tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

The month of July is the most awaited month in the year where we get our salary...
and also bonus...

this year... before bonus is being given out..
the management of the company kept on emphasis that if your group bill more and collect more you would be able to share a higher bonus...

but boss ask us not to have high expectation...
cos normally what the company say might not be true...
(if it's not true.. why in the first place tell us..
and let us have high high hope towards our bonus??)

so... come the day the credit control department come to distribute the pay slip to me...
looking for salary and bonus with just ngam ngam 5 digit...
i'm quite happy with the bonus given out by the company...
at least it's much much higher than what i expected...
and now my low bat (motivation to work) has been restored to around 80% i'm going further... (too bad i'm not using energizer... if not my low bat can go back to at least 98%)
i have to work my way to recover my other 20% of my battery before it falls low bat again...

about belanja makan...
i surely belanja makan...
but budget is quite tight...
so kena wait lo :)

i think he is upset bcos he decided to give up the name of his blog and change it into the new name...
and the next day he discovered... some dunno who used the name of his blog...
and post something which he dunno wat it is...
he is upset...
i dunno why...
but if for me ...
if i dun want the thing also i think i will keep it...
dunno...
if i dun want...
i also dun wanna share with others...
maybe this is bcos i'm selfish gua

Some dreams live on in time...forever
Those dreams... you want with all your heart
So I'll do whatever it takes
Follow through with the promise I made
Put it all on the line what I hoped for at last would be mine!

Chorus:
If I could reach,higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
From that one moment in my life
I'm gonna be... stronger!
Know that I've tried my very best
Put my spirit to the test
If I could reach...

Some days are meant to be remembered
Those days we rise above the stars
So I'll go the distance this time
Seeing more the higher I climb
That the more I believe, all the more that this dream will be mine!

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i was talking about power of dreams in the previous post...
and i think with the power of the dreams and we can reach...
higher and higher...
i remember this two Olympics song...
and i think these two songs are the best Olympics songs ever...
and very inspiring one..

Deep within each heart
There lies a magic spark
That lights the fire of our imagination
And since the dawn of man
The strenght of just "I can"
Has brought together people of all nations

There’s nothing ordinary
In the living of each day
There’s a special part
Every one of us will play

Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
As the world gives us its best
To stand apart from all the rest
It is the power of the dream that brings us here

Your mind will take you far
The rest is just pure heart
You’ll find your fate is all your own creation
Every boy and girl
As they come into this world
They bring the gift of hope and inspiration

Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
The world unites in hope and peace
We pray that it will always be
It is the power of the dream that brings us here

There’s so much strength in all of us
Every woman child and man
It’s the moment that you think you can’t
You’ll discover that you can

Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
The world unites in hope and peace
We pray that it will always be
It is the power of the dream that brings us here

Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
The world unites in hope and peace
We pray that it will always be
It is the power of the dream that brings us here

The power of the dream
The faith in things unseen
The courage to embrace your fear
No matter where you are
To reach for your own star
To realize the power of the dream

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2008 is special...
it's leap year
it's olympic year...

talking about olympic it reminds me about song for olympic...
and among all songs...
i love the above song from Celine Dion the most
this song is quite old already about 12 years old...

i like the lyrics...
when u dare to dream...
u will find the power to...
to do anything and everything...

and when the moment u realised that you have the power...
you can do just almost everything...

dare to dream...
to bring you closer to power of dream...

and if you think you can.. you can reach...
and realised almost whatever you want.

when i lost my motivation,
i like to listen to this song...

Haha… kena post on friend’s blog again
And the this time is another friend and the title is “Kena Stalked”

Just take the extraction of his side of the story

“Go to office at works at 7.00am as usual. reached the parking building around 7.28am, then walks to my office. As im listening to MP3 with my handphone w610i, the music is stopped. how come no next song coming out???

after few second, i can sense my handphone vibration, oh is her. how come so suddenly called me on this early in the morning???

me: Helo?
Her: you walking to office now?
me: Yes? why? you at my back?
Her: i see you just now!
me: wah, you pay attention to people who walking at the roadside 1 ar? Respect Respect.
Her: no la, i saw some1 who looks familiar like you ma. haha.
Me: … …
Her: haha… nothing la bye bye.”

And my side of the story is…

This morning as usual.. going to office together with my bf and as and when our car pass by UOA damansara, I was looking around and saw someone walking towards the passenger bridge nearby… and I saw someone who looks like Chin Ann…

Then I fast fast told my bf… eh I think I saw chin ann…. (what in a coincidence I think I was just talking about him with my bf… saying he now working in a Japanese construction company… bla.. bla.. bla…)

Then my first reaction is to pick up the phone to call him. But my speed is a bit slow cos I have to type in the letter C to find his number….
And the above conversation was held.

Sometimes I feel I’m a bit 38 la…
And feel very excited to see friends on the road…

A friend of mine posted something in his blog... and the title is:-
"Internet revolution helps us to keep in touch! "

and i think this is what he suppose to comment on my blog:-
"Isn't it interesting that we can see this? Don't you feel happy that you have somehow witnessed this. Don't you want to see the birth of second child? The purchase of a new house? Their child goes to school? The graduation of their child?

Somehow, it is really fascinating. And I'm happy for my friend because I believe that she has found happiness in her life. And I believe that this is an inspiring story to all of us that knew her!

Congrats GRACE! May you continue to be happy in life! Always! "

haha...
my post is not commenting on a specific person...
however so ngam the person which i'm talking about is jus in coincidence is a previous related party of him.

i think i commented a lot about my friend breaking up...
but i think this blog would be my record and bookmark of the relationship of me and joo and the relationship of our friends :)

it's amazing...
from other people's friendster / facebook
you notice some changes which are happening in their life...

such as breaking up...
and getting married with another person...
and getting pregnant..
until she delivered baby...

the feeling is amazing..
i wonder why people get married so early.
why people wanna get baby so early..
i do not understand.

but looking at the story of my friends breaking up..
and getting married...

makes me think a lot regarding relationship..
i wonder should i move further/faster

but to me everything is still too early for to talk about marriage.
even we have been together for a benchmarking 7 years.
but i still think it's still too early to talk about marriage.
i wonder.

he is coming back...
he is coming back...
he is coming back in 20 hours time...

feel happy happy happy and non other than happy...
he decided to move back..
and move further into my life?

it seems amazing as he decided to move to S country...
but there are nothing much there for him...
and there are opportunity to come back and try something that he like and diff...

if u ask how i feel
i can just think i jus feel happy
but on the other side...
i lost my freedom to do something very freely.
sometimes he influence me too much in my life...

but good thing is...
i decided to learn learn driving...
must must must...
wish me to succeed :)

have been making small and minor adjustment on my blog.

such as taking away the music on the blog.
why? cos i dun have time to maintain the site that support the file and it would be outdated once every 30 days.
rather than having to upload it everytime after it expires... better take it away until i have better solution then i will upload it again.

annother feature is about the photo.
it will auto upload the photo that i have uploaded on picasaweb...
so you all will be able to see the picture that i've taken with my sony 770i as time goes by.
i think it's a cool cool way of sharing things.

the other cool feature
is the update on my friends blog using RSS feed.
once there is any new post on their blog.
i would be able to see it and i could easily notice who has updated their blog.
i like this feature since i see it from superstar3's blog.

basically my life bsides working my life is jus online and blogging and watch series online...
so... life goes on

had been working very very hard...
so that i can forget that i miss u much.
had been trying very very had so that i'm not thinking too much while we are seperated apart.

notice that you triped during your path to search for your job in sg.
but i think it just take sometime.
you would be able to get your job soon.
i'm crossing my hands for you.

i also triped during my work...
had been doing nothing much this few days...
no information which i required to prepare the tax computation are in...
has been calling the client everyday...
i'm tired and sicked of it...
wonder why the client are so bad and not so effective.
keeping on giving me empty promised.

i'm upset...
but moving forward...
i cant change my client...
but i wanna know how to improved myself and learn from my mistake.

on the other hand,
my october filing client
they are superb...
have been working together with them hand in hand for four round of filing and
i think people improved.
i also improve myself.
i'm moving fast towards my aim for the October trip.

:)

it has been rumours that the oil price will increase again...
and the oil price really increase recently for around one dollar and this would reli reli affect our live in stages and you will notice the stuff in the market are more expensive by 10 sen to RM 1.
when you cumulative the effect, it would sum up to a big hole in your pocket.

and today there are rumours that the petrol station all around malaysia will strike and close for dunno how many days...
erm... dunno how true this rumours is...
but just for safety purposes if your tank is about to empty, just go and pump up the petrol la...

i'm a bit updset cos he took my ms office disc without returning it to me.
i'm super upset...
i dunno why i'm so upset.

maybe i can just easily get a newer cd for that document.

just when i'm writing this blog...
he called again... and told me maybe he will be coming up to kl this weekend.

would it be a good news for me?
haha... i really really have no idea leh :P

miss him too much...
but when i see him i would think that i would have nothing to do...
jus hope he can find the job of his dream soon.

have not been blogging for around one month or two...
or i have been posting too little this few months rather than to post more than 100 post this year.

haha.. i'm just a little bit too lazy to do i guest.
but with my new second hand pc i guess i would be doing more blogging this month.
the main point is to release my tension cos i do not know why i'm so stressed up.
with my work and my poor performance.
i do not know what everything is going out for control.

i wonder and i wonder.
i'm slack and i'm doing nothing.
i wanted to work hard.

but the other part of me just refuse to do so.

so next i'm thinking whether to change the monitor of my second hand computer to a lcd flat screen, at least it would be better if i wanted to use it for my own good hoh...
erm...
i wonder...
when i would start to make up my mind to work hard
and not to be slack?

There are two bathroom one near by the living room and annother new to the master bed room

Master bed room view of the show house.. small small room with our big big love inside :)

Kitchen cum dining space and the yard is just right at the left hand side towards the end of the house

Medium room cum guest room of our new house

The construction of our new condo has been in the progress very very fast... the second 10% billing just right after two months of signing the S & P has reached my mail box last friday.

one full table of food for prayer during 端午节。got vegetarian and most of it is meat.
annother view of the one full table of food..
got fish, chicken and bak yi (meat ball) wow... very very nice oh :)

vege fish curry, vege and bak zhang..

i think the main purpose of having this 端午节is to let the family member have a good time to spend together with each other by having more and more quality time.

it's about 3 weeks or more i have not seen him.
tought we talk with each other on the phone and online everyday.
but the feeling is different when you talk to someone personnally
and talk to them on the phone or online.

sigh...

very very busy lately.
very very tired lately.

do not know what is my direction.
a lot of people asking me what is his direction
has he gotten his job?
those are question which i do not know exactly how to answer you guys.
i wonder how.

i miss him...
i really damn miss him.
i think my family members also missed him much.
especially ah ma...
missing someone who bring her to suppermarket
missing someone who would praise her for the good food she prepared.

me myself?
i also dunno whether i miss him much or not...
the feeling is complicated.

yeah... i miss him la...
but i told him you have to get your job before you want to come back and look for me.
hope that would be his motivation.
hope this can give him a great push... so that he would take more drastic action in order to get a suitable job.

since the increase in fuel price in Malaysia,

everyday or every week you would expect/you might be expecting the price of those necessity to announce their increment.

latest addition to the price increase family is the stationery.
yeah stationery especially paper.

i still remember one ream of "branded" A4 paper would cost me less than RM 10 during my college days but according to the papers the A4 paper would cost another 20-30% more due to fuel price increase and also the increase in paper price world wide.

damn it...

just when you are thinking happily that you have gotten a very satisfying increment early this year...
the government started to give you many shock such as
increase in rice price
increase in fuel price
increase in flour price
increase in stationery price
increase in house price....
so on and so...

so what's next?

another increment in our paycheck?

nah...
i think we just have to tighten our belt and be more caution
and more careful when we decided to spend.
depending whether you wanna spend luxuriously.
better stay at home and do nothing.
cos once you step out of your house you would start spending.

这是我们分开的第一个星期
希望你能够在新国实现我们一起建筑我们梦想的家园的愿望

好想你
可是不想让你知道
不想让自己成为你的牵挂
不想让你太担心自己
因为让你去操心的事情太多太多啦
寄人篱下 应该是辛苦的吧

希望你快些找到你理想的工作
希望你能够和我一样一起
很努力
赚很多很多的钱

我在这边也很努力
工作
学车
维系我们的感情

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this is the first week we are saperated

god. my sore throat came back..
god knows how torturing sore throat is.

cos he is leaving me to seek for a better job?
cos he is leaving me to let us have a better future?

scared...
i'm terribly scared.
scared my heart will change because of this.
scared of my dream will come true.
hope our heart will be together.