tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

喜欢被你拥抱入眠感觉。期待每天早上睡醒的第一件事情是你送上的morning kiss。
可是，自己还是不确定自己对你的感觉是爱，是感激还是只是朋友而已。
这让我好迷惘。好想让你把我生命中的空白全部都填地满满的。
可是你却告诉我应该要有自己的天地和私人的空间。
而我的私人的空间就是上网和写日记吧！
同时也想满足你，让你拥有足够的私人空间。
可是你却不知道，我的确感觉到自己对于周旋与朋友间已经感觉很累。
朋友的时常放飞机，让自己觉得还是不要去把心交出来比较好。
承认自己是懦弱而胆小的乌龟。
可是幸福往往来得冲冲。担心自己把握不住，
而害怕幸福迅即消逝的感觉。

他说已经想好了情人节他要送我什么礼物？
可是粗心的我竟然什么准备也没有。真的搞不懂自己要怎么样。
是因为自己对他不够了解吗？却发觉当自己在需要送礼物的时候觉得不知所措。
我竟然不知道应该送他些什么东西？
一直埋怨他不了解自己，现在或许不了解的人是我自己吧！

yesterday he ask me whether he should get 'lee hom's' concert ticket for me as valentine present. however i did not answer him. why? because he is not in a very good financial position and i would think that i would not like to burden him further. Actually I'm quite happy if he has such plans (eventough it just 'cakap-cakap' aje), but reality always defeats what you dream of. Therefore I rather give up the chance and safe some money for a better future.

sometimes what he think is a bit crazy, but sometimes i think/feel he never concern about me or say it in annother way, he is selfish. He always say you should go to learn YOGA so that you can have better figures. I know not that he is complaining my figures, just that he wants what is best for myself. but has he look at what i think and what i feel? why he just do not want to accompany me to learn it together? because it's a 'gal's' thing?

sometimes i'm just tire of arguing with him, i just wanna get myself out of this shit and leave myself alone.........

After many days of searching finally i bought Gary's album...

Looking for it since last friday... and
finally got it 2nite..
and the version i bought is the limited edition.
and it is the last one that i saw in that cd-rama...

it seems that i'm quite lucky. why?
because i seems to give up on looking for the album.
i would be very much happy to buy the limited edition as according to the DJ there are only limited copies in Malaysia. and I'm lucky enough to get one...
and what makes me feel happy is b'cos the price does not difer from the normal version one much...

erm... you can visit his offical website... to see how the album cover look like :)

歌曲：朋友变情人再变朋友
歌手：品冠 专辑：爱到无可救药

※ music ※
安静的房间还有你的温柔
躺在棉被上看着多的枕头
为何分手后回忆就被偷走
爱情走到尽头是否可以做朋友
你和我以前是朋友心情不错
就想约你走走
你要电影我听你唱歌
我们总是无话不说
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
谁懂这坎坷

爱上你以后愉悦很轻松
现实太残酷梦中你会拥抱我
当爱上以后如今我们分手
我变成情歌手
是唱太多太多bala歌
你和我现在是朋友
你那么好却只能做朋友
你撞了我我装无所谓
我们如何要求更多
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
只能显真格

你和我以前是朋友
心情不错
就想约你走走
你要电影我听你唱歌
我们总是无话不说
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
谁懂这坎坷

你和我现在是朋友
你那么好却只能做朋友
你撞了我我装无所谓
我们如何要求更多
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
只能写真的

朋友变情人再变朋友
祝我们快乐!!!


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jus noticed that this song sang by 'pin guan' is written by 'zhang ze'
just wonder what and how's the feeling like for those who has the relationship of from a friend to lovers and back to friend again.

wonder what is the rasional behind lovers become friends again.
i think it would difinately be very weird for those previous lovers to become friend.

friend... you cannnot do a lot of things that lover do..
but lover you have too much of a commitment that a friend need not to have.
weird...