tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

i do not know why other poeple would write my name wrongly.
my name is 叶緻庄.
i feel sometimes it's weird that other poeple try to change your name to 叶"致"庄
which is in a way that is not correct.

i wonder why all my cousin sister's class teacher all say that their name is wrong.
they cannot use "緻" and in stead they need to use "致" as "緻" is considered a wrong word in the simplified chinese character.

i do feel weird that i've been using this name for 24 years in my life and i do not see how my name is wrong.
why do they not dare to fight for their own rights. the teacher has no right to say that someone's name is correct or wrong.
but now my cousin sister is used to writing the name as "致" instead of "緻" and now she feels very lazy to change back to "緻".

i do see the rasional of my grandfather giving us the name of "緻" which indicates a name of a gal and "致" which indicates a name of a boy.
by using "致" instead of "緻" does it indicate 男女平等?

but i do think that the name is so meaningful that not a teacher has the right to change the name which is given by your grand parents or parents.

so i do insist that if you wanna write my name, you have to write 叶緻庄. if not please call me tc. :)

above are picture of decoration of my office place.
actually i was shocked when i first saw the decoration.
and it really attracted a lot of attention to our group which we never have b4.

just think that life would be back to normal after chinese new year gua.

i'll be going off to penang 2moro...
have a lot of things which i have yet to do..
have to save all photo inside the pc
and also pack my clothes

it seems difficult task and many things to do..
but i think if you wanna do,
nothing is impossible
everything is possible..
and i'm working on it now ;)

i do not understand why you keep on say such things?
why need to keep on saying those not very good things?

just because other people's occupation then we say other people is not good?
i wonder why.
i do not understand...
i do not understand...
i do not understand...

what should i do?
should i listen to you?
or should i listen to my heart?
what else should i do?
i do not understand..
i cannot understand..
i do not understand how could i continue to respect you.
i do not understand how to interpret what you say is true or false.

其实我并没有告诉你我真的很想念你。
很想可以和你好好的坐下来聊一聊。
但是我却不想主动去联络你。
我是被动的。
无奈你也是同样被动的人吧。
或许是这样让彼此有很多的误会和误解。

很努力地修补我们之间的裂痕。
可是伤口很深，很难愈合。
或许这样让自己觉得有些心痛有些可惜。

that day i search the web.. and look at some blog and saw this written by melody

"我最近在想.....朋友真的有一輩子的嗎？
我們通常講“分手" (breakup)是形容男女之間的感情
可是我覺得好朋友之間也有可能有這種狀況發生.......
"為什嗎"？"這麼會"？你問我？我也還在尋找答案....
我覺得長大了已後， 朋友之間多多少少會開始有一些distance...
大家各忙各的， 談戀愛的談戀愛， 結婚的結婚, etc....
在人生的分叉路口，是不是友情也會“分叉"？
從小到大， 我們走的路是平行的﹣肩並肩， 無話不談的知心密友
我總是很天真的以為我們會best friends forever and ever..............
可是接近３０歲的我們不知不覺的被人生帶到不同的方向....
我向左走，她向右走
慢慢的發現已前每天必需要講１０幾通電話的我們，現在連２通都講不到....
不是不想講，而是想講也找不到幾個共同話題了.......
很sad,很難過....我們那天把我們的這種feeling講開了
發現maybe這是個新的開始， 我們都長大了，事情都變多了,so我們的friendship也會跟著改變
Maybe Its time to say goodbye to what our friendship was in the past and embrace what it will become....
. But I'm STILL SAD! I just wish we could still be the way we were:("

其实那年想要告诉你的是如同上面的文章一样的心情。
可能是我的表达能力不够好吧！
所以就说成了不要再做好朋友了！
一直让自己反省，
想一想自己是对的还是错的。
如果你很偶然地看见我的心情日记，
可以请你告诉我你的答案和看法吧！

i've send you a simple sms jus to wish you happy chinese new year..
nothing special
no special intention.

then only i realised that you had lost my contact.
you lost my number.

considering whether wanna reply your sms..
whether wanna let you know who i am..
notice and realised i hurt you.
but just because i would not want more poeple to be hurt because what i did previously.
and realised i should be responsibile for what i did.
so i never feel regret cos i hurt you.
just wanna let you have a better future..
rather than to be with me.

so.. i'll consider within this month whether wanna let u know who i am.
maybe i'll jus remain annomemous..
:)

人 =吃饭 + 睡觉 +上班 +玩 ,
猪 =吃饭 + 睡觉 ,
代入 :人 =猪 +上班 +玩 ,
即 :人 -玩 =猪 +上班
结论 :不懂玩的人 =会上班的猪


Human = eat + sleep + work + enjoy
Pigs = eat + sleep
Hence, Human = Pigs + work + enjoy
if, Human – enjoy = Pigs + work
in other words, Human that don't know enjoy = pigs that work


男人 =吃饭 + 睡觉 +挣钱
猪 =吃饭 + 睡觉
男人 =猪 +挣钱
猪 =男人 -挣钱
所以男人不挣钱等于猪


Men = eat + sleep + earn money
Pigs = eat + sleep
Hence, Men = Pigs + earn money
if Men – earn money = Pigs
in other words,
Men that don't earn money = Pigs


女人 =吃饭 + 睡觉 +花钱。
猪 = 吃饭 + 睡觉。
代入上式得： 女人= 猪+ 花钱
移项得：女人- 花钱= 猪
结论：女人不花钱的都是猪


Women = eat + sleep + spend
Pigs = eat + sleep
Hence, Women = Pigs + spend
if, Women – spend = Pigs
In other words, Women that don't spend = Pigs


综上：
男人为了让女人不变成猪而挣钱!
女人为了让男人不变成猪而花钱！
男人 + 女人 =两头猪
祝天下的猪们快乐 ^_^


Summary:
Men earn money not to let women become pigs!
Women spend not to let men become pigs!
Men + Women = 2 Pigs
Wish all the pigs happy forever!!
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recently received this e-mail
found it very interesting..
so wanna share it with everyone here..
and happy 'pig year'

Notice this advertisement on the 'sin chew' website.

found that it was quite interesting and meaningful.
as such, just wanna share it with all of us.. (youngster)

"to share the joy of this festive season by enjoying PETRONAS commercials on PETRONAS website. "

Click Here for more details

it's about a bunch of old people who has no children to celebrate the chinese new year with them.
nobody to eat 'tuan nian fan' with them.
at the end of the advertisement it states that
"old folks alone at one place, maybe maybe we should go home for chinese new year"
i think this year petronas did a very interesting and meaningful cny ad.

cny is a season of celebration,
and also a season to spend more time with your parents, grand parents and
relatives even every year they will ask you the same old question and same old story:-
"graduate already ar?"
"where are you working ar?"
"got gal friend/boy friend alreay ar?"
"when getting married ar?"

but looking at thing at the other angle...
you should be happy to be able to answer their question every year.
this proves the following:-
1) they are still very much alive
2) they are concern about you
3) they still maintain a good relationship with you.

i used to think that cny is a season of 'making money' because people will give you ang pow
but instead my parents make 'losses' cos i'm the only child so.. if i received RM 2/5 and the relative have 2-3 children my parents already 'rugi'
haha :)

season of chinese new year..
season of sharing..
please share your toughts of chineses new year with me :)

it seems that i have decided to take up the changes in my life lately.

i.e.

i decided to change my phone to a colour phone despite many people has changed to their respective colour phone ages ago.
however, this phone will be a temporary one.. until i decided to get a latest sony ericsson latest mobile phone... till then.. will update you when i got the new phone :)

hairstyle... decide to start to take care of my 'rumput' like hair.. from the very minute i decide to keep it long i think it meant trouble to me. i always wonder why my hair take so long a time to grow beyond the length of my shoulder. maybe it's because i have a long neck?
so.. yesterday decided to give my hair a trim. easy and frequent hair falls and also ugly middle splitting hair style has always been my nite mare...
now my hair styles look like? haha.. i dunno how to describe...
my hairstylist told me not to scratch my head so much as to protect my skull.
and she cut my fringe. never have such short fringe since primary.. i think should be good thing to me cos it serve the purpose of ensuring that my middle splitting hair sytle would be changed to side splitting sytle and stay that way..
than.. this lazy.. t0m@k0 have to work very hard to take care of it.

they always say 'there are no ugly women, but lazy women' however i think the actual fact is good looking women, tends to take money to build up their good look... and i would say no money no talk..

that's all i wanna talk about the changes in life..

i'm learning... learning how to be patient...
how to be willing to let go of things that you cant handle.

someone told me that i have the tendancy to not willing to let go of the job.
why?because i feel that it's my reponsibility to complete the job..
and i do not want my inefficiency to slow down the job completion.

sometimes i have a hard time in the sense that i've disagreement with my boss.
i do not agreed with the why she do the job? sense of urgentcy?
i'm the staff in charge of the job i do not know which is more important and which is not?
i feel uneasy with the situation is ... i agreed to get somebody to help out with the job when i'm having training, but i do expect the development of the job and what i need to do to follow up to be stated clearly.

if you want to say i'm dumb dumb..
i do accept the fact that i'm still fresh and
admit that people do make mistakes.

if you want to pass the job out and eased my responsibility,
i do hope i could simply be brief how the things would be like and i have no worries with the job on my hand.

sometimes i'm very upset and feel like want to quit...
but on the other hand..
i just feel that giving up the things i like to do just because of something simply c2pid.. i feel it's not worth the cost and it's not beneficial to me at all :)

yesterday nite, suddenly received an order there is an urgent job on hand. at the same time i have a full day training
yesterday i received an urgent job and the thing need to be finished within this week
then today is very crucial lo
but i got training ma
then my boss ask me who can help me to do things lo
she suggested a more senior staff (MR J).. but J was busy with his work and instead i suggested the junior staff (MR K) to handle my case as K seems to have lesser urgent job on hand.
then today right after i went for training 2day my boss ask K to help out with my urgent job by preparing a letter and Form to client.
However, there is something which i did not expect is my class actually ended earlier. full day class become half day class.
Knowing that i'm very 'gan jiong' of my work, i asked my boss how's the development of the urgent job.
then my boss tried to 'convienced me' saying that i need not worry about the job and Mr K will be assisting me on the job (i.e. i can go back for class after lunch) then i say 'huh? my class finished already'.
(i think this is why mr K was offended?)
and at the same time the manager request for me to be in charge of the case. maybe this is why his a bit upset about not being able to help gua...
then in the afternoon i tried to look for Mr K's assisstant by asking him to help me to photocopy some documents. but he refused to help by saying 'i do not know how to use the photocopy machine upstairs as it is too big of a size'. i think it's all rubbish excuse. i say fine.. you do not what to help.. then everything it's okay with me.. i do not need you 'kind' assisstant...

then i stay back for one to two hours just to finished the job.
i'm not consider bad la..
ya i know the intention of the boss is to fully utilised the resources available and subsequently achieve the best result for client.
i also want the junior to learn...
just that the attitude is not correct, it's difficult for us to help them.

This is a CLASSIC!

An Indian, a Chinese and a Malay were in a terrible car accident.
They were all brought to the same emergency room, but all of them died
before they arrived.

Just as they were about to put the toe tag on the Indian, he opened his
eyes. Astonished, the doctors and nurses present, asked him what
happened.

"Well," said the Indian, "I remember the crash, and then there was a
beautiful light, and then the Chinese and the Malay and I were standing
at the gate of heaven. An Angel approached us and said that we were too
young to die, and that for a donation of $50, we could return to earth.
So, of course I pulled out a $50 from my wallet and the next thing I
knew I was back here."

"That's amazing!" said one of the doctors. "But what happened to the
other two?"

"Last I saw them" replied the Indian, "the Chinese was bargaining over
the price and the Malay was waiting for the government to pay for his."

sometimes i feel it's weird... working for a few manager.
i think now is the time for me to grow up..
learn more.. learn to be independent.
i think other poeple will see myself as a dependent person
do not know how to take care of myself.
however, i just feel that everyone has their own way of living.

have yet to set my resolution, however i have had some clear idea of what i want and i will make clear of it soonest possible.