tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

因为刚刚把电脑format了， 然后有很多的东西都被delete掉了。
电脑就好像个刚刚呀呀学语的小孩一样，
然后我就拼命灌输它很多很多的软件让它能够恢复以前那个电脑。
可是instal软件需要很多的时间我也很忙没有很多的时间去照顾它。

电脑陪伴我的时间已经不知不觉有四、五年的时间还是觉得它是满争气的，
虽然我让它中毒很深，但它还是努力操作。
没有在我需要它的时候当机。

现在它已经被format了，也被防毒软体保护着，我会好好照顾它的。

Yeah... the latest show in town...
the hottest show in town...
all the ticket are fully booked and i managed to watch it on last Friday.. the second day the movie was on.

and i could tell you that the movie is superb.
it was being rated an 8 by the local Chinese news paper critic...
normally and usually they will give a movie 5/6 which you can go and watch and you would not think of watching it again.

however, transformer is different...
it give me a feeling that i might want to go watch it again.

and also being able to watch the movie on the second day it's very lucky and thanks a lot to jean who did the booking.
it was fun to watch movie with friends and rather watching with my bf all the time.

transformer is a cartoon who nearly every youngster in their 20 today will have a memory of it...
but it seems a bit blur for me.
actually I'm not that into this movie.
but it turns out a surprise for me..
and it's a really really great show which i think you should go to the cinema and you would agreed with what i wrote here.

go grab the movie ticket... which i think it's quite difficult to get nowadays... i heard the show was fully booked for the week...
crazy-man...

have not coming up to update my blog very often...

working is very stressful..
until my hands are shaking...
try to destress myself.

there are things which i'm upset about last week..
however managed to settle it..
try to talk to many poeple ...
and now..
i try to let go...

there are times which there are things which i cant let go...
things and job are keep piling up...
i'm trying to let myself to go to the best shape possible...

hopefully things will be alright soon...

发觉原来自己已经渐渐把你从很重要的位子给忘了。
然后彼此都不是心目中最重要的。

很难以想像自己竟然会把你的生日给忘记了。
虽然有有点迟了，
可是还是想告诉你，

我的朋友生日快乐。

have not been updating my blog as frequent as i promised myself.
have been making my life in a total mess.
have been stressing myself too much.

i just hope that everything would goes well.
try to move everything back to where it should be.
try to move up...

.... to be continue

Maybe this few days it's too stressful for me...
suddenly there is pimple poping out from my face.
maybe the deadline is near...
and there are too much things i need to handle.

however, today finally i managed to finished what has been dragged for a long long time.
hopefully everything went well and everything go smooth :)
work are coming in continously.
and i'm worried that i cant finished my work on time.

starting to be more and more organised...
starting to chart my work.
starting to be on time..
starting to move forward..
starting to advance :)

there are a lot of things i want to share and a lot of things i want and need to do :) however things seems to be difficult. as there are a lot of outstanding issues and i need to settle a lot of stuff before i can finalised things.

by end of the month i need to travel to KK for my KK trip.

looking forward for the trip and hopefully it would be a memorable one.

it's a big mess in my head and there are a lot of stuff that i need to clarify.
and i have to let everything be in order by end of the week.

hopefully with my determination, everything would go in order :)

Promised myself before that i would like to post something on my blog very frequently and continously.

however it seems that it does not work out for me.
because i'm quite busy and working on to get everything done before i'm going on leave by end of the month.

hoping that i would be able to get everything out by end of the week and settled everything before my boss leave for business trip to labuan.

a lot of things had happend and i have yet to update myself.

hopefully it would not be as busy as it would be in the next coming months:)
hopefully everything would be smooth sailing.

Are you drinking the right tea?

1. People who use their "brain" to work or students who study hard day and night.
--- should drink more chrysanthemum Tea.

2. People who need a lot of body energy to work or those people that do a lot of exercise everyday.
--- should drink Wu Loong Tea.

3. People who travel on a bike or work in dirty and polluted places.
--- should drink Green Tea.

4. For people who likes to sit down all day long and not doing anything even exercising
--- must drink Green Tea and Flower Tea.

5. People who smoke and drink a lot of alcoholic drinks.
--- should drink more Green Tea.

6. Carnnivore ( those people who must eat meat at least once a day, or feel sick or not feeling well)
--- try to drink some Wu Loong Tea.

7. People who go to the washroom too often or too less.
--- should drink more Honey Tea

8. People with high cholesterol and high blood pressure.
--- Wu Loong Tea, Green Tea.

9. Those who work with computers everyday.
--- need to drink a Lot of Tea (any tea will do).

Whenever you are working with the computer, you should make some tea, drink it when you are free.

Drinking Tea is healthy, it can protect and prevent the harmful Ultraviolet light from harming us (when using computer).

Furthermore, it can also cure us when we are tired and help making our body feel fresh again.

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All of us know that soyabean drink provides good protein to our body...
but many of us doesn't know that there are certain days we should avoid.

Soyabean drinks are best consume on hot sunny days where the sun is burning and glaring. The soya milk will gives lots of nutrients to the body, as the body is able to absorb the protein well.

However, Avoid the drink when the weather is cloudy or raining. Taking the drink in these weathers, the body will not be able to take in the protein thus will result in a disease called "GOUT" or "high acidic urine" due to the high protein residue in the body, after a long run.

This disease will cause pain to your knee joints and it will only be in control when you control your food intake of proteins and medications.
The pain is unbearable and usually you will have no idea what you have taken to cause the pain. Food like soya beans, ikan bilis, broccoli, spinach, peanuts, animal organs ( i.e. pork liver) etc will have to be avoided to prevent the pain from attacking.

So my friends, pass this to your family, relatives and friends to keep an alert of the pros and cons of soyabean milk and when it is to be taken and avoid.

Thanks for all your wishes..
Thanks to my cousins - Dee Ten, Tee Wei, Tee Ying, Keenan, Hector, Tee Jin, Foong Meng...
Thanks to Ah Ma, My Parents and 'Ber Zhim' for your Ang Pows

Thanks to Bee for your e-mail

Thanks for my colleague Mei Won, Sin Jol, Joshua, Keegan and Patrick for the lunch and the cake...

Thanks for Keegan, Joshua, Caroline, Helen, Su Ching, Patrick , Eric and Siew Heoh for your SMS...

THanks to many others for your b'day wishes...
looking forward for a better year ahead :)

失去的轉角是珍惜
the turning point of loosing is to know how to appreciate

傷心的轉角是開心
the turning point of sadness is happiness

阻礙的轉角是突破
the turning point of road block is breakthrough

失戀的轉角是勇氣
the turning point of failure in love is courage

叛逆的轉角是學乖
the turning point of being disobedient is learning how to be nice

挫折的轉角是學會
the turning point of failure is learning

i think the above are quite meaningful, as such took it and put it inside my blog and remind myself :)

Finally the conclusion is out.
Because of my hardwork for such a long long time, i only got promoted up one level.

haha...
a bit disappointed on myself.
why? cos i'm not performing up to the standard where others would like to

anyway, now the job start to be triple.
help to do review work,
help to do 'admin' work.

i can see there is more and more challenging job way ahead in the coming months
work would be harder and harder.

will try my level best to cope with it.
so i see bright future with my work la..

today i assisted my senior manager on the topic in relation to the audited financial statements.
i'm suppose to teach the junior staff on how to extract the information from the audited financial statements.

it things does not turn out well.
firstly i wrote something wrong on the board.
and then, i tried to restore the audit files.
how come some of the files are not working geh?
it feels very very weird.
so i say due to technical problem i cant open the file.
anxiao i'm clever rite?
got 'xiao chong ming'

actually from the presentation,
i found that i'm okay to face the crowd.
my face would not blush...
and i'm dare to speak out what i think :)

finally my friend got his answer.
his gf decided to breakup with him.
definately she wants a breakup no turning back.

felt a bit sad for them since i witness the starting of their relationship since the first year of our advanced diploma.
and now it ends.
should be around 3-4 years for their relationship.
i bit kasian... a bit 'ke xi'

but i have nothing to say but just to wish them to find their happiness in the future.

read my friend's blog.
suddenly notice that his gf decided to breakup with him.

just because what he wrote in his blog previously?
erm.. i wonder...
whether my bf read my blog or not?
or i just talking to an imaginary friend in the thin air?

sometimes you do not know what and how to do.
how to communicate in a better manner to the person you like or love.
the only way i know how to do is to write in all in my blog.
admit that i do not know how to express myself well.
sometimes there are a lot of tought which sometimes we do not know how to express ourself :)

do you think that you want a double promotion??
i say no...

now i'm a bit regret....
waiting for director's final decision to see whether i'm double promoted or single promoted.
there is no difference for me whether you are double promoted or single promoted.
the main difference is the expectation that others has on u.

work double and triple hard.
need to scarifies every saturday and everyday after working hours need to stay back.

still wondering whether i deserve for double promotion.
and now i think i should accept whatever my boss wanna promote me.

whatever to be it needs to be..
jus accept it...

jus work harder to get whatever i deserve :)

宝贝 ~~ 张悬
宝贝(in the night)
演唱：张悬
张悬-宝贝(in the night)
我的宝贝宝贝
给你一点甜甜
让你今夜都好眠
我的小鬼小鬼
逗逗你的眉眼
让你喜欢这世界
哇啦啦啦啦啦我的宝贝
倦的时候有个人陪
哎呀呀呀呀呀我的宝贝
要你知道你最美
让你今夜很好眠
捏捏你的小脸
让你喜欢整个明天
孤单时有人把你想念
哇啦啦啦啦啦yeah~woo
yeah~woo~

never hear this on the radio b4..
and recently i've been watching taiwan tv series on you tube...
and realised it's a very hito song at taiwan i guess.
it's a folk rock type of song..
song very nice..
the first time i heard is the song was sang by 陶子 on the tv series for the daugther..
sounds reli how nice...
maybe i could put it up in the near future...

wanna contact you for such a long time.
haven't got a chance to chat with you lately.
just wanna wish u happy b'day on ur special day.

remember that you have called me last time when my b'day comes.
i really treasure the frienship between us.
just hope that we could stay in touch..
miss ya so much...

today is evaluation day...
part 1..
talk a lot...
try to talk a lot..

and ending up i talked 3 points.

- training
- amendments on work
- and secondment overseas...

actually i have nothing much to talk about with my work..
i think the most i would laid out here.

and my boss think it would be a short one...
haha... to be continue tomorrow.

basically after finishing my acca.. it took life to another level.
what are my target and what do i want in life.
actually i guess i'm a bit blur about what i want for the time being...
but for the moment i just want be a sponge and absorb as much as possible.

we talk a lot.
talk about my senior leaving...
talk about coping with presure...
talk about my feeling back then when i feel a bit un-appreciated..
but i think the most important thing in work when you are a ground staff,
is you need to accept it..
realised it..
and let go of it...

Kajian baru-baru menunjukkan Digi (016 atau 014) tidak selamat digunakan.
Recent research shows that DIGI (016 or 014) is not safe for using it.

Apabila anda guna line Digi dan rakamkan dalam camera, dan perhatikan elok-elok.... anda boleh perhatikan kelibat seekor penunggu bewarna kuning akan mangekori pengguna tersebut. Jin atau toyol kuning ini akan ikut anda ke mana-mana: laut, gunung, hutan,
dalam komuter, malahan dalam kereta lalu kat terowong pun dia ada gak.

When you are using a DIGI line, please record with a camera and observe carefully....
You can notice that there is a stranger in yellow following the DIGI user. Gen or yellow sprit will following whereever: sea, moutain, forest, commuter, even in the car or inside the tunnel he's there as well.

Tak seram ke bila sentiasa diekori macam tu? Dah lah botak, pendek, tembam dan berwarna kuning cerah, makhluk ni jugak akan mengajuk-ajuk pergerakan anda! Pada masa yang sama, mereka akan menari-nari dan menyanyi lagi "I will follow Him" dari
filem 'Sister Act 1' yang diubahsuai liriknya.

Isn't it scarry when you are being followed by such person all the time? it's bold, short, fat and sharp yellow in colour, this 'creature' will also imitate your movement as well! At the same times they will dance and sing "I will follow Him" from the movie "Sister Act 1" which it's lyrics has been modified.

So, hati-hati dengan pengguna Digi yang dekat dengan anda, kerana anda diperhatikan. Gunalah Celcom atau Maxis, macam saya.

So be careful with DIGI user right beside you, because you are being watched. Use Celcom or Maxis just like me.

P/s: Ni bukan rekaan. Tetapi saya lihat sendiri dengan mata saya kat TV baru-baru
ini. Kenapa, tak percaya

P/S: This is not fiction. But what I see with my own bare eyes on TV lately. Why dont' you trust me?

i've been keep on loosing my mechanical pencil lately.
maybe it's because of carelessness..
and always just put the pencil just like that and dunno where it drop d..

maybe i'm too careless...
suddenly this week i found my mechanical pencil back..
haha :)
one of it is back with me so happy.
maybe it's just a good sign.
what is lost and will be coming back to me :)

happy chinese new year too all again..
even it's going to end by tomorrow :)

During chinese new year, we went back to my mom's home town, penang to celebrate chinese new year with grandpa and grandma.
and on the second day we are there we went to the restaurant for dinner and order the 120 steamboat set which is suitable for 6-8 person
the following are the pictures of what are the stuff we put inside the vegetarian steamboat:-

'bak choy', fake mutton, 'yam yu' which looks a bit the squit, fake prawn, fish ball, and nugget

'shang mee' and celery

raw mushroom, fake crab stick, some more fish ball, 'bak choy', bean curd and fake fish slice

some more vegetable, raw button mushroom, fish fingers, yam slice and the other type of fish ball

another look at the crab stick and material for steamboat.

is the soup ready? let's have a look at it

boiling soup waiting for us to put in all the ingredient.
the soup has a little milk and sesame oil
the soup taste like the soup base for fish head bee hoon.
and this dinner cost us RM120 excluding the drinks and rice

April it's the time of the year...
where they consider whether to promote you or not.
whether how much increament you are deserve to received.

actually frankly speaking,
i'm looking forward for a promotion this year.
why?
reason:-
1) because i think i deserve a promotion for my hardwork
2) because i'm looking forward for someone to sponsor my acca subscription
3) because i'm ready to accept more responsibility
4) because i want to learn more

sometimes i wonder how people fill up their evaluation form.
what is average performance and what is above average performance...

for me i think average performance is what normal poeple can do you also can do..
above average performance is what normal poeple can do you can do better than them...
excellent performance is what normal people can do you can do extremely better than them... in terms of speed and quality.

that's how i define the ranking on the work evalutation form..
and below average is always not the type of rating that i'm looking forward for lo :)

so i wonder how would my evaluation be and
would i be able to be promoted this round?

2007 has come..
and after new year and chinese new year has passed...
2007 officially have less than 10 months before it comes to an end.
time do flies when you are super busy.

i'm looking back on the past two months and looking forward on the next 9 months plus in 2007.
wondering what is my goal.
where should i be heading.
wondering how to make the year 2007 as meaningful as possible.
but i think rather than spending all my time to keep on wondering...
i should go out there and start to take action,
-to let myself have a better living environment
-to love myself more
-to love my family member more
-to love people around me more
-to try myself to blog as frequent as possible to share my tought and release my tention

i do not know why other poeple would write my name wrongly.
my name is 叶緻庄.
i feel sometimes it's weird that other poeple try to change your name to 叶"致"庄
which is in a way that is not correct.

i wonder why all my cousin sister's class teacher all say that their name is wrong.
they cannot use "緻" and in stead they need to use "致" as "緻" is considered a wrong word in the simplified chinese character.

i do feel weird that i've been using this name for 24 years in my life and i do not see how my name is wrong.
why do they not dare to fight for their own rights. the teacher has no right to say that someone's name is correct or wrong.
but now my cousin sister is used to writing the name as "致" instead of "緻" and now she feels very lazy to change back to "緻".

i do see the rasional of my grandfather giving us the name of "緻" which indicates a name of a gal and "致" which indicates a name of a boy.
by using "致" instead of "緻" does it indicate 男女平等?

but i do think that the name is so meaningful that not a teacher has the right to change the name which is given by your grand parents or parents.

so i do insist that if you wanna write my name, you have to write 叶緻庄. if not please call me tc. :)

above are picture of decoration of my office place.
actually i was shocked when i first saw the decoration.
and it really attracted a lot of attention to our group which we never have b4.

just think that life would be back to normal after chinese new year gua.

i'll be going off to penang 2moro...
have a lot of things which i have yet to do..
have to save all photo inside the pc
and also pack my clothes

it seems difficult task and many things to do..
but i think if you wanna do,
nothing is impossible
everything is possible..
and i'm working on it now ;)

i do not understand why you keep on say such things?
why need to keep on saying those not very good things?

just because other people's occupation then we say other people is not good?
i wonder why.
i do not understand...
i do not understand...
i do not understand...

what should i do?
should i listen to you?
or should i listen to my heart?
what else should i do?
i do not understand..
i cannot understand..
i do not understand how could i continue to respect you.
i do not understand how to interpret what you say is true or false.

其实我并没有告诉你我真的很想念你。
很想可以和你好好的坐下来聊一聊。
但是我却不想主动去联络你。
我是被动的。
无奈你也是同样被动的人吧。
或许是这样让彼此有很多的误会和误解。

很努力地修补我们之间的裂痕。
可是伤口很深，很难愈合。
或许这样让自己觉得有些心痛有些可惜。

that day i search the web.. and look at some blog and saw this written by melody

"我最近在想.....朋友真的有一輩子的嗎？
我們通常講“分手" (breakup)是形容男女之間的感情
可是我覺得好朋友之間也有可能有這種狀況發生.......
"為什嗎"？"這麼會"？你問我？我也還在尋找答案....
我覺得長大了已後， 朋友之間多多少少會開始有一些distance...
大家各忙各的， 談戀愛的談戀愛， 結婚的結婚, etc....
在人生的分叉路口，是不是友情也會“分叉"？
從小到大， 我們走的路是平行的﹣肩並肩， 無話不談的知心密友
我總是很天真的以為我們會best friends forever and ever..............
可是接近３０歲的我們不知不覺的被人生帶到不同的方向....
我向左走，她向右走
慢慢的發現已前每天必需要講１０幾通電話的我們，現在連２通都講不到....
不是不想講，而是想講也找不到幾個共同話題了.......
很sad,很難過....我們那天把我們的這種feeling講開了
發現maybe這是個新的開始， 我們都長大了，事情都變多了,so我們的friendship也會跟著改變
Maybe Its time to say goodbye to what our friendship was in the past and embrace what it will become....
. But I'm STILL SAD! I just wish we could still be the way we were:("

其实那年想要告诉你的是如同上面的文章一样的心情。
可能是我的表达能力不够好吧！
所以就说成了不要再做好朋友了！
一直让自己反省，
想一想自己是对的还是错的。
如果你很偶然地看见我的心情日记，
可以请你告诉我你的答案和看法吧！

i've send you a simple sms jus to wish you happy chinese new year..
nothing special
no special intention.

then only i realised that you had lost my contact.
you lost my number.

considering whether wanna reply your sms..
whether wanna let you know who i am..
notice and realised i hurt you.
but just because i would not want more poeple to be hurt because what i did previously.
and realised i should be responsibile for what i did.
so i never feel regret cos i hurt you.
just wanna let you have a better future..
rather than to be with me.

so.. i'll consider within this month whether wanna let u know who i am.
maybe i'll jus remain annomemous..
:)

人 =吃饭 + 睡觉 +上班 +玩 ,
猪 =吃饭 + 睡觉 ,
代入 :人 =猪 +上班 +玩 ,
即 :人 -玩 =猪 +上班
结论 :不懂玩的人 =会上班的猪


Human = eat + sleep + work + enjoy
Pigs = eat + sleep
Hence, Human = Pigs + work + enjoy
if, Human – enjoy = Pigs + work
in other words, Human that don't know enjoy = pigs that work


男人 =吃饭 + 睡觉 +挣钱
猪 =吃饭 + 睡觉
男人 =猪 +挣钱
猪 =男人 -挣钱
所以男人不挣钱等于猪


Men = eat + sleep + earn money
Pigs = eat + sleep
Hence, Men = Pigs + earn money
if Men – earn money = Pigs
in other words,
Men that don't earn money = Pigs


女人 =吃饭 + 睡觉 +花钱。
猪 = 吃饭 + 睡觉。
代入上式得： 女人= 猪+ 花钱
移项得：女人- 花钱= 猪
结论：女人不花钱的都是猪


Women = eat + sleep + spend
Pigs = eat + sleep
Hence, Women = Pigs + spend
if, Women – spend = Pigs
In other words, Women that don't spend = Pigs


综上：
男人为了让女人不变成猪而挣钱!
女人为了让男人不变成猪而花钱！
男人 + 女人 =两头猪
祝天下的猪们快乐 ^_^


Summary:
Men earn money not to let women become pigs!
Women spend not to let men become pigs!
Men + Women = 2 Pigs
Wish all the pigs happy forever!!
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recently received this e-mail
found it very interesting..
so wanna share it with everyone here..
and happy 'pig year'

Notice this advertisement on the 'sin chew' website.

found that it was quite interesting and meaningful.
as such, just wanna share it with all of us.. (youngster)

"to share the joy of this festive season by enjoying PETRONAS commercials on PETRONAS website. "

Click Here for more details

it's about a bunch of old people who has no children to celebrate the chinese new year with them.
nobody to eat 'tuan nian fan' with them.
at the end of the advertisement it states that
"old folks alone at one place, maybe maybe we should go home for chinese new year"
i think this year petronas did a very interesting and meaningful cny ad.

cny is a season of celebration,
and also a season to spend more time with your parents, grand parents and
relatives even every year they will ask you the same old question and same old story:-
"graduate already ar?"
"where are you working ar?"
"got gal friend/boy friend alreay ar?"
"when getting married ar?"

but looking at thing at the other angle...
you should be happy to be able to answer their question every year.
this proves the following:-
1) they are still very much alive
2) they are concern about you
3) they still maintain a good relationship with you.

i used to think that cny is a season of 'making money' because people will give you ang pow
but instead my parents make 'losses' cos i'm the only child so.. if i received RM 2/5 and the relative have 2-3 children my parents already 'rugi'
haha :)

season of chinese new year..
season of sharing..
please share your toughts of chineses new year with me :)

it seems that i have decided to take up the changes in my life lately.

i.e.

i decided to change my phone to a colour phone despite many people has changed to their respective colour phone ages ago.
however, this phone will be a temporary one.. until i decided to get a latest sony ericsson latest mobile phone... till then.. will update you when i got the new phone :)

hairstyle... decide to start to take care of my 'rumput' like hair.. from the very minute i decide to keep it long i think it meant trouble to me. i always wonder why my hair take so long a time to grow beyond the length of my shoulder. maybe it's because i have a long neck?
so.. yesterday decided to give my hair a trim. easy and frequent hair falls and also ugly middle splitting hair style has always been my nite mare...
now my hair styles look like? haha.. i dunno how to describe...
my hairstylist told me not to scratch my head so much as to protect my skull.
and she cut my fringe. never have such short fringe since primary.. i think should be good thing to me cos it serve the purpose of ensuring that my middle splitting hair sytle would be changed to side splitting sytle and stay that way..
than.. this lazy.. t0m@k0 have to work very hard to take care of it.

they always say 'there are no ugly women, but lazy women' however i think the actual fact is good looking women, tends to take money to build up their good look... and i would say no money no talk..

that's all i wanna talk about the changes in life..

i'm learning... learning how to be patient...
how to be willing to let go of things that you cant handle.

someone told me that i have the tendancy to not willing to let go of the job.
why?because i feel that it's my reponsibility to complete the job..
and i do not want my inefficiency to slow down the job completion.

sometimes i have a hard time in the sense that i've disagreement with my boss.
i do not agreed with the why she do the job? sense of urgentcy?
i'm the staff in charge of the job i do not know which is more important and which is not?
i feel uneasy with the situation is ... i agreed to get somebody to help out with the job when i'm having training, but i do expect the development of the job and what i need to do to follow up to be stated clearly.

if you want to say i'm dumb dumb..
i do accept the fact that i'm still fresh and
admit that people do make mistakes.

if you want to pass the job out and eased my responsibility,
i do hope i could simply be brief how the things would be like and i have no worries with the job on my hand.

sometimes i'm very upset and feel like want to quit...
but on the other hand..
i just feel that giving up the things i like to do just because of something simply c2pid.. i feel it's not worth the cost and it's not beneficial to me at all :)

yesterday nite, suddenly received an order there is an urgent job on hand. at the same time i have a full day training
yesterday i received an urgent job and the thing need to be finished within this week
then today is very crucial lo
but i got training ma
then my boss ask me who can help me to do things lo
she suggested a more senior staff (MR J).. but J was busy with his work and instead i suggested the junior staff (MR K) to handle my case as K seems to have lesser urgent job on hand.
then today right after i went for training 2day my boss ask K to help out with my urgent job by preparing a letter and Form to client.
However, there is something which i did not expect is my class actually ended earlier. full day class become half day class.
Knowing that i'm very 'gan jiong' of my work, i asked my boss how's the development of the urgent job.
then my boss tried to 'convienced me' saying that i need not worry about the job and Mr K will be assisting me on the job (i.e. i can go back for class after lunch) then i say 'huh? my class finished already'.
(i think this is why mr K was offended?)
and at the same time the manager request for me to be in charge of the case. maybe this is why his a bit upset about not being able to help gua...
then in the afternoon i tried to look for Mr K's assisstant by asking him to help me to photocopy some documents. but he refused to help by saying 'i do not know how to use the photocopy machine upstairs as it is too big of a size'. i think it's all rubbish excuse. i say fine.. you do not what to help.. then everything it's okay with me.. i do not need you 'kind' assisstant...

then i stay back for one to two hours just to finished the job.
i'm not consider bad la..
ya i know the intention of the boss is to fully utilised the resources available and subsequently achieve the best result for client.
i also want the junior to learn...
just that the attitude is not correct, it's difficult for us to help them.

This is a CLASSIC!

An Indian, a Chinese and a Malay were in a terrible car accident.
They were all brought to the same emergency room, but all of them died
before they arrived.

Just as they were about to put the toe tag on the Indian, he opened his
eyes. Astonished, the doctors and nurses present, asked him what
happened.

"Well," said the Indian, "I remember the crash, and then there was a
beautiful light, and then the Chinese and the Malay and I were standing
at the gate of heaven. An Angel approached us and said that we were too
young to die, and that for a donation of $50, we could return to earth.
So, of course I pulled out a $50 from my wallet and the next thing I
knew I was back here."

"That's amazing!" said one of the doctors. "But what happened to the
other two?"

"Last I saw them" replied the Indian, "the Chinese was bargaining over
the price and the Malay was waiting for the government to pay for his."

sometimes i feel it's weird... working for a few manager.
i think now is the time for me to grow up..
learn more.. learn to be independent.
i think other poeple will see myself as a dependent person
do not know how to take care of myself.
however, i just feel that everyone has their own way of living.

have yet to set my resolution, however i have had some clear idea of what i want and i will make clear of it soonest possible.

喜欢被你拥抱入眠感觉。期待每天早上睡醒的第一件事情是你送上的morning kiss。
可是，自己还是不确定自己对你的感觉是爱，是感激还是只是朋友而已。
这让我好迷惘。好想让你把我生命中的空白全部都填地满满的。
可是你却告诉我应该要有自己的天地和私人的空间。
而我的私人的空间就是上网和写日记吧！
同时也想满足你，让你拥有足够的私人空间。
可是你却不知道，我的确感觉到自己对于周旋与朋友间已经感觉很累。
朋友的时常放飞机，让自己觉得还是不要去把心交出来比较好。
承认自己是懦弱而胆小的乌龟。
可是幸福往往来得冲冲。担心自己把握不住，
而害怕幸福迅即消逝的感觉。

他说已经想好了情人节他要送我什么礼物？
可是粗心的我竟然什么准备也没有。真的搞不懂自己要怎么样。
是因为自己对他不够了解吗？却发觉当自己在需要送礼物的时候觉得不知所措。
我竟然不知道应该送他些什么东西？
一直埋怨他不了解自己，现在或许不了解的人是我自己吧！

yesterday he ask me whether he should get 'lee hom's' concert ticket for me as valentine present. however i did not answer him. why? because he is not in a very good financial position and i would think that i would not like to burden him further. Actually I'm quite happy if he has such plans (eventough it just 'cakap-cakap' aje), but reality always defeats what you dream of. Therefore I rather give up the chance and safe some money for a better future.

sometimes what he think is a bit crazy, but sometimes i think/feel he never concern about me or say it in annother way, he is selfish. He always say you should go to learn YOGA so that you can have better figures. I know not that he is complaining my figures, just that he wants what is best for myself. but has he look at what i think and what i feel? why he just do not want to accompany me to learn it together? because it's a 'gal's' thing?

sometimes i'm just tire of arguing with him, i just wanna get myself out of this shit and leave myself alone.........

After many days of searching finally i bought Gary's album...

Looking for it since last friday... and
finally got it 2nite..
and the version i bought is the limited edition.
and it is the last one that i saw in that cd-rama...

it seems that i'm quite lucky. why?
because i seems to give up on looking for the album.
i would be very much happy to buy the limited edition as according to the DJ there are only limited copies in Malaysia. and I'm lucky enough to get one...
and what makes me feel happy is b'cos the price does not difer from the normal version one much...

erm... you can visit his offical website... to see how the album cover look like :)

歌曲：朋友变情人再变朋友
歌手：品冠 专辑：爱到无可救药

※ music ※
安静的房间还有你的温柔
躺在棉被上看着多的枕头
为何分手后回忆就被偷走
爱情走到尽头是否可以做朋友
你和我以前是朋友心情不错
就想约你走走
你要电影我听你唱歌
我们总是无话不说
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
谁懂这坎坷

爱上你以后愉悦很轻松
现实太残酷梦中你会拥抱我
当爱上以后如今我们分手
我变成情歌手
是唱太多太多bala歌
你和我现在是朋友
你那么好却只能做朋友
你撞了我我装无所谓
我们如何要求更多
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
只能显真格

你和我以前是朋友
心情不错
就想约你走走
你要电影我听你唱歌
我们总是无话不说
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
谁懂这坎坷

你和我现在是朋友
你那么好却只能做朋友
你撞了我我装无所谓
我们如何要求更多
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
只能写真的

朋友变情人再变朋友
祝我们快乐!!!


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jus noticed that this song sang by 'pin guan' is written by 'zhang ze'
just wonder what and how's the feeling like for those who has the relationship of from a friend to lovers and back to friend again.

wonder what is the rasional behind lovers become friends again.
i think it would difinately be very weird for those previous lovers to become friend.

friend... you cannnot do a lot of things that lover do..
but lover you have too much of a commitment that a friend need not to have.
weird...

It seems that a lot of natural disasters that happened during the end of the year.

Wonder why this happened?
because god wanna warn us not to further harm the earth anymore?

sometimes i wonder.
going to be away from home this very first time.
and the very first year...

and knowing that my parents are very concerned about my trip.
this is the first time i travel together with joo...
and my parents always tell me..
do not do something c2pid that would let thier face down.
you have to take care of urself la... take care of your safety la....
bla.. bla.. bla..

i wonder...sometimes i wonder why my parents so not willing to let me have a say of my own and do my own things?

hope this would be a safe trip and my parents would be please and glad they allowed me to go for this trip.

herm... 2006 is coming to an end...
just wondering where i should be end of the year.

I would be at home watching tv?
haha.. no this year i would be out of my house.
i would be at S'pore celebrate the merry merry new year...

hehe... so hoping everything would be alright..
and the flood will be gone by the time when i wanted to go s'pore.

actually i'm a bit looking forward for the trip.
and i think it would be good for me since it seems that it should be the time for me to be independent.
starting to explore things myself.
hoping that i would be prepared for the trip.

hoping that i would be better when i'm back from my trip.
hoping i could gain more from the trip i have.

huh... end up i did not take too much picture during our annual dinner...
why cos some c2pid fuller told me.. 'nonono... i got camera here.. it's okay... i can use my cemera to take'
ah... 'zhen yang' looking down on my camera kah?

okay... that's fine with me...
no point of being upset till today.

actually wanna wish thanks to my friend who help me to make up and do my hair as well as my nails...
jus feel a bit it's not like me...

my bf say.. you have to learn to make up...
it's a kind of respect... to others...
bla bla bla bla...

but it's so not tee chong...
'suan la'... see how things go lo...

painting finger nails...
it's so like me...

wanna see how's it's like?

please wait for the picture which will be posted here soon :P

五隻毛毛蟲的故事
來源：網路流傳
第一隻毛毛蟲

話說第一隻毛毛蟲，有一天爬呀爬呀過山河，終於來到這棵蘋果樹下。

他並不知道這是一棵蘋果樹，也不知樹上長滿了紅紅的蘋果。

當他看到同伴們往上爬時，不知所以的就跟著往上爬。

沒有目的，不知終點，更不知生為何求、死為何所。

他的最後結局呢？也許找到了一顆大蘋果，幸福的過了一生；也可能在樹葉中迷了路，顛沛流離胡塗一生。

不過可以確定的是，大部分的蟲都是這樣活著的，也不去煩惱什麼是生命意義，倒也輕鬆許多。

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第二隻毛毛蟲

有一天，第二隻毛毛蟲也爬到了蘋果樹下。

他知道這是一棵蘋果樹，也確定他的「蟲生目標」就是找到一棵大蘋果。

問題是...他並不知道大蘋果會長在什麼地方？但他猜想：大蘋果應該長在大枝葉
上吧！

於是他就慢慢地往上爬，遇到分支的時候，就選擇較粗的樹枝繼續爬。

當然在這個毛蟲社會中，也存在考試制度，如果有許多蟲同時選擇同一個分支，可是要舉行聯考來決定誰才有資格通過大樹枝。

幸運的，這隻毛毛蟲一路過關斬將，每次都能第一志願的選上最好的樹枝，最後他從一枝名為「台大」的樹枝上，找到了一顆大蘋果。

不過他發現這顆大蘋果並不是全樹上最大的，頂多只能稱是局部最大。

因為在它的上面還有一顆更大的蘋果，號稱「老板」，是由另一隻毛毛蟲爬過一個名為「學徒」的樹枝才找到的。

令他洩氣的是，這個學徒分支是他當年不屑於爬的一棵細小的樹枝。

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第三隻毛毛蟲

接著，第三隻毛毛蟲也來到了樹下。這隻毛毛蟲相當難得，小小年紀，卻自己研製了一副望遠鏡。

在還未開始爬時，就先利用望遠鏡蒐尋一番，找到了一棵超大蘋果。

同時，他發覺當從下往上找路時，會遇到很多分支，有各種不同的爬法；但若從上往下找路時，卻只有一種爬法。

他很細心的從蘋果的位置，由上往下反推至目前所處的位置，記下這條確定的路
徑。

於是，他開始往上爬了，當遇到分支時，他一點也不慌張，因為他知道該往那條路走不必跟著一大堆蟲去擠破頭。

譬如說，如果他的目標是一顆名叫「教授」的蘋果，那應該爬「升學」這條路；如果目標是「老板」，那應該爬「學徒」這分支；若目標是「議長」，也許早就該爬「賭場保鑣」這條路了。

最後，這隻毛毛蟲「應該」會有一個很好的結局，因為他己具備了「先覺」的條件了。但也許會有一些意外的結局出現，因為毛毛蟲的爬行相當緩慢，從預定蘋果到抵達時，需要一段時間。

當他抵達時，也許蘋果已被別蟲捷足先登，也許蘋果已熟透而爛掉了...

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第四隻毛毛蟲

第四隻毛毛蟲可不是一隻普通的蟲，同時具有先知先覺的能力。

他不僅先覺知道自己要何種蘋果，更先知──知道未來蘋果將如何成長。

因此當他帶著那「先覺」的望眼鐿時，他的目標並不是一顆大蘋果，而是一芽含苞待放的蘋果花。

他計算著自己的時程，並估計當他抵達時，這朵花正好長成一顆成熟的大蘋果，而且他將是第一個鑽入大快朵頤的蟲。

果其然，他獲得所應得的，從此過著幸福快樂的日子。

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第五隻毛毛蟲

毛毛蟲的故事本來應該到此結束了。

因為所有故事的結局都必須是正面的且富有教育意義。

但仍有不少讀者好奇：第五隻毛毛蟲到底怎麼了...？

其實他什麼也沒做，就在樹下躺著納涼，而一顆顆大蘋果就從天而降在他的身邊。

因為樹上某一大片樹枝早就被他的家族佔領了。

他的爺爺、爸爸、哥哥們盤據在某一樹幹上，禁止其他蟲進入。

然後蘋果成熟時，就一顆顆的丟給底下的子孫們撿食。

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奉勸諸位，若你不是含著金湯匙出生也不是先知先覺的第四隻毛毛蟲的話，就乖乖腳踏實地的打拼吧，

可不要妄想檢到大蘋果，因為反而會被砸死的。

this is a e-mail i received form an anonomous sender :)

2006 New Year Resolution

the following is an extract of the above mentioned blog posting:-

"okay now i just simply set a few goals and see what i would be able to do with it.

1. get first 5 in the coming tax trainning for the company. (yes it is being achieved, i got first place for the trainning)

2. help out my group leader and try to get as much exposure as possible. (yes being incentive application, but it seems that i breakdown sometimes along the way... exposure wise.. i gain a lot and it really help to make me to be more mature in handling my work)

3. be a more open person and try to know more people in the future. (moving to a new floor at 12 floor, yes i manage to know more people because there are more staff at 12 floor and also because i got first place in the trainning and more poeple know me. however now i just feel that i wanna be a low profile person :))

4. try to control my weight and work out during weekend (so far my weight has not increase too much but sad to say it doesn't reduce either... so i found it doesn't work out well enough for this resolution)

5. continue blogging (yes have been blogging all year long but it seems that i spend time working at home from june to november rather than posting how i feel and what i feel. i think that's why i'm a bit streesed out)

6. learn how to drive by end of this year (driving huh... to have somemore room for improvement. can drive already.. but if wanna let them (i.e. my parents and bf to be convienced that i can drive to work i seems long long way to go)

7. buy and read more books especaily english books (this is the worst new year resolution. i have bought a lot of books but rarely read them.. i bought demand and angle the mandrin version also the da vinci code... however no new english book are being purchased. therefore this have to be improved)

8. maintain a good relationship with my family especially my parents (having a better relationship with my parents and also it seems that they have accepted my bf better and more convienced and secure that we are together ;))

9. get a promotion during the year. (yes being promoted from junior to semi senior.. actually looking forward for a further promotion.. working working damn hard for it)

10.treat myself better (this is a question i'm wondering and asking myself all the time. is it that i'm not treating myself better? why should i loose out to what i like as compared to a job which i work like a 'monkey' and i get peanuts in return. but i always tell myself job satisfaction is what i have been looking for all this time.)"

please give me some feed back if you have some tought regarding my new year resolution this year.. so that i could improved on my new new year resolution 2007 :)

Dear all please go to the following site to post me ur christmas wish oh... :)
Merry Christmas oh :)
Sweet Sweet Christmas

Much Regards
Tee Chong

trying very very hard for things to be at the correct position.
however things seems like they do not want to go the way they you want it to be.
it seems that things always goes against you.

try very hard to overcome it.
just when you think that it's over.
yet it's not over.

just when you think that things are getting smooth and you need not worries too much regarding this issue.
tried very hard to overcome it...
and yet i have a strong sense that things are not where they suppose to be.
it seems that i'm either wrong or i'm bad...

it seems to be affecting my performance.
and i'm suppose to be the one who people should be putting the blame on?
sometimes i wonder why and i wonder how.

i'm just feeling that there are just too much responsibility on my shoulder that i should just let the thing go...

praying that tomorrow is a brand new day.. and things would be getting on well soon :)
please pray for me as well ;)

　　她觉得她爱过他。很矫情的。

　　春天，家门口的树上总是绽放或白或粉的不知名的小花，满树都是。她喜欢这些花儿，所以总是蹲在那些树下，倚着树看天发呆。他站在她面前，挡住她眼前的那片天空，她嘻笑着把他推开。他抱她起来，任凭她的拳打脚踢雨点般地落在他的身上，背她在背上，一直走回家。他说，乖。她把脸埋在他的脖颈闲，用脸颊磨蹭着他的耳朵，耳鬓厮磨的，亲密的样子。

　　她和异性的朋友打打闹闹，他在旁边笑着看着，看她制服那些让着她的朋友时骄傲的样子，听她指着他告诉那些朋友，快，叫大哥，我就是你们大嫂。

　　他跟她细数自己身上的每一道伤痕。告诉她，这条是哪一天和谁在哪里打架留下的。看到她认真地瞪着眼睛看，他用自己的鼻子蹭她的鼻子，说，小笨蛋，不要那么担心的样子。

　　夏天下倾盆大雨的时候，她拉着他在雨里狂奔，浑身湿透。他抱紧她，说，我不要别的男人和我分享宝贝的性感。

　　秋天，他们会捡各自看到的第一片落叶给对方，把彼此的叶子悉心地夹在自己最喜欢的书里。

　　她的生日在深秋。他给她买很多很多的东西，不管她喜不喜欢，都会买很多很多放在一个很大的盒子里要送给她。在她面前却装着忘记了的样子，看她生气地噘着嘴，他捂着嘴偷偷地坏笑。

　　冬天，他会解开大衣的扣子，把她抱在里面。他的体温总是那么高，让她不知道这温度该怎样延续。

　　看悲情的电影，她会哭得稀里哗啦的。他坐在旁边，抱她在怀里，良久不说一句话，直到听见她哭累了睡着了平静的呼吸声，在黑暗里，他一个人享受这一份来之不易的安宁。

　　那时候，他们都觉得他们永远不会分开。爱对方，用一辈子都不够。

　　他们终于还是被迫要分两地，很旧的情节，只会出现在下三滥的小说里。他们没有什么山盟海誓永不分离，他们分开了，真的分开了。很彻底，QQ拉了黑名单，MSN阻止掉，手机号码删掉。他坚信，分手就代表不合适，既然不合适，为什么还要有联系给对方和好的机会？

　　春天，他在他的城市送另外一个和她很像的女孩子回家。他对自己说，他可以胜任。他原本讨厌这个女孩子，只是她与她太像。缘分的小偏差，他接受了。

　　她在很多男人身旁徘徊，不喜欢的，以为自己喜欢的，最后还是无法接受。深夜里上网的时候，她还是会希望看见那个黑名单里的男人重新加她，对她说，他忘记不了。

　　夏天下倾盆大雨的时候，他为那个女子撑着伞，伞柄直直地立在两人之间。他突然想起他为她撑伞时伞柄那么倾斜，以至于每次他都有半边衣服湿透了。

　　她坐在家里，听着窗外雨哗啦啦的声音，一个人看一本书。旁边的手机调了静音，没有开震动，但是没有关机。静音是因为不想被打扰，不关机是因为她在等待一个永远不会打来的电话给自己打来的电话，或者只是一条简讯也好。

　　秋天，他捡自己看到的第一片落叶，夹在书里，把那本书放进自己平时天天背的背囊里。闲的时候，他会翻开书读两页，看看那片落叶。但是他总是那么忙，他要工作，还有那个女子。

　　她也捡起自己看到的第一片落叶，用双面胶贴在墙上，用马克笔在上面写，我的生日在秋天。朋友来的时候，她不再打闹，而是在满屋子的喧嚣中静静地看那片贴在墙上的落叶。

　　冬天，他收到那个女子给他的圣诞礼物，一副灰色的手套。他笑了笑，把手套放进柜子，觉得自己永远都不需要。当他走出门外，才发现，这座城市的冬天，原来这么寒冷。

　　她去商场，给自己买了很多的羽绒服和毛衣，以往的冬天，她从不需要这样多的衣服。她把自己裹成一个球，出门的时候，她很纳闷，为什么今年的冬天变得这么冷？

　　又一轮冬夏。

　　春天，她家路旁的树又开花了。她还是觉得她爱他，但是他离开了。

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erm.. some interesting story i found on the net... however i doesn't understand why you love a person so much yet you let him/her go?
is it because you love the person too much?
how to understand the feeling that you think you doesn't like that particular person yet however you keep on missing him/she and he/she keep on poping out of your mind :)

Over the past few months i just feel that i'm just like the train which had when off track, everything has messed up.

just feel that i've sacrifies too much and yet not getting the results that i need.
wondering why i keep on asking myself to go back to work on a saturday morning.
is it really necessary for my work?
what are the private time for myself?
wanna follow the footsteps of my manager?
i think the answer should be definately no..
cos i wanna have a life of my own.

just feeling that i've not taken care of myself.
have not taken care of my blog.
have not spend enough time with my family.
always ask myself is this what i wanna do?
it is time to change?

yes...
to change the way i work.
to change for the better.
to change to ........

wonder whether i should keep on staying a life like tat?
not really feeling very happy

but somehow somebody told me very long time ago,
life is not about happy and happy.
but i do think that when you are happy/satisfied, most of the problem can be easily solved...
hope that this would not trouble me for too long of my time :)

sometimes i wonder why things just come and go...

remembering 6/7 years ago, me and my friend were sitting on a bus and saying that how nice it would be should this place is being able to open a mc d... then it definately have many customers and it would be much much more convinient for us to go to eat mc d...

and months just right after that, we notice that the mc d had open there.

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few months ago, me and my bf were eating at the same mc d and we were chit-chatting and we were saying all the shops around the mc d has closed down, i wonder whether it will closed down in the near future?

and today.. is the last day of operation of this mc d at jalan ipoh....

so.. this is how things come and go...
and this is so called life.

词 曲:曹格

我的心唱首歌给你听
歌词是如此的甜蜜
可是我害羞我没有勇气
对你说一句我爱你

为什么你还是不言不语
难道(是)你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意
千言万语里
只有一句话能
表白我的心
千言万语里
只有一句话就
能够让我们相偎相依

我爱你你是我的茱丽叶
茱丽叶
我愿意变成你的粱山伯
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
把爱
永远
不放开
i love you
我爱你你是我的罗密欧
罗密欧
我愿意变成你的祝英台
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
美丽的爱情祝福着未来

为什么你还是不言不语
不言不语
难道是你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意

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beautiful love song realease recently :)
but i still wonder in nowadays whether love story similar to romeo and juliet do really exist in this really realistic world?

just realised that i'm not a very good gf...
cos i let you down again and again.
until you nearly give up hope on me...
i do hope you wouldn't

broken my promise many times.
it's just that i don't know how to request?
and i don't understand why aren't they are okay with me going back with you.

listening to fish's album all the time.
and realised that i'm sick last nite...
my nose i stuck.. keeping running and running... why? because it is sad and wanna run away from the reality... so it become the running nose...

then comes my throat... i dunno why it is so sore..
is it because i'm sad?
or it is because i'm just too tired..?????????????

or because the mr J sitting beside me bring all his virus and spread it to me d?
terrible la...
how to focus on work?
very sien to work like that...
there are ton and ton of work waiting for me and yet i do wonder whether i would have the capability to finished it.

i'm just too tired.
i'm just too lazy.
i'm wondering what i should i do next...
on leave?
take mc?
yer... i'm in doubt..

词曲:梁静茹

有时候会有些想念 他乡里温暖的阳光
那是我可以避雨的地方
有时候会有些彷徨 直到你来到我身旁
保护我像妈妈的手一样
这个时候你是我温暖的翅膀
让我飞到最安全角落

但愿你一直守护我 用力的紧紧拥抱我
陪着我找那下一步的我
但愿你一直听着我 我唱着的歌你会懂
还在说我的眼眶里 已经泪光闪烁

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this song is specially dedicated for the friend who is going away from Malaysia.

finally get fish's new album...
hope it will help me go through the days without you.
or all the while you are not around.. it's just that i do not wanna admit it.
you are just a passanger who had went trough a short journey with me.

and for now.. we have to be seperated and go for our own seperate way.
but do hope that you are okay and everything works well for you :)

wonder what is holding me back...
why i'm hesitating...
what is holding me back from working very hard as a staff..
being paid too low...

erm... i like satisfaction in work rather than high pay?

~~~~~~~~~ to be continue~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

today we had a gathering at mc d.. and the above are photo taken during the gathering...

瑄:卸下美丽的外壳
透明的我们还剩下什么
爱情就像水晶球
坚固而脆弱

格:一个人也需自由
两个人而感动大过天空
喜怒哀乐统统拥有
不让你恨留

baby I Still Believe
我也可以走过峦流
紧紧握住双手
一秒就够 不孤单寂寞

baby I Still Believe
爱要有梦才会快乐
就算未来的路不同
你在我心中
到永久。。


卸下美丽的外壳
透明的我们还剩下什么
爱情就像水晶球
坚固而脆弱

一个人也需自由
两个人而感动大过天空
喜怒哀乐统统拥有
不让你恨留

合:baby I Still Believe
爱也可以走过挽留
轻轻握住双手
一秒就够 不孤单寂寞

baby I Still Believe
爱要有梦才会快乐
就算未来的路不同
你在我心中到永久

感觉很闷时候
我抱你在我胸口
当你泪留的时候

合:我在这里补痛 NO
瑄:爱散发的温柔
在此刻用心感受
我想和你一起让幸福转动

合:baby I Still Believe
爱也可以走过峦流
紧紧握住双手
一秒就够 不孤单寂寞

baby I Still Believe
爱要有梦才快乐
就算未来的路不同
你和我到永久

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my colleague say this song is nice.. so i went to get it...
erm...sounds okay to me :)

我曾深刻体会 对爱感到胆怯
还好有懂我的你 给我安慰

看你失落的脸 又再为爱憔悴
我心痛的感觉竟如此的强烈

眼角的泪 它给过谁
伤透了心 也无所谓
我会愿意 静静地
陪在你身边

如果说爱 已不可为
那我宁愿 藏心里面
其实我害怕会失去你的感觉

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
又深怕朋友默契转身不见
矛盾着犹豫不决
没准备 跨越爱的界线

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
进与退 被爱包围
谁犯规 都狼狈
谁能解围 让一切完美

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
你和我 拥抱瞬间
不后悔 这暧昧
星光唯美 把爱放心里面

Joe was not a very romantic person, and furthermore he was rather stupid. But he wanted to impress his wife, so he took her out for an anniversary dinner and watched the couples around them, following their leads.

He observed the couple next to him. The man lifted a sugar shaker towards his wife's cup and said, "Sugar, sugar?" Joe thought this was great and continued to listen around the dining room.
Another table over Joe observed the following. A man spooned out some honey out of a bowl for his wife and asked, "Honey, honey?"
Again Joe thought this was good stuff.

Finally, he cut off a piece of his meat, stared longingly into his young wife's eyes and said, "Ham, pig?"

~~很棒的文章~~~(that's why my friend told me)

一日，與德國回來的朋友索華在外灘茶座小聚，很自然聊起有關女人的話題，她很感慨地對我說：『國內做女人成本太高。』

國內有些媒體總在報導怎麼樣才更有魅力？要三圍，要穿漂亮的衣裳，要做皮膚護理，講究化妝技巧；要怎麼樣修煉自己怎麼樣拴住男人的心，抓心還要抓胃……這樣做女人豈不是成本太高呢？最後修煉得面目全非，與真實的自己背道而馳。

索華說：『在國外對魅力的理解很大程度上就是有發自內心的微笑。』你走在街上迎面走來一個女人，她絕對不會板著臉，而會主動向你微笑示意，這微笑是發自內心的。

在國外，講究自然，與大自然親近，女人們喜歡栽花種草喝茶做女紅，這些被中國女人早就摒棄的東西，對她們來說卻是樂此不疲，因為有動手的樂趣;曬太陽，把自己曬成古銅色，誰最健康誰就最美麗，而不是比誰的皮膚最白。

索華給我講了她在德國朋友圈裏的一次小聚會，大家總是把自己在家裏烘焙好的點心，帶到其中一個朋友的後花園裏，大家坐在草地上曬太陽聊天，就覺得很好了。幾乎是沒有成本的，收穫的卻是滿滿的快樂。她們利用的都是大自然所賦予的東西，陽光、綠色和勞動。

午後的陽光照下來，索華喝了一口茶，提到了低成本做女人，一個女人在這個世界中越是發自內心地生活，她的附加成本就越低。她就不會為別人過多地改變自己。這裏最關鍵的是有底氣(核心競爭力)。索華的話讓我沉思良久。

我認識一個女孩，每月化妝品上千元，每次不化妝不出門，為了減肥，每次只吃一小碗飯；另一個朋友，因為嫌自己胸部太平，不能讓先生滿意，花了上萬元偷偷去做了隆胸，結果手術不成功苦不堪言，面目憔悴。

我記得我看到她時，內心湧起的是一種無限的悲哀，一個女人怎麼樣才能做回自己呢？那就是有自由的眼神和心靈，不用受別人的控制。

跟索華提起，她輕歎了一口氣，她說：『她認識的一些國外的朋友好像沒有這種不自信，不管身材好不好，她們都敢穿不帶海綿的胸衣，因為身體是自己的，自己喜歡就行了啊！』

索華接著往下說：『好像她們什麼年齡就做什麼年齡的事，不著急也不落後,從從容容，該生孩子就生孩子，很少有女人為了工作不想要小孩的。』

索華的話讓我想起身邊很多女人都在忙工作，一幫職場女白領，絕對精英人物。曾見過一位事業很成功的女人，別人都很羨莫，她卻歎了一口氣說：『我現在很後悔，該戀愛的時候沒戀愛，我的青春流逝了；該結婚時沒結婚,等再想結婚時，卻找不到合適的，只能降低條件；該要孩子的時候沒要孩子，等到想要的時候，別人的孩子已大了，我怎麼也感覺跟不上趟了。』

每個年齡都有那個年齡該做的事。不然，你的成本就太高了，代價太大了，只是不知你承不承受得起呢？

我對索華說：『妳就是低成本做女人的典範。』她不漂亮，卻極有味道

一個女人是有磁場的，這種磁場來源於她自由的內心。索華從不化妝，更談不上整形，她說一番整潔就好了，微笑是她最好的化妝品。她懂得以內養外，大量吃水果青菜，便宜簡單清清淡淡，卻是極養顏的；她關注
生命，談環保，衣服只穿純棉和麻，不貴卻都極有特點，鞋子只穿低跟，因為舒適美觀，雖然她個子不高；長長的直髮，留了很多年，不染不燙也不做造型，打理頭髮幾乎不花錢，只用一把好梳子就可以了；她從不上健身房，不追逐時尚，因為她始終堅持內心的方向，她每天堅持步行，曬曬太陽走走路就是極好的鍛煉了，不用任何成本並且環保。

她說：『外貌實際上是一個女人的夕陽產業，投資越大，收益是越小。』

26歲時，索華放棄了一份升遷的工作從容地要了孩子，她的身體恢復得很快，如今36歲，孩子也大了；她也從不討好她的老公，從不學什麼馴夫技巧，絕對地放養，老公卻很愛她，總誇她是個有特點的女人，不流俗。

她說：『好女人是創造氛圍的，她喜歡看書，誰規定主婦一定要填飽老公的胃呢？』

她赤足坐在客廳的地上看書，也帶動孩子，還要放上舒緩優美的鄉村音樂，一家人的氣氛就這麼形成了，沒費吹灰之力，孩子也形成了愛看書的習慣；她喜歡大自然，就帶上老公孩子一起玩。

她這個主婦當得雲淡風輕

當我向她訴苦說女人帶孩子太累時，她笑笑說：『讓孩子圍著你轉啊！女人是可以製造氛圍的。』她是家中的一個磁場，不改變自己，不取悅別人，卻照樣很滋潤，並且一家人生活極有質量。這是跟物質無關的，一個心靈自由的女人才能把家庭的生活拓展開來。跟索華分手後，我還在想索華說的低成本做女人，真是妙極！

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don't really understand what is it in relation to but just keep it here,
and read it again in the future maybe i'll have a different comment.

别欺骗自己有多么好
别埋怨我对你有不够好
oh baby!我就是你的罗密欧
我会永远守候你直到最后

别看着神话故事发呆
别幻想自己就是祝英台
oh baby!你就是我的朱丽叶
快跳进这美好的花花世界

so baby!跳跃起来大步走向未来
世界多么精彩
看看这时代

失手再来机会还在
别让这一点点的伤口介怀

因为有爱



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not feeling so great this few days.. but
realised that i feel better when i listen to this song..
like the show...
three gals and a bed..
and like the actor with the name 'heman' in the show.
typical leng zai...
and i think this song just suit the show...

and heard it again in the ATQ and it makes me wanna search for the song..:)
hope i get it and make it a song i will listen for this few weeks :)

i do not understand how poeple get in and out of the relationship so fast.
serious about relationship?

seems that she had been hurt too many times.
just wanna wish her luck lo...:)

notice that i need to give up a lot of things in order to tidy up my things.
realised how much money that i had spend in the past.
wonder whether i'm really willing to give all of it up.

wonder whether i should give up or not
not to keep any rubbish at home.
my house would definately clean clean.
throw away all the memories.
throw away and not to regret and
just assumed that the robber came and rob away all my sweet sweet memory or i just have a shocked and i just lost all the things i treasure for all this time.

wondering what i should treasure.
you? i wonder i even have any feelings towards you.
and now you are saying you gonna live m'sia.
why? because the world out there is better?

why i'm not sad when you tell me you were leaving?
we were buddy or just friends?
i guess the answer is yes and no..
yes we were buddy.. previously.
friends for the moment.

hope i can treasure it for the moment.
but i found it difficult since our heart is so distance and so far apart.
don't know what topic is common among us and what should i say to break the ice between you and me which it seems that we are once such closed friend.
and i hate myself for doing all the stuff.

yesterday my parents when to PD because a friend of theirs pass away.

Today, when i open my eyes....
i got the news that my teacher pass away.
she was a teacher, a friend and a mentor for me.

and she fell sick this year and i hadn't have a chance to see her.
i've contributed too much of my time on my work.
and sometimes i think i have ignored the people and things around me.
actually i feel sad and bad cos i haven had a good chance to speak to her since my graduation.
no chance to introduce my bf to her.

just feel very very awful now..
just do not know hot to express myself.

after finishing secondary...
then you go to college...
during college time or working time you starting to get know of some great people of your opposite sex.
and when you finished you college you get your diploma, degree or even professional qualification.
then you move on to annother stage of your life.
working...
you go for rounds and rounds of interview, answering the similar question.
finally you get your dream job..
which give you good pay.
on the other hand you have presure an challenge in handling every task you face everyday.
then when you feel everything is okay.. you might think of settle down.

for me...
i think i can settle down now..
however i just feel that i'm not ready for it.
i'm just comfortable with what i have now.
without thinking what i'm looking forward to.

have not been updating my blog for a very very long time.
just simply because i'm busy.

sometimes wonder whether it is worth it for all those hard work that i've done.
and to take up all those presure.
boss questioning why you did not do this and that.
what is the status of doing this and that.

and you have to settle the things you spend four months time to do it and now you have to spend one and a half months to finished it just simply because you need to let your client have sufficient time to review it and with the hope that there are no complains from the client.

i think the most important thing is you need to know what to do first and when you should do the thing fast.

i think that should be the way of doing things.

my boss always complain that i'm doing things very slowly.
however i think my speed is okay.
and my bf say i'm pempering my boss too much just by fufilling what she want.

all this month i'm trying my best to look for my balance.
how not to over worked myself.
how to live up to people's expectation.
try not to give empty promises.

a bit stress off...
but i think avoiding is not a good action...
and it's time for me to face the music.

work hard and work the something out.
after the break have to show that i'm able to perform
have to show that i'm better than before.
have to show i'm better than everyone else.

how to prove it?
work my axx out?
have to work at home eventough it's after work?
admit that i'm a bit lazy than before and have to try and boost myself up.
and wannt learn more and more in the future.

i do see my vision
and i do think that just talking doesnt make us any good.
just questioning what is correct and wrong is not enough.
just wasting a lot of time to discuss and questioning what you suppose to do and you never do it.
and also.
just wanna get myself on the move and...
hehe... will become the most efficient staff lo ;)

作词：李焯雄/陶吉吉 作曲：陶吉吉
碎石子路长青苔 指针把时间再扫开
马戏团走了但小丑还在 这舞台
黑马车没停下来 消失前你回过头来
多少人到现在还不明白 还等待
一直走一直走 一直不停的走 该选哪个路口
一瞬间一瞬间 可能这个瞬间 那命运就会改变

OLIA 请不要走 是否我做的还是不够
OLIA 请不要走 为什么永久不会永久 不停留

钟声把夕阳晕开 十八岁又换了一代
机会是否划一次的火柴 不重来
一直走一直走 一直不停的走 能不能再重头
一辈子一辈子 就算用一辈子 也没有办法挽回

OLIA 请不要走 是否我让你等得太久
OLIA 你早巳走 为什么失去才想保有 不放手

不放手 不放手
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just got the new album of david tao from my bf and got it loaded in my pc. i think it would be annother of my favourite album.. and today i wanna share this song..
sound very very nice and relaxing :)

found this interesting story on my e-mail then wanna share it here

兩只蒼蠅

有一位朋友分享了一個有關兩只蒼蠅的故事。這個故事是這樣的……

古時候有個商人到遠方做買賣，用兩匹馬來拉貨物 c當去到了一個斜坡時，兩匹馬拉得很辛苦。

於是，就有兩只蒼蠅飛來了。

蒼蠅A說： "喂！那兩匹馬那麼辛苦，我們去幫幫它們吧！ "

然後，兩只蒼蠅便飛到那兩匹馬的耳朵旁、鼻子前，嗡嗡嗡嗡……

那兩匹馬因拉車辛苦，加之又有煩人的蒼蠅在飛來飛去，感到非常難受。最後，那兩匹馬終於爬上斜坡，這松了一口氣。

這時，兩只蒼蠅也松了一口氣的說：" 啊！你看，我們幫了他們忙，我們也辛苦了。"

其實，那兩匹馬就是形容我們這些任勞任怨的員工。而那兩只蒼蠅，就是我們的上司。

當我們已經忙到很痛苦的時候，我們的上司只會在我們身邊吵吵鬧鬧，不但沒減輕我們的負擔，反而嚴重影響我們工作的進度。最可惡的是，他們還會以為自己貢獻很多

I think it's true that sometimes the boss doesn't care how you do it.. they just want you to get the things done.
yeah they will always ask you to rush the things out.

sometimes it's a sad sad thing for me cos my client is leaving.
and some are leaving the company without informing us.
some they wanna have a change of environment.
for me, I'm just not confortable with the people in my group knowing what's my relationship with the client.
I do not like to use the relationship as a tool to achieve what I want but I just want to proof that I'm capable of handling the job myself and I'm able to make the decision of my own.

Maybe my client feel it's not so important to inform everyone that he/she is leaving, and the choice of leaving the company is up to them. It doesn't involve anyone else, however I do feel that it's a curtesy that you inform other people you are leaving so that they know how else they should contact with since you are leaving.

I feel that it's not responsible to say that the thing is not urgent and you would not like to attend to it now and the new comer would be able to attend to it.
I do feel a bit upset with the mentality of those poeple.

Having to handle this situation since early of this year starting with A company, I think I've gotten used to being able to handle it because people have their own choice in the life and they can choose their life path. and what we can do it's just say all the best.

I do think I'm a bit upset by things this few days and i think i should have a rest by now.
Take a break and let things go smooth.

erm.. my client suddenly e-mail us to inform us that they wanna pay us a courtesy visit.
and the date he choosed is the date right after our filing deadline.

and I have not inform him that the client that my boss actually resuffle the portfolio and I'm no longer in charge of the accounts.

I think one of the biggest weekness of me is not being able to say no to my client.
and I think when everyone say okay.. then you have to learn how to say okay as well rite?

today it seems like a very very messy day for me..
it's like a war.
yeah the filing deadline is nearer and nearer.
and we have to take up all the ad-hoc job and starting to teach the junior to do things.

wonder what will happened.
everyone is long for a long long break.
everything should be ending
hoping it will end soon.
and the begining will come real soon as well.

continue regarding my post for the resign virus.

my client resigned from their company. most of the staff resigned because they cannot 'tahan' the boss and also maybe because they want to change to a better working environment.

and annother client who replace the staff temporary, have to go back to thier own /old position.
and i have client who always ask me to go to thier place and they would 'belanja' me

feel abit sad la...
maybe this is the season of staff turn around.
and the company have to pass the season and look for better staff and go trough the hardship for the moment.

sometimes it's a bit difficult to deal with new staff
because they are alien to you.
but if you are friendly to them and give your full co-operation to them
they would give you the same assistant.

earlier this week,
my senior tender.. then followed by my junior

my senior just joined us for about three month and my junior joined us for about three weeks.

strees is a bad virus and it result to other poeple wanted to resign from their current post.
sometimes other poeple have very lame excuse saying they like the job but cannot cope with the presure.
and sometimes i wonder isn't their choice in the first place to join the company to get more exposure and face more challenge ma...
then now why they wanna give up.

i really cannot understand.
but i do strongly believe that poeple have their own choice in live and nobody can influence one's decision.

i know my senior is very adenment to leave us
i just feel a bit kasian since we have a very very strong team for this round filling and things went better than expected.

as for my junior and she is just fresh and just join the new working world apart from studying and studying previously.
i do think that it should be a bit weird for me to conclude that since she like tax so much she should not just leave the job and ...
and my boss think that it is not a responsible act.

everyone in the office is stressed off except me?

why because their cases are bigger than mine
because i have the sense of urgency?
but i know the way i do my tax computation sucks.
and i produce the tax computation in a very not timely manner.

everyone is soooooooooooooooooooooooo stress off.
i need to take care of everyone's feeling.
cannot be joking all the way.

i do hope things are running well.
i know you want to bomb your boss with good results.
but sometimes things cannot be rushed.

sometimes i just feel that it's not right to rush things out in all of the sudden lo...
sometimes i wonder what's my purpose of leaving such a stressful life.
others they can enjoy things around them.
while me keep being complaint
you should not be on the phone with the client for such a long time.

i found the solution not to talk on the phone with the client for very long time.
that is to e-mail client.

sometimes i think client need your immediate attention and what you should do is not just ignore what they want.
i know sometimes we have to 'berdikari'
however most of the time i think the importance of 'tolong-menolong' should be made know among each other.

a little stress of...
a little piss off...

wonder why treating other poeple nice and they would not appreciate it.

consider my action recently a bit too over.
consider myself a bit out of control
consider myself a bit too stress off.

what to do?
working for about 18 hours a day.
and what you get in return is your boss telling you,
why this and that not done?

why you so slow?
altough i told you give me by this date...
but you can give it to me earlier if possible.

what do you know your requirement are a bit just too out of the world?
do you know it's just a bit too much?

I tell myself my motivation to work is holiday.
I don't care after working for this filing I would like to go on holiday.

that is my purpose.
why? do you think that the relationship between group member should not be good?
talking among group member is prohibited?

talking with client also prohibited?
relationship with client have to be built up.
knowing the politic in the client's company
knowing how things runs in the client's company.

admit that i might not be handling things as good as you are able to.
but i'm learning to handle it.
wonder why you say cannot talk to the financial controller while the financial controller is the person who can give me all the information i needed to complete my assignment.

no joking during work...
i think you are just a little bit stress off and
a little bit pissed off...

i think you need a break!!!!!!

about three to four months ago, i was talking about taking exam in my company...
now after months and months of waiting, the results are finally out.

erm... i got the best result among those who are taking the exam.
yeah... i scored 82 average for the basic tax examination held in my company.
top scorrer... yeah!!!

but i think i was under presured since my ATM was previously one of the top scorrer during her time as a junior.
and my STM also 'inform' me that i should perform very well in my exam cos the staff under her never fail to perform well in the company's internal tax examination.

wow.. dispite all the presure.. i think i did not did very well, in the sense that i should continuously update myself with the tax knowledge.
and should be able to answer the client's question since it's a tax consultant's responsibility to be able to answer to their question.
erm... hoping for a better future la...

half of year 2006 has finished.
and there is annother half to go before the year end.

and now i guess should be my half-yearly review for this year.
nothing much had been done.
and i started to feel i'm slowing down.

now i wanted to gain some momentum when i work.
and want to try to grab as many as possible from my client and my senior.

now i start to learn tax again.
try to look at the acca past year question.
wonder whether i could be able to teach tax in the near future.
wanted to gain the momentum.
wanted to have the sharp sense... in terms of tax and when being questioned by client i would be able to answer their question.

the following are my plan to be executed during the year:-

1) improve my tax knowledge
2) to be able to drive to work by end of this year
3) to reduce weight by end of the year
4) to really tidy up my room and give it a brand new feel by the end of the year.
5) to have a week's holiday in Malaysia and relax myself
6) to keep in touch with poeple - friends from secondary, college and etc
7) to concern about my family member more
8) to get a double promotion next year
9) to pempered myself nicely!!!!!!
10) of course keep on blogging!!!!

sometimes i'm wonder why people are so afraid to deal with higher level management.

sometimes we deal with poeple like the company's accountant and sometimes just the accounts staff.

sometimes we would just prefer to deal with poeple who do not have autority and just following order.

but i do think that we need to deal with those poeple who have more authority, like financial controller or group accountant?

they are the poeple overseeing the company's financial position and they should be the poeple who are in a better position to comment about what i required from them?

sometimes i wonder why i so not taking care of myself.
and wonder why i did not give 100% of my life.

wonder what is good and what is not in my life.
wonder what should be my next step.

life is boring.
after you finished your studies..
get a good job...
after getting a good job...
started to think of get a car a house...
and at the same time getting a suitable partner...
and years after that...
you settle down and you get married...
and you have kids...

it sound so damn boring to me..
cant life be a bit more intersting?
even you can have a break form anything you want to runaway...
you have to come back to the realty of life.
that's you need to worry about money, your career, your parents, your family, your friends...

wonder whether there is anything exciting in my life that is going to happen real soon...
i'm not 18 or 22 anymore...
have to start to plan what i want i my life and
plan to settle down...(maybe i do not want to settle down?)

Sometimes i wonder why my boss complain me,
saying that I talk a lot and this made my work very slack.

and i answer her very c2pidly? i suppose...
haha why? cos i told her last time there is nobody to talk with.
yeah that's the fact.
actually i feel that i'm a very outgoing and talkative person..
and i know who to mix with and who not to mix with la..

know the limit.
learning how to speak well with other poeple.

Comparing an apple with an apple and an orange with an orange.

I wonder why people in this world always like to compare.
and thier comparison is not based on a fair basis.

why our group's people go back so late?
why we need to work so hard.

I enjoy the satisfaction of being able to finished the job earlier.
I think that's not fair to say that we stay back late is because we are not efficient.

I'm a little bit hurt leh..
huh ;O

I'm sorry I don't know who this number belongs to...
I'm sorry I don't know i don't have your number.

'bai tuo' I'm using the number for more than 5 years d.
and yet you are telling me you do not have my number...???

I guess I know what's the reason of not getting your birthday wish this year.
first of all... you forgot...
and secondly.. you don't have my number..
what a fake and lame excuse...

but anyway, what is pass is pass...
i think i would be looking forward for things such as...
who is treating me better rather than..
looking backwards for something which does not belongs to me.

yeah people like to compare.
yeah they always do.
but when there is not a valid reason for the complain.
and there is not worthwhile to make a complain.

have not really updated my blog recently.
have not really write about what i see and what i feel recently.

i do not know whether i'm really stressed out or my performance just going down.
i really need a break from what i'm doing now.
maybe a short break will do.
a nice and short one.

i wonder whether my boss would approve my leave.
verbally she say yes because i had been working very very hard

actually the reason behind myself working very hard is not because i'm really that hard working
actually is just because i hate to get compared with other poeple.
and it's very irritating that you got compared with someone else.
apple should be compared against apple and not orange.

sometimes i feel so unfair that you compare an apple with an orange.
but i still do not know how to express my dissatisfaction.

Day 1 after moving into the new office. I've yet to tidy all the files and stuffs... and I would post somemore new picture regarding my new office in the future... my new work station does not look like this now... it's even messier and I've put up a big planner targeting what should i do within this few months.

my old office place.. it's consider not as messy as before since i've moved most of the things to the new office place by the time i took this picture.

I did something crazy / I feel that it's very crazy this few days.
what did I do?

I stay up until 3.30 in the morning to finish a provisional tax computation for a company but I have yet to finish it and yesterday I stayed in the office until 11 at nite just to finish everything for my boss to review.

I was very presured this two weeks.
why?

Because my boss complaining my speed is very slow.
and I've let my client down.
I feel very bad because trough out the year I had already built up a good repo with the client from a very very not treating you very nice because you are very new to very close to you because they need your immediate attention to answer their question.
Because of client's trust I've been given the opportunity to handle all the special cases.
So i think it's a moving factor for the to stress myself further to achieve my dreams in the future.

Therefore I decided to challenge myself to my extreme.
I've been sleeping for less than 7 hours for the pass 36 hours.

But thank God it's a Public holiday in Malaysia today.
But I just feel weird that i wake up at about 6.15 which is about the time that I wake up for work.

Actually there is free vegetarian buffet near my house cos today is Wesak day.
I hope later I can eat a lot.

yesterday i had an outing with chin ann and soo wei.
we were very punctual and no ffk and stuff.
i like this feeling.
simple and no need to worry that your friend would ffk.
i like poeple who kept their promised and keep their words.

chin ann brought along strawberries which he bought from cameron from his previous outing.
and unexpectedly we finished all the strawberries as and when we were chatting.
since i'm not those type of gals who favour strawberries.

and we stay in the purple cane tea house and chat for more than 3 hours
and the tea was boiled until it taste like water.
and to my suprise that day there is not much poeple hanging around at the tea house.
probably it was a public holiday and most of the student are not to school and nobody is hanging around lo..

feel it is a nice nice outing.
and i have remembered that i have not seen soo wei for about more than 8 months.
remembering the last time we met, i was called by deloitte for to work.
and now soo wei also got her own job.

last saturday we are suppose to meet each other and have dinner together.
why? to celebrate my b'day that everyone missed out.

and here to story goes.
jean was busy since she have to work OT to rush for the company's closing.
and sam was having OT as well so he could not be able to join us.
and liew and chee seong was having classes for their acca paper.

i think that was fine.. and the outing jus left me, joo, hui ling and siew heoh.
and mana tahu this siew heoh last minute call for a cancel.
and we have to cancel everything.

for me i think it's difficult to gather everyone together at the same time since they have thier own thing to settle.
but i think not going to join because everyone is not coming is sort of rude.
more over you are the one suggesting the outing.
this would make those who already arranged for the outing very frustrated.
yes you can take any reason to reject someone's offer to go out with you,
but i think it's definately very very rude to cancel an appointment at the very very last minute since the person you dated might have purposely cancelled all thier plan just to accomodate the plan to spend some time together with you.

i think sometimes we have to act reasonable and considerate.
the world is run by you.
and there is many many other poeple around us.
we have to take care of their feelings as well as considering our own benefits.

listening to faye wong's song inside the office.
i think it's a very enjoyable things since i sort of like faye wong.

and sometimes listening to faye wong song reminds me of her.
it's very sad for me since she had already forget to wish me happy b'day for two consecutive years.
why? why? why?
what's the reason behind.

it makes me very very sad.
because my primary schoolmate sms me since she remember my b'day.
and it has been like 12 years we have not seen each other.

i'm still very sad.
dispite of being FFK by friends for last saturday outing.
i'm still hoping that i would be able to meet her in the street some time some day.
i would like to wish her happy and nothing than that.

i do hope to get her wishes in the future.

erm... maybe what i can do to make her remember my b'day is to take the initiative to invite her for my b'day party which i plan to held next year?
i wonder... and i'm planning for it.

sometimes i wonder there are some client who are very stingy in fees but very prompt in payment.
there are some client who are very stingy in fees and very late in their payment.

i've just completed an assignment for two expatriate and they already left Malaysia.
i was so 'pai seh' when i have to hand over the bill to the client.
because to me our firm's fees is quite high and we just bill them to the max for everything we had done for them.

i have gone trough a lot of hardship in preparing the tax return for the individual.
and i do learn a lot and exposed a lot.
and learn not to give empty promises to the client.
and learn to keep all that you have promised.

eventough i feel that our fees is very expensive,
they still make prompt payment within one week without given any discount and the need of chasing them for the bill.
i feel it's a good bargain to do business with japanese.
and they are those poeple who are very prompt with thier promises.

and i just feel that i learn a lot from them.
polite and keep to your promises.

The 'leng lui' in our group
from left ~ Mei Won, Tee Chong, Su-Li, Sin Jol


My senior, Ms Teoh Sin Jol


My Junior, Ms Lee Su-Li temporary borrowed from annother group 

today i received an suprise sms from my lecture~Ms Geh.
happy belated b'day...
wow god.. she remember that it was my b'day pass few days leh...
so cool man..
and so touched eventough it's late.

anyway the person i hope that she would be concern had not wish me happy b'day two years in a row.
why? maybe because i decided to give up of our friendship long long time ago.
or maybe she is too busy to handle the 'bees' around her to the extend that she already forget my b'day lo.

got annother sms from my friend during primary school.
she did remember my b'day.
this year i feel touched since many people remembered my b'day eventought some of the b'day wishes are late.

i'm planning to maybe throw myself a b'day party next year since in 31/3/2006 it would be on a Saturday.
if there is no accident, I would really held it, since it's my b'day and i'm coming out to work and earn money i would be financially sound to throw myself a b'day party to pay back for the regret that i did not organised a b'day party for myself on my 21st b'day.

at the mean time, i do hope that i could get some feed back on how should i organised the party or you just informing me that you are interested to attend my b'day party in one years time?