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today i done something which i think is very crazy...
i attend class for 7 hours...
the first 3 hours is 3.7 sfm tutorial by mr tho..
the first class was group 6 which the class is very quiet and sometimes i really pity mr tho cos he really 'gek ki' teaching them.. no respond... not responsive class.
then the second class was group 7 where all the student which are very geng one are in class.. actually i think the class only need to have a few people who are responsive like 'nicholas and angelina' then the class will become a tutor's favourite class.
then during the class mr tho actually finished his class earlier than expected. then he ask whether wanna continue the class for annother question, then i told mr tho to do question 6 which he did not do very well in the previous class due to time constrant.
then the person in the class call 'nic' objected because he say that he do not want to do the question since he have not read the question. but to me on the fence.. i think more suitable to do question 6 first because the other question 5 takes a longer time to explain and if mr tho did explain question 5 he will hang in the middle of no where. i think i would not like this type of presentation lo.
luckily the class agreed to do question 6 first. :P and i got to learn it for the second time.. and mr tho really explained it better. much better than the previous class.

and the remaining 2 hours is the case study tutorial which was done by miss yap, miss geh and also mr chong.
miss yap explained what she required us to do within the first half hour of tutorial while miss geh came in to explained about the presentation of the case study.
then come mr chong...
boring as usual.. and evelyn say he started priesting again...
and tell the same old grandmother story...
erm... grandmother story..
acca passing rate..
when i see people i would tell people do not talk about it anymore...
don't mention about it.

then come to ms ng class. she came in late and i was too tired and i end up goin to the library to search for next week sfm tutorial answer and also ended up chating with other people about the results and whether they should go and take the revision class outside or not.

erm...
yesterday the exam result was out.
chen yee called me at about 1pm (according to my handphone record is 12.54)
he told me that the result was out and asked me what is my result...
but at that point of time i was at the middle of no where.
knowing that the result was out already..
my heart was beating faster and faster....
seng joo bring me and doreamon to cyber cafe to check the results...
erm.. login to my e-mail...
ooi..why no acca one?
scroll down a bit.. rupa rupanya dekat bawah...
open the result slip...

OMG OMG... just like in the movie.. you scrolled down your result slowly...
slowly...
slowly...
the you see the title of the first subject:-
3.2MYS Adv. Tax.
the down a bit is the marks...
unbelievable marks...
then annother one...
3.3 Perf. Man.
the marks...
wow.. still higher than my expected margin...

erm.. i could not say even a word when i knoe my results...
then within that hour i called many many people..

• my dad
• 4th uncle
• ms karen
• hui ling (miss call her)
• sms chen yee
• sms mr soo and he called back

it was like a dream.. i've passed my acca...the journey had to proceed to the final part of my studies...

later that afternoon...
din heard much news.. but most of the news are not good news... mostly bad news.
most people failed one subject and some failed both...
and most of them fail at marginal marks...
so.. terrible..

that's all for my report on my examination result.

erm.. too tired of 3-8 people's result..
dunno wat to write for the moment...
will blog more 2moro...
too many people around me failed...
dunno how to console them...
found it difficult to face the lecture...

today seems like i did not do anything special
in the afternoon i ate the shark fin soup that dad bring home.
and later went to metro prima wit my cousins.
then we wanted to eat dinner at the restaurant near metro prima.
there were a lot of people around there...
and ying ying was upset because she need to eat vegetarian food which she dislike a lot
she is kindda cute...
then went to their house and see jin jin
he still kindda fussy where dun wan me to carry him
then ying ying and wei wei came to my house and 'study'
and i wash those clothes i soak b4 i went out with my cousin.
seems boring today

suddenly see this quote in my friend's blog
If you want to have more in your life, you must first give more away.
i think it is quite true that what you require from others... you should give out more first if you want more from others.

herm... this chinese new year visiting relatives.. the most common comment from them is i look thinner d...
i do not believe on that until today that joo say i really look thinner already.
mayb he is not around to take care of me and live is too busy when he is not around.

he promised to take care of me and make me fat fat.
erm... to be fat fat should be a gal's happiness gua.
but mom like me to be thinner wor..
i wonder...
but i feel myself like balloon. easy thin easy fat.

last nite sleept very very late....
din sleep until it was about 3-4am in the nite.
we were fighting over something.
i dun like him to go out until so late geh...
and i do hope that he would like to come and visit me surprisingly since he was around the area with a bunch of guys...
(he told me that he was blocked down by the police in chow kit last nite about 1-2am. erm.. the police must be thinking they are a bunch of guys which are up to no good in the middle of the nite.)

wake up early today since i asked my dad to take me to the KTM station to take the commuter to mid valley.
reached there quite early about 9.15 already at mid valley where there is not many people in the mall yet.
it's a bit scary to me cos the incident which happened recently at the curve.
as i keep telling myself that i'm a really really brave person i manage to get to mc to sit down and order for my mc breakfast. as usual the breakfast is confirmed to be more expensive d...
about 9.30 called my bf and he said he was on the shutter bus. and 10 minutes later he was there...
kindda weird to see him cos he had cut his hair and comb it in a weird way...
erm... long long time have not see him already...
and after the fight last nite...
sometimes i just wanna be with him and hope that he would not make me angry anymore and we and in good relationship all the time.

erm.. line up and purchase the ticket for movie and realised the price of the movie had increase...
erm.. i would be more expensive to watch movie during the weekends d.
wondering whether should i watch movie at other places leh?
might not be able to afford watching such high cost movie every time wor...

constantine
this movie was stared by keanu reeves the star of matrix.
in my opinion, the message i love a lot about is mr constantine had been smoking 30 cigeratte a day since he was 15 and he was attacked by lung cancer.
and he would not stop smoking.. and almost every scene in the movie you would see constantine smoking...
and by the end of movie constantine commited suicide again to summon the 'syaitan' to collect his soul. where he ask satan to stop satan's son from crossing over the world of man using the constantine's friend angela with angel gabriel's help.
and when satan finished his help, he wanna take constantine to hell and constantine ask satan to free angela's sister isabel from hell. this act enable him to go to the heaven... and constantine was showing his minddle fingger when he was raised from his death... erm.. quiet interesting...
satan was not satisfied with this and decided to give life to constantine and put his hand into constantine lung and took out the black substance in constantine's lung. i think this is definately a message to the viewers telling them that smoking is not good. and we should take care of ourselves and other people around us so that we could all live in a more suitable environment.

after the movie we walk around mid velley and we decided to eat cake at secret receipe in mid velley and it was disappointed since all those cake that we like to eat are not available and we are kindda disappointed.

so we went to take the commuter to kl and went to the secret receipe in kl.
erm.. we like to eat cake in the kl secret receipe. coozy environment and seems like a very suitable place for chating... and studying.

then we go back home and joo was at my house to online to search for job.
and mom gave joo a big ang pao.. bigger than the one joo's mom give me...
erm.. i think mom have a good impression on joo d...
hahaha...
erm.. i did something c2pid and i said joo was too shy /pai sei to talk to my mom.. hahaha...

shy shy punya joo...
then went he went back i was very very tired..
and then i passed out on my bed...
and when i woke up i was blur blur...
and i started to post this blog lo...
:P

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yesterday... finally the foulk lynch original text book arrive in college.
went to college at about 8.30am
i was reli reluctant to wake up so early cos it is sooo early.
but uncle will pick me to college.
this help me save some cost and dun need to change bus lo.

stay at the library and study.
read news paper for about 1 hour and almost all the chinese news paper also been flip by me.
then went out of the magazine section and sit down and start study.
dunno what to do.
suddenly notice that my ft sfm notes are very very messy the notes are all mess up with the question.
i think i better recopy the question in a new paper and i aslo revise the topic which had been tought by uncle daniel lo.
erm... 1 hour.. revise 3 question. i think should be not bad gua.. suddenly hope that i got much more time.

10.30am already.
went to the office and noticed that chris was not around. OMG then where should i 'tumpang' my books?
erm.. hehehe... the course tutor room...
erm.. i decided to 'tumpang' my books at mr chong's room.
mr jaya (the publisher) have not come yet.
last time he sent the book to the admin block... i think it would be terrible that he sent the book to admin block again.
so i went to the office to call mr jaya again so that he would sent the book to SBS office.
unfortunately mr jaya did not bring enough copy of 3.5 study manual.
he promised to sent me the book by 2moro (17 feb) [actually the book did arrive to my house by today ;).i'm so happy and thankful cos the big stone on my heart had been dropped]
i ask the coursemate to come and see me to collect the books by 12. and got one coursemate call me by 12.30 and unfortunately the books are in the course tutor's room and the course tutors are out for lunch.
sometimes i think that people ask you to come b4 12pm, i think you should follow people's instruction and if you could not make it... you should inform others and not just follow what you want. everything you want might caused inconvinent to other people.
stay at the library until about 1.00-1.15pm. and suddenly ah pek say wanna sent me home.
and we went to desa to have lunch but unfortunately the shops are not opened.
then he decided to go eat lunch with yeong sang and me.
and the weird thing happened...
yeong sang and ah pek wore the same t-shirt.
erm.. the two guy mesti 'ada jalan' punya.

after my lunch..
my parents finally back from Penang...
as usual every chinese new year i would get a box of chocolate from my granny (cos i like chocolate).

then.. in the afternoon.. went to tuition...

at nite i was playing fire works with my little monster
this was how my day ended yesterday.

i was upset yesterday by some people in my life.
to me, the person is not really a very important person but i'm kinda pissoff by the fuller.
notice that when you are erogant... you are very unwelcomed.
notice your attitude towards others is very very important.

today i decided to work harder.
today i decided to keep on working...
to me.. it seems to be the most wonderful thing that had happened to me.
to me... i really wonder what will be coming soon
the results will be out next monday.
a bit excited.
erm.. wonder whether i would pass the exam.

wonder...
i think i'm really really happy now.
enjoy this week and make myself to work harder gua...;)

just now i called my friend and her sister answer the phone.
i knew that was her sister and i kept calling jean yee,
and ann yee kept saying 'yes speaking'
erm.. i think it must have been very 'gan ga' and very 'pai seh' for her =P

i believe that there is always things that go beyond your expectation.
i think there is always things that are not done according to what you want.
but what can you do with it?
just admit the fact that you cannot do anything with it?
or fight for what you want?
i'm wondering about this.

it is seems that my nightmare will be over soon
it has been bugging me for more than 7 weeks d.
being bug by all those people every day is really a nightmare and sometimes i really hope that i would loose my temper and quit my responsibility.

sometimes i think it would be difficult to be a nice person.
sometimes i think it would be bad if i'm not a nice person =P

Which of Jay's personalities do you hold?


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it haved been a long long time since i last check the record of visitors for the site and the tarafa site.
lazy to check it because i think it would be almost the same not many people visiting my site.:P
but surprisingly i notice that the day i've put up the drawing was the day that my site got the highest page load. mayb bcos i load my page many many times that day gua...:P
anyway now feeling a bit happy.
just wan wish everybody happy valentines day lo

I remember my dad teaching me the power of language at a very young age. Not only did my dad understand that specific words affect our mental pictures, but he understood words are a powerful programming factor in lifelong success.

One particularly interesting event occurred when I was eight. As a kid, I was always climbing trees, poles, and literally hanging around upside down from the rafters of our lake house. So, it came to no surprise for my dad to find me at the top of a 30-foot tree swinging back and forth. My little eight-year-old brain didn't realize the tree could break or I could get hurt. I just thought it was fun to be up so high.

My older cousin, Tammy, was also in the same tree. She was hanging on the first big limb, about ten feet below me. Tammy's mother also noticed us at the exact same time my dad did. About that time a huge gust of wind came over the tree. I could hear the leaves start to rattle and the tree begin to sway. I remember my dad's voice over the wind yell, "Bart, Hold on tightly." So I did. The next thing I know, I heard Tammy screaming at the top of her lungs, laying flat on the ground. She had fallen out of the tree.

I scampered down the tree to safety. My dad later told me why she fell and I did not. Apparently, Tammy's mother was not as an astute student of language as my father. When Tammy's mother felt the gust of wind, she yelled out, "Tammy, don't fall!" And Tammy did... fall.

My dad then explained to me that the mind has a very difficult time processing a negative image. In fact, people who rely on internal pictures cannot see a negative at all. In order for Tammy to process the command of not falling, her nine-year- old brain had to first imagine falling, then try to tell the brain not to do what it just imagined. Whereas, my eight-year-old brain instantly had an internal image of me hanging on tightly.

This is why people who try to stop smoking struggle with the ct of stopping smoking. They are running pictures all day of themselves smoking. Smokers are rarely taught to see themselves breathing fresh air and feeling great. The language itself becomes one barrier to success.

This concept is especially useful when you are attempting to break a habit or set a goal. You can't visualize not doing something. The only way to properly visualize not doing something is to actually find a word for what you want to do and visualize that. For example, when I was thirteen years old, I played for my junior high school football team. I tried so hard to be good, but I just couldn't get it together at that age. I remember hearing the words run through my head as I was running out for a pass, "Don't drop it!" Naturally, I dropped the ball.

My coaches were not skilled enough to teach us proper "self-talk." They just thought some kids could catch and others couldn't. I'll never make it pro, but

I'm now a pretty good Sunday afternoon football player, because all my internal dialogue is positive and encourages me to win. I wish my dad had coached me playing football instead of just climbing trees. I might have had a longer football career.

Here is a very easy demonstration to teach your kids and your friends the power of a toxic vocabulary. Ask them to hold a pen or pencil. Hand it to them. Now, follow my instructions carefully. Say to them, "Okay, try to drop the pencil." Observe what they do.

Most people release their hands and watch the pencil hit the floor. You respond, "You weren't paying attention. I said TRY to drop the pencil. Now please do it again." Most people then pick up the pencil and pretend to be in excruciating pain while their hand tries but fails to drop the pencil.

The point is made.

If you tell your brain you will "give it a try," you are actually telling your brain to fail. I have a "no try" rule in my house and with everyone I interact with. Either people will do it or they won't. Either they will be at the party or they won't. I'm brutal when people attempt to lie to me by using the word try. Do they think I don't know they are really telegraphing to the world they have no intention of doing it but they want me to give them brownie points for pretended effort? You will never hear the words "I'll try" come out of my mouth unless I'm teaching this concept in a seminar.

If you "try" and do something, your unconscious mind has permission not to succeed. If I truly can't make a decision I will tell the truth. "Sorry John. I'm not sure if I will be at your party or not. I've got an outstanding commitment. If that falls through, I will be here. Otherwise, I will not. Thanks for the invite."

People respect honesty. So remove the word "try" from your vocabulary.

My dad also told me that psychologists claim it takes seventeen positive statements to offset one negative statement. I have no idea if it is true, but the logic holds true. It might take up to seventeen compliments to offset the emotional damage of one harsh criticism.

These are concepts that are especially useful when raising children.

Ask yourself how many compliments you give yourself daily versus how many criticisms. Heck, I know you are talking to yourself all day long. We all have internal voices that give us direction.

So, are you giving yourself the 17:1 ratio or are you shortchanging yourself with toxic self-talk like, "I suck. I'm fat. Nobody will like me. I'll try this diet. I'm not good enough. I'm so stupid. I'm broke, etc. etc."

If our parents can set a lifetime of programming with one wrong statement, imagine the kind of programming you are doing on a daily basis with your own internal dialogue. Here is a list of Toxic Vocabulary words.

Notice when you or other people use them.

Ø But

Ø Try

Ø If

Ø Might

Ø Would Have

Ø Should Have

Ø Could Have

Ø Can't

Ø Don't

But: negates any words that are stated before it.

If: presupposes that you may not.

Would have: Past tense that draws attention to things that didn't actually happen.

Should have: Past tense that draws attention to things that didn't actually happen (and implies guilt.)

Could have: Past tense that draws attention to things that didn't actually happen but the person tries to take credit as if it did happen.

Try: Presupposes failure.

Might: It does nothing definite. It leaves options for your listener.

Can't / Don't: These words force the listener to focus on exactly the opposite of what you want. This is a classic mistake that parents and coaches make without knowing the damage of this linguistic error.

Examples:

Toxic phrase: "Don't drop the ball!"

Likely result: Drops the ball

Better language: "Catch the ball!"



Toxic phrase: "You shouldn't watch so much television."

Likely result: Watches more television.

Better language: "I read too much television makes people stupid. You might find yourself turning that TV off and picking up one of those books more often!"

Exercise: Take a moment to write down all the phrases you use on a daily basis or any Toxic self-talk that you have noticed yourself using. Write these phrases down so you will begin to catch yourself as they occur and change them.

did nothing today.
online, bloging, listen to music as usual.
try to focus on my tutorial but i was too lazy.
downloaded firefox today.
but i think there is nothing so amazing about it.
but there are a lot of program that are run on the net needed to be downloaded
erm.. but no doubt that the anti pop up thing is more powerful than the ie.
but i notice something that is all my marquee language are disabled.
and all those nice nice picture in marquee form cannot be view.
erm...
there is always some surprise when u tried.
there will be surprise if you are willing to try.
mayb the result would be disappointing.
as william hung always says:-
'i've already did my best, i have no regrets at all'

looking at my check list, actually have not did anything special or plan this few days.
feel sorry for myself wasting all the time.

感觉上自己就是个爱恨分明的女生。
喜欢和不喜欢的东西都能够很清楚地表露在我的脸上。
有人告诉这样的自己非常吃亏。
很希望能够做一个非常自我的女生。
可以直来直往。
但事实告诉我， 对不起我不能够这么样。
对待身边的朋友，一直让自己保持直来直往的性格，
也尽量让自己对于别人的伤害减到最低。
对于自己不喜欢的人，就要学小学生
～我们假假和他好～

nothing much to do today. and do not know what to do today leh...
sien oh..................