tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

erm... went to the same old vegetarian restaurant again.
today to my surprise there are two gang of guai lou there.
ordered choped meat with 'ho fan'
today the speed of them serving the meal was quite fast and the serving was kindda heavy taste for me.
it was quiet okay geh...
but seems kindda weird having to eat alone again lur.

looking at the guai lou and how they used the chop sticks it really seems very weird and ackward to me lur.
and i heard the guai lou was talking about this is the best curry that i have ever had in my life.
oh my god....

monday i went to kl and have dinner alone at one of the kl vegetarian restaurant.
something happened

i ordered 'lo mee' for my dinner but they cooked 'sang mee' (those type of wan tan mee but being fried.
i was kindda upset since it was not what i wanted.
but time was running out since i have only about fifteen minutes to finished my dinner.
so decided not to alter the order.
i was wondering the boss would give me some discount since they make the mistake.
but unfortunately they did not do so.
so upset huh....
ai... forget about it.
since it is the only vegetarian shop that cooks nice food around the place where i take my night class.
i do really wish that the vegetarian shop that i previously visit did not closed down lur.
i really still do not know what had happened to the shop huh.
i think i should do something to find out someday.
but i do not really wanna eat the mc donald lur.
since i seems un healthy and i like something like noodles and not fast food or western food.

then there is this indian guy who most probably is a drug addict where he come in to the shop and show sign language where it means he wanna beg for food.
then the lady boss of the shop as the worker to cook fried rice for him.
and the fuller wait and wait and keep on doing the samething again and again.
begging for food.
and one of the employee where she serve the food geh, she was quite upset with the lady boss decision to help the fuller.
she keep on mumbbling 'kick him out of the shop, don't give him anything, he will be coming back again and again, i saw he took the biscuits from the selves....'
the fuller was quiet not patient lur.
he keep on walking nearer and nearer. to the customers.
and it seems that he had chased away some of the customers who wished to enter the restaurant.
and at the end they told him that they fried rice for him to eat. but the fuller keep on asking for RM 2.
the boss say they dun have RM2 but have fried rice.
the fuller was kindda upset and he walked away.
they all say the guy should be a drug addict and he wanna get money from people so that he could buy some drug.
actually i was a bit worry when i walk out of the restaurant.
i looked around to make sure that the fuller was not around then only i walk toward my tuition center to have my class.

it has been some times since i last blog.
i'm suppose to start my study again.
everybody are still in their holiday mood.
and trying to recover from the internal exam hurt.
everybody is telling me that they would start their preparation for the external examination by next week.
but i keep telling and reminding myself there are not much time left.
studying 3 subject at one goal is terrible.
but i do not want to scared others la.
since my expectation is high and my requirement towards myself is very high also.
i do really think that i'm really really presuring myself to my limits.
and when i see the time table which i planed for myself to do the revision, i just noticed that i have not left any time for entertainment like movies, shopping etc.
is it i'm giving myself too much preasure?
is it too demanding for myself?
can i take this presure?

oh... i'm now in the college library.
using the internet facilities.
there are not many people in the college since it is the semester holidays and those poeple who are around the college are those who are taking form six and also a-level.
campus is like a death town/city... so quiet.
i do not know what i wanna do.
but i just keep pushing myself and always motivate myself.

now.
it is starting to rain outside.
hopefully it would stop by the time i wanted to go to kl for marty last class.
raining... and moody....
i think it would not stop myself form moving towards achieving the dreams of qualifying in june 2005 ;)

i'm wondering what is the motivation?
everybody have not start their revision yet?
why should i start now?
shouldn't i be enjoying my life now?
why make my life so misserable?
keep on fighting in my brain.
whether to study or not?

but i think it is better to start now than to regret later.
maybe i should take kwaifatt's advice to have a look at klcc and then imagine when i can afford to buy things at the shops which are kindda expensive.
but i'll still be stingy so.. maybe i will not consider to spend too much on clothing.

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