tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

have not really updated my blog recently.
have not really write about what i see and what i feel recently.

i do not know whether i'm really stressed out or my performance just going down.
i really need a break from what i'm doing now.
maybe a short break will do.
a nice and short one.

i wonder whether my boss would approve my leave.
verbally she say yes because i had been working very very hard

actually the reason behind myself working very hard is not because i'm really that hard working
actually is just because i hate to get compared with other poeple.
and it's very irritating that you got compared with someone else.
apple should be compared against apple and not orange.

sometimes i feel so unfair that you compare an apple with an orange.
but i still do not know how to express my dissatisfaction.

Day 1 after moving into the new office. I've yet to tidy all the files and stuffs... and I would post somemore new picture regarding my new office in the future... my new work station does not look like this now... it's even messier and I've put up a big planner targeting what should i do within this few months.

my old office place.. it's consider not as messy as before since i've moved most of the things to the new office place by the time i took this picture.

I did something crazy / I feel that it's very crazy this few days.
what did I do?

I stay up until 3.30 in the morning to finish a provisional tax computation for a company but I have yet to finish it and yesterday I stayed in the office until 11 at nite just to finish everything for my boss to review.

I was very presured this two weeks.
why?

Because my boss complaining my speed is very slow.
and I've let my client down.
I feel very bad because trough out the year I had already built up a good repo with the client from a very very not treating you very nice because you are very new to very close to you because they need your immediate attention to answer their question.
Because of client's trust I've been given the opportunity to handle all the special cases.
So i think it's a moving factor for the to stress myself further to achieve my dreams in the future.

Therefore I decided to challenge myself to my extreme.
I've been sleeping for less than 7 hours for the pass 36 hours.

But thank God it's a Public holiday in Malaysia today.
But I just feel weird that i wake up at about 6.15 which is about the time that I wake up for work.

Actually there is free vegetarian buffet near my house cos today is Wesak day.
I hope later I can eat a lot.