tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

Song : One Moment In Time (Whitney Houston)

Each day I live I want to be
A day to give The best of me
(yeah give my best in my acca examination)
I'm only one But not alone
(a bunch of tar college coursemate sitting exam together wit me on 13,14 and 15 june)
My finest day Is yet unknown
(one of my finest day would be the day i get my acca)
I broke my heart Fought every gain
(loosing my scolarship in the second year of my advanced diploma)
To taste the sweet I face the pain
(besides getting so many c for my exam but yet i manage to pass with a merit)
I rise and fall Yet through it all
This much remains
(i'm sitting for my acca core paper for this 13, 14 and 15 june)

I want one moment in time
(that is 13, 14 and 15 june)
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
(a heartbeat away from getting at least fifty marks each to pass my three core paper)
And the answers are all up to me
(yes all hardwork had been done)

Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
(yes destiny is right in front of me)
(potential future accountant)
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel
I will feel eternity
(eternity... cos do not have to face any exam already?)

I've lived to be The very best
(acca exam is the best professional qualification exam!)
I want it all No time for less
I've laid the plans
Now lay the chance
Here in my hands
(now is the chance for me to pass my core paper in one goal)

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
(it's up to me to do my level best)

Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel
I will feel eternity

You're a winner for a lifetime
If you seize that one moment in time
Make it shine
(shine to be a star in acca graduation ceremony)

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will be
I will be
I will be free
I will be
I will be free
(free no more exam!!!!)

无印良品
我找你找了好久

可以彼此分享得意骄傲 不担忧谁的心里不是味道
可以传染给你心情不好 连说一个理由都不需要

可以直来直往提醒劝告 就算争吵也都是为对方好
可以和你商量秘密苦恼 不害怕全世界都会知道

我找你找了好久 一个互相了解的朋友
生活有人分享的时候 快乐就变得容易许多

我找你找了好久 一个拿心来换的朋友
伤痛有人抱紧的时候 未来有什么路不敢走

this song specially dedicated to my friend yu yee.
why? cos today is her b'day
why dedicate this song to her? cos this song have a very very special meaning for me.
;) i do hope she knows what i mean. (regardless whether she sees this post or not)

ever since we quarreled and din talk much since then, i always prevent myself from looking backwards,
always ask myself to look forward.

last nite just after mid nite i sent her a sms to wish her happy b'day
just when i tought there would not be any respond from her,
i actually received a sms from her
'tks,my dear fren.so hapy 2receive ur msg.bt,d happiest is our frenshi stil remain..tks'

hmmm... have you have some friends who you din contact them for a long time?
just drop them a sms and you would light up their heart and make their day feel different!

trust me ;)

hui ling wit the snoopy from lay qing, jean and me.... in the picture from left hui ling, lay qing, siew heoh, seng joo and me.... 

jean, joo and me, huiling and siew heoh dunno which camera to look at? 

jean, joo and me and also hui ling and her lovely snoopy from us;) 

me, hui ling, close eyes siew heoh and jean of course 

me, hui ling and the two lovely couple yen yeen and sam 

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

have a bad dream when i wake up this morning
dream that something about joo and me.
weird dream.. and i terus wake up already.

then realised it was already 8am.
nobody wake me up to go to college to study?
huh? how come?
where is my dad?
huh? today is not sunday wor?
how come i'm still at home at this hour?

ha...
just realised that my dad told me last week he will pick his boss worker dunno go where.
he will pick me up later.
erm...
luckily. i remember.
usually when you feel yourself waking up at the wrong side of the bed, you would feel very very blur and sometimes you might wanna scold poeple.
and you have to have very very good EQ management to avoid yourself scolding poeple gua..:P

sometimes i wonder how a gal choose her bf.
is it you have to choose a guy who got car,
and have a good job,
and will give you all those very very expensive gift.
and when he go outing with you, you would have to go places which is very very expensive, and you consider it as high class such as?
k*m g*ry? or even v*ctor*a st*t*on?

wonder how gals would have four eyes when they find the boy friend.
erm maybe is i have too much tought in this lovely nite.

sometimes i wonder about a gal's spending habbit.
on clothes... which is branded... you can use about a thousand just for shopping?
and you tell me you cannot support original books and music?

maybe i have very very bad spending habbit as well.
but i think the way i spending and save the money would be quite different gua...
dunno.
just feel that if i do not agreed with your attitude...
i might not be able share my toughts with you gua.
i dun like poeple who dun care about others' feeling but
they would definately 100% want you to take care of their feelings
and they would have you around like you must help them...

sorry having too much emotion before exam...
remembering got scolded by the someone just because i told him the truth
and how i feel about things.
just do not like people complaining about my attitude.
you can complaint that i'm a lazy person, dirty bug, naughty person or even an evil person.
but please please do not complaint to me that my attitude got problem.
i think i will burst that very moment.
cos i think i would always have a possitive attitude towards life and everything that i would encounter.
but if you told me that my attitude got problem does it means that possitive attitude is wrong?

do really think i'm very very very and extremely straight person.
and like to shoot people. especially those who are closed to me.
haha (sorry to those who are closed to me. you have to get sometimes to prevent being hurt badly by me)
but never mind, i would also invite you to shoot me.
dun really care that much whether it hurts a lot or not.

feel very very bad cos sometimes that things that you like hurt you the deepest.

sometimes is the friend that you trust hurt you the deepest.
heart breaking... why? cos already patah hati and putus asa d.

sometimes is the subject you favour the most, you did it badly
very very badly.

sometimes mayb things that you do not like would help you on the road.
sometimes is good to be neutral and not bias.

keep an open mind for everythings that is going to come
prepare to accept things that is going to come with open arms.

things are gonna be...
to be... will be...

one more week and seems that i did not touch much on 3.6
do hope miricle would happen.
haha
wonder how would it happen.
still sticking myself with the computer and the tv.
do not want myself to sleep too much
just tell myself i would have all the time in the world that i could have to do the things that i like.
i really wonder about it.

i should really motivate myself.
never give up...
acca exam starting 2moro.
but mine is one more week to go.
do hope that i would not panic at the last moment.

one more week. not consider very long.
however,
i would help much if i used it wisely.
do pray for myself, my friends and all my coursemate.
all the best in the exam.

always wonder whether taking a post of printing manager for the course is a correct decision.
always wonder why should i take the post?
from the very first day of the course committee election,
the senior was like saying gals cannot be printing manager since i have no transport and also printing manager would be a very very hectic job for a gal.
and after this two years,
i can proved this saying is rubbish and it also contains some kind of sex discrimination.
remembering the impression on nicholas's face.
saying he do not wanna take the post of course rep.
and he wanna be the printing manager of the course.
and i was scared and worried cos.. last time i would always critic my course's printing manager.
and i was suprised that he actually compromised that the would be the course rep.
remember people telling me that if you do not wanna hold the post there is a lot of other poeple wanted to hold the post.
remembering changing supplier without telling my x-course rep (nick) anything about it.
remembering that he was very very action.... and wanted to go agaist me.
and remembering that he eventually din able to come into our course since his cgpa din acheived the course entry requirement that year.
remembering that nobody wanna become the course rep of the course.
remembering everyone complaining about the course rep not doing anything.
remembering course rep and treasurer complaining me about my attitude to my friend the assistant course rep.
remembering i do not need their (course rep, assistant course rep and treasurer )help but i really been help by all the class rep a lot and a lot.
remembering miss chin ask me not to put too much effort on the course matter.
remembering miss karen told me that my over all paper was quite good.
remembering the concern on the lecture's face.
remembering my life in tar college as a printing manager in two years of my advanced diploma.

just received my result today...
a very every unbelievable result for myself
cant imagine...
get so unbelievable result
and actually i got an B for my finance and ...
the paper actually i got an C for one subject...
and the one and only C for my exam.
i see already i also think it is very very unbelievable.

so if you are interested is knowing wat the subject is please guess...
and i'll tell u trough msn or e-mail u...
cos i'm reli reli shy to disclose it here...:P

khai nien eileen... me and ker tying wit our lovely flowers..... 

eileen and me... oops my hair is messy d....haha 

khai nien and eileen.... graduating wit their beautiful flower..... 

today is my bf's convo....
hehe...
can't belive it that he actually graduated earlier than me (practically)
he is always the one who is very very lucky.
why?
he always tend to fail his exam...
and tends to make it during the final resit.
what a lucky guy.

annother friend of mine...
hui ling she also going to graduate today...
and she is going to fly to uk to shefield by 17 may if i'm not mistaken.

and many tough not much graduated.
in the graduation list there were about 196 people who completed and graduate from the course.
and this figure is about 70% of the population in the course of 285 poeple.
and out of this 196 people only 4 poeple got distinction and also 69 poeple got merit for their graduation.

erm... i'm one of the people who graduated... so happy...
and yesterday i met miss ng...
she was like trying to tell me wat is my grade for her paper.
erm... maybe a B? i think that's all i can get gua...
cos eventought i did not do badly on her paper.
but i feel that there are things which i did not do well enough to get an A

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

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this song have a very very special meaning for me and a friend.
i'm not sure whether the person will still remember this song?
just wanna listen to this song again and again and again...

just close my eyes and listen to it every time.
brings me a lot of satisfaction.

today when i wake up my the flesh beside my tooth was in deep pain....
cannot describe the feeling but it does affect my emotion.
maybe too many spicy food lately.
damn...
it is like a pain in the ass...

it is really painful and i think the flesh is going to cover my wisdom tooth someday.
my god...
tired...
wanna cry already...
cham liao la...
how to continue to study?
and exam is coming soon again.....