tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

i wonder how this year my thanks a million blog will look like...
and... the answer is a bit disappoint rite?
haha...
no la.. din expect much so...
no high hope on it... and hence no disappointment :)

yeah i use the copy and paste format to thanks those people who wish me happy b'day :)

special dedication of thanks to the following group of people:-
erm.. who to start with leh?

sms ppl
jean(who is the late commer) ~~ siew heoh ~ Hui Ling (the mummy) ~ uncle freddie ~ kean nam
(quite a short list as compared to previously... ah... dun care)

gtalk surprise :)
chin ann lo :) who else have a gtalk bside my office colleague :)

msn ~~
ker tyng... Uei Gin.... yen er... ywching...

Facebook ~~~
jessy (who wished me in American time :)) my two lovely cousin ... Dee who owns the same b'day as me and my cute cute cousin foong meng.. who have a thai name

Friendster ~~~
Kien Woon ~~ Betty ~~ my bf's 'bi bi' brother ah foong ~~ king sun whom i never met b4~~~~

phone call ===
May Ling @@@ Ms Lim who is my client aka my uncle's staff
Connie insurance agent
Leslie my client x staff in charge
Ms yap my client who always ask a lot of question and never pay me consultation fees :)

people who had wish me happy b'day
evie who is having her last day with us (sorry for not being able to organise a farewell party for you), ai ling, joyce ...

thanks to all those who had acccidentally forget to wish me happy b'day
thanks to those who wish not to celebrate my b'day together with me....

last but not least thanks to my dearest Joo who bring me to eat a very nice vegetarian dinner western style :)

:)
thanks again

似乎，生日有没有被祝福都已经不太重要了。
感觉生日，只是一个一年里头一个平凡的日子。

感觉上生日对于自己的意义已经没有以前那么期待了
是因为人长大了吗？
是因为人老了吗？

感觉生日就好像平常一样的。
一样平平凡凡就过去了

感觉上，好像没有一个让我记忆深刻的生日。
如果有，应该是在学院里的最后一个学年的生日。

有很多朋友的祝福。
有很多朋友的爱戴 ：）

可是还是少了你的祝福
还是怀念你的祝福

今年的生日会如何？
应该是平淡而低调的吧！

sometimes wonder why inside the firm there are a lot of people wanna fight for accreditation...
just a small things.. it would not mean you would do it for the benefit of the firm...
wonder...
this is call politics...
dun like to get involved into it.
if you are so good... why not do it yourself in the first place?
why wait?

finally found the satisfaction of able to finished the stuff.
finally found the inspiration of moving forward.
do not like the attitude of people just sit down wait and pretend they know nothing..
and ask other to do the same stuff.

i do not like people who are not willing to share...
sharing is caring..
but if you wanna sit down and wait for the free lunch to fall in front of your face..
please wait for 10 thousand years...
trying to finish a task...
please wait ya...

today after lunch...
when i go back to the office...
suddenly realised that my pendant which i wore it for almost four years is gone..

did not feel panic...
and just have a heart that.. if reli cant find it..
just let it go...

then heard they are giving out letter today :)
suddenly feel panic...
and stomachache...
haha...
should say anybody wanna call me...
tell them i'm in the toilet...

erm...
finally stomach dun feel so pain...

get called to collect the letter...
and signed the 'mai san kai'

and got a good call from the IRB officer...
with some good news...

and when i went back...
i was happy to realise that the pendant is actually dropped on the floor of my room..
and my mom managed to pick it up to me...

all i wanna say for today is...
thanks god for giving me a special roller coaster day :)

earlier last month...
our MD send out an e-mail to everyone of us to inform that..
the practice of the firm to achieve D company Boleh semangat
and all our evaluation has been bring forward a month and
all the salary would be adjusted to a very competitive stage

actually i evaluated myself very poorly cos i do not think
i actually achive the standard of supervisor...

actually it's quite 矛盾"serba salah" for myself
cos i do not know whether should fight for promotion or just say i do not want promotion

but i'm okay...
if my boss is okay with my promotion
why not just accept it...

actually know will be promoted after the evaluation interview,
just want to know how much they would adjust my salary.
and eventually...
they adjusted slightly much higher than my expectation.
not to say a lot but maybe to many people it considered a lot already...

that should be what i deserve...
of course the opportunity cost behind being promoted is..
having to give two months notice..
meaning the higher they are going to pay u...
u have to giv much much longer notice..

and talking about promotion...
i should really take the opportunity to thanks those people who supported me..
and belanja them for dinner lo...

so shabu-shabu...
we will meet u there :)

today did nothing much in the office.

today start to see old file... feel tired.
today start to see old things... feel tired again...

today waiting for the new cabinet line up...
today waiting to see some changes in the cabinet line up...
wanting to see the government's determination in giving us a better malaysia.

today office black out at around 3.30
stay in the office doing nothing much...
everyone walk here and there...
chit chat...
but nobody dare to leave before 5.30

when 5.30 came,
i thought everyone would cabut..
but nobody did.
so i just packed my things..
and waited for the lift.
but the lift was packed.
so when somebody decided to take the stairs...
i went together...
but taking the stairs is not easy..
because you have not being trained to take the stair at one go..
so.. 12 floor here i walk...
walk walk walk...
until 6 floor... thinking how much further i need to go...
until 2nd floor... cham la.. my legs started to shake...
finally 2 more floor reach the ground and walk out and saw my bf waiting for me.
i feel a bit relief.
but i do think i need more excercise....
luckily it's not taking the stairs up 12 or even higher floor.

then later we went to have our dinner..
and during dinner time we decided when we should go to see HL...
since she say she and baby is going back to ipoh end of the week.
so we decide when to get something for her.
and decide what to get for her...
and we wanted to get chicken stock or bird nest for her...
then after finish dinner,
we drive pass uptown anakku and saw 'JUALAN PENGHABISAN STOK'
oh... that's great...
we go and get something for baby...
so.. we went in and look here and there to get something nicely wrapped for baby.
it's some clothes, with all the teddy bear on it..
haha.. we wonder whether someone would get and gift the same thing..
anyway.. my BF say since we are the first few person to give so...
he thinks other people will 'zhong sam' with us..
instead of us 'zhong sam' with other people.

so after ariving home and we changed our clothes.
we went to HL condo..
and see her cute little baby BOY...

my friend HL had just delivered her baby.
i think it should be exciting for her.
to take care of a new born baby.
a new life in the family.

i taught she would be staying in kl before baby's full moon.
but she will be going back to his husband hometown instead...

i wish i got so 'ho mia' as well.
can get a child at such a young age.

but reality is still reality.
why without money there is nothing.
as a responsible parent,
you would not want your kid to be born in a non conducive environment.

i also have been thinking of getting married and stuff.
but there is still a lot of uncertainty within me.

commiting ourselve in getting a house seems like a brand new journey for myself.
wondering whether both of us can really aford the house.
i wonder how and wonder why...

i have to be more committed, since there is more commitment within me lo :)

following the post that we say we have made a booking on a condo,
we have received all sort of non supporting voices all over the place.

"why u buy such places... this place all the low class people is staying there"

so... my class will jatuh jus bcos someone else who is staying there.

no matter what you say..
my heart is solid now.
i think

just do not want to think too much over my first investment.

在角落休息的魚

有個朋友去京都的時候，偶然進了一家店，
他說因為坐在隔壁桌的人講的話實在太有趣了，
所以就不知不覺聽了起來。

他們談的是養殖小魚的事。
小魚是養在架在海裡的四方形網裡，
小魚會在網裡繞圈圈的游來游去，
養殖的人讓魚充分的環遊，並不斷餵食，讓魚長大。

可是有一天，那位坐在隔壁桌的人，
也就是從事養殖小魚業的老先生一看網裡，
卻發現網的四個角落竟然有偷懶不游的小魚，
這些魚要是不游就不會長大。
所以，他就想了個辦法，
既然四方形網的角落會讓魚躲在那裡偷懶，
乾脆架成圓形的網算了。

他的構想的確很有效果，
小魚果然找不到休息的地方，
只能在圓形的網裡環遊，
可是問題卻發生了，架起圓形網的數個月後，
小魚全都死光了，因為太累而累死了。

結果，他再一次架起四方形的網，
然後往養魚網裡面看，
他這次發現偷懶不游的並非特定的魚群，
而是互相輪流，
原來魚兒們都是適度的休息後再游的。

' 休息是必要的 '

我们很多时候都認為人的存在價值是以做事來證明，
或是被人認可才能證明的人，
或許很難休息，但有時候什麼也不管就休息，
說不定反而會發現什麼也不做的自己，
其實也是很有價值。

休息是為了走更長遠的路。
別給自己太大的壓力，要懂得舒解自己的壓力，
別太累了！

記住下面這句話：
「 人在天堂，錢在銀行 」
辛勤奮鬥一輩子，啥也帶不走...便宜了誰？

how would u enjoy singing when all the people are requesting for songs which you do not know how to sing le?
i wonder what are we waiting for le?


basically the primary gathering wasss.......
still okay la...
but just suggest not to go such expensive places in the future.
:)

finally after chinese new year..
i marked another journey in my life..
and me and my bf we have decided to get ourselves a place..
b4 we plan for our wedding..
(but this will be a few years down the road)

i'm aiming for a good condo and actually i was touched when my bf say okay to buy a condo nearby my existing house.
because with the same price, we would have bought a landed property with same amount of money just that it would be even further from my current house and would need to think of it's convenience. maybe in shah alam or even rawang.

travelling is quite time consuming..
like what i say, i still like the place i'm currently staying.
i'm just wondering why my bf decided to let go the place he like with a cheaper /more affordable price. in taman melati.
and choose to get a house in jalan ipoh.

actually the condo is currently under soft launch..
but almost half the condo are being taken up before it's official launch.
it's weird...
cos it's quite pricey..

there would be a lot of suggestion or voice when you decide to get a house.
it seems like i'm deciding to settle down with him.
and wish that we would have a long long way to go further.

actually looking forward to a place to stay which is nearby where i used to stay.
and the place is actually near my primary school
and near by the KTM station.
even most of the people are saying KTM services is not good.
but for me it's better than nothing.

looking forward for a better lifestyle when i decided to get married.
and i do think there would not always be an opportunity.
i think we should grab it when we can.
and not to regret when the opportunity is gone.

澄豪、静雯、锦辉、緻庄、建文、迪庆、建南

toasting for a better rat year!!!!

i'm considering of getting myself an insurance policy...
dunno why i keep on rejecting myself from getting involved with insurance agent.

there is lots of conflicts within myself.

which insurance company to choose...
who to buy insurance with...
shouldn't i buy insurance with my primary friend
college friend?

why i choose someone who is a stranger to me?

somemore listen to my bf...
will make me change my mind?
maybe cos of the willingness to treat someone good...
willingness to listen..
willingness to care...

i ask my boss how many insurance have you bought?
what has resulted you to buy the insurance?

she say
'they say this is good, then i buy'
'people ask me to buy'

herm...
i wonder...
to me i do not see what's the importance of buying insurance for the time being...
other than claiming for income tax deduction.

chinese new year...
must wear RED RED
like what uncle freddie say...
红红不会害人
happy chinese new year and great chinese new year

it's amazing that after so many years you still get back to meet your primary friends after so many years.
frankly speaking i really treasure the friendship with them a lot.
even we only got the chance to meet them maybe once a year.

looking forward for the gathering..
and looking foraward when we manage to gether 50 people in the class :)

have not been blogging for long long time..
it's not because i do not have the time.
it's just because i'm lazy.

but if i continue to be lazy.. how am i going to achive at least 100 blog per annum?
weird...
last time when i'm studing...
i can blog almost everything.
maybe that time is really stressful
but i know how to release my stress through blogging...

but now i'm stress..
dunno who to talk wit
and just do not wanna blog it out.
and all the rubbish and toxic are inside me..
looking forward for someone i can share it with him/her...

one table full of food to pray before reunion dinner :)


Fish

chicken and specially fried pork


Fried meat ball


mixed vegetable,fried prawn and marmite chicken


ah ma's famous dish... "hai sim"


noddle for every1 :)

Aesthetic (Music:澤野弘之 Vocal:関山藍果)
作詞：今井麻紀子　作曲：澤野弘之 Vocal：関山藍果

Longing for you day and in dream
I'm hoping you are here and leading my way
You steers my road anytime I need
If you walk away, I will follow you
Trying my life
With your sacred gifts you gave to me
I won’t vain and succeed it as your precious soul
Holding your hand
And I'm walking through the all of the world
Carrying your wish like the Venus in the dim sky

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i've been watching this japanese drama this week
the name of this drama is called 医龍 "team medical dragon" or "iryu"

very short and interesting drama.
like it very much and the theme song are very very nice too :)

yesterday a manager ask me why seldom heard my laughter recently is it i'm not happy...
haha...
erm.. i look depressed recently.
now. i think i'm just understress..
a lot of things need to be done.
and i think that i'm not really careful enough lo.

jus feel not happy with my work.
just feel not living up to expectation.
just feel i need a long break.
staying at home doing nothing.

just feel i'm breaking down.