tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

i was waiting for the good show.
but eventually there wasn't any good show.

but sarah had actually employed someone who is better than the person who had run away after her pile of mess.

even the auditor had a lot of question that need to ask her.
but she is not around.
'this one is not me who handle it....
those document are lost during the time when we shift the office....
bla.. bla.. bla...'
actually we notice that she actually do not have much actual knowledge about accounting.
just that her experience result to her staying in the company for many years

now her privious manager had gone and the new finance manager is looking very closely at each transaction that had been made so that there would not be any possibility of fraud that would occur during the case of incuring any services.

i think i should be working until next week.
till then i would be unemployed again

today met my secondary monitor.
i think she came back from rusia for holiday.
still with the same boy friend.
actually i was glad to see her again.
basically i totally lost contact with all those secondary friend and don't mention about those in the primary.

sometimes i just feel that after so much time,
i am more and more protective and you would not easily see that i am nauty and very very true to my friends is i consider you as just friends.

i would like to help poeple
but sometimes i would feel very very reluctant to get close to people.
why?
cos sometimes i just feel that when you get close to other poeple,
some secret that you would wanna share with them only would become a know item among the friends.
sometimes i feel sick and tired about it.
so i decided not to be too closed to poeple.

but i also received complaint that i do not have many friends.
i think it should be part of my life gua.
since i'm to only child in the family and i already get used to those things that i should or should not do.
and already used to being distance from poeple and
enjoy doing things alone.

i do treasure that is always somebody who support me la...
treasure the friendship that i have la.

just now listen to chan fong's program.
he said if you feel that the person is not suitable for you,
you should better let go.

is not whether you scared to loss so that you would not let go of the relationship that is not good for you.
he said that if you already willing to give up something that is not good for you,
you already consider gaining form your action.

tought we will be having our convo by ourself.
but i was wrong.
my convo will be with other courses.
but we would be the first course to be on the stage.
convo info
kindda disappointed leh.
erm... hope it would be a special convocation for all of us.

if you always go to those company which is very very normal and have a very very good system, you would not see what's a problem that might occur in a company.

last time when we study audit, we know that there is a lot of document that need to have a serial number, and many document that need to have duplicate copy.

last time i working in a audit and tax firm i never notice why the receptionist should be the one who handle the courier services.
i know and notice the person who is handling the courier service should be a person who is very very feirce enough to fight for the best courier service for the company.
it would seems that on time delivery would be important for a service company.
but i think the delivery sheet for the delivery company is really like shit.
why? cos they are not serially numbered and cannot be traced easily.
told sarah about this problem.
but she really have to many problem that she need to tackle.
she really cannot put much attention on this matter lo.

yeah sarah is correct.
there should be proper documentation for services and good that we had incurred.
we do not simply pay for things that we did not incurred.
that is not the proper way of doing things.

the company system really got problem.
this is what my bf told me when he first went to the company to settle their previous year accounts.
i really dunno what is the problem.

when i come to this company i've realised that this company really have problem as what my bf had said.
there are a lot and a lot of paper work.
and a lot of paper document
income tax and law requires a company to keep proper documentation for 7 years wor.
how?
do they have so much space as they could file all this document?

and annother thing is they have many many document but they do not have people to key in the transactions.
then just get the figure using the spread sheets?
would the reporting be up to date?
erm i really wonder about it.

it seems really weird....
why? i can blog but i cannot view my web page lo.

is it something related to the bombing in london and my web site also kena bomb as well? how come?
what had happened?

the work load is very very heavy.
a lot of things to settle but should i tell myself.
there is nothing that i cannot handle.
there is nothing i cannot settle.

i just wonder i feel weird why must a son or daugther pay their parents when they get their first pay cheque?
i just wonder.
i really have a tight budget.
i really have no more money to save.
there is a needing to spend on something i longing for a long long while.
i do not like the feeling of being forced to do something.

i would like to do things i want to do.
and not forced to do.
but it seems difficult to realised this.
everyone also want to do things willingly or do things by yourself.

sometimes i really feel that if things that i wanna do i would do it perfectly
if there is things that i dun wanna do i would not do it nicely or just get it done.
and that's end of story?
erm...
i wonder i think this is one of the attitude that i should change gua

all my 'chat kaki' form college are in Shefied, UK for the moment.
poor me. kasian saya.
But, i just feel that i would not have the determination to continue my studies in acounting, maybe for the moment.
If there is more accounting stuff to learn ahead i think i should be vomiting already.

But for the moment, i would like to have a clear picture of something which is related to accounting.
that is the accounting standard.
every country have thier own accounting standard and most likely the accounting standards are similar to the international accounting standards.
therefore no matter where you are, if you are doing accounting you would still have to deal with accounting standards.

Eventough accounting standards are not law in accounting, but they are guilines for commercial , auditing and public sectors to follow in preparing and auditing the accounts.
the accounting standards is a guidelines for the company to decide how much information need to be disclosed when they are preparing the financial report.

however, for internal purpose, the presentation of accounting would definately depends on the requirement of the users and the purpose of using the accounting information.
sometimes there is information that is required by other department and some information is confidential.
therefore i could be considered that there is not fixed format for the internal reporting, however, it should not run away too much from the normal external reporting.

durian season come already
i was suprise that today i have durian to eat
yeah durian
why?
cos today my dad's boss give my dad some durian.

last time when the durian are those very very expensive fruits,
we usually say that my dad would not be willing to bye any durian
why?
cos my dad is kindda stingy.
and we always say if my dad will buy durian home then it would snow in malaysia.

now things are kindda diffirent
but it is stil same case that daddy would rarely buy durian.

but still like durian very very much?
why?
cos durian is king of all fruits and i like it very very much lo
haha
but after eatting during should drink a lot and a lot of water lur.

希望有你存在的地方就是自己的天堂。
那么没有你，生活就好像身处地狱了吗？

情愿放弃精彩的机会，选择了平凡的你。
可是自己这么样的牺牲，你会发觉吗？

希望你会是自己的天堂。
希望有你在身边的日子永远都是天堂。

now is already last hour of the first half of year 2005.
it had been a very exciting year for me
notice that eventually i grew a lot.
knoe a lot of people/friends
have to make a lot of difficult decision.
have to face a lot of problems in life.
have a lot of things that i need to face.

this first half year of 2005 really make me grow a lot
have to learn more to be better in my EQ
use your heart to treat people,
regardless of whether other people would appreciate it.
you would feel really really nice.
if you wanna receive more, just give more of yourself.
do not think my report is very very nice.
cos not everything i did is completely correct or completely right.

got 'yuan wang' by the 'small people' around me.
but whatever happened, i think the most important thing that happened is,
i already put my best for poeple around me.
and have nothing to be regret of.
regardless how poeple say.
i do not really wanna say bad things about other people.
sometimes things you know and you should only keep them inside your heart and let it be.

have a happy 2005 and also looking forward for a more exciting next half 2005.

my parents just back from genting.
initially they ask me to join them.since i never been to genting before.
mayb i've been there before should be before my primary gua.
so i have no memory of me going to genting before.
erm... but also not really really interested in going to genting...

actually i'm long for a trip to penang to eat durian.
haha
nice nice durian, have to ask grandma to get me some of the penang best durian
erm so my target is to go there about next or the week after next.
go penang for a couple of days
meet some friends

my parents do have a nice time at genting.
but my mom say that during their way to genting my dad's car eventually nearly 'boil water'
so they stop the car and wait until the car cool down and continue their journey.
erm...
everything was fine after that.

i do think it's a good choice not following them to genting.
let them enjoy their short trip and also 'second honey moon'
let them enjoy their life a bit live a life without my existance for a few days.
let them forget about me for a few days.

seems to be difficult to wake up in the morning,
cos if i rely on my arlam clock i would end up waking up late.
however, if i rely on myself,
i would end up waking up so early.
now is about 6.45 and i've been up for more than half an hour.

seems that i should have a healthy life if i wanna rely on myself to wake up.
why? cos the alarm clock seemed useless to me already.
it does not wake me up and will not wake me up.
so cham.

uaed to wake up really really early during my secondary time.
have to go to school at about 7 in the morning.
erm...

miss those days.
really really miss those days.
when i'm really really damn hard working.
when i do not have to think so much about how to live my life.

忘掉你像忘掉我 ~~王菲
曲:张国荣 词:林夕 编:Richard Yuen 监:张国荣

想不再回头 又不想错过 想不想之间 着了魔
重逢后 白发后 又怎知道 是恋火
是如何 烧毁我 假使你仍然 认得这个我
不枉我换来 这结果 狂傲地 任性地
为想等你 望清楚 为你疯魔 这样错

* 爱我吗 不恋也恨
等到白头 未染尘
爱我吗 但如何敢问
忘掉你像忘掉我心
# 生死也为情 是否不会有
只得苦恋可永久
明明是没以后
但怎么我 仍牵手
让你减轻 你内疚 #
repeat * #
生也猜不透 死也猜不透 发白透
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just saw faye wong's new compilation album online.
always like faye's canto song cos it's really really very very nice.
remember this song is one of the song in the movie 'bai fa mo nui' by leslie cheung and also lin ching xia.
the liking for faye is slowly slowly accumulated.
is because of my friend?
or just because she is faye and i like her:P
haha
but only one thing to say faye is always the best.

i already dunno what he want
he say dun like me to go so far to work and have to pick me to college everyday.
i ask my bf to pick me up to work.
and what he said?
'why you tell others everything?'
huh? i already plan about it early already wor?
wat's the problem about that?
i seems not able to find the solution to this problem...
seems that i do everything or anything also got problem and also will be wrong?
i'm confused....
i'm really really confused....
i'm blur
i dunno wat to do.
i think i dun reli understand him.
maybe is because of the fear of loosing a daughter?
maybe is the fear of her daughter knowing the wrong people?
maybe is the fear of ....
i cant think of any reasons lur

i'm not happy,
hope that you are just beside me.
yet you seems so near yet so far

hope that you would understand what i mean.
but you seems not catching what i mean.

hope that you are around when i need you.
but you arent there!

told you how i feel.
but you told me you want me to be independent.

you are always against me.
and i feel that i'm helpless
i cannot do anything about it.

wonder whether should i ever listen to you.
wonder should i care.

sometimes i wonder whether the status of boy and gal would ever be even?
sometimes i wonder why we need to be restricted to the old thinking?
sometimes i wonder why people are not improving as the time passes by?

why we are reluctant to changes?
why we are used to the old fashion way of doing things?
why must we locked ourself with the kolot thinking?
why must we restrict our mind to fly free?
why must we restrict our imagination and creativity?
why there must always be an answer for a question?

should there be a question without answer?
should we able to do things without caring what others think about us?
should we not concern about others view, which might restrict our ability to break trough?
should we be changing every second as the time passes by?
should there be improvement in our life as the time passes by?

today is my first day working as a temporary gal.
work? data entry.
and my brain is only the few figures that i key in and nothing other than that.
knows the powerful effect of learning curve.
erm...
i think i would not like to spend hours and hours doing the same thing over and over again lur.
but never mind,
since i only play play only and pass time only, while earning some pocket money.

some ask me very nice cos can work with my bf.
huh we all sit different place leh.
he inside a room enjoy the aircon and music with annother lousy guy (shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh dun let the fuller know i say him lousy k?)
while i'm sitting outside in the open office.
erm... how come i feel the air con like not no geh? feel so hot.
he is using his laptop and online inside,
while i'm using the big outdated computer.
gosh i miss my flat screen (lcd)at home....
gosh i miss my internet connection at home...
:'(

staying at home should be the best thing to do lur.
regret taking this job?
erm i take it as a challenge for myself la.

today li si's never ending story at 988 is talking about the thief and the police.
the police suspect and know the thief steal something.
everytime the police stop the thief with the bicycle and also two big bag of sand,
and he did not discover what had the thief steal cos the two bad of sand is just normal sand and nothing inside and nothing special.
every few days the police see the thief take the bicycle and two back of sand to a rural village.
the police cannot do anything. because he have not evidence to prove that the thief had stole anything.

after many many years,
after the police retired, the police become neighbour with the thief.
and one night the police and the thief sit down have dinner.
after drinking some bir,
the police asked the theif what had you stolen all these years?

the theif smile and said all the while i stole the bicycle and sell.

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ponder:-
is it we normally see those small small things like those sand and suspect those little little things?
and we just ignore those most obvious things?
is a good story for us to ponder about.

recommen the program '乐在1102' for all my friends.
every thursday dj 林淑萍.
the story is told by:- 丽思(one of my favourite DJ)
hope you would tune in to it every thursday 11.00pm-2.00am

孩子 曹格
词:文康 曲:张蔚源

给你的思念塞满了箱子 托邮差安全送到你住的地址
你看到我的名字 忍着的眼泪多麽像个脆弱的女子
你的微笑却又像深情的男子 幸福的样子

爱你就像走不好的孩子 相信我可以帮你穿上心爱的鞋子
一路上难免有小小的石子 一点一滴都是一颗种子

慢慢的学习相处的方式 用你的小聪明填上我的无知
你看我双手合十 决定答应你
当你朋友不断问起时 你会得意的聊着我们的故事
快乐的样子

爱你就是为了过好日子 谁叫你已经成了无法改变的事实
只等着听你说一声要开始 我愿为你变成一个孩子

你看我双手合十 决心要为你
为你日夜不断祈祷时
希望生活里周围有你的样子 幸福的样子

爱你就像走不好的孩子 相信我可以帮你穿上心爱的鞋子
一路上难免有小小的石子 一点一滴都是一颗种子

爱你就是为了过好日子 谁叫你已经成了无法改变的事实
只等着听你说一声要开始
我愿为你变成一个孩子
我愿为你变成一个孩子

i was listening to this song online again and again.
first saw the lyrics on wen kang's book
heard this song on the radio station.
found the song really really suits the lyrics
feel sweet. ;)

tidy and tidy and tidy...
making the room in a mess and making it normal balik.
erm... i dun wan back to the old style
i think i want something new?
something fresh
something different
something not the same with the previous feel
something i dunno what is it?
something that would surprise me....