tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

people say you should be close to her the most...
since she is the first person you would ever get contact with when you come to this world.
but i dunno why i'm always angry at her or mad about her...
without any special reason.

maybe there are some reason behind which i do not wanna review myself and i'm afraid of it. since the day i know about it.
since i know the ugly truth...

詞：嚴云農　曲：曾志豪

如果海會說話　如果風愛上砂
如果　有些想念遺忘在漫長的長假

我會聆聽浪花　讓風吹過頭髮
任記憶裡的愛情在時間潮汐裡喧嘩

非得等春天遠了夏天才近了
我是在回首時終於懂得（也許天氣永遠會那麼熱）

當陽光再次回到那　飄著雨的國境之南
我會試著把 那一年的故事　再接下去說完

當陽光再次離開那　太晴朗的國境之南
妳會不會把妳曾帶走的愛　在告別前用微笑全歸還

海很藍　星光燦爛　我仍空著我的臂彎
天很寬　在我獨自唱歌的夜晚
請原諒我的愛　訴說的太緩慢

當陽光再次回到那　飄著雨的國境之南
我會試著把 那一年的故事　再接下去說完

當陽光再次離開那　太晴朗的國境之南
妳會不會把妳曾帶走的愛　在告別前用微笑全歸還

～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～
so i kinda liked the movie so much
where i have so many question unanswered...

so... yesterday when we went to KLCC and then we saw the book on 海角七号
so we were wondering whether to buy it
actually i'm looking for the 剧照with the rainbow
but actually i failed.
cos i think the scene with the rainbow is actually 合成的。

so.. i started to read the movie novel of 海角七号
and it stated a lot of the background of those people in the movie
and how they ended up at this place call 恒春

looking forward to go taiwan again.
my taiwan photo are uploaded on FB
looking forward for a diff travel experience in Taiwan

如果自己真的爱一个人
而彼此又不太适合
选择放弃是比较适合的事情吗？

爱一个人
不是去拥有他
是应该让他拥有世界上最多最多的幸福

如果你不能够给他幸福请让他自由 ：）

二零零八年十二月二十五日
当夜空升起的时候，
我和裕去戏院看了海角七号。。。


the movie was quite nice and touching...
actually i was expecting this movie
i wonder whether it would b on malaysia's cinema
my Taiwan friend was talking about the movie when i went to taiwan early of Oct.
don't wanna go see pirate movie
but just wanna watch it on the cinema on screen
so when we went to watch ip man in cinema on christmas eve and i saw the poster of
海角七号was hanging there... i ask joo we come watch 2moro lo...
who knows he say ok.
so i straight away went to book the ticket and we are so lucky we managed to book our ticket for it.

the movie started with japanese 旁白 which is taking about the love letter written by a japanese on board of a ship after he left taiwan when Japanese surrender after WW2.
and the 旁白 was translated as follows:-

劇中七封情書的內容


（look carefully the gal in da photo is actually 星光二班的梁文音）

第一封
一九四五年十二月二十五日
友子，太陽已經完全沒入了海面
我真的已經完全看不見台灣島了
你還站在那裡等我嗎？

友子
請原諒我這個懦弱的男人
從來不敢承認我們兩人的相愛
我甚至已經忘記
我是如何迷上那個不照規定理髮
而惹得我大發雷霆的女孩了
友子
你固執不講理、愛玩愛流行
我卻如此受不住的迷戀你
只是好不容易你畢業了
我們卻戰敗了
我是戰敗國的子民
貴族的驕傲瞬間墮落為犯人的枷
我只是個窮教師
為何要揹負一個民族的罪
時代的宿命是時代的罪過
我只是個窮教師
我愛你，卻必須放棄你

第二封
第三天
該怎麼克制自己不去想你
你是南方艷陽下成長的學生
我是從飄雪的北方渡洋過海的老師
我們是這麼的不同
為何卻會如此的相愛
我懷念艷陽…我懷念熱風…
我猶有記憶你被紅蟻惹毛的樣子
我知道我不該嘲笑你
但你踩著紅蟻的樣子真美
像踩著一種奇幻的舞步
憤怒、強烈又帶著輕挑的嬉笑…
友子，我就是那時愛上你的…
多希望這時有暴風
把我淹沒在這台灣與日本間的海域
這樣我就不必為了我的懦弱負責

第三封
友子
才幾天的航行
海風所帶來的哭聲已讓我蒼老許多
我不願離開甲板，也不願睡覺
我心裡已經做好盤算
一旦讓我著陸
我將一輩子不願再看見大海
海風啊，為何總是帶來哭聲呢？
愛人哭、嫁人哭、生孩子哭
想著你未來可能的幸福我總是會哭
只是我的淚水
總是在湧出前就被海風吹乾
湧不出淚水的哭泣，讓我更蒼老了
可惡的風
可惡的月光
可惡的海

第四封
十二月的海總是帶著憤怒
我承受著恥辱和悔恨的臭味
陪同不安靜地晃盪
不明白我到底是歸鄉
還是離鄉！

傍晚，已經進入了日本海
白天我頭痛欲裂
可恨的濃霧
阻擋了我一整個白天的視線
而現在的星光真美
記得你才是中學一年級小女生時
就膽敢以天狗食月的農村傳說
來挑戰我月蝕的天文理論嗎？
再說一件不怕你挑戰的理論
你知道我們現在所看到的星光
是自幾億光年遠的星球上
所發射過來的嗎？
哇，幾億光年發射出來的光
我們現在才看到
幾億光年的台灣島和日本島
又是什麼樣子呢？
山還是山，海還是海
卻不見了人
我想再多看幾眼星空
在這什麼都善變的人世間裡
我想看一下永恆
遇見了要往台灣避冬的烏魚群
我把對你的相思寄放在其中的一隻
希望你的漁人父親可以捕獲
友子，儘管他的氣味辛酸
你也一定要嚐一口
你會明白…
我不是拋棄你，我是捨不得你
我在眾人熟睡的甲板上反覆低喃
我不是拋棄你，我是捨不得你

第五封
天亮了，但又有何關係
反正日光總是帶來濃霧
黎明前的一段恍惚
我見到了日後的你韶華已逝
日後的我髮禿眼垂

晨霧如飄雪，覆蓋了我額上的皺紋
驕陽如烈焰，焚枯了你秀髮的烏黑
你我心中最後一點餘熱完全凋零
友子…
請原諒我這身無用的軀體

第六封
海上氣溫16度
風速12節、水深97米
已經看見了幾隻海鳥
預計明天入夜前我們即將登陸
友子…
我把我在台灣的相簿都留給你
就寄放在你母親那兒
但我偷了其中一張
是你在海邊玩水的那張
照片裡的海沒風也沒雨
照片裡的你，笑得就像在天堂
不管你的未來將屬於誰
誰都配不上你
原本以為我能將美好回憶妥善打包
到頭來卻發現我能攜走的只有虛無
我真的很想妳！
啊，彩虹！
但願這彩虹的兩端
足以跨過海洋，連結我和妳

第七封
友子，我已經平安著陸
七天的航行
我終於踩上我戰後殘破的土地
可是我卻開始思念海洋
這海洋為何總是站在
希望和滅絕的兩個極端
這是我的最後一封信
待會我就會把信寄出去
這容不下愛情的海洋
至少還容得下相思吧！
友子，我的相思你一定要收到
這樣你才會原諒我一點點
我想我會把你放在我心裡一輩子
就算娶妻、生子
在人生重要的轉折點上
一定會浮現…
你提著笨重的行李逃家
在遣返的人潮中，你孤單地站著
你戴著那頂…
存了好久的錢才買來的白色針織帽
是為了讓我能在人群中發現你吧！
我看見了…我看見了…
你安靜不動地站著
你像七月的烈日
讓我不敢再多看你一眼
你站得如此安靜
我刻意冰涼的心，卻又頓時燃起
我傷心，又不敢讓遺憾流露
我心裡嘀咕，嘴巴卻一聲不吭
我知道，思念這庸俗的字眼

將如陽光下的黑影
我逃他追…我追他逃…
一輩子

我會假裝你忘了我
假裝你將你我的過往
像候鳥一般從記憶中遷徙
假裝你已走過寒冬迎接春天
我會假裝…
一直到自以為一切都是真的！
然後…
祝你一生永遠幸福！


阿嘉met the Japanese?


leng zai singer who also act as japanese who wrote the letter
(i only notice when i came back and search information for the movie)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i was anticipating the movie so much..
the movie started late cos GSC spend a lot of the tidying out the cinema and do not let us go in early.
so we waited for 15 minutes
and another 20 minutes for movie pre-view and also advertisement.
i watch the DIGI duck and cat adver for 3 times i still do not understand wat it mean


（阿嘉(ga) and 友子（tomoko-san))

actually my mood watching the movie was quite disturbed...
cos of the big guy beside me keep saying
this one cut la.. tat one cut la..
this one should have the adult press the kid's head la...
i wanna say if you have already watched it why waste money watch again in the cinema?
i dun like..
tat's why i cant concentrate
and i got a lot of question mark when i come out from the cinema.

my bf say it was a very touching movie..
i dunno why i dun feel anything
mayb cos i'm 冷血
mayb cos i'm disturbed.

overall it would be a movie worth to watch...
with humor(when you know hokkien it would be easier for u to understand), love scene, motivation...
a lot of things you can consider rethink..
a lot of question unanswered..
so looking for info regarding the movie

not forgetting the scene where t0m0k0-san was drunk in front of the house of 阿嘉 and she said why 连你都笑我。and the next scene was the smiling moon.
reminds me of the latest 天文景象which happened lately which is the moon smiling at you.



post on my friend's blog regarding 海角七号

海角七号场景大公开

海角七號官方網站

經典台詞

to ponder:-
<勿以善小而不为，勿以恶小额而为之〉

do not think that the good deed is too small and you do not do it.
do not think that the bad deed is too small and you do it.

so.. my boss say
i have lost my respect from others because i did a lot of bad deed?
yeah i suppose so..
cos when all the small bad deed is being accumulated
it would become a big bad deed.
that's why i kena kutuk so badly.

so when others say 清者自清
maybe is cos i should not do so much bad deed after all

i always admire some of the old people cos they live longer than us and there are a lot of value we can learn from them as they already experienced much much more than us.

i admire them as they always practice the philosophy of live to learn and learn to live... and the attitude of live long learning.

i have saw an old grandpa at the age of 70++ who can operate a power point slides with object moving around to make his presentation more attractive and lively.
and what more about us?
we are youngster but always refuse to accept new things and to learn more.
i think it would be easier for us to catch up on how to learn something about the computer faster than an old grandpa.
but the most important factor which affect whether would be whether we are willing to learn new stuff
and whether we are independent enough.

finally Cape No. 7 is on cinema tis christmas.
so.. we booked the ticket for the movie.
cos tis is the most discussed/watched movie in Taiwan this year...
hopefully it would be as good as we are expecting it :)

i tot bos read their email but bos din...

2day onli she know she is being called teacher...
but... i think it's better tat she din read those email.

my boss says one of the joker is c2pid enough not to delete his email.
cos mayb he tot that those email would not be exposed to others

no wonder they like to lock their laptop when they are not their place.

and all i wanna say is....
god bless those two joker and the short, tan and fat guy a Merry Christmas :)
and let the thing end here...

today received an sms from maxis...
it says ur services has been revived from 22/12 - 29/12...
so.. in short..
i can call others again even my credit term has end...
cos.. during the festive season...
season of giving and caring...
maxis who is caring enough has kindly extend my call period...
hohoho... this is first time i encounter such situation...
weird...
my bf said...
cos they want us to spend more so..
they extend the expiry period lo :)

i'm still a bit confused about leaving my comfort zone.
entering into a danger zone..
where everything is alien to you except yourself.
and you need a lot of support from people
for you to hold through
but i'm wondering
where there is office politics.
(this has nothing to do with my previous post)

i think not knowing so much should be a good thing for me also
i'm not in fear so much.
i'm concern about my client.
my work is deteriorating.
hoping to improve

nothing was told about what will be happening.
i wonder why.
i have no idea what will be happening in the future.
i have a lot of unanswered question.

i ask myself whether i'm angry after reading all those e-mail...
in actually fact i'm not...
but seems my body is giving a diff point of view...
it's angry and making me sick...
serious cough...

hope i can fight the virus together with the office politics...
hope i'm strong...
hope my reputation is not being drug badly...

while you are working.. have you eva think of office politics?

i tot our office is healthy .. no politics..
mana tahu there are somebody who like to do small little action behind..
calling name...
like small little kids
(when they read my blog sure they are wondering whether i'm talking about them...
so frankly speaking yeah... i'm talking about u...
but i do not know blog are being misinterpret to such extend..
i'm speechless about the ugly side of human
i need to be careful...)

thus i'm an anti-social Nerd...
To those nerdy friend outside.. please count me in also...
cos i'm d super perasan Nerd :)

把你最不喜欢的人 招纳成你的朋友
成为你向上的棋子。
那是高招的。
我甘拜下风

Primary Gathering
please see photo of primary friends gathering

had a great time yesterday...
primary gathering in the afternoon (lunch till evening...)
next up..
steam boat at shabu shabu puchong
continued with
sight seeing and another round of shoping at Sunway
and lastly sight seeing at Bukit Bintang area before sending my bf's friend back to JB and SG :)

anticipating photos to be out soon...
but need some time

will be moving out of my comfort zone soon..
i'm worried.
i'm confused.
but i have to give up everything in front of me.
have to grow up
have to learn
have to be berdikari
have to be more independent

no matter how i'm not willing to leave my clients behind
i have to move on.
hoping i would be able to come back someday and bring the best for my client.
hoping i would grow faster.

my boss ask me..
why i accept the position
actually i do not think so much.
not thinking so much about the money
money does not give me a vast different
i had not prepared myself to move on so soon
but...
when the opportunity comes
just take it and challenge yourself
give it a try
why not?

i want myself to succeed
i need support
i have no wall to lean on d
i'm worried.

what would you do if there is an opportunity for you to move on...
towards the next level?
do you want to stay on?
or just move forward...

give it a try?
never try never know?
how?
i reli reli do know know wat's the consequences :P

later i'm going to watch bolt (3D)
it's a new movie (3D)
and it cost a hole in my pocket cos...
they charge extra RM 5 cos it's 3D

but who cares...
i like to bring my cousin out to watch movie...
just a small small contribution to my family
cos their dad who care for them so much
doesn't even want to fork out some money and bring them for movies unless it's free..

i think i'll rather buy them movie than the latest PSP...
that's what i think la...

不罵粗話？
is another post from namewee at his blog with his "new product"
and what's my opinion after watching it?

"K A N A S A I"

yeah is a praise for him...
cos... his bravery and composing i don't think any other of the ppl here would dare to do such things.

maybe to me...
i feel it's too over...

but WTF...
who cares...
in this cyber world...
you can just do what you like as long as you don't step over somebody's head

this is my first try out to colleage my photo :)

today feel a bit hurt in the office...
just because i'm the minor (minority) in the office does not mean that you should neglect me...

so where is my position.
it's not just a sorry will settle things.
so i'm hurt...
very hurt...

and have nothing to say...
just sad...
truly sad...

曲:TANK 詞:陳信廷 編曲:洪敬堯

懂得讓我微笑的人　再沒有誰比你有天份
輕易闖進我的心門　明天的美夢你完成

整個宇宙　浩瀚無邊的盡頭　每顆渺小星球　全都繞著你走

愛我　非你莫屬　我只願　守護　由你給我的幸福
愛我　非你莫屬　也許會　笑著哭　但那人是你所以　不怕苦

懂得讓我流淚的人　給的感動一定是最深
在我心中留下傷痕　你同時點亮了星辰

那麼多相遇　偏偏只和你　天造地設般產生奇蹟　哦～
我心的縫隙　我想除了你　任誰也無法填補這空虛

但那人是你所以不怕苦　我不怕苦

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
for the person who always drive me home after my work
wait for me all the while at my office lobby :)

quite a number of managers, seniors even director leaving the firm...
so what's happening?

isn't it crisis coming?
so what if you leave the company before the crisis?
so what if you leave the company during the crisis?
so.. what if you leave after the crisis...

anything can happened?
what is the government helping the people to survive the crisis...

or we should not depend of them.. but rather more to ourselves.
will the construction project for our condo be slowing down?
will we be able to pay for it?
i wonder...

wait and see... long long way to go...

the economy crisis is here...
and we can do nothing to stop it...

crisis happened years before...
when we were young and know nothing about it...

so... now...
when we started working...
so the needle is poking into your flesh...

now...
is how you survive the killing pain...

i think there would be a new style of living.
and a new way of working
and working would have to accept another changing style in the future

yeah.... jus realised i broke the 100 post mark this year...
and i think i'm able to break the year prior to last's record as well.

i think it's not really about whether you have the time to blog or not..
it's just about whether you have the heart to blog or not. :)

joo asking me to change my mobile phone plan..
thinking about it...
refuse to change to post paid... for the time being...
i'm still considering...

wanted to update something on my blog...
but i'm just too tired...

i've downloaded 倫語錄 from the web..
i think it's illegal to do so...
but i just wanna listen to his new album...

should be getting the new original album by next month..

my songs in my pc should be updated frequently as i'm the person supplying my group member with music after 5.30 :)

作词：伊能静　作曲：庾澄庆　编曲：吴庆隆

漫天的话语　纷乱落在耳际　你我沉默不回应
man tian de hua yu fen luan luo zai er ji ni wo cheng mo bu hui ying
sky full of gossip slip on to the ears however we kept quite

牵你的手　你却哭红了眼睛　路途漫长无止尽
qian ni de shou ni que ku hong le yan jing lu tu man chang wu zhi jin
hold your hand but your tears made your eyes red the road seems to be long and never ending

多想提起勇气　好好的呵护你　不让你受委屈　苦也愿意
duo xiang ti qi yong qi hao hao de he hu ni bu rang sou wei qu ku ye yuen yi
would like to be courage and take good care of you do not want you been blamed regardless what is the suffer

那些痛的记忆　落在春的泥土里　滋养了大地　开出下一个花季
na xie tong de ji yi luo zai chun de ni tu li zi yang le da di kai chu xia yi ge hua ji
those painful memories falls on the soil of spring and nourish the earth which in turn bloom the next flower season

风中你的泪滴　滴滴落在回忆里　让我们取名叫做珍惜
feng zhong ni de lei di di di luo zai ji yi li rang wo men qu ming jiao zuo zhen xi
your tears drops in the wind drip on to our memories and we named it appreciate

迷雾散尽　一切终于变清晰　爱与痛都成回忆
mi wu san jin yi qie zhong yu bian qing xi ai yu tong dou cheng hui yi
The fog are cleared everything seems to be clear love and pain became the memories

遗忘过去　繁花灿烂在天际　等待已有了结局
yi wang guo qu fan hua can lan zai tian ji deng dai yi you le jie ju
forget the past various flower bloom beautifully all we have been waiting has it ending

我会提起勇气　好好地呵护你　不让你受委屈　苦也愿意
wo hui ti qi yong qi hao hao de he hu ni bu rang sou wei qu ku ye yuen yi
I will be courage and take good care of you do not want you been blamed regardless what is the suffer

漫天纷飞的花语　落在春的泥土里　滋养了大地　开出下一个花季
man tian fen fei de hua yu luo zai chun de ni tu li zi yang le da di kai chu xia yi ge hua ji
the sky full of flowers falls on the soil of spring and nourish the earth which in turn bloom the next flower season

风中你的泪滴　滴滴落在回忆里　让我们取名叫做珍惜
feng zhong ni de lei di di di luo zai ji yi li rang wo men qu ming jiao zuo zhen xi
your tears drops in the wind drip on to our memories and we named it appreciate

那些痛的记忆　落在春的泥土里　滋养了大地　开出下一个花季
na xie tong de ji yi luo zai chun de ni tu li zi yang le da di kai chu xia yi ge hua ji
those painful memories falls on the soil of spring and nourish the earth which in turn bloom the next flower season

风中你的泪滴　滴滴落在回忆里　让我们取名叫做珍惜
feng zhong ni de lei di di di luo zai ji yi li rang wo men qu ming jiao zuo zhen xi
your tears drops in the wind drip on to our memories and we named it appreciate

让我们懂得学会珍惜
rang wo men dong de xue hui zhen xi
let us know the meaning of appreciation
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an old song from harlem and... i think of what was written and think..
漫天的话语　纷乱落在耳际　你我沉默不回应
regardless what others says.. silence and time is the best medicine.. just keep quite...
and time will heal..
if time does not heal...
time will help us to forget.

中午，我站在學校大門口當交通導護，幫助一年級的小朋友放學。

卓新勇的母親，悄手悄腳提著一個便當在校門口。 被我一喊，她露出不好意思的表情。

「老師啊！．．．」

「哎呀！我不是跟妳講了嗎？學校不喜歡家長替孩子送便當。

如果每個媽媽都像妳這樣，學校大門就擠滿了人，那樣，我們怎麼放學呢？」

「我知道！我知道！」

哼！知道了還送，簡直是明知故犯。

「妳不會讓他自己帶便當嗎！」

「我知道！我知道！」

這些話，不曉得說了幾次。

每次一到中午，送便當的家長和放學的一年級小朋友，

常常相撞在一起，造成相當的困擾。

　

卓新勇是一位沈默寡言，乖巧內向的孩子。

有次上課，他竟然打瞌睡，我很訝異，把他叫起來。

「怎麼了？」他一臉迷惘站起來，不回答。

第二天上課，也是這樣，我實在受不了，狠狠地把他叫過來。

「你到底怎麼了？」

我已經氣得半死，口氣已經控制不住。

突然，他垂頭淌下淚水。我暗自一驚。

「說呀！到底為什麼上課要打瞌睡呢？」

我媽媽住院了！昨天一直在醫院陪她。」

我一聽愣住了，頓時，心中的怒氣消失了，代之而起的是無限慚愧，

「她為什麼住院呢？」

「是肺癌！」我一聽，心都涼到腳底。

心中想到身體贏弱的卓新勇。

如果，不幸那天來臨，他將如何繼續往後漫長的歲月呢？

想到這兒，不禁鼻酸。吃飯時，妻子在餵兒子吃飯，

我不禁想起，以前卓新勇的母親偷偷摸摸替他送便當。

　

第二天下班後，我騎著機車到醫院探望他母親。

幾個禮拜沒見，卓新勇的母親瘦得不成人形，蒼白的臉，

光禿的頭，簡直不敢相信就是她。

她看到我，顯得很驚訝，努力想站起來，但是，一咳嗽，整個人歪了一邊。

「不要站起來！不要站起來！」

「老師！謝﹍﹍謝謝你！」她吃力喊著，眼眶消出淚水。

在醫院的走廊，卓新勇的父親對我說：

「只剩下兩個月了！嗚！我﹍真的不知要怎麼辦？」他老淚縱橫。

　

回到學校，報告校長。

「他爸爸已經六十多歲了，現在母親又將離開人間，

是不是我們可以發動全校募款。

不管多少，都可以幫助他。」校長爽快答應。

經過幾天募款活動，我們總算募到五萬二千一百二十元。

把錢送到醫院時，卓新勇的母親已經在昏迷中。

「我們準備今天送他回家！」卓新勇的父親，臉形憔悴得發白。

我一聽，心頭抽搐一陣。

「老師！能不能幫個忙？」

「請說！我能夠做到的，我一定答應。」

「他前幾天，一直拉著卓新勇的手，喊著：媽媽不能再替你送便當了！

我想，請老師再讓她送最後一次便當，只有送便當時，

他才真正感受到一位為人母親的榮耀。」

聽到這兒，我百感交集地點點頭。

　

中午，一輛救護車呼拉拉開到學校大門口。

卓親勇的父親和一名醫護人員，推著擔架上的人。

我淚水盈眶，站在旁邊，伴當交通導護老師。

「到了！到了！」卓新勇的父親買了一個便當，

躺在擔架上的卓新勇的母親，伸出瘦細蒼白的手提著便當，

在旁邊人員推送下，慢慢靠近大門口的鐵門。

在鐵門的另一邊，卓新勇伸出右手，接過母親的便當。

「媽！」卓新勇嚎啕大哭。

這時，我清楚見到她母親瘦削的臉頰，抽搐了一下，彷彿想說話，

但是，又說不出來。

「媽！我不要！我不要妳走！」卓新勇呼天搶地叫著。

我的淚水，再也控制不住，嘩嘩而落。

我暗恨自己，以前是多麼殘忍！

　

隔天，卓新勇的母親就去世了。

卓新勇的母親出殯後。

一天， 卓新勇的父親來到我辦公室，遞給我一包牛皮紙。

老師！這是你和學生們幫助我的錢，我認為還有更多的學生，

需要這筆錢，所以，還給你們。謝謝你熱心幫忙。」

說完，錢一放，就掉頭離去。

這筆錢彷彿生熱似的，直燙著我心坎。

我天天找卓新勇聊天話家常。深怕他經不起喪母的打擊。

「老師！你放心！我很好！你不要一直替我擔心！」

卓新勇對我說「我很早就知道，我母親就要死了，

我也不是不想聽你話，叫媽媽不要送便當。

因為，一天當中，只有中午，我才能吃到我媽媽煮的飯。」

我心頭一凜，「為什麼呢？」

她很虛弱，家裡都是爸爸在煮飯。

只有中午爸爸不在，她才能偷偷背著爸爸煮飯。

是她堅持要送便當的。」說完，卓新勇淌出淚水。

很感人吧！我看到一半就忍不住眼淚就掉下來了！

各位～趁著父母健在的時候，好好的孝順他們喔！

不然........將來後悔也就來不及了！

一直以為幸福在遠方，在可以追逐的未來。

我的雙眼保持著眺望，我的雙耳仔細聆聽，唯恐疏忽錯過。

後來才發現---那些握過的手，唱過的歌，流過的淚，愛過的人......

所謂的曾經，就是幸福

如果您收到別人分享給您的好文章，不要吝嗇，您也可以繼續分享給好友，請別忘我這一份喔。

當我們用心對人時,有心人將以熱情回報你,希望我們都是用心的人,也是有心的人.

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touching article to share with you all
treasure what is infront of you...
and appreciate it all the time :)

it's seems a lot of news in the entertainment column which is not so entertaining..

bad relationship to divorce or not?
suicide...

if live is so miserable?
why not why not?
choose to live happily?

just like what he （wanted to say he is driver... but he say cannot call him driver) say...选择开心度日

the other day...
BIG BIG boss came in and ask..
so TC you wanna bcome GL...

and so i reply
"i still have a long long way to go"

then i told my bf about my reply...
he say i'm c2pid..

but i think my feeling is trying to have myself as humble as possible.
maybe many thinks i have a lot of experience.
however, i think to survive..
i need to be more humble to be sucessful ;)

peak is reaching the end...
so... what's next?
a lot of follow up need to do...
a lot of tidy up need to do...
speed up the work...
and prepare for next peak..

everyone is busy...
so you have to move on together with them..
cant afford to let yourself to slow down.
otherwise you would be left behind.

作词：小林夏海
作曲：田中隼人

こぼれ落ちたのは 涙じゃなく祈る声
koboreochita no wa namida jyanaku inoru koe
What spilled down wasn’t a tear but a praying voice
滴落下来的 不是眼泪是祈祷的声音
见上げていたのは 云の上の太阳
miagete ita no wa kumo no ue no taiyou
What I looked up at was the sun above the clouds
抬头仰望的是 云层之上的太阳

眠るように生きていた いつも弧独だった
nemuru youni ikite ita itsumo kodoku datta
I was living like I was asleep I was always alone
像沉睡般地活著 总是这样孤独著
君に出会うその日までは ずっとずっとここで
kimi ni deau sono hi made wa zutto zutto koko de
Until the day I meet you I am always, always here
直到遇见你的那一天 我一直一直都在这里

ひとりでも歌える 爱の歌があるとしても
hitori demo utaeru ai no uta ga aru toshite mo
Even if there’s a love song I could sing by myself
即使一个人也会这样唱著 这首爱的情歌
ひとりでは探せない 両手に触れたこの温もり
hitori de wa sagasenai ryoute ni fureta kono nukumori
The warmth of the touch of two hands can’t be found alone
即使一个人也不能找到 触碰到双手的那份温暖

仮面を缠えば 忘れられる気がしてた
kamen wo matoeba wasurerareru kigashiteta
I put on a mask to feel like I have been forgotten
如果能裹上面具 就可以遗忘那样的气息
记忆をしまった 箱に键をかけて
kioku wo shimatta hako ni kagi wo kakete
I shut away my memories and locked them in a box
如果不好的记忆 可以用箱子把它锁上

あんな暗い场所でさえ 君を见つけ出せた
anna kurai basho de sae kimi wo mitsukedaseta
Even in a dark place I will be able to find you
就连那样阴暗的地方 也能找到你
戻ることができなくても もっともっと远く
modoru koto ga dekinakute mo motto motto tooku
Even if I can’t return I’ll keep going farther, farther
就算不能回头 也要走得更远更远

ひとりきり覚えた 爱の歌があるとしても
hitorikiri oboeta ai no uta ga aru toshite mo
Even if there’s a love song that I can experience alone,
即使独自一个人学会 这首爱的情歌
ひとりでは届かない ドアの向こうで待つ明日へ
hitori de wa todokanai doa no mukou de matsu ashita e
I won't appreciate it From here, I’ll walk out once more
即使一个人到达不了 在门后等待的明日
ここからもう一度歩き出す with you...
koko kara mou ichido arukidasu with you...
Toward the door to tomorrow With you…
从这里再一次踏出 with you...

悲しみを优しさに 変えてみせるから
kanashimi wo yasashisa ni kaete miseru kara
I’ll transform sadness into kindness
把悲伤转换成温柔的 我要改变给你看看
いつかは必ず 本当の自分を许せたら
itsuka wa kanarazu hontou no jibun wo yurusetara
And someday, once I’ve set my true self free
不知不觉必定能够 接纳真实的自己
痛みも消えてく きっと
itami mo kieteku kitto
the pain will disappear I know it
伤痛也会消失 一定会的

ひとりでも歌える 爱の歌はもういらない
hitori demo utaeru ai no uta wa mou iranai
I don’t need a love song which I can sing by myself anymore
即使一个人也会这样唱著 这首爱的情歌

ひとりでは探せない 阳だまりのようなこの温もり
hitori de wa sagasenai
hidamari no youna kono nukumori
A warm place like sunshines can’t be found alone
即使一个人也不能找到 像是阳光般的那份温暖
君となら探せる 见たことのない明日を
kimi to nara sagaseru mita koto no nai ashita wo
Together, we can find a tomorrow which is never seen
要是能和你一起去寻找 找到那未曾见过的明天
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just watched takeshi's latest japanese movie ...
actually i realised it on the way back from taiwan on the plane...
it's just that i'm too too tired and no chance to reli reli have a good show..
i think the show is quite nice...
and i like the movie ;)

我的心底總藏著三個小故事，每次想起，都一驚。因為我原以為自己很聰明、很客觀，直到經歷這些故事之後，才發覺許多事，只有親身參與的人，方能了解。

那是人性最微妙的一種感覺，很難用世俗的標準來判斷。

當我在聖若望大學教書的時候，有一位同事，家裡已經有個蒙古症的弟弟，但是當他太太懷孕之後，居然沒作羊水穿刺，又生下個「蒙古兒」。消息傳出，大家都說他笨，明知蒙古症有遺傳的可能，還那麼大意。

我也曾在文章裡寫到這件事，諷刺他的愚蠢。

直到有一天，他對我說：「其實我太太去作了穿刺，也化驗出了蒙古症，我們決定墮胎。但是就在約好墮胎的那天上午，我母親帶我弟弟一起來。我那蒙古症的弟弟，以為我太太得了什麼重病，先拉著我太太的手，一直說保重！保重！又過來，撲在我身上，把我緊緊抱住，說『哥哥，上帝會保佑你們。』

他們走後，我跟太太默默地坐了好久。不錯！我是曾經怨父母為什麼生個蒙古兒，多花好多時間在他身上。但是，我也發覺，他畢竟是我的弟弟，他那麼愛我，而且毫不掩飾地表現出來。

我和我太太想，如果肚子裡的是個像我弟弟那麼真實的孩子，我們能因為他比較笨，就把他殺掉嗎？他也是個生命、他也是上帝的賜予啊！所以，我們打電話給醫生，說我們不去了……」


二十多年前，我作電視記者的時候，有一次要去韓國採訪亞洲影展。當時出國的手續很難辦，不但要各種證件，而且得請公司的人事和安全單位出函。我好不容易備妥了各項文件，送去給電影協會代辦的一位先生。

可是才回公司，就接到電話，說我少了一份東西。

「我剛剛才放在一個信封裡交給您啊！」我說。

「沒有！我沒看到！」對方斬釘截鐵地回答。

我立刻衝去了西門町的影協辦公室，當面告訴他，我確實自己細細點過，再裝在牛皮紙信封裡交給了他。

他舉起我的信封，抖了抖，說：「沒有！」

「我人格擔保，我裝了！」我大聲說。

「我也人格擔保，我沒收到！」他也大聲吼回來。

「你找找看，一定掉在了什麼地方！」我吼得更大聲。

「我早找了，我沒那麼糊塗，你一定沒給我。」他也吼得更響。

眼看採訪在即，我氣呼呼地趕回公司，又去一關、一關，「求爺爺、告奶奶」地辦那份文件。

就在辦的時候，突然接到中影「那個人」的電話。

「對不起！ 劉先生，是我不對，不小心夾在別人的文件裡了，我真不是人、真不是人、真不是人……」

我怔住了。忘記是怎麼掛上那個電話的。

我今天也忘記了那個人的長相。但不知為什麼，我總忘不了「他」，明明是他錯，我卻覺得他很偉大，他明明可以為保全自己的面子，把發現的東西滅跡。但是，他沒這麼做，他來認錯。

我佩服他，覺得他是一位勇者。

許多年前，我應美國水墨畫協會的邀請，擔任當年國際水墨畫展的全權主審。所謂「全權主審」，是整個畫展只由我一個人評審，入選不入選，得獎不得獎，全憑我一句話。他們這樣做的目的，一方面是尊重主審，一方面是避免許多評審「品味」相左，最後反而是「中間地帶」的作品得獎。不如每屆展覽請一位不同風格的主審，使各種風格的作品，總有獲得青睞的機會。

那天評審，我準備了一些小貼紙，先為自己「屬意」的作品貼上，再斟酌著刪除。評審完畢，主辦單位請我吃飯，再由原來接我的女士送我回家。

晚上，她一邊開車，一面笑著問：

「對不起！劉教授，不知能不能問一個問題。沒有任何意思，我只是想知道，為什麼那幅有紅色岩石和一群小鳥的畫，您先貼了標籤，後來又拿掉了呢？」

「那張畫確實不錯，只是我覺得筆觸硬了一點，名額有限，只好……」我說，又笑笑：「妳認識這位畫家嗎？」

「認識！」她說：「是我！」

不知為什麼，我的臉一下子紅了。

她是水墨畫協會的負責人之一，而且從頭到尾跟著我，她只要事先給我一點點暗示，說那是她的畫，我即使再客觀，都可能受到影響，起碼，最後落選的不會是她。

一直到今天，十年了，我都忘不了她。雖然我一點都沒錯，卻覺得欠了她。


三個故事說完了。從世俗的角度， 那 教授是笨蛋、那影協的先生是混蛋、那水墨畫協會的女士是蠢蛋。 但是，在我心中，他們都是最真實的人。在這個平凡的世界，我們需要的，不見得是英雄、偉人，

而是這種真真切切、實實在在，可以不忠於世俗，卻無負自己良心的人。

每次在我評斷一件事或一個人之前，都會想到這三個故事，

他們教了我許多，他們教我用「眼」看，也用「心」看。

當我看到心靈最微妙的地方，常會有一百八十度的大轉變。


永遠不要放棄自己，永遠不要放棄別人。

在平凡中看到神聖，要祈求。

在困境中能走向光明，也要靠祈求。

祈求諸佛菩薩慈悲攝受，加持護祐。

祈求師長貴人指導提拔，指點迷津。

祈求同行善友攜手同心，互相提攜。

祈求自己更加智慧，洞澈一切緣起真相。

祈求自己更加慈悲，包容寬恕別人。並努力去利益一切眾生。

祈求我能學會祈求，並隨時隨地，不忘祈求。

∼∼如清法師∼

today my office lappy's battery Kong already...
so... battery officially dead...

today a couple of the client called and complaint with me about my junior...

"She is new ar? (erm...) why even accounts also dunno how to read? (erm...)"

"She thinks i'm very free ar? jus only doing the tax computation for her ar? (erm...)"

i have no comment on the above...
just hope that i can do better...
and i can help them to serve the client better :)

so...
today went to watch 007...
not too nice of a movie...
not too bad either...

so... driver says he dun wanna accompany bring the "xiao gua" to watch HSM3...
so... wat to do? i have to bring them myself?
sigh...
wat to do?

our group is famous for last minute, since the day i join the company...
tat's why our big boss always come into our group and ask us...
"WHY SO LAST MINUTE?"

..............
so today was discussing with my boss what to do after the filing and was imitating my big boss "WHY SO LAST MINUTE" and then... he came suddenly bump into our group and say...
"why? saying my speech for me???"


then he keep on saying...
.... .... ... WHY SO LAST MINUTE ??? :P
oops... why this kind of stuff always happened to me lately?

自己大剌剌的性格好像会为自己带来很多麻烦。

最近自己的心情都好像比较好啦
然后就时常开怀大笑
可是，在开怀大笑的当儿，却让自己造老板呃，老板的秘书投诉。
（人生就有那么多不如意的事情啦，开怀大笑也要遭投诉，感觉有点点说不过去）
（感觉有点于理不合）

在为自己寻找一个平衡点
也很开心自己会渐渐的笑啦

～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～
sometimes because of my attitude / behaviour / which has caused to a lot of trouble to myself.

just realised that my mood has been better these days
and this has resulted me to laugh always.
on the other hand, my laughter has resulted to others (i.e. my boss and my boss' secretary complaining me for laughing too loud in the office)
(W.T.F. there are so many things to be miserable with and to show everyone that you are happy with your laughter also you would get complained. i think this is not reasonable)

looking for a balance of not being laughing too loud and also keeping a good mood during work.
i just feel good that i found my laughter back during work :)

“闊別廣大聽眾十多個月﹐陳峰於二零零八年八月八日透過‘陳峰廣播平台’再一次回到聽眾的耳邊。這次你可以在任可時候﹐無拘無束地﹐慢慢細聽﹐陳峰為你全新製作的‘三分鐘心領悟’及其他精彩節目。”

i heard 988 talking about chanfong's website sometimes ago..

always like to listen to his programme... always like to listen to him saying the moral of the story is...

so... now he's back...
is not on the radio station,
but on the internet :)

so i think i will visit his site more often to get more inspirational story :)

hav been spending some time playing facebook lately
(tat's why your work is so slack lately? of course not)

all work and no play makes me a dull teechong ma...
so.. must play facebook...
to extend my social network ;)
to see how many friends i can network to...

so... add add add...
people from office lar...
people from primary la..
people from my secondary la...

found it to be very very cool :)

(so... this is a no conclusion post.... yeah i'm jus posting for fun ;)

staff: Boss today I got training, can I go ar?

Boss: ... ... (blank face) (terbinggung) (dunno what to react)
Yes of course...

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for those who are not in the group maybe question why such question was asked.
i think this is because of the conversation held earlier btw me and my boss.

TC: Boss next monday i got training oh...
Boss: (jokingly saying) no... cannot attend the training...
TC: HUH？no worries la... i will finished all my tax comp before i go for training...
Staff: (think in her mind... then i should also finished all my tax comp or else i cant go for the training lo??)

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ended up the staff went for half day for the full day training...
getting more and more bold.. and daring d...
ponteng class somemore...
no I see... :P

so... today finally send out the final tax comp...
so... sigh of relief...
so... things has not ended...

boss say you better take over some of the tax computation..
so... i still have to stay back...
tidy my stuff...
hopefully everything will go back to its path soon...

hopefully everything is alright...
then we will plan for the surprise party for some1 which we had forgotten her b'day :)

boss was caught lecturing by big boss during lunch hour for more than 1 and half hour (don't you find it weird...cos lunch hour only takes us one hour?)

yeah the lecture lasted for more than an hour...

so i called K to da bao for my boss... since i din go out to makan...

was happy when boss seems so glad when she saw us da bao for her...
(i would say touched)

jus realised we forgot her b'day :P

cham... :P

sometimes things happened in the office which is very very funny and you wanted to pen it down and remember to look back when you are down?
so today the story goes like this....

Boss: Something is very very wrong with your CA schedule?
TC (thinking): (cos she dunno how to use excel to do CA tax comp la!)
Staff: erm… (look at boss innocently)

(later…)

Boss: You are very careless ar…
Staff: Yes…
Boss: … … … … (bo lat)

tC1: teechong you are playing around too much wit the internet...

tc2: erm...

tc1: see your tax comp have two still haven done....
you wanna get scolding from your boss?
you are too slack...

tc2: but... i'm just a bit lazy...

tc1: no... no... no... u must be focus...

tc2: but there's no motivation to work?

tc1: dun think about motivation... think ab your uncle freddie's face when he knows that you are the one delaying his group tax comp... then you are dead...

tc2: shit...

tc1: so focus today...
get the two comp done ya...
if not you are forbidden to blog for one week...

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so if you don't see me blogging...
you know what happened... :)

slowly uploading my taiwan trip photo
so.. if you cant wait to see photo...

picasaweb again... album name Taiwan Trip

Thanks :)

王永慶的一席話

一根火柴棒價值不到一毛錢. 一棟房子價值數百萬元但是一根火柴棒卻可以摧毀一棟房子.可見微不足道的潛在破壞力,一旦發作起來,其攻堅滅頂的力量, 無物能禦 .

要疊一百萬張骨牌,需費時一個月,但倒骨牌卻只消十幾秒鐘 .

要累積成功的實業,需耗時數十載, 但要倒閉,卻只需一個錯誤決策.要修養被尊敬的人格,需經過長時間的被信任,但要人格破產卻只需要做錯一件事 .

一根火柴棒, 是什麼東西呢?

它就是下列四項:

1. 無法自我控制的情緒.
2. 不經理智判斷的決策.
3. 頑固不冥的個性 ..
4. 狹隘無情的心胸.


檢查看看,我們隨身攜帶幾根火柴棒?

~ 共勉之 ~

this photo was taken during an evening when me and my friend are pretend to be smart and try to explore ourselves at Taipei...
and we almost get lost...
even though the streets at TaiPei are pretty simple and sometimes are easy to get to any place with it's convenient transportation system.
scare cos we really don't know the way...
but i still managed to take this nice nice picture of TaiPei evening on the street (just my personal opinion) enjoy... will really post more ya

因为看超级星光大道，渐渐喜欢上了方大同的歌
喜欢他的r&b 感觉和周杰伦和陶喆的很一样

现在，自己在期待有心人可以买他的专辑送给我咯。。。
哈哈 ；）

yeah i know maybe some of my friends are waiting to read my blog about my taiwan trip...

i need time (sorry about the delay)

so...
i promised myself to upload the photo to my picasa web album first...
then followed by a comprehensive blog... (day by day blog)

so if you wanna know what about my taiwan trip you can visit my friend's blog to read about it first... but it's all in mandarin.
promised to put up mine later...

if you wanna know what i ate during the trip please visit my picasaweb with the title Food During Taiwan Trip will update it with description later...

thanks for waiting ya :)

24 more post to go...
(correction.. with this post done... it would be 23 more...)

haha... looking forward to pass the 100 post this year...
150 next...
and soon it would be everyday there will be a post from me :)
it during studies time :)

edited my blog to put in photo in respect of the food taken during our taiwan trip...
will update on the scenery soon :)

so finally the petrol price went down again...
tis time 15 sen...
not much of a surprise...
maybe much lower than many ppl has expected...
so looking forward for the next drop if the world petrol price goes down further...
(possible?)

from 1.92 to 2.70 in june
come down to 2.55 in end august
further down to 2.45 in end sept
another 15 sen to 2.3 in mid oct
now... another 15 sen to 2.15 in end oct...

and the mix rice price of the shop opposite my office still state at RM 4 for 3 dishes...
from RM 2.8 to RM 3.3 to RM 3.8....
so... do you foresee to get cheaper food in the near future?
since a petrol price which contribute one of the major factor in the costing has drop so significantly in jus a few months time....

some said.. when food seller increase their price they wont reduce...
but i wonder...
how long will it take to make them reduce the price to what they suppose to be...
or we gonna forever eat expensive food...
cos of some c2pid economical policy implement by ....
no wonder they have to change the FM...
looking forward for better policy of the country without the tongkat for certain ppl :)

it's weird....
that your company is able to change ur wallpaper setting...

it's okay that your wallpaper setting you can change to whatever wallpaper you like...
but your company will change back to their default wall paper setting
every morning when you log in into their network...
and by default..
you would be able to see their big big logo at the center of your desktop / laptop...

der...
reminding you that you are working with ....
haha...
so i'm jus tired of everyday have to set back to the wall paper i like...
so i set to everytime set back to my favourite theme...

to me is like the company is reli like spying on u...
haha... ai...
too bad...
that's why i need to blog at home every nite
and i seldom update my blog bcos of they blocked the blogging web.

cant find my keys last nite and this morning...
so i went to office with a weird feeling...

so in the office i search here and there and every partition of my two bags...
it wasn't there...
feel like something in me was lost..
it was not complete...
feel my work is weird...
feel myself is weird..

and my promotion of investment act is lost...
dunno borrowed it to who...
seems like my things is messy...

after work...
i keep on mumble...
ask my boss u know where is my PIA...
... ...
eh... finally when i was wondering around...
found something which looks like my PIA...
it's with Siew Siew la...
my messy neighbour...

just when i thought myself as very messy person...
mana tahu my neighbour already win me dunno how many roads d :)

then when i reach home i'm still worried about my key...
cos there are a lot of key and also the key chain from my dear.

so.. when i reach home straight rush into the my room and search for it...
search here and there...
look for every pocket...
search the basket...
and ...
and...

rupa-rupanya...
it was quitely lying at one corner on my table...
and being blocked by all the paper on my table...

and the conclusion is...

YOU SHOULD TIDY UP YOUR TABLE D!!!!

since i came back from taiwan...
busy... no time to rest..
no time to blog much...
no time to reli share things with my friend.
no time...

yeah it's just excuse
dunno anything la...

now joo is going to china...
yeah again :)

so far not much time to spend together.
not much quality time to spend together.
so...
waiting for myself to recover and both of us can spend more time together
in the month of December :)

have not been having much time to blog lately..
have not been having having updating my website for long time...
waiting for my photo to be uploaded to picasa.

waiting to let myself to arrange all my photo on picasa :)
waiting...

waiting for myself to update my blog on my taiwan trip...
now tidying up the photo for friends...
so many things to do so little time.
please wait patientily...
need to write quality blog...
not rubbish (even there might not b any reader)


but first and for most...
need to take care of my health.

[再煩]也別忘記微笑
[再急]也注意語氣
[再苦]也別忘堅持,
[再累]也要愛惜自己,
[再忙]也不會忘了祝你快樂開心每一天,
我的朋友……………...希望你一切如意!

[簡單最美]穿著不一定要件件光鮮;
[合身]就是最好的名牌;
吃飯不一定要山珍海味;
[均衡]就是最好的佳餚
家居不一定要追求氣派;
[和樂]就是最好的裝璜;
日子不一定要天天如意;
[自在]就是最好的生活;
人生不一定要家財万貫;
[知足]是最好的拥有.
一朵雲能飄多久?一場雨能下多久?一束花能開多久?
我不懂!
如果……….問我朋友能做多久?
那我肯定的告訴你;……………………………………
心跳多久,朋友就做多久!


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e-mail from a friend which i haven heard from her for long long time...
miss her so much...
hope can meet up with her soon :)

Malaysia bans Chinese food agent after melamine found
Malaysia on Thursday banned the import of Chinese-made food raising agent ammonium carbonate after tests showed it exceeded acceptable levels of the industrial chemical melamine.

Health Minister Liow Tiong Lai told state news agency Bernama that raising agents imported from other countries would also be examined to ensure they did not violate local health safety laws.

The ban was issued after health ministry tests showed that biscuits made by two of the country's leading manufacturers contained high levels of melamine, Bernama said.

As a result, Khong Guan Biscuits based in southern Johor state and Khiang Guan Biscuits in northern Penang have begun a recall of 18 of their 47 products, it said.

"The analysis showed only the raising agent ammonium bicarbonate contained high levels of melamine... and the origin of the agent used by both factories is China," Liow told Bernama.

He said the health ministry was trying to determine who imported, distributed and used the industrial chemical and that all biscuit factories in the country would be checked, with samples taken for further analysis.

Melamine has so far been found mainly in dairy and milk products in a widening food safety scandal in China which erupted after children began falling ill from drinking tainted milk.

Malaysia now bans all Chinese dairy products, and food containing milk including candies and chocolates.

Milk tainted with melamine has sickened some 53,000 children and killed four in China, exposing the nation's lax food safety standards and triggering import curbs on some Chinese products as far away as South America

yeah i'm back...
have a lot of photo to give out...
a lot of souvenir to give out..
it take times...

give me some
but first and for most need to tidy up my table...
and...
work work work...

feel a bit dizy since i came back..
cos lack of sleep

and the chinese sien seh say i should sleep by 11 every nite and stay away from the computer by 9
oops
it's time to off

preparing for the trip to taiwan...
need to finished the work in office.
need to buy a lot of things to prepare myself to go taiwan.

so today went out to bought something...
as follow:-

1) Digital Camera
2) Fish's new album with DVD
3) Shoe to attend the class
4) Inner clothes
5) Pants (to wear for working purposes)
6) Jacket

and Joo also bought another
7) Medium size luggage bag

So today we reli contributed to the economy improvement and productivly of the country...
cos i almost spend all my salary today...
haha...
suppose to be sweating...

but i think to be prepared in advance..
is better than to panic when anything happen...

to blog more when i'm back...

Passport
Local Currency
Credit Card
Locks
Travel insurance booklet

Body shampoo/ Powder/ Perfume
Shampoo/ Conditioner/ Hair styling products/ Comb/ Hair bands
Toothpaste/ Tooth Brush
Skincare/ Sun block
Spectacles/ Spectacles case
Tissue Paper
Nail Clipper/ Razor

Towel
Jeans/Shorts
T-Shirts/ Jacket
Undergarments
Socks/ Shoes
Plastic bags???(why plastic bag to keep the dirty clothes?)

Camera (should i get a new one??)
Charger; Cable
Memory Card
Spare Battery
Torch Light
Umbrella
Water tumbler (need to collect it back from office)
Universal adapter (shit i bought the wrong one)
Panadol/ Medicated Oil/ Clarinase (do i need it?)
Plaster (wonder whether i need it?)

i started to read others blog again...
(cos they started writing again)

reading other's blog making me understand them more?
maybe it would be a method for me to relax myself.
or i should start to read my old blogs.

i still remember i tend to talk bad about somebody last time.
and some i realised that i totally forgot about it. i forgot who i am talking about...
cos i'm posting on a no name basis

total stress out...
and i try to start blogging...
maybe to release my tension.

to understand what is viable and what is not.
hopefully everything good will end up to be fine.

5 years thousand over post in my blog...
however... the number of post per annum seems to be decreasing...

like the way i blog when i was in college.
even since i started to work...
the piece of cake for the time for blogging seem shrink..

looking forward for more quality blog from myself.
to pour out my dissatisfaction
to make myself relief from stress.

looking forward to write more in order to improve my english.
looking forward for more time to blog

read my friend's blog...
she says she feel sad heard a lot of ppl resign...

last time i used to feel like tat also..
now... i'm immune d.
just feel a bit 'kasian' cos the C2pid D company cannot keep all the good ppl here.

wonder what will they do to retain all the good ppl?
whether u got any opportunity to cabut or not is an issue...
cabuting would be a good choice?

these are points to ponder.
wonder what would the firm do?

they say a lot of GLs leaving...
and so ur the next one going up?

but to me my mindset is ...
if you are not ready...
please do not accept it.

it will make your life tough
miserable and stuff.

to me for the time being we will wait and see what D company have to counter offer

and why some they say they wanna cabut for so long...
yet they are still at the same old same old place

"side dishes" for the kids cos they sit bside ur table


(hungry children gasak all the fried rice... however it was too salty for them :)


creamy prawn... favourite dish of the kids... available in adult's table as well


specially made fried cha siew... (some like it a lot... but it does not favour me much)


fried ABALONE!!!(mushroom)cooked in crispy style


clay pot tou fu any1?


favourite dish? mee... but the taste of soda in the mee is too heavy.. personally i think it's not that great.

Here Comes the Great Expensive B'day Dinner


4 style cold plate.


Shark Fin? (fake share fin with crab meat)


toufu wall will fresh mushroom


Prawn in Two style? (i simply hantam aje... i din see the menu dunno wat's the name)


mango fried pork meat something sour


beijing bird's nest stadium? they told me it's lo hon zai (wat the FXXK)


b'day noodle
(Happy b'day to u... Happy b'day to u... Happy b'day to u... Happy b'day to u...)


do you know wat's tat?
sou bao wor...


last but not least... something sweet to end the day - sea coconut plus longan

红烧面



Vegetable Frittata 意式蔬菜蛋饼



Sweet and Sour G'ken Rice 甜酸素G饭



Meatball spaghetti 素肉意大利面



素鱼扒



豆腐肉碎



炒粿条

long long holiday after 8 months in year 2008
seems like i'm getting tired...
never ending filing..
never ending ppl resign...
never ending follow up
never ending error from myself.


too tired...
need to recharge myself.
need to work up...
need to move further...
need to be stronger as compare to previously.

moving towards achieving my target
yet my target seems not achievable.

moving way behind my schedule..
and i hate myself for doing it.
notice ppl sacrifice a lot but end up getting nothing much..
i think i should bersyukur for what i have today

Yesterday I finally managed to collect all the 5 fu wa (mascot of the 2008 Beijing Olympics) :)
so so happy...
sometimes it's difficult cos you need to go mcd every week to check whether the patung is out...
and once you missed it, you need to go else where to search for it.

mcd din state exactly wat time would the fu wa be coming out so it's a bit difficult for us to judge when should it be the right time to go for mc d

and for adult to eat happy meal, it seems ur not full enough...
my bf complain that he is getting fatter bcos he eat a lot of mcd jus bcos he wanna collect all the fu wa for me :P

my aunty send me this pps file with a test on personality and i found it quite interesting.. and seem very true in a certain way...
so the following is my result..

i think the above topic is gonna be the top search of this week end next week.

everybody was busy and rushing back to watch the opening ceremony.
and KL was in the terrible small jam as everybody was rushing back to watch the opening ceremony.

i think i was lucky as i just went home in time to watch the starting.
as my dad has yet to download the olympic channei from astro..
there is a slight delay in watching the opening.

so when i started to watch the channel the drum already started to beat...
i like the part where they play the drum with "ying guang" drum...
and the togetherness of their performance is almost subperb.

with the concept of one world one dream... and choosing a special date and time
08.08.08 08:08:08
the opening ceremony of olympic started.

the opening ceremony was subperb as they can use man power to present best performance to describe the history of China.
let the world to see china.
the show with the aim to introduce the four greates invention of china
namely: fireworks, paper, printing and compas

i think it is reli superb.
fireworks... i like they put on the fireworks of a foot print walking towards the bird nest ...
printing... a lot and a lot of people holding the printing block which is used for the technic of printing when it was invented.
it also shows how the chinese tradional culture.

then when the show ends... come the olympics team marching into the field...
so i went to have my dinner...
the march doesn't interest me much as Malaysia already went in very early (as this year the order of the team are arrange based on the number of "bi hua" of the first letter of the country's name)

so i quickly eat dinner and have a online chat with my friend before the next exciting moment came again..

lastly come the china team marching in with china "Ju Ren" Yao Ming holding it's flag marching in the field. i think it's special as it allows a kid which is a hero of the si chuan earth quake to march along as well. i bet he must be gonna remember this for the rest of his life. (if i got the chance i would do so as well)

and comes the olympic flag.. olympic song... and finally came in olympic torch which is the top secret of the whole olympic ceremony.
the torch of olympic was light by china's famous athelic "Li Ning" by walking through the "xiang Yun" and i think this was a very very tiring job and he had to be hang all the way from the top of the stadium and walking trough the cloud.
and the torch was just being lighted tepat-tepat 09.08.08 and so goes the opening ceremony of olympic in beijing...

so i told my bf...
next next year u bring me to beijing ya...
i wanna see the bird next :)

The month of July is the most awaited month in the year where we get our salary...
and also bonus...

this year... before bonus is being given out..
the management of the company kept on emphasis that if your group bill more and collect more you would be able to share a higher bonus...

but boss ask us not to have high expectation...
cos normally what the company say might not be true...
(if it's not true.. why in the first place tell us..
and let us have high high hope towards our bonus??)

so... come the day the credit control department come to distribute the pay slip to me...
looking for salary and bonus with just ngam ngam 5 digit...
i'm quite happy with the bonus given out by the company...
at least it's much much higher than what i expected...
and now my low bat (motivation to work) has been restored to around 80% i'm going further... (too bad i'm not using energizer... if not my low bat can go back to at least 98%)
i have to work my way to recover my other 20% of my battery before it falls low bat again...

about belanja makan...
i surely belanja makan...
but budget is quite tight...
so kena wait lo :)

i think he is upset bcos he decided to give up the name of his blog and change it into the new name...
and the next day he discovered... some dunno who used the name of his blog...
and post something which he dunno wat it is...
he is upset...
i dunno why...
but if for me ...
if i dun want the thing also i think i will keep it...
dunno...
if i dun want...
i also dun wanna share with others...
maybe this is bcos i'm selfish gua

Some dreams live on in time...forever
Those dreams... you want with all your heart
So I'll do whatever it takes
Follow through with the promise I made
Put it all on the line what I hoped for at last would be mine!

Chorus:
If I could reach,higher
Just for one moment touch the sky
From that one moment in my life
I'm gonna be... stronger!
Know that I've tried my very best
Put my spirit to the test
If I could reach...

Some days are meant to be remembered
Those days we rise above the stars
So I'll go the distance this time
Seeing more the higher I climb
That the more I believe, all the more that this dream will be mine!

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i was talking about power of dreams in the previous post...
and i think with the power of the dreams and we can reach...
higher and higher...
i remember this two Olympics song...
and i think these two songs are the best Olympics songs ever...
and very inspiring one..

Deep within each heart
There lies a magic spark
That lights the fire of our imagination
And since the dawn of man
The strenght of just "I can"
Has brought together people of all nations

There’s nothing ordinary
In the living of each day
There’s a special part
Every one of us will play

Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
As the world gives us its best
To stand apart from all the rest
It is the power of the dream that brings us here

Your mind will take you far
The rest is just pure heart
You’ll find your fate is all your own creation
Every boy and girl
As they come into this world
They bring the gift of hope and inspiration

Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
The world unites in hope and peace
We pray that it will always be
It is the power of the dream that brings us here

There’s so much strength in all of us
Every woman child and man
It’s the moment that you think you can’t
You’ll discover that you can

Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
The world unites in hope and peace
We pray that it will always be
It is the power of the dream that brings us here

Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
The world unites in hope and peace
We pray that it will always be
It is the power of the dream that brings us here

The power of the dream
The faith in things unseen
The courage to embrace your fear
No matter where you are
To reach for your own star
To realize the power of the dream

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2008 is special...
it's leap year
it's olympic year...

talking about olympic it reminds me about song for olympic...
and among all songs...
i love the above song from Celine Dion the most
this song is quite old already about 12 years old...

i like the lyrics...
when u dare to dream...
u will find the power to...
to do anything and everything...

and when the moment u realised that you have the power...
you can do just almost everything...

dare to dream...
to bring you closer to power of dream...

and if you think you can.. you can reach...
and realised almost whatever you want.

when i lost my motivation,
i like to listen to this song...

Haha… kena post on friend’s blog again
And the this time is another friend and the title is “Kena Stalked”

Just take the extraction of his side of the story

“Go to office at works at 7.00am as usual. reached the parking building around 7.28am, then walks to my office. As im listening to MP3 with my handphone w610i, the music is stopped. how come no next song coming out???

after few second, i can sense my handphone vibration, oh is her. how come so suddenly called me on this early in the morning???

me: Helo?
Her: you walking to office now?
me: Yes? why? you at my back?
Her: i see you just now!
me: wah, you pay attention to people who walking at the roadside 1 ar? Respect Respect.
Her: no la, i saw some1 who looks familiar like you ma. haha.
Me: … …
Her: haha… nothing la bye bye.”

And my side of the story is…

This morning as usual.. going to office together with my bf and as and when our car pass by UOA damansara, I was looking around and saw someone walking towards the passenger bridge nearby… and I saw someone who looks like Chin Ann…

Then I fast fast told my bf… eh I think I saw chin ann…. (what in a coincidence I think I was just talking about him with my bf… saying he now working in a Japanese construction company… bla.. bla.. bla…)

Then my first reaction is to pick up the phone to call him. But my speed is a bit slow cos I have to type in the letter C to find his number….
And the above conversation was held.

Sometimes I feel I’m a bit 38 la…
And feel very excited to see friends on the road…

A friend of mine posted something in his blog... and the title is:-
"Internet revolution helps us to keep in touch! "

and i think this is what he suppose to comment on my blog:-
"Isn't it interesting that we can see this? Don't you feel happy that you have somehow witnessed this. Don't you want to see the birth of second child? The purchase of a new house? Their child goes to school? The graduation of their child?

Somehow, it is really fascinating. And I'm happy for my friend because I believe that she has found happiness in her life. And I believe that this is an inspiring story to all of us that knew her!

Congrats GRACE! May you continue to be happy in life! Always! "

haha...
my post is not commenting on a specific person...
however so ngam the person which i'm talking about is jus in coincidence is a previous related party of him.

i think i commented a lot about my friend breaking up...
but i think this blog would be my record and bookmark of the relationship of me and joo and the relationship of our friends :)

it's amazing...
from other people's friendster / facebook
you notice some changes which are happening in their life...

such as breaking up...
and getting married with another person...
and getting pregnant..
until she delivered baby...

the feeling is amazing..
i wonder why people get married so early.
why people wanna get baby so early..
i do not understand.

but looking at the story of my friends breaking up..
and getting married...

makes me think a lot regarding relationship..
i wonder should i move further/faster

but to me everything is still too early for to talk about marriage.
even we have been together for a benchmarking 7 years.
but i still think it's still too early to talk about marriage.
i wonder.

he is coming back...
he is coming back...
he is coming back in 20 hours time...

feel happy happy happy and non other than happy...
he decided to move back..
and move further into my life?

it seems amazing as he decided to move to S country...
but there are nothing much there for him...
and there are opportunity to come back and try something that he like and diff...

if u ask how i feel
i can just think i jus feel happy
but on the other side...
i lost my freedom to do something very freely.
sometimes he influence me too much in my life...

but good thing is...
i decided to learn learn driving...
must must must...
wish me to succeed :)

have been making small and minor adjustment on my blog.

such as taking away the music on the blog.
why? cos i dun have time to maintain the site that support the file and it would be outdated once every 30 days.
rather than having to upload it everytime after it expires... better take it away until i have better solution then i will upload it again.

annother feature is about the photo.
it will auto upload the photo that i have uploaded on picasaweb...
so you all will be able to see the picture that i've taken with my sony 770i as time goes by.
i think it's a cool cool way of sharing things.

the other cool feature
is the update on my friends blog using RSS feed.
once there is any new post on their blog.
i would be able to see it and i could easily notice who has updated their blog.
i like this feature since i see it from superstar3's blog.

basically my life bsides working my life is jus online and blogging and watch series online...
so... life goes on

had been working very very hard...
so that i can forget that i miss u much.
had been trying very very had so that i'm not thinking too much while we are seperated apart.

notice that you triped during your path to search for your job in sg.
but i think it just take sometime.
you would be able to get your job soon.
i'm crossing my hands for you.

i also triped during my work...
had been doing nothing much this few days...
no information which i required to prepare the tax computation are in...
has been calling the client everyday...
i'm tired and sicked of it...
wonder why the client are so bad and not so effective.
keeping on giving me empty promised.

i'm upset...
but moving forward...
i cant change my client...
but i wanna know how to improved myself and learn from my mistake.

on the other hand,
my october filing client
they are superb...
have been working together with them hand in hand for four round of filing and
i think people improved.
i also improve myself.
i'm moving fast towards my aim for the October trip.

:)

it has been rumours that the oil price will increase again...
and the oil price really increase recently for around one dollar and this would reli reli affect our live in stages and you will notice the stuff in the market are more expensive by 10 sen to RM 1.
when you cumulative the effect, it would sum up to a big hole in your pocket.

and today there are rumours that the petrol station all around malaysia will strike and close for dunno how many days...
erm... dunno how true this rumours is...
but just for safety purposes if your tank is about to empty, just go and pump up the petrol la...

i'm a bit updset cos he took my ms office disc without returning it to me.
i'm super upset...
i dunno why i'm so upset.

maybe i can just easily get a newer cd for that document.

just when i'm writing this blog...
he called again... and told me maybe he will be coming up to kl this weekend.

would it be a good news for me?
haha... i really really have no idea leh :P

miss him too much...
but when i see him i would think that i would have nothing to do...
jus hope he can find the job of his dream soon.

have not been blogging for around one month or two...
or i have been posting too little this few months rather than to post more than 100 post this year.

haha.. i'm just a little bit too lazy to do i guest.
but with my new second hand pc i guess i would be doing more blogging this month.
the main point is to release my tension cos i do not know why i'm so stressed up.
with my work and my poor performance.
i do not know what everything is going out for control.

i wonder and i wonder.
i'm slack and i'm doing nothing.
i wanted to work hard.

but the other part of me just refuse to do so.

so next i'm thinking whether to change the monitor of my second hand computer to a lcd flat screen, at least it would be better if i wanted to use it for my own good hoh...
erm...
i wonder...
when i would start to make up my mind to work hard
and not to be slack?

There are two bathroom one near by the living room and annother new to the master bed room

Master bed room view of the show house.. small small room with our big big love inside :)

Kitchen cum dining space and the yard is just right at the left hand side towards the end of the house

Medium room cum guest room of our new house

The construction of our new condo has been in the progress very very fast... the second 10% billing just right after two months of signing the S & P has reached my mail box last friday.