tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

有时候感觉上是很挣扎的。。
生活就是如此

Charming, poised and sociable you need peace and harmony around you and always seek to create a happy environment. Perceptive and with strong intuition you are able to make sound judgements. You show great flexibility in attitude being open and responsive to the needs and opinions of others. This ability gives you potential for success in business dealing with the public. Your warm personality and caring ways ensure you are loved by family and friends.

sounds correct wor?
what do you think/

it's seems to be super stressed for me this few weeks...
filing deadline is near and job cant be finished.

and i can sleep during the nite time...
but jus short short little sleep and will automatically wake up at before 6 and i will force myself to continue to work...
ai... wonder why i want to live this kind of life...
looking forward it to come to an end...
actually i think a lot of things can be avoided for the last minute rush.
maybe cos i did not did my part well enough...

just realised i did a tax computation using the wrong principle.
actually for me it's weird cos nobody notice the way of computation is wrong.
luckily i notice it when i'm doing some reading for another company with similar nature...
maybe this is one of the cause of my stress..
haha.. yeah i'm super stressed now...
last time is just the hand shivering ...
now it's cant sleep well...
my days does not end with the end of the tax filing for the month..
there are still a few companies to go.
all big big one...
it's gonna be super stressed for me up to Dec ...
looking forward to finish everything soon :)

so...
i'm sick again...
still reluctant to go and see doctor...
so.... doctor tee chong know how to cure me gua...

this time i'm having bad cough...
maybe it's because of the weather
maybe because the other side of the office is having renovation work on progress..
ai.. wonder why i'm sick...
haha... maybe i let some1 'gek dao'

sometimes i wonder whether i'm doing the correct stuff?
sometimes i wonder why i'm working so hard...

at least now i suffer less..
my manager dun have bad impression to me
haha.. i'm still weak in certain aspect..
trying to improve...
trying to move up..
trying to be better...

looking forward for something better in my work...
looking forward for something more interesting..

中文版
一场很美变成很惨的恋爱
泪流不止的心还包着绷带
又痛又愁看不开
我把自己藏成模糊的存在

爱情永远没有答案总要猜
眼角湿着嘴角笑着放大悲哀
又伤又累不明白
怎么躲不开得到又失去的无奈

all i wanna do is find a way
back into love
多想有一个人能和我分享快乐

是谁叫你这样傻傻闯进来
自以为是分析我有多奇怪
我却无从辩白
在狼狈中又被变新的痛快

你的加油让我有梦想不感慨
你的批评让我生气难忍耐
偏偏又命中要害
你的诚实变我的依赖

all i wanna do is find a way
back into love
找到了一个人能和我分享快乐
为什么当我牵你的手
会觉得天堂是散步就能走到的

当我又在犹豫应该不应该
爱我吻我让我气喘不过来
当我笨的想逃开
痛骂我能让我感觉到爱

all i wanna do is find a way
back into love
尽情享受两个人最靠近得快乐
一个人不懂那种快乐
两颗心摩擦着缠绕着
经历各不同的绳索
带我们攀越上爱得最巅峰

way back into love.
original version
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

[Verse 2]
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

[Middle-eight]
(Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

this is annother movie that i think i would like to watch..
yet..
it's not the type of movie he would like to watch...
sometimes there are a lot of consideration when deciding whether we want to watch the movie or not.
sometimes it's all becos of him.
yeah.. why?

so... i should find someone who will go watch those movie which he would not wanna watch with me???

so here comes the first day of my long raya break...
consider not so long only four days.
and one day of it i use it to go back to office to tidy my things...
end up nothing much was tidy up..
but managed to solve my last tax computation,
the queries raised by my manager...
so that i can pass it to my senior tax manager for review.

jus realised that i really can work very very hard to finish my job...
i just came out with 4 tax computation within a week...
and all of it not consider a dormant tax computation...
all tax computation are either big or medium in size and transaction.

jus feel thankful for what my manager did...
forced us to speed up.
and i managed to complete almost all the portfolio under her care.

so... the first day of my raya break..
gone.. finished...
so.. at nite.. what i did was to watch a movie..
call 生日快乐
wanted to watch the movie for long long time.
never watched it in the cinema.. cos
i know he would think it's not a nice movie..
waste of time..
and it's not the type of movie he would wanna watch..
din force him..
cos i know i'm not the type of person who will force him to do so.

feel agreeable with the movie...
i know i'll like the movie
with the cast of the actor, rene liu...
so...
there goes first day of the raya break...

so
what did i do on the second day?
to be continue...

sometimes if you ask me why i did not update my blog.
it's not because i got nothing much to update.

just that i'm not in the mood of writing or
i'm just simply lazy...

this raya...
did not follow him back to his hometown...

why?
cos i'm lazy...
lazy to ask my dad for permission.
lazy to have to teman him to be together with his friends.

so...
my raya plan started with a lot of tax computation
(usual what i need to do all the time)
a lot of hk tv series... and movies which i wanted to watch and no time or nobody would accompany me to watch it. and
my messy room to tidy it up...

so this is the begining...
will tell more on the next blog...

我不明白为什么你是表面上看来那么无知和无辜？
为什么小小的东西都没有做好？

为什么简单的事情你也那么善忘？
感觉上自己是很生气的
然后感觉上自己生气是不值得的

为什么要用一个笨蛋做的事情来让自己生气呢？
这样做值得吗？

我不知道为什么别人生气你的时候你却那么若无其事
可以这样的吗？

做人做事凡事都需要‘醒目’些！
这我们还需要教你的吗？

现在我只能祈祷时间能够让你清醒。
让你进步
大家让我们一起为她祈祷吧！！！！

the presure of working makes me mad and it has been a long long time since i last went to watch a movie.

then today i went to my IT guy place to get some movie to watch... (thanks to them la)
then i realised that there is this movie call 200 pound beauty...
i wanted to watch it for so long but never have a chance to watch it.
herm... my bf say he will copy for me but never...
but never mind la..
finally i get to watch it myself...

at least it helps me to release some of my tension.
take my mind away from work...

doing something which i'm happy with...
looking forward for something good soon..
hoping everything will be smooth sailing lo :)

my friend no longer is Ms Yong after today...
erm...
i wonder when is my turn...
but it seems there is still long long way to go.
sometimes you envy other people getting married.

but getting married seems not to be an easy job.
it involved a lot of people and a lot of money.

a lot of things you need to take care of.
need to inform a lot of people
and you need to consider who are the friends you need to invite them to your big day

to me...
i'm looking forward for that day sometime in the near future...
but it's definately not this year or next...

our committee has been planning for an outdoor programme to enable us to attract more people to join us at a lower cost on us.

and suddenly last Thursday our advisor told us it's too dangerous to organise it at a public place.

actually i do not like this type of last minute changes...
and it seems that you are not agreeable with what we did in the first place.
if you are not agreeable then you should tell us in the first place.
and your whole suggestion defeated our purposes.
and annother things which i do not like about is...
since you say is democratic..
why it's a programme orginised by our own committee and what's the purposes of organising it at your own way?

if you want to object it ...
please infrom earlier...
do not try to change the plan last minute...
and end up still fall back to square one again...

I'm delighted...
why? cos my scanner revived...
can scan document in PDF format again...
:)

it seems since it last kena a lot of virus it stop to being able to scan document in PDF format..
need to take care of my printer cum scanner lo...
cos it really help me a lot in terms of my work.

yesterday i was sick (i think today as well)
and then i went to see the doctor.

the consultation lasted for less than 5 minutes and
it just seems like i'm the doctor i tell him where i'm sick he just give medicine accordingly.

hello? come one...
doctor... aren't you suppose to do a complete check on me b4 you are going to give me the correct medication?
to ensure everything is okay with me?
he didn't even take my temperature...
and when i came home i started having fever....
terrible...

okay la... I admit i do not intend to take the medication...
but truly i'm sick...
and my intention to see the doctor is solely to get the MC :P
haha it's not because i do not want to work..
but i'm sick but i just need a good rest at home.

hey doctor....
be more ethical...
at least take my temperature...
see whether i got fever...
but i do not like clinics...
it make me sick and wanna vomit..
hope everything will be okay for me today..
pray for me...
and hope you all are in the pink health as well....

*blur blur tee chong*

have not been updating lately...
there is only one reason,
it's not because i have nothing to write...
but I'm just a bit far damn too lazy...
haha...

busy with another heavy filing,
busy with another annual budget seminar.
need to hit target,
need to call people.
boss saying this is how you are getting revenue for the firm
boss say this is how you are going to move up...

i know i sucks in the area
make me more and more demotivated.
why doing tax at the same time you also need to do marketing leh?
notice when you are high high up there you do not only doing tax computation,
but you need to talk to people, social with people..
learn how other become so successful.

I'm a bit tired..
and people asking you why you still in D company,
i do not know how to answer?
wondering whether my career would go further...
and you even have pressure when the MD started to know your name
asking you question
and people are telling you, you are targeted to be promoted to ATM soon...
and i wonder how soon is soon...
feeling that my motivation is fading away
feeling that i need some counseling..

it seems to be very very pressure for me...
cos filing dateline is two more months to go...
make a lot of promise to my manager...
and it seems I'm giving a lot of pressure to myself.

I wonder whether I can take it anymore...
but do not think of leaving the company soon...
just feel a bit tired.

wanna balance my life and also my work.
and then the would like to learn how to handle people.
sometimes feel very tired of the junior...

Just hope that after merdeka...
everything will sail smooth...

sometimes it come to a time in life there are a lot of surprise...
and you would not know what you would be expecting in front.

and sometimes there come a time that people suddenly bomb you with their red bomb...
without giving any signal.
haha...

cant say that it's not possible.
just think that anything is possible,
it's just that whether you want to do it or not...
whether you choose to do it or not.

now just wanna wish my friend all the happiness on her new life.

王:你是我心内的一首歌
ni shi wa sim lai ah zhi xiu gua

王:心间开启花一朵
xin jian kai qi hua yi duo

s:你是我生命的一首歌
ni shi wo sheng ming de yi shou ge

s:想念汇成一条河
xiang nian hui cheng yi tiao he

王:惦在我心内的一首歌
diam zai wa xim lai eh zhi xiu gua

王:不要只是个过客
bu yao zhi shi ge guo ke

s:在我生命留下一首歌
zai wo sheng ming liu xia yi shou ge

s:不论结局会如何
bu lun jie ju hui ru he

合:好想问你
hao xiang wen ni

合:对我到底有没有动心
dui wo dao di you mei you dong xin

合:沉默太久
chen mo tai jiu

s:只会让我不小心犯错
zhi hui rang wo bu xiao xin fan cuo

王:不小心犯错
bu xiao xin fan chuo

作詞：阿丹/鄔裕康　作曲：曹格　編曲：涂惠源

雨　不停落下來　 花　怎麼都不開
yu buting lou xia lai hua zenme dou bu kai
the rain doesn't seems to stop the flower doesn't seems to bloom

儘管我細心灌溉　 你說不愛就不愛 　我一個人　欣賞悲哀
jinguan wo xixin guangai ni shuo bu ai jiu bu ai wo yi ge ren xin shang bei ai
eventhough i take care of it carefully you but you directly reject my love leaving me alone admiring my sorrow

愛　只剩下無奈　 我　一直不願再去猜
ai zhi shen xia wu nai wo yi zhi bu yuan zai qu cai
love just leaving back messarble i do not wish to guess anymore

鋼琴上黑鍵之間　 永遠都夾著空白　
gang qin shang hei jian zhi jian yong yuan dou jia zhe kong bai
There will be always white keys in between the black keys on the piano
缺了一塊　就不精采
que le yi kuai jiu bu jing cai
if left out one it would not be perfect/exciting

緊緊相依的心如何Say goodbye　
jin jin xiang yi de xin ru he Say Goodbye
How to say goodbye to the hearts which was held so closely?

你比我清楚還要我說明白
ni bi wo qing chu hai yao wo suo ming bai
you are clearer than me, but you want me to clarify

愛太深會讓人瘋狂的勇敢　
ai tai shen hui rang ren feng kuang de yong gan
Loving too deep will cause someone to act crazyly brave

我用背叛自己　完成你的期盼
wo yong bei pai zi ji wan cheng ni de qi pan
I betrayed myself to fulfill your hope/dreams

把手放開不問一句Say goodbye
ba shou fang kai bu wen yi ju say goodbye
let go of my hand and saying goodbye without asking any question

當作最後一次對你的溺愛
dang zuo zui hou yi ci dui ni de ni ai
treat it as the last indulgence for you

冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管　
leng leng qing qing dan dan jin hou dou bu guan
Coldly, drearily, mildly (I) will no longer watch (over you)
(and there after, i do not care about you no matter what happened)

只要你能愉快
zhi yao ni neng yu kuai
as long as you are happy

心　有一句感慨
xin you yi ju gan kai
there is some regret inside my heart

我　還能夠跟誰對白
wo hai neng gou gen shui dui bai
Who else can i communicate with?

在你關上門之前　
zai ni guan shang men zhi qian
before you close your heart for someone

替我再回頭看看　那些片段　還在不在
ti wo zai hui tou kan kan na xie pian duan hai zai bu zai
please look backwards for me to see whether there is any of the memory left.

just for fun to translate the lyris :) to what i think it means

作詞：阿丹/鄔裕康　作曲：曹格　編曲：涂惠源
雨　不停落下來　花　怎麼都不開
儘管我細心灌溉　你說不愛就不愛　我一個人　欣賞悲哀

愛　只剩下無奈　我　一直不願再去猜
鋼琴上黑鍵之間　永遠都夾著空白　缺了一塊　就不精采

緊緊相依的心如何Say goodbye　你比我清楚還要我說明白
愛太深會讓人瘋狂的勇敢　我用背叛自己　完成你的期盼

把手放開不問一句Say goodbye　當作最後一次對你的溺愛
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管　只要你能愉快

心　有一句感慨　我　還能夠跟誰對白
在你關上門之前　替我再回頭看看　那些片段　還在不在


this song specially dedicated to my friend...
who his x jus got married/engaged on 070707....

i dedicate this song to him... is not bcos i mean the gal betrayed him...
but... with the meaning of the song...
i betrayed myself to let you go....

so... wish him luck in looking for his next target...
and also... wish that i do not need to dedicate this song to him again...
cheers....

PLUS :Pay Lebih Untuk Sami

KTM :Keretapi Taktau Masa

JKR :Jangan Kerja Rajin

PLKN : Perempuan Letup Kerana Najib

DBKL : Datuk Badawi Kahwin Lagi

RTM : Rehat Tunggu Mati

some of the very funny short form...