tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

there is this electric blackout today in most of the area in kl.

the exam in college have to be postpone for half an hour because there is students who are trap in the lrt.

i wonder what happened?
if i'm taking the exam.. i'll sure start to panic since exam should be very very important for me.
should be very very frustrated for me lo...

吉隆坡13日讯-由于在雪兰莪州巴生加埔国能发电站的其中3台发电机发生故障，导致中南马地区今日中午12时许发生大停电事件，历时大约两句钟。受大停电影响的地区包括雪兰莪和吉隆坡一部分地区，而南马区的电流供应几乎全面中断，包括森美兰、马六甲和柔佛。

吉隆坡、八打灵再也和新山等各主要城市在发生大停电后，市内交通情况顿时一片混乱，需劳动交警全面出动维持秩序。

快铁火车中止服务
吉隆坡消拯局在大停电后曾接获投报，指有人受困在市内一些政府和私人界办公大厦的电梯内。
市内靠电流运作的轻快铁和电动火车服务也因为电流中断而中止服务，一些搭客甚至因为轻快铁半途停车而受困在内。
在吉隆坡国际机场方面，停电事件并没有影响机场的操作和航班的飞行，因为机场拥有备用的电供系统应付停电事件。不过，往返吉隆坡和机场之间的机场直透快铁（ERL）服务却受影响。
国能副总执行长兼副主席拿督阿都哈迪在发生停电事件后于今日下午在吉隆坡召开的新闻发布会上说，加埔国能发电站的发电机于12时16分发生跳闸现象（tripping），而导致中南马多个地区的电流输送站受到牵连，电供中断。
他说，雪隆受影响的地区主要是蕉赖老街场（Pudu Ulu）、吉隆坡东区、沙登、孟沙、白沙罗、淡江、布城、八打灵再也和莎亚南等。
阿都哈迪指出，为避免有关发电站的故障影响全国的电流供应，国能决定让南马区的发电站自动跳闸。所以在这种情况下，南马一带地区的电压剧降，造成电流供应受到严重影响。

国能失千兆瓦电流
他指出，这一回的发电站故障导致国能流失1千700兆瓦的电流供应，这味着南马的电流供应几乎全面中断。
全国的电流供应网分4个地区操作，即北马区、南马区、东海岸区和东马区。阿都哈迪说，庆幸的是，目前只是南马区的供应网受影响，其他3个电流供应网完全未受波及。
另一方面，在阿都哈迪举行新闻布会的途中，掌管能源事务的能源、水务及通讯部长拿督斯里林敬益医生从马六甲致电向前者了解大停电事件的最新发展。
针对传言，指这次大停电事件是因为国能员工对公司付给的花红数额感到不满而作出破坏，他加以驳斥，指为无稽之谈。
阿都哈迪在历时约5分钟的新闻发布会过后，便赶到国能总部大厦7楼，负责协调工作。

have no time to update my blog.
i'm very very busy this few days.
wanna sleep also not that free...
still a lot of things to do...
commited to do things.. just want myself to be effective and happy.

today was very very tiring..
wonder how m i gonna survive this week.. how can i do it...
wonder...
cannot say anything more...
wanna go to bed d.
just wanna tell myself take care. and if you think you can do it.
go ahead to work your 101% to achieve your dreams.

电脑里头一直重复着同一首歌。
是李心洁的恋。
她的专辑中，最喜欢的就是这首歌了。

为自己爱的人而变得更美丽是件非常幸福的事情。
感觉上自己并没有因为谈恋爱了，而变得更美丽。
感觉和他之间的爱恋，就好象变成呼吸一样的自然。
当他的大小孩。让他一直疼爱着。

喜欢恋爱的感觉,喜欢被照顾的感觉。
拥有疼爱着自己的人是世界上最幸福的事情了。

today having class agian.. in kl..
a lot of things to do but hav not finished yet.
i wanna do a lot a lot of things leh...
sometimes i think it is really really important for me to know what i wanna do and to complete it within the specificed time required.
erm.. looking forward for a new lee hom calender leh!!!

went to kl today bought lee hom's new album. dunno whether reli nice or not.. but i just wanna get the album.
i was disappointed since there is no free poster from popular. erm... i tought there will be free poster for me.

then wanna go to my favourite vegetarian shop to have something and just discover that the shop had closed down/moved. annother disappointment for me today.

then the mood just become so moody and disappointed.
not much excitment happened today..
life seems to be dull..
anyway hopping for better 2moro.

恋
作词：李心洁　作曲：光良　编曲：梁伯君

不愿承认　不愿面对　我真的爱你很深很深
一个笑容　一句话语　都让我心跳　很快很快
每个思索　每个欲望　全被你佔据很满很满
无法平静　不想透露　因为爱你快乐　很久很久

情愿　醉死在梦里　当一切都变得无力
情愿　为你而美丽　当你呼唤我的名字
情愿　默默的隐藏　当它只是一个错误
情愿　很久的以后　当一切都被时间沖淡　我只会更爱你
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i like this song very very much like the lyrics and also the tune..
like the feeling of loving a person.

michael/guang liang's website
guang liang is going to issue his latest album by the end of jan.
those who like him and miss his song so much you can visit the above site and listen to his latest song.

when i came back to my bouse. and on my computer.. there was a big lizzard!!!!!
moving all over my room. here and there.. and i was scared.. and shouted.

my parents will always say i'm a dirty bug...
i know that i'm giving myself too much excuse to myself d... for not tidy up my room and make my things in a mess.
this is annother thing which i should improve in this year.

Miss Chin is my advance corporate reporting paper 3.6 lecture.
she is a very very systematic lecture but her notes are quite messy sometimes.
since i'm the printing manager. i have to deal with her most of the time.

she is really really special in the sense that she will 'tegur' us when we did something not correct, wrong or something which she thinks is not correct.

today she went into the lecture hall early. she said that she got nothing to do in her office so she decided to come early to check and see whether we are late.
yes. we are always late for lectures and tutorial. miss chin was saying that she will start her lecture at 8.00 sharp. but i think she did start later today. and i was joking with her that my clock was already 8.00am already,and we should start now. but the dk was like only having 30% of the students coming in to the class.i would like to put my watch five minutes earlier where this would definately make a difference in everything that we do. sometimes it seems that we tend to be late in most of the things we do in our life.

i do think that her lecture and tutorial are tension enough, but just that if we are commited enough, we should be able to complete what we wanna achieve within the required time.

just read the chinese news paper which it covers a interview with lina teoh. she could be considered as on of my role model.
she talks about beauty with a purpose i think it is quiet correct in the sense that we should live ourlife beautifully and make it with purpose.

sometimes i think if a person's appearance is beautiful but the heart is the opposite.. it defeats the purpose of a person being beautiful.

i do think beauty comes very much from the innerside and not much form the outher side.

just feel guity and presured that i did not study well for this few weeks
i did not read before i go to the lecture and did not prepare well for my tutorial.
just really really guity about that.
so.. now i'll tell myself to do something about it.
i will see what is the results within one week.
i do really hope that i could fixed things.
and make myself well organised.
i'm still very very messy.

tired?
okie lo... but sometimes when i comes to studying...
i want myself to put 100%
commitment to me is very very important since it will ensure my success.
sometimes i do think going outside tuition do give me a better exposure of my future.
love to stay outside and explore to new things.
life is getting fun but tiring..;)

the sky just rain the air is wet and wet...
raining.. tonight will be a very very cold night...
should be a very could night....
and my mom washed my nice nice blanket...
dun hav nice nice blanket...
dunno can sleep well d or not wor...

a lot of ppl are getting in to relationship now..
since it is the final semester of our course.
can see a lot of couple in our course d.
wonder what would it be like after our course finished.

sometimes having attention from the lecture is a bad thing or a good thing leh?
i like to have good relationship with the lecture...
so that when i need their help in my studies it would be much much more easier for me.
but when there is too many attention on you alone.. there would be a lot of presure on you.
you feel guity when you do not do the tutorial.
she say dun sleep also need to complete her tutorial.
i wonder. i know i really felt guilty d...
but today lecture's she was so nice.. when we did not prepare for the presentation she did not even angry.
they say it is mayb b'cos i'm in the class...
dunno.. she say got annother class that did not prepare for the presentation and she just skip the question.
i just feel very very thankful.
thanks miss chin for being so nice to me and my class..:p
erm... tiring this few days... wanna sleep early today...

now is about 6.40 in the morning.
yesterday was a very very busy day.
now have not much time to spend with my bf and thing have to be done is study and study and study.
coursework and tutorial will fill my life. so basically i have no really life.
to me. i would like to give myself a challenge.
use this opportunity for myself to learn to kept myself organised and well maintained.
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today wake up, and my leg was cramp.
this is how i woke up for the past week and today.
the pain is terrible is like you cannot walk anymore.
tat day was the left leg and today is the right one.
all the muscle are stick together and just feel that the muscle cannot breath.
very very painful. but still need to tahan...
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yesterday was the firstday of my tuition class.
daniel ho.. the lecture is still okie.. but he like to walk here and there looking at him i think i will get a bit pengsan.
most of the people there are working people since the class is an evening class.
erm..
sitting in the lrt makes me think a lot.
seeing a malay speaking cantonese
and see a gal talking very assonance english.
i just wonder what it would be like when i go out of work,
anything it was just mere dream.
so now i have to go for bath and prepare myself for 8am class.
ooo.. yet annother great day ahead.

虽然你脾气坏 对待朋友又差 凸槌又更爱牵拖
佳在你遇到我 不爱计较的我 算你坏人有好命

我走路你坐车 你吃饭我洗碗 你被欺负我拼命
若为了爽到你 可以艰苦到我 因为 咱缘分不可散

有你 我才未孤单 有你的陪伴 我才有靠山
你若不爽 我是你的垃圾车 每天 听你的心声

有你 我才未孤单 有你的陪伴 我才有靠山
你若欢喜 我是你的垃圾车 每天 听你唱歌

爱情有影伤肝 想到我就会惊 亲像热天洗温泉
头晕目暗的我 爱到整身躯汗 我 欢喜又搁甘愿 给你快活

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saw this song on my friend ah bee punya blog. she say it is taking about friendship.
so i decided to go and download it and listen.
it is a hokkien song..
eventough that i'm a hokkien i also dunno a rubbish truck.. is call ' bun so qia' because i always call it 'sap sui qia'
sometimes i do think that we have to be somebody's rubbish truck sometimes in life.
listening to their happy and unhappy event.
to me, i would rather keep things to myself.
even if you do not treat me well enough. but i would rather i know it myself in my heart than to tell the whole world.
i would rather my friend to be happy with me, and not feel a lot of trouble with me.
i'm learning to be a better person everyday.
getting myself to have better temper, not onli to outsider and also my family member where i've been taken them for granted for many many years.
be thankful to them. and show them i do really care for them and create some value for them.
then annother thing i wanna say is.. luckily that i got this friend call bee one..
she is like the one who understand me a lot. that when i'm not really happy i would like to tell her. and she would like understand that why and where the hell i'm doing such things.
thanks to everyone in my life...
because of you my life have become more clourful and more exciting...
thanks for being in my life.;)
love you all much..
thousand and million hugz...

today went to jaya jusco in metro prima, kepong with my parents.
and guess who i met.
my uncle and aunty and cousin dee.
hahaha.. it is really wierd that i saw them..and they are just living next to me and i seldom see them at all... weird enough rite?

erm.. take my parents to eat secret receipe.. as usual. i order cheese choc and also ice lemon tea.
my mom say i do not know how to enjoy cos ice lemon tea are meant for those who eat spicy food. but i like ice lemon tea with cheese cake. it is very enjoying.
they order marble cheese and baked cheese. it seems obvious that i would not choose those consider traditional cheese cake.
and my dad order expresso.. which a type of coffee which is very very bitter. and very very small cup...
and my mom ordered white coffee.
my dad was wanting the very very big cup of coffee so that it would satisfied him.
and it was really funny seeing that he had actually ordered a very very small cup of coffee and very very bitter one...
hahaha...
today is a nice day and i did something i've never did before. that is bringing my parents to eat high tea.;)
i'm satisfied...

i went to have a rest and i fell asleep with my comp on.
and when i wanted to offline.
saw my friend.. a bit weird one...
the guy told me tat he had been clubbing whole nite juz came back and online and he so surprise to see that i'm on also..
weird.. we were like questioning each other why the hell are we still online.
feeling that not completing my blog about thing that happened today is weird. so i decided to sit down and write about wat happen on the first day of the year before i went back to bed again.
so i'm very very tired now...
but the first day of the year was quiet good for myself.
and i get to eat my favourite bak kut teh.. which is very good for health and some say that it can help to loose weight.
erm.. this is a formula by my grandma. it is really really nice one.. but it cost RM6 where my uncle sell it at the night market. however it is one of the highest sales product.

today went to bukit bintang to hunt for new year clothes with my bf.
the day starts like this...
i would take the public transport from my house to bukit bintang, but since that today my dad is not working and he is at home and my mom decided to make him send me to the bus station and eventually he end up sending me to bukit bintang.
then he stop me in front of BB plaza.and i told him to send me to lot 10 there. then he say initially you ask me to send u to BB plaza one? erm...
i'm speachless...
he drop me down and i start walking by myself wondering where and how should i go.
and at that moment i saw lot 10. i was like thank god... luckly the big green building catch my eyes. erm... if not i'm losted...hahaha...

then i went to the giordano besides the mc donalds at bintang walk there. i decided to go to bukit bintang to hunt for my new year clothes because there is giordano sales and it was the last two days.30% is considered quiet okie to me.
but since i'm just hanging out alone, i would not like to go for shopping.
i would just rather hang around in Mc and order a cup of tea / coke which i did while waiting for my bf or hang around the book shop, pretend to be a book lover.. but no need to pretend la... i also love books very very much... the see that there is momoko's(tao zi) latest book.(little eyes) and i stay there to read for a few pages while waiting for my bf.sometimes this does satisfy me. herm.. somethings telling me that the sungei wang's popular looks kindda small d.. but mayb it is just my feelings onli.
then finally my bf came and we went to shop for clothes.

first stop:- Giordano (sungei wang)
bought 2 long sleeve polo one pure white and one bule stripe. cos me about 70 bucks. the white shirt is my bf who say is nice and ask me to buy. then when i come back. i just notice that it was a bit dirty.
i call my bf he say difficult for them to change a new one for me.
errrrrrrrrrr.... this is wat i hate when i buy white dress... everytime during fitting time.. it looks very very nice on me.. but when i come back.. i regreted... cos i'm very very careless and sometimes i dun seem to know how to take care of my clothes.

next stop:- googles
erm.. i always like to buy googles clothes suits very very nice on me.
however, there seems not to be anything that suits me today.
nothing... not even one that i think it is suit for me. and i did not even ask for fitting for any of the clothes which i've seen.

third stop:- comma
just do not know that sungei wang also got comma shop...
a lot of gals from college likes to shop at comma cos the clothes are affordable. but it would be a very very high chance of two people wearing the same clothes at the same time.
i would like to buy clothes from comma also. unfortunately most of their clothes are design for those who are a bit skinny one (airport??).. and i'm quite big size so most of the clothes are not suitable for me.
however there is one dress which catch my eyes and i see that it would be suitable for me to wear during cny and also during any dinner function.
the dress cost me about RM36

fourth stop:- romp
when to both the romp shop there, but just found that there is nothing much to see.
but just notice that people are playing chinese new year song now. erm, this should remind us that chinese new year is coming soon.. next month!

break for lunch
we have our lunch at the food court and the food are not really tat good lo. but never mind.. went i go home later i would be able to enjoy my mom's cooking.. the bak kut teh!!!;)

computers???
we went to hang around the floor that sell all the computer accessories. and i found that my christmas gift the mini pen drive have the 1G size one... erm.. i should ask my uncle why he did not get that one for me...
hahaha.. but i think i would end up not asking him anything.

roof top
basically there is nothing much for me to shop at the roof top there. erm.. red box and cosmic bowl.. erm.. hahaha.. seems tat i'm interested for this two places but not for today la!!!

lot 10~ istean
erm.. there is mng sales at lot 10. kwai fatt always talk to us about buying mng clothes when we are working. i do not really see wat is so great about buying mng clothes.
maybe it is still not quiet my taste.. and not really suitable for my age level?
there are quiet a number of people there selecting for the clothes.

lot 10~~ vinci
erm.. a lot of people like to go vinci to buy shoes. cos it is very affordable?
never bought shoes form vinci before the most is bata and bata.. support the local branding.. hahaha
and at the vinci shop there is this c2pid promotion that if you buy 100 and above in a single receipt you will get one watch free.
i do think that it would 'cheat' or so call attract customer to pay more and buy more shoes.
it uses the psychology that people are 'kia su' then they would buy more in order to get the offer. and sometimes we just end up with a lot of unwanted things in our closet and store room.
so when the cashier tell me the promotion. i just say i would not like it.
hahaha.. erm.. this is the first time tat i'm not interested in a promotion.
i think to be a good and wise consumer, we have to stay away from all those promotion. and just in time system should be used in deciding what to by and not the normal just in case system which would accidentally incurred additional extra cost.

finally i got a pair of heels which is not really high. (if the shoe is too high i might trip since i'm a bit clumsy.
and i just realised that my feet are one big and one small never notice that before.
and also that i need size 8 to get a shoe which fits and feel comfortable. wow.. i just never realised all this things.
this cost me about RM50

pdi~~lot 10
erm.. never shop here before. always like to look around and never really bought any clothes before in this shop.
since there is not many people at the shop, it would be very free for me to look around and look for clothes. erm.. lot 10 is not so crowded as sungei wang do.
then i bought one red and one grey crew tee and annother long sleeve tee... it seems that this time i've bought a lot of long sleeve tee. but since the price is very reasonable that i've spend about RM 80 that is still within my budget cost.
erm.. then i think my hunt is almost completed.

Googles bukit bintang
actually i wanted to end my hunt since i've spend more tha RM200 in total for today's hunt but i have not get a pair of pant for myself.
then my bf suggested me to go to the giordano besides the mc there.
and the clothes there are almost the same as those in sungei wang.
i bought a new pair of pants for new year which cost me for about RM70 after discount.and the size of the pants is the last pair.
ooo.. there is great great satisfaction for myself.
and my bf told me that he would not be able to get so many clothes with my budget.
hahaha.. my budget is RM300 and i'm over budget d. cos i've bought a pair of nike shoe last week before christmas which cost me about RM100.
if i do not include the nike shoe, it would be nicely meeting the budget. hahaha.. i'm too calculative? erm... good budgeting i say.

then we take bus to kl and we went to popular and i bought papers which i'm using to copy the notes.and i've bought wraping paper which is those ready made one.. no need to wrap myself. and also a couple of pen.

then finally we went to secret receipe again and call resberry chess and also classic cheese( i forgot the name actually) and a cup of ice lemon tea. today is very enjoyable, rewarding and satisfying day for myself.

对于一个两子之母来说，如果要在两个儿子之中选择“只能活一个”，绝对是一个恶梦。

在这一场海啸中，一名来自澳洲的母亲在性命危在旦夕的一刹，仍然要面对这残酷的抉择。救长子还是救幼子？在滔滔巨浪之中，她放开了一只手，但是，两个儿子最终还是回到她的身边。是正确的决定，还是天赐的奇迹？

海啸淹到普吉酒店的泳池旁边时，来自澳洲的两子之母瑟尔拚命维持浮力，抓住5岁儿子拉奇和20个月大的布莱克，可是她很快就发现，自己根本无力同时拯救两个儿子。抱住酒店柱子

据瑟尔说：“我知道若同时抱住他们两个，母子3人都必死无疑，我哀求一个妇女帮我捉住拉奇，但巨劫过后，我只见到她只身一个人，并没有成功拉住我的儿子时，那一刻我为放走拉奇而觉得十分难过。”

父亲布拉德因为要取尿布回到房间，他从一楼房间的阳台目击骇人的事件，他忆述说：“我看见第二个海浪淹到来，我知道儿子还在下面，这是我一生中最恐怖的时刻。”

幸好不懂游泳的拉奇竟奇迹地能够紧抱住酒店大堂的柱子，把头部露出水面，直到洪水退去为止。

拉奇的父母发狂似的搜索拉奇数小时，之后他们在护卫员处发现拉奇。拉奇之后告诉父亲：“我大叫妈妈，叫了很久，然后就静了下来。我的手都被弄污了，衣服也需要洗。”
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i heard this story on the new from the taiwan tv station.
i've ask myself what would i do if i'm the mom? who would i give up?
if i do not give up one we would die together...
that is such great heart beark and difficult decision for a parents to make.
i do hope that the disaster would be over soon...

this a brand new year for me and everyone.
after the serious incidend that had happened. i do think that you should be more and more greatful to what we have. and we should also take care of ourselves and so that we could help others in the future.

all the countdown parties are cancelled last night including the last minute cancellation of alan tham and heckan lee concert.
the prime minister said that we should not celebrate while others are suffering.
but i do think we should be greatful that we manage to survive for annother year.

the sky out side seems very very dark. i would be going out today. i'm just affraid that it is going to rain.
today is new year's day. will there be a second round of earthquake? will there be a second round of tsunami this few days?
i do hope that i would not happened. i do wish that all those people are being helped.

Malaysians can donate through sms. Type AMP and send to 32111. Each sms is a one dollar donation.
this is the least we can help them.

my mom packed 4 big plastic bag of old clothes, when she heard that i'm asking her whether she got any old clothes which wanna be donated out to the tsunami victim.
erm.. but i did nothing.. i think i'm so bad.
i wanted to sms but my handphone just left <10 rigghit... arrrrrrrrrrr... that is just annother excuse for myself. erm.. i'm be sms today la... dun wanna wait la..
everything also wait and wait.. when we die we will die with a eye open!!!!!

just send the sms just now. using my dad handphone. it is not to say i'm stingy. but my handphone really do not have credit d and do not expect to reload it any sooner than the end of the month.

we cannot do anything much.. let's spend a few minutes to pray for the tsunami victim everyday.

• 现在... 不要分手


• 纯真~~五月天


• 一公尺


• 孤单北半球 - 林依晨 (片尾曲)


• So Far Away - 张智成/陈绮萱


• 声音& 不夜城 (原版)


• 中间 - 梁静茹(爱情合约片头曲)


• 听！是谁在唱歌？


• 听说？


• 微笑的理由 - 宇恒/梁静茹


• 接受


• 写一首歌April 5, 1969


• Everyday i love u


• Don't cry out loud and 哭


• Reflection


• One moment in time


• Love at first sight


• Loving you - shanic


• 追


• Dear friend 顺子


• I'm sorry


• 不再想念


• 真的想你 (Really Miss You)


• 有星星的夜 - 卓文宣


• 宇恒 依然是朋友


• waiting for you - 胡彦斌


• 我多么羡慕你


• Tears In Heaven~Eric Clapton


• I Honestly Love You


• It Might Be You ~~ Stephen Bishop


• All I Ask of You


• 垃圾车~~五月天


• 恋~~李心洁


• 爱那么简单~~杨伟汉


• 童话~~光良


• 少年 - 光良/曹格


• 天堂~~光良


• 宇宙永恒 Happy Day


• 天堂~~光良part 2


• 笑我笨~曹格


• 原点~~蔡健雅


• 最熟悉的陌生人~~萧亚轩


• 希望 - 陈慧琳《大长今》主题曲


• 微笑的理由-宇恒/梁静茹 part 2


• 古巨基~~劲歌金曲(medley)


• somtimes when we touch ~ dan hill


• 无印良品~我找你找了好久


• one moment in time ~ whitney houston


• 很爱很爱你


• 孩子 曹格


• 忘掉你像忘掉我 ~~王菲


• Lonely


• 快乐 张智成


• all by myself


• 丝路~梁静茹


• 可惜不是你 ~ 梁静茹


• leaving on the jet plane


• 五月天 Mayday ~ 知足


• 我还记得 ~~梁静茹


• 喜悦~梁静茹


• 太委屈 ~~陶晶莹

more to be added

Dreams are a big part of our Lives and You must do whatever it takes to make them a Reality; by the plans you make, the course you take, and the things you do. Don't dwell on past mistakes. Leave yesterday behind, along with all it's problems, worries and doubts. Realize you can't change the past, but you can start a new tomorrow. Don't try to do everything at once; take one step at a time, Don't ever be afraid to try the Impossible no matter what others may think. Remember you are Unique in your own special way. Don't ever stop Dreaming! Don't ever stop wanting what's right for you! HAVE A WONDERFUL YEAR AHEAD!!!

click on this link and light up the candle for Tsunami victims
show them there is always bright future waiting for them.
show that you do care for them!!!
i'm candle number 10139 please light up the candle!!!!!

today is the last day of the year.
and it do seems that there is a great ending for me.
today.. finally all the copy books that they wanted are printed out and distributed. i think it is a great relief for me as a printing manager.
finally i do not need to worry about people's order.
and this and that. i can focus completely on my studies.
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today i meet lecture miss chin again. and she ask me whether when can they get the book. and i told her the fact that most of us get the copy version since we need to wait for 2 more weeks before the book arrives.
then she told me the fact that she wanted us to get the copy version. but the college object with that.
but in my heart i would think that it is the student's choice whether they wanna take the copy version or they want the original version.
but i would not make it compulsory for them to get the original one. but i do encourage them to get the original one cos there would be a higher resaleable value.
it would also promote copy rights.
talking about copy rights... i do think that it had worsen our image with all those pirated movies and software... now we get pirated books for ourselves?
erm... i wonder....

arh...
the bpp original text book came today.. finally!!!!
it had been a total relief for me.
my friend would not be bugging me everyday anymore...
she was like bugging me everyday.. asking me whether i have call the supplier to confirm when will the supplier come over to deliver the book.
she bug me everyday i also bug the supplier everyday. hahaha...
finally the book came. finally everyone who order the bpp book. got their book.
i know sometimes i give a very bad respond.
sometimes i'm not patient enought to do a lot of things.
but i'm really greatful and thankful to my class that they have really did a very very hard work to help me settle a lot of things in the course.
coursemate are very very blessed to have such good class rep.

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erm.. i did something c2pid today. and i did catch the lecture's attention. oops.. that is bad.. so.. next time during the lecture i would not do anything as c2pid as that... tat is very awful leh...if lecture angry with me i do not mind.. but if my friends are affected because of me... erm..then i'll be very guity.
so i decided not to do anything c2pid during ms chin lecture...
and i'll onli act as a very very good gal. very very decent one...
hahaha.. i think it is a mission impossible for me. but i would try my very very best to do what i've declared.

One day, a seamstress was sewing while sitting close to a river and her thimble fell into the river. When she cried out, the Lord appeared and asked, "Why are you crying?" The seamstress replied that her thimble had fallen into the water and she needed the thimble to make her living.

The Lord went down into the water and reappeared with a golden thimble.
"Is this your thimble?" the Lord asked. The seamstress replied, "No." The Lord again went down and came up with a silver thimble. "Is this your thimble?" the Lord asked. Again the seamstress replied, "No." The Lord went down again and came up with a wooden thimble. "Is this your thimble?" the Lord asked. The seamstress replied, "Yes." The Lord was pleased with the woman's honesty and gave her all three thimbles to keep, and the seamstress went home happy.

Some time later, the seamstress was walking with her husband along the riverbank and her husband fell into the river. When she cried out the Lord again appeared and asked her, "Why are you crying?" "Oh, Lord, my husband has fallen into the water!" The Lord went down into the water and came up with Mel Gibson. "Is this your husband?" the Lord asked. "Yes," cried the seamstress. The Lord was furious, "You lied! That is an untruth!" The seamstress replied, "Oh, forgive me, my Lord. It is a
misunderstanding. You see, if I had said 'no' to Mel Gibson, you would have come up with Tom Cruise. Then if I said 'no' to him, you would have come up with my husband. Then, If Had I said 'yes' you would have given me all three. Lord, I am a poor woman and am not able to take care of all three husbands, so THAT'S WHY I said yes to Mel Gibson."

The moral of this story is: Whenever a woman lies, it is for a good and honourable reason and for the benefit of others. That's our story and...we're sticking to it!

CHEERS FOR ALL WOMEN...........!!!!!!

this is the time to do our part,
to make a difference for others life.
due to tsunami please pack old clothes and contribute to the victims.
please contact suet nee at 012-3293984.
support is needed. please inform your friend to comtribute as well.

last nite i only sleep for about 4 hours.
and i woke up about 7am again...
erm.. i think it is really torturing if i need to do this everyday.
and i would be 10 years elder when i finished my course.
erm.. i think this is a bad thing.
anyway. things are going to end by this weekend.
i do think that all the hard work will be worthwhile.

my lecture was asking us question on financal reporting and suddenly this idea came out of my mouth and it does really means that legal obligation in accouting litreture.
erm... i do not have legal obligation to do everything people ask me to do so.
i do have a lot of commitment towards myself and my friends and family.
but now i'm losted.
how can you expect people to be perfect. and you do not give other people a chance.
since people had did something wrong.
and you act as you are very very busy.

sometimes people are selfish and like to talk bad about you at your back.
they are call the 'xiao ren' and they are really evil but they try to act as if they are inocent.
sometimes people are not simple minded. i rather stay in a world which is simple.
i rather do not think too much.
sometimes we do required too much from our friend.
we wish them to be our best friend.. and they would be willing to do anything for us.
i'm just normal human being...
i cannot do everything with 100% i cannot do everything perferctly.
i do wish that i'll do my best and give my 101% to my friends and do not expect that they would give 102% back.
erm... i think... i would always rather be a child than to grow up and knowing that this world is fulled with darkness.

A: wow.. the guy looks really really cute...
B: too bad i knoe him too well to like him. he is not really that good
A: nope he is tall and macho.. erm.. cute...
B: no no no.. he is like girly person.. you would not like such person
A: but he looks damn cute..
B: hey dun let the looks cheat you okay..
A: really damn cool... damn cute...
B: in your dream okie.. in reality he is not such a nice person and when you spend more time with him you will think that he is not cool at all.
A: really then i should think about it again...
B: rethink ... do not let outter appearance cheat you.

tutorial started this week and there is more and more bad news coming in.. the supplier said that the book is going to be late again...
erm... crazy people.. got business also dun wanna do..
where the hell in this world. people got money also don't wanna earn.
know that some people do really support original and do not like pirated things.
sometimes i do not really know why and how.
today is the first tutorial for case study and the class was quiet crowded and the lecture was like so soft.. and i have to ask the other class to keep quiet because they are making too much noise until they are disturbing our lecture.

Thousands of people have been killed across south and east Asia in massive sea surges triggered by the strongest earthquake in the world for 40 years.
Villages have been swamped and homes destroyed after the 8.9-magnitude quake, the fifth strongest since 1900.
DEADLY DEVASTATION
Sri Lanka: 1,000 dead
India: 1,000 dead
Thailand: 55 dead
Indonesia: 150 dead
Malaysia: 7 dead
Source: Government officials

please be aware of this and be grateful that we are still alives... and do treasure our lives...

staying at my uncle's house again using his note book to upload pictures from the notebook to the internet...
erm... hactor is crying.. telling everybody that his brother bully him...
and after five minutes they are smilling again....
erm... kids are always like kids.. they would not like adults when you hurt them acidentally we will remember forever.
they are just simple minded....
it's better we spend more time with them before they are being polluted by this evil world....
;)

sometimes i'm thinking about what is mental torturing.
how can you torture a person mentally.
sometimes i do think torturing a person mentally is far worst than torturing a person physically.
so.. please care for people around you and do not ever try to torture them mentally.

前世情奠定今生爱，
万里洋化成零距离，
真缘份创造真永远。
天变，地变，人变，情不变。
今世继前世，下世接今世，
永世爱相随，都爱着你.
found this in a net friend's nick name..
his nick is really really 'rou ma' and sometimes i also cannot stand it one..
haha.. i think he just wanna express how much and how deep his love for him gal gal gua...
bue i do think is really really touching if someone would say something like this to me.;)

i like chocolate and love it and when i get it i could eat it non stop.
merry christmas is a time for giving and loving...
do really santa will come and grant me.. my very very best wish...
that is...
to eat a lot of chocolate and would not get fat...
;)

fire works here and there....
merry christmas.. this is the last year of merry christmas in tar.
bought a christmas hat for myself.
like to celebrate christmas with all my friends...
merry christmas.. and happy new year...

posting things all around here and there.. since the side bar is already longer that my post for a week.. write too little this week d...
see that my friends website have so many marquee post ar...
just feel a bit weird when seeing at her blog...

this christmas tree is taken from my uncle's house.
merry christmas or should i say merry x'mas...
happy new year...
we should sit down and consider about what we had did this year.
what are good... what are not well..
what are achieve... what are still pending...
hahaha...
still think about it. lo...

christmas nite.. lonely nite...
luckily there is chan fong there for me to listen to his program.
erm.. cham.. cannot celebrate it with my boy friend.
i still remember about 3 years ago during 31 dec i went out to countdown with my friends and we kept calling each other and my phone's battery is dead...
and i ask him that he say that time he wanted to court me but he do not have the gust to do so...
but do not know why we are so eger to see each other and countdown together...
that was my frist countdown...
erm.. i think i would never go out and countdown again gua...

shit shit shit...
nobody come to my blog and wish me merry christmas.. weird...
and nobody wish me merry christmas in friendster also wor...
weird weird...
erm.. i'm i that bad ar?
aiyo.. cham liao la...
feel like crying now...

weird.. there is something between my friend's so called ex-gf and annother coursemate...they are together la!!!!
haha...but it is non of my business i also dun need to care so much about this problem... just feel weird about people talking to me this thing ma..
so wanna say something here lo..
i do really think my friend is a really really good guy la.. he deserve to be loved.. find someone who is nice to him treate him well... and .. stop those nasty rumours.

today all the lecture tat i've recorded cannot be listen d..
so cham.. but dunno leh.. dun feel like crying also...
downloaded the ifrs1 form deloittle it is a program where it help us to learn about ifrs1.
erm.. ergently need to know about the standard.
2moro i'll go to see the lecture to get the ifrs photocopied..
erm.. really need to know what is ifrs la...
worry about my subject...

pengsan d.. listening to the lecture who give lecture where she takes you to holand..
i do not really know what she is talking about.
pengsan where i'm so busy busy with a lot of things in life.

i'm wondering if there is two of the world's most unwelcomed people in the same class. if there is so.. what would happen.
will people suffer if they join them?
but i do really thinks you need to see other people differently... do not think people never change..
people never change since you always looking at them at the same angle and same way.

today went to kl to get some money to buy books and do something personal.
then take bus back to college.. it is difficult to choose between to take bus and lrt.
bus and lrt are diff price. one is RM1 and annother is RM2++ one is not that confortable and one there is no traffic jam...
if i'm wealthy i would take lrt...
i do really think that the government should lower the price of lrt and increse it's frequency and also expand it to those places like my house and puchong..

when i go to the college.. i went to the canteen 2 and help the cima course to sell the bread.. doing charity work... they are raising fun for charity in order for the kids to have money to buy their clothes..
do really like to do something like that..
christmas is a season of giving and giving somemore...

went to the office to settle things for the course so that,i could skip the lecture.. which i do not know what she is talking about today.
when i'm in the office... a lecture.. which last time i think he is quite macho, kinda cute... bought the chirstmas cake form the secret receipe and the cake were marry x'mas on it...
cute..
i will always remember the taste of the cake.. a lot of chocolate.... ice cream.. and the ice cream was mealting..
i think if it would be my b'day.. i would take the cake as my b'day cake.
wow.. really unforgetable x'mas cake which i have ever eatten..

like my friend say.. everyday also cheese cake..
fattening lo.. never can reduce weight..
erm... i would not kill anybody.. if they really tell me i'm fat...
i just torture them hahaha...

today...is exciting.. cos i meet up with 2 friends who i have not seem them for a long long time.
it is weird that to say that i'm online 24/7 cos mayb it is just an coincident that when they are online i'm online too...
jessywho is one of them are really a nice and cute friend. i think she is really really cool in a certain way.
and her brot zen. looks kindda weird in normal casual attire. maybe we are used to see him in office attire and looks kindda weird.
his t shirt wrote fcuk and we tought that it was 'fuck' hahaha..
i did not knoe that actually this is a branded clothing... until i ask annother friend of mine.. erm.. i think i do not have fashion sense and very katak.

we sat down and chat for almost 2 and half hours at secret recipe and i ordered ice lemon tea and cheese choc as usual. erm.. i think cheese choc is really nice.. since i eat chese choc.. i would rather not eat other cake anymore.
we chat and chat and chat and chat... talk a lot about a lot of things.. shit forgot to ask him how his life in oz.. erm...
but i learn something new.. call day light saving..
means.. sometimes the time diff wit my country is 2 hours and sometimes is 3 hours.. weird enough rite?

haha... finally got my cadbrury which i've been waiting for for a long long time.. hahaha...there is the incredibles on it.. wow.. really incredible....
taste nicer than the one my cousin brought back for me... weird.. duh...
maybe it is because it does not have fruits gua...
erm.. the feeling is great... really great.. and i can sit there to finish all the chocolate cos it is just wonderful.. hahahaha...

erm.. better do my homework and blog 2moro...

der.. today seems like a very bad day for me.
the lectures are not understanding and he tought i can create magic for them ?
weird guy.
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it all begins like this.. wake up.. annother great day...
erm... should i meet up with jessy and her brother zen? erm.. wait and see. i'll call them later.
and the day and the course started.
time table. lecture notes. and student bill, resit bill subsription bill.. wow
these are all those which is very very leceh in a sense that i need the co-operation of all the class rep.
i admit that i'm not a very very cool and calm person where i would be able to settle all the things in one peice.
then all the mess come up. and it really irritates me. i do not know what to do and i could never say anything since i'm the one who want to take responsibility of the course welfare.
feel weird about that. do i really care too much about my course and i've neclegted my studies?
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then problem comes in~~ communication problem.
two of the students in my ex-class were there to say that they are not happy with the class they have been given. since they are not being informed about the changes.
and bla... bla.. bla.. and i have to go to the office and consult the lectures and in the end there is no conclusion. i just hate to do all the non value added activities.
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problem two... knowing that the sfm lecture would not be giving any notes, i also play my duty as a printing manager to ask the lecture for notes.
and the disappointing reply from the lecture is that we should have our text book ready by the time he needs it that means now. i think what the hell had happen to the world. this is crazy. he thinks i can play magic ar? i can jus create about 300 copies of bpp manual within a night ar?
so.. i got upset and i sms yon hon and told him about the problem.
and he told me that i sould talk to him nicely,(hahahaha... that is why i'm saying that i'm a person who is lack of patient)
telling him that eventough he had informed us earlier it is impossible for us to get the manual within the time he required. and some more the stupid lecture do not prepare lecture notes and we have to do our own notes.. i'm going to be crazy really really soon.
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okie.. in the afternoon i decided to go to the library and start to do my tutorial question so that i could have an early preparation, and all the problem makes my mind messy until i could not concerntrate on my notes and text book.. so i think it had really been a bad day for me..
but, anyway, i would not have defeated me, i'm sure that 2moro will be a great day eventought it is the day where the c2pid lecture teaching us.

promised myself to go to sleep before 12.. so wat m i doing here now?
waiting for?
anything?
erm.. better force myself to sleep.

erm.. 2moro is the first day of the new semester. just feel that my task and duty just increase next semester. do not know how it would end... but just want it to have a good starting..

at my uncle's house a bit damn boring. my cousin kennan and hector they went out d. and left me at home with ah ma and the internet. so i decided to went online but there is just nothing for me to have a look at.
incrediblily nothing for me to have a look at... and i'm damn terriblely boring here. just feel like wanna go back home now. nothing much to do.
damn.. damn.. damn.. what to do.. nothing to do rite?
smapping my blog and craping a lot now.
tomorrow would be a very challenging day hopefully. a lot of things need to be done.
erm...
need to clean up my room by tonight.
and need to get up early 2moro morning.
should be a great start for myself rite?

talking to my uncle about my 2nd aunty
and i learn something new today.

he told me that people never changed. this is because we always see people in the same box where they would always be the same person no matter how the person had changed.

if you wanna change other poeple. you have to change yourself first. change your thinking and also your perception towards other people.
erm.. i think this is correct. we always see people like a judge and we seldom wear other people's shoe to knoe why and how they would do something like what they had done.

i do not wanna change other people and i would like to change myself. to be a better person. and give the best of myself to other.

i'm back in the college.. and next semester would be far more hectic than expected. and everything have to start all over again.
somethings which are ment to be forgotten and a lot of revision need to be done.
luckily to say we have a dedicated lecture for a very very good subject.
lecture told me that college is aiming for the premier plus status for tuition provider.
erm.. i somehow think that.. with all the so call 'good' lectures..
and student paying extra for all the tuition class.
college may be able to achieve their target.

anyway, just hope that my wish would came true such that.. i would be able to get a new note book and stay in the library to settle a lot of things.

my bf keep on telling me it is already the end of the sem and there is on point of me getting a note book and i do not really need one.
erm.. i think different people have their different view point. but i do urgently need a note book than other things like handphone and digital camera.

okie.. need make new year resolution now...
that is...
study.. with full force and i'll get my note book
;)

why he did not do what i ask him to do?
why why why?
cos the thing is not that important? and there are other things which is more important than that?
just do not feel so great about that. if the person do really cares about you. he / she would remember whatever is important to you also.
cos it is troublesome? too difficult?
wondering about that? questioning..
is it cos the things is not that important?
or i'm not that important?

how far would you trust a person completely?
how far would you trust a person with your life?
would you risk your life for a person you trust/love?
what are the secrifice that you are willing to take for a person who you are deeply in love?
will this determine how far you would go?
will this determine your destiny?

Music: Andrew Lloyd Webber
Lyrics: Charles Hart
Additional Lyrics: Richard Stillgoe
Based on the novel by Gaston Leroux
No more talk of darkness;
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here, nothing can harm you --
my words will warm and calm you.

Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here,
with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you...

Say you love me
every waking moment,
turn my head
with talk of summertime...

Say you need me with you,
now and always...
promise me
that all you say is true --
that's all I ask of you...

Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light.
You're safe:
No-one will find you --
your fears are far behind you...

All I want
is freedom,
a world
with no more night...
and you,
always beside me,
to hold me and to hide me...

Then say you'll share with me
one love, one lifetime...
let me lead you
from your solitude...

Say you need me with you here,
beside you...
anywhere you go,
let me go too --
Christine,
that's all I ask of you...

Say you'll share with me
one love, one lifetime...
say the word
and I will follow you....

Share each day with me,
each night,
each morning...

Say you love me...
You know I do...
Love me --
that's all I ask of you...

Anywhere you go
let me go too...
Love me --
that's all I ask of you....
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just go and watch the movie the phantom of the opera.. and i like this song in the movie very very much.. and i think the wordings are very very meaningful.

i went to watch the movie with my friend and her sis and her sis was like wiping away her tears halfway trough the movie.. erm.. and her jie jie teasted her..
dunno why.. i did not cry...
it is not because the movie is not touching it is just that it did not hit my solid heart hard enough for me to be so touch that i would wanna cry.

Time I've been passing time watching trains go by
All of my life
Lying on the sand watching sea birds fly
Wishing there would be someone waiting home for me

Something's telling me it might be you
Yes, it's telling me it might be you
All of my life

Looking back as lovers go walking past
All of my life
Wondering how they met and what makes it last
If I found the place would I recognize the face?

Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah, it's telling me it might be you

So many quiet walks to take
So many dreams to wake
And there's so much love to make
I think we're gonna need some time
Maybe all we need is time
And it's telling me it might be you
All of my life

I've been saving love songs and lullabies
And there's so much more
No one's ever heard before
Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah, it's telling me it must be you
And I'm feeling it'll just be you all of my life

Yeah, maybe it's you, maybe it's you
I've been waiting for all of my life
Maybe it's you, maybe it's you
I've been waiting for you all of my life
Maybe it's you, maybe it's you
I've been waiting for all of my life
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sometimes we are searching for the right person all of our lifes and yet still we would not ever find it.
weird some people do really find their soul mate, however some just remain lonely with the person who they do not really love them in the rest of their life.
i wonder.. how and who would i end up with...

reading other people's blog celebrating b'day reminds me that about 3 more months i would become older again.
actually i dun mind getting older cos i dun really care about getting older since i do not really changed in my parents' eyes no matter how old i am. i'm still their little baby.. (or little babi);)

talking about b'day i do really care about is a person who i thinks she is very very important to me. no matter how many other people who forgot my b'day or any other things, i do hope i can get her call when clock strikes 12. this year unfortunately she dunno forgot my b'day or she really too tired after working and she sleep and for got to call me. and the day after, she onli sms me to tell me the reason that she did not call me to wish me happy b'day. i do really feel disappointed.

those people who i really really care about them, i would never forget about their b'day and my instict will automatically remind me of that since i do really care about them.

actually i share the same b'day with my cousin sis, but i do not remember that we have ever have any b'day party since i was about 6/7. maybe this is because of her mom gua.. we are like very scared of her mom.. but i think there is suppose nothing such big deal that i have to be affraid of.

erm.. i do really hope that next year.. my b'day on the saturday.. would be a great one..;)

my boy friend jus call me, said that he was not elected for national services as a helper.
i jus wonder why. what criteria they used to judge whether the person is deem fit for the position.
but when i get the news i do not really feel happy, i should be happy since that he will be able to accompany me for shopping and movie this weekend and he will also be able to accompany me during valentines day.
i do really wonder why.

today is clean up day and family day
have to clean up my messy messy room and also spend some time with my cousin...
erm.. wonder what will i do later...
i do really enjoy spending time with them a lot.

there is this person who happen to be in my blog and keep posting bad words and asking everyone to shut up.
today i decided to clean up the chatterbox and let it start all over again
and when the chat box started.. this mr curi ppl's punya nick used my nick and posted the following:-

teechong: after monday class, we go to
teechong: Choong Kwai Fatt's house for BBQ
teechong: i talk to him already, Choong Kwai Fatt said u guys must bring your own bed and stay in his home, because we going to go to clubing that night. please remember!!

i do not really know where is kwaifatt house and i think kwaifatt would not wanna disclose where is his house.
i think this guy must be a very very lonely person and he do thinks that by disturbing and polluting other people's chatterbox is a nice thing to do.
what i childish act.
erm~~ i think he really enjoy being scolded by other people la...
i think he is a really damn crazy person...
but i dunno how to band him from entering my site..
anyone know how? can teach me?
erm.. i'll do it if i really knoe how..

went to ikano and saw that there was a pet shop call animal safari.
walk into it. and see that there is those little things call hamster.
then walk to annother section and see that there are a lot of reptelia.
and saw those really really small but long green snake.. moving extremely fast.
this makes me feel a bit uncomfortable and it reminds me of a find where she really scared of snake and she cant even stand the books with picture of snake.
thinking of her.. again and again....
walking in shoping center alone wit my parents reminds me how long i have not been outing with my bf d..
erm.. miss time like tat..

today i went to shoping with my parents in mutiara damansara
i ask my parents to go to the curve since my friend told me that it was open.

actually it was quite not as expected since most of the shops are not open yet. i think everything would be ready by mid of jan next year
and i notice something there is a cross over between ikano and the curve.
and it does reminds me of pringin mall and komtar of penang where there is also a cross over between the two shoping center.
the one between the curve and ikano is not read yet and the sign board say that the cross over will be ready by mid of jan 2005.
wonder how it would be.. the development of mutiara damansara and the competition with 1U and 4 hyper shopping center of mutiara damansara.
one big disadvantage of the location is there are no public transport that would pass by the area and would enable those without cars to get there.
and the road in kl are very amazing since they would be different almost every three months.
and i wonder whether development in beneficial or harmful to the society?

this time i notice that ikano is having more and more customer. maybe it is weekend or maybe christmas is coming or maybe most of the shops are open and it enables ikano to attract more and more people to visit it.

have a cenemant bun from ikea and i dont really crazy about things like cenemant. but sometimes i think it is nice to have something like tat.

I Honestly Love You ~~~~~ Olivia Newton-John

Maybe I hang around here
A little more than I should
We both know I got somewhere else to go
But I got something to tell you
That I never thought I would
But I believe you really ought to know
I love you
I honestly love you

You don't have to answer
I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
This is pure and simple
And you should realize
That it's coming from my heart and not my head
I love you
I honestly love you

I'm not trying to make you feel uncomfortable
I'm not trying to make you anything at all
But this feeling doesn't come along everyday
And you shouldn't blow the chance
When you've got the chance to say
I love you
I honestly love you

If we both were born
In anoother place and time
This moment might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours
And here I am with mine
So I guess we'll just be leaving it at this
I love you
I honestly love you
I honestly love you

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tears in the eyes wondering whether there is anyone who would love you.
with the feeling lonely and unloved. then the feelings slowly sink beneath your soul until someday you actually forget how it is actually to love someone.
love is actually a powerful gift within our soul, we should treasure it and use it carefully. do not misuse it cos you might regret in future doing that.
if you do not have someone to love....
first and formost, start to love yourself and then slowly spread the love to people around you.
love is in the air wherever you want it to be ;)

wow.. just feel great today since all my cousins are here in kl. i wonder whether they will be coming to my uncle's house or not since my cousin is back d.
really really glad she's back. and i wonder whether we could go out together sometimes or not... hehehe..
to me she means a lot. a friend a cousin and a sister.
i like all gals in my family and i'm a big bully to the guys

ying ying ~~who is the youngest among all the cousin is very very clever and this year she got first place for her class and 4th for the whole standard. sometimes i wonder would she like think too much since she's like a very ambious person. sometimes i do really think that we should not let our kids have to much presure at a very very young age. life is misarable for them in a way.


wei wei ~~who is the brother of ying ying and he was the one who got bullied by me most of the time. but now no more la.. most of the time they come to my house i let them play internet and i wonder how i would be like if i have a brot who take cares of me. what whould my personality be like? would it be totally different?

kennan ~~is kindda big size and heave.. and..with his hear all stand up he always bully me....sometimes i wonder why i'm the one who got bullied? next year he is goin to primary d and he speaks little chinese but his parents wants him to be in chinese primary. i think it should be a good for him. since he told me once that his tongue could not speak english.. yeah.. can bully him back in the future.

hector ~~he is like the angle who appear in my life. when i think about him there would be a very very good mood of me. like his smile and rosy face. and he is tricky and cunning. un kids are suppose to be simple minded?erm i wonder..

jin jin ~~ the younger brother of wei wei and ying ying. have not much connection with this little guy since i do not see him that much. but i always thinks that he do not really look like chinese and also his brother and sister. i wonder why.
and everytime he sees me he will run away and call his mom.. hehehe.. wonder whether i'm really that scary or not.. really wonder.

sometimes people are curious about a lot of things in life.
but what happen if, you do not know much about that person but will you be concern about him / her?
or you know some one and you only talk to the person once?
and everytime you see him / her there is something special in your heart?

sometimes i jus think that very very simple things would make one's life colourful.
life is simple when u wan it to be gua.
if you are easily satisfied. then life would not be difficult for anyone..

today i went for pc fair III in pwtc
as usual the pc fair are full with people where they come from all over the country.
and the onli word that i could used is 'people moutain people sea' which is 'ren san ren hai' .
and it was raining as usual like last year / time there are a lot of people.
standin in the fourth floor of the exibition fall sometime i jus wonder where the hell all this people come from.
and sometimes i do really wonder to what extent will help boost the country's economy and to what extent it will help the company to increase it's year end sales?

then there is this famous computer company call dell. where they distribute paper bag for all the visitors. and by the time we get there. there are no more paper beg available for us. and looking at so many people taking so many bag i was like a bit upset since there sould be enough paper bag for all the visitors for the pc fair.
and then when we finished walking trough out the exhibition and outside was starting to rains. and i tought of goin to the mall and have cake from secret receipe with my friend jean. and suddenly heard that people are distributing dell paper beg and i was like rushing to get the paper bag and when we are there.. the person said you have to wait until 3.30 then we would distribute annother round of paper bag.

My friend and i was kindda disappointed (actually it should be me la)and we decided to get something to eat since we are kindda hungry and kindda tired we decided to go to search for makan.and when we walk outside it was like raining outside. and the pour was quite heavy. Oops cannot go over to the mall.

me and jean went to the cafe / restaurant in pwtc to get some drinks. but i do not think i would want one since i think the drinks are very expensive and i regreted i did not bring my umbrella and bottle together wit me. what a waste.

then we decided to go and wait and grap the paper beg when it is distributed.
and jean asked me whether wanna sit down and rest. and i was like straight away sitted down and i think jean was kindda shock gua..
dunno.. mayb sometimes i do really do things which i think should be crazy and out of my mind.

finally i actually got 2 paper bag one for last time i did not take it. and annother one to put all those catalogue. some times i do really wonders actually these catalogue actually create more rubbish to the environment and not that environment friendly or? it will actually have it's economical benefit than it's cost?
this was only the second day of the pc fair. i do really wonder after the pc fair how much rubbish would be created. and wat is the cost to the company and wat is the cost of all these to the society.

finally i end up buying jus a new catridge and got a RM10 starbucks voucher. haha.. then the first thing i would check is the expiry date. ooo it is 31 dec 2005. then i would use it nicely hahaha.. never like to drink coffee.. i would prefer to drink tea rather than coffee if given a choice. but if there is no choice and i would have to drink coffee i would rather drink nothing or just drink plain water ;)

when me and jean finished getting wat we wanted we went to have something to fill our stomach with something.. jean haven have her lunch yet. and that time was like about 5 o'clock d... OMG i dunno how she can tahan like tat one lo.

me sometimes will get very hungry and can eat non stop.. that's why my size sometimes is too over d..
kekeke....

enjoy today and i think it is really really nice day today :)

last nite i onli go to bed by 3.30am, and now, i'm already wake up. i really dunno why. jus feel weird.maybe the exam had caused me to be a bit hyper and sometimes lost control of what i wanna do.
2nite my cousin is coming back d.. and i would have to share my streamyx with her d..
we share the same b'day and same grandpa?
hahaha...
we have the same b'day that is 31 march
and we have an age difference of 5 years
sometimes i really wonder why do we share the same b'day?
is it a coincident? or there is something connected between us?
she is also the onli child. also the only gal for her daddy. so she's like the pearl in her daddy's hand. and her parents are not getting together very well.but.. some how she manage to be the one who connected the marriage on.
i do hope we can really get together well sometimes and go some places which is cool.
i wonder would i be able to go out with her when she is back 2nite...
i really really wonders. and i'm curious to know about that...
but i onli have one week before the classes commences again..
i wonder what would happened?
i do really wonder why how and where..

exam is finnally over i do not really feel happy but just relieved that it is over.
life is to be enjoyed but now i have no mood to enjoy it..
so bad...
but i think i would like to tidy my life up and make some changes towards it

2moro is exam day.. so just want to tell myself..
all the best.. good luck..
and do your very very best...
dun care anything happening around you.. kekeke
motivate myself :P

Tears In Heaven
by Eric Clapton and Will Jennings
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?

I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven.

Time can bring you down,
Time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.

Beyond the door,
There's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven.

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.
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suddenly think of this song...
should i be having tears now?
then it will result to impairment of asset d wor..

sometimes i do thinks guys think too much...
why? cos they think they are smart and sensitive..
and sometimes when a gal onli threat them as brother..
and they think that gal is in love with them...
i wonder why...??????

2moro is my last paper for this sitting for acca.. kindda dunno wat to say.. but jus feel butterflies here and there...
do a lot of question and do not know whether my mind would be analytical enough for me to score for the exam or not lo.
should be okie d la...
just do my best... and study study...

today is world's best friends day. send this only to your best friends. even me if i'm one of them and see how many u get 2day.if u get more than 8, u r lucky...
(haha.. dunno whether it is true or not?)
but today i got 3 already
pek hong
ying ying
wan chin..
thanks for seeing me as your best friend.

今天在报纸上阅读香草恋人馆的剧情预告时，
看见这四个字 ～功成身退～
感觉上好象是很伟大。
可是事实上却只是自欺欺人而已。
事实上有多少人能够真正达到功成身退呢？
而在多少“功成身退”的背后其实就是懦弱及自卑的倒影呢？

自己也曾经对自己最要好的朋友说过自己要功成身退这个念头
而在自己真的这么做的时候，回头才发觉原来自己是最自私的。

weird why i cannot access my blog... weird...
weird.. weird...
why i cannot access it one? wierd...

today is my first day of exam
so now i'm doing a prayer for myself.
i pray the question are all within my expectation
i pray that i would not sleep half way trough the exam
i pray that all the question i would knoe how to do it.
i pray that very things will be as usual and all right.
i pray that nobody which i dislike will sit besite inform behind me..
and lastly..
to pek cek.... i wear something which is red.. today..
it seems like a culture in tar to wear red during exam day. it seems tat it will bring luck. but i think i prefer blue..
my favourite colour and hopefully it is my lucky colour also. ;)

i'm in a dileama again...
dunno how.. my group have been disolved and we have to seperate each other to other groups.. and then...
my friend.. would like to follow me.. and i do not know wat to do now.
and the places are limited..
i really dunno wat and how can i do...
dileama...

2moro is exam day.. is the first time i sit for acca exam..
so a bit nervous but not scared dunno why..
not to say that i'm well prepared just that i'm not really scared..
and i come with a very calm feeling..
just wanna pass and enjoy my life...
hahaha.. there are so many things to do after exam..
life is fun when you want it to be so...
so.. now.. enjoy my exam.. taste the bitter...
so i would enjoy the sweetness in future;)

would you be willing to pay 20 riggit for a very difference experence of watching movie?
3D movie is here d... at berjaya times square.
should be going to watch polar express after my examL:)

hahaha.. exam exam..
make myself crazy d...
dunno wat to do.. jus relax myself a bit and cool down..
and have a sound mind

exam presure? erm.. listening to enya to clear my mind..
feels nice...:)

after days and days of waiting kwai fatt finnally reply my question..
hahaha.. erm.. i think if he is being away for holiday.. he will like did not enjoy his holiday at all.. cos being cursed because he did not reply the e-mail within 24 hours as promised...
but anyway.. since he reply d.. now..
i really got mood to study d.. so.. thrilled:)

i'm the only child in my family..
sometimes i wonder what is the feeling like to have a brot or sis.. around u..
will you have the feeling of love... hate... envy... competition?
erm.. i really wonders how would it feel like...

party time next week end.. celebrate finished my exam...
party party...
with myself...
hahahaha.. and play the music out loud.. loud loud... hehehe...
oops.. crazy cos of exam d...:)

loading this song whole nite d..
still keep on buffering
胡彦斌 - Waiting For You
at last now.. should be having this song d..
erm.. should be able to sleep well tonight.. 2moro is a good day.. and study study.. study some more...:)

我多么羡慕你
词：姚谦曲：张洪量
原唱：江美琪演唱:张洪量

有时候风太急
禁不住挂念起你
这一刻离我遥远飞行
有时候夜太静
拦不住回忆的心
于是泪每个夜里如繁星
我多么羡慕你
总可以转身飞远远的
我的爱是你沉重行李
绊住你追新梦的决心
我多么想念你
当时间都失去了意义
穿越思念后等成信箱
让你需要的时候可以
投递
告诉我
沿途中
想与我
分享的心情

waiting for you - 胡彦斌
waiting for you
金色的舞鞋伴着音乐 baby你的眼睛是一弯深邃的湖水
哦忽明忽灭掩藏不可思议的美
让我眩晕在悬崖边谁知一睁眼就不见
waiting for you i'm waiting for you
waiting for you kiss me at the night
为何你cinderella 留给我一望无际的思念
waiting for you i'm waiting for you
waiting for you come here to my dream
牵着你不断旋转一直到黑发变成了银线
waiting for you waiting for you 直到永远
哦忽明忽灭掩藏不可思议的美
让我眩晕在悬崖边谁知一睁眼就不见
waiting for you i'm waiting for you
waiting for you kiss me at the night
为何你cinderella 留给我一望无际的思念
waiting for you
waiting for you waiting for you
waiting for you
waiting for you i'm waiting for you
waiting for you kiss me at the night
为何你cinderella 留给我一望无际的思念
waiting for you i'm waiting for you
waiting for you come here to my dream
牵着你不断旋转一直到黑发变成了银线
waiting for you waiting for you
waiting for you
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xiao feng and ah ken in the mv of this song... still thinking of this song and the tv series...

i always listen that people regret for not doing this and doing that la...erm...
sometimes in life there are too many things that you can be regret of ..
but you live you life only once and there are too many things that you would be regreted for so.. jus stay cool and live with it lo.

the emoticon that represents you best is the Smiling Face

What's up, smiley? Somehow you just always seem to find a way to turn that frown upside down. Your upbeat attitude and friendly demeanor brighten up any room, including your favorite chat room.

Like your classic emoticon counterpart, you're a staple on anyone's list. Boring days and sleepless nights are far more bearable when you're online to chat. Whether you're shooting the breeze, catching up, or giving out advice, you can cheer up anyone on the other side of the conversation. So keep lightening the mood, making new friends, and bringing smiles to other folks' faces. After all, it's just so natural for you!

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hahaha.. jus like u see me in person.. always wit the smiling face:)

jack jack.. i like to all it... jac jac...

haven watch this show yet..
but.. my mc jac jac.. is it sold out ar?
sold out d meh?

just met a long time never see friend online just now..
seems that nothing much to talk about..
nothing in common...

jack jack.. sold out d?
erm.. hahaha.. cant try it personally d...
cant hear jac jac cry d...

宇恒 《依然是朋友》歌词
情人节的前一天 他离开你身边
只剩下你无止境的想念

那一夜我陪着你 你哭了一整夜
你是否知道 我对他也一样很想念

直到有一天 我和他碰面
在那间 我们常去的咖啡店

才知道 有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们之间 隐藏了什么
除了我自己没人懂
可是你 你怎么说 你知道后是不是从此避开我
OH~ 我一样难过 多希望我们不曾相识过

才知道 有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们都是最好的朋友
谁会有勇气去开口
不再哭 不再难过
我们还有好大好大的天空
故事的最后 我们都不曾失去过什么

我们依然是朋友
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suddenly see this song in my friends blog.. reminds me of an old friend...
reminds me about a lot of crazy things i would do.
reminds me.. that i'm sad because of her.
i always tell myself i do not care about how others see me.
but i do really cares about her.
she is a really really important in my life some years back.
and we are part and then,
i made some c2pid and selfish decision
and i just feel like walking out of our best friends relationship cos i just felt that i'm tired and fed up of her d.
then time pass by.. i miss our relationship.
and i regreted.. and i want things back to just as they were before.
but... in actual fact...
things were not.
i'm concern about her...
just tat i always tell myself i do not care about her anymore.
i always pretend to be busy when she is around me after the incident.
there is a wound created by me. and i always kept myself back from pulling the thorn that is in the wound.
i'm coward and selfish...
we do not like to express ourself. we just hoping others would understand what we feel and why we do things the way we do it.
i'm concern about her.. knowing that she part with his ex i'm angry..
i've emotion towards what she does cos i care.. i do really care.
i knoe that i'm a really really strong and stubborn...
but i'm holding back my tears.. and waiting for the moment the thorn is being pull out.. and the wound is heal.
just prentend that i'm ignorant to what i've done... ignore how good or how bad her life is...
the feelings sometimes really makes my heart breaks...
and sometimes i care about my friends and when they do not take care of themselve.. and they give up.. i would be really angry with them.. and i wanted to scold her..
but this time i just kept quite.
okie, no matters anything happen between us..
no matters.. whether we are still friend or not..
just want to knoe that she is happy with what she have now.

when i was checking my mail box today.. and suddenly i discover that the size of my mail box had increased to 250MB... wow.. that means a lot of space.
and this is really a very very good news for those people who seldom check thier mail and those people who like to keep mail sent by your friends

internet is a devil who is so evil when exam is around the corner.
it keep holding you back from studying.. it is a big devil.
i wish that i would have a strong will that i would not be addicted to the internet.
but in fact i am.
cant hold myself back from online at nite..
now.. i'm in the college library and i'm using my friends's notebook to online...
weird that my college's library have this thing call wifi that we are not known to it unless we have a notebook.
but it is a real convenient for student who wanna do assignment in the college and need to search for information online.
we do not need to que up for using the computer in the cit center.
and we can directly save information into the note book.
i do hope i can get a note book real soon...
near future.