tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

sometimes i'm thinking about what is mental torturing.
how can you torture a person mentally.
sometimes i do think torturing a person mentally is far worst than torturing a person physically.
so.. please care for people around you and do not ever try to torture them mentally.

前世情奠定今生爱，
万里洋化成零距离，
真缘份创造真永远。
天变，地变，人变，情不变。
今世继前世，下世接今世，
永世爱相随，都爱着你.
found this in a net friend's nick name..
his nick is really really 'rou ma' and sometimes i also cannot stand it one..
haha.. i think he just wanna express how much and how deep his love for him gal gal gua...
bue i do think is really really touching if someone would say something like this to me.;)

i like chocolate and love it and when i get it i could eat it non stop.
merry christmas is a time for giving and loving...
do really santa will come and grant me.. my very very best wish...
that is...
to eat a lot of chocolate and would not get fat...
;)

fire works here and there....
merry christmas.. this is the last year of merry christmas in tar.
bought a christmas hat for myself.
like to celebrate christmas with all my friends...
merry christmas.. and happy new year...

posting things all around here and there.. since the side bar is already longer that my post for a week.. write too little this week d...
see that my friends website have so many marquee post ar...
just feel a bit weird when seeing at her blog...

this christmas tree is taken from my uncle's house.
merry christmas or should i say merry x'mas...
happy new year...
we should sit down and consider about what we had did this year.
what are good... what are not well..
what are achieve... what are still pending...
hahaha...
still think about it. lo...

christmas nite.. lonely nite...
luckily there is chan fong there for me to listen to his program.
erm.. cham.. cannot celebrate it with my boy friend.
i still remember about 3 years ago during 31 dec i went out to countdown with my friends and we kept calling each other and my phone's battery is dead...
and i ask him that he say that time he wanted to court me but he do not have the gust to do so...
but do not know why we are so eger to see each other and countdown together...
that was my frist countdown...
erm.. i think i would never go out and countdown again gua...

shit shit shit...
nobody come to my blog and wish me merry christmas.. weird...
and nobody wish me merry christmas in friendster also wor...
weird weird...
erm.. i'm i that bad ar?
aiyo.. cham liao la...
feel like crying now...

weird.. there is something between my friend's so called ex-gf and annother coursemate...they are together la!!!!
haha...but it is non of my business i also dun need to care so much about this problem... just feel weird about people talking to me this thing ma..
so wanna say something here lo..
i do really think my friend is a really really good guy la.. he deserve to be loved.. find someone who is nice to him treate him well... and .. stop those nasty rumours.

today all the lecture tat i've recorded cannot be listen d..
so cham.. but dunno leh.. dun feel like crying also...
downloaded the ifrs1 form deloittle it is a program where it help us to learn about ifrs1.
erm.. ergently need to know about the standard.
2moro i'll go to see the lecture to get the ifrs photocopied..
erm.. really need to know what is ifrs la...
worry about my subject...

pengsan d.. listening to the lecture who give lecture where she takes you to holand..
i do not really know what she is talking about.
pengsan where i'm so busy busy with a lot of things in life.

i'm wondering if there is two of the world's most unwelcomed people in the same class. if there is so.. what would happen.
will people suffer if they join them?
but i do really thinks you need to see other people differently... do not think people never change..
people never change since you always looking at them at the same angle and same way.

today went to kl to get some money to buy books and do something personal.
then take bus back to college.. it is difficult to choose between to take bus and lrt.
bus and lrt are diff price. one is RM1 and annother is RM2++ one is not that confortable and one there is no traffic jam...
if i'm wealthy i would take lrt...
i do really think that the government should lower the price of lrt and increse it's frequency and also expand it to those places like my house and puchong..

when i go to the college.. i went to the canteen 2 and help the cima course to sell the bread.. doing charity work... they are raising fun for charity in order for the kids to have money to buy their clothes..
do really like to do something like that..
christmas is a season of giving and giving somemore...

went to the office to settle things for the course so that,i could skip the lecture.. which i do not know what she is talking about today.
when i'm in the office... a lecture.. which last time i think he is quite macho, kinda cute... bought the chirstmas cake form the secret receipe and the cake were marry x'mas on it...
cute..
i will always remember the taste of the cake.. a lot of chocolate.... ice cream.. and the ice cream was mealting..
i think if it would be my b'day.. i would take the cake as my b'day cake.
wow.. really unforgetable x'mas cake which i have ever eatten..

like my friend say.. everyday also cheese cake..
fattening lo.. never can reduce weight..
erm... i would not kill anybody.. if they really tell me i'm fat...
i just torture them hahaha...

today...is exciting.. cos i meet up with 2 friends who i have not seem them for a long long time.
it is weird that to say that i'm online 24/7 cos mayb it is just an coincident that when they are online i'm online too...
jessywho is one of them are really a nice and cute friend. i think she is really really cool in a certain way.
and her brot zen. looks kindda weird in normal casual attire. maybe we are used to see him in office attire and looks kindda weird.
his t shirt wrote fcuk and we tought that it was 'fuck' hahaha..
i did not knoe that actually this is a branded clothing... until i ask annother friend of mine.. erm.. i think i do not have fashion sense and very katak.

we sat down and chat for almost 2 and half hours at secret recipe and i ordered ice lemon tea and cheese choc as usual. erm.. i think cheese choc is really nice.. since i eat chese choc.. i would rather not eat other cake anymore.
we chat and chat and chat and chat... talk a lot about a lot of things.. shit forgot to ask him how his life in oz.. erm...
but i learn something new.. call day light saving..
means.. sometimes the time diff wit my country is 2 hours and sometimes is 3 hours.. weird enough rite?

haha... finally got my cadbrury which i've been waiting for for a long long time.. hahaha...there is the incredibles on it.. wow.. really incredible....
taste nicer than the one my cousin brought back for me... weird.. duh...
maybe it is because it does not have fruits gua...
erm.. the feeling is great... really great.. and i can sit there to finish all the chocolate cos it is just wonderful.. hahahaha...

erm.. better do my homework and blog 2moro...

der.. today seems like a very bad day for me.
the lectures are not understanding and he tought i can create magic for them ?
weird guy.
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it all begins like this.. wake up.. annother great day...
erm... should i meet up with jessy and her brother zen? erm.. wait and see. i'll call them later.
and the day and the course started.
time table. lecture notes. and student bill, resit bill subsription bill.. wow
these are all those which is very very leceh in a sense that i need the co-operation of all the class rep.
i admit that i'm not a very very cool and calm person where i would be able to settle all the things in one peice.
then all the mess come up. and it really irritates me. i do not know what to do and i could never say anything since i'm the one who want to take responsibility of the course welfare.
feel weird about that. do i really care too much about my course and i've neclegted my studies?
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then problem comes in~~ communication problem.
two of the students in my ex-class were there to say that they are not happy with the class they have been given. since they are not being informed about the changes.
and bla... bla.. bla.. and i have to go to the office and consult the lectures and in the end there is no conclusion. i just hate to do all the non value added activities.
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problem two... knowing that the sfm lecture would not be giving any notes, i also play my duty as a printing manager to ask the lecture for notes.
and the disappointing reply from the lecture is that we should have our text book ready by the time he needs it that means now. i think what the hell had happen to the world. this is crazy. he thinks i can play magic ar? i can jus create about 300 copies of bpp manual within a night ar?
so.. i got upset and i sms yon hon and told him about the problem.
and he told me that i sould talk to him nicely,(hahahaha... that is why i'm saying that i'm a person who is lack of patient)
telling him that eventough he had informed us earlier it is impossible for us to get the manual within the time he required. and some more the stupid lecture do not prepare lecture notes and we have to do our own notes.. i'm going to be crazy really really soon.
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okie.. in the afternoon i decided to go to the library and start to do my tutorial question so that i could have an early preparation, and all the problem makes my mind messy until i could not concerntrate on my notes and text book.. so i think it had really been a bad day for me..
but, anyway, i would not have defeated me, i'm sure that 2moro will be a great day eventought it is the day where the c2pid lecture teaching us.

promised myself to go to sleep before 12.. so wat m i doing here now?
waiting for?
anything?
erm.. better force myself to sleep.

erm.. 2moro is the first day of the new semester. just feel that my task and duty just increase next semester. do not know how it would end... but just want it to have a good starting..

at my uncle's house a bit damn boring. my cousin kennan and hector they went out d. and left me at home with ah ma and the internet. so i decided to went online but there is just nothing for me to have a look at.
incrediblily nothing for me to have a look at... and i'm damn terriblely boring here. just feel like wanna go back home now. nothing much to do.
damn.. damn.. damn.. what to do.. nothing to do rite?
smapping my blog and craping a lot now.
tomorrow would be a very challenging day hopefully. a lot of things need to be done.
erm...
need to clean up my room by tonight.
and need to get up early 2moro morning.
should be a great start for myself rite?

talking to my uncle about my 2nd aunty
and i learn something new today.

he told me that people never changed. this is because we always see people in the same box where they would always be the same person no matter how the person had changed.

if you wanna change other poeple. you have to change yourself first. change your thinking and also your perception towards other people.
erm.. i think this is correct. we always see people like a judge and we seldom wear other people's shoe to knoe why and how they would do something like what they had done.

i do not wanna change other people and i would like to change myself. to be a better person. and give the best of myself to other.

i'm back in the college.. and next semester would be far more hectic than expected. and everything have to start all over again.
somethings which are ment to be forgotten and a lot of revision need to be done.
luckily to say we have a dedicated lecture for a very very good subject.
lecture told me that college is aiming for the premier plus status for tuition provider.
erm.. i somehow think that.. with all the so call 'good' lectures..
and student paying extra for all the tuition class.
college may be able to achieve their target.

anyway, just hope that my wish would came true such that.. i would be able to get a new note book and stay in the library to settle a lot of things.

my bf keep on telling me it is already the end of the sem and there is on point of me getting a note book and i do not really need one.
erm.. i think different people have their different view point. but i do urgently need a note book than other things like handphone and digital camera.

okie.. need make new year resolution now...
that is...
study.. with full force and i'll get my note book
;)

why he did not do what i ask him to do?
why why why?
cos the thing is not that important? and there are other things which is more important than that?
just do not feel so great about that. if the person do really cares about you. he / she would remember whatever is important to you also.
cos it is troublesome? too difficult?
wondering about that? questioning..
is it cos the things is not that important?
or i'm not that important?