how could i continue to respect you.
i do not understand how to interpret what you say is true or false.