tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

long long time ago, i always lost my mechanical pencil and i could not find it no matter how i look for it.
and one day i found one of the mechanical pencil slip in between by note book however, the mechanical pencil that has been with me since with form 2 has yet to found its appearance.

last week, i went to pack his things with my bf, and while we are packing i suddenly found my mechanical pencil in one of his bag. And the only feeling that i have for this 失而复得is "terkejut" other than that there are no feeling. Just feel glad that all the mechanical pencil that i had lost has come back to me.

Now when i tidy my stuff i realised that i just had too many mechanical pencil. i think i have had more than 5 same style mechanical pencil all together. weird???
maybe i just spend too much $$ on things that i like :P

你笑的时候 还是很可爱
好像从来不曾给别人伤害
多久没聚会了 你双眼眯起来
问我好不好

同一家餐厅 却变了口味
再怎么熟悉也不是滋味
曾几何时 我成了局外人
而无言以对

我已经不是你最好的朋友
是什么让我们生疏了太久
我生日才过 你也忘了吧
时间带走的比想象中还多

我再也不是你最好的朋友
分开以后默默一人往前走
有你的感动 我都记得啊
为什么那个最好的人却只能经过

想跟你说 我过得还不坏
善感的个性也都没有改
年少相知的人即使过一辈子
也无法忘怀你晓得吗

我其实非常感慨
总算还是能撑到现在
此刻才明白所有的无奈
都只是无奈

我已经不是你最好的朋友
是什么让我们生疏了太久
我生日才过 你也忘了吧
时间带走的比想象中还多

我再也不是你最好的朋友
分开以后默默一人往前走
有你的感动 我都记得啊
为什么那个最好的人
却只能经过

恍如隔世这个故事
回忆的结局剩下几个字
你说爱 终究是 一个人的事

我已经不是你最好的朋友
是什么让我们生疏了太久
我生日才过 你也忘了吧
时间带走的比想象中还多

我再也不是你最好的朋友
分开以后默默一人往前走
有你的感动 我都记得啊
为什么那个最好的人却只能经过
为何最好的人 都只是经过

keep on playing this song on my company laptop...
keep on remembering myself and you.

we are not best friend anymore...
this is what i told u...

this is the feeling i feel when i told u that
再怎么熟悉也不是滋味 曾几何时我成了局外人 而无言以对
but i just really wanna dedicate this song to my dearest friend...
hope she catch it :)

I think this is the 3rd/4th time i go to Kluang together with my bf. Nothing much in Kluang.
and the following are something new for me during this trip. This is the new food i tried that i had never tried before when i'm in Kluang. Do not find it in KL they call it "Kuey Teow Kia" (Small little Kuey Teow) and it's atcually Kuey Teow in Herbal Soup together with "lo" egg, "lo" vege instestent, "lo" tou fu and "lo" vege pork... taste nice... looks like the one i saw my friend taking during dinner time before i taste it. Just that the one she eatting is real thingy and this one which i'm showing is actually fake one.. (vege).

Besides that nothing special, breakfast at the Real Kluang Station which they name it Kluang Railway.. The food is cheap and nice (but quite pricy thou cos eating in a small town like Kluang). No picture is to be shown as it was being blog in previous blog.

After the trip at kluang, we went to JB Tebrau city as well. However no picture was taken cos busy shoping and no time to take picture lo...

on the way back to KL from Kluang we went to visit the dragon fruit farm again... this time went to see how big is the organic farm rather than having lunch there. bought some stuff back also... have not really fully look at the organic farm yet.. maybe will do it during my next trip :)

today when i login to IRB's website i realised there is something different
and an Mandarin translation of the Form BE has been uploaded to the IRB website.

and if you want access ti the Mandarin translation, you can login to IRB website and click forms and you will see some Chinese writing and you just need to click it and the Chinese translation of the Form BE will be loaded.

I would give a round of a plause to this action taken to translate the Form BE to mandrin. Actually i think a lot of the older generation of chinese who doesn't know english or malay well would benefit a lot from this effort taken to help those who are weak in Malay or English :)

我和她她和他
我们都爱她

李：别说话来一杯 呛口的Chivas
男人帮不怕辣 却被爱打垮

周：头发乱脸色差 事情再复杂
总会有解答

李：我和她她和他
我们都爱她 放不放让不让
都不是办法

周：当逃兵装伟大
再这么婆妈 你肯定失去她

李：可她接受我玫瑰花

周：你还不送她回家
你算是男人就应该勇敢吧

李：可我却害怕最后伤害会是她

周：想太多 理智的想法
不能证明你有多爱她

李：想问个明白却怕会为难她

周：却急着想要知道她的选择吧

李：好挣扎

周：问题在于你 并不在于她

李：我懂我傻

李：我和她她和他
我们都爱她 放不放让不让
都不是办法

周：当逃兵装伟大
再这么婆妈 你肯定失去她

李：可她接受我玫瑰花

周：你还不送她回家
你算是男人就应该勇敢吧

李：可我却害怕最后伤害会是她

周：想太多 理智的想法
不能证明你有多爱她

李：想问个明白却怕会为难她

周：却急着想要知道她的选择吧

李：好挣扎

周：问题在于你 并不在于她

李：我懂我傻

周：你算是男人就应该勇敢吧

李：可我却害怕最后伤害会是她

周：想太多 理智的想法
不能证明你有多爱她

李：想问个明白却怕会为难她

周：却急着想要知道她的选择吧

李：好挣扎

周：问题在于你 并不在于她

李：我懂我傻

我和她她和他
我们都爱她～～～～

just bought this album recently since the last album i bought for Gary...
yeah i just like this song inside the album.
He, She and Me..
Demo album meaning it's just a simple album.
no MSG no preservative..
maybe it's not very tasty for some of us.
maybe it's just the rite type of music you are looking for.
hope to enjoy this album...

there are a lot of job on hand recently...
a lot of additional job pop up as well..
wonder whether i can take it.
wonder how should i manage my time.
wonder whether should i get more effective

i'm bad in everything
and getting worst...
hate this feeling.
wanna improve..
wanna be better.

insist of doing something and not insist of doing annother thing.
sometimes i wonder why.
wonder why i'm emotionally affected when people around me are not doing the correct things.

there are challenges ahead.
i need to plan ahead so that i can really face them...

wishing myself having a better weekend ahead...
super streesed out

一直在想今年的生日会有怎样的惊喜。
结果我的惊喜就是“会呼吸的痛”（请听背景音乐）的蓝色摇头和脚娃娃

i've been wondering what kind of surprise i would get this year...
and it turn out this is the surprise i got.
the blue colour creature who always shake his head and leg.
i called it "breathing pain" (notice the back ground music)

一直在想没有期待，应该就没有失望吧！
但我还是失望了。
对于人性的丑陋的失望。
对于人的过份计较的厌恶。

i always think that if i have no expectation,
there would not be any disappointment to myself.
however, i'm still feeling very disappointed.
because of the ugly side of the human behaviour
because of the hatred towards the calculative human behaviour

“会呼吸的痛”让我深刻体会
自己那么努力的付出
回报却是“会呼吸的痛”

"breathing pain" let me notice that
the reward all of my hard work is
"breathing pain"

身为一个小组的一份子
自己并没有太过于去计较
自己的辈分比较高还是要去干一些比较琐碎的东西

as part of the team member
i think i'm not too calculative..
whether what position should do those simple stuff such as
"taking document for others... taking paper for the group while people always think that it should be a guy's job..."

默默地努力
只为了让小组能够有更好的表现
可是我的回报却是“会呼吸的痛”

the reward for my hardwork...
to improve the performance of the group is...
"breathing pain"

不过可以勉励自己的是
有“会呼吸的痛”总比没有的好吧！
“没鱼，虾也好”
就真正是让我要自我提升的勉励吧！

but i still wanna advice myself...
at least i have "breathing paineath"
there is a saying in hokkien
"no fish got prawn also fine"
i think this is the thing which i need to improve myself :)

if you are given 15 second to say something on radio wat would u say?

today 988新开心车队 was at our pasar malam at taman kok lian...
and they park just rite in front of my house...

by the time i went home and go to check out what happened it was quite late already 988新开心车队 was going to 'san band' already...
but yet i also get to win a hundred dollar voucher from thespalover

and at last i get a chance to record 黄金 15秒.
and what did i say?

"my name is tee chong.
yesterday was my b'day
i would like to take this opportunity to thank my parents and friends...
and wish them good health wealth and good in everything"

and everyone on the street sang happy b'day for me...
haha... happy belated b'day...
and i got annother umbrella :)

i wonder how this year my thanks a million blog will look like...
and... the answer is a bit disappoint rite?
haha...
no la.. din expect much so...
no high hope on it... and hence no disappointment :)

yeah i use the copy and paste format to thanks those people who wish me happy b'day :)

special dedication of thanks to the following group of people:-
erm.. who to start with leh?

sms ppl
jean(who is the late commer) ~~ siew heoh ~ Hui Ling (the mummy) ~ uncle freddie ~ kean nam
(quite a short list as compared to previously... ah... dun care)

gtalk surprise :)
chin ann lo :) who else have a gtalk bside my office colleague :)

msn ~~
ker tyng... Uei Gin.... yen er... ywching...

Facebook ~~~
jessy (who wished me in American time :)) my two lovely cousin ... Dee who owns the same b'day as me and my cute cute cousin foong meng.. who have a thai name

Friendster ~~~
Kien Woon ~~ Betty ~~ my bf's 'bi bi' brother ah foong ~~ king sun whom i never met b4~~~~

phone call ===
May Ling @@@ Ms Lim who is my client aka my uncle's staff
Connie insurance agent
Leslie my client x staff in charge
Ms yap my client who always ask a lot of question and never pay me consultation fees :)

people who had wish me happy b'day
evie who is having her last day with us (sorry for not being able to organise a farewell party for you), ai ling, joyce ...

thanks to all those who had acccidentally forget to wish me happy b'day
thanks to those who wish not to celebrate my b'day together with me....

last but not least thanks to my dearest Joo who bring me to eat a very nice vegetarian dinner western style :)

:)
thanks again

似乎，生日有没有被祝福都已经不太重要了。
感觉生日，只是一个一年里头一个平凡的日子。

感觉上生日对于自己的意义已经没有以前那么期待了
是因为人长大了吗？
是因为人老了吗？

感觉生日就好像平常一样的。
一样平平凡凡就过去了

感觉上，好像没有一个让我记忆深刻的生日。
如果有，应该是在学院里的最后一个学年的生日。

有很多朋友的祝福。
有很多朋友的爱戴 ：）

可是还是少了你的祝福
还是怀念你的祝福

今年的生日会如何？
应该是平淡而低调的吧！

sometimes wonder why inside the firm there are a lot of people wanna fight for accreditation...
just a small things.. it would not mean you would do it for the benefit of the firm...
wonder...
this is call politics...
dun like to get involved into it.
if you are so good... why not do it yourself in the first place?
why wait?

finally found the satisfaction of able to finished the stuff.
finally found the inspiration of moving forward.
do not like the attitude of people just sit down wait and pretend they know nothing..
and ask other to do the same stuff.

i do not like people who are not willing to share...
sharing is caring..
but if you wanna sit down and wait for the free lunch to fall in front of your face..
please wait for 10 thousand years...
trying to finish a task...
please wait ya...

today after lunch...
when i go back to the office...
suddenly realised that my pendant which i wore it for almost four years is gone..

did not feel panic...
and just have a heart that.. if reli cant find it..
just let it go...

then heard they are giving out letter today :)
suddenly feel panic...
and stomachache...
haha...
should say anybody wanna call me...
tell them i'm in the toilet...

erm...
finally stomach dun feel so pain...

get called to collect the letter...
and signed the 'mai san kai'

and got a good call from the IRB officer...
with some good news...

and when i went back...
i was happy to realise that the pendant is actually dropped on the floor of my room..
and my mom managed to pick it up to me...

all i wanna say for today is...
thanks god for giving me a special roller coaster day :)

earlier last month...
our MD send out an e-mail to everyone of us to inform that..
the practice of the firm to achieve D company Boleh semangat
and all our evaluation has been bring forward a month and
all the salary would be adjusted to a very competitive stage

actually i evaluated myself very poorly cos i do not think
i actually achive the standard of supervisor...

actually it's quite 矛盾"serba salah" for myself
cos i do not know whether should fight for promotion or just say i do not want promotion

but i'm okay...
if my boss is okay with my promotion
why not just accept it...

actually know will be promoted after the evaluation interview,
just want to know how much they would adjust my salary.
and eventually...
they adjusted slightly much higher than my expectation.
not to say a lot but maybe to many people it considered a lot already...

that should be what i deserve...
of course the opportunity cost behind being promoted is..
having to give two months notice..
meaning the higher they are going to pay u...
u have to giv much much longer notice..

and talking about promotion...
i should really take the opportunity to thanks those people who supported me..
and belanja them for dinner lo...

so shabu-shabu...
we will meet u there :)

today did nothing much in the office.

today start to see old file... feel tired.
today start to see old things... feel tired again...

today waiting for the new cabinet line up...
today waiting to see some changes in the cabinet line up...
wanting to see the government's determination in giving us a better malaysia.

today office black out at around 3.30
stay in the office doing nothing much...
everyone walk here and there...
chit chat...
but nobody dare to leave before 5.30

when 5.30 came,
i thought everyone would cabut..
but nobody did.
so i just packed my things..
and waited for the lift.
but the lift was packed.
so when somebody decided to take the stairs...
i went together...
but taking the stairs is not easy..
because you have not being trained to take the stair at one go..
so.. 12 floor here i walk...
walk walk walk...
until 6 floor... thinking how much further i need to go...
until 2nd floor... cham la.. my legs started to shake...
finally 2 more floor reach the ground and walk out and saw my bf waiting for me.
i feel a bit relief.
but i do think i need more excercise....
luckily it's not taking the stairs up 12 or even higher floor.

then later we went to have our dinner..
and during dinner time we decided when we should go to see HL...
since she say she and baby is going back to ipoh end of the week.
so we decide when to get something for her.
and decide what to get for her...
and we wanted to get chicken stock or bird nest for her...
then after finish dinner,
we drive pass uptown anakku and saw 'JUALAN PENGHABISAN STOK'
oh... that's great...
we go and get something for baby...
so.. we went in and look here and there to get something nicely wrapped for baby.
it's some clothes, with all the teddy bear on it..
haha.. we wonder whether someone would get and gift the same thing..
anyway.. my BF say since we are the first few person to give so...
he thinks other people will 'zhong sam' with us..
instead of us 'zhong sam' with other people.

so after ariving home and we changed our clothes.
we went to HL condo..
and see her cute little baby BOY...

my friend HL had just delivered her baby.
i think it should be exciting for her.
to take care of a new born baby.
a new life in the family.

i taught she would be staying in kl before baby's full moon.
but she will be going back to his husband hometown instead...

i wish i got so 'ho mia' as well.
can get a child at such a young age.

but reality is still reality.
why without money there is nothing.
as a responsible parent,
you would not want your kid to be born in a non conducive environment.

i also have been thinking of getting married and stuff.
but there is still a lot of uncertainty within me.

commiting ourselve in getting a house seems like a brand new journey for myself.
wondering whether both of us can really aford the house.
i wonder how and wonder why...

i have to be more committed, since there is more commitment within me lo :)

following the post that we say we have made a booking on a condo,
we have received all sort of non supporting voices all over the place.

"why u buy such places... this place all the low class people is staying there"

so... my class will jatuh jus bcos someone else who is staying there.

no matter what you say..
my heart is solid now.
i think

just do not want to think too much over my first investment.

在角落休息的魚

有個朋友去京都的時候，偶然進了一家店，
他說因為坐在隔壁桌的人講的話實在太有趣了，
所以就不知不覺聽了起來。

他們談的是養殖小魚的事。
小魚是養在架在海裡的四方形網裡，
小魚會在網裡繞圈圈的游來游去，
養殖的人讓魚充分的環遊，並不斷餵食，讓魚長大。

可是有一天，那位坐在隔壁桌的人，
也就是從事養殖小魚業的老先生一看網裡，
卻發現網的四個角落竟然有偷懶不游的小魚，
這些魚要是不游就不會長大。
所以，他就想了個辦法，
既然四方形網的角落會讓魚躲在那裡偷懶，
乾脆架成圓形的網算了。

他的構想的確很有效果，
小魚果然找不到休息的地方，
只能在圓形的網裡環遊，
可是問題卻發生了，架起圓形網的數個月後，
小魚全都死光了，因為太累而累死了。

結果，他再一次架起四方形的網，
然後往養魚網裡面看，
他這次發現偷懶不游的並非特定的魚群，
而是互相輪流，
原來魚兒們都是適度的休息後再游的。

' 休息是必要的 '

我们很多时候都認為人的存在價值是以做事來證明，
或是被人認可才能證明的人，
或許很難休息，但有時候什麼也不管就休息，
說不定反而會發現什麼也不做的自己，
其實也是很有價值。

休息是為了走更長遠的路。
別給自己太大的壓力，要懂得舒解自己的壓力，
別太累了！

記住下面這句話：
「 人在天堂，錢在銀行 」
辛勤奮鬥一輩子，啥也帶不走...便宜了誰？

how would u enjoy singing when all the people are requesting for songs which you do not know how to sing le?
i wonder what are we waiting for le?


basically the primary gathering wasss.......
still okay la...
but just suggest not to go such expensive places in the future.
:)

finally after chinese new year..
i marked another journey in my life..
and me and my bf we have decided to get ourselves a place..
b4 we plan for our wedding..
(but this will be a few years down the road)

i'm aiming for a good condo and actually i was touched when my bf say okay to buy a condo nearby my existing house.
because with the same price, we would have bought a landed property with same amount of money just that it would be even further from my current house and would need to think of it's convenience. maybe in shah alam or even rawang.

travelling is quite time consuming..
like what i say, i still like the place i'm currently staying.
i'm just wondering why my bf decided to let go the place he like with a cheaper /more affordable price. in taman melati.
and choose to get a house in jalan ipoh.

actually the condo is currently under soft launch..
but almost half the condo are being taken up before it's official launch.
it's weird...
cos it's quite pricey..

there would be a lot of suggestion or voice when you decide to get a house.
it seems like i'm deciding to settle down with him.
and wish that we would have a long long way to go further.

actually looking forward to a place to stay which is nearby where i used to stay.
and the place is actually near my primary school
and near by the KTM station.
even most of the people are saying KTM services is not good.
but for me it's better than nothing.

looking forward for a better lifestyle when i decided to get married.
and i do think there would not always be an opportunity.
i think we should grab it when we can.
and not to regret when the opportunity is gone.

澄豪、静雯、锦辉、緻庄、建文、迪庆、建南

toasting for a better rat year!!!!