tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

have not been treating myself good for the past few months...
just make myself busy..
living without quality...
my room is messy..
my table in the office is messy...
my table at home is messy...
all i care the most is work..
work and work...

so now.. when peak is coming to an end...
will try not to treat myself so bad...
tidy up the table..
tidy up the room...
treat myself a little bit better..

a little bit nicer...
a little bit better...
but do not relax myself..
keep myself moving...
keep improving..

bought 3 original album recently...
victor's "need you the most"..
micheal's "never apart"(不会不分离)
fish's "J'adore"(崇拜)

sometimes wonder why need to buy original?
cos..
i can easily DL them from the website at now cost...
with the fast Internet connection in the office...
and i just put it in my computer if i ever need to listen to it i jus on it.
i do not need the disc as well.

so i'm questioning myself why need to buy original...

and the debate is...

i'm an ethical person? (haha... i already downloaded all their song.. b4.. i bought the album... so what's the point...)

to support local singer? (the Malaysian boleh attitude.. so must support them?)

to play it inside my Kenari? (haha.. you do not drive.. and your bf dun like you to
play the CD and prefer to listen to MY fm... so.. what's the point?)

cos i got $$ (yeah.. buying the album meaning no $$ to save meaning getting poorer)

satisfaction of buying original (... ...)

end up... just like what my bf say...
(ai.. your wasting your $$)

but for me it's just feel it's good to reward myself...
doing something i like.. getting something i want at a price i think it's okay for me.

so.. conclusion is..
I can do what i like with the $$ i earn myself..
so.. i got nothing to complaint...

have been treating myself bad this few months...
not taking leave for half a year? cos got a lot of stuff to rush..
so now decided to treat myself better..
took one day off on the monday b4 sultan's b'day (public holiday)
reli need a good rest..

also to treat myself better..
today went for shopping and bought a couple of thins for myself..

fish new album..
SeeD working attire cot + skirt.. (with one free big SeeD bag)
dress for annual dinner..
and... the credit card limit(here refer to my internally set limit) for the month.. burst again... haha... scarry

and suddenly notice that i'm getting out of figure...
fat.. fatter... going to be fattest d...
got fat ever since started working..
mayb because i got very good appetite cos of working presure.
sometimes feel upset wit myself why i'm treating myself so bad..
i think need to control.
so that... i need to save $$ as well :)

erm...
sometimes wondering why need to work so hard...
sometimes wonder why money is always not enough..
sometimes wonder why i cant keep my $$

haha...
maybe it's time for me to cut my credit card...
gotta be better in controlling one's $$ spending..

erm..