my old office place

my old office place.. it's consider not as messy as before since i've moved most of the things to the new office place by the time i took this picture. Posted by Picasa
I did something crazy / I feel that it's very crazy this few days.
what did I do?

I stay up until 3.30 in the morning to finish a provisional tax computation for a company but I have yet to finish it and yesterday I stayed in the office until 11 at nite just to finish everything for my boss to review.

I was very presured this two weeks.
why?

Because my boss complaining my speed is very slow.
and I've let my client down.
I feel very bad because trough out the year I had already built up a good repo with the client from a very very not treating you very nice because you are very new to very close to you because they need your immediate attention to answer their question.
Because of client's trust I've been given the opportunity to handle all the special cases.
So i think it's a moving factor for the to stress myself further to achieve my dreams in the future.

Therefore I decided to challenge myself to my extreme.
I've been sleeping for less than 7 hours for the pass 36 hours.

But thank God it's a Public holiday in Malaysia today.
But I just feel weird that i wake up at about 6.15 which is about the time that I wake up for work.

Actually there is free vegetarian buffet near my house cos today is Wesak day.
I hope later I can eat a lot.
yesterday i had an outing with chin ann and soo wei.
we were very punctual and no ffk and stuff.
i like this feeling.
simple and no need to worry that your friend would ffk.
i like poeple who kept their promised and keep their words.

chin ann brought along strawberries which he bought from cameron from his previous outing.
and unexpectedly we finished all the strawberries as and when we were chatting.
since i'm not those type of gals who favour strawberries.

and we stay in the purple cane tea house and chat for more than 3 hours
and the tea was boiled until it taste like water.
and to my suprise that day there is not much poeple hanging around at the tea house.
probably it was a public holiday and most of the student are not to school and nobody is hanging around lo..

feel it is a nice nice outing.
and i have remembered that i have not seen soo wei for about more than 8 months.
remembering the last time we met, i was called by deloitte for to work.
and now soo wei also got her own job.
last saturday we are suppose to meet each other and have dinner together.
why? to celebrate my b'day that everyone missed out.

and here to story goes.
jean was busy since she have to work OT to rush for the company's closing.
and sam was having OT as well so he could not be able to join us.
and liew and chee seong was having classes for their acca paper.

i think that was fine.. and the outing jus left me, joo, hui ling and siew heoh.
and mana tahu this siew heoh last minute call for a cancel.
and we have to cancel everything.

for me i think it's difficult to gather everyone together at the same time since they have thier own thing to settle.
but i think not going to join because everyone is not coming is sort of rude.
more over you are the one suggesting the outing.
this would make those who already arranged for the outing very frustrated.
yes you can take any reason to reject someone's offer to go out with you,
but i think it's definately very very rude to cancel an appointment at the very very last minute since the person you dated might have purposely cancelled all thier plan just to accomodate the plan to spend some time together with you.

i think sometimes we have to act reasonable and considerate.
the world is run by you.
and there is many many other poeple around us.
we have to take care of their feelings as well as considering our own benefits.
listening to faye wong's song inside the office.
i think it's a very enjoyable things since i sort of like faye wong.

and sometimes listening to faye wong song reminds me of her.
it's very sad for me since she had already forget to wish me happy b'day for two consecutive years.
why? why? why?
what's the reason behind.

it makes me very very sad.
because my primary schoolmate sms me since she remember my b'day.
and it has been like 12 years we have not seen each other.

i'm still very sad.
dispite of being FFK by friends for last saturday outing.
i'm still hoping that i would be able to meet her in the street some time some day.
i would like to wish her happy and nothing than that.

i do hope to get her wishes in the future.

erm... maybe what i can do to make her remember my b'day is to take the initiative to invite her for my b'day party which i plan to held next year?
i wonder... and i'm planning for it.
sometimes i wonder there are some client who are very stingy in fees but very prompt in payment.
there are some client who are very stingy in fees and very late in their payment.

i've just completed an assignment for two expatriate and they already left Malaysia.
i was so 'pai seh' when i have to hand over the bill to the client.
because to me our firm's fees is quite high and we just bill them to the max for everything we had done for them.

i have gone trough a lot of hardship in preparing the tax return for the individual.
and i do learn a lot and exposed a lot.
and learn not to give empty promises to the client.
and learn to keep all that you have promised.

eventough i feel that our fees is very expensive,
they still make prompt payment within one week without given any discount and the need of chasing them for the bill.
i feel it's a good bargain to do business with japanese.
and they are those poeple who are very prompt with thier promises.

and i just feel that i learn a lot from them.
polite and keep to your promises.

'leng lui' in group B3



The 'leng lui' in our group
from left ~ Mei Won, Tee Chong, Su-Li, Sin Jol


My senior, Ms Teoh Sin Jol


My Junior, Ms Lee Su-Li temporary borrowed from annother group Posted by Picasa
today i received an suprise sms from my lecture~Ms Geh.
happy belated b'day...
wow god.. she remember that it was my b'day pass few days leh...
so cool man..
and so touched eventough it's late.

anyway the person i hope that she would be concern had not wish me happy b'day two years in a row.
why? maybe because i decided to give up of our friendship long long time ago.
or maybe she is too busy to handle the 'bees' around her to the extend that she already forget my b'day lo.

got annother sms from my friend during primary school.
she did remember my b'day.
this year i feel touched since many people remembered my b'day eventought some of the b'day wishes are late.

i'm planning to maybe throw myself a b'day party next year since in 31/3/2006 it would be on a Saturday.
if there is no accident, I would really held it, since it's my b'day and i'm coming out to work and earn money i would be financially sound to throw myself a b'day party to pay back for the regret that i did not organised a b'day party for myself on my 21st b'day.

at the mean time, i do hope that i could get some feed back on how should i organised the party or you just informing me that you are interested to attend my b'day party in one years time?
today is 31st... it's special.. why? cos it's my b'day.
so up to now.. already received a few ppl's b'day wishes.
herm... hope to get more la...
:P

just hope that everything going well today.
this few days, my mood was not that good. why?
because i feel very bad in work.
in terms of doing things and being treated la..

then yesterday i came back and my cousins came to ask for homework.
and my cousin sister was asking me regarding chinese essay.
and i guide her how to do her work accordingly.

then she tell me she can look at the answer at the back of the book and i assissted her to look at the answer.
subsequently i realised that she was copying everything from the answer at the back.

so i was really disappointed and i scolded her.
why disappointed?
because she is not confident with her work at all.
and she copy the answer blindly.

actually i know that she cannot be scolded and the more you scold her and tell her not to cry the more she will cry.
but i think i'm too tired and afected by my work as well.
so i scolded her.
but my intention was for her own benefit.
cos i dun want that she jus do things for the sake of doing things.
we often speak very loudly in our own language.
and sometimes we just ignore the feelings of those whom do not know how to listen to what we are talking about.

now i realised how bad is it listening to what the other poeple are talking about and you nuts about what they are talking.
and they talk so fast and you dun even understand a single thing they are talking about.
it's sort of unfriendly cos you keep on talking very happily in your own language and the person who do not know what you are talking about will only be able to show you thier blank face.

so this year i will try to improve myself by learning annother language.
haha.. but dun tell anyone okay...:P
realised that i'm a really coward.
i really like to be in my own confort zone and really like to back out when i sensed there is something going wrong.

really willing to help anyone who aprroached me
but just realised that i'm not those kind of person who would wanna approach other
i'm not really approachable.

back off and now i regret for what i've done?
no because of misunder standing and miscommunication?

i have no idea.
i'm not the type of person who like to be in front of the crowd and and would not like to attract other people's attention.
but i wanna be outstanding
outstanding in terms of my work

but i'm still trying very very hard to find the balance between being outstanding and in the middle of everyone's attention.

try to learn that let poeple to be given attention to.
try to be as humble as possible.
wow.. a day at home alone doing nothing and i have all the time in the world to get enough sleep and nobody is ordering me to do anything.

wow.. missed this kind of life long long time ago.
finally i found it back.

have the time of my own and have a good rest.
really wanna go to the book shop and find a good book and then go to a coffee shop / cafe to sit down and finished the book.

wow.. that's my kind of ideal weekend.

too bad i do not know how to drive.
if i could really drive, and be very independent,
my ideal weekend would soon be realised.

jus realised that i like to be alone.
just realised that used to be alone.
but some how you just cant do whatever things that you wanna do all by yourself because you are not leaving alone.

i really wanna let myself to have a break and breakaway.
do something i really wanna do for a long long time.

i'll plan it form now.
how to let you all know that i could really realised what i want in the near future.
one more week to go.
and it's the day again.
i wonder whether she will forget about that day again.
i wonder whether does it matters whether she remember or she forget about that day.
aiyo.. really long long time never stay in touch with her already.
dunno how is she.

the reason behind not keeping in touch with her is because i do not care about her?
or because i've taken the wrong step at the very first place.

is it because she is advancing and i'm still staying at the same spot?
i still insist to stay at the same spot in our relationship.
that's why we have taken a different path in our relationship.
so why must i be the one who is connecting?
why not her?

why must the attention to be directed to this super nice gal?
i've let her down.
and she had also let me down too in the pass..
so we are even?

because i'm not a person who know how to express myself very much?
because i like to keep the things to myself?

i did not call her during my graduation for acca why?
because i know you would not be coming. so what's the point of asking you to come?
wish to share my happinest with you.
but is it important to you for me to share it with you?
i'm in doubt

I'm Sorry

I'm Sorry....

currently due to my work, sorry and thank you had already become the two phrase that i used most frequent during my everyday life.

and for now i already dunno whether the sorry is because sincerly i feel that i'm sorry so that's why i say sorry or just because of the sake of saying sorry that's why i'm saying sorry.

i'm getting more and more tired.
i really wonder whether i'm getting more and more fake.

i feel that i'm changing myself to a person who is wearing a thicker and thicker mask so that i could not show how my actual personality is.

i feel that sometimes people are very contradicting they say you do not need to come back since now is non-peak period.
and annother side they say i think the best is that you can finished your work by this weekend la..

what is that suppose to mean?
i wonder whether i'm not efficient enough so i cannot finished what you want from my side?
or i'm just too nice to you that i would challenge myself and do whatever i can.

i really hate this situation.
GOD,
i'm jus getting freaking tired.
about my work and stuff and having to teach junior which would always tell you that they do not have any experience and you have to teach them everything under the sun.

however i think i would like to teach someone who is willing to learn.
willing to assist you in doing stuff.

just feel that things are not moving on my side.
just keep on ignoring everything on my side.
just giving too many excuse to my client.
i'm just bad.
i'm not a nice person.

i'll be evaluated badly during my evalutation.
why? just simply because i did not perform up to the expected level.
ai.. cham...
you notice that normally those people who are working with the government,
normally are malays.
and chiense in the government department are very rare.

and today i went to the income tax department and i saw a guy,
not to say good looking but just,
erm.. very nicely dress.
and very 'in' with hair dye in light brown and also i think he put on make up.
i think it would attract my eyes when i see such office.
and also i think really make me think whether he is .... or ....
haha...
what would you do if you received called form the client
and the client told u that...
'you take acca last june sitting?'
'you attend classes at ftms?'
'are you tee chong that marty always called during the class?'
'you already pass ur acca?'
'no wonder your voice so familar'

haha.. i'm supprised.
i'm scared.
because i'm always in the dark and the client would always listen to my voice only and do not know about how i look like.
so to a certain extent i feel more secure.
yer... i feel very very weird la...
yesterday after my volentary OT,
me and joo went to ther curve to have lunch together.

the offer a set lunch at an attractive price of RM19 (including 10% service charge and also 5% goverment tax)
two plain rice, two dishes, soup of the day and also coffee or tea of your choice.
i think it's really a very very attractive offer.

if you wanna compare the prices with those small restaurant or those 'dai pai dong' of course the price are not comparable.
however in the age of increase pricing.
i think the price of less than RM10 per person for such lunch is a very very reasonable price.

after the lunch.
we went to cut our hair at IKANO.
or better to say, joo went to cut his hair and i went to trimp my hair.
erm.. i'm considering whether wanna keep my hair long.
since i never really keep it long since secondary.
jus trimp a bit so it would not look so volumeness.. haha
yeah my hair is volumeness and it would look like a 'dong gu' if my hair grow long and i do not take any action.

i do admit that outlook is very very important is a very important aspect.
since most of the poeple judge you with thier first impression.
so i have to take up my initiative to make myself more presentable.

after the hair cut,
we went to the popular at the ground floor of IKANO.
and i found among the bunch of 'cheap' CD there is the second album of 'ah cow'
so with the price of RM 9.90 nett. i decided to buy it home since the album i bought earlier was a casset version.

when the CD was rip to my pc.
i realised why i wanna get the CD.
not because i really mad about 'ah cow' (yes, that is history during secondary)
it's because the song really nice.
and with the price of less than RM10 which is much more cheaper than the price when i bought the casset why shouldn't i get the album to add it into my collection?

oh ya.. if you like any singer from the rocks record.
you can get some of the album (CD) at a very very 'cheap' price (about RM10 each) at the popular fair in IKANO.
i think this is a good bargain rather than getting the pasar malam pirated CD.
support the original..
haha..

for Micheal and Victor supporter... I also found Micheal's second album 'guang mang' at a price of RM 10 (if not mistaken) and also Victor's second album also '180 U-turn' at a price of RM 10 (if not mistaken as well).

there are circustances we can get things we missed out at a cheap price.
so if you are free and nothing much to do,
why not pay a visit to IKANO to visit the popular book fair (until end of next sunday) and see you can get anything you want at a good bargain.
when you have to go to work on saturday even without pay.
would you be more than willing to?
erm.. if you can learn much more things.
and the payout you would be able to see it in the future.
why not?

i think it's very very interesting that you spend time and you would get the pay out for all the hardwork that you have done.

maybe even other poeple does not know how much effort that you have put in.
however, it seems that you would feel the satisfaction poeple are impress when they noticed you are clear about the company background and know about the company from back to front.

i think sometimes it's not about whether you get any reward for what you have done.
sometimes i think i think we need to be well prepared.
prepared for the unexpected.
prepared for the unknown.
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