today is the day i get all the revision kit and most of the manual done for all the group. (unfortunately the original ftc manual have not come!!!)
and today miss chin said something to me which i think is very meaningful to me and i should remember it for the whole semester.
"they should be able to download the question from the website rite?"
"i know you are very busy with your things.you must concerntrate during my class."
"nobody is going to pity you if you fail"(wow!!!this is the thing that hit me the hardest inside my heart.)
"why are you doing all this things? where is the course rep?shouldn't he be doing this things?"(erm.. i'm not sure about it... maybe i've rampas all the things that a course rep should do and do all the things for him?)
i have changed my attitude a lot and a lot during the lecture to respect the lecture i tried my best to prevent myself from walking up and down the lecture hall.. but i think it is difficult for me. cos i cannot sit nicely during lecture. mayb this is just my excuse because i can do it for miss chin lecture why not the others? erm.. have to correct myself and show more respect to the lecture.
annother thing which i have not been doing for this semester is preparing for the tutorial class.. i have to brush up myself for the ACR tutorial because i have not contribute much of my time on the tutorial and most of the time i was doing non value added activity.
taking care of the course is something which i wanna do but i'm not strong enough.
i'm not fierce enough?? (i'm a very fierce person and very autocratic person)
i'm not dedicated?? weird man...
maybe i'm not suit for the position gua... think of resign for many many time when i faced problem.
and it has also affected the relationship for me and my friend.
maybe because they are my friend so they demand more from me.
but have they ever think more about me? erm.. i do not know what to do.
i do really care (in mandrin call 'jie yi') how my friends treat me.
and my bf said that i do not know how to be 'fake' and learn how to let go.
and i complain about them for so many weeks already but it is also relates to the same item.
therefore i would tell myself that from now onwards i would learn how to let go and treat all other people better gua.
^-^ (tee chong gambade!!!) p^-^q genki!!!jia you!!!
