tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

if you ask me why i did not blog for such a long time?
my answer would not be i'm busy.

why not?
because now is non peak period and also there is nothing much to do.

the reason behind why i'm not blogging is just because i'm tired.
and there is a lof of problem questioning myself.
whether to do or not to do.
and where should i proceed.
and how should i continue with what i have choose
even without support of others.

sometimes i'm always questioning myself whether what i did is right or wrong
but it seems that there is no right or wrong answer for everything that we had done and it's seems that thing that matters is only whether your happy with what decision you had made.

to face the quite side of me is very weird for me..
why? because to others i'm always the person who is happy cheerful and also possitive thinking.

if you wonder whether i have negetive thinking?
yes, i have negetive thinking as well
i would not like this negetive energy to affect others.
and also i would like to influence others so that they could influence more and more people in the future.

after looking at the poster and the synopsis and the cast below please tell me whether you wanna what this movie which is a local production on the cinema next year...
and maybe you can suggest what are the ways to enable you to go and what the movie?

SYNOPSIS
There is a proverbial Chinese saying that a family’s accumulated wealth cannot be maintained past the third generation.

This film explores this saying through the eyes of the Chinese in Malaysia and traces their history from the time of our forefathers to the current Chinese generation. The Chinese have had a significant presence in Malaysia since the early 19th century and through a myriad of activities have contributed to the growth of the Malaysian economy

This film uses period drama to capture the essence of the culture, diversity and social complexity of the Chinese in relation to family, love, relationship and business. The movie portrays this through the eyes of the Chan family as it evolves from one generation to another generation.

CAST and character
Charlie Chan (Nicholas Teo) is the first in the family of Chinese immigrants to be educated in the West. Young, smart and ambitious, he struggles between loyalty in upholding family traditions and true love. As he builds his fortunes, he experiences the pain and pleasure of life and how everyone and everything is intertwined.

Linda (Carmen Soo) is the calming influence in Charlie's turbulent life. She is the soul mate and true love of Charlie destined to remain forever at the background.

Susan Chan (Amber Chia) is the faithful and loving wife who is adored by the family except for the one who matters most to her.

Chan Wah (Cheng Kam Cheong) is the head of the Chan family who built the family business from rags to riches through determination and shrewdness. He is the perennial influence in the family.

Judy Chan (I-Fun) is the rebellious sister desperate to win the approval of her father and to overcome the traditional prejudice against women inherent in Chinese culture.

Alan (Paul Khoo) and Adam (Mervin Sia) are Charlie's buddies who are arrogant and come from privileged families. They squander their inherited wealth on girls and parties. 

today i wanna talk about my seniors... two person a guy and a gal...
why i wanna talk about them?
because they 'suck'

it's not that i dun like them at all.
it's just tat i dun like their way of threating my immediate boss -CMW..
very fake and lame...

the stories goes like this...
yesterday was the annual dinner and dance for our firm and
my boss was late and she was no where to be seen.
i have been searching her high and low here and there..
but she is no where to be seen.
and i was telling them come come let's go and get our boss..
and the guy was telling no dun go and find her.
i was feeling upset with the guy for that particular moment...
why?
because i just feel that he dun really treat the boss well lur...

and sometimes i just feel poeple are just too fake and
i think i would rather mix with myself than the gang which i'm currently mix with.
why? because 'dao bu tong bu xiang wei mou' which means that
when we are not in the same road we would not stay together for long.

jus feel that their lifestyle does not interest me much.
mayb i'm looking at one of the side of the coin and i did not look at the other side of the coin and i already placed my judgement...

there is only 10 days left for the year of 2005.

today when i called the irb officer the officer told me that he is very busy and would only able to handle my case after this year which he told me is only 10 days away.

now i only realised how fast time flies.
it seems to be a very very long year for me...
been trough my acca core paper
and also passed my acca paper

and then get to work temporary in a body care company
and get to know some new friends

then join a big accounting firm and start my courier in tax...
and now there is only 10 days left in 2005 and it's time to say bye bye

wondering whether there is anything which i wanna to do and yet i have not do anything about it?
maybe there is and i should prepare the list and target of things i wanna achieve in the near future.

and last but not least,
a reminder to those who had not yet renew their IC
the due date for free renewal is until 31/12/2005
please do so i you wanna enjoy free renewal of IC

there is something in the e-mail call CC and BCC
this is used when you wanna e-mail something important to your client and you wanna let your superior to know what are you doing at the moment.

the power of cc is to let those poeple who are more superior aware of what are their subordinate been hanging around and doing what kind of 'big business' behind the superior's back.

sometimes it will take a very very big reaction from the superior as they are not aware for all the while what had happened around and what action which had been taken.

somehow i found that after sometime that we started to use the power of cc and now our client would like to use the power of cc back on us.
that is whenever they send us something they would cc it back to the big boss so he or she would notice what is happening around.

and bcc is even a more powerful tool in the sense that the person who you e-mail to did not notice who you had a copy of the e-mail.

i had a bad hair day since last nite when i come back from work.
the internet was not working.
it's seems that the only entertainment and communication tools for me is off.
sometimes i just feel that life is difficult without the pc and the internet.
it's difficult for people who do not like to talk too much and having difficulties to express their feelings like me to communicate with others.

and i called up tm net streamyx with the number 1300 88 9515 to 'question' them what had happened to my internet connection? what is the problem with them always having the line being break down and stuff.
haha eventually it happened once to me earlier this year.
when i called them the second time, i was kindda upset because the person who is handling the customer service insist that i made a call to 100 to ensure that my phone had a dail tone and then if there isn't any then only they would lodge a report for me.
i think this is very unfair since i already called the second time and the fuller who attended my call previously promised that if i called the second time where my connection has not been established and they will lodge the report for me.
and this annother customer service would not lodge a report for me.
haha.. i pretended that i'm upset and eventually she lodge a report for me.
and i think i would call them again if i found out that my matter had not been taking in to account seriously.
why? because i pay on time every month and i did not enjoy any value added services.
so i think i should enjoy some good services from TM since they have changed their trade mark and also promised that better services would be provided to the client.

then i went to sleep wondering what other things that i can do...
and this morning when i went to work, when i reach the office i notice that i forget to bring my tag.
as u know that big company you have to tag in and out everytime you go in and out of the office.
and luckily the tea lady was there to let me to tag in.
and i notice that when you do not have the tag you have to fill up the form which is required to signed by your group leader, manager and director.
and eventually everyone will end up knowing that you did not bring your tag to work
and the worst thing is you have to state wat's the reason of failing to bring the tag to work.
i think i should say my dog hold it to sleep and i did not notice it.
(in fact i do not have any dog at home)

then later in the afternoon when i came back from lunch i notice there is something which is very weird for my shoe.
i found that the heels are something wrong.
and i found that there is a nail on the heels and something is missing from the heels..
yes the heels is missing.
no wonder i feel so okward when i walk in and out of the office.
aiyo dun care too much do my office stuff to complete the stuff which are given by my group leader lo.

at the end of the day i found that there is something i think that there is no learning culture in the group i'm currently with. and i do hope that something would change with the attitude of the staff and we could serve the customer / clients better in the near future.

外面~周迅

外面的世界很精彩
我出去会不会失败
外面的世界特别慷慨
闯出去我就可以活过来
留在这里我看不到现在
我要出去寻找我的未来
下定了决心改变日子真难捱
吹熄了蜡烛愿望就是离开
我出去会变得可爱
外面的机会来得很快
我一定找到自己的存在
一离开头也不转不回来
我离开永远都不再回来


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found myself liking this song gradually.
just feel that sometimes i've been protected for the such a long time and it's time for the to go out and explore myself.
and of course i would not be like the end of the song never come back again.

外面的世界~齐秦

在很久很久以前
你拥有我
我拥有你
你离开我
去远空翱翔
外面的世界很精彩
外面的世界很无奈
当你觉得外面的世界很精彩
当你觉得外面的世界很无奈
我会在这里衷心的祝福你
我还在这里耐心的等着你
每当夕阳西沉的时候
我总是在这里盼望你
天空中虽然飘着雨
我依然等待你的归期

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this is a very very nice song from a very very popular artice in the 80's and early 90's and i still think that his song is nice and nobody can copy his style of writing a song.


作为今年威尼斯影展的闭幕电影，《如果·爱》已前往威尼斯。作为一部爱情歌舞片，《如果·爱》的原声大碟抢在电影之前，在全亚洲同步上市。电影中多位演员也在片中载歌载舞，除了唱家班的学友及曾推出两张专辑的周迅，阔别国语歌坛五年多的金城武专诚为电影献声，而《大长今》“闵大人”的池真熙也挑战难度，为电影亲身配音及灌录国语录歌。电影国语原声大碟收录：张学友主唱《如果·爱》电影主题曲，并有多首由男女主角对唱的作品，如金城武、周迅合唱两首歌曲“十字街头”、“忘了我是谁”；池真熙的“美丽故事”，还有首度与学友合唱歌曲“命运曲”。至于单挑歌曲，周迅主唱“外面”、池真熙的“人生蒙太奇”、金城武的“假如”、张学友的“你是爱我的”、“男人本该妒忌”，以及久未有推出新曲的齐秦所唱的“外面的世界”也是舞动心弦的情歌。


⊙剧情简介

孙纳出身贫苦但志存高远，为了生存和成功，她不择手段，终于成为人人艳羡的大明星，然而命运弄人，十年之后在她要努力忘记一切的时候，她生命中两个重要的男人同时出现了--三人要同演一出戏，剧情和命运却惊人的相似，戏里戏外，已难分真假，在孙纳的心中，到底有没有爱过，他与他，究竟如何抉择……


⊙影片看点

该片耗资 8000 万人民币，由当年陈可辛执导的经典爱情影片《甜蜜蜜》、《金枝玉叶》的原班人马倾力制作，被业内人士预测为2005年最具观赏价值的华语影片。陈可辛表示，近几年他监制的几部电影如《晚娘》、《春逝》、《三更》系列在日韩和东南亚地区都取得不错的市场成绩，但是他始终认为华语电影的最终市场还是在内地，于是《如果…爱》成为他进军内地电影市场的第一部作品。陈可辛说，《如果…爱》的主题和《甜蜜蜜》一脉相承，但更注重影片的商业元素，因为他发现吸引内地观众走进影院的都是一些耗资巨大、充斥动作和特效的影片。于是他特别请到为《名利场》等好莱坞影片担任过歌舞创作大师的 Farah Khan 助阵，编排设计影片中的歌舞部分。陈可辛强调道，歌舞是用来包装影片的华丽外衣，观众只有走进影院，才能感受爱情主题的细腻和视听感受的奢华绚烂。


⊙学友与“如果爱”

“如果爱”是什么？它有一个问号在里面，如果就是不确定，爱是什么东西？如果你真的爱了应该怎么样？如果你爱了，会是一个态度！每个人都想明白，谁是自己生命不该错过的真爱！

张学友的“如果爱”，是陈可辛的、周迅的、金城武的、池珍熙的、他自己的“如果爱”的核心！

悲凄凄不是张学友最擅长的，但是他宁愿自己做戏也要做到极致。收敛起冷静犀利的嗓音，他的声线轻轻划过耳际，像蓝丝绒上划过的白珍珠，高贵清冷。舒缓而柔畅的旋律一点一点地涌过来，这一次没有排山倒海，力道却还是遮掩不住，透露在字里行间的滋味是有些黯然、萧索和晦涩的，的确，“每个人都想明白，谁是自己生命不该错过的真爱！”

张学友的“如果爱”是有情节的，那是一个男人深爱着另外一个女人的故事，女人又在某年某月的某一天巧遇了初恋的男友，三个人的局面只是掌握在了一个人手中，于是，他是导演、他改变了原本的命运，水到渠成的，然后色彩一点一点剥落，直至模糊不清。每个人都在拼命地确定着，确定着属于自己的那一份感情归宿，最终却落得个“闭上眼睛久久不能释怀”的下场，都是因为心碰触了爱！

冷静、柔顺、波澜不惊，这回到了张学友的原点上，只是用歌声讲述都市丛林中男女的感情纠葛而已，不能置身事外、也要像旁观者一样坦然自若，张学友以他醇厚的歌声和精妙的唱功，用音符与歌声忠实地传达了一种潜藏在心底深处的情感——如果能当时明白，后来的生命里，是快乐还是悲哀！

为了爱的义无反顾是不需要太多笔墨描述的，不与他人做比较，每个人都有自己的惊天动地，每个人都有自己的缠绵于心，所以，张学友下过很大的力道拼命地唱，却发觉“爱，在回忆里总是那么明白”！

脚步走到尽头、一切尘埃落定，清冽的旋律流淌在黯然的空气里，没有含混的音响，像是飘浮在水上的梦的呓语，将混沌的心思抽丝拨茧地捋顺。最后的终结，张学友也似乎略显疲惫地慨叹，困惑的心、流过的泪，就算结束了也已然存在，因为这就是爱！


★　歌神张学友坐镇

十一首歌曲中，张学友一人就唱了三首，其中包括电影的主题曲《如果·爱》，还跟池珍熙合唱了一首歌曲，是五人中唱得最多的。这也是张学友在《雪狼湖》之后，再次尝试将音乐跟电影结合。张学友说：“怎样将音乐跟电影结合，是我这几年一直在想的事情。大家都知道，现在音乐的市场不太景气，尤其在香港。如果能跟表演结合，就能给唱歌的人找到一条新的出路，多些出路总是好的。现在我的方法还很初步，刚刚开始，还得继续深化，这条路必须要成功。我觉得在我的有生之年都不一定能成功，把这种想法催化成型，但如果成功了，香港歌手的出路就会宽很多。”而具体到这张专辑的演唱，他说他改变了一下风格，尝试了很多歌剧式的演唱方法。

★　周迅曲风大变

比张学友改变更大的，是周迅。周迅独唱了一首歌曲《外面》，并跟金城武合唱了两首。导演陈可辛说，当初之所以选钟周迅，是因为她唱歌的方式非常特别，“像在说话，对你倾诉”。但最终出来的歌曲，除了《外面》接近周迅本来的风格之外，其余歌曲都跟之前的周迅完全不同。周迅说：“因为这次唱歌跟之前做唱片完全不同，所以有很大压力。所以除了《外面》，其他歌曲都没什么把握。以前做唱片，因为我嗓音的关系，所以比较内敛。但这次，导演要求把情绪完全外放，把情感完全唱出来，非常夸张地唱。当然，有挑战也是蛮好玩的。”

★　金城武重回歌坛

金城武在这张专辑中，唱了三首歌曲，自己独唱的只有一首。一直发展自己的电影事业，原本也是歌手的金城武，已经有将近十年没有开口唱歌。此次重回乐坛，引人关注。但是由于护照出现问题，金城武没能出现在当天的发布会。对于他的演唱部分，张学友的评价非常高。周迅也认为他唱得非常好：“我们在拍戏时，现场放出金城武演唱的部分，我还感到很惊奇甚至不敢相信。”周迅跟金城武合唱的《十字街头》，陈可辛将其形容为里程碑式的。

★　池珍熙首唱中文歌曲

大长今》中的“闵大人”池珍熙也参与了这部电影，并演唱了三首歌曲，都是国语歌曲。韩国艺人唱中文歌，焦点自然是他的中文。池珍熙说：“整个过程中，我的压力很大，花了很多时间来练习中文，很怕对白或者唱歌时，说得不好，但我又希望能够做到最好。”他所唱的三首歌曲中，有两首都是独唱，难度非常大。也因此，陈可辛、张学友、周迅等都在现场大赞池珍熙，赞他非常敬业，而且透露他在拍摄期间，为了练习中文，相互交流时能说中文就说中文，非常辛苦。

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这部号称华人电影史上气势最磅礴的歌舞大片，不仅找来张学友、金城武、池珍熙和周迅这四位来自不同地方的巨星演出外，就连戏中的歌曲演唱也由四人亲自负责，并没有幕后代唱，卡司可算相当庞大。歌曲创作方面，唱片公司和电影公司亦找来多位亚洲知名且资深的音乐人参与，例如由善于做制作人和写电影作品的金培达当监制，写的歌则有台湾词人姚谦、娃娃和易家扬，以及音乐剧《四川好人》音乐总监高世章等，阵容不比张学友另一部创作音乐剧《雪狼湖》逊色太多。

不过，与其光说有什么歌星卡司或是制作班底，还是歌曲的水准方是最实际的一环。诚然，这张原声碟(这部电影)里的歌曲水准出色精致，多首歌曲在富耐听度、爱情的浪漫和歌舞片的热闹气氛之余，也富有很强的张力和一定的艺术性，风格流丽动人，很容易就让乐迷堕进那一份碟中 (毕竟电影还没上映，很难说是片中) 的氛围里，是些动听而杰出的作品，大抵有外国大片的水准，让人对电影也有一份期待。至于四位歌手则各有自己的歌唱表现，张学友的演绎就保持一贯的成熟、精湛，池珍熙以新鲜感搭救、周迅那一向偏沙的声音却能如此甜蜜，而久未唱歌的金城武亦能唱出一份忧忧的情怀。

主题歌“如果．爱”曲词俱佳，气氛浪漫抒情，学友的演绎亦动人，放在唱片的开首，是个不错的开始，像是整个故事的总览图。学友跟池珍熙唱的“命运曲”旋律尚佳，编曲的起伏得宜，两人中以学友表现得最出色，抢尽锋头，而初唱国语的池珍熙发音还好，但歌艺却被比了下去，但真的有新鲜感搭救这回事。

金城武和周迅的“忘了我是谁”是其中一首佳作，是首典型歌舞片的佳作，一听就会让人联想戏中的画面，二人的表现皆好，娃娃的词言简意远，余味挺深。“你是爱我的”和“男人本该妒忌”都是学友的作品，感情与技巧并重，挥洒自如是笔者给张学友表现的最佳评语。其他歌曲方面，周迅另外有份演绎的“外面”和“十字街头”都令人对她另眼相看，她的声音原来也可以如此柔情。

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today wanted to watch narnia and i ended up watching this movie perhaps love.
i never think that joo would wanna watch this type of movie together with me.
i always have this impression that he is those type of people who do not really like those musical.
and sometimes i just feel it's difficult to communicate in the sense that our liking for music type and style is very very different.

i think there are a lot of people who wanna watch this movie but there isn't anyone to accompany them to watch this movie.
so i think i should be thankful and feel luckily i have someone to accompany me to watch this movie.

Our Birth is our Opening Balance
Our Death is our Closing Balance
Our Prejudiced Views are our Liabilities
Our Creative Ideas are our Assets
Heart is our Current Asset
Soul is our Fixed Asset
Brain is our Fixed Deposit
Thinking is our Current Account
Achievements are our Capital
Character & Morals, our Stock-in-Trade
Friends are our General Reserves
Values & Behaviour are our Goodwill
Patience is our Interest Earned
Love is our Dividend
Children are our Bonus Issues
Education is Brands / Patents
Knowledge is our Investment
Experience is our Premium Account

The Aim should be to Tally the Balance Sheet Accurately and
The Goal should be to get the Best Presented Accounts Award

each and every member in our group would be delegated with their own portfolio and they have to take care of all the clients in their own portfolio.

so now my role in the group that i was placed under would be something like assissting my group member to ensure that all the portfolio within our group would be completed within the deadline.

and my senior tax manager would always encourage me to give them encouragement to work harder.
however i think as a junior i could encourage them but not to comment about how they work.

actually it's kindda hard for my group leader aka assistant tax manager to handle them since they would like to go back as soon as they fulfill the working hours requirement.

i would think that sometimes when it comes to performance, some of the staff they could not perform as expected and we wanna help but we do not know where to start with and how to help the person to perform better since they would be reluctant to change in the first place.

sometimes i see my group leader very hard breaking. and she is always the one who work until late in the evening and nite and yet all the staff would say that i wanna go back early. and she even have to send e-mail to the staff to ask about the progress of the tax comp.

and the feed back from the staff for the reason behind not being able to finished the job before the day end is, since she would not review the job by today i would not finished the job by today cos i will get it done 2moro and she will review it 2moro.

i think this is the most heartbreaking feedback which i think she could get as a group leader bah...

i notice that there is team work within the group, it's just that sometimes when you cannot finished the job, and you keep quite and waiting for others to open their mouth to ask you whether you need any help. i think this would not be the correct attitude of doing things in life.

i felt sorry for my group leader being scold by the director, and yet she take all the responsibility which is suppose to be bore by the group members to herself.
to a certain extent i think this is a foolish act i guess.

why? because i just simply feel that you group member would not appreciate what you have done for him / her and they are not aware of what had happened.

i think i should be thankful that i have the opportunity to handle a variety of tax cases.

so far i have handled agriculture company, dormant company, rpgt cases in the process of handling incentive application, handling trading company, assissting with manufacturing company.

and now annother opportunity come, co-operative.
this area would be a very very new area for me since it is very very rare in our firm.
i do believe that chances does not come by very very often.
i think i would grab the opportunity and perform well.
especially for rare cases.

hey why you keep looking out of the window?
look here our photographer is taking photo of us...
we are going to be a star
we are going to be famous..
yes famous... 

i think this year's theme for christmas in Mid valley should be white christmas as show in the picture above.

enjoy your christmas and remember to bring the kids to take picture if you have any 

have you ever have the experience of not seeing someone for so long and
when you see them on the road you will stop anything and everything on hand / what you are doing just to grab the opportunity to have a chat?

that day during lunch time i saw ying zhi somewhere near by the place where i'm working.

and i really stop everything and went in front and say hi.
however it doesn't turn out to be nice since we did not talk much and she seems to be very very busy.

so the next day i decided to sms her out for lunch the next monday since it's already friday.
hehe.. she actually replied me. hohoho...
the feeling is so nice.

it's seems that i'm those type of person who do not like to mix with other people and i would like to stay in my world of pc
it's time to make something different.
to take the first step and move forward and move ahead and mix with more poeple and make more friends to broaden my vision.

no doubt asking poeple out is sometimes very irritating where they will tell you this cant and have to wait for this and that person.

sometimes it's more easy to go out with those who are 'shuang kuai' and not those who are 'tuo tuo la la'

but anyway i'll be looking forward for our lunch since she is working near my office.