tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

convo flower from my mom very very pinkiesh rite?the berry are specially ordered to put inside the bouqet... 

mr goh joo joo.. my bf lo.. 

suddenly feel that i miss my grandpa a lot and a lot.
suddenly feel that i really miss the time i spent with him.

always act like let people think that i never grow up.
just that i really miss my grandpa and the time i spend with him.
just wonder god would wanna take his live so soon as he is such a caring and loving person to everyone in the family?

sometimes i really wonder why there is generation gap?
why we always tell poeple that our father do not understand me la.. bla bla bla bla...
i had a bad relationship with my family member la...
sometimes i just feel that live is too short.
so no matter how hard or how pain your family member hurt you,
all you should do is just forgive them and give them all the love you can give to them.
no matter how you cannot erased the fact that they are your family member.
the things that you can change is only how you want to treat them.

is whether you wanna give them 1,2,3 or 4
1 - turn your back around (stranger)
2 - just look at them (ordinary friend)
3 - shake their hand (friend)
4 - hug them (buddy)

it's all about how you wanna rate people in your life.
sometimes you might really wanna rate them as 1 and just ignoring them and even hope they are out of your lives and hope that you would never ever see them again.

however, everything you do, there is a mirror.
if you rate poeple 1, have you ever think that there would also be poeple who will rate you as one as well?

sometimes we tought time will heal the wound.
but eventually the wound might be difficult to heal.
but there would alway be a scar there.

sometimes i feel that when people are complaining that they are very cham ar.. this and that, please just open your ears and borrow them your ears for the moment.
just let them express themself.
sometimes is just good to listen.

sometimes i reallised that things that i do not like about it i would show faces.
but somehow i feel that if other poeple do not want to follow your way of doing things, just let it be.
practice the culture of letting go.

eventough we would still tell ourself that it's easy to talk than taking action.
but sometimes and somehow you should learn to let go.

this coming saturday is my convocation day.
i would be returning my gown on the monday morning.
my friend kept on asking me whether wanna take photo with lecture.
somehow, i think it would be nice to take photo with lectures,
even we are without the graduation gown.

i suddenly feel that it is childish to purposely wear the convocation gown and take photo with the lectures after the convocation day.
i do not know why i suddenly have this feeling.

remember my mom always told me,
people acting like crazy you don't follow them also.
but usually i do not listen to them.
however, this time,
i feel that it's too acting to purposely go and meet the lectures and take photo with them.
i do hope that i am able to contact all the lectures to be around on saturday so that they could take picture with us after our convocation.

however, everything is perfect during the planning stage,
but in actual fact things do not always go as how we want it to be.
have to prepare for the unexpected event rite?

the all time malaysian style.

today i went to college to collect my gown as this coming saturday will be my convocation day.
actually i reach the place at around 8.15am and i eventually slip in the line to get a better place hoping that i would be able to get the gown faster.

erm.. first thing happened is erm.. the person who i dun reli like is standing behind me, and i bulat bulat cut his que..(haha i'm bad i'm bad you know it)

the standing there waiting for almost an hour before the place open.
the line was becoming more and more and more group and group and more poeple are lining up in front of our que.

then the person who i dun like said that he go to the front to talk wit friends and the fuller never appear again. maybe he already slip into the line in front and never return or he dun like to see me haha...

and we line and line and line up until about 10 finally we almost reach the front.
and the crowd in front of us is like taking 3-5 lines and the indian lady in charge is asking everyone to make only one line.
and this had made the line longer and longer.

finally until 10.30 it's almost my turn and the bunch of guys and gals in front were making two lines. the indian aunty was kindda upset and ask those people to line up in one line.
i refused to give them to line in... i think i'm bad.

when it's finally my turn, i notice there is something wrong.
the indian aunty told me that my friend's deposit and also the form is not with her.
OMG... do i have to line up all over again to get the gown for my friend?
oh no if like tat i would be pengsan over and over again.
luckily the aunty say you do not need to line up again. just come and take the gown.

i have to run all the way to admission to get the form and deposit.
then run back to submit the form and deposit.
on my way, i think i drop someone's ticket and also the invitation card.
my friends was saying that who's card is that?
if nobody i take geh la.
then i say dun be so bad take other people's thing.
then i straight away went to take the gown for my friend already.
dunno whether they really took the invitation card from the people or not.
but it's already non of my business and nothing related to me already lo.
erm trying the gown see whether it fits on me or not.
this time i'm clever.
i took size S.
cos the convo gown eventough it's size S when u wear it on it would seems like size XL to u if your very very small size.

after taking the gown,
we went to tbr to have lunch.

the jean yee send lay ching and her friend to the lrt station.
lay ching is currently working in the fraud department for citi bank and the pay is about 2000++ but the work is boring and you have to face the computer for long hours.
long working hours. looking at the transactions to detact any suspecious transaction.
i cannot imagine myself working with this kind of job.

later me and jean went to one u for movie
since it is weekdays there was not many people around.
but the parking lot seems a bit full.
however we still managed to get a nice parking space.

jean suggested that we go watch the movie call stealth.
and after we bought the tickets it was still quiet early
we went for a walk.
i was looking for the shop which kononya from the radio advertisment is brought in from hk by the famous dj chan fong.
but when i walk inside the shop, the feeling of the dress of the shop not really suit my taste.

then about 1pm we went to watch movie.
we wanted to buy the pop corn when we are inside the cinema,
but there wasn't any pop corn selling inside the cinema.
therefore we have to buy the pop corn outside the cinema lo.
cham... but since we buy the pop corn combo large, they giv us one can of drinks free.

then we go in to watch the movie.
we sit inside the cimena for about half an hour to watch all the advertisement and preview and stuff.
as when we are thinking the show should be starting,
suddenly there was nothing on the screen.
totally dark.
me and jean yee was waiting patiently and eating up all our pop corn and stuff.
when we already finished our pop corn,
the show is not ready yet.
the show went on and off the screen later.
and we totally dunno wat's the show about.

finally the personnel of gsc went us due to technical problem... bla bla bla bla... please go outside and get your refund.
oh yes can get refund.
and then me and jean yee walk very fast out to the counter and claim back our refund

we give them back the ticket and we notice that they actually pay us back rm10 while we only pay rm6 for the movie. wow untung and get free pop corn lo..
haha...
fast fast cabut.
when we already go down, we notice that we went to the wrong exit and we went back the the gsc floor again and go out from there.

what an frustrating but interesting experience for me;)

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told myself to clean up the messy room but my room still in a mess.
seems that i do not really realised my promise to myself rite?
i have a weird habbit about cleaning up.
i like to clean up during the middle of the nite.
seems that i have better mood doing that in the middle of the night.
weirdo me...
still have a lot of things which is pending.
my laudry...

2moro going to college to collect the gown for my convo.
yeah it has been a long long time since i had gone back to the college.
miss the lectures neh...
hope they are free to chat.
but it seems that this week they are busy.
why?
they are busy preparing exam scripts which is gonna used to sit for the september exam.
i think it would be a suitable time to sneak in and curi tengok the scrips
haha...
what a wonderful idea....
haha....

seems that i'm going a bit hair wayered.
crazy.. jus wanna express myself.
after a long long time not blogging.
just wanna split out my feelings and fill in the space on my blog
haha...

after so many months and days already....
my room still in a mess
too shy for me to post the picture of my room
cos it's really really in a mess
what to do?
i'm a lazy person.
have arranged too many program for myself.
and time is the limited resources

long long time never update my blog already
yeah... working life had used up most of your time.
but i think the thing which is more time consuming is pak tuo gua.
cos when you are with your bf or gf you would rarely think of blogging.

been to many shopping centres lately.
mid valley, sogo, carefour wangsa maju, one utama, tesco puchong, metro prima kepong.....
shopping for groceries
gosh...
i miss going to kl and shop at the book shop like popular.

normally people always complain about your this and that,
they would always say why your room so messy la...
why you do not tidy it la....
i would say why don't you help me to tidy it?
they would say you tidy yourself la.
then they would 'tambah'
if i tidy ar.. i would throw all these things away your 'rubbish' will gone half.

but for me... i think i'm really is a person who is very 'zhong gan qing'
i really prefer to keep things which other people thinks it is rubbish rather than throw it away and regret for live.

yesterday my uncle called and ask me to lend him a bag for camping.
and i'm searching all over the house for a bad which is suitable and
suddenly i just realised that i've so many bag which i carry to college.
i'm questioning myself.
whether i wanna start throw them away?
they have many many memory for me.
they have spend all of their life with me studying and stuff.

suddenly that i've think of i have the money to buy the bag.
and yet there are still children out there who do not have money to even go to school.
should we appreciate what our parents had done?
should we appreciate what our parents had given us?
and be thankful and stop complaining that our parents do not understand what we are thinking.
how about us?
do we understand how they think?
do we really care about them?
we always complaint about others din treat us like this and that...
and how about ourself? do we do the same thing?

twin brothers wit the dirty cat face 

small little gift from my boss sarah... i heard it is made by herself... nice and cool leh? 

it has been a long long time since i last blog.
it is not really nothing for me to blog,
it is just that i'm too tired to blog.

i wanted to stop for the part time job.
sometimes i feel not worth for my effort to do the job
but for the sake of reposibility i have to finished keying in the invoice for the company for the month of june.
E kept asking me to finished keying in invoice for the month of june.
i know i'm already being an expert to key in all the invoice and do not need to refer to anything to know the product code.
but however, i surender.

things cannot be finished.
i dunno.
sometimes i just do not like the way they beg u to stay back and finished all the things.
is not about money.
sometimes i just think that i'm wasting my precious time.
they would tell you, you stay back got money to earn ma...

the problem is money is not my problem ma...
it the value for my time spend there is not equavalent to the things that i wanted to learn.

most of the things i have touched and looked.
and have already tidy up somethings which is quiet messy
and sometimes i already have no eyes to see them.

lesson learn from the company:-
1. your senior would act like they are very superior than you. but in actual fact they are not. you would know who are willing to teach you and who are not. some they just cincai teach you and when you do something wrong they would question you. why you do like that.some of them prefer you to do it their way which is the long cut way or for me i call it the c2pid way.

2. nobody will teach you the shortcut way. they would usually tell you that there is no short cut way. but i notice is either they do not know the short cut way, or they want to keep the short cut way to themself.

3. sometimes i think no matter how good you are in your studies, you are still zero when you are fresh at work. you would have to be careful. and be prepared to be bullied by people lo.

take care for my friends who are going to get a job like me.

Somewhere Out There
performed by Linda Ronstadt and James Ingram
from the movie An American Tail (1987)

written by James Horner, Barry Mann, Cynthia Weil

Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight
Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight

Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer
That we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there

And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star

And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

And even though I know how very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star

And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there if love can see us through
Then we'll be together somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
this is a song from a movie related to the mouse migrating to america.
its a very very touching movie
still like this song very very much

annother picture of the gife :P 

the gift i win from 988 serento... seems a lot but should be able to get more but have to go to work already
 

blog this picture again 

goh joo joo driving... curi curi take his picture... he will scold me anyway... 

i was waiting for the good show.
but eventually there wasn't any good show.

but sarah had actually employed someone who is better than the person who had run away after her pile of mess.

even the auditor had a lot of question that need to ask her.
but she is not around.
'this one is not me who handle it....
those document are lost during the time when we shift the office....
bla.. bla.. bla...'
actually we notice that she actually do not have much actual knowledge about accounting.
just that her experience result to her staying in the company for many years

now her privious manager had gone and the new finance manager is looking very closely at each transaction that had been made so that there would not be any possibility of fraud that would occur during the case of incuring any services.

i think i should be working until next week.
till then i would be unemployed again

today met my secondary monitor.
i think she came back from rusia for holiday.
still with the same boy friend.
actually i was glad to see her again.
basically i totally lost contact with all those secondary friend and don't mention about those in the primary.

sometimes i just feel that after so much time,
i am more and more protective and you would not easily see that i am nauty and very very true to my friends is i consider you as just friends.

i would like to help poeple
but sometimes i would feel very very reluctant to get close to people.
why?
cos sometimes i just feel that when you get close to other poeple,
some secret that you would wanna share with them only would become a know item among the friends.
sometimes i feel sick and tired about it.
so i decided not to be too closed to poeple.

but i also received complaint that i do not have many friends.
i think it should be part of my life gua.
since i'm to only child in the family and i already get used to those things that i should or should not do.
and already used to being distance from poeple and
enjoy doing things alone.

i do treasure that is always somebody who support me la...
treasure the friendship that i have la.

just now listen to chan fong's program.
he said if you feel that the person is not suitable for you,
you should better let go.

is not whether you scared to loss so that you would not let go of the relationship that is not good for you.
he said that if you already willing to give up something that is not good for you,
you already consider gaining form your action.

tought we will be having our convo by ourself.
but i was wrong.
my convo will be with other courses.
but we would be the first course to be on the stage.
convo info
kindda disappointed leh.
erm... hope it would be a special convocation for all of us.

if you always go to those company which is very very normal and have a very very good system, you would not see what's a problem that might occur in a company.

last time when we study audit, we know that there is a lot of document that need to have a serial number, and many document that need to have duplicate copy.

last time i working in a audit and tax firm i never notice why the receptionist should be the one who handle the courier services.
i know and notice the person who is handling the courier service should be a person who is very very feirce enough to fight for the best courier service for the company.
it would seems that on time delivery would be important for a service company.
but i think the delivery sheet for the delivery company is really like shit.
why? cos they are not serially numbered and cannot be traced easily.
told sarah about this problem.
but she really have to many problem that she need to tackle.
she really cannot put much attention on this matter lo.

yeah sarah is correct.
there should be proper documentation for services and good that we had incurred.
we do not simply pay for things that we did not incurred.
that is not the proper way of doing things.

the company system really got problem.
this is what my bf told me when he first went to the company to settle their previous year accounts.
i really dunno what is the problem.

when i come to this company i've realised that this company really have problem as what my bf had said.
there are a lot and a lot of paper work.
and a lot of paper document
income tax and law requires a company to keep proper documentation for 7 years wor.
how?
do they have so much space as they could file all this document?

and annother thing is they have many many document but they do not have people to key in the transactions.
then just get the figure using the spread sheets?
would the reporting be up to date?
erm i really wonder about it.

it seems really weird....
why? i can blog but i cannot view my web page lo.

is it something related to the bombing in london and my web site also kena bomb as well? how come?
what had happened?

the work load is very very heavy.
a lot of things to settle but should i tell myself.
there is nothing that i cannot handle.
there is nothing i cannot settle.

i just wonder i feel weird why must a son or daugther pay their parents when they get their first pay cheque?
i just wonder.
i really have a tight budget.
i really have no more money to save.
there is a needing to spend on something i longing for a long long while.
i do not like the feeling of being forced to do something.

i would like to do things i want to do.
and not forced to do.
but it seems difficult to realised this.
everyone also want to do things willingly or do things by yourself.

sometimes i really feel that if things that i wanna do i would do it perfectly
if there is things that i dun wanna do i would not do it nicely or just get it done.
and that's end of story?
erm...
i wonder i think this is one of the attitude that i should change gua

all my 'chat kaki' form college are in Shefied, UK for the moment.
poor me. kasian saya.
But, i just feel that i would not have the determination to continue my studies in acounting, maybe for the moment.
If there is more accounting stuff to learn ahead i think i should be vomiting already.

But for the moment, i would like to have a clear picture of something which is related to accounting.
that is the accounting standard.
every country have thier own accounting standard and most likely the accounting standards are similar to the international accounting standards.
therefore no matter where you are, if you are doing accounting you would still have to deal with accounting standards.

Eventough accounting standards are not law in accounting, but they are guilines for commercial , auditing and public sectors to follow in preparing and auditing the accounts.
the accounting standards is a guidelines for the company to decide how much information need to be disclosed when they are preparing the financial report.

however, for internal purpose, the presentation of accounting would definately depends on the requirement of the users and the purpose of using the accounting information.
sometimes there is information that is required by other department and some information is confidential.
therefore i could be considered that there is not fixed format for the internal reporting, however, it should not run away too much from the normal external reporting.

durian season come already
i was suprise that today i have durian to eat
yeah durian
why?
cos today my dad's boss give my dad some durian.

last time when the durian are those very very expensive fruits,
we usually say that my dad would not be willing to bye any durian
why?
cos my dad is kindda stingy.
and we always say if my dad will buy durian home then it would snow in malaysia.

now things are kindda diffirent
but it is stil same case that daddy would rarely buy durian.

but still like durian very very much?
why?
cos durian is king of all fruits and i like it very very much lo
haha
but after eatting during should drink a lot and a lot of water lur.

希望有你存在的地方就是自己的天堂。
那么没有你，生活就好像身处地狱了吗？

情愿放弃精彩的机会，选择了平凡的你。
可是自己这么样的牺牲，你会发觉吗？

希望你会是自己的天堂。
希望有你在身边的日子永远都是天堂。