tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

I've just came back from my parents friend's open house dinner.
The house was located in Rawang , Bukit Sentosa..
It was like really really far away from KL town area.. I just cant believe how people can leave there and stand with such a quiet place?
I've really though that Rawang is a very very small town.. It was eventually bigger than i ever expected it to be.
Just wondering how people would like to live in such a area where there is no street lights on during the night. Is it too dark and kindda dangerous for the people who lives there to go out at night even they have their own vehicle.
My friend who told me before that her parents bought a house in bukit beruntung.. she told me that it is somewhere near rawang.. i did not knoe it was so far away until today..
talking about her...i was questioning myself months ago where she did not attended my basic graduation.why she could not make it??? is it that I'm not that important to her as a friend? or it is too inconvenient for her to be there? i wonder...
but when i attended my aunty's basic graduation i would be glad that she really did not turn up for the graduation.. eventhough i really really wanted her to be there for me for my graduation.... cos it was really really a lot of ppl will be there and very noisy and you would not knoe wat is goin on inside... but when the moment you open ur eyes and you see that the person who is most important in your life are in front of your eyes you would be really really trilled...
Mayb my feelings towards her as a friend is too deep and i could not forget how she treated me during her b'day party.. i would rather think that she is really sincere to invite me to her party rather then to invite me jus not to hurt my feelings.. cos it really make me feel very very bad... cos the way she threated me... i would never ever forget about it.

This is a picture taken during the first year of my advance diploma in commerce (finanacial accounting) in TARC.. it has been about a year since it was taken.. time really really flies...and things do really changed a lot since then... but i do really hope that we can take another course photo again in the future and then we all pass our ACCA in the coming December and June sitting with flying colours..hurray for AFA 2004/2005 we are the best among the best from TAR college :P  

Don't be too good I will miss you.
Don't be too caring, I might like you.
Don't be too Sweet, I might fall for you.
It's hard for me to love you when you won't love me after all...
Bottom-line : A person who makes me love him is actually a person who loves me more than I love him.
=>i actually told that to my boy friend and he agreed to be the one who make me love him cos he is the person who loves me more than I love him.

If someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you but for some reasons he couldn't stay, don't cry too much...
Just be glad that your paths crossed and; somehow he made you happy even for a while.
Bottom-line : Time will tell. If he's yours he will surely come back.
=>will you go back to someone that you had left her for yourself? don't you felt regret and sorry for what you had did to them? don't you felt sorry about what you have done?

Don't throw your back to love when it's already in front of you.
Don't drive it away from you because if you do, someday you'll think again why you let love fly away when it was once residing next to you.
Bottom-line : Treasure the one who loves you! It's not easy to find a person who loves you. It's always more valuable to have a sincere heart.
=> people are greedy and the always want more than what they have now. to a certain extend it is good to be demanding, but sometimes in love to be demanding you might end yourself burnted...

The greatest regrets in our lives are the risks we did not take.
If you think something will make you happy, GO FOR IT.
Remember that we pass this way only once.
Bottom-line : Time doesn't wait. If you think you might have found the right one, treasure the person, don't let that person get away. Don't let fear hold You back. Give it a try else you might regret later... "No one other than ourselves know what can truly make us happy."
=> but what if you got the right one and you meet a better one? should you give up the right one and be with the better one and you end yourself noticing the better one was in fact a worse?

Two tear drops were floating down the river.
One teardrop said to the other, "I'm the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him. Who are you?" ...
"I'm the teardrop of the man who regrets letting a girl go..."
Bottom-line : Nobody will sympathize with a person who constantly lets chances pass by without making any efforts to salvage them. We normally don't realize how important our loved and close ones are until they leave us, and then we start regretting, which results in misery. Lost time is NEVER gained again
=> chances come and go and when we do not chatch it, it will definately disappeared in front of your eyes.. and by the time you notice about it.. it is too late to do anything about it.

一定要分手 不要是现在 你若要离开用全力把我宰
最好被重击而倒下 连自己的名字也记不来
一定会分手 过了年以后 再给我时间取悦你而改变
任何事我都会依你 这事我拖多一年就一年 贪图可爱你永远

这一回若让你也赢了 干脆把我埋起来
好好的为何吵着说要离开 你比黑色幽默难懂
拳击手擂台上的硬碰 谁都不想败下来
我就要角逐这场生死比赛 奖品或永远痴呆
要分手 先让我用力把你爱个够 最好的一定都留在最后

一定要分手 不要是现在 你若要离开用全力把我宰
最好被重击而倒下 连自己的名字也记不来
一定会分手 过了年以后 再给我时间取悦你而改变
任何事我都会依你 这事我拖多一年就一年 贪图可爱你永远

一定要分手 不要是现在 你若要离开用全力把我宰
最好被重击而倒下 连自己的名字也记不来… …
一定会分手 过了年以后 再给我时间… …
任何事我都会依你 这事我拖多一年就一年 贪图可爱你永远

对不起 我在为难着你 爱你我用尽全力
看你已可以决心把我忘记 难为我爱你又要恨你

金城武曾经在重庆森林里面说过 －－ 如果感情是一个罐头的话...我希望我和他之间的永远没有过期...如果一定要加一个日子的话..我希望它是一万年...

曾经自己非常任性地伤害过我的男朋友...可是他的不离不弃，的确让我觉得非常感动。
如果感情会过期的话希望它是一万年.....那对我来说就已经是天长地久了。

感情是脆弱而敏感的。有时候我们往往因为自己的自私而忽略了它的存在。而失去以后才告诉自己很后悔。
这就是人性。
又下雨了...想起他...喜欢的...但知道那永远没有结果...
曾经的年少轻狂...如今已成过眼烟云...
离开...是我的选择...
选你所爱 爱你所选...

要傷心多久　我才能看透　
離開妳多久　手才會放鬆
是否我在妳的心裡還有一點痛　
愛情隨風　心徹底放縱 讓自己瘋

還隱隱作痛　還記得妳笑容　
這回憶多麼沉重　寧願沒有過
還隱隱作痛　還看見妳放手　
這回憶多麼美麗　刺痛我心頭　我心頭

Haha.. just went out to learn how to drive with my dad...
and i was in the driver's seats for like one minute and i've got kicked out of the driver's seat...
m i that bad... wat is the reason that prevent me form being able to drive ar?
herm.. is it the presure from my dad? or is it i'm tat slow and would not be able to do it?
i'm worried...
i've got a lot of scolding from my dad.. but it would not stop me from being able to drive one day.. dun wanna being continued to be the laughing stuff of my parent and my boy friend and my reletive as well
better think of something and make it rite.... haha.. hopefully i'll get it done real soon:)

it has been a long time since i got my driving license... about 3years pluss lo... but i do not drive at all.. and i give myself all the excuse.. where is my gust?
Am I that chicken?
Promise my dad to ask him to take me for driving lesson... will i be able to do it? or is it just a empty promise from me?
i'll wait and see what i can create and what i want to create:P
oh.. something so simple seems so difficult for me sometimes...
tired to get everything perfect...
so wait and see what is the out come at the end of the day.

hem.. it is time for me to go to bed and it is time for me to think about what i did today and it is what i wanna create?
went out to eat with my parent and we talk nothing much cos we are busy eating and eating and eating until we are very very full. i treat my parents for tonight's dinner.. but the feeling of satisfy was not as great as the feeling of joy and happy during the first time when i threat them after i got my pay for my industrial training... just wonder why this happened?
talked to my boy friend on the phone just now, he was back in his home town -- kluang spending some quality time with his parents. i was hearing the laughter of her mom all the time when i called him. mayb she was really really happy that her son got a great gal gal who really cares about his son and she do not need to worry much about her son anymore. ya mayb huh...
and in the conversation with my boy friend.. he was saying that he really really mind that i was flirting around with other guys... but i don't think that it is a really serious matter... cos i threat and see all guys as my brothers... i always tell people especially other guys... i threat you good cos i see you as my brother.. mayb my boy boy don't like me to be so good to other guys and he would only like me to treat him in a best manner.
it is like really really a joke to me... guys and gals cannot have good and simple relationship? is it necessary for them to think about dirty things when guys and gals are linked together? my god....
hum.. i should consider whether i need to show that i would not flirt with guys anymore or to present it in a different way so that the guys does not think that i am interested in them gua?
:P

Sometimes it is very easy to tell someone you hate them but it is hard when it comes to the time where you need to tell the person you love him/her and you do really really care about him/her.
When you love a person.. sometimes you tend to forget you need to care about there feeling and sometimes you tend to forget what you need to do to love them more...
When you hate a person.. the hate is carried inside ur heart and it is bring along with you all the time and without ur notice it grew... and it grew and it grew and it starts to rotes.. and it will come to a time that you can't bare with it anymore...
it is really important in ourlife that we choose to forgive those who had hurt us and to thank them for giving us such an unforgettable experience and love them as much as those you love..
by then.. your life will be happier...

A kindergarten teacher has decided to let her class play a game. The
teacher told each child in the class to bring along a plastic bag
containing a few potatoes. Each potato will be given a name of a
person that the child hates, so the number of potatoes that a child
will put in his/her plastic bag will depend on the number of people
he/she hates.

So when the day came, every child brought some potatoes with the
name of the people he/she hated. Some had 2 potatoes; some 3 while
some up to 5 potatoes.

The teacher then told the children to carry with them the potatoes
in the plastic bag wherever they go (even to the toilet) for 1 week.
Days after days passed by, and the children started to complain
due to the unpleasant smell let out by the rotten potatoes. Besides,
those having 5 potatoes also had to carry heavier bags. After 1
week, the children were relieved because the game had finally ended.

The teacher asked: "How did you feel while carrying the potatoes
with you for 1 week?" The children let out their frustrations and
started complaining of the trouble that they had to go through
having to carry the heavy and smelly potatoes wherever they go.

Then the teacher told them the hidden meaning behind the game. The
teacher said: "This is exactly the situation when you carry your
hatred for somebody inside your heart. The stench of hatred will
contaminate your heart and you will carry it with you wherever you
go. If you cannot tolerate the smell of rotten potatoes for just 1
week, can you imagine what is it like to have the stench of hatred
in your heart for your lifetime???"

Throw away any hatred for anyone from your heart so that you will
not carry sins for a lifetime. Forgiving others is the best attitude
to take!
Love others even if you don't like them...

sometimes I'm scared to do a lot of things. cos i do not know what will happen in the future.. i'm scared of the consequences that i need to take. what if there is something wrong that will happened? what if things went wrong? what if things did not turn up the way it is suppose to be?
by the time i finished figuring out all the what if, the opportunity to do things that i want to do and i'm scared of the consequences would be gone...
and i would be there trying to figure out if just that i could have this and i could have that...
sometimes we really think too much before we need to take up any opportunity and we end up letting the opportunity to slip pass our hand...
it is very easy talk and talk about something you wanna do... but in fact...it is hard to determine whether we had did the right thing and we would not regret for what we had done...
if it is to be. it is up to me :P

a photo taken during a visit to klia. it was about 2 and half years back.it was really an unforgettable memory for me.now i'm quiet busy with my studies and stuff.therefore i don't think that i would have such an opportunity to go there again soon.but i would really really like to go there again in the near future. 

Sometimes we feel that life is boring.. sometimes we see it as dull.. sometimes we even think it is meaningless..
but nevertheless life to me is exicting.. challenging.. and full of new things that are out there and it is for us to discover it..
Life to me is a journey of roller coaster... sometimes it is very fast.. sometimes it's slow.. sometimes it is at a normal speed...sometimes it is high and sometimes it is low... sometimes it does not move at all because it is out of service.. and we have to find a way to fixed it... Simply because if we do not do anything at all it will not move anymore..
Life is what we choose and where we want to be and where we are going to be as well.. it is not faith that determine where we are now and future.. it is up to us to decide where we wanna be now and future.