tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

der.. today seems like a very bad day for me.
the lectures are not understanding and he tought i can create magic for them ?
weird guy.
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it all begins like this.. wake up.. annother great day...
erm... should i meet up with jessy and her brother zen? erm.. wait and see. i'll call them later.
and the day and the course started.
time table. lecture notes. and student bill, resit bill subsription bill.. wow
these are all those which is very very leceh in a sense that i need the co-operation of all the class rep.
i admit that i'm not a very very cool and calm person where i would be able to settle all the things in one peice.
then all the mess come up. and it really irritates me. i do not know what to do and i could never say anything since i'm the one who want to take responsibility of the course welfare.
feel weird about that. do i really care too much about my course and i've neclegted my studies?
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then problem comes in~~ communication problem.
two of the students in my ex-class were there to say that they are not happy with the class they have been given. since they are not being informed about the changes.
and bla... bla.. bla.. and i have to go to the office and consult the lectures and in the end there is no conclusion. i just hate to do all the non value added activities.
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problem two... knowing that the sfm lecture would not be giving any notes, i also play my duty as a printing manager to ask the lecture for notes.
and the disappointing reply from the lecture is that we should have our text book ready by the time he needs it that means now. i think what the hell had happen to the world. this is crazy. he thinks i can play magic ar? i can jus create about 300 copies of bpp manual within a night ar?
so.. i got upset and i sms yon hon and told him about the problem.
and he told me that i sould talk to him nicely,(hahahaha... that is why i'm saying that i'm a person who is lack of patient)
telling him that eventough he had informed us earlier it is impossible for us to get the manual within the time he required. and some more the stupid lecture do not prepare lecture notes and we have to do our own notes.. i'm going to be crazy really really soon.
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okie.. in the afternoon i decided to go to the library and start to do my tutorial question so that i could have an early preparation, and all the problem makes my mind messy until i could not concerntrate on my notes and text book.. so i think it had really been a bad day for me..
but, anyway, i would not have defeated me, i'm sure that 2moro will be a great day eventought it is the day where the c2pid lecture teaching us.

promised myself to go to sleep before 12.. so wat m i doing here now?
waiting for?
anything?
erm.. better force myself to sleep.

erm.. 2moro is the first day of the new semester. just feel that my task and duty just increase next semester. do not know how it would end... but just want it to have a good starting..

at my uncle's house a bit damn boring. my cousin kennan and hector they went out d. and left me at home with ah ma and the internet. so i decided to went online but there is just nothing for me to have a look at.
incrediblily nothing for me to have a look at... and i'm damn terriblely boring here. just feel like wanna go back home now. nothing much to do.
damn.. damn.. damn.. what to do.. nothing to do rite?
smapping my blog and craping a lot now.
tomorrow would be a very challenging day hopefully. a lot of things need to be done.
erm...
need to clean up my room by tonight.
and need to get up early 2moro morning.
should be a great start for myself rite?

talking to my uncle about my 2nd aunty
and i learn something new today.

he told me that people never changed. this is because we always see people in the same box where they would always be the same person no matter how the person had changed.

if you wanna change other poeple. you have to change yourself first. change your thinking and also your perception towards other people.
erm.. i think this is correct. we always see people like a judge and we seldom wear other people's shoe to knoe why and how they would do something like what they had done.

i do not wanna change other people and i would like to change myself. to be a better person. and give the best of myself to other.

i'm back in the college.. and next semester would be far more hectic than expected. and everything have to start all over again.
somethings which are ment to be forgotten and a lot of revision need to be done.
luckily to say we have a dedicated lecture for a very very good subject.
lecture told me that college is aiming for the premier plus status for tuition provider.
erm.. i somehow think that.. with all the so call 'good' lectures..
and student paying extra for all the tuition class.
college may be able to achieve their target.

anyway, just hope that my wish would came true such that.. i would be able to get a new note book and stay in the library to settle a lot of things.

my bf keep on telling me it is already the end of the sem and there is on point of me getting a note book and i do not really need one.
erm.. i think different people have their different view point. but i do urgently need a note book than other things like handphone and digital camera.

okie.. need make new year resolution now...
that is...
study.. with full force and i'll get my note book
;)

why he did not do what i ask him to do?
why why why?
cos the thing is not that important? and there are other things which is more important than that?
just do not feel so great about that. if the person do really cares about you. he / she would remember whatever is important to you also.
cos it is troublesome? too difficult?
wondering about that? questioning..
is it cos the things is not that important?
or i'm not that important?

how far would you trust a person completely?
how far would you trust a person with your life?
would you risk your life for a person you trust/love?
what are the secrifice that you are willing to take for a person who you are deeply in love?
will this determine how far you would go?
will this determine your destiny?

Music: Andrew Lloyd Webber
Lyrics: Charles Hart
Additional Lyrics: Richard Stillgoe
Based on the novel by Gaston Leroux
No more talk of darkness;
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here, nothing can harm you --
my words will warm and calm you.

Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here,
with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you...

Say you love me
every waking moment,
turn my head
with talk of summertime...

Say you need me with you,
now and always...
promise me
that all you say is true --
that's all I ask of you...

Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light.
You're safe:
No-one will find you --
your fears are far behind you...

All I want
is freedom,
a world
with no more night...
and you,
always beside me,
to hold me and to hide me...

Then say you'll share with me
one love, one lifetime...
let me lead you
from your solitude...

Say you need me with you here,
beside you...
anywhere you go,
let me go too --
Christine,
that's all I ask of you...

Say you'll share with me
one love, one lifetime...
say the word
and I will follow you....

Share each day with me,
each night,
each morning...

Say you love me...
You know I do...
Love me --
that's all I ask of you...

Anywhere you go
let me go too...
Love me --
that's all I ask of you....
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just go and watch the movie the phantom of the opera.. and i like this song in the movie very very much.. and i think the wordings are very very meaningful.

i went to watch the movie with my friend and her sis and her sis was like wiping away her tears halfway trough the movie.. erm.. and her jie jie teasted her..
dunno why.. i did not cry...
it is not because the movie is not touching it is just that it did not hit my solid heart hard enough for me to be so touch that i would wanna cry.

Time I've been passing time watching trains go by
All of my life
Lying on the sand watching sea birds fly
Wishing there would be someone waiting home for me

Something's telling me it might be you
Yes, it's telling me it might be you
All of my life

Looking back as lovers go walking past
All of my life
Wondering how they met and what makes it last
If I found the place would I recognize the face?

Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah, it's telling me it might be you

So many quiet walks to take
So many dreams to wake
And there's so much love to make
I think we're gonna need some time
Maybe all we need is time
And it's telling me it might be you
All of my life

I've been saving love songs and lullabies
And there's so much more
No one's ever heard before
Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah, it's telling me it must be you
And I'm feeling it'll just be you all of my life

Yeah, maybe it's you, maybe it's you
I've been waiting for all of my life
Maybe it's you, maybe it's you
I've been waiting for you all of my life
Maybe it's you, maybe it's you
I've been waiting for all of my life
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sometimes we are searching for the right person all of our lifes and yet still we would not ever find it.
weird some people do really find their soul mate, however some just remain lonely with the person who they do not really love them in the rest of their life.
i wonder.. how and who would i end up with...

reading other people's blog celebrating b'day reminds me that about 3 more months i would become older again.
actually i dun mind getting older cos i dun really care about getting older since i do not really changed in my parents' eyes no matter how old i am. i'm still their little baby.. (or little babi);)

talking about b'day i do really care about is a person who i thinks she is very very important to me. no matter how many other people who forgot my b'day or any other things, i do hope i can get her call when clock strikes 12. this year unfortunately she dunno forgot my b'day or she really too tired after working and she sleep and for got to call me. and the day after, she onli sms me to tell me the reason that she did not call me to wish me happy b'day. i do really feel disappointed.

those people who i really really care about them, i would never forget about their b'day and my instict will automatically remind me of that since i do really care about them.

actually i share the same b'day with my cousin sis, but i do not remember that we have ever have any b'day party since i was about 6/7. maybe this is because of her mom gua.. we are like very scared of her mom.. but i think there is suppose nothing such big deal that i have to be affraid of.

erm.. i do really hope that next year.. my b'day on the saturday.. would be a great one..;)

my boy friend jus call me, said that he was not elected for national services as a helper.
i jus wonder why. what criteria they used to judge whether the person is deem fit for the position.
but when i get the news i do not really feel happy, i should be happy since that he will be able to accompany me for shopping and movie this weekend and he will also be able to accompany me during valentines day.
i do really wonder why.

today is clean up day and family day
have to clean up my messy messy room and also spend some time with my cousin...
erm.. wonder what will i do later...
i do really enjoy spending time with them a lot.

there is this person who happen to be in my blog and keep posting bad words and asking everyone to shut up.
today i decided to clean up the chatterbox and let it start all over again
and when the chat box started.. this mr curi ppl's punya nick used my nick and posted the following:-

teechong: after monday class, we go to
teechong: Choong Kwai Fatt's house for BBQ
teechong: i talk to him already, Choong Kwai Fatt said u guys must bring your own bed and stay in his home, because we going to go to clubing that night. please remember!!

i do not really know where is kwaifatt house and i think kwaifatt would not wanna disclose where is his house.
i think this guy must be a very very lonely person and he do thinks that by disturbing and polluting other people's chatterbox is a nice thing to do.
what i childish act.
erm~~ i think he really enjoy being scolded by other people la...
i think he is a really damn crazy person...
but i dunno how to band him from entering my site..
anyone know how? can teach me?
erm.. i'll do it if i really knoe how..

went to ikano and saw that there was a pet shop call animal safari.
walk into it. and see that there is those little things call hamster.
then walk to annother section and see that there are a lot of reptelia.
and saw those really really small but long green snake.. moving extremely fast.
this makes me feel a bit uncomfortable and it reminds me of a find where she really scared of snake and she cant even stand the books with picture of snake.
thinking of her.. again and again....
walking in shoping center alone wit my parents reminds me how long i have not been outing with my bf d..
erm.. miss time like tat..

today i went to shoping with my parents in mutiara damansara
i ask my parents to go to the curve since my friend told me that it was open.

actually it was quite not as expected since most of the shops are not open yet. i think everything would be ready by mid of jan next year
and i notice something there is a cross over between ikano and the curve.
and it does reminds me of pringin mall and komtar of penang where there is also a cross over between the two shoping center.
the one between the curve and ikano is not read yet and the sign board say that the cross over will be ready by mid of jan 2005.
wonder how it would be.. the development of mutiara damansara and the competition with 1U and 4 hyper shopping center of mutiara damansara.
one big disadvantage of the location is there are no public transport that would pass by the area and would enable those without cars to get there.
and the road in kl are very amazing since they would be different almost every three months.
and i wonder whether development in beneficial or harmful to the society?

this time i notice that ikano is having more and more customer. maybe it is weekend or maybe christmas is coming or maybe most of the shops are open and it enables ikano to attract more and more people to visit it.

have a cenemant bun from ikea and i dont really crazy about things like cenemant. but sometimes i think it is nice to have something like tat.

I Honestly Love You ~~~~~ Olivia Newton-John

Maybe I hang around here
A little more than I should
We both know I got somewhere else to go
But I got something to tell you
That I never thought I would
But I believe you really ought to know
I love you
I honestly love you

You don't have to answer
I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
This is pure and simple
And you should realize
That it's coming from my heart and not my head
I love you
I honestly love you

I'm not trying to make you feel uncomfortable
I'm not trying to make you anything at all
But this feeling doesn't come along everyday
And you shouldn't blow the chance
When you've got the chance to say
I love you
I honestly love you

If we both were born
In anoother place and time
This moment might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours
And here I am with mine
So I guess we'll just be leaving it at this
I love you
I honestly love you
I honestly love you

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tears in the eyes wondering whether there is anyone who would love you.
with the feeling lonely and unloved. then the feelings slowly sink beneath your soul until someday you actually forget how it is actually to love someone.
love is actually a powerful gift within our soul, we should treasure it and use it carefully. do not misuse it cos you might regret in future doing that.
if you do not have someone to love....
first and formost, start to love yourself and then slowly spread the love to people around you.
love is in the air wherever you want it to be ;)

wow.. just feel great today since all my cousins are here in kl. i wonder whether they will be coming to my uncle's house or not since my cousin is back d.
really really glad she's back. and i wonder whether we could go out together sometimes or not... hehehe..
to me she means a lot. a friend a cousin and a sister.
i like all gals in my family and i'm a big bully to the guys

ying ying ~~who is the youngest among all the cousin is very very clever and this year she got first place for her class and 4th for the whole standard. sometimes i wonder would she like think too much since she's like a very ambious person. sometimes i do really think that we should not let our kids have to much presure at a very very young age. life is misarable for them in a way.


wei wei ~~who is the brother of ying ying and he was the one who got bullied by me most of the time. but now no more la.. most of the time they come to my house i let them play internet and i wonder how i would be like if i have a brot who take cares of me. what whould my personality be like? would it be totally different?

kennan ~~is kindda big size and heave.. and..with his hear all stand up he always bully me....sometimes i wonder why i'm the one who got bullied? next year he is goin to primary d and he speaks little chinese but his parents wants him to be in chinese primary. i think it should be a good for him. since he told me once that his tongue could not speak english.. yeah.. can bully him back in the future.

hector ~~he is like the angle who appear in my life. when i think about him there would be a very very good mood of me. like his smile and rosy face. and he is tricky and cunning. un kids are suppose to be simple minded?erm i wonder..

jin jin ~~ the younger brother of wei wei and ying ying. have not much connection with this little guy since i do not see him that much. but i always thinks that he do not really look like chinese and also his brother and sister. i wonder why.
and everytime he sees me he will run away and call his mom.. hehehe.. wonder whether i'm really that scary or not.. really wonder.

sometimes people are curious about a lot of things in life.
but what happen if, you do not know much about that person but will you be concern about him / her?
or you know some one and you only talk to the person once?
and everytime you see him / her there is something special in your heart?

sometimes i jus think that very very simple things would make one's life colourful.
life is simple when u wan it to be gua.
if you are easily satisfied. then life would not be difficult for anyone..

today i went for pc fair III in pwtc
as usual the pc fair are full with people where they come from all over the country.
and the onli word that i could used is 'people moutain people sea' which is 'ren san ren hai' .
and it was raining as usual like last year / time there are a lot of people.
standin in the fourth floor of the exibition fall sometime i jus wonder where the hell all this people come from.
and sometimes i do really wonder to what extent will help boost the country's economy and to what extent it will help the company to increase it's year end sales?

then there is this famous computer company call dell. where they distribute paper bag for all the visitors. and by the time we get there. there are no more paper beg available for us. and looking at so many people taking so many bag i was like a bit upset since there sould be enough paper bag for all the visitors for the pc fair.
and then when we finished walking trough out the exhibition and outside was starting to rains. and i tought of goin to the mall and have cake from secret receipe with my friend jean. and suddenly heard that people are distributing dell paper beg and i was like rushing to get the paper bag and when we are there.. the person said you have to wait until 3.30 then we would distribute annother round of paper bag.

My friend and i was kindda disappointed (actually it should be me la)and we decided to get something to eat since we are kindda hungry and kindda tired we decided to go to search for makan.and when we walk outside it was like raining outside. and the pour was quite heavy. Oops cannot go over to the mall.

me and jean went to the cafe / restaurant in pwtc to get some drinks. but i do not think i would want one since i think the drinks are very expensive and i regreted i did not bring my umbrella and bottle together wit me. what a waste.

then we decided to go and wait and grap the paper beg when it is distributed.
and jean asked me whether wanna sit down and rest. and i was like straight away sitted down and i think jean was kindda shock gua..
dunno.. mayb sometimes i do really do things which i think should be crazy and out of my mind.

finally i actually got 2 paper bag one for last time i did not take it. and annother one to put all those catalogue. some times i do really wonders actually these catalogue actually create more rubbish to the environment and not that environment friendly or? it will actually have it's economical benefit than it's cost?
this was only the second day of the pc fair. i do really wonder after the pc fair how much rubbish would be created. and wat is the cost to the company and wat is the cost of all these to the society.

finally i end up buying jus a new catridge and got a RM10 starbucks voucher. haha.. then the first thing i would check is the expiry date. ooo it is 31 dec 2005. then i would use it nicely hahaha.. never like to drink coffee.. i would prefer to drink tea rather than coffee if given a choice. but if there is no choice and i would have to drink coffee i would rather drink nothing or just drink plain water ;)

when me and jean finished getting wat we wanted we went to have something to fill our stomach with something.. jean haven have her lunch yet. and that time was like about 5 o'clock d... OMG i dunno how she can tahan like tat one lo.

me sometimes will get very hungry and can eat non stop.. that's why my size sometimes is too over d..
kekeke....

enjoy today and i think it is really really nice day today :)