tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

失去的轉角是珍惜
the turning point of loosing is to know how to appreciate

傷心的轉角是開心
the turning point of sadness is happiness

阻礙的轉角是突破
the turning point of road block is breakthrough

失戀的轉角是勇氣
the turning point of failure in love is courage

叛逆的轉角是學乖
the turning point of being disobedient is learning how to be nice

挫折的轉角是學會
the turning point of failure is learning

i think the above are quite meaningful, as such took it and put it inside my blog and remind myself :)

Finally the conclusion is out.
Because of my hardwork for such a long long time, i only got promoted up one level.

haha...
a bit disappointed on myself.
why? cos i'm not performing up to the standard where others would like to

anyway, now the job start to be triple.
help to do review work,
help to do 'admin' work.

i can see there is more and more challenging job way ahead in the coming months
work would be harder and harder.

will try my level best to cope with it.
so i see bright future with my work la..

today i assisted my senior manager on the topic in relation to the audited financial statements.
i'm suppose to teach the junior staff on how to extract the information from the audited financial statements.

it things does not turn out well.
firstly i wrote something wrong on the board.
and then, i tried to restore the audit files.
how come some of the files are not working geh?
it feels very very weird.
so i say due to technical problem i cant open the file.
anxiao i'm clever rite?
got 'xiao chong ming'

actually from the presentation,
i found that i'm okay to face the crowd.
my face would not blush...
and i'm dare to speak out what i think :)

finally my friend got his answer.
his gf decided to breakup with him.
definately she wants a breakup no turning back.

felt a bit sad for them since i witness the starting of their relationship since the first year of our advanced diploma.
and now it ends.
should be around 3-4 years for their relationship.
i bit kasian... a bit 'ke xi'

but i have nothing to say but just to wish them to find their happiness in the future.

read my friend's blog.
suddenly notice that his gf decided to breakup with him.

just because what he wrote in his blog previously?
erm.. i wonder...
whether my bf read my blog or not?
or i just talking to an imaginary friend in the thin air?

sometimes you do not know what and how to do.
how to communicate in a better manner to the person you like or love.
the only way i know how to do is to write in all in my blog.
admit that i do not know how to express myself well.
sometimes there are a lot of tought which sometimes we do not know how to express ourself :)

do you think that you want a double promotion??
i say no...

now i'm a bit regret....
waiting for director's final decision to see whether i'm double promoted or single promoted.
there is no difference for me whether you are double promoted or single promoted.
the main difference is the expectation that others has on u.

work double and triple hard.
need to scarifies every saturday and everyday after working hours need to stay back.

still wondering whether i deserve for double promotion.
and now i think i should accept whatever my boss wanna promote me.

whatever to be it needs to be..
jus accept it...

jus work harder to get whatever i deserve :)

宝贝 ~~ 张悬
宝贝(in the night)
演唱：张悬
张悬-宝贝(in the night)
我的宝贝宝贝
给你一点甜甜
让你今夜都好眠
我的小鬼小鬼
逗逗你的眉眼
让你喜欢这世界
哇啦啦啦啦啦我的宝贝
倦的时候有个人陪
哎呀呀呀呀呀我的宝贝
要你知道你最美
让你今夜很好眠
捏捏你的小脸
让你喜欢整个明天
孤单时有人把你想念
哇啦啦啦啦啦yeah~woo
yeah~woo~

never hear this on the radio b4..
and recently i've been watching taiwan tv series on you tube...
and realised it's a very hito song at taiwan i guess.
it's a folk rock type of song..
song very nice..
the first time i heard is the song was sang by 陶子 on the tv series for the daugther..
sounds reli how nice...
maybe i could put it up in the near future...

wanna contact you for such a long time.
haven't got a chance to chat with you lately.
just wanna wish u happy b'day on ur special day.

remember that you have called me last time when my b'day comes.
i really treasure the frienship between us.
just hope that we could stay in touch..
miss ya so much...

today is evaluation day...
part 1..
talk a lot...
try to talk a lot..

and ending up i talked 3 points.

- training
- amendments on work
- and secondment overseas...

actually i have nothing much to talk about with my work..
i think the most i would laid out here.

and my boss think it would be a short one...
haha... to be continue tomorrow.

basically after finishing my acca.. it took life to another level.
what are my target and what do i want in life.
actually i guess i'm a bit blur about what i want for the time being...
but for the moment i just want be a sponge and absorb as much as possible.

we talk a lot.
talk about my senior leaving...
talk about coping with presure...
talk about my feeling back then when i feel a bit un-appreciated..
but i think the most important thing in work when you are a ground staff,
is you need to accept it..
realised it..
and let go of it...

Kajian baru-baru menunjukkan Digi (016 atau 014) tidak selamat digunakan.
Recent research shows that DIGI (016 or 014) is not safe for using it.

Apabila anda guna line Digi dan rakamkan dalam camera, dan perhatikan elok-elok.... anda boleh perhatikan kelibat seekor penunggu bewarna kuning akan mangekori pengguna tersebut. Jin atau toyol kuning ini akan ikut anda ke mana-mana: laut, gunung, hutan,
dalam komuter, malahan dalam kereta lalu kat terowong pun dia ada gak.

When you are using a DIGI line, please record with a camera and observe carefully....
You can notice that there is a stranger in yellow following the DIGI user. Gen or yellow sprit will following whereever: sea, moutain, forest, commuter, even in the car or inside the tunnel he's there as well.

Tak seram ke bila sentiasa diekori macam tu? Dah lah botak, pendek, tembam dan berwarna kuning cerah, makhluk ni jugak akan mengajuk-ajuk pergerakan anda! Pada masa yang sama, mereka akan menari-nari dan menyanyi lagi "I will follow Him" dari
filem 'Sister Act 1' yang diubahsuai liriknya.

Isn't it scarry when you are being followed by such person all the time? it's bold, short, fat and sharp yellow in colour, this 'creature' will also imitate your movement as well! At the same times they will dance and sing "I will follow Him" from the movie "Sister Act 1" which it's lyrics has been modified.

So, hati-hati dengan pengguna Digi yang dekat dengan anda, kerana anda diperhatikan. Gunalah Celcom atau Maxis, macam saya.

So be careful with DIGI user right beside you, because you are being watched. Use Celcom or Maxis just like me.

P/s: Ni bukan rekaan. Tetapi saya lihat sendiri dengan mata saya kat TV baru-baru
ini. Kenapa, tak percaya

P/S: This is not fiction. But what I see with my own bare eyes on TV lately. Why dont' you trust me?

i've been keep on loosing my mechanical pencil lately.
maybe it's because of carelessness..
and always just put the pencil just like that and dunno where it drop d..

maybe i'm too careless...
suddenly this week i found my mechanical pencil back..
haha :)
one of it is back with me so happy.
maybe it's just a good sign.
what is lost and will be coming back to me :)

happy chinese new year too all again..
even it's going to end by tomorrow :)

During chinese new year, we went back to my mom's home town, penang to celebrate chinese new year with grandpa and grandma.
and on the second day we are there we went to the restaurant for dinner and order the 120 steamboat set which is suitable for 6-8 person
the following are the pictures of what are the stuff we put inside the vegetarian steamboat:-

'bak choy', fake mutton, 'yam yu' which looks a bit the squit, fake prawn, fish ball, and nugget

'shang mee' and celery

raw mushroom, fake crab stick, some more fish ball, 'bak choy', bean curd and fake fish slice

some more vegetable, raw button mushroom, fish fingers, yam slice and the other type of fish ball

another look at the crab stick and material for steamboat.

is the soup ready? let's have a look at it

boiling soup waiting for us to put in all the ingredient.
the soup has a little milk and sesame oil
the soup taste like the soup base for fish head bee hoon.
and this dinner cost us RM120 excluding the drinks and rice

April it's the time of the year...
where they consider whether to promote you or not.
whether how much increament you are deserve to received.

actually frankly speaking,
i'm looking forward for a promotion this year.
why?
reason:-
1) because i think i deserve a promotion for my hardwork
2) because i'm looking forward for someone to sponsor my acca subscription
3) because i'm ready to accept more responsibility
4) because i want to learn more

sometimes i wonder how people fill up their evaluation form.
what is average performance and what is above average performance...

for me i think average performance is what normal poeple can do you also can do..
above average performance is what normal poeple can do you can do better than them...
excellent performance is what normal people can do you can do extremely better than them... in terms of speed and quality.

that's how i define the ranking on the work evalutation form..
and below average is always not the type of rating that i'm looking forward for lo :)

so i wonder how would my evaluation be and
would i be able to be promoted this round?

2007 has come..
and after new year and chinese new year has passed...
2007 officially have less than 10 months before it comes to an end.
time do flies when you are super busy.

i'm looking back on the past two months and looking forward on the next 9 months plus in 2007.
wondering what is my goal.
where should i be heading.
wondering how to make the year 2007 as meaningful as possible.
but i think rather than spending all my time to keep on wondering...
i should go out there and start to take action,
-to let myself have a better living environment
-to love myself more
-to love my family member more
-to love people around me more
-to try myself to blog as frequent as possible to share my tought and release my tention

i do not know why other poeple would write my name wrongly.
my name is 叶緻庄.
i feel sometimes it's weird that other poeple try to change your name to 叶"致"庄
which is in a way that is not correct.

i wonder why all my cousin sister's class teacher all say that their name is wrong.
they cannot use "緻" and in stead they need to use "致" as "緻" is considered a wrong word in the simplified chinese character.

i do feel weird that i've been using this name for 24 years in my life and i do not see how my name is wrong.
why do they not dare to fight for their own rights. the teacher has no right to say that someone's name is correct or wrong.
but now my cousin sister is used to writing the name as "致" instead of "緻" and now she feels very lazy to change back to "緻".

i do see the rasional of my grandfather giving us the name of "緻" which indicates a name of a gal and "致" which indicates a name of a boy.
by using "致" instead of "緻" does it indicate 男女平等?

but i do think that the name is so meaningful that not a teacher has the right to change the name which is given by your grand parents or parents.

so i do insist that if you wanna write my name, you have to write 叶緻庄. if not please call me tc. :)

above are picture of decoration of my office place.
actually i was shocked when i first saw the decoration.
and it really attracted a lot of attention to our group which we never have b4.

just think that life would be back to normal after chinese new year gua.

i'll be going off to penang 2moro...
have a lot of things which i have yet to do..
have to save all photo inside the pc
and also pack my clothes

it seems difficult task and many things to do..
but i think if you wanna do,
nothing is impossible
everything is possible..
and i'm working on it now ;)

i do not understand why you keep on say such things?
why need to keep on saying those not very good things?

just because other people's occupation then we say other people is not good?
i wonder why.
i do not understand...
i do not understand...
i do not understand...

what should i do?
should i listen to you?
or should i listen to my heart?
what else should i do?
i do not understand..
i cannot understand..
i do not understand how could i continue to respect you.
i do not understand how to interpret what you say is true or false.

其实我并没有告诉你我真的很想念你。
很想可以和你好好的坐下来聊一聊。
但是我却不想主动去联络你。
我是被动的。
无奈你也是同样被动的人吧。
或许是这样让彼此有很多的误会和误解。

很努力地修补我们之间的裂痕。
可是伤口很深，很难愈合。
或许这样让自己觉得有些心痛有些可惜。

that day i search the web.. and look at some blog and saw this written by melody

"我最近在想.....朋友真的有一輩子的嗎？
我們通常講“分手" (breakup)是形容男女之間的感情
可是我覺得好朋友之間也有可能有這種狀況發生.......
"為什嗎"？"這麼會"？你問我？我也還在尋找答案....
我覺得長大了已後， 朋友之間多多少少會開始有一些distance...
大家各忙各的， 談戀愛的談戀愛， 結婚的結婚, etc....
在人生的分叉路口，是不是友情也會“分叉"？
從小到大， 我們走的路是平行的﹣肩並肩， 無話不談的知心密友
我總是很天真的以為我們會best friends forever and ever..............
可是接近３０歲的我們不知不覺的被人生帶到不同的方向....
我向左走，她向右走
慢慢的發現已前每天必需要講１０幾通電話的我們，現在連２通都講不到....
不是不想講，而是想講也找不到幾個共同話題了.......
很sad,很難過....我們那天把我們的這種feeling講開了
發現maybe這是個新的開始， 我們都長大了，事情都變多了,so我們的friendship也會跟著改變
Maybe Its time to say goodbye to what our friendship was in the past and embrace what it will become....
. But I'm STILL SAD! I just wish we could still be the way we were:("

其实那年想要告诉你的是如同上面的文章一样的心情。
可能是我的表达能力不够好吧！
所以就说成了不要再做好朋友了！
一直让自己反省，
想一想自己是对的还是错的。
如果你很偶然地看见我的心情日记，
可以请你告诉我你的答案和看法吧！

i've send you a simple sms jus to wish you happy chinese new year..
nothing special
no special intention.

then only i realised that you had lost my contact.
you lost my number.

considering whether wanna reply your sms..
whether wanna let you know who i am..
notice and realised i hurt you.
but just because i would not want more poeple to be hurt because what i did previously.
and realised i should be responsibile for what i did.
so i never feel regret cos i hurt you.
just wanna let you have a better future..
rather than to be with me.

so.. i'll consider within this month whether wanna let u know who i am.
maybe i'll jus remain annomemous..
:)