tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

i always listen that people regret for not doing this and doing that la...erm...
sometimes in life there are too many things that you can be regret of ..
but you live you life only once and there are too many things that you would be regreted for so.. jus stay cool and live with it lo.

the emoticon that represents you best is the Smiling Face

What's up, smiley? Somehow you just always seem to find a way to turn that frown upside down. Your upbeat attitude and friendly demeanor brighten up any room, including your favorite chat room.

Like your classic emoticon counterpart, you're a staple on anyone's list. Boring days and sleepless nights are far more bearable when you're online to chat. Whether you're shooting the breeze, catching up, or giving out advice, you can cheer up anyone on the other side of the conversation. So keep lightening the mood, making new friends, and bringing smiles to other folks' faces. After all, it's just so natural for you!

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hahaha.. jus like u see me in person.. always wit the smiling face:)

jack jack.. i like to all it... jac jac...

haven watch this show yet..
but.. my mc jac jac.. is it sold out ar?
sold out d meh?

just met a long time never see friend online just now..
seems that nothing much to talk about..
nothing in common...

jack jack.. sold out d?
erm.. hahaha.. cant try it personally d...
cant hear jac jac cry d...

宇恒 《依然是朋友》歌词
情人节的前一天 他离开你身边
只剩下你无止境的想念

那一夜我陪着你 你哭了一整夜
你是否知道 我对他也一样很想念

直到有一天 我和他碰面
在那间 我们常去的咖啡店

才知道 有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们之间 隐藏了什么
除了我自己没人懂
可是你 你怎么说 你知道后是不是从此避开我
OH~ 我一样难过 多希望我们不曾相识过

才知道 有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们都是最好的朋友
谁会有勇气去开口
不再哭 不再难过
我们还有好大好大的天空
故事的最后 我们都不曾失去过什么

我们依然是朋友
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suddenly see this song in my friends blog.. reminds me of an old friend...
reminds me about a lot of crazy things i would do.
reminds me.. that i'm sad because of her.
i always tell myself i do not care about how others see me.
but i do really cares about her.
she is a really really important in my life some years back.
and we are part and then,
i made some c2pid and selfish decision
and i just feel like walking out of our best friends relationship cos i just felt that i'm tired and fed up of her d.
then time pass by.. i miss our relationship.
and i regreted.. and i want things back to just as they were before.
but... in actual fact...
things were not.
i'm concern about her...
just tat i always tell myself i do not care about her anymore.
i always pretend to be busy when she is around me after the incident.
there is a wound created by me. and i always kept myself back from pulling the thorn that is in the wound.
i'm coward and selfish...
we do not like to express ourself. we just hoping others would understand what we feel and why we do things the way we do it.
i'm concern about her.. knowing that she part with his ex i'm angry..
i've emotion towards what she does cos i care.. i do really care.
i knoe that i'm a really really strong and stubborn...
but i'm holding back my tears.. and waiting for the moment the thorn is being pull out.. and the wound is heal.
just prentend that i'm ignorant to what i've done... ignore how good or how bad her life is...
the feelings sometimes really makes my heart breaks...
and sometimes i care about my friends and when they do not take care of themselve.. and they give up.. i would be really angry with them.. and i wanted to scold her..
but this time i just kept quite.
okie, no matters anything happen between us..
no matters.. whether we are still friend or not..
just want to knoe that she is happy with what she have now.

when i was checking my mail box today.. and suddenly i discover that the size of my mail box had increased to 250MB... wow.. that means a lot of space.
and this is really a very very good news for those people who seldom check thier mail and those people who like to keep mail sent by your friends

internet is a devil who is so evil when exam is around the corner.
it keep holding you back from studying.. it is a big devil.
i wish that i would have a strong will that i would not be addicted to the internet.
but in fact i am.
cant hold myself back from online at nite..
now.. i'm in the college library and i'm using my friends's notebook to online...
weird that my college's library have this thing call wifi that we are not known to it unless we have a notebook.
but it is a real convenient for student who wanna do assignment in the college and need to search for information online.
we do not need to que up for using the computer in the cit center.
and we can directly save information into the note book.
i do hope i can get a note book real soon...
near future.

haha.. still wanna talk about smoking some more :)

my boy friend do not smoke. but most of his friends around him are smokers.
therefore i would let myself to stay as far as possible so that i would not have to inhale any second hand smoke.

i remember that there was one of his friends who smoke and i and my bf was waiting for my dad in the bus stop. and his friends was trying to smoke as fast a possible since he saw that my face turned dark when he smoke. then he told my bf that i was really fierce. but in fact i'm really really against people who smoke. and if you wanna smoke please go far far away and do not increase the cost of society.

i have the story about a guy chasing a his gal gal, where he stop smoking when the was courting his gal gal. and when he suceed to win the gal's heart, he started smoking again secretly without the gal's notice. and everytime he go and find the gal, he would make sure that there is non smell of smoke on his body or around him.

i do not understand why you give up smoking because you wanna win a gal's heart and why you do not continue and keep it up without the habit of smoking? is smoking such attractive that you could never ever give it up?

i do suggest gals to pay some surprise visit to your boy boy not only because you wanna check on him whether he is doing anything naughty behind your back, and also check whether they are smoking behind your back :)

"A pack of 20 cigarettes now costs RM6.50 compared to RM5.40 previously; a pack of 14 costs RM4.70 (from RM3.90); and a pack of 10 costs RM3.60 (from RM3). "

okie lets say that you smoke 20 cigarettes per day.
the total cost for one year would be:-
6.50 x 365 = 2372.50
this amount might be equivalent to one or two months of an employee's salary.

and most of the college student are still getting money support from their parents and don't you think that burning your money away while inviting cancer to your life is.. a bit too c2pid thing that you would do?

sometimes i wonder why people smoke?
if they do not care about their health and thinks that the joy of smoking is greater than the importance of health. that is their business and there is nothing to do with me.

but do they knoe that, they are enjoying themselves at the expense of other person’s health? are they aware of that?
do they know that there is tonnes and tonnes of pollution being created because of smoking?do they know the air belongs to the public's? please do not pollute it!!!!

do they know that the percentage of people getting lung cancer inhaling 2nd hand smoke is much more greater than those who actually smoke? do they care about people around them? hahaha.. want to wait until their love ones got cancer because of their enjoyment then they would regret, since it would be 10 times more painful to see your love ones suffering than you suffers the sickness yourself.

i'm totally against people who smoke and there is no doubt that there are people who i know are smokers but i would try my very best to ask them to stop smoking. but i would feel that my thinking is very naive. but i would try my best to reduce one smoker as i could.

so.. if you know me.. and if you wanna smoke... please go far far away then only you smoke.

and i would also suggest government to built smoking booth for those smokers. so that they could smoke as much as they like by paying a price to use the booth and also help to keep the air of malaysia clean. this will also enable the government to imposted the non smoking area law in each and everywhere of malaysia. so that people could enjoy cleaner air. and the smoker can inhale all the smoke they created and the balanced would be suck into a machine and being purified. this will help the government to increase their income, which is more effective apart from imposing high sin tax on cigaratte :)
make malaysia a better place...
make this world a better place for you and me...
and it begins from you and me...:)

today when i went back home, i on my comp as usual, and when i open my mail box and read my mail. there was two. one is from bravenet where it informs me someone sign my guess book.
and the 2nd mail is the one which makes me feel like 'pengsaning'
the mail was like about 2-3 pages asking me question on malaysian personal tax. where i should be able to answer it tough not really confirm with the answer.
i really feel like pengsan.. cos i'm just a normal gal.. and like to do normal things. and i just feel like answering the e-mail of a stranger is strange.
but after taking my dinner i decided to do a good deed today to answer this stranger's question.
so i look around my text book and make sure that i would not give misleading answer.
i'm not really clever and not really smart. but i'm willing and readily to help others if i'm in the good mood:)

went for yeong sang's small party by us...
and.. i'm sorry to all my friends since i give the wrong directions...:P
but it is really really enjoyable to be with them... at least better than those people who find me for direct sales:)
i care for my friends and i can do anything for them.. but i you want me to join it.. erm.. i'm a bit sorry about that la.
eat a lot of the white chocolate..
still remember yeong sang's look when he saw about 9 of us:)
i think he is definately surprise that we sing happy b'day outside his house.
he always tell us that it was condo and ask us not to be so loud and noisy:)
hehe.. i enjoy my nite..
and thanks jean to pick me up:)

有星星的夜 - 卓文宣 (插曲)

好像该联络 又不是时候 按下号码又不敢发送
猜测你今天的行踪 然后编造一百个理由
点点星夜空 吹来一阵风 总以为是你来到身后
每次都只是我想太多 那我们到底有没有

以为自己真的很特别 才能够遇到像你这样的完美
反反复覆想你的星夜
越爱你越累 想太美 我画颗星在天边

这是我的手 你牵过的手 想要冲洗却又舍不得
明明关上了水龙头 眼泪还是不自主的流
你在说什么 我都听不懂 只知道你就会沉默
你说似有若无的比较好过 那你把快乐还给我

你怎么舍得让我掉眼泪 把我的真心变成是一种浪费
反反复覆想你的星夜
越爱你越累 想太美 我画颗星在天边

你怎么舍得让我掉眼泪 把我的真心变成是一种浪费
反反复覆想你的星夜
寂寞的空位 少了谁 你怎么都没看见

以为自己真的很特别 才能够遇到像你这样的完美
反反复覆想你的星夜
越爱你越累 想太美 我画颗星在天边
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listening to this song now.. i think it is really really nice:)

i'm scared not because the exam is coming soon.
but it is because.. i saw something which i'm not supposed to see...
i'm damn shocked...
and my brain is in coma now...
the image which i see cannot be erased...
i'm damn scared..
hope that sometimes good will come and help me get rid of the feelings.
i've tried to call my boy boy for help but.. din get any results...
i'm damn scared...
my brain frezees.. d...
just feel like crying
:'(

yeong sang is a very very nice and cool guy.. duh...
but he always say that he is not qualified enough to find a good gal gal...
but i thinks what it matters is..
his thinking and mind set.
but anyway, today is his b'day and i just wish to say happy b'day to him:)

just notice that there are so many lonely hearts outside there...
searching for people who are as lonely as they are.
i think if there is a club call loner's club.. it would be very very popular.
but in fact when u join loner's club you would not be lonely anymore
cos you would have a lot of friends.
and what a warm feeling is that?
hahaha...
okie.. craping already...

this is a b'day card for my by a best friend for me, many many years ago

男:杜德伟(ALEX)ONE TWO, ONE TWO,
ONE AND ONE IS TWOYOU WERE MEANT FOR ME,
I WAS MEANT FOR YOUTELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME,
WANT ME, NEED ME IN YPUR LIFECAUSE
I GOT LOVE SO COME AND TAKE A DIVE INTO
MY WORLDSHARE THIS WORLD WITH ME I HOPE
YOU'RE GONNA WANNA STAY RIGHT HERE
YOU SEETHIS IS THE DAY THIS IS A WAY SO
LET US SING A SONG AND MAKE IT STAY
(顺子)PLEASE I GOTTA WRITE A LITTLE
TUNE FOR YOU TO EXPRESS NOTHINGLESS
THAN PURE LOVE FOR YOUYA SEE, I'M THE KIND
OF WONMAN THATWELL, I DON'T LIKE TO KEEP
MY FEELINGS INSIDE, GOTTA LET IT OUTSIDELET
THE WORLD KNOW HOW MUSH I FEEL FOR YOUI
EVEN WROTE A LOVE SONG DEDICATED TO YOUSO
IF YA MISS ME, REALLY MISS ME, WHY DON'T
YA COME CLOSER AND KISS ME, KISS ME
才相遇就有点想妳 想看妳 不敢告诉妳
别以为是寂寞而巳 我知道自己的问题 茶不思
饭不吃的道理 妳使我夜夜好忧郁 一个需要爱的人　
一颗发了疯的心 想为妳谱写一首歌
歌里面都是妳的名 请相信我 是用了心 自从妳出现
在梦里生活就变得好美丽把时间留给妳　
想着妳和等着妳我是真的真的想妳　真的真的想妳
好想为妳淋一场雨证明我的心　证明我的命
永远永远属于妳我是真的真的想妳　真的真的想妳
好想为妳淋一场雨证明我的心　证明我的命此情　
此爱　永不渝(ALEX)TILL THE BREAK OF DOWN,
TO YOU I'LL SING THIS SONGTHIS LOVELY MELODY
THAT GOES 真的想你DAY, NIGHT, I'LL BE HOLDING
YOU SO LIGHTTOGETHER, LET OUR LOVE LIVE FOREVER
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i like this song very very much. so sexy and .. touching
kekekeke...

my handphone credit period had ended.
and i decided not to reload it first. since i always misuse it. means that i would use it for whatever i like.
and i would finish all my credit within few weeks.
but my friends round me are nice and kind enough to lend me thier handphone for sms purpose hahaha!
okie.. enough craping for now.. just wake up.. stil blur blur

tee chong:

You are an overly sensitive person, often falling into a savior-martyr role. You are very skeptical and have more than your share of bad luck. You can be quite inventive and quite curious. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood. You are clever, inventive, imaginative and youthful. You enjoy socializing. You work hard to achieve material success through your own efforts. You have a great deal of loyalty to those you love. You have much inner strength. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You are a hard worker when you make up your mind to do a job.

Yap:
Financial gains and status are important elements in your life. You want to do things in your own way and on your own terms. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. You have a talent for working with people on a one to one basis.

if ur interested to know what ur name mean.. please check


what your name will tell u?

28 nov is my friend yeong sang aka desmond aka mr monk's 21st b'day.
and i suddenly have a c2pid idea of asking my coursemate to sing a b'day song for him since there is lecture in the lecture hall :D hahaha
but before i decided to practice my idea.. i ask my friend yon hon should i do tat or not. and his respond was like so great that he was scared that i really did something so stupid la... hehehe...
erm.. but at the end i did not do that.
but i think that it is no fun that you would not do something c2pid just for your freind :) while you are young.
just like my friend.. who wanna record 100 people's wishes specially just for his x-gal gal.
so touching.. i think most of the people he know would be more than willing to help him to accomplish this mission:)
i do not know the continuation of the story but i'm really touched by wat the guy did for my friend dispite that they are not together anymore.
when i'm back home i was chating wit my friend and i ask him whether he thinks that it is a c2pid action to do. haha.. eventually as expected he say that it was really a c2pid action.
and he said that not much people will entertain me. sometimes i think that i'm a very real person that sometimes my reaction is big and sometimes too over d lo.
and he also thinks that my friend would feel ashame if i would really annouce that to the whole course. hahaha.. think on the second round i do really think that is quite true since the yeong sang i knoe is a person who do not like so much publicity :) but i did really give him something special for his b'day. hehehehe:)
sometimes i think that when we do things we do really need to ask for other people's opinion since that most of the time we would be blinded by what we wanna do. and we just ignore the feelings of others.
and found that people do really like to do things the way they like and ignore other people's feeling. most of all i knoe i always do that. but there is always my bf there for me to remind me not to do so. but i'm always angry with him since he always object what i wanna do and what i like to do.