tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

trying very very hard for things to be at the correct position.
however things seems like they do not want to go the way they you want it to be.
it seems that things always goes against you.

try very hard to overcome it.
just when you think that it's over.
yet it's not over.

just when you think that things are getting smooth and you need not worries too much regarding this issue.
tried very hard to overcome it...
and yet i have a strong sense that things are not where they suppose to be.
it seems that i'm either wrong or i'm bad...

it seems to be affecting my performance.
and i'm suppose to be the one who people should be putting the blame on?
sometimes i wonder why and i wonder how.

i'm just feeling that there are just too much responsibility on my shoulder that i should just let the thing go...

praying that tomorrow is a brand new day.. and things would be getting on well soon :)
please pray for me as well ;)

　　她觉得她爱过他。很矫情的。

　　春天，家门口的树上总是绽放或白或粉的不知名的小花，满树都是。她喜欢这些花儿，所以总是蹲在那些树下，倚着树看天发呆。他站在她面前，挡住她眼前的那片天空，她嘻笑着把他推开。他抱她起来，任凭她的拳打脚踢雨点般地落在他的身上，背她在背上，一直走回家。他说，乖。她把脸埋在他的脖颈闲，用脸颊磨蹭着他的耳朵，耳鬓厮磨的，亲密的样子。

　　她和异性的朋友打打闹闹，他在旁边笑着看着，看她制服那些让着她的朋友时骄傲的样子，听她指着他告诉那些朋友，快，叫大哥，我就是你们大嫂。

　　他跟她细数自己身上的每一道伤痕。告诉她，这条是哪一天和谁在哪里打架留下的。看到她认真地瞪着眼睛看，他用自己的鼻子蹭她的鼻子，说，小笨蛋，不要那么担心的样子。

　　夏天下倾盆大雨的时候，她拉着他在雨里狂奔，浑身湿透。他抱紧她，说，我不要别的男人和我分享宝贝的性感。

　　秋天，他们会捡各自看到的第一片落叶给对方，把彼此的叶子悉心地夹在自己最喜欢的书里。

　　她的生日在深秋。他给她买很多很多的东西，不管她喜不喜欢，都会买很多很多放在一个很大的盒子里要送给她。在她面前却装着忘记了的样子，看她生气地噘着嘴，他捂着嘴偷偷地坏笑。

　　冬天，他会解开大衣的扣子，把她抱在里面。他的体温总是那么高，让她不知道这温度该怎样延续。

　　看悲情的电影，她会哭得稀里哗啦的。他坐在旁边，抱她在怀里，良久不说一句话，直到听见她哭累了睡着了平静的呼吸声，在黑暗里，他一个人享受这一份来之不易的安宁。

　　那时候，他们都觉得他们永远不会分开。爱对方，用一辈子都不够。

　　他们终于还是被迫要分两地，很旧的情节，只会出现在下三滥的小说里。他们没有什么山盟海誓永不分离，他们分开了，真的分开了。很彻底，QQ拉了黑名单，MSN阻止掉，手机号码删掉。他坚信，分手就代表不合适，既然不合适，为什么还要有联系给对方和好的机会？

　　春天，他在他的城市送另外一个和她很像的女孩子回家。他对自己说，他可以胜任。他原本讨厌这个女孩子，只是她与她太像。缘分的小偏差，他接受了。

　　她在很多男人身旁徘徊，不喜欢的，以为自己喜欢的，最后还是无法接受。深夜里上网的时候，她还是会希望看见那个黑名单里的男人重新加她，对她说，他忘记不了。

　　夏天下倾盆大雨的时候，他为那个女子撑着伞，伞柄直直地立在两人之间。他突然想起他为她撑伞时伞柄那么倾斜，以至于每次他都有半边衣服湿透了。

　　她坐在家里，听着窗外雨哗啦啦的声音，一个人看一本书。旁边的手机调了静音，没有开震动，但是没有关机。静音是因为不想被打扰，不关机是因为她在等待一个永远不会打来的电话给自己打来的电话，或者只是一条简讯也好。

　　秋天，他捡自己看到的第一片落叶，夹在书里，把那本书放进自己平时天天背的背囊里。闲的时候，他会翻开书读两页，看看那片落叶。但是他总是那么忙，他要工作，还有那个女子。

　　她也捡起自己看到的第一片落叶，用双面胶贴在墙上，用马克笔在上面写，我的生日在秋天。朋友来的时候，她不再打闹，而是在满屋子的喧嚣中静静地看那片贴在墙上的落叶。

　　冬天，他收到那个女子给他的圣诞礼物，一副灰色的手套。他笑了笑，把手套放进柜子，觉得自己永远都不需要。当他走出门外，才发现，这座城市的冬天，原来这么寒冷。

　　她去商场，给自己买了很多的羽绒服和毛衣，以往的冬天，她从不需要这样多的衣服。她把自己裹成一个球，出门的时候，她很纳闷，为什么今年的冬天变得这么冷？

　　又一轮冬夏。

　　春天，她家路旁的树又开花了。她还是觉得她爱他，但是他离开了。

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erm.. some interesting story i found on the net... however i doesn't understand why you love a person so much yet you let him/her go?
is it because you love the person too much?
how to understand the feeling that you think you doesn't like that particular person yet however you keep on missing him/she and he/she keep on poping out of your mind :)

Over the past few months i just feel that i'm just like the train which had when off track, everything has messed up.

just feel that i've sacrifies too much and yet not getting the results that i need.
wondering why i keep on asking myself to go back to work on a saturday morning.
is it really necessary for my work?
what are the private time for myself?
wanna follow the footsteps of my manager?
i think the answer should be definately no..
cos i wanna have a life of my own.

just feeling that i've not taken care of myself.
have not taken care of my blog.
have not spend enough time with my family.
always ask myself is this what i wanna do?
it is time to change?

yes...
to change the way i work.
to change for the better.
to change to ........

wonder whether i should keep on staying a life like tat?
not really feeling very happy

but somehow somebody told me very long time ago,
life is not about happy and happy.
but i do think that when you are happy/satisfied, most of the problem can be easily solved...
hope that this would not trouble me for too long of my time :)

sometimes i wonder why things just come and go...

remembering 6/7 years ago, me and my friend were sitting on a bus and saying that how nice it would be should this place is being able to open a mc d... then it definately have many customers and it would be much much more convinient for us to go to eat mc d...

and months just right after that, we notice that the mc d had open there.

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few months ago, me and my bf were eating at the same mc d and we were chit-chatting and we were saying all the shops around the mc d has closed down, i wonder whether it will closed down in the near future?

and today.. is the last day of operation of this mc d at jalan ipoh....

so.. this is how things come and go...
and this is so called life.

词 曲:曹格

我的心唱首歌给你听
歌词是如此的甜蜜
可是我害羞我没有勇气
对你说一句我爱你

为什么你还是不言不语
难道(是)你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意
千言万语里
只有一句话能
表白我的心
千言万语里
只有一句话就
能够让我们相偎相依

我爱你你是我的茱丽叶
茱丽叶
我愿意变成你的粱山伯
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
把爱
永远
不放开
i love you
我爱你你是我的罗密欧
罗密欧
我愿意变成你的祝英台
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
美丽的爱情祝福着未来

为什么你还是不言不语
不言不语
难道是你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意

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beautiful love song realease recently :)
but i still wonder in nowadays whether love story similar to romeo and juliet do really exist in this really realistic world?

just realised that i'm not a very good gf...
cos i let you down again and again.
until you nearly give up hope on me...
i do hope you wouldn't

broken my promise many times.
it's just that i don't know how to request?
and i don't understand why aren't they are okay with me going back with you.

listening to fish's album all the time.
and realised that i'm sick last nite...
my nose i stuck.. keeping running and running... why? because it is sad and wanna run away from the reality... so it become the running nose...

then comes my throat... i dunno why it is so sore..
is it because i'm sad?
or it is because i'm just too tired..?????????????

or because the mr J sitting beside me bring all his virus and spread it to me d?
terrible la...
how to focus on work?
very sien to work like that...
there are ton and ton of work waiting for me and yet i do wonder whether i would have the capability to finished it.

i'm just too tired.
i'm just too lazy.
i'm wondering what i should i do next...
on leave?
take mc?
yer... i'm in doubt..

词曲:梁静茹

有时候会有些想念 他乡里温暖的阳光
那是我可以避雨的地方
有时候会有些彷徨 直到你来到我身旁
保护我像妈妈的手一样
这个时候你是我温暖的翅膀
让我飞到最安全角落

但愿你一直守护我 用力的紧紧拥抱我
陪着我找那下一步的我
但愿你一直听着我 我唱着的歌你会懂
还在说我的眼眶里 已经泪光闪烁

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this song is specially dedicated for the friend who is going away from Malaysia.

finally get fish's new album...
hope it will help me go through the days without you.
or all the while you are not around.. it's just that i do not wanna admit it.
you are just a passanger who had went trough a short journey with me.

and for now.. we have to be seperated and go for our own seperate way.
but do hope that you are okay and everything works well for you :)

wonder what is holding me back...
why i'm hesitating...
what is holding me back from working very hard as a staff..
being paid too low...

erm... i like satisfaction in work rather than high pay?

~~~~~~~~~ to be continue~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

today we had a gathering at mc d.. and the above are photo taken during the gathering...

瑄:卸下美丽的外壳
透明的我们还剩下什么
爱情就像水晶球
坚固而脆弱

格:一个人也需自由
两个人而感动大过天空
喜怒哀乐统统拥有
不让你恨留

baby I Still Believe
我也可以走过峦流
紧紧握住双手
一秒就够 不孤单寂寞

baby I Still Believe
爱要有梦才会快乐
就算未来的路不同
你在我心中
到永久。。


卸下美丽的外壳
透明的我们还剩下什么
爱情就像水晶球
坚固而脆弱

一个人也需自由
两个人而感动大过天空
喜怒哀乐统统拥有
不让你恨留

合:baby I Still Believe
爱也可以走过挽留
轻轻握住双手
一秒就够 不孤单寂寞

baby I Still Believe
爱要有梦才会快乐
就算未来的路不同
你在我心中到永久

感觉很闷时候
我抱你在我胸口
当你泪留的时候

合:我在这里补痛 NO
瑄:爱散发的温柔
在此刻用心感受
我想和你一起让幸福转动

合:baby I Still Believe
爱也可以走过峦流
紧紧握住双手
一秒就够 不孤单寂寞

baby I Still Believe
爱要有梦才快乐
就算未来的路不同
你和我到永久

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my colleague say this song is nice.. so i went to get it...
erm...sounds okay to me :)

我曾深刻体会 对爱感到胆怯
还好有懂我的你 给我安慰

看你失落的脸 又再为爱憔悴
我心痛的感觉竟如此的强烈

眼角的泪 它给过谁
伤透了心 也无所谓
我会愿意 静静地
陪在你身边

如果说爱 已不可为
那我宁愿 藏心里面
其实我害怕会失去你的感觉

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
又深怕朋友默契转身不见
矛盾着犹豫不决
没准备 跨越爱的界线

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
进与退 被爱包围
谁犯规 都狼狈
谁能解围 让一切完美

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
你和我 拥抱瞬间
不后悔 这暧昧
星光唯美 把爱放心里面

Joe was not a very romantic person, and furthermore he was rather stupid. But he wanted to impress his wife, so he took her out for an anniversary dinner and watched the couples around them, following their leads.

He observed the couple next to him. The man lifted a sugar shaker towards his wife's cup and said, "Sugar, sugar?" Joe thought this was great and continued to listen around the dining room.
Another table over Joe observed the following. A man spooned out some honey out of a bowl for his wife and asked, "Honey, honey?"
Again Joe thought this was good stuff.

Finally, he cut off a piece of his meat, stared longingly into his young wife's eyes and said, "Ham, pig?"