tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

have not been updating my blog for a very very long time.
just simply because i'm busy.

sometimes wonder whether it is worth it for all those hard work that i've done.
and to take up all those presure.
boss questioning why you did not do this and that.
what is the status of doing this and that.

and you have to settle the things you spend four months time to do it and now you have to spend one and a half months to finished it just simply because you need to let your client have sufficient time to review it and with the hope that there are no complains from the client.

i think the most important thing is you need to know what to do first and when you should do the thing fast.

i think that should be the way of doing things.

my boss always complain that i'm doing things very slowly.
however i think my speed is okay.
and my bf say i'm pempering my boss too much just by fufilling what she want.

all this month i'm trying my best to look for my balance.
how not to over worked myself.
how to live up to people's expectation.
try not to give empty promises.

a bit stress off...
but i think avoiding is not a good action...
and it's time for me to face the music.

work hard and work the something out.
after the break have to show that i'm able to perform
have to show that i'm better than before.
have to show i'm better than everyone else.

how to prove it?
work my axx out?
have to work at home eventough it's after work?
admit that i'm a bit lazy than before and have to try and boost myself up.
and wannt learn more and more in the future.

i do see my vision
and i do think that just talking doesnt make us any good.
just questioning what is correct and wrong is not enough.
just wasting a lot of time to discuss and questioning what you suppose to do and you never do it.
and also.
just wanna get myself on the move and...
hehe... will become the most efficient staff lo ;)