tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

There are two bathroom one near by the living room and annother new to the master bed room

Master bed room view of the show house.. small small room with our big big love inside :)

Kitchen cum dining space and the yard is just right at the left hand side towards the end of the house

Medium room cum guest room of our new house

The construction of our new condo has been in the progress very very fast... the second 10% billing just right after two months of signing the S & P has reached my mail box last friday.

one full table of food for prayer during 端午节。got vegetarian and most of it is meat.
annother view of the one full table of food..
got fish, chicken and bak yi (meat ball) wow... very very nice oh :)

vege fish curry, vege and bak zhang..

i think the main purpose of having this 端午节is to let the family member have a good time to spend together with each other by having more and more quality time.

it's about 3 weeks or more i have not seen him.
tought we talk with each other on the phone and online everyday.
but the feeling is different when you talk to someone personnally
and talk to them on the phone or online.

sigh...

very very busy lately.
very very tired lately.

do not know what is my direction.
a lot of people asking me what is his direction
has he gotten his job?
those are question which i do not know exactly how to answer you guys.
i wonder how.

i miss him...
i really damn miss him.
i think my family members also missed him much.
especially ah ma...
missing someone who bring her to suppermarket
missing someone who would praise her for the good food she prepared.

me myself?
i also dunno whether i miss him much or not...
the feeling is complicated.

yeah... i miss him la...
but i told him you have to get your job before you want to come back and look for me.
hope that would be his motivation.
hope this can give him a great push... so that he would take more drastic action in order to get a suitable job.

since the increase in fuel price in Malaysia,

everyday or every week you would expect/you might be expecting the price of those necessity to announce their increment.

latest addition to the price increase family is the stationery.
yeah stationery especially paper.

i still remember one ream of "branded" A4 paper would cost me less than RM 10 during my college days but according to the papers the A4 paper would cost another 20-30% more due to fuel price increase and also the increase in paper price world wide.

damn it...

just when you are thinking happily that you have gotten a very satisfying increment early this year...
the government started to give you many shock such as
increase in rice price
increase in fuel price
increase in flour price
increase in stationery price
increase in house price....
so on and so...

so what's next?

another increment in our paycheck?

nah...
i think we just have to tighten our belt and be more caution
and more careful when we decided to spend.
depending whether you wanna spend luxuriously.
better stay at home and do nothing.
cos once you step out of your house you would start spending.

这是我们分开的第一个星期
希望你能够在新国实现我们一起建筑我们梦想的家园的愿望

好想你
可是不想让你知道
不想让自己成为你的牵挂
不想让你太担心自己
因为让你去操心的事情太多太多啦
寄人篱下 应该是辛苦的吧

希望你快些找到你理想的工作
希望你能够和我一样一起
很努力
赚很多很多的钱

我在这边也很努力
工作
学车
维系我们的感情

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this is the first week we are saperated

god. my sore throat came back..
god knows how torturing sore throat is.

cos he is leaving me to seek for a better job?
cos he is leaving me to let us have a better future?

scared...
i'm terribly scared.
scared my heart will change because of this.
scared of my dream will come true.
hope our heart will be together.

long long time ago, i always lost my mechanical pencil and i could not find it no matter how i look for it.
and one day i found one of the mechanical pencil slip in between by note book however, the mechanical pencil that has been with me since with form 2 has yet to found its appearance.

last week, i went to pack his things with my bf, and while we are packing i suddenly found my mechanical pencil in one of his bag. And the only feeling that i have for this 失而复得is "terkejut" other than that there are no feeling. Just feel glad that all the mechanical pencil that i had lost has come back to me.

Now when i tidy my stuff i realised that i just had too many mechanical pencil. i think i have had more than 5 same style mechanical pencil all together. weird???
maybe i just spend too much $$ on things that i like :P

你笑的时候 还是很可爱
好像从来不曾给别人伤害
多久没聚会了 你双眼眯起来
问我好不好

同一家餐厅 却变了口味
再怎么熟悉也不是滋味
曾几何时 我成了局外人
而无言以对

我已经不是你最好的朋友
是什么让我们生疏了太久
我生日才过 你也忘了吧
时间带走的比想象中还多

我再也不是你最好的朋友
分开以后默默一人往前走
有你的感动 我都记得啊
为什么那个最好的人却只能经过

想跟你说 我过得还不坏
善感的个性也都没有改
年少相知的人即使过一辈子
也无法忘怀你晓得吗

我其实非常感慨
总算还是能撑到现在
此刻才明白所有的无奈
都只是无奈

我已经不是你最好的朋友
是什么让我们生疏了太久
我生日才过 你也忘了吧
时间带走的比想象中还多

我再也不是你最好的朋友
分开以后默默一人往前走
有你的感动 我都记得啊
为什么那个最好的人
却只能经过

恍如隔世这个故事
回忆的结局剩下几个字
你说爱 终究是 一个人的事

我已经不是你最好的朋友
是什么让我们生疏了太久
我生日才过 你也忘了吧
时间带走的比想象中还多

我再也不是你最好的朋友
分开以后默默一人往前走
有你的感动 我都记得啊
为什么那个最好的人却只能经过
为何最好的人 都只是经过

keep on playing this song on my company laptop...
keep on remembering myself and you.

we are not best friend anymore...
this is what i told u...

this is the feeling i feel when i told u that
再怎么熟悉也不是滋味 曾几何时我成了局外人 而无言以对
but i just really wanna dedicate this song to my dearest friend...
hope she catch it :)

I think this is the 3rd/4th time i go to Kluang together with my bf. Nothing much in Kluang.
and the following are something new for me during this trip. This is the new food i tried that i had never tried before when i'm in Kluang. Do not find it in KL they call it "Kuey Teow Kia" (Small little Kuey Teow) and it's atcually Kuey Teow in Herbal Soup together with "lo" egg, "lo" vege instestent, "lo" tou fu and "lo" vege pork... taste nice... looks like the one i saw my friend taking during dinner time before i taste it. Just that the one she eatting is real thingy and this one which i'm showing is actually fake one.. (vege).

Besides that nothing special, breakfast at the Real Kluang Station which they name it Kluang Railway.. The food is cheap and nice (but quite pricy thou cos eating in a small town like Kluang). No picture is to be shown as it was being blog in previous blog.

After the trip at kluang, we went to JB Tebrau city as well. However no picture was taken cos busy shoping and no time to take picture lo...

on the way back to KL from Kluang we went to visit the dragon fruit farm again... this time went to see how big is the organic farm rather than having lunch there. bought some stuff back also... have not really fully look at the organic farm yet.. maybe will do it during my next trip :)

today when i login to IRB's website i realised there is something different
and an Mandarin translation of the Form BE has been uploaded to the IRB website.

and if you want access ti the Mandarin translation, you can login to IRB website and click forms and you will see some Chinese writing and you just need to click it and the Chinese translation of the Form BE will be loaded.

I would give a round of a plause to this action taken to translate the Form BE to mandrin. Actually i think a lot of the older generation of chinese who doesn't know english or malay well would benefit a lot from this effort taken to help those who are weak in Malay or English :)

我和她她和他
我们都爱她

李：别说话来一杯 呛口的Chivas
男人帮不怕辣 却被爱打垮

周：头发乱脸色差 事情再复杂
总会有解答

李：我和她她和他
我们都爱她 放不放让不让
都不是办法

周：当逃兵装伟大
再这么婆妈 你肯定失去她

李：可她接受我玫瑰花

周：你还不送她回家
你算是男人就应该勇敢吧

李：可我却害怕最后伤害会是她

周：想太多 理智的想法
不能证明你有多爱她

李：想问个明白却怕会为难她

周：却急着想要知道她的选择吧

李：好挣扎

周：问题在于你 并不在于她

李：我懂我傻

李：我和她她和他
我们都爱她 放不放让不让
都不是办法

周：当逃兵装伟大
再这么婆妈 你肯定失去她

李：可她接受我玫瑰花

周：你还不送她回家
你算是男人就应该勇敢吧

李：可我却害怕最后伤害会是她

周：想太多 理智的想法
不能证明你有多爱她

李：想问个明白却怕会为难她

周：却急着想要知道她的选择吧

李：好挣扎

周：问题在于你 并不在于她

李：我懂我傻

周：你算是男人就应该勇敢吧

李：可我却害怕最后伤害会是她

周：想太多 理智的想法
不能证明你有多爱她

李：想问个明白却怕会为难她

周：却急着想要知道她的选择吧

李：好挣扎

周：问题在于你 并不在于她

李：我懂我傻

我和她她和他
我们都爱她～～～～

just bought this album recently since the last album i bought for Gary...
yeah i just like this song inside the album.
He, She and Me..
Demo album meaning it's just a simple album.
no MSG no preservative..
maybe it's not very tasty for some of us.
maybe it's just the rite type of music you are looking for.
hope to enjoy this album...

there are a lot of job on hand recently...
a lot of additional job pop up as well..
wonder whether i can take it.
wonder how should i manage my time.
wonder whether should i get more effective

i'm bad in everything
and getting worst...
hate this feeling.
wanna improve..
wanna be better.

insist of doing something and not insist of doing annother thing.
sometimes i wonder why.
wonder why i'm emotionally affected when people around me are not doing the correct things.

there are challenges ahead.
i need to plan ahead so that i can really face them...

wishing myself having a better weekend ahead...
super streesed out

一直在想今年的生日会有怎样的惊喜。
结果我的惊喜就是“会呼吸的痛”（请听背景音乐）的蓝色摇头和脚娃娃

i've been wondering what kind of surprise i would get this year...
and it turn out this is the surprise i got.
the blue colour creature who always shake his head and leg.
i called it "breathing pain" (notice the back ground music)

一直在想没有期待，应该就没有失望吧！
但我还是失望了。
对于人性的丑陋的失望。
对于人的过份计较的厌恶。

i always think that if i have no expectation,
there would not be any disappointment to myself.
however, i'm still feeling very disappointed.
because of the ugly side of the human behaviour
because of the hatred towards the calculative human behaviour

“会呼吸的痛”让我深刻体会
自己那么努力的付出
回报却是“会呼吸的痛”

"breathing pain" let me notice that
the reward all of my hard work is
"breathing pain"

身为一个小组的一份子
自己并没有太过于去计较
自己的辈分比较高还是要去干一些比较琐碎的东西

as part of the team member
i think i'm not too calculative..
whether what position should do those simple stuff such as
"taking document for others... taking paper for the group while people always think that it should be a guy's job..."

默默地努力
只为了让小组能够有更好的表现
可是我的回报却是“会呼吸的痛”

the reward for my hardwork...
to improve the performance of the group is...
"breathing pain"

不过可以勉励自己的是
有“会呼吸的痛”总比没有的好吧！
“没鱼，虾也好”
就真正是让我要自我提升的勉励吧！

but i still wanna advice myself...
at least i have "breathing paineath"
there is a saying in hokkien
"no fish got prawn also fine"
i think this is the thing which i need to improve myself :)

if you are given 15 second to say something on radio wat would u say?

today 988新开心车队 was at our pasar malam at taman kok lian...
and they park just rite in front of my house...

by the time i went home and go to check out what happened it was quite late already 988新开心车队 was going to 'san band' already...
but yet i also get to win a hundred dollar voucher from thespalover

and at last i get a chance to record 黄金 15秒.
and what did i say?

"my name is tee chong.
yesterday was my b'day
i would like to take this opportunity to thank my parents and friends...
and wish them good health wealth and good in everything"

and everyone on the street sang happy b'day for me...
haha... happy belated b'day...
and i got annother umbrella :)

i wonder how this year my thanks a million blog will look like...
and... the answer is a bit disappoint rite?
haha...
no la.. din expect much so...
no high hope on it... and hence no disappointment :)

yeah i use the copy and paste format to thanks those people who wish me happy b'day :)

special dedication of thanks to the following group of people:-
erm.. who to start with leh?

sms ppl
jean(who is the late commer) ~~ siew heoh ~ Hui Ling (the mummy) ~ uncle freddie ~ kean nam
(quite a short list as compared to previously... ah... dun care)

gtalk surprise :)
chin ann lo :) who else have a gtalk bside my office colleague :)

msn ~~
ker tyng... Uei Gin.... yen er... ywching...

Facebook ~~~
jessy (who wished me in American time :)) my two lovely cousin ... Dee who owns the same b'day as me and my cute cute cousin foong meng.. who have a thai name

Friendster ~~~
Kien Woon ~~ Betty ~~ my bf's 'bi bi' brother ah foong ~~ king sun whom i never met b4~~~~

phone call ===
May Ling @@@ Ms Lim who is my client aka my uncle's staff
Connie insurance agent
Leslie my client x staff in charge
Ms yap my client who always ask a lot of question and never pay me consultation fees :)

people who had wish me happy b'day
evie who is having her last day with us (sorry for not being able to organise a farewell party for you), ai ling, joyce ...

thanks to all those who had acccidentally forget to wish me happy b'day
thanks to those who wish not to celebrate my b'day together with me....

last but not least thanks to my dearest Joo who bring me to eat a very nice vegetarian dinner western style :)

:)
thanks again

似乎，生日有没有被祝福都已经不太重要了。
感觉生日，只是一个一年里头一个平凡的日子。

感觉上生日对于自己的意义已经没有以前那么期待了
是因为人长大了吗？
是因为人老了吗？

感觉生日就好像平常一样的。
一样平平凡凡就过去了

感觉上，好像没有一个让我记忆深刻的生日。
如果有，应该是在学院里的最后一个学年的生日。

有很多朋友的祝福。
有很多朋友的爱戴 ：）

可是还是少了你的祝福
还是怀念你的祝福

今年的生日会如何？
应该是平淡而低调的吧！

sometimes wonder why inside the firm there are a lot of people wanna fight for accreditation...
just a small things.. it would not mean you would do it for the benefit of the firm...
wonder...
this is call politics...
dun like to get involved into it.
if you are so good... why not do it yourself in the first place?
why wait?

finally found the satisfaction of able to finished the stuff.
finally found the inspiration of moving forward.
do not like the attitude of people just sit down wait and pretend they know nothing..
and ask other to do the same stuff.

i do not like people who are not willing to share...
sharing is caring..
but if you wanna sit down and wait for the free lunch to fall in front of your face..
please wait for 10 thousand years...
trying to finish a task...
please wait ya...

today after lunch...
when i go back to the office...
suddenly realised that my pendant which i wore it for almost four years is gone..

did not feel panic...
and just have a heart that.. if reli cant find it..
just let it go...

then heard they are giving out letter today :)
suddenly feel panic...
and stomachache...
haha...
should say anybody wanna call me...
tell them i'm in the toilet...

erm...
finally stomach dun feel so pain...

get called to collect the letter...
and signed the 'mai san kai'

and got a good call from the IRB officer...
with some good news...

and when i went back...
i was happy to realise that the pendant is actually dropped on the floor of my room..
and my mom managed to pick it up to me...

all i wanna say for today is...
thanks god for giving me a special roller coaster day :)

earlier last month...
our MD send out an e-mail to everyone of us to inform that..
the practice of the firm to achieve D company Boleh semangat
and all our evaluation has been bring forward a month and
all the salary would be adjusted to a very competitive stage

actually i evaluated myself very poorly cos i do not think
i actually achive the standard of supervisor...

actually it's quite 矛盾"serba salah" for myself
cos i do not know whether should fight for promotion or just say i do not want promotion

but i'm okay...
if my boss is okay with my promotion
why not just accept it...

actually know will be promoted after the evaluation interview,
just want to know how much they would adjust my salary.
and eventually...
they adjusted slightly much higher than my expectation.
not to say a lot but maybe to many people it considered a lot already...

that should be what i deserve...
of course the opportunity cost behind being promoted is..
having to give two months notice..
meaning the higher they are going to pay u...
u have to giv much much longer notice..

and talking about promotion...
i should really take the opportunity to thanks those people who supported me..
and belanja them for dinner lo...

so shabu-shabu...
we will meet u there :)

today did nothing much in the office.

today start to see old file... feel tired.
today start to see old things... feel tired again...

today waiting for the new cabinet line up...
today waiting to see some changes in the cabinet line up...
wanting to see the government's determination in giving us a better malaysia.

today office black out at around 3.30
stay in the office doing nothing much...
everyone walk here and there...
chit chat...
but nobody dare to leave before 5.30

when 5.30 came,
i thought everyone would cabut..
but nobody did.
so i just packed my things..
and waited for the lift.
but the lift was packed.
so when somebody decided to take the stairs...
i went together...
but taking the stairs is not easy..
because you have not being trained to take the stair at one go..
so.. 12 floor here i walk...
walk walk walk...
until 6 floor... thinking how much further i need to go...
until 2nd floor... cham la.. my legs started to shake...
finally 2 more floor reach the ground and walk out and saw my bf waiting for me.
i feel a bit relief.
but i do think i need more excercise....
luckily it's not taking the stairs up 12 or even higher floor.

then later we went to have our dinner..
and during dinner time we decided when we should go to see HL...
since she say she and baby is going back to ipoh end of the week.
so we decide when to get something for her.
and decide what to get for her...
and we wanted to get chicken stock or bird nest for her...
then after finish dinner,
we drive pass uptown anakku and saw 'JUALAN PENGHABISAN STOK'
oh... that's great...
we go and get something for baby...
so.. we went in and look here and there to get something nicely wrapped for baby.
it's some clothes, with all the teddy bear on it..
haha.. we wonder whether someone would get and gift the same thing..
anyway.. my BF say since we are the first few person to give so...
he thinks other people will 'zhong sam' with us..
instead of us 'zhong sam' with other people.

so after ariving home and we changed our clothes.
we went to HL condo..
and see her cute little baby BOY...

my friend HL had just delivered her baby.
i think it should be exciting for her.
to take care of a new born baby.
a new life in the family.

i taught she would be staying in kl before baby's full moon.
but she will be going back to his husband hometown instead...

i wish i got so 'ho mia' as well.
can get a child at such a young age.

but reality is still reality.
why without money there is nothing.
as a responsible parent,
you would not want your kid to be born in a non conducive environment.

i also have been thinking of getting married and stuff.
but there is still a lot of uncertainty within me.

commiting ourselve in getting a house seems like a brand new journey for myself.
wondering whether both of us can really aford the house.
i wonder how and wonder why...

i have to be more committed, since there is more commitment within me lo :)

following the post that we say we have made a booking on a condo,
we have received all sort of non supporting voices all over the place.

"why u buy such places... this place all the low class people is staying there"

so... my class will jatuh jus bcos someone else who is staying there.

no matter what you say..
my heart is solid now.
i think

just do not want to think too much over my first investment.

在角落休息的魚

有個朋友去京都的時候，偶然進了一家店，
他說因為坐在隔壁桌的人講的話實在太有趣了，
所以就不知不覺聽了起來。

他們談的是養殖小魚的事。
小魚是養在架在海裡的四方形網裡，
小魚會在網裡繞圈圈的游來游去，
養殖的人讓魚充分的環遊，並不斷餵食，讓魚長大。

可是有一天，那位坐在隔壁桌的人，
也就是從事養殖小魚業的老先生一看網裡，
卻發現網的四個角落竟然有偷懶不游的小魚，
這些魚要是不游就不會長大。
所以，他就想了個辦法，
既然四方形網的角落會讓魚躲在那裡偷懶，
乾脆架成圓形的網算了。

他的構想的確很有效果，
小魚果然找不到休息的地方，
只能在圓形的網裡環遊，
可是問題卻發生了，架起圓形網的數個月後，
小魚全都死光了，因為太累而累死了。

結果，他再一次架起四方形的網，
然後往養魚網裡面看，
他這次發現偷懶不游的並非特定的魚群，
而是互相輪流，
原來魚兒們都是適度的休息後再游的。

' 休息是必要的 '

我们很多时候都認為人的存在價值是以做事來證明，
或是被人認可才能證明的人，
或許很難休息，但有時候什麼也不管就休息，
說不定反而會發現什麼也不做的自己，
其實也是很有價值。

休息是為了走更長遠的路。
別給自己太大的壓力，要懂得舒解自己的壓力，
別太累了！

記住下面這句話：
「 人在天堂，錢在銀行 」
辛勤奮鬥一輩子，啥也帶不走...便宜了誰？

how would u enjoy singing when all the people are requesting for songs which you do not know how to sing le?
i wonder what are we waiting for le?


basically the primary gathering wasss.......
still okay la...
but just suggest not to go such expensive places in the future.
:)

finally after chinese new year..
i marked another journey in my life..
and me and my bf we have decided to get ourselves a place..
b4 we plan for our wedding..
(but this will be a few years down the road)

i'm aiming for a good condo and actually i was touched when my bf say okay to buy a condo nearby my existing house.
because with the same price, we would have bought a landed property with same amount of money just that it would be even further from my current house and would need to think of it's convenience. maybe in shah alam or even rawang.

travelling is quite time consuming..
like what i say, i still like the place i'm currently staying.
i'm just wondering why my bf decided to let go the place he like with a cheaper /more affordable price. in taman melati.
and choose to get a house in jalan ipoh.

actually the condo is currently under soft launch..
but almost half the condo are being taken up before it's official launch.
it's weird...
cos it's quite pricey..

there would be a lot of suggestion or voice when you decide to get a house.
it seems like i'm deciding to settle down with him.
and wish that we would have a long long way to go further.

actually looking forward to a place to stay which is nearby where i used to stay.
and the place is actually near my primary school
and near by the KTM station.
even most of the people are saying KTM services is not good.
but for me it's better than nothing.

looking forward for a better lifestyle when i decided to get married.
and i do think there would not always be an opportunity.
i think we should grab it when we can.
and not to regret when the opportunity is gone.

澄豪、静雯、锦辉、緻庄、建文、迪庆、建南

toasting for a better rat year!!!!

i'm considering of getting myself an insurance policy...
dunno why i keep on rejecting myself from getting involved with insurance agent.

there is lots of conflicts within myself.

which insurance company to choose...
who to buy insurance with...
shouldn't i buy insurance with my primary friend
college friend?

why i choose someone who is a stranger to me?

somemore listen to my bf...
will make me change my mind?
maybe cos of the willingness to treat someone good...
willingness to listen..
willingness to care...

i ask my boss how many insurance have you bought?
what has resulted you to buy the insurance?

she say
'they say this is good, then i buy'
'people ask me to buy'

herm...
i wonder...
to me i do not see what's the importance of buying insurance for the time being...
other than claiming for income tax deduction.

chinese new year...
must wear RED RED
like what uncle freddie say...
红红不会害人
happy chinese new year and great chinese new year

it's amazing that after so many years you still get back to meet your primary friends after so many years.
frankly speaking i really treasure the friendship with them a lot.
even we only got the chance to meet them maybe once a year.

looking forward for the gathering..
and looking foraward when we manage to gether 50 people in the class :)

have not been blogging for long long time..
it's not because i do not have the time.
it's just because i'm lazy.

but if i continue to be lazy.. how am i going to achive at least 100 blog per annum?
weird...
last time when i'm studing...
i can blog almost everything.
maybe that time is really stressful
but i know how to release my stress through blogging...

but now i'm stress..
dunno who to talk wit
and just do not wanna blog it out.
and all the rubbish and toxic are inside me..
looking forward for someone i can share it with him/her...

one table full of food to pray before reunion dinner :)


Fish

chicken and specially fried pork


Fried meat ball


mixed vegetable,fried prawn and marmite chicken


ah ma's famous dish... "hai sim"


noddle for every1 :)

Aesthetic (Music:澤野弘之 Vocal:関山藍果)
作詞：今井麻紀子　作曲：澤野弘之 Vocal：関山藍果

Longing for you day and in dream
I'm hoping you are here and leading my way
You steers my road anytime I need
If you walk away, I will follow you
Trying my life
With your sacred gifts you gave to me
I won’t vain and succeed it as your precious soul
Holding your hand
And I'm walking through the all of the world
Carrying your wish like the Venus in the dim sky

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i've been watching this japanese drama this week
the name of this drama is called 医龍 "team medical dragon" or "iryu"

very short and interesting drama.
like it very much and the theme song are very very nice too :)

yesterday a manager ask me why seldom heard my laughter recently is it i'm not happy...
haha...
erm.. i look depressed recently.
now. i think i'm just understress..
a lot of things need to be done.
and i think that i'm not really careful enough lo.

jus feel not happy with my work.
just feel not living up to expectation.
just feel i need a long break.
staying at home doing nothing.

just feel i'm breaking down.

just bought gary's new album super sunshine.
it's nice super sunshine.

'you are my sunshine,
my only sunshine
因为有了你的爱，
从此不平凡‘

i always feel that his album need to listen for long long time
the longer u listen to it.
you will definately fall in love wit every one of it.

i tought his new album got canto song.
but there isn't any
his quite good in singing canto song.
but there is two of the song which are from the canto song which he sang earlier last year.

listening to his song..
and my new year is fill with his song..

haha
this month has over spend d...
out of control.

那天晚上又梦见你了。
我们和好了。
好开心
虽然它只是一场梦。

常听别人说，梦往往和现实是相反的。
那么你会就不要我这个朋友了吗？
内心总是矛盾的。

好想见你，
可是感觉上我们彼此就是大家不愿触碰的伤痕
只能遥远相望
却一点也不想去触碰的那一块

好想见你
一直在原地等你
是我赶不上你的改变
是我赶不上你的脚步
是我累了

希望可以回到过去
曾经的美好

have been thinking whether it's good to spend all our time together?
whether we should spend more time together or we should left each other alone.
and have more time for ourselves :)

sometimes i wonder whether love is all about two person only or it includes a lot of other poeple?
sometimes i feel it's not as simple as two people getting together.
when you wanna get together for live it involve a lot of people.
i'm trying to get used to it.

it's the begining of the year,
it's time to think of what i want to do this year.
and what's my target.

let me see what's in my plan this year.
1) i should be going to taiwan end of September
2) to speed up my work and work faster
3) to start driving ... (haha... this is target for every year, but still fail every year :P)
4) to learn something new this year

hehe.. hopefully my life will be meaningful this year.
hopefull.. everything is good this year :)

牙痛了好几个晚上，昨天晚上还痛得不能入眠。
感觉上对自己很内疚。
因为没有好好照顾自己的牙齿。

所以今天就下定决心要把我的智慧齿拔掉。
以为拔智慧齿钱包会和牙齿一样的痛。
因为常常听别人所自己拔智慧齿的故事，总是离不开痛和很贵。

我去看的这个牙医已经替我看了很多年了。
感觉上她是亲切而且收费是蛮合理的。

进去的时候就告诉她我左边的智慧齿坏了。
然后她就仔细地替我检查了一下，
就告诉我，你的智慧齿真的蛀了，
接着她就问我,你要拔牙吗？
我也立刻点头答应了。

医生用一种很奇怪的语气说你要拔牙吗？
我就告诉她牙痛让我彻夜难眠。
所以干脆把她拔掉算了。
在我同意了以后。
她就在智慧齿的附近，应该是进行消毒的动作。
然后给我打了一针，麻醉针。
然后她就叫我出去。
relax一下。
放松心情。

但因为要拔牙还是难免会有紧张的心情。
就会有一种忐忑不安的心情。
但医生只花了三两下的功夫就把我的智慧齿拔出来了。

感觉上有些解脱的感觉
痛。
但这应该就是短暂的痛吧！
希望牙齿不要继续痛下去了！

在新加坡的铁路等候火车的时候看见这十个字。
在新的一年与大家共勉之！
translate in to english is value life, act responsibily.
just want to share this thing i saw at Singapore MRT station.
i think it's not just you need it when you are at the MRT station.
you need it when you do whatever in you daily life.

my friend have some bad luck today..
bcos when she went to buy the monthly pass at the LRT station,
she accidentally gave the cashier 3 RM 50 instead of 2 RM 50.
and she did not notice it until she walk away from the counter..
and then she lost RM 50 at the end of the month where she just got her salary.
poor poor her...

but i do think it's a good dead that you do not cheat on other people's money.
not trying to be 贪小便宜all the time.

Have you ever been to kluang station at The Curve or One Utama? Ever wonder whether there is really a Coffee station at Kluang and the food are as good as Kluang Station.

Last holiday i went to Kluang and i had this opportunity to enjoy the goodness of the breakfast at Kluang station.



What is a breakfast without a good cup of coffee or one nice tick Milo?

it seems next year is something very far...
but now.. next year is just 2moro...
so... wonder are you looking forward for next year?
yes i'm...

i'm finally back to my home sweet home...
too tired to blog anything...
too many things to blog...
wondering...
and to be continue 2moro...

there is this vegetarian shop nearby my office...
i always like to stop by and have lunch/dinner there.
the dishes are nice and suits my taste a lot.
and annother thing i like about the shop is thier 镇店之宝


干嘛要拍我啊！

好吧。。快快拍完了，我要去招呼客人啦！

she's cute and she will come and distribute menu and collect money sometimes when she is pleased.
haha... how cute...
i like to call her 镇店之宝 because
most of the customer who came to the shop also cant take their eyes off her.
it seems like she is one of the attraction of the shop bsides the food is good..
but she always show her sour face...
and rarely say bye bye...
and she always run around the shop... hahaha...
cute cute gal...
and my bf like her also as well :)

19 more post to go to achieve 100 this year...
of course i would not want to post for the sake of posting...
hahaha...

feel like i'm getting sick soon...
sore throat and running nose...
so how m i going to enjoy my holiday?
ai... dunno la...

I always think that I know everything
But you insist I know nothing
I always fight to have very last word
But your thoughts were never heard

I'm sorry, so sorry
Didn't mean to hurt you
I'll borrow your sorrow
Don't tell me it's through

I wish I could take back some things I said
I wish I could make things better
I wish I could take back some things I did
Everyday I'm feeling sadder

I'm sorry, so sorry
Didn't mean to hurt you
I'll borrow your sorrow
It's my turn now to cry

Never fear I'll be here
Say a prayer
We can take on the hands of time
And I, I know we can make it
If we just stay together
And trust each other on this one
I'm sorry, so sorry
Didn't mean to hurt you
I'll borrow your sorrow
Don't tell me it's through,
don't tell me it's through
Said I'm sorry, I'm so sorry
I've never meant to, never meant to hurt you
I'll borrow, I will borrow your sorrow
It's my turn now to cry
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

this is one of the song i like...
i'm sorry and i meant it...

i had a bad dream...
it was weird cos the dream was real..
quite real..

luckily managed to wake up before the bad dream ended..
eventhough it seems like it would never be ending..
cos it's a dream which is talking about daily life..

i scare me a lot..
maybe it's trying to teach me to treasure the things around me..
not taking for granted.
and starting the appreciate the things that you own...

seeing my boss being so busy and i cant help much with her actually i felt myself a bit sorry la..

too bad.. i'm still too weak leh...
just hoping that i'm going to be strong soon.. hoping everything will goes well soon :)

it's about one and half year since i moved to the new floor.
and there are a lot of changes to it.
i.e.
from desktop to using laptop.
my neighbour from a guy.. become a gal..
things are getting more and more at my work place...
herm...
try to tidy up..
but it's sort of difficult..
but try to make my work place as cosy as possible to make myself like to work :)

this is how my work place look like one and half year ago :)

this is an extract of the article about the the polymer bank note i found in BNM's website :)

The easily recognisable feel, look and check security features of the RM5 Polymer banknote are highlighted as an identification guide for the public. Please note that the current RM5 paper banknote remains legal tender but will be withdrawn gradually from circulation.

Advantages of the polymer banknote :

Stronger and more durable than paper banknote
Does not absorb dirt or liquid
Cleaner and more hygienic as it minimise growth of bacteria
Difficult, time consuming and costly to counterfeit

hoh.. see the quality of the note?
durable...
yes...
need to use tape to tape it..
wonder whether it is usable..
and...
some of the poor hawker received such note.. which was torn into half..
they also din notice it...
and buy the time they notice..
they have not tears to cry on...
what i do wit it?

of course i'll use my tape to tape it..
and continue to use it lo..
what can i do with it?
hopefully can use it out quitely :P

this year i post lesser and lesser..
one main point is cos i'm busy...
another cos... i'm lazy...
yeah it rhythm..

but...
i'm try to hit the target of posting 100 post this year...

huh? this means that i've got 25 more to go to write?
meaning 3/4 post per day?
i'm crazy?
siao liao la...

to me...
my blog i would like to put something meaningful.
something i see and what i feel..
cos it's meaningless if i just keep on putting rubbish on my blog rite? :)

yesterday.. me, my bf and his housemate and roommate have their very first steamboat at home since they moved to kl...
cos i'm vegetarian..
so i have annother special rice cooker for myself.. :)




busy putting all you want to eat inside the rice cooker...
all you can eat...
and all you want to eat... :)
dinner is self service and you can watch downloaded tvb series while waiting for the food to be cooked :)



yi ta da ki ma su (我要开动了)

there is a lot of vege used in the steamboat...
mushroom too.. :)
a bit of the frozen fishball, seafood product, hotdog, seawead and egg...
end up we are too full and cant finished the mee we prepared just in case the food are not enough..

this is the first time that we prepare for seamboat and the conclusion is...
we bought too many stuff and we cant finished everythings leh :)
but we still have a very very enjoyable nite :)

actually i feel very sorry for you..
seeing you working so hard and yet..
there is someone so anti to work together wit you in the group.
i wanted to stand up for you..
but a coward like me would not know how to stand up for u.

i understand the purposes of you working so hard is to meet our group billing budget.
but would they understand?
they have been with the group one year plus.
and they have not been through the pain of need to bill to meet the budget
to them it's just nothing

you always ask them to put yourself into other's shoe.
but has they really put themselves into your shoe?

they just play and joke around..
just like they are still very young...
why you need to work so hard?
because you like it?
enjoy it?
what's life for you?

i just cant stand people being misunderstood..
and it's just very unfair in my eyes...

i would like to try to review the junior work..
but the work never came back to me.
it went straight back to you.
i was thinking then, what's the point of me reviewing their work?

yeah... maybe it's just like what you said,
i'm just too sensitive :)
sometimes i think only sensitive person would appreciate how other people thinks.

but... to me..
the most important things is not to be so stubborn on stuff which are mitty gritty.

it's the latest movie in town...
how? are you going to watch it?

bought a new handphone...
so.. looking forward to take very very nice picture of what i see and heard
looking forward to let people see the world through the eyes of tee chong...

so hope to blog more with photo..

have not been getting myself a new handphone since i enter college.
the last phone i bought was the 3310 i bought when i enter the college..
and it was about 6 years ago?

and on and off i switch to better phone...
but the phone are either second hand from my bf or third hand from my bf brot/sis...
so.. now with my better phone...
i would like to take more picture lo :)
looking forward for a better me :)

很好奇也并不晓得你会不会很偶然或很偶尔，跑到我的blog里头看看笨笨的我在写些什么东西。

感觉自己很傻。
还有期待和憧憬。
也并不知道自己期待和憧憬些什么东西。

很多的东西是自己忽略了
但回头太难了
事情或友情已经不复存在

希望有天你会读到这篇日志
发觉原来我偶尔也会想想你
虽然我们很早就已经没有共同的话题

很想念听梁静茹的歌。
因为她的歌陪伴我最伤心的时间
也常常让我想起你。

或许很多东西会因为我们
错过以后，遗憾过后更清楚，更清晰自己要什么东西

或许我和他一样
选择放弃是因为
希望你有更多自由
做你想要做到事情

请原谅我一厢情愿的
幻想我为你所做的都是为你好
虽然可能在你身边支持你
可能就是最好的

可是很多很多年以后
却发觉我还站在我们友情的原点
而你却已经跑了很远很远
怎么也寻找不到你的踪迹

yesterday meet my MD in the lift...
and ...
in a coincidence i wore skirt yesterday..
and he praised that i look smart yesterday.

actually sometimes i feel very pai seh every time i wear skirt cos will be tease by someone.
very used to wearing pants to work.
and to them it's as if i do not wear skirt at all.

it's little bit funny..
just i'm scared that it's very troublesome.
and cumbersome..
it's not because i do not like to wear skirt.
it's just more simple for me to wear pants.
that's it.

however, as it is more and more difficult to find suitable and nice pants,
i think i might need to wear skirt in the future d.

have not been treating myself good for the past few months...
just make myself busy..
living without quality...
my room is messy..
my table in the office is messy...
my table at home is messy...
all i care the most is work..
work and work...

so now.. when peak is coming to an end...
will try not to treat myself so bad...
tidy up the table..
tidy up the room...
treat myself a little bit better..

a little bit nicer...
a little bit better...
but do not relax myself..
keep myself moving...
keep improving..

bought 3 original album recently...
victor's "need you the most"..
micheal's "never apart"(不会不分离)
fish's "J'adore"(崇拜)

sometimes wonder why need to buy original?
cos..
i can easily DL them from the website at now cost...
with the fast Internet connection in the office...
and i just put it in my computer if i ever need to listen to it i jus on it.
i do not need the disc as well.

so i'm questioning myself why need to buy original...

and the debate is...

i'm an ethical person? (haha... i already downloaded all their song.. b4.. i bought the album... so what's the point...)

to support local singer? (the Malaysian boleh attitude.. so must support them?)

to play it inside my Kenari? (haha.. you do not drive.. and your bf dun like you to
play the CD and prefer to listen to MY fm... so.. what's the point?)

cos i got $$ (yeah.. buying the album meaning no $$ to save meaning getting poorer)

satisfaction of buying original (... ...)

end up... just like what my bf say...
(ai.. your wasting your $$)

but for me it's just feel it's good to reward myself...
doing something i like.. getting something i want at a price i think it's okay for me.

so.. conclusion is..
I can do what i like with the $$ i earn myself..
so.. i got nothing to complaint...

have been treating myself bad this few months...
not taking leave for half a year? cos got a lot of stuff to rush..
so now decided to treat myself better..
took one day off on the monday b4 sultan's b'day (public holiday)
reli need a good rest..

also to treat myself better..
today went for shopping and bought a couple of thins for myself..

fish new album..
SeeD working attire cot + skirt.. (with one free big SeeD bag)
dress for annual dinner..
and... the credit card limit(here refer to my internally set limit) for the month.. burst again... haha... scarry

and suddenly notice that i'm getting out of figure...
fat.. fatter... going to be fattest d...
got fat ever since started working..
mayb because i got very good appetite cos of working presure.
sometimes feel upset wit myself why i'm treating myself so bad..
i think need to control.
so that... i need to save $$ as well :)

erm...
sometimes wondering why need to work so hard...
sometimes wonder why money is always not enough..
sometimes wonder why i cant keep my $$

haha...
maybe it's time for me to cut my credit card...
gotta be better in controlling one's $$ spending..

erm..

有时候感觉上是很挣扎的。。
生活就是如此

Charming, poised and sociable you need peace and harmony around you and always seek to create a happy environment. Perceptive and with strong intuition you are able to make sound judgements. You show great flexibility in attitude being open and responsive to the needs and opinions of others. This ability gives you potential for success in business dealing with the public. Your warm personality and caring ways ensure you are loved by family and friends.

sounds correct wor?
what do you think/

it's seems to be super stressed for me this few weeks...
filing deadline is near and job cant be finished.

and i can sleep during the nite time...
but jus short short little sleep and will automatically wake up at before 6 and i will force myself to continue to work...
ai... wonder why i want to live this kind of life...
looking forward it to come to an end...
actually i think a lot of things can be avoided for the last minute rush.
maybe cos i did not did my part well enough...

just realised i did a tax computation using the wrong principle.
actually for me it's weird cos nobody notice the way of computation is wrong.
luckily i notice it when i'm doing some reading for another company with similar nature...
maybe this is one of the cause of my stress..
haha.. yeah i'm super stressed now...
last time is just the hand shivering ...
now it's cant sleep well...
my days does not end with the end of the tax filing for the month..
there are still a few companies to go.
all big big one...
it's gonna be super stressed for me up to Dec ...
looking forward to finish everything soon :)

so...
i'm sick again...
still reluctant to go and see doctor...
so.... doctor tee chong know how to cure me gua...

this time i'm having bad cough...
maybe it's because of the weather
maybe because the other side of the office is having renovation work on progress..
ai.. wonder why i'm sick...
haha... maybe i let some1 'gek dao'

sometimes i wonder whether i'm doing the correct stuff?
sometimes i wonder why i'm working so hard...

at least now i suffer less..
my manager dun have bad impression to me
haha.. i'm still weak in certain aspect..
trying to improve...
trying to move up..
trying to be better...

looking forward for something better in my work...
looking forward for something more interesting..

中文版
一场很美变成很惨的恋爱
泪流不止的心还包着绷带
又痛又愁看不开
我把自己藏成模糊的存在

爱情永远没有答案总要猜
眼角湿着嘴角笑着放大悲哀
又伤又累不明白
怎么躲不开得到又失去的无奈

all i wanna do is find a way
back into love
多想有一个人能和我分享快乐

是谁叫你这样傻傻闯进来
自以为是分析我有多奇怪
我却无从辩白
在狼狈中又被变新的痛快

你的加油让我有梦想不感慨
你的批评让我生气难忍耐
偏偏又命中要害
你的诚实变我的依赖

all i wanna do is find a way
back into love
找到了一个人能和我分享快乐
为什么当我牵你的手
会觉得天堂是散步就能走到的

当我又在犹豫应该不应该
爱我吻我让我气喘不过来
当我笨的想逃开
痛骂我能让我感觉到爱

all i wanna do is find a way
back into love
尽情享受两个人最靠近得快乐
一个人不懂那种快乐
两颗心摩擦着缠绕着
经历各不同的绳索
带我们攀越上爱得最巅峰

way back into love.
original version
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

[Verse 2]
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

[Middle-eight]
(Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

this is annother movie that i think i would like to watch..
yet..
it's not the type of movie he would like to watch...
sometimes there are a lot of consideration when deciding whether we want to watch the movie or not.
sometimes it's all becos of him.
yeah.. why?

so... i should find someone who will go watch those movie which he would not wanna watch with me???

so here comes the first day of my long raya break...
consider not so long only four days.
and one day of it i use it to go back to office to tidy my things...
end up nothing much was tidy up..
but managed to solve my last tax computation,
the queries raised by my manager...
so that i can pass it to my senior tax manager for review.

jus realised that i really can work very very hard to finish my job...
i just came out with 4 tax computation within a week...
and all of it not consider a dormant tax computation...
all tax computation are either big or medium in size and transaction.

jus feel thankful for what my manager did...
forced us to speed up.
and i managed to complete almost all the portfolio under her care.

so... the first day of my raya break..
gone.. finished...
so.. at nite.. what i did was to watch a movie..
call 生日快乐
wanted to watch the movie for long long time.
never watched it in the cinema.. cos
i know he would think it's not a nice movie..
waste of time..
and it's not the type of movie he would wanna watch..
din force him..
cos i know i'm not the type of person who will force him to do so.

feel agreeable with the movie...
i know i'll like the movie
with the cast of the actor, rene liu...
so...
there goes first day of the raya break...

so
what did i do on the second day?
to be continue...

sometimes if you ask me why i did not update my blog.
it's not because i got nothing much to update.

just that i'm not in the mood of writing or
i'm just simply lazy...

this raya...
did not follow him back to his hometown...

why?
cos i'm lazy...
lazy to ask my dad for permission.
lazy to have to teman him to be together with his friends.

so...
my raya plan started with a lot of tax computation
(usual what i need to do all the time)
a lot of hk tv series... and movies which i wanted to watch and no time or nobody would accompany me to watch it. and
my messy room to tidy it up...

so this is the begining...
will tell more on the next blog...