tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

after listening to the song in my media player for many many time until i wanna vomit already...
i felt better...
life is beautiful it is just how you wanna see it...
just hope that everyone's life is colourful and beautiful:P

tired and sad....down....
what would you do when everything that you do also doesn't seem right and there is nobody there for you?
it seems that you are the world's most stupid person.
why make your life so difficult just because you wanna please a person?
because she is so important in your life?
i don't really care that she doesn't appreciate what i've done...
i don't care whether it is worth doing because i come with a truth and sincere heart...
i just want her to be happy because i really care for her
but why it always seems so difficult?
my heart was broken again and again and again and again....
it seems that the heart cannot be mend.. and you have tried everything.. but it is all useless...
how could you mend a broken heart?
why do i need to care about others when there is nobody to care about you?
tired... hopeless... down and down...
life seems to loose it's colour
and the colour seems to fade away...
but the problem is nobody could bring this colour back to my life except me...
when my life would be a colourful one again?
i doubt it would be real soon... i doubt life...
what i can do for myself is just repeat and repeat the same song again and again in my media player to make myself to feel better about life...
(to those who are reading just ignore what i've write.. i just simply say things when i'm down)