tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

just received my result today...
a very every unbelievable result for myself
cant imagine...
get so unbelievable result
and actually i got an B for my finance and ...
the paper actually i got an C for one subject...
and the one and only C for my exam.
i see already i also think it is very very unbelievable.

so if you are interested is knowing wat the subject is please guess...
and i'll tell u trough msn or e-mail u...
cos i'm reli reli shy to disclose it here...:P

khai nien eileen... me and ker tying wit our lovely flowers..... 

eileen and me... oops my hair is messy d....haha 

khai nien and eileen.... graduating wit their beautiful flower..... 

today is my bf's convo....
hehe...
can't belive it that he actually graduated earlier than me (practically)
he is always the one who is very very lucky.
why?
he always tend to fail his exam...
and tends to make it during the final resit.
what a lucky guy.

annother friend of mine...
hui ling she also going to graduate today...
and she is going to fly to uk to shefield by 17 may if i'm not mistaken.

and many tough not much graduated.
in the graduation list there were about 196 people who completed and graduate from the course.
and this figure is about 70% of the population in the course of 285 poeple.
and out of this 196 people only 4 poeple got distinction and also 69 poeple got merit for their graduation.

erm... i'm one of the people who graduated... so happy...
and yesterday i met miss ng...
she was like trying to tell me wat is my grade for her paper.
erm... maybe a B? i think that's all i can get gua...
cos eventought i did not do badly on her paper.
but i feel that there are things which i did not do well enough to get an A

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

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this song have a very very special meaning for me and a friend.
i'm not sure whether the person will still remember this song?
just wanna listen to this song again and again and again...

just close my eyes and listen to it every time.
brings me a lot of satisfaction.

today when i wake up my the flesh beside my tooth was in deep pain....
cannot describe the feeling but it does affect my emotion.
maybe too many spicy food lately.
damn...
it is like a pain in the ass...

it is really painful and i think the flesh is going to cover my wisdom tooth someday.
my god...
tired...
wanna cry already...
cham liao la...
how to continue to study?
and exam is coming soon again.....

today the graduate list was out on the board.
then i was worried and i went to look at the board.
haha... i've got merit for my exam wor....
not passed saje...
but merit wor...
erm... my c are not so strong this time i think
thank god again...
what a good news for me.
at least not the last one from the course being called on to the stage....
'sia sui' and 'lak sei' saje...

always think that i did not did my best
or i've did my best but my best was not good enough?

do not wish to be a distinction student but just do not want my parents to be 'lak sei' la...
at least i already proven to myself i did my level best to get what i need lur.

so now... focus on the dream of acca lur...
suddenly see other poeple graduate earlier than me...
also taking acca.
erm...
should i be crying?
erm... i do think if i really work hard enough...
i could realise my dreams.

sometimes i think it is very cruel that people are resiting and they wanted to graduate and the lecture do not want/intend to help the students.

mayb they left only this paper to graduated?

one of my friend have not failed the internal exam before,
and this semester he failed the final three paper.
and he have to sit for all five paper....
including external acca 2 option paper and
internal resit 3 core paper.

i think it would be a big burden to them since they are given little time to prepare for the subject.
i think lectures do want to help us pass.
but i do not understand why some lecture refuse to do so?

erm... to protect their good name?
or they do not want to be liable about the things they say?

i feel weird sometimes.....
cos when a lecture give guidance/hints before the exam...
after the exam there would be a lot of noice complaining about the lecture giving tips to the student....
aren't giving tips to the student one of the motif before exam?
then... why after exam already... the students want to complaint about the lecture giving tips to them?

lecture are just normal human being...
they also wanna protect their reputation and they wanted to secure their job.
since they already being kind hearted to give tips,
why dont you just listen,
and whether you wanted to accept or not...
it's all up to you.
and they are also not liable to the accuracy of the tips.
since you are liable for your own behaviour.

if you knoe the tips,
just share it with your friends,
and keep quiet after that lur...

erm... i do really pity....
because lecture do really suffer ethical dialema since they already setting the question and they have to spread something out to ensure that most of the student passed the exam.

today is the first day of orientation in tarcollege.
saw the fresheee's t-shirt...
'proud to be tarcian'
i think i would reluctant to wear the t-shirt after finished the orientation gua?
haha....

today the library have a very very long queue.
all of them applying for the id card.
and the procedure for applying the id card was quite 'ma fan'
have to go here and there...
and also attend the boring library tour...
then only can apply the library card.
haha...
glad that i do not have to been trough all this troublesome to ensure that i got my library card.

erm... already very very 'old' lo...
finished my 4 years in tar.

and i've observed something
nowadays...
the kids are very 'hang fuk'
cos they have their own transport to drive...
and they carry all those colour screen hand phone.
and their parents will go to the college with them just like they are little kids.

i remember that the first day of me being in tar.
my dad just sent me there and tell me this is tar...
just go inside.
huh? where is college hall? where is libarary?

that time i still carrying my erricsion... the phone which the dog see already also will run as far as it could.

the first day in tar, i remember i dunno the way back home.
my dad asked me to go back by myself.
and i remembered i walked about half an hour from the main gate to taman melati lrt satation.
when i reached kl (which means pasar seni there) then i feel safe,
and i know how to go home.
i remembered i was damn scared that time.
hehe

now everything already become history.
so... now have to leave the college soon lo...

weird weird weird...
suddenly notice there is RM30 extra credit in my handphone.
just now when i see my handphone suddenly notice that my credit had been reloaded with RM30.

i was wondering whether is joo who reload for me since i already told him that i dun hav credit already.
when i called him, who knoes that he say he din reload for me.
i tought he was kidding at first,
but i think he would not do such sweet things.

so asked dad had he done anything?
the answer is no.

so now?
the conclusion is this is the money which had fallen from the sky?
weird....

or the gift from god on wesak day?
anyway... just thank the god.
send me RM30 just when i needed some credit.
no need to use my RM 60 top up card yet.

or is it anyone who knoes that i do not have any credit d...
then send me some credit?
i wonder.....
hehe....
thanks god la...

today my dad woke me up very very early.
before 8am.
today actually do not have any class and i'm thinking of staying in the bed for a little longer.
but he woked me up so i have to wake up
then we wait for mom to get ready to go out.

when we are ready, we went to my parent's house.
we are going together for a free breakfast in the vegetarian shop.

then we wait for the uncle and auty's children
and when everyone was ready,
it was about 8.30 am already.

when we reached there,
we was just in time!
the breakfast just started.
we all line up and grab whatever in on our menu.
yes the breakfast was totally free and you can eat as much as you like.

why?
cos today is wesak day!!!!!!
the free breakfast was from 8.30am to 11.00am

since we were early there are not many people.
there are mee hoon, yellow rice, fried chun juang, fried man tou,
vegie curry, vegie fish, vegie cha siu, tofu....
erm....wow.... free you know!!!!

but not really greedy to take too much.
just wanna try everything out by taking some of each item lo.
i remember watching the tv that says that if the thing is free / cheap but you cannot finished it they would charged you extra for wasting the food.

but anyway, feel very greatful and thankful that i could have the opportunity to enjoy such nice free meal.
always remember that there is no free lunch in this world.

still very full now.
i think i would have nothing for lunch today la...

my room was in a mess....
busy studying for acca.
and attending in the intensive class
i think i've stress myself too much d.
until i have the pain in my neck.
seems very very scarry for me.

this few days was having dinner wit fz, yan er and pei li as well as wei wei.
erm... i think should be less chance to hav dinner wit them lur.

i found something interesting in the guy blog.
they eat vegetarian cos they wanna pass the exam...

then i eat vegetarian cos?
haha...
suddenly found that i have no memory about how i choose to be a vegetarian.
i found it very interesting that people say that they would not eat vegetarian.
however i would be a very very interesting point for me to argue.
cos?
if they only eat meat and no vegerable they would in very very bad health
vegetarian is only take away thier meat only ma...
so nothing so different and no big deal about eating vegetarian lo...
rite?

erm... seems like the studying process had slowed down lur...
no mood to focus on exam?
i'm not really sure about things that happened around me.
suddenly feel that have some kind of recognition from the coursemate.

sometimes i really feel that i do so manythings for nothing
i will always remember what miss chin had say.
you better focus on your studies do not do so many things...
i think maybe what she had said is correct gua...
do so much things for nothing in return.
but i do hope it will train my patient.
and do help the poeple who are in the fire and water and get them out of the mist.

still thinking that i'm damn luckily to that i've passed my exam...
so nice...
no need to sit for annother one other than my acca exam.

it seems that lecture tend to ignore you when you already passed your exam.
mr tho was like very reluctant to tell me what was going to come out on the resit paper.
however, i do not wish to know anything about it at all.
haha...
not my business... i can forget all about it. since i already passed the internal exam.

miss chin is kind enough to arrange specially a session for those who did not passed the exam.

and ms ng was kindda pissed off that the question she had set for part b was so easy and yet student din get the correct answer.
i think is cause they have a bias mind towards ms ng gua.
i think she had given us much guidance for the final exam during her lecture hours.
but yet few attended the lecture.
is this the reason for not passing the subject.

and annother thing that i've encounter today is that the junior had requested for her paper to be reviewed (year 1 paper).
however in actual fact for the paper to be passed, the examination board and the lectures had already put in their every effort to pass the candidate.
however, if they do not want to pass you must be due to a specific reason.
firstly the first year paper is an internally assessed paper.
so this involved the 'guai lou' in managing and controlling the passing marks and passing percentage.
if they do not want to pass you plese save your money for resit.
it is waste of money and time to wait for the exam script to be remark.
i'm not totally sure la...
but this is just what i see heard and feel during my four years in tar college accounting la.

finally the suffer of having to wait for examination results is over.
i do not need to sit for annother tar college exam anymore.
kindda like the very lucky that the god had protected me for so long.
always think that if because of one's poor performance and have to loose the chance to graduate fast.
i think i would rather kill myself la.
thanks to all the lectures who had done their very very best to help me to passed my exam. and let me graduate 'sun sun li li'

before that i was always imagining what it would be if i really tergantung one paper.
i knoe i did one of my paper very very badly.
and i know the chance of passing that paper was as thin as the air at the top of himalaya's mountant.
luckily i passed la.

thanks a lot to everyone who had helped me for the two years in my advanced diploma.
it had been a very very exciting year for me.
and i do forsee annother exciting year ahead of me.
i would try my best to do my best ;)

i cannot stand other people to misunderstood me.
but on the other hand, i'm those type of poeple who are not reli concern to explain myself.
maybe because of this,
i lost a lot of chance,
maybe because of this,
i lost of things which is precious to me?

i think i'm a very very protective person.
that's why some poeple would think that i do not have any friends.
but in fact, anybody also can be my friend,
but just notice that i did not have a friend who is very close to me.

maybe i like to keep all my things to myself?
i think i have a close friend once,
and i lost her.
i do not tend to believe much on people.
i just try to be innocent but not to believe anyone.
try to independent and helpful.

just heard that my heart break again.
just dun wanna be misunderstood.
but dun wanna explain what i am thinking.
just let it break into pieces.

my friend just msn me and she told me that annother friend's dad passed away cos he commited suicide.
i'm shocked. and i do not know what and how to react.
i think this is not a good time for me to call the friend.
i think this is not a good time to do anything

i'm confused with what i should do.
and with somebody misunderstood me.
i have no say.
i have nothing to say.

today when i want to go out for dinner,
i suddenly notice that my pendant is gone??????

OMG... if it is drop anywhere on the street?
how can i get it back?
why and how stupid i am not to notice that my pendant is gone?
the pendant is suppose to be around the neck geh mah....
why it is gone d?
where had it been?

i quickily called home and check with my dad to see whether it is in the house so that i would not need to look all over the house for it.
and my dad's attitude was like dun care enough to look for me.
the pendant eventough is not really expensive but,
i seems to be very meaningful to me.

luckily it was found in my room.
i think it droped when i'm using the towel.
luckily i found it back.

it seems that i have no luck for this few days.
it seems that not much good things had happened on me.
what can i do?
just hope that this not so good luck won follow me when the exam come out.

if 'A'= Success,
then the formula is;

A= X+Y+Z

where:
X is work
Y is play
Z is 'KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT'

cartoon MV-guang liang's tong hua
found this on the friendster post.
not really very very geng but i think it is worth go and have a look at it.

lots of things happened this few days since i have not blog.

revision class... is very very intensive revision class.
everyday also got class.
but anyway i like daniel's class.
i found it quite amazing that the daniel's class is almost full.
and it seems to be as pack as farmer's class lo...
but to be as pack as farmer's class should be seems to be crazy gua.
and uncle daniel gives us a lot and a lot of question to look at.
live saving question
question on calculation.
basic preparation question for those who din attend his class.

today when i went out to take the bus, my water bottle drop on the road and it pecah.
then... that was the end of the story of a bottle's life and it ended up in the rubbish bin of city center.
kindda felt sorry for it gua...

today is the first day of paper 3.6 in ftms
and this is the first time that i notice that,
if a lecture is really good, he will attract so many people to come to attend his intensive
i think this is so called the star effect.
but oh no have to move to the other place to study d,
since it is so packed.

not happy?
maybe is caused i already think too much about a lot of things every day.

heard that there is someone who had gave up on her cima paper.
do not want to sit for the exam this sitting.
i really wonder why?
cos scared of failing the exam?
cos the feeling of scared that will fail?

always remember what kwai fatt said.
if you already give up that means you already admit you will fail.
if you do not give up and just keep on writing,
the possibility of passing would be very high.

you do not need 100% to passed the exam.
you only need 50% to pass the exam.
this is an very important concept which i should always remind myself.

really tired this few days.
have not have a good enough rest.
should i rest myself.
or just like exam... just keep on writting.

have not been posting anything this few days
feel tired
upset and
not really happy gua.

tire?
tired of wearing a mask to disguise myself

upset?
upset of letting myself to keep on acting happy in front of everyone,
but actually i really notice that i'm not really happy.

happy?
everyone thinks that i'm happy.
but the little voice inside myself is telling me,
i'm not okay...
i'm not okay...

just pray that i'm okay soon.
just pray that the feeling of upset will be gone sooner that i can dream of.

this morning when i wake up the sky was totally dark.
it was going to rain.
if i were to stay in the bed it should be a beautiful day for me.
but, unfortunately i'm suppose to go to college and continue revision.
and the sky started to rain.
rain and rain and rain.

it seems very tiring when you have to wake up and study so early while others are still in their bed fast to sleep.
but for me i do hope the hard work would have a sweet pay back in the end.

life seems challenging yet tiring.
and i seems not to be giving my self some good rest for a long time.
should i just take a break and after that it would improve the quality of studies?

already sacrificed a lot during this whole years.
hope that what i have done would be worth while in the end.

In conjunction with the Non-Aligned Movement Conference, a dress rehearsal will be conducted tomorrow - the 5th of May, between 8.30am & 9.30am and also from 7.30pm till 8.30pm. Affected areas are within the City Centre, Putrajaya and Kajang.
Take note in the morning, traffic heading south (KL to Putrajaya) will experience these closures while in the evening, traffic heading north ( from Putrajaya towards KL & the Palace of the Golden Horses ) will experience these road closures.

The entire stretch of Jln Sultan Ismail,
The junction of Jln Raja Chulan & Bukit Bintang
The junction Jln Bukit Bintang and Sultan Ismail
The junction of Jln Raja Abdullah & Sultan Ismail
The junction of Jln Tuanku Abdul Rahman & Sultan Ismail
The junction of Jln Imbi & Jln Sultan Ismail
The junction of Jln P.Ramlee & Sultan Ismail
The junction of Jln Raja Chulan & Sultan Ismail
Jln Pahang and Jln Kuching to Jln Mahameru
Jln Parlimen to Jln D'sara
Jln Tun Sambanthan to Jln Istana Baru
Jalan Travers to Jln Istana Baru
Jln Sg Besi - KL - S'ban Highway
The Federal Highway to Desa Petaling to Kuchai Lama towards the Sg Besi Toll Plaza
MRR2, the Kesas Highway and from the Puchong Link towards Sg Besi Toll
Bes Raya Highway towards the Palace of the Golden Horses
Mint Hotel towards the Sg Besi Toll
UPM Toll towards the Kajang Toll
And from S'ban to the Kajang Toll Plaza.
In Putrajaya and Kajang, the following roads will be closed to traffic:

The entire stretch of the SKVE - South Klang Valley Expressway starting from the Kajang Toll Plaza Intersection until Persiaran Persekutuan Putrajaya.
From Sg. Ramal to Putrajaya
The entire stretch of Persiaran Kemajuan, Bangi and the Kajang/Puchong stretch to Putrajaya
City traffic Police is advising motorist to use the following roads as alternatives:

Motorist coming the East Coast are advised to use the MRR2
While motorist from Jln Sentul and Jln Ipoh are advised to use Jln Segambut and Jln Pahang.
Motorist from Rawang, Jln Duta and Jln Segambut can use Jln Kuching and Jln Tun Perak and then head to the Segambut roundabout and use Jln Duta and Jln Parlimen to get to the city centre.
Motorist from Jln Ampang are advised to use Jln Tun Razak
While motorist from Cheras heading north can use the Connought Highway, and then head towards the Kerinchi Link and Jln Duta to get to the city.

'got snake boss sure got snake employee gua'...wahahahah

this is the paragraph i took from my boy boy's web site.
always think he dun like to blog.
and he weird until he talk to his blog.
and always complaint to his blog about me.
and always say...
'good nite my blog'
'bye, my blog'

weird guy...
and i really dun understand why this weird guy can become my bf.
mayb because i'm weird as well?
mayb mayb huh?

there are always times that things have been arranged and they did not went according to what you have planned.
if something happened and affected your plan,
what would you do?
how would you face it?
change is the things we need to face in our daily life.

time had became the scare resources of exam.
and exam is approaching nearer and nearer.
and there is always obstacales on the way to complete the impossible task.
but i do believe that there is nothing impossible in this world.
it just depend on how we wanna face it.
i wonder how would i face the situation which going to happened 2moro lur....

the sky is raining again. in this great afternoon.
it seems that the sky is welcome tolo's come back?
which he always say that the weather is always too hot in kk.
mayb lur.
okay.. gotta go...
the library computer lab is going to close soon.

there are many people in the college today.
do not really know the reasons of their present in the college.
they should be the fresheee.
and we are the oldshee...
and we are gonna be delivered to the tar muzium soon....
cos we had become tar's history lur...

tar had many changes since the time i first went in lur.
now the library have many many books to borrow, but i already have to leave the college lur.
so kasian....

today have the same roti canai again.
60 sen saje...
today the roti canai was jus nice.
very crispy and just serve it with sugar since i dun wanna put any curry since i'm not sure whether i can eat the curry or not.
so rather eat it with sugar.
have to eat roti canai again 2moro?
i wonder....

seems to work my plan to study...
at least i see some results everyday
rather than sitting there doing nothing.

trying to adapt very hard to the acca question style.
i think it is still okay for the sfm question.
but for the sbpd question and the acr question,
i found it difficult.
but i will try my best to link all the masb that i've learned together.

this afternoon try many question but seems to give up easily.
but see one question i try to lay out all the masb which is possible to answer the question.
when u able to compelete the question you felt satisfied.

there are more and more people in the library this week lur.
maybe they already feel the tension of exam approaching gua.
maybe studying in the library is the best way to focus yourself gua.

jus now there were fire works again.
the people in my housing area seems very weird
and they seems to be very rich some how.

they seems to like to play with fire works no matter wat is the holiday that is around the corner.
it does not seems to be a problem to them.
i really wonder why they could spend their money like that.

if they save the money for the fire works and do some charity work,
isn't it better?
at least he/she could make somebody's life better,
or even change a person's faith.
rather then spend it for something which might last for a few minutes only?

mayb it is just my thinking gua.

i'm suppose to study...
but suddenly realise some little card might be missing.
then look up and down for that particular card.
seems to be very funny and very c2pid gua.
i'm not sure about it.
finally found the card d.
i guess i can go back to study again

looking at the youngster now adays taking more and more expensive hand phone i'm wondering myself when would i get a new one?
or still stick to thesame old 3310
always tell myself i wanna change handphone, but always tell myself i dun have the money to aford a new hand phone for myself.
not like some poeple who are lucky where they could get a free hand phone from some one special to them.
but i think things that we get with our own money we would appreciate its value more.

i really wonder what is the reason behind spending money on luxury goods,
but you do not want to spend more money to enrich your brain with knowledge?
sometimes i really wonder about this question.
okay lur...
better start my revision again rather than thinking all the while.
i think i should listen to wen kang's program.
since the song are so nice and his talking sometimes make me can focus on my studies.
amazing huh?

八打灵再也29日讯-快捷通巴士（Rapid KL）新车资收费率涨幅达15％至20％，相等于调整20仙至50仙，最低车资90仙，从第一区到第一区涨20仙，到第二区涨30仙、到第三区涨40仙及到第四区涨50仙，第四区之后每公里涨7.2仙。
根据快捷通巴士私人有限公司公布的车资新收费率，依然采用分区收费制度，即第一区内部川行，价格从70仙涨至90仙，涨20仙；第一区到第二区从1令吉20仙涨至1令吉50仙，涨30仙；到第三区从1令吉60仙涨至2令吉，涨40仙；到第四区则从2令吉涨至2令吉50仙，涨50仙。
超过第四区以10仙计算
该公司总营运长（巴士组）莫哈末阿里指出，如果行程超过第四区，例如到巴生、森美兰州的芙蓉等地，则是每公里7.2仙，为了方便计算，车资以每公里10仙计算。
他说，自从2000年调整巴士车资之后，巴士车资维持至今，如今政府批准公共交通系统涨价，所以快捷通巴士也将采用新的车资收费率。
莫哈末阿里在新闻发布会上发表谈话，与会者包括总执行长莱恩维斯特。
月票6月采新收费率
另一方面，快捷通巴士5月份的月票价格，将根据旧有的车资收费率计算，直至6月才采用新收费率，月票价格的计算法，以一个月有26天乘搭双程巴士的车资计算，不过月票持有者可以在指定区域内无限次乘搭巴士。
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yesterday i was eatting curry and the curry stained on my white colour shirt wor.
then i panic....
erm.. i think it should be difficult to wash the curry stain lur..
and my white shirt should be donated to the tsunami victim or to those people who are in need of the clothes lur...

luckily my dad bring extra clothes for me to change.
so, i do not need to dig a hole of the careless act that i've done.
then i was putting dynamo on the clothes hoping it would be amazingly coming off the shirt.
but it seems it does not help much.
but the uncle say cannot wash the shirt immediately after putting on dynamo geh...
must let it soak...
and the stain will come out geh...

then i jus put the dynamo on places where the shirt was stain and praying that the stain will be gone by the time i wash it lur.
i put it in the plastic beg and put it in my dad's car,
to prevent me from remembering about the shirt thing.
since i'm not going home so soon.

and when i came home, i wanted to wash my clothes, to my surprise,
the stain were all gone,
and the blue blue thing of the dynamo also all gone already.
it's just like the blue blue liquid of dynamo had eaten all the curry stain...
'gon gon jeng jeng' .

thank god la... my white shirt do not need to be abandon lur.