tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

feel like crying...
feel like crying...
feel like crying...
i know that i'm a good person but sometimes,
when i'm good to others, they try to take advantage of you?
this make me feel so sad...
mayb i'm a bit prejudice and i do not like to do things for those ppl who i dun like gua.
erm... jus feel a bit frustrated...

everyday i go and stay at the college library to study, cos there are too many attraction at home.. my computer and internet as well as the astro.
staying in the college in college is good for me since i would be able to focus more and more.

eventually today college has a blackout. the whole college. this situation would usually happened at every begining of the semester mayb due to the comsumption of electricity had increased. or mayb is because the college forgot to pay the electricity bill and tnb would not wanna supply electricity since it is not a NPO.

hahaha... how good is my imagination neh? hahaha... a bit crazy d...
din get to study much today since there is a black out and i have forgot what i've done during the black out. i think most of the time i've been sleeping in the library..

sometimes i discover that if you sleep too much you would be very very tired and you would end up doing nothing at the end.

Jerry是美國一家餐廳的經理，
他總是有好心情，當別人問他最近過得如何，
他總是有好消息可以說，
他總是回答『如果我再過得好一些，我就比雙胞胎還幸運囉！』
當他換工作的時候，
許多服務生都跟著他從這家餐廳換到另一家，
為什麼呢？
因為Jerry是個天生的激勵者，
如果有某位員工今天運氣不好，
Jerry總是適時地告訴那位員工往好的方面想。
看到這樣的情境真的讓我很好奇，

所以有一天我到Jerry那兒問他：
『我不懂沒有人能夠老是那樣地積極樂觀，你是怎麼辦到的？』
Jerry回答：
『每天早上我起來告訴自己，
我今天有兩種選擇，我可以選擇好心情，或者我可以選擇壞心情，
我總是選擇有好心情，

即使有不好的事發生，我可以選擇做個受害者，或是選擇從中學習，
我總是選擇從中學習。

每當有人跑來跟我抱怨，
我可以選擇接受抱怨或者指出生命的光明面，態度。我從他身上學到 :
每天你都能選擇享受你的生命，或是憎恨它。

這是唯一一件真正屬於你的權利
我總是選擇生命的光明面。』

『但並不是每件事都那麼容易啊！』我抗議地說
Jerry說：『的確如此，生命就是一連串的選擇，每個狀況都是一個選擇，
你選擇如何回應，你選擇人們如何影響你的心情，
你選擇處於好心情或是壞心情。你選擇如何過你的生活。』

數年後，我聽到Jerry意外地做了一件你絕想不到的事：
有一天他忘記關上餐廳的後門，
結果早上三個武裝歹徒闖入搶劫，
他們要脅Jerry打開保險箱，
由於過度緊張，
Jerry弄錯了一個號碼，
造成搶匪的驚慌，
開槍射擊Jerry，
幸運地，Jerry很快地被鄰居發現，
緊急送到醫院搶救，
經過18小時的外科 手術，以及密集照顧，
Jerry終於出院了，還有塊子彈留在他身上……
事件發生6個月之後我遇到Jerry，
我問他最近怎麼樣，

他回答：『如果我再過得好一些，我就比雙胞胎還幸運了。要看看我的傷痕嗎？』

我婉拒了，但我問他當搶匪闖入的時候，他的心路歷程。

Jerry答道：

『我第一件想到的事情是我應該鎖後門的，
當他們擊中我之後，我躺在地板上，
還記得我有2個選擇：

我可以選擇生，或選擇死。
我選擇活下去。』

『你不害怕嗎？』我問他：

Jerry繼續說：

『醫護人員真了不起，他們一直告訴我沒事，放心。
但是當他們將我推入緊急手術間的路上，
我看到醫生跟護士臉上憂慮的神情，
我真的被嚇到了，
他們的眼好像寫著－他已經是個死人了，
我知道我需要採取行動。』

『當時你做了什麼？』我問：

Jerry說：

『嗯！當時有個碩大的護士用吼叫的音量問我一個問題，
她問我是否會對什麼東西過敏。
我回答：『有』。
這時醫生跟護士都停下來等待我的回答。
我深深地吸了一口氣喊著：『子彈！』
聽他們笑完之後，
我告訴他們：『我現在選擇活下去，
請把我當作一個活生生的人來開刀，不是一個活死人。』
Jerry能活下去當然要歸功於醫生的精湛醫術，
但同時也由於他令人驚異的
沒有人能夠控制或奪去的東西～就是你的態度。
如果你能時時注意這件事實，
你生命中的其他事情都會變得容易許多。

現在你有兩個選擇：
1、你可以遺忘這故事
2、將這傳遞給你關心的人

我選擇了2，希望你也是如此！

茹: 哭 在我肩上痛快地哭 我安静感觉你眼泪的温度 希望对你有些帮助

恒: 你 总是轻易地把我看清楚 就算日子还有些辛苦 有你陪伴也很幸福

茹: 沉默 恒: 微笑
茹: 哭泣 恒: 拥抱
合: 只要紧紧陪在我身边

茹: 你的脆弱 恒: 你的难过
合: 我都懂

茹: 最难过时候就会想起你 恒: 其实你已经给了我勇气
茹: 不管今天或明天
恒: 各分东西 oh ~ 茹: 我们都要活得比现在更美丽
恒: 生命里有人来了又离去 茹: 我们都还是 合: 老脾气
恒: 难得坚持也是种幸福 茹: 到最后我们都找到了 合: 微笑的理由

茹: 沉默 恒: 微笑
茹: 哭泣 恒: 拥抱
合: 只要紧紧陪在我身边

茹: 你的脆弱 恒: 你的难过
合: 我都懂

茹: 最难过时候就会想起你 恒: 其实你已经给了我勇气
茹: 不管今天或明天
恒: 各分东西 oh ~ 茹: 我们都要活得比现在更美丽
恒: 生命里有人来了又离去 茹: 我们都还是 合: 老脾气
恒: 难得坚持也是种幸福 茹: 到最后我们都找到了 合: 微笑的理由

茹: 看着你我自然就会知道 恒: 就知道 生命中有太多不同的味道 合: oh~
茹: 一起寻找 合: 最真实的笑

茹: 最难过时候就会想起你 恒: 其实你已经给了我勇气
茹: 不管今天或明天 恒: 各分东西 oh
茹: 我们都要 恒: 我们都要
合: 活得比现在更美丽 oh
茹: 你给了我 恒: 勇气

合: 生命里有人来了又离去 我们都还是 老脾气 难得坚持也是种幸福
恒: 到最后我们都找到了 茹: 我们都找到了 合: 微笑的理由

yesterday i sms my x- best friend?
erm.. she's busy preparing for her final exam ar....
and today i found that i accidentally call her for 1.02 minute without my notice. walao... erm.. there goes my telephone fees.
today jessy sent me the song 'wei xiao de li you' by fish and yu heng as promised by her.
when i listen to this song i remember about her~~~ my x-best friend.
'when i'm sorrow i'll think of you'
ya... everytime when i'm down i'll think of her.. and...
mayb i want her as my really best best friend and we did not make it.
and i always do a lot of c2pid things and my friends around me will always forgive me jus like tat. hahahaha i'm really a damn lucky person.
i knoe when i said those c2pid things three years back do really hurt her. but... what had been said is already in the past. jus hope that we could still be best friend again...
and not x-best friend...
*speachless*

i write down all the sms i've received cos jus for fun.
but sometimes as a printing manager of my course it is fun jus to sit down and read what the other ppl had sms you.
and today something very geng happened, my coursemate(cos i dun really knoe her so i call her my coursemate) call me and wanted to tell me tat who she is and she "erm... erm.." for a few second and she ask me to pass the phone to the person next to me....
i'm speachless at that time and i'm super 'zha dao' d.
and the person calling was jus sitting a few rows away from the lecture hall...
wat a funny experience for me.
hahahaha...
i think most of the people in my course have my phone number so they knoe who i m but i normally dunno who they are. so wierd and unfair.
hahaha... okie i'm used to it d.

Check this out! It's very accurate.
colour test
wanna knoe wat m i? i'm d brown tiger.

"You are Brown Tiger, who get in touch with others with calm attitude.
You are both pure and friendly, and have the atmosphere of motherly tenderness.
Your character seem flexible and gentle, but you are actually someone who has their own opinion, and do not like to lose.
You are not scared of things.
You can steadily lead life to accomplish your goal.
You have the big sister sort of character.
People around you may push you to become their leader, but your sense of organizing people and action is not that strong.
You are confident, and can put to action with perseverance and guts.
You are dedicated to many things.
You can carry out things calmly and steadily at your own pace.
You don't worry about things so much, and possess the talent to combine many factors together to create a new thing.
You are well balanced person.
Nevertheless, you possess feminine atmosphere and are dependent person.
You lack self-support, and therefore you will be good at working in the back-ground.
Men are attracted to your mysterious atmosphere, but you tend to be very careful, and not fall in love too easily.
You are weak on favors, and can not turn them down.
Once married, you will stay at home and be obsessed with children's education"

if you are using windows xp please off your auto update selection / download update selection.... it is actually a virus....
it will crack all ur file of windows...
then you would not be able to enter into your desktop d la....
so friend out there... careful la!

having my long holiday to prepare for my acca dec sitting exam.
but cima is having their class and i went to attend their class. it was really cool class..
the lecture is touching a lot about current situation and the latest update. tough many might think the lecture is boring but he is actually really good lecture...
just imagine i just go inside the lecture hall and sit down and do my study while i can increase my general knowledge.

wow... my friendster got 123 friend d...
and this friend no 123. is also special to me cos she is my cousin sis...
tough we seldom keep in touch cos she stays in penang.. but she is still a very important person in my life.
glad to know that her result in form 6 is good and hopefully that she would fulfill her dream of becoming a dentist la...:)

last nite i was frustrated when the computer and the blog.
cos i wanna edit my side bar and the blog became something wrong d and kept giving me all the error message. so terriblely irritated.
luckily things are back to normal today.
finnally fixed my side bar and things are back to normal d.

din post for a few days d.
now started to realised that doing a business is not that easy as you can see.
it would not be easy as what you can expect.
erm.. it is so terrible.
sometimes when u realised that you got tricked but you could not do anything about it?
and people promise you something and they do not do it so well and you feel so cham.
sometimes we like to buy things which are cheap i.e. buy things during sales period and sometimes when we tend to buy more and more we tend to spend a lot and we end up to be poorer.
i expected it to happened offered at a lower price and promised that it would be done within certain time limit.
and next which you can expect is they tell you that they cannot finished the job you want on time.
and when you are ok with it d... the next thing that you know is they would rise your price and offer you a higher price.
erm.. this was told by my senior. i should be expecting this to be happening.
terrible la.

唱：梁静茹 词：阿管 曲：林毅心。
彷佛上一分钟 你还陪在我左右
还以为我们会 开花结果
我还记得玫瑰色天空 却模糊了我们的脸孔
哼过的歌到底有什么内容

彷佛已经自由 下一刻我变成风
吹过你的领空 差点失控
回忆在夜里闹得很凶 我想我可以明白你所有的痛
想让你知道我懂 却担心言不由衷

我们都接受 一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重
诚实得过了头 不能退后也无法向前走

爱是一个自私的念头 把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感动 能记得多久

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谢谢你一直都有在体量着我的任性。
一直想放弃你，但你对于我的包容，让我感觉到十分感动。
想放弃却觉得可惜。
在这个特别的日子里，只想对你说生日快乐
~~我的最爱~~~

direct sales...
there are a lot of direct sales all around.
so.. now i'm looking forward to which one would make myself so interested that i would join in it.
they would tell you the opportunity is out there why not you is the one who grab it?
erm.. i dunno.. i'm a very conservative person.
i rather spend all the money on myself rather then invest on something which i think that i might not be interested in lo.

cut my hair short d...
wow the feeling is a bit weird weird one le
feel like those very yeng punya supermodel which got very style look.
just hope that i could loose a bit of my weight and i'll be every style lo.

r u ready for love?
strengths and weaknesses in love
are u ready 4 love?
Go to :Are you ready for love?

What are the 10 Love Readiness Categories?
1) Age - “Do you think you are old enough to handle the emotions of love?”
2) Stage - “So you may be mature for your age, but are you at the best stage in your life to fall in love?”
3) History - “Have you learned from past relationships to prepare you for the next big one?”
4) Family Background - “Have your parents’ and grandparents’ divorce or marriage impacted your readiness to fall in love?”
5) Ability to Compromise - “Do you have the ability to compromise on important issues with another person?”
6) Need to Control - “Do you need to control every aspect of your life (and of someone else’s life)?”
7) Independence - “Do you want to stay completely independent when you fall in love or are you looking for co-dependence?”
8) Friends - “Can you divide your time effectively between your friends and your love?”
9) Commitment - “Can you make the ultimate commitment to another person?”
10) Marriage - “Do you want this love to lead down the aisle?”

my weakest is- marriage (of course not ready for marriage wat)
strongest is- commitment (if i'm committed to you dun think you could run away d...)

decided to cut my hair within this week..
actually me myself do not really like long hair. therefore i decided i might cut my hair to a certain extend that it is really really short.
i've not cutting my hair since jan cos i'm lazy and the cost is high.
seems weird but to me keeping long hair waste a lot of time.
sometimes guy tend to like long hair a lot but i dunno what's the reason behind.
long hair is so troublesome and so difficult to maintain.
i like short hair to have a boyish look to suit my boyish personality.

rene is goin to issue her new album... oh... no.. the i need to buy it again.. my wallet is bleeding d....
how? what can i do?

The problems with GUYS:

If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him;
If u Don't, he says u are PROUD.
If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him;
If u Don't, he says u are from KAMPUNG.
If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN;
If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.
If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE;
If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.
If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u;
If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u.(very true huh?)
If u don't make love with him., he says u don't Love him;
If u do he says u are CHEAP.
If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROBLESOME;
If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.
If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him;
If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u. (Bullshit)
If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;
If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.
If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl;
If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMENT.
If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK;
If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.
If u HURT him, u are CRUEL;
If he HURTS u, u ar e too ! SENSITIVE!!
& sooo hard to please!!!!!
If u send this to guys, they will swear that it's not true.......
but if u don't, they say u are selfish.....
The moral of the story is.......SEND THIS TO GUYS OUT THERE ANYWAY...
Send it to girls also, gives them some laughter .