tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

sometimes i'm wonder why people are so afraid to deal with higher level management.

sometimes we deal with poeple like the company's accountant and sometimes just the accounts staff.

sometimes we would just prefer to deal with poeple who do not have autority and just following order.

but i do think that we need to deal with those poeple who have more authority, like financial controller or group accountant?

they are the poeple overseeing the company's financial position and they should be the poeple who are in a better position to comment about what i required from them?

sometimes i wonder why i so not taking care of myself.
and wonder why i did not give 100% of my life.

wonder what is good and what is not in my life.
wonder what should be my next step.

life is boring.
after you finished your studies..
get a good job...
after getting a good job...
started to think of get a car a house...
and at the same time getting a suitable partner...
and years after that...
you settle down and you get married...
and you have kids...

it sound so damn boring to me..
cant life be a bit more intersting?
even you can have a break form anything you want to runaway...
you have to come back to the realty of life.
that's you need to worry about money, your career, your parents, your family, your friends...

wonder whether there is anything exciting in my life that is going to happen real soon...
i'm not 18 or 22 anymore...
have to start to plan what i want i my life and
plan to settle down...(maybe i do not want to settle down?)

Sometimes i wonder why my boss complain me,
saying that I talk a lot and this made my work very slack.

and i answer her very c2pidly? i suppose...
haha why? cos i told her last time there is nobody to talk with.
yeah that's the fact.
actually i feel that i'm a very outgoing and talkative person..
and i know who to mix with and who not to mix with la..

know the limit.
learning how to speak well with other poeple.

Comparing an apple with an apple and an orange with an orange.

I wonder why people in this world always like to compare.
and thier comparison is not based on a fair basis.

why our group's people go back so late?
why we need to work so hard.

I enjoy the satisfaction of being able to finished the job earlier.
I think that's not fair to say that we stay back late is because we are not efficient.

I'm a little bit hurt leh..
huh ;O

I'm sorry I don't know who this number belongs to...
I'm sorry I don't know i don't have your number.

'bai tuo' I'm using the number for more than 5 years d.
and yet you are telling me you do not have my number...???

I guess I know what's the reason of not getting your birthday wish this year.
first of all... you forgot...
and secondly.. you don't have my number..
what a fake and lame excuse...

but anyway, what is pass is pass...
i think i would be looking forward for things such as...
who is treating me better rather than..
looking backwards for something which does not belongs to me.

yeah people like to compare.
yeah they always do.
but when there is not a valid reason for the complain.
and there is not worthwhile to make a complain.

have not really updated my blog recently.
have not really write about what i see and what i feel recently.

i do not know whether i'm really stressed out or my performance just going down.
i really need a break from what i'm doing now.
maybe a short break will do.
a nice and short one.

i wonder whether my boss would approve my leave.
verbally she say yes because i had been working very very hard

actually the reason behind myself working very hard is not because i'm really that hard working
actually is just because i hate to get compared with other poeple.
and it's very irritating that you got compared with someone else.
apple should be compared against apple and not orange.

sometimes i feel so unfair that you compare an apple with an orange.
but i still do not know how to express my dissatisfaction.

Day 1 after moving into the new office. I've yet to tidy all the files and stuffs... and I would post somemore new picture regarding my new office in the future... my new work station does not look like this now... it's even messier and I've put up a big planner targeting what should i do within this few months.

my old office place.. it's consider not as messy as before since i've moved most of the things to the new office place by the time i took this picture.

I did something crazy / I feel that it's very crazy this few days.
what did I do?

I stay up until 3.30 in the morning to finish a provisional tax computation for a company but I have yet to finish it and yesterday I stayed in the office until 11 at nite just to finish everything for my boss to review.

I was very presured this two weeks.
why?

Because my boss complaining my speed is very slow.
and I've let my client down.
I feel very bad because trough out the year I had already built up a good repo with the client from a very very not treating you very nice because you are very new to very close to you because they need your immediate attention to answer their question.
Because of client's trust I've been given the opportunity to handle all the special cases.
So i think it's a moving factor for the to stress myself further to achieve my dreams in the future.

Therefore I decided to challenge myself to my extreme.
I've been sleeping for less than 7 hours for the pass 36 hours.

But thank God it's a Public holiday in Malaysia today.
But I just feel weird that i wake up at about 6.15 which is about the time that I wake up for work.

Actually there is free vegetarian buffet near my house cos today is Wesak day.
I hope later I can eat a lot.

yesterday i had an outing with chin ann and soo wei.
we were very punctual and no ffk and stuff.
i like this feeling.
simple and no need to worry that your friend would ffk.
i like poeple who kept their promised and keep their words.

chin ann brought along strawberries which he bought from cameron from his previous outing.
and unexpectedly we finished all the strawberries as and when we were chatting.
since i'm not those type of gals who favour strawberries.

and we stay in the purple cane tea house and chat for more than 3 hours
and the tea was boiled until it taste like water.
and to my suprise that day there is not much poeple hanging around at the tea house.
probably it was a public holiday and most of the student are not to school and nobody is hanging around lo..

feel it is a nice nice outing.
and i have remembered that i have not seen soo wei for about more than 8 months.
remembering the last time we met, i was called by deloitte for to work.
and now soo wei also got her own job.

last saturday we are suppose to meet each other and have dinner together.
why? to celebrate my b'day that everyone missed out.

and here to story goes.
jean was busy since she have to work OT to rush for the company's closing.
and sam was having OT as well so he could not be able to join us.
and liew and chee seong was having classes for their acca paper.

i think that was fine.. and the outing jus left me, joo, hui ling and siew heoh.
and mana tahu this siew heoh last minute call for a cancel.
and we have to cancel everything.

for me i think it's difficult to gather everyone together at the same time since they have thier own thing to settle.
but i think not going to join because everyone is not coming is sort of rude.
more over you are the one suggesting the outing.
this would make those who already arranged for the outing very frustrated.
yes you can take any reason to reject someone's offer to go out with you,
but i think it's definately very very rude to cancel an appointment at the very very last minute since the person you dated might have purposely cancelled all thier plan just to accomodate the plan to spend some time together with you.

i think sometimes we have to act reasonable and considerate.
the world is run by you.
and there is many many other poeple around us.
we have to take care of their feelings as well as considering our own benefits.

listening to faye wong's song inside the office.
i think it's a very enjoyable things since i sort of like faye wong.

and sometimes listening to faye wong song reminds me of her.
it's very sad for me since she had already forget to wish me happy b'day for two consecutive years.
why? why? why?
what's the reason behind.

it makes me very very sad.
because my primary schoolmate sms me since she remember my b'day.
and it has been like 12 years we have not seen each other.

i'm still very sad.
dispite of being FFK by friends for last saturday outing.
i'm still hoping that i would be able to meet her in the street some time some day.
i would like to wish her happy and nothing than that.

i do hope to get her wishes in the future.

erm... maybe what i can do to make her remember my b'day is to take the initiative to invite her for my b'day party which i plan to held next year?
i wonder... and i'm planning for it.

sometimes i wonder there are some client who are very stingy in fees but very prompt in payment.
there are some client who are very stingy in fees and very late in their payment.

i've just completed an assignment for two expatriate and they already left Malaysia.
i was so 'pai seh' when i have to hand over the bill to the client.
because to me our firm's fees is quite high and we just bill them to the max for everything we had done for them.

i have gone trough a lot of hardship in preparing the tax return for the individual.
and i do learn a lot and exposed a lot.
and learn not to give empty promises to the client.
and learn to keep all that you have promised.

eventough i feel that our fees is very expensive,
they still make prompt payment within one week without given any discount and the need of chasing them for the bill.
i feel it's a good bargain to do business with japanese.
and they are those poeple who are very prompt with thier promises.

and i just feel that i learn a lot from them.
polite and keep to your promises.

The 'leng lui' in our group
from left ~ Mei Won, Tee Chong, Su-Li, Sin Jol


My senior, Ms Teoh Sin Jol


My Junior, Ms Lee Su-Li temporary borrowed from annother group 

today i received an suprise sms from my lecture~Ms Geh.
happy belated b'day...
wow god.. she remember that it was my b'day pass few days leh...
so cool man..
and so touched eventough it's late.

anyway the person i hope that she would be concern had not wish me happy b'day two years in a row.
why? maybe because i decided to give up of our friendship long long time ago.
or maybe she is too busy to handle the 'bees' around her to the extend that she already forget my b'day lo.

got annother sms from my friend during primary school.
she did remember my b'day.
this year i feel touched since many people remembered my b'day eventought some of the b'day wishes are late.

i'm planning to maybe throw myself a b'day party next year since in 31/3/2006 it would be on a Saturday.
if there is no accident, I would really held it, since it's my b'day and i'm coming out to work and earn money i would be financially sound to throw myself a b'day party to pay back for the regret that i did not organised a b'day party for myself on my 21st b'day.

at the mean time, i do hope that i could get some feed back on how should i organised the party or you just informing me that you are interested to attend my b'day party in one years time?

today is 31st... it's special.. why? cos it's my b'day.
so up to now.. already received a few ppl's b'day wishes.
herm... hope to get more la...
:P

just hope that everything going well today.

this few days, my mood was not that good. why?
because i feel very bad in work.
in terms of doing things and being treated la..

then yesterday i came back and my cousins came to ask for homework.
and my cousin sister was asking me regarding chinese essay.
and i guide her how to do her work accordingly.

then she tell me she can look at the answer at the back of the book and i assissted her to look at the answer.
subsequently i realised that she was copying everything from the answer at the back.

so i was really disappointed and i scolded her.
why disappointed?
because she is not confident with her work at all.
and she copy the answer blindly.

actually i know that she cannot be scolded and the more you scold her and tell her not to cry the more she will cry.
but i think i'm too tired and afected by my work as well.
so i scolded her.
but my intention was for her own benefit.
cos i dun want that she jus do things for the sake of doing things.

we often speak very loudly in our own language.
and sometimes we just ignore the feelings of those whom do not know how to listen to what we are talking about.

now i realised how bad is it listening to what the other poeple are talking about and you nuts about what they are talking.
and they talk so fast and you dun even understand a single thing they are talking about.
it's sort of unfriendly cos you keep on talking very happily in your own language and the person who do not know what you are talking about will only be able to show you thier blank face.

so this year i will try to improve myself by learning annother language.
haha.. but dun tell anyone okay...:P

realised that i'm a really coward.
i really like to be in my own confort zone and really like to back out when i sensed there is something going wrong.

really willing to help anyone who aprroached me
but just realised that i'm not those kind of person who would wanna approach other
i'm not really approachable.

back off and now i regret for what i've done?
no because of misunder standing and miscommunication?

i have no idea.
i'm not the type of person who like to be in front of the crowd and and would not like to attract other people's attention.
but i wanna be outstanding
outstanding in terms of my work

but i'm still trying very very hard to find the balance between being outstanding and in the middle of everyone's attention.

try to learn that let poeple to be given attention to.
try to be as humble as possible.

wow.. a day at home alone doing nothing and i have all the time in the world to get enough sleep and nobody is ordering me to do anything.

wow.. missed this kind of life long long time ago.
finally i found it back.

have the time of my own and have a good rest.
really wanna go to the book shop and find a good book and then go to a coffee shop / cafe to sit down and finished the book.

wow.. that's my kind of ideal weekend.

too bad i do not know how to drive.
if i could really drive, and be very independent,
my ideal weekend would soon be realised.

jus realised that i like to be alone.
just realised that used to be alone.
but some how you just cant do whatever things that you wanna do all by yourself because you are not leaving alone.

i really wanna let myself to have a break and breakaway.
do something i really wanna do for a long long time.

i'll plan it form now.
how to let you all know that i could really realised what i want in the near future.