tOm@kO's life ~*_*~

It seems that a lot of natural disasters that happened during the end of the year.

Wonder why this happened?
because god wanna warn us not to further harm the earth anymore?

sometimes i wonder.
going to be away from home this very first time.
and the very first year...

and knowing that my parents are very concerned about my trip.
this is the first time i travel together with joo...
and my parents always tell me..
do not do something c2pid that would let thier face down.
you have to take care of urself la... take care of your safety la....
bla.. bla.. bla..

i wonder...sometimes i wonder why my parents so not willing to let me have a say of my own and do my own things?

hope this would be a safe trip and my parents would be please and glad they allowed me to go for this trip.

herm... 2006 is coming to an end...
just wondering where i should be end of the year.

I would be at home watching tv?
haha.. no this year i would be out of my house.
i would be at S'pore celebrate the merry merry new year...

hehe... so hoping everything would be alright..
and the flood will be gone by the time when i wanted to go s'pore.

actually i'm a bit looking forward for the trip.
and i think it would be good for me since it seems that it should be the time for me to be independent.
starting to explore things myself.
hoping that i would be prepared for the trip.

hoping that i would be better when i'm back from my trip.
hoping i could gain more from the trip i have.

huh... end up i did not take too much picture during our annual dinner...
why cos some c2pid fuller told me.. 'nonono... i got camera here.. it's okay... i can use my cemera to take'
ah... 'zhen yang' looking down on my camera kah?

okay... that's fine with me...
no point of being upset till today.

actually wanna wish thanks to my friend who help me to make up and do my hair as well as my nails...
jus feel a bit it's not like me...

my bf say.. you have to learn to make up...
it's a kind of respect... to others...
bla bla bla bla...

but it's so not tee chong...
'suan la'... see how things go lo...

painting finger nails...
it's so like me...

wanna see how's it's like?

please wait for the picture which will be posted here soon :P

五隻毛毛蟲的故事
來源：網路流傳
第一隻毛毛蟲

話說第一隻毛毛蟲，有一天爬呀爬呀過山河，終於來到這棵蘋果樹下。

他並不知道這是一棵蘋果樹，也不知樹上長滿了紅紅的蘋果。

當他看到同伴們往上爬時，不知所以的就跟著往上爬。

沒有目的，不知終點，更不知生為何求、死為何所。

他的最後結局呢？也許找到了一顆大蘋果，幸福的過了一生；也可能在樹葉中迷了路，顛沛流離胡塗一生。

不過可以確定的是，大部分的蟲都是這樣活著的，也不去煩惱什麼是生命意義，倒也輕鬆許多。

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第二隻毛毛蟲

有一天，第二隻毛毛蟲也爬到了蘋果樹下。

他知道這是一棵蘋果樹，也確定他的「蟲生目標」就是找到一棵大蘋果。

問題是...他並不知道大蘋果會長在什麼地方？但他猜想：大蘋果應該長在大枝葉
上吧！

於是他就慢慢地往上爬，遇到分支的時候，就選擇較粗的樹枝繼續爬。

當然在這個毛蟲社會中，也存在考試制度，如果有許多蟲同時選擇同一個分支，可是要舉行聯考來決定誰才有資格通過大樹枝。

幸運的，這隻毛毛蟲一路過關斬將，每次都能第一志願的選上最好的樹枝，最後他從一枝名為「台大」的樹枝上，找到了一顆大蘋果。

不過他發現這顆大蘋果並不是全樹上最大的，頂多只能稱是局部最大。

因為在它的上面還有一顆更大的蘋果，號稱「老板」，是由另一隻毛毛蟲爬過一個名為「學徒」的樹枝才找到的。

令他洩氣的是，這個學徒分支是他當年不屑於爬的一棵細小的樹枝。

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第三隻毛毛蟲

接著，第三隻毛毛蟲也來到了樹下。這隻毛毛蟲相當難得，小小年紀，卻自己研製了一副望遠鏡。

在還未開始爬時，就先利用望遠鏡蒐尋一番，找到了一棵超大蘋果。

同時，他發覺當從下往上找路時，會遇到很多分支，有各種不同的爬法；但若從上往下找路時，卻只有一種爬法。

他很細心的從蘋果的位置，由上往下反推至目前所處的位置，記下這條確定的路
徑。

於是，他開始往上爬了，當遇到分支時，他一點也不慌張，因為他知道該往那條路走不必跟著一大堆蟲去擠破頭。

譬如說，如果他的目標是一顆名叫「教授」的蘋果，那應該爬「升學」這條路；如果目標是「老板」，那應該爬「學徒」這分支；若目標是「議長」，也許早就該爬「賭場保鑣」這條路了。

最後，這隻毛毛蟲「應該」會有一個很好的結局，因為他己具備了「先覺」的條件了。但也許會有一些意外的結局出現，因為毛毛蟲的爬行相當緩慢，從預定蘋果到抵達時，需要一段時間。

當他抵達時，也許蘋果已被別蟲捷足先登，也許蘋果已熟透而爛掉了...

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第四隻毛毛蟲

第四隻毛毛蟲可不是一隻普通的蟲，同時具有先知先覺的能力。

他不僅先覺知道自己要何種蘋果，更先知──知道未來蘋果將如何成長。

因此當他帶著那「先覺」的望眼鐿時，他的目標並不是一顆大蘋果，而是一芽含苞待放的蘋果花。

他計算著自己的時程，並估計當他抵達時，這朵花正好長成一顆成熟的大蘋果，而且他將是第一個鑽入大快朵頤的蟲。

果其然，他獲得所應得的，從此過著幸福快樂的日子。

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第五隻毛毛蟲

毛毛蟲的故事本來應該到此結束了。

因為所有故事的結局都必須是正面的且富有教育意義。

但仍有不少讀者好奇：第五隻毛毛蟲到底怎麼了...？

其實他什麼也沒做，就在樹下躺著納涼，而一顆顆大蘋果就從天而降在他的身邊。

因為樹上某一大片樹枝早就被他的家族佔領了。

他的爺爺、爸爸、哥哥們盤據在某一樹幹上，禁止其他蟲進入。

然後蘋果成熟時，就一顆顆的丟給底下的子孫們撿食。

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奉勸諸位，若你不是含著金湯匙出生也不是先知先覺的第四隻毛毛蟲的話，就乖乖腳踏實地的打拼吧，

可不要妄想檢到大蘋果，因為反而會被砸死的。

this is a e-mail i received form an anonomous sender :)

2006 New Year Resolution

the following is an extract of the above mentioned blog posting:-

"okay now i just simply set a few goals and see what i would be able to do with it.

1. get first 5 in the coming tax trainning for the company. (yes it is being achieved, i got first place for the trainning)

2. help out my group leader and try to get as much exposure as possible. (yes being incentive application, but it seems that i breakdown sometimes along the way... exposure wise.. i gain a lot and it really help to make me to be more mature in handling my work)

3. be a more open person and try to know more people in the future. (moving to a new floor at 12 floor, yes i manage to know more people because there are more staff at 12 floor and also because i got first place in the trainning and more poeple know me. however now i just feel that i wanna be a low profile person :))

4. try to control my weight and work out during weekend (so far my weight has not increase too much but sad to say it doesn't reduce either... so i found it doesn't work out well enough for this resolution)

5. continue blogging (yes have been blogging all year long but it seems that i spend time working at home from june to november rather than posting how i feel and what i feel. i think that's why i'm a bit streesed out)

6. learn how to drive by end of this year (driving huh... to have somemore room for improvement. can drive already.. but if wanna let them (i.e. my parents and bf to be convienced that i can drive to work i seems long long way to go)

7. buy and read more books especaily english books (this is the worst new year resolution. i have bought a lot of books but rarely read them.. i bought demand and angle the mandrin version also the da vinci code... however no new english book are being purchased. therefore this have to be improved)

8. maintain a good relationship with my family especially my parents (having a better relationship with my parents and also it seems that they have accepted my bf better and more convienced and secure that we are together ;))

9. get a promotion during the year. (yes being promoted from junior to semi senior.. actually looking forward for a further promotion.. working working damn hard for it)

10.treat myself better (this is a question i'm wondering and asking myself all the time. is it that i'm not treating myself better? why should i loose out to what i like as compared to a job which i work like a 'monkey' and i get peanuts in return. but i always tell myself job satisfaction is what i have been looking for all this time.)"

please give me some feed back if you have some tought regarding my new year resolution this year.. so that i could improved on my new new year resolution 2007 :)

Dear all please go to the following site to post me ur christmas wish oh... :)
Merry Christmas oh :)
Sweet Sweet Christmas

Much Regards
Tee Chong

trying very very hard for things to be at the correct position.
however things seems like they do not want to go the way they you want it to be.
it seems that things always goes against you.

try very hard to overcome it.
just when you think that it's over.
yet it's not over.

just when you think that things are getting smooth and you need not worries too much regarding this issue.
tried very hard to overcome it...
and yet i have a strong sense that things are not where they suppose to be.
it seems that i'm either wrong or i'm bad...

it seems to be affecting my performance.
and i'm suppose to be the one who people should be putting the blame on?
sometimes i wonder why and i wonder how.

i'm just feeling that there are just too much responsibility on my shoulder that i should just let the thing go...

praying that tomorrow is a brand new day.. and things would be getting on well soon :)
please pray for me as well ;)

　　她觉得她爱过他。很矫情的。

　　春天，家门口的树上总是绽放或白或粉的不知名的小花，满树都是。她喜欢这些花儿，所以总是蹲在那些树下，倚着树看天发呆。他站在她面前，挡住她眼前的那片天空，她嘻笑着把他推开。他抱她起来，任凭她的拳打脚踢雨点般地落在他的身上，背她在背上，一直走回家。他说，乖。她把脸埋在他的脖颈闲，用脸颊磨蹭着他的耳朵，耳鬓厮磨的，亲密的样子。

　　她和异性的朋友打打闹闹，他在旁边笑着看着，看她制服那些让着她的朋友时骄傲的样子，听她指着他告诉那些朋友，快，叫大哥，我就是你们大嫂。

　　他跟她细数自己身上的每一道伤痕。告诉她，这条是哪一天和谁在哪里打架留下的。看到她认真地瞪着眼睛看，他用自己的鼻子蹭她的鼻子，说，小笨蛋，不要那么担心的样子。

　　夏天下倾盆大雨的时候，她拉着他在雨里狂奔，浑身湿透。他抱紧她，说，我不要别的男人和我分享宝贝的性感。

　　秋天，他们会捡各自看到的第一片落叶给对方，把彼此的叶子悉心地夹在自己最喜欢的书里。

　　她的生日在深秋。他给她买很多很多的东西，不管她喜不喜欢，都会买很多很多放在一个很大的盒子里要送给她。在她面前却装着忘记了的样子，看她生气地噘着嘴，他捂着嘴偷偷地坏笑。

　　冬天，他会解开大衣的扣子，把她抱在里面。他的体温总是那么高，让她不知道这温度该怎样延续。

　　看悲情的电影，她会哭得稀里哗啦的。他坐在旁边，抱她在怀里，良久不说一句话，直到听见她哭累了睡着了平静的呼吸声，在黑暗里，他一个人享受这一份来之不易的安宁。

　　那时候，他们都觉得他们永远不会分开。爱对方，用一辈子都不够。

　　他们终于还是被迫要分两地，很旧的情节，只会出现在下三滥的小说里。他们没有什么山盟海誓永不分离，他们分开了，真的分开了。很彻底，QQ拉了黑名单，MSN阻止掉，手机号码删掉。他坚信，分手就代表不合适，既然不合适，为什么还要有联系给对方和好的机会？

　　春天，他在他的城市送另外一个和她很像的女孩子回家。他对自己说，他可以胜任。他原本讨厌这个女孩子，只是她与她太像。缘分的小偏差，他接受了。

　　她在很多男人身旁徘徊，不喜欢的，以为自己喜欢的，最后还是无法接受。深夜里上网的时候，她还是会希望看见那个黑名单里的男人重新加她，对她说，他忘记不了。

　　夏天下倾盆大雨的时候，他为那个女子撑着伞，伞柄直直地立在两人之间。他突然想起他为她撑伞时伞柄那么倾斜，以至于每次他都有半边衣服湿透了。

　　她坐在家里，听着窗外雨哗啦啦的声音，一个人看一本书。旁边的手机调了静音，没有开震动，但是没有关机。静音是因为不想被打扰，不关机是因为她在等待一个永远不会打来的电话给自己打来的电话，或者只是一条简讯也好。

　　秋天，他捡自己看到的第一片落叶，夹在书里，把那本书放进自己平时天天背的背囊里。闲的时候，他会翻开书读两页，看看那片落叶。但是他总是那么忙，他要工作，还有那个女子。

　　她也捡起自己看到的第一片落叶，用双面胶贴在墙上，用马克笔在上面写，我的生日在秋天。朋友来的时候，她不再打闹，而是在满屋子的喧嚣中静静地看那片贴在墙上的落叶。

　　冬天，他收到那个女子给他的圣诞礼物，一副灰色的手套。他笑了笑，把手套放进柜子，觉得自己永远都不需要。当他走出门外，才发现，这座城市的冬天，原来这么寒冷。

　　她去商场，给自己买了很多的羽绒服和毛衣，以往的冬天，她从不需要这样多的衣服。她把自己裹成一个球，出门的时候，她很纳闷，为什么今年的冬天变得这么冷？

　　又一轮冬夏。

　　春天，她家路旁的树又开花了。她还是觉得她爱他，但是他离开了。

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erm.. some interesting story i found on the net... however i doesn't understand why you love a person so much yet you let him/her go?
is it because you love the person too much?
how to understand the feeling that you think you doesn't like that particular person yet however you keep on missing him/she and he/she keep on poping out of your mind :)

Over the past few months i just feel that i'm just like the train which had when off track, everything has messed up.

just feel that i've sacrifies too much and yet not getting the results that i need.
wondering why i keep on asking myself to go back to work on a saturday morning.
is it really necessary for my work?
what are the private time for myself?
wanna follow the footsteps of my manager?
i think the answer should be definately no..
cos i wanna have a life of my own.

just feeling that i've not taken care of myself.
have not taken care of my blog.
have not spend enough time with my family.
always ask myself is this what i wanna do?
it is time to change?

yes...
to change the way i work.
to change for the better.
to change to ........

wonder whether i should keep on staying a life like tat?
not really feeling very happy

but somehow somebody told me very long time ago,
life is not about happy and happy.
but i do think that when you are happy/satisfied, most of the problem can be easily solved...
hope that this would not trouble me for too long of my time :)

sometimes i wonder why things just come and go...

remembering 6/7 years ago, me and my friend were sitting on a bus and saying that how nice it would be should this place is being able to open a mc d... then it definately have many customers and it would be much much more convinient for us to go to eat mc d...

and months just right after that, we notice that the mc d had open there.

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few months ago, me and my bf were eating at the same mc d and we were chit-chatting and we were saying all the shops around the mc d has closed down, i wonder whether it will closed down in the near future?

and today.. is the last day of operation of this mc d at jalan ipoh....

so.. this is how things come and go...
and this is so called life.

词 曲:曹格

我的心唱首歌给你听
歌词是如此的甜蜜
可是我害羞我没有勇气
对你说一句我爱你

为什么你还是不言不语
难道(是)你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意
千言万语里
只有一句话能
表白我的心
千言万语里
只有一句话就
能够让我们相偎相依

我爱你你是我的茱丽叶
茱丽叶
我愿意变成你的粱山伯
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
把爱
永远
不放开
i love you
我爱你你是我的罗密欧
罗密欧
我愿意变成你的祝英台
幸福的每一天
浪漫的每一夜
美丽的爱情祝福着未来

为什么你还是不言不语
不言不语
难道是你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意

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beautiful love song realease recently :)
but i still wonder in nowadays whether love story similar to romeo and juliet do really exist in this really realistic world?

just realised that i'm not a very good gf...
cos i let you down again and again.
until you nearly give up hope on me...
i do hope you wouldn't

broken my promise many times.
it's just that i don't know how to request?
and i don't understand why aren't they are okay with me going back with you.

listening to fish's album all the time.
and realised that i'm sick last nite...
my nose i stuck.. keeping running and running... why? because it is sad and wanna run away from the reality... so it become the running nose...

then comes my throat... i dunno why it is so sore..
is it because i'm sad?
or it is because i'm just too tired..?????????????

or because the mr J sitting beside me bring all his virus and spread it to me d?
terrible la...
how to focus on work?
very sien to work like that...
there are ton and ton of work waiting for me and yet i do wonder whether i would have the capability to finished it.

i'm just too tired.
i'm just too lazy.
i'm wondering what i should i do next...
on leave?
take mc?
yer... i'm in doubt..

词曲:梁静茹

有时候会有些想念 他乡里温暖的阳光
那是我可以避雨的地方
有时候会有些彷徨 直到你来到我身旁
保护我像妈妈的手一样
这个时候你是我温暖的翅膀
让我飞到最安全角落

但愿你一直守护我 用力的紧紧拥抱我
陪着我找那下一步的我
但愿你一直听着我 我唱着的歌你会懂
还在说我的眼眶里 已经泪光闪烁

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this song is specially dedicated for the friend who is going away from Malaysia.

finally get fish's new album...
hope it will help me go through the days without you.
or all the while you are not around.. it's just that i do not wanna admit it.
you are just a passanger who had went trough a short journey with me.

and for now.. we have to be seperated and go for our own seperate way.
but do hope that you are okay and everything works well for you :)

wonder what is holding me back...
why i'm hesitating...
what is holding me back from working very hard as a staff..
being paid too low...

erm... i like satisfaction in work rather than high pay?

~~~~~~~~~ to be continue~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

today we had a gathering at mc d.. and the above are photo taken during the gathering...

瑄:卸下美丽的外壳
透明的我们还剩下什么
爱情就像水晶球
坚固而脆弱

格:一个人也需自由
两个人而感动大过天空
喜怒哀乐统统拥有
不让你恨留

baby I Still Believe
我也可以走过峦流
紧紧握住双手
一秒就够 不孤单寂寞

baby I Still Believe
爱要有梦才会快乐
就算未来的路不同
你在我心中
到永久。。


卸下美丽的外壳
透明的我们还剩下什么
爱情就像水晶球
坚固而脆弱

一个人也需自由
两个人而感动大过天空
喜怒哀乐统统拥有
不让你恨留

合:baby I Still Believe
爱也可以走过挽留
轻轻握住双手
一秒就够 不孤单寂寞

baby I Still Believe
爱要有梦才会快乐
就算未来的路不同
你在我心中到永久

感觉很闷时候
我抱你在我胸口
当你泪留的时候

合:我在这里补痛 NO
瑄:爱散发的温柔
在此刻用心感受
我想和你一起让幸福转动

合:baby I Still Believe
爱也可以走过峦流
紧紧握住双手
一秒就够 不孤单寂寞

baby I Still Believe
爱要有梦才快乐
就算未来的路不同
你和我到永久

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my colleague say this song is nice.. so i went to get it...
erm...sounds okay to me :)

我曾深刻体会 对爱感到胆怯
还好有懂我的你 给我安慰

看你失落的脸 又再为爱憔悴
我心痛的感觉竟如此的强烈

眼角的泪 它给过谁
伤透了心 也无所谓
我会愿意 静静地
陪在你身边

如果说爱 已不可为
那我宁愿 藏心里面
其实我害怕会失去你的感觉

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
又深怕朋友默契转身不见
矛盾着犹豫不决
没准备 跨越爱的界线

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
进与退 被爱包围
谁犯规 都狼狈
谁能解围 让一切完美

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
你和我 拥抱瞬间
不后悔 这暧昧
星光唯美 把爱放心里面

Joe was not a very romantic person, and furthermore he was rather stupid. But he wanted to impress his wife, so he took her out for an anniversary dinner and watched the couples around them, following their leads.

He observed the couple next to him. The man lifted a sugar shaker towards his wife's cup and said, "Sugar, sugar?" Joe thought this was great and continued to listen around the dining room.
Another table over Joe observed the following. A man spooned out some honey out of a bowl for his wife and asked, "Honey, honey?"
Again Joe thought this was good stuff.

Finally, he cut off a piece of his meat, stared longingly into his young wife's eyes and said, "Ham, pig?"

~~很棒的文章~~~(that's why my friend told me)

一日，與德國回來的朋友索華在外灘茶座小聚，很自然聊起有關女人的話題，她很感慨地對我說：『國內做女人成本太高。』

國內有些媒體總在報導怎麼樣才更有魅力？要三圍，要穿漂亮的衣裳，要做皮膚護理，講究化妝技巧；要怎麼樣修煉自己怎麼樣拴住男人的心，抓心還要抓胃……這樣做女人豈不是成本太高呢？最後修煉得面目全非，與真實的自己背道而馳。

索華說：『在國外對魅力的理解很大程度上就是有發自內心的微笑。』你走在街上迎面走來一個女人，她絕對不會板著臉，而會主動向你微笑示意，這微笑是發自內心的。

在國外，講究自然，與大自然親近，女人們喜歡栽花種草喝茶做女紅，這些被中國女人早就摒棄的東西，對她們來說卻是樂此不疲，因為有動手的樂趣;曬太陽，把自己曬成古銅色，誰最健康誰就最美麗，而不是比誰的皮膚最白。

索華給我講了她在德國朋友圈裏的一次小聚會，大家總是把自己在家裏烘焙好的點心，帶到其中一個朋友的後花園裏，大家坐在草地上曬太陽聊天，就覺得很好了。幾乎是沒有成本的，收穫的卻是滿滿的快樂。她們利用的都是大自然所賦予的東西，陽光、綠色和勞動。

午後的陽光照下來，索華喝了一口茶，提到了低成本做女人，一個女人在這個世界中越是發自內心地生活，她的附加成本就越低。她就不會為別人過多地改變自己。這裏最關鍵的是有底氣(核心競爭力)。索華的話讓我沉思良久。

我認識一個女孩，每月化妝品上千元，每次不化妝不出門，為了減肥，每次只吃一小碗飯；另一個朋友，因為嫌自己胸部太平，不能讓先生滿意，花了上萬元偷偷去做了隆胸，結果手術不成功苦不堪言，面目憔悴。

我記得我看到她時，內心湧起的是一種無限的悲哀，一個女人怎麼樣才能做回自己呢？那就是有自由的眼神和心靈，不用受別人的控制。

跟索華提起，她輕歎了一口氣，她說：『她認識的一些國外的朋友好像沒有這種不自信，不管身材好不好，她們都敢穿不帶海綿的胸衣，因為身體是自己的，自己喜歡就行了啊！』

索華接著往下說：『好像她們什麼年齡就做什麼年齡的事，不著急也不落後,從從容容，該生孩子就生孩子，很少有女人為了工作不想要小孩的。』

索華的話讓我想起身邊很多女人都在忙工作，一幫職場女白領，絕對精英人物。曾見過一位事業很成功的女人，別人都很羨莫，她卻歎了一口氣說：『我現在很後悔，該戀愛的時候沒戀愛，我的青春流逝了；該結婚時沒結婚,等再想結婚時，卻找不到合適的，只能降低條件；該要孩子的時候沒要孩子，等到想要的時候，別人的孩子已大了，我怎麼也感覺跟不上趟了。』

每個年齡都有那個年齡該做的事。不然，你的成本就太高了，代價太大了，只是不知你承不承受得起呢？

我對索華說：『妳就是低成本做女人的典範。』她不漂亮，卻極有味道

一個女人是有磁場的，這種磁場來源於她自由的內心。索華從不化妝，更談不上整形，她說一番整潔就好了，微笑是她最好的化妝品。她懂得以內養外，大量吃水果青菜，便宜簡單清清淡淡，卻是極養顏的；她關注
生命，談環保，衣服只穿純棉和麻，不貴卻都極有特點，鞋子只穿低跟，因為舒適美觀，雖然她個子不高；長長的直髮，留了很多年，不染不燙也不做造型，打理頭髮幾乎不花錢，只用一把好梳子就可以了；她從不上健身房，不追逐時尚，因為她始終堅持內心的方向，她每天堅持步行，曬曬太陽走走路就是極好的鍛煉了，不用任何成本並且環保。

她說：『外貌實際上是一個女人的夕陽產業，投資越大，收益是越小。』

26歲時，索華放棄了一份升遷的工作從容地要了孩子，她的身體恢復得很快，如今36歲，孩子也大了；她也從不討好她的老公，從不學什麼馴夫技巧，絕對地放養，老公卻很愛她，總誇她是個有特點的女人，不流俗。

她說：『好女人是創造氛圍的，她喜歡看書，誰規定主婦一定要填飽老公的胃呢？』

她赤足坐在客廳的地上看書，也帶動孩子，還要放上舒緩優美的鄉村音樂，一家人的氣氛就這麼形成了，沒費吹灰之力，孩子也形成了愛看書的習慣；她喜歡大自然，就帶上老公孩子一起玩。

她這個主婦當得雲淡風輕

當我向她訴苦說女人帶孩子太累時，她笑笑說：『讓孩子圍著你轉啊！女人是可以製造氛圍的。』她是家中的一個磁場，不改變自己，不取悅別人，卻照樣很滋潤，並且一家人生活極有質量。這是跟物質無關的，一個心靈自由的女人才能把家庭的生活拓展開來。跟索華分手後，我還在想索華說的低成本做女人，真是妙極！

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don't really understand what is it in relation to but just keep it here,
and read it again in the future maybe i'll have a different comment.

别欺骗自己有多么好
别埋怨我对你有不够好
oh baby!我就是你的罗密欧
我会永远守候你直到最后

别看着神话故事发呆
别幻想自己就是祝英台
oh baby!你就是我的朱丽叶
快跳进这美好的花花世界

so baby!跳跃起来大步走向未来
世界多么精彩
看看这时代

失手再来机会还在
别让这一点点的伤口介怀

因为有爱



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not feeling so great this few days.. but
realised that i feel better when i listen to this song..
like the show...
three gals and a bed..
and like the actor with the name 'heman' in the show.
typical leng zai...
and i think this song just suit the show...

and heard it again in the ATQ and it makes me wanna search for the song..:)
hope i get it and make it a song i will listen for this few weeks :)

i do not understand how poeple get in and out of the relationship so fast.
serious about relationship?

seems that she had been hurt too many times.
just wanna wish her luck lo...:)

notice that i need to give up a lot of things in order to tidy up my things.
realised how much money that i had spend in the past.
wonder whether i'm really willing to give all of it up.

wonder whether i should give up or not
not to keep any rubbish at home.
my house would definately clean clean.
throw away all the memories.
throw away and not to regret and
just assumed that the robber came and rob away all my sweet sweet memory or i just have a shocked and i just lost all the things i treasure for all this time.

wondering what i should treasure.
you? i wonder i even have any feelings towards you.
and now you are saying you gonna live m'sia.
why? because the world out there is better?

why i'm not sad when you tell me you were leaving?
we were buddy or just friends?
i guess the answer is yes and no..
yes we were buddy.. previously.
friends for the moment.

hope i can treasure it for the moment.
but i found it difficult since our heart is so distance and so far apart.
don't know what topic is common among us and what should i say to break the ice between you and me which it seems that we are once such closed friend.
and i hate myself for doing all the stuff.

yesterday my parents when to PD because a friend of theirs pass away.

Today, when i open my eyes....
i got the news that my teacher pass away.
she was a teacher, a friend and a mentor for me.

and she fell sick this year and i hadn't have a chance to see her.
i've contributed too much of my time on my work.
and sometimes i think i have ignored the people and things around me.
actually i feel sad and bad cos i haven had a good chance to speak to her since my graduation.
no chance to introduce my bf to her.

just feel very very awful now..
just do not know hot to express myself.

after finishing secondary...
then you go to college...
during college time or working time you starting to get know of some great people of your opposite sex.
and when you finished you college you get your diploma, degree or even professional qualification.
then you move on to annother stage of your life.
working...
you go for rounds and rounds of interview, answering the similar question.
finally you get your dream job..
which give you good pay.
on the other hand you have presure an challenge in handling every task you face everyday.
then when you feel everything is okay.. you might think of settle down.

for me...
i think i can settle down now..
however i just feel that i'm not ready for it.
i'm just comfortable with what i have now.
without thinking what i'm looking forward to.

have not been updating my blog for a very very long time.
just simply because i'm busy.

sometimes wonder whether it is worth it for all those hard work that i've done.
and to take up all those presure.
boss questioning why you did not do this and that.
what is the status of doing this and that.

and you have to settle the things you spend four months time to do it and now you have to spend one and a half months to finished it just simply because you need to let your client have sufficient time to review it and with the hope that there are no complains from the client.

i think the most important thing is you need to know what to do first and when you should do the thing fast.

i think that should be the way of doing things.

my boss always complain that i'm doing things very slowly.
however i think my speed is okay.
and my bf say i'm pempering my boss too much just by fufilling what she want.

all this month i'm trying my best to look for my balance.
how not to over worked myself.
how to live up to people's expectation.
try not to give empty promises.

a bit stress off...
but i think avoiding is not a good action...
and it's time for me to face the music.

work hard and work the something out.
after the break have to show that i'm able to perform
have to show that i'm better than before.
have to show i'm better than everyone else.

how to prove it?
work my axx out?
have to work at home eventough it's after work?
admit that i'm a bit lazy than before and have to try and boost myself up.
and wannt learn more and more in the future.

i do see my vision
and i do think that just talking doesnt make us any good.
just questioning what is correct and wrong is not enough.
just wasting a lot of time to discuss and questioning what you suppose to do and you never do it.
and also.
just wanna get myself on the move and...
hehe... will become the most efficient staff lo ;)

作词：李焯雄/陶吉吉 作曲：陶吉吉
碎石子路长青苔 指针把时间再扫开
马戏团走了但小丑还在 这舞台
黑马车没停下来 消失前你回过头来
多少人到现在还不明白 还等待
一直走一直走 一直不停的走 该选哪个路口
一瞬间一瞬间 可能这个瞬间 那命运就会改变

OLIA 请不要走 是否我做的还是不够
OLIA 请不要走 为什么永久不会永久 不停留

钟声把夕阳晕开 十八岁又换了一代
机会是否划一次的火柴 不重来
一直走一直走 一直不停的走 能不能再重头
一辈子一辈子 就算用一辈子 也没有办法挽回

OLIA 请不要走 是否我让你等得太久
OLIA 你早巳走 为什么失去才想保有 不放手

不放手 不放手
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just got the new album of david tao from my bf and got it loaded in my pc. i think it would be annother of my favourite album.. and today i wanna share this song..
sound very very nice and relaxing :)

found this interesting story on my e-mail then wanna share it here

兩只蒼蠅

有一位朋友分享了一個有關兩只蒼蠅的故事。這個故事是這樣的……

古時候有個商人到遠方做買賣，用兩匹馬來拉貨物 c當去到了一個斜坡時，兩匹馬拉得很辛苦。

於是，就有兩只蒼蠅飛來了。

蒼蠅A說： "喂！那兩匹馬那麼辛苦，我們去幫幫它們吧！ "

然後，兩只蒼蠅便飛到那兩匹馬的耳朵旁、鼻子前，嗡嗡嗡嗡……

那兩匹馬因拉車辛苦，加之又有煩人的蒼蠅在飛來飛去，感到非常難受。最後，那兩匹馬終於爬上斜坡，這松了一口氣。

這時，兩只蒼蠅也松了一口氣的說：" 啊！你看，我們幫了他們忙，我們也辛苦了。"

其實，那兩匹馬就是形容我們這些任勞任怨的員工。而那兩只蒼蠅，就是我們的上司。

當我們已經忙到很痛苦的時候，我們的上司只會在我們身邊吵吵鬧鬧，不但沒減輕我們的負擔，反而嚴重影響我們工作的進度。最可惡的是，他們還會以為自己貢獻很多

I think it's true that sometimes the boss doesn't care how you do it.. they just want you to get the things done.
yeah they will always ask you to rush the things out.

sometimes it's a sad sad thing for me cos my client is leaving.
and some are leaving the company without informing us.
some they wanna have a change of environment.
for me, I'm just not confortable with the people in my group knowing what's my relationship with the client.
I do not like to use the relationship as a tool to achieve what I want but I just want to proof that I'm capable of handling the job myself and I'm able to make the decision of my own.

Maybe my client feel it's not so important to inform everyone that he/she is leaving, and the choice of leaving the company is up to them. It doesn't involve anyone else, however I do feel that it's a curtesy that you inform other people you are leaving so that they know how else they should contact with since you are leaving.

I feel that it's not responsible to say that the thing is not urgent and you would not like to attend to it now and the new comer would be able to attend to it.
I do feel a bit upset with the mentality of those poeple.

Having to handle this situation since early of this year starting with A company, I think I've gotten used to being able to handle it because people have their own choice in the life and they can choose their life path. and what we can do it's just say all the best.

I do think I'm a bit upset by things this few days and i think i should have a rest by now.
Take a break and let things go smooth.

erm.. my client suddenly e-mail us to inform us that they wanna pay us a courtesy visit.
and the date he choosed is the date right after our filing deadline.

and I have not inform him that the client that my boss actually resuffle the portfolio and I'm no longer in charge of the accounts.

I think one of the biggest weekness of me is not being able to say no to my client.
and I think when everyone say okay.. then you have to learn how to say okay as well rite?

today it seems like a very very messy day for me..
it's like a war.
yeah the filing deadline is nearer and nearer.
and we have to take up all the ad-hoc job and starting to teach the junior to do things.

wonder what will happened.
everyone is long for a long long break.
everything should be ending
hoping it will end soon.
and the begining will come real soon as well.

continue regarding my post for the resign virus.

my client resigned from their company. most of the staff resigned because they cannot 'tahan' the boss and also maybe because they want to change to a better working environment.

and annother client who replace the staff temporary, have to go back to thier own /old position.
and i have client who always ask me to go to thier place and they would 'belanja' me

feel abit sad la...
maybe this is the season of staff turn around.
and the company have to pass the season and look for better staff and go trough the hardship for the moment.

sometimes it's a bit difficult to deal with new staff
because they are alien to you.
but if you are friendly to them and give your full co-operation to them
they would give you the same assistant.

earlier this week,
my senior tender.. then followed by my junior

my senior just joined us for about three month and my junior joined us for about three weeks.

strees is a bad virus and it result to other poeple wanted to resign from their current post.
sometimes other poeple have very lame excuse saying they like the job but cannot cope with the presure.
and sometimes i wonder isn't their choice in the first place to join the company to get more exposure and face more challenge ma...
then now why they wanna give up.

i really cannot understand.
but i do strongly believe that poeple have their own choice in live and nobody can influence one's decision.

i know my senior is very adenment to leave us
i just feel a bit kasian since we have a very very strong team for this round filling and things went better than expected.

as for my junior and she is just fresh and just join the new working world apart from studying and studying previously.
i do think that it should be a bit weird for me to conclude that since she like tax so much she should not just leave the job and ...
and my boss think that it is not a responsible act.

everyone in the office is stressed off except me?

why because their cases are bigger than mine
because i have the sense of urgency?
but i know the way i do my tax computation sucks.
and i produce the tax computation in a very not timely manner.

everyone is soooooooooooooooooooooooo stress off.
i need to take care of everyone's feeling.
cannot be joking all the way.

i do hope things are running well.
i know you want to bomb your boss with good results.
but sometimes things cannot be rushed.

sometimes i just feel that it's not right to rush things out in all of the sudden lo...
sometimes i wonder what's my purpose of leaving such a stressful life.
others they can enjoy things around them.
while me keep being complaint
you should not be on the phone with the client for such a long time.

i found the solution not to talk on the phone with the client for very long time.
that is to e-mail client.

sometimes i think client need your immediate attention and what you should do is not just ignore what they want.
i know sometimes we have to 'berdikari'
however most of the time i think the importance of 'tolong-menolong' should be made know among each other.

a little stress of...
a little piss off...

wonder why treating other poeple nice and they would not appreciate it.

consider my action recently a bit too over.
consider myself a bit out of control
consider myself a bit too stress off.

what to do?
working for about 18 hours a day.
and what you get in return is your boss telling you,
why this and that not done?

why you so slow?
altough i told you give me by this date...
but you can give it to me earlier if possible.

what do you know your requirement are a bit just too out of the world?
do you know it's just a bit too much?

I tell myself my motivation to work is holiday.
I don't care after working for this filing I would like to go on holiday.

that is my purpose.
why? do you think that the relationship between group member should not be good?
talking among group member is prohibited?

talking with client also prohibited?
relationship with client have to be built up.
knowing the politic in the client's company
knowing how things runs in the client's company.

admit that i might not be handling things as good as you are able to.
but i'm learning to handle it.
wonder why you say cannot talk to the financial controller while the financial controller is the person who can give me all the information i needed to complete my assignment.

no joking during work...
i think you are just a little bit stress off and
a little bit pissed off...

i think you need a break!!!!!!

about three to four months ago, i was talking about taking exam in my company...
now after months and months of waiting, the results are finally out.

erm... i got the best result among those who are taking the exam.
yeah... i scored 82 average for the basic tax examination held in my company.
top scorrer... yeah!!!

but i think i was under presured since my ATM was previously one of the top scorrer during her time as a junior.
and my STM also 'inform' me that i should perform very well in my exam cos the staff under her never fail to perform well in the company's internal tax examination.

wow.. dispite all the presure.. i think i did not did very well, in the sense that i should continuously update myself with the tax knowledge.
and should be able to answer the client's question since it's a tax consultant's responsibility to be able to answer to their question.
erm... hoping for a better future la...

half of year 2006 has finished.
and there is annother half to go before the year end.

and now i guess should be my half-yearly review for this year.
nothing much had been done.
and i started to feel i'm slowing down.

now i wanted to gain some momentum when i work.
and want to try to grab as many as possible from my client and my senior.

now i start to learn tax again.
try to look at the acca past year question.
wonder whether i could be able to teach tax in the near future.
wanted to gain the momentum.
wanted to have the sharp sense... in terms of tax and when being questioned by client i would be able to answer their question.

the following are my plan to be executed during the year:-

1) improve my tax knowledge
2) to be able to drive to work by end of this year
3) to reduce weight by end of the year
4) to really tidy up my room and give it a brand new feel by the end of the year.
5) to have a week's holiday in Malaysia and relax myself
6) to keep in touch with poeple - friends from secondary, college and etc
7) to concern about my family member more
8) to get a double promotion next year
9) to pempered myself nicely!!!!!!
10) of course keep on blogging!!!!

sometimes i'm wonder why people are so afraid to deal with higher level management.

sometimes we deal with poeple like the company's accountant and sometimes just the accounts staff.

sometimes we would just prefer to deal with poeple who do not have autority and just following order.

but i do think that we need to deal with those poeple who have more authority, like financial controller or group accountant?

they are the poeple overseeing the company's financial position and they should be the poeple who are in a better position to comment about what i required from them?

sometimes i wonder why i so not taking care of myself.
and wonder why i did not give 100% of my life.

wonder what is good and what is not in my life.
wonder what should be my next step.

life is boring.
after you finished your studies..
get a good job...
after getting a good job...
started to think of get a car a house...
and at the same time getting a suitable partner...
and years after that...
you settle down and you get married...
and you have kids...

it sound so damn boring to me..
cant life be a bit more intersting?
even you can have a break form anything you want to runaway...
you have to come back to the realty of life.
that's you need to worry about money, your career, your parents, your family, your friends...

wonder whether there is anything exciting in my life that is going to happen real soon...
i'm not 18 or 22 anymore...
have to start to plan what i want i my life and
plan to settle down...(maybe i do not want to settle down?)

Sometimes i wonder why my boss complain me,
saying that I talk a lot and this made my work very slack.

and i answer her very c2pidly? i suppose...
haha why? cos i told her last time there is nobody to talk with.
yeah that's the fact.
actually i feel that i'm a very outgoing and talkative person..
and i know who to mix with and who not to mix with la..

know the limit.
learning how to speak well with other poeple.

Comparing an apple with an apple and an orange with an orange.

I wonder why people in this world always like to compare.
and thier comparison is not based on a fair basis.

why our group's people go back so late?
why we need to work so hard.

I enjoy the satisfaction of being able to finished the job earlier.
I think that's not fair to say that we stay back late is because we are not efficient.

I'm a little bit hurt leh..
huh ;O

I'm sorry I don't know who this number belongs to...
I'm sorry I don't know i don't have your number.

'bai tuo' I'm using the number for more than 5 years d.
and yet you are telling me you do not have my number...???

I guess I know what's the reason of not getting your birthday wish this year.
first of all... you forgot...
and secondly.. you don't have my number..
what a fake and lame excuse...

but anyway, what is pass is pass...
i think i would be looking forward for things such as...
who is treating me better rather than..
looking backwards for something which does not belongs to me.

yeah people like to compare.
yeah they always do.
but when there is not a valid reason for the complain.
and there is not worthwhile to make a complain.

have not really updated my blog recently.
have not really write about what i see and what i feel recently.

i do not know whether i'm really stressed out or my performance just going down.
i really need a break from what i'm doing now.
maybe a short break will do.
a nice and short one.

i wonder whether my boss would approve my leave.
verbally she say yes because i had been working very very hard

actually the reason behind myself working very hard is not because i'm really that hard working
actually is just because i hate to get compared with other poeple.
and it's very irritating that you got compared with someone else.
apple should be compared against apple and not orange.

sometimes i feel so unfair that you compare an apple with an orange.
but i still do not know how to express my dissatisfaction.

Day 1 after moving into the new office. I've yet to tidy all the files and stuffs... and I would post somemore new picture regarding my new office in the future... my new work station does not look like this now... it's even messier and I've put up a big planner targeting what should i do within this few months.

my old office place.. it's consider not as messy as before since i've moved most of the things to the new office place by the time i took this picture.

I did something crazy / I feel that it's very crazy this few days.
what did I do?

I stay up until 3.30 in the morning to finish a provisional tax computation for a company but I have yet to finish it and yesterday I stayed in the office until 11 at nite just to finish everything for my boss to review.

I was very presured this two weeks.
why?

Because my boss complaining my speed is very slow.
and I've let my client down.
I feel very bad because trough out the year I had already built up a good repo with the client from a very very not treating you very nice because you are very new to very close to you because they need your immediate attention to answer their question.
Because of client's trust I've been given the opportunity to handle all the special cases.
So i think it's a moving factor for the to stress myself further to achieve my dreams in the future.

Therefore I decided to challenge myself to my extreme.
I've been sleeping for less than 7 hours for the pass 36 hours.

But thank God it's a Public holiday in Malaysia today.
But I just feel weird that i wake up at about 6.15 which is about the time that I wake up for work.

Actually there is free vegetarian buffet near my house cos today is Wesak day.
I hope later I can eat a lot.

yesterday i had an outing with chin ann and soo wei.
we were very punctual and no ffk and stuff.
i like this feeling.
simple and no need to worry that your friend would ffk.
i like poeple who kept their promised and keep their words.

chin ann brought along strawberries which he bought from cameron from his previous outing.
and unexpectedly we finished all the strawberries as and when we were chatting.
since i'm not those type of gals who favour strawberries.

and we stay in the purple cane tea house and chat for more than 3 hours
and the tea was boiled until it taste like water.
and to my suprise that day there is not much poeple hanging around at the tea house.
probably it was a public holiday and most of the student are not to school and nobody is hanging around lo..

feel it is a nice nice outing.
and i have remembered that i have not seen soo wei for about more than 8 months.
remembering the last time we met, i was called by deloitte for to work.
and now soo wei also got her own job.

last saturday we are suppose to meet each other and have dinner together.
why? to celebrate my b'day that everyone missed out.

and here to story goes.
jean was busy since she have to work OT to rush for the company's closing.
and sam was having OT as well so he could not be able to join us.
and liew and chee seong was having classes for their acca paper.

i think that was fine.. and the outing jus left me, joo, hui ling and siew heoh.
and mana tahu this siew heoh last minute call for a cancel.
and we have to cancel everything.

for me i think it's difficult to gather everyone together at the same time since they have thier own thing to settle.
but i think not going to join because everyone is not coming is sort of rude.
more over you are the one suggesting the outing.
this would make those who already arranged for the outing very frustrated.
yes you can take any reason to reject someone's offer to go out with you,
but i think it's definately very very rude to cancel an appointment at the very very last minute since the person you dated might have purposely cancelled all thier plan just to accomodate the plan to spend some time together with you.

i think sometimes we have to act reasonable and considerate.
the world is run by you.
and there is many many other poeple around us.
we have to take care of their feelings as well as considering our own benefits.

listening to faye wong's song inside the office.
i think it's a very enjoyable things since i sort of like faye wong.

and sometimes listening to faye wong song reminds me of her.
it's very sad for me since she had already forget to wish me happy b'day for two consecutive years.
why? why? why?
what's the reason behind.

it makes me very very sad.
because my primary schoolmate sms me since she remember my b'day.
and it has been like 12 years we have not seen each other.

i'm still very sad.
dispite of being FFK by friends for last saturday outing.
i'm still hoping that i would be able to meet her in the street some time some day.
i would like to wish her happy and nothing than that.

i do hope to get her wishes in the future.

erm... maybe what i can do to make her remember my b'day is to take the initiative to invite her for my b'day party which i plan to held next year?
i wonder... and i'm planning for it.

sometimes i wonder there are some client who are very stingy in fees but very prompt in payment.
there are some client who are very stingy in fees and very late in their payment.

i've just completed an assignment for two expatriate and they already left Malaysia.
i was so 'pai seh' when i have to hand over the bill to the client.
because to me our firm's fees is quite high and we just bill them to the max for everything we had done for them.

i have gone trough a lot of hardship in preparing the tax return for the individual.
and i do learn a lot and exposed a lot.
and learn not to give empty promises to the client.
and learn to keep all that you have promised.

eventough i feel that our fees is very expensive,
they still make prompt payment within one week without given any discount and the need of chasing them for the bill.
i feel it's a good bargain to do business with japanese.
and they are those poeple who are very prompt with thier promises.

and i just feel that i learn a lot from them.
polite and keep to your promises.

The 'leng lui' in our group
from left ~ Mei Won, Tee Chong, Su-Li, Sin Jol


My senior, Ms Teoh Sin Jol


My Junior, Ms Lee Su-Li temporary borrowed from annother group 

today i received an suprise sms from my lecture~Ms Geh.
happy belated b'day...
wow god.. she remember that it was my b'day pass few days leh...
so cool man..
and so touched eventough it's late.

anyway the person i hope that she would be concern had not wish me happy b'day two years in a row.
why? maybe because i decided to give up of our friendship long long time ago.
or maybe she is too busy to handle the 'bees' around her to the extend that she already forget my b'day lo.

got annother sms from my friend during primary school.
she did remember my b'day.
this year i feel touched since many people remembered my b'day eventought some of the b'day wishes are late.

i'm planning to maybe throw myself a b'day party next year since in 31/3/2006 it would be on a Saturday.
if there is no accident, I would really held it, since it's my b'day and i'm coming out to work and earn money i would be financially sound to throw myself a b'day party to pay back for the regret that i did not organised a b'day party for myself on my 21st b'day.

at the mean time, i do hope that i could get some feed back on how should i organised the party or you just informing me that you are interested to attend my b'day party in one years time?

today is 31st... it's special.. why? cos it's my b'day.
so up to now.. already received a few ppl's b'day wishes.
herm... hope to get more la...
:P

just hope that everything going well today.

this few days, my mood was not that good. why?
because i feel very bad in work.
in terms of doing things and being treated la..

then yesterday i came back and my cousins came to ask for homework.
and my cousin sister was asking me regarding chinese essay.
and i guide her how to do her work accordingly.

then she tell me she can look at the answer at the back of the book and i assissted her to look at the answer.
subsequently i realised that she was copying everything from the answer at the back.

so i was really disappointed and i scolded her.
why disappointed?
because she is not confident with her work at all.
and she copy the answer blindly.

actually i know that she cannot be scolded and the more you scold her and tell her not to cry the more she will cry.
but i think i'm too tired and afected by my work as well.
so i scolded her.
but my intention was for her own benefit.
cos i dun want that she jus do things for the sake of doing things.

we often speak very loudly in our own language.
and sometimes we just ignore the feelings of those whom do not know how to listen to what we are talking about.

now i realised how bad is it listening to what the other poeple are talking about and you nuts about what they are talking.
and they talk so fast and you dun even understand a single thing they are talking about.
it's sort of unfriendly cos you keep on talking very happily in your own language and the person who do not know what you are talking about will only be able to show you thier blank face.

so this year i will try to improve myself by learning annother language.
haha.. but dun tell anyone okay...:P

realised that i'm a really coward.
i really like to be in my own confort zone and really like to back out when i sensed there is something going wrong.

really willing to help anyone who aprroached me
but just realised that i'm not those kind of person who would wanna approach other
i'm not really approachable.

back off and now i regret for what i've done?
no because of misunder standing and miscommunication?

i have no idea.
i'm not the type of person who like to be in front of the crowd and and would not like to attract other people's attention.
but i wanna be outstanding
outstanding in terms of my work

but i'm still trying very very hard to find the balance between being outstanding and in the middle of everyone's attention.

try to learn that let poeple to be given attention to.
try to be as humble as possible.

wow.. a day at home alone doing nothing and i have all the time in the world to get enough sleep and nobody is ordering me to do anything.

wow.. missed this kind of life long long time ago.
finally i found it back.

have the time of my own and have a good rest.
really wanna go to the book shop and find a good book and then go to a coffee shop / cafe to sit down and finished the book.

wow.. that's my kind of ideal weekend.

too bad i do not know how to drive.
if i could really drive, and be very independent,
my ideal weekend would soon be realised.

jus realised that i like to be alone.
just realised that used to be alone.
but some how you just cant do whatever things that you wanna do all by yourself because you are not leaving alone.

i really wanna let myself to have a break and breakaway.
do something i really wanna do for a long long time.

i'll plan it form now.
how to let you all know that i could really realised what i want in the near future.

one more week to go.
and it's the day again.
i wonder whether she will forget about that day again.
i wonder whether does it matters whether she remember or she forget about that day.
aiyo.. really long long time never stay in touch with her already.
dunno how is she.

the reason behind not keeping in touch with her is because i do not care about her?
or because i've taken the wrong step at the very first place.

is it because she is advancing and i'm still staying at the same spot?
i still insist to stay at the same spot in our relationship.
that's why we have taken a different path in our relationship.
so why must i be the one who is connecting?
why not her?

why must the attention to be directed to this super nice gal?
i've let her down.
and she had also let me down too in the pass..
so we are even?

because i'm not a person who know how to express myself very much?
because i like to keep the things to myself?

i did not call her during my graduation for acca why?
because i know you would not be coming. so what's the point of asking you to come?
wish to share my happinest with you.
but is it important to you for me to share it with you?
i'm in doubt

I'm Sorry....

currently due to my work, sorry and thank you had already become the two phrase that i used most frequent during my everyday life.

and for now i already dunno whether the sorry is because sincerly i feel that i'm sorry so that's why i say sorry or just because of the sake of saying sorry that's why i'm saying sorry.

i'm getting more and more tired.
i really wonder whether i'm getting more and more fake.

i feel that i'm changing myself to a person who is wearing a thicker and thicker mask so that i could not show how my actual personality is.

i feel that sometimes people are very contradicting they say you do not need to come back since now is non-peak period.
and annother side they say i think the best is that you can finished your work by this weekend la..

what is that suppose to mean?
i wonder whether i'm not efficient enough so i cannot finished what you want from my side?
or i'm just too nice to you that i would challenge myself and do whatever i can.

i really hate this situation.

GOD,
i'm jus getting freaking tired.
about my work and stuff and having to teach junior which would always tell you that they do not have any experience and you have to teach them everything under the sun.

however i think i would like to teach someone who is willing to learn.
willing to assist you in doing stuff.

just feel that things are not moving on my side.
just keep on ignoring everything on my side.
just giving too many excuse to my client.
i'm just bad.
i'm not a nice person.

i'll be evaluated badly during my evalutation.
why? just simply because i did not perform up to the expected level.
ai.. cham...

you notice that normally those people who are working with the government,
normally are malays.
and chiense in the government department are very rare.

and today i went to the income tax department and i saw a guy,
not to say good looking but just,
erm.. very nicely dress.
and very 'in' with hair dye in light brown and also i think he put on make up.
i think it would attract my eyes when i see such office.
and also i think really make me think whether he is .... or ....
haha...

what would you do if you received called form the client
and the client told u that...
'you take acca last june sitting?'
'you attend classes at ftms?'
'are you tee chong that marty always called during the class?'
'you already pass ur acca?'
'no wonder your voice so familar'

haha.. i'm supprised.
i'm scared.
because i'm always in the dark and the client would always listen to my voice only and do not know about how i look like.
so to a certain extent i feel more secure.
yer... i feel very very weird la...

yesterday after my volentary OT,
me and joo went to ther curve to have lunch together.

the offer a set lunch at an attractive price of RM19 (including 10% service charge and also 5% goverment tax)
two plain rice, two dishes, soup of the day and also coffee or tea of your choice.
i think it's really a very very attractive offer.

if you wanna compare the prices with those small restaurant or those 'dai pai dong' of course the price are not comparable.
however in the age of increase pricing.
i think the price of less than RM10 per person for such lunch is a very very reasonable price.

after the lunch.
we went to cut our hair at IKANO.
or better to say, joo went to cut his hair and i went to trimp my hair.
erm.. i'm considering whether wanna keep my hair long.
since i never really keep it long since secondary.
jus trimp a bit so it would not look so volumeness.. haha
yeah my hair is volumeness and it would look like a 'dong gu' if my hair grow long and i do not take any action.

i do admit that outlook is very very important is a very important aspect.
since most of the poeple judge you with thier first impression.
so i have to take up my initiative to make myself more presentable.

after the hair cut,
we went to the popular at the ground floor of IKANO.
and i found among the bunch of 'cheap' CD there is the second album of 'ah cow'
so with the price of RM 9.90 nett. i decided to buy it home since the album i bought earlier was a casset version.

when the CD was rip to my pc.
i realised why i wanna get the CD.
not because i really mad about 'ah cow' (yes, that is history during secondary)
it's because the song really nice.
and with the price of less than RM10 which is much more cheaper than the price when i bought the casset why shouldn't i get the album to add it into my collection?

oh ya.. if you like any singer from the rocks record.
you can get some of the album (CD) at a very very 'cheap' price (about RM10 each) at the popular fair in IKANO.
i think this is a good bargain rather than getting the pasar malam pirated CD.
support the original..
haha..

for Micheal and Victor supporter... I also found Micheal's second album 'guang mang' at a price of RM 10 (if not mistaken) and also Victor's second album also '180 U-turn' at a price of RM 10 (if not mistaken as well).

there are circustances we can get things we missed out at a cheap price.
so if you are free and nothing much to do,
why not pay a visit to IKANO to visit the popular book fair (until end of next sunday) and see you can get anything you want at a good bargain.

when you have to go to work on saturday even without pay.
would you be more than willing to?
erm.. if you can learn much more things.
and the payout you would be able to see it in the future.
why not?

i think it's very very interesting that you spend time and you would get the pay out for all the hardwork that you have done.

maybe even other poeple does not know how much effort that you have put in.
however, it seems that you would feel the satisfaction poeple are impress when they noticed you are clear about the company background and know about the company from back to front.

i think sometimes it's not about whether you get any reward for what you have done.
sometimes i think i think we need to be well prepared.
prepared for the unexpected.
prepared for the unknown.

it has been a very very busy week for me since my senior had left and our group just left two people around.

so now i'm very very busy and i have to juggle around for the training i'm undertaking and also the work i'm handling.
it's sort of difficult to manage all things at the same time and everything going on they also tell you that it's urgent.
and you have to ensure yourself to have good time management.

I have a brand new experience that is going to IRB alone and also go to meet the client alone.
actually i realised that I'm not that brave.
I'm actually a coward.
however when things had to be done, i have to take my initiative to finished the work.
and last Thursday, I miss my training class and went to the IRB and also the client's place to see the client.

and now our group had took in some new job as in we are also undertaking individual compliance as well. dealing with japanese client. and you know what my collegue say?
my english also got japanese slang already..
haha

but i think japanese are those poeple who are very polite.
and when you get what they want,
they would thank you in and out.
'thank you thank you'.

and a japanese client called and ask for Michelle...
actually i told him that i'm Ms Yap..
can you imagine? my name 'Ms Yap' ----> become 'Michelle'
but however Michelle would be the name i used when i'm in primary and secondary.
and my Boss pulak become Ms Choy Mei... huh? what weird name is that?
hahahaha....

it's very very tired for me to work for 18 hours a day.
and yet the results are not so good.
ai...
what to do?

now my group just left my senior, the gal and me.. as well as my group leader (GL).
i have to try my very best to help my GL.
not only as a semi-senior in the group, but just to maintain the group as a whole.

today, an hour before i can go home,
suddenly our expat manager call us to varified the passport and prepared the engagement letter as well as the conflict check for the new company.

what?
we have totally no experience at all.
and my senior was there to complaint this and that and she dun understand what is the situation.
we dunno totally what to do at all.
pengsan.

but since we dunno the situation we cannot just pretend we do not know
we have to protect our GL.
and to defend the good name of our group.
try our best to sort out the situation.
and not just leave the shit and let the GL come back to sort it out.

at the same time my senior was there to complaint that our group has not enough capacity as there is only two people left in our group and she will be going no leave soon as her exam is around the corner.
then? what to do?
i think i have to discuss with my GL regarding this issue.

i would wonder whether my GL would be so cruel that she would not let her to be on leave leh?
haha.. i think she would cry in front of the GL.

anyway should i tell my senior it is good money better than corporate compliance and we can easily secure the budget that we had lost since we transfer out a big group of companies to other group.

and now my senior say we do not have the capacity to absorb it?
what kind of joke is she talking about?
i think if we really take up the job and we could easily hit the 75% target of chargeable time for the quarter.

erm.. i think people are always selfish when it comes to their personal interest.
anyway, nobody is perfect in this world.

Kuala Lumpur - Gangguan bekalan air akan berlaku di kawasan-kawasan di wilayah Kuala Lumpur dan Selangor yang disebabkan oleh kerja-kerja pembersihan kolam/tangki air seperti berikut:-

1) Tarikh gangguan : 2 Mac 2006 (Khamis),
dari jam 9.30 pagi - 9.30 malam.
Wilayah : Petaling
Kawasan yang terlibat : Keseluruhan seksyen 5,6,7,8,9,10 dan 52 (PJ State), Vista
Angkasa, Perumahan Rumah Pangsa PKNS Kg. Kerinchi,
Mid Valley dan Petaling Height

2) Tarikh gangguan : 2 Mac 2006 (Khamis),
dari jam 9.30 pagi - 12.30 tengah malam.
Wilayah : Petaling
Kawasan yang terlibat : Keseluruhan Perumahan Taman Sri Putra

3) Tarikh gangguan : 2 Mac 2006 (Khamis),
dari jam 9.00 pagi - 9.00 malam.
Wilayah : Gombak
Kawasan yang terlibat : Keseluruhan Taman Halaman Kesuma

4) Tarikh gangguan : 3 Mac 2006 (Jumaat),
dari jam 9.00 malam - 5.00 pagi (4 Mac).
Wilayah : Hulu Selangor
Kawasan yang terlibat : Keseluruhan Bandar Rawang Jaya, Sungai Choh

5) Tarikh gangguan : 3 Mac 2006 (Jumaat),
dari jam 9.30 pagi - 11.30 malam.
Wilayah : Petaling
Kawasan yang terlibat : Keseluruhan kawasan Taman Bukit Subang

6) Tarikh gangguan : 3 Mac 2006 (Jumaat),
dari jam 9.30 pagi - 9.30 malam.
Wilayah : Petaling
Kawasan yang terlibat : Keseluruhan kawasan Bandar Puchong Utama

7) Tarikh gangguan : 4 Mac 2006 (Sabtu),
dari jam 10.00 malam - 10.00 pagi (5 Mac).
Wilayah : Klang
Kawasan yang terlibat : Keseluruhan Jalan Kebun, Taman Berjaya, Jalan Istana,
Istana Alam Shah, Pejabat Daerah Klang, Pejabat MPK,
Pejabat SYABAS, Bukit Tinggi, Taman Botanic, Kampung
Pulau Indah, Kawasan Perindustrian Pulau Indah Fasa
1&2, West Port Terminal, Star Cruise, Telok Gong dan
Kota Permai.

Wilayah : Kuala Langat
Kawasan yang terlibat : Sijangkang, Batu 9 kebun Baru, Batu 10 Kebun Baru,
Telok Panglima Garang (termasuk kawasan industri)
Bukit Komandol dan Pulau Carey

8) Tarikh gangguan : 5 Mac 2006 (Ahad),
dari jam 9.30 pagi - 9.30 malam.
Wilayah : Petaling
Kawasan yang terlibat : Keseluruhan kawasan Perindustrian S.B Jaya, Sg Buluh

9) Tarikh gangguan : 6 Mac 2006 (Isnin),
dari jam 9.00 pagi - 9.00 malam.
Wilayah : Gombak
Kawasan yang terlibat : Keseluruhan Sri Rampai, Setapak Jaya, Setapak Permai,
Kg. Pasir Wardiburn, Kg. Loke Yew dan Flat DBKL

10) Tarikh gangguan : 6 Mac 2006 (Isnin),
dari jam 9.00 pagi - 9.00 malam.
Wilayah : Gombak
Kawasan yang terlibat : Keseluruhan Taman Setiawangsa


11) Tarikh gangguan : 7 Mac 2006 (Selasa),
dari jam 9.00 pagi - 9.00 malam.
Wilayah : Gombak
Kawasan yang terlibat : Keseluruhan kawasan Kondo Rustika

12) Tarikh gangguan : 7 Mac 2006 (Selasa),
dari jam 9.00 pagi - 9.00 malam.
Wilayah : Gombak
Kawasan yang terlibat : Keseluruhan Sri Gombak Fasa 8,9,10,11,12 dan
Kampung Melayu Sri Gombak

13) Tarikh gangguan : 8 Mac 2006 (Rabu),
dari jam 9.30 pagi - 9.30 malam.
Wilayah : Petaling
Kawasan yang terlibat : Keseluruhan kawasan Bukit Serdang (Permata).

14) Tarikh gangguan : 8 Mac 2006 (Rabu),
dari jam 9.00 pagi - 9.00 malam.
Wilayah : Gombak
Kawasan yang terlibat : Keseluruhan Desa Aman Puri dan Wangsa Permai.

15) Tarikh gangguan : 8 Mac 2006 (Rabu),
dari jam 9.00 pagi - 9.00 malam.
Wilayah : Gombak
Kawasan yang terlibat : Keseluruhan Taman Wangsa Ukay, Bukit Utama,
Taman Bukit Jaya, Super Home, Jalan Wangsa 5A,
Apartment Atheneum, Bukit Antarabangsa dan Kampung
Sungai Sering.

16) Tarikh gangguan : 9 Mac 2006 (Khamis),
dari jam 9.30 pagi - 12.30 malam.
Wilayah : Petaling
Kawasan yang terlibat : Keseluruhan kawasan Damansara Damai

17) Tarikh gangguan : 9 Mac 2006 (Khamis),
dari jam 9.00 pagi - 9.00 malam.
Wilayah : Gombak
Kawasan yang terlibat : Keseluruhan sepanjang Jalan Hulu Klang

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sometimes i wonder what would my reaction be if my staff treat me not good huh?
would i be very upset and request to change to annother group?
it's either they go or i go?

erm... i wonder...
however i think to be a good leader you have to hadle your staff well.
and to be able to lead them to do what you want.

able to monitor things that is happening.
keep them under your control

wonder how would it be in the future...

saw this trough an e-mail forwarded to me

Instructions: What you do is find out what each letter
of your name means.
Then connect all the meanings and it describes YOU.
PS : If you have double or triple letters, just count
the meaning once.

For Example :

JOEY
J - Jealously
O - You are very open-minded.
E - You are a very exciting person.
Y - You cause a lot of trouble.

Descriptions:

A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
B - You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.
C - You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.
D - You have trouble trusting people.
E - You are a very exciting person.
F - Everyone loves you.
G - You have excellent ways of viewing people.
H - You are not judgmental.
I - You are always smiling and making others smile.
J - Jealously
K - You like to try new things.
L - Love is something you deeply believe in.
M - Success comes easily to you.
N - You like to work, but you always want a break.
O - You are very open-minded.
P - You are very friendly and understanding.
Q - You are a hypocrite.
R - You are a social butterfly.
S - You are very broad-minded.
T - You have an attitude, a big one.
U - You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
V - You have a very good physique and looks.
W - You like your privacy.
X - You never let people tell you what to do.
Y - You cause a lot of trouble.
Z - You're always fighting with someone

what my name means?
T - You have an attitude, a big one.
E - You are a very exciting person.
E - You are a very exciting person.
C - You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.
H - You are not judgmental.
O - You are very open-minded.
N - You like to work, but you always want a break.
G - You have excellent ways of viewing people.

tell me what do you think of me trough the following link:-
http://kevan.org/johari?name=teechong

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網路流傳最動心情人故事：公豬的愛（好感動）

從前有兩只小豬，整天過著無憂無慮的生活，他們互相相愛著。

每天主人送來吃的時候，公豬總是先讓母豬吃，等她吃飽了再上去吃母豬吃剩下的東西，每天晚上公豬總是給母豬放哨，他生怕主人乘他們熟睡時把母豬拉出去宰了。

日子一天天的過去，母豬日漸長胖，而公豬則一天天瘦下去。

有一天，公豬突然聽見主人在跟屠夫商量，要把長勢見長的母豬殺了給賣掉，公豬傷心至極。

於是從那天開始公豬性情大變，每當主人送吃來時公豬總搶上去把東西吃的一乾二淨，每天吃後便躺下大睡，並且告訴母豬現在換做她來放哨，如果他發現她沒放哨的話就再也不理她。

漸漸的日子一天天過去，母豬覺得公豬越來越不在乎她，母豬失望了，而公豬還是若無其事的過著安樂日子．很快一個月過去了，主人帶著屠夫來到豬圈，他發現一個月前肥肥壯壯的母豬瘦的沒剩下多少肉，而公豬則長的油光發亮．這時的公豬拼命的奔跑，想引起主人的注意，表明他是頭健康的豬。

終於，屠夫把公豬拖出豬圈的那一刻，公豬朝著母豬笑著說：“以後別吃這麼多了！”

母豬傷心欲絕，拼命的沖出去，但圈門被主人關上了，擱著柵欄，母豬看著閃著淚光的公豬。

那晚，母豬望著主人一家開心的吃著豬肉，傷心的躺倒在以前公豬每天睡的地方，突然她發現牆上有行字：“如果愛無法用言語來表達，我願意用生命來證明！”

母豬看到這行字肝腸寸斷，人類聽到這個淒美的愛情故事也無不為之動容，女孩們為了紀念這段愛情，同時也表示沒忘記公豬臨終前的遺囑“以後別吃這麼多。”

自此「減肥的風氣」亦在這時開始流行…

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feel the story is touching and meaningful...
and i'll try to translate it later... for those who dun really understand what it means..

finally i have finished my software tax computation assignment...
erm.. i think it was not perfect since i could not figure out how to put the word note at the side of one of the schedule.

cham la.. my senior in our group which is very expert in the software already resign..
and all what is left is all the 'bozo'
haha... sounded very bad to call my senior on names rite?

so have to ask my manager on monday lo..
dunno whether she knows whether the how the word 'note' should be put inside the tax comp using the software.

and i always feel sorry for not doing a nice job for my group leader and resulting she need to do more for us.

if you wanna ask me which is the richest among chinese community i cannot tell u which one exactly but definately hokkien at my housing area are the richest
why?
because they can play the fireworks and fire crackers non stop since the mid night until this very moment i'm blogging.
bing bing bang bang bing bing bang bang...
it's just like chinese new year.
everyone are suppose to celebrate.
and the police are jus pretend to be deft 2nite.

数到五答应我~~曹格

第一次看着你 就为你心动
第二次看见你 我竟然失控
是我的错 请你原谅我
第三次看见你 想要告诉你
我真的爱你 是真的爱你
第四次看着你 我有些要求
请你能够 安安静静的聆听
一.让我保护你
二.让我照顾你
三.所有的要求不能当作游戏
四.接受这命运
五.永远不分离
说你愿意
那最后一个一定要说你愿意
Want be your lover want be your man
我只希望给你多一点
我只要你开心多一点
Can you be my lover dont wanna be your friend
给你幸福每一天
给你幸福到永远
因为我Want be your lover want be your man
说你害怕 因为受过伤
不需要害怕 因为我不是他


BACK AT ONE ~~~Brian McKnight
It's undeniable that we should be together.
Unbelievable, how I used to say that I found her.
The basis that you need to know
If you just don't know how I feel,
Then let me show you that now I'm for real
If all the things in time, time will reveal yeah.

Chorus:
One, you're like a dream come true,
Two, just wanna be with you,
Three, girl it's plain to see,
That you're the only one for me and
Four, repeat steps one through three,
Five, make you fall in love with me,
If ever I believe my work is done,
Then I'll start back at one.

So incredible, the way things work themselves out
And all emotional, once you know what it's all about
And undesirable, for us to be apart
Never would of made it very far
Cuz you know you got the keys to my heart cuz.

Repeat Chorus:

Say farewell to the darkened nights,
I see the coming of the sun.
I feel like a little child, whose life has just begun
You came and bring life into the lonely heart of mine.
You threw out the life line
Just in the nick of time.

Repeat chorus:


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found that this two song seems very simliar in the lyrics...
maybe this would be the valentine hits song this year huh...
count to five.. promise me to marry me..
hahaha

i've been listening to gary's album for the whole morning.
found out that his album is very intersting and
is not those whole album only got a few songs which are nice singer.
and he is not those type of singer who sell his face and sing.
i think he is very very much telented.
and is one of the album i like it very much lately.

just wanna say gary's album is out..
go to the cd shop and ask for it..
it's definately on sale.

my chinese new year ang pow collection



my hello kitty ang pow pack from my aunty...



different ang pow pack from same company which is OCBC bank



guess which ang pow pack have the most money inside?

this is my new bag which i asked my mom to get for me..
mayb i should call it 'xiao hong' since it looks so red.
i would feel that the bag does not match with the image that i usually present in front of many poeple.

but who cares this is a brand new year..
just wish that there is a change in my feel and there would be much more better things which is going to happened in the future. 

this is a new album from gary chao ge...
just loaded his album into my media player..
but i really like his superwoman.
hope that this is a album which i can listen for a long long while.



the whole album and the lyrics book

i'm gonna make a chage on the side bar of this blog..
wanna make it a bit warm.
however it might take me some times.
waiting for myself to be satisfied with what i feel and wanna present about things that i like.

waiting for what is coming soon k..

why wanna change?
cos i'm bored la..

wanna get something special
because i already get something new for myself and now i wanna get something new for my blog.

i'll be going off to penang for chinese new year holiday for 3 days..
so friends..
you might not get any update form me for the moment.
so..
will see what i can do when i'm back.

4 Jobs I’ve had In My Life:
--> trainee.. dunno what to call because i just go there present myself and online. why? because my uncle say wanna let me learn computer.
--> tax trainee at jessy's dad office. learn a lot of things about personal tax. and i'm very daring to say that my personal tax is definately better than zen :P
--> temporary data entry accounts assistant at a company which sells body care product. and their accounts really is very terrible and there is definately not enough staff to handle the job on hand.i wonder how they are going to expand with the competition of two other bigger competitor?
--> working for about 6 months in the current company. and this company is consider one of the big4 accounting firm lur.. started in the industry of tax.. but i'm still not satisfied. cos wanna join audit where everyone say.. u'll see more in audit.

4 Movies I Could Watch Over and Over:
never think of any movie i would watch over and over again.
maybe should be
the lord of the rings
beautiful mind.. (because it's a meaningful and memorable movie to me)
forest gump
matrix

4 TV Shows I Love(d) to Watch:
CSI (anyone of it.. including miami and new york)
the amazing race
ALIAS
full house

4 Places Where I’ve Lived:
Shah Alam, where my mom and dad stay when they are carrying me
Taman Wahyu, when i was born until i was about 3-4 years old
Jalan Ipoh, current resident have been staying here for more than a decade about 15 years
Chulia Street Penang, my grandma's house only during chinese new year

4 Places I’ve Been On Vacation To:
Penang
PD
Singapore
Taiwan

4 Places I Would Rather Be:
at home
at home
at home
at home online

4 Of My Favourite Foods:
Chocolate
anything with chocolate
Mee
Cheese cake

4 Websites I Visit Daily:
My blog
Yahoo mail
Yahoo! game
MSn

4 Beautiful People Worth Tagging:
Whoever wants to do it....

just realised that me and joo just rarely take photo together.
i just wonder why?

other couple would like to take picture together regardless of where they go.
and i just seems to realised that we rarely and hardly ever take photo together.

why?
should i post this question to him?
or should i post this question to myself.

is it because i'm too busy taking other poeple's picture?
or he never thinks that there is a necessity that we need to take picture together?

i wonder why and wonder how?
how should i express to him i really want us to really take picture together so that i can have a picture to show to others saying oh.. this is my bf?

herm..
sometimes i kindda hate chinese new year.
why?
because i hate being asked a few question.
do you have a boy friend?
when are you going to settle down?
how is your boy friend ar?

huh?
is those question make a different in your live if i really answer yes or no?
because you need to prepare ang pow if i got plans to get married this year?
come on...
i just started my courier.
the world is just to big for me to swim.
i just wanna see more things and blog more in this blog...
to me.. i think it's not the time yet.

what does freedom with a responsibilty means to you?

i'm pondering about it now.

today is the second day of the chinese new year.
went to visit two relative and it serves as an eye opener for today.

the first relative is my nanny aka my grandma's sister.
she is the one who take care of me when i was still a little gal.
it seems that other than chinese new year day,
we are just lack of contact and did not see each other than much and
i just feel that the relationship is not as close as previously.

her daughter works as a tax manager with a multi national company based in S'pore.
trough the conversation with her today
i realised that there is a deep sea out there for me to swim with.
i must work very very hard to lay out my foundation and
start to realised how things are work out and not just
draw out the proposal on the paper.

i have to realised that sometimes when you think on the paper the things might not actually work in reality.
on the other hand a lot of work need to be done.
such as understand the client's business and understand what is the industry requirement.
and i would work my way towards the aim of serving my client better.

annother relative is my mom's uncle.
he just got strok last year.
and this year he already have to stay at the old folks home.
i just pray that i would treat all my parents and grand parents better and they would not ill treat themself
and they would take care of themself
so that they would not have to stay in the old folks home in the future.

to me it seems like poeple who are staying at the old folks home are very very pityful.
they are just a bunch of old people who are sick and thier kids whom they brought them up with all thier hard work send them there with the excuse of not being able to take care of them and no time to take care of them.

last year when we visit my mom's uncle,
he was still a very very healthy person.
and now he had to stay at the old folks home.
and god took away his smile.
and god make half of his body parrelised.

so i just wanna pray very hard so that this does not happened to anyone who is close to me.
hope they are healty all the way.

first of all wanna wish everyone happy chinese new year.

then... cham lur.. since i've started working..
my chinese new year ang pow from all the uncles
'strink water' d lo...
tat's a very very terrible news for me..
since my yearly extra ordinary income had decrease d...
and there is no annual bonus from the company yet since i only started working for less than a year. and bonus will have to wait until july leh...
terrible news for me..
ai... just let me forget about it lur...

my chinese new year resolution is to be promoted to senior 2 by this year during june or april's evaluation.
why i'm so eger to get promoted?
yes i'm desperate for promotion
since i have to be promoted in order for the firm to pay for me for my annual subscription for the professional qualification of acca.

it would be a burden to me currently, since my pay is not so high and to pay the subsription would covers about half of my salary lur...

i'll work my ass up to achive my target this year..
and i would like to achive annother target of being able to drive to work by mid of this year.

today i went home at about 9.30pm...
it's not because it is very peak period and i have to OT until 9.00 pm.
it is just because a lot of are doing last minute shoping lo...

a lot of people going to 1u and the curve and tesco to do their last minute shopping.
chinese new year is a season of spending money and sharing the happinest with each other

all the while i have not been earning any money.. and all the while cny is the time for my dad to spend his money to buy things for others.

erm... because of chinese new year i think i've almost spend all of my salary buying this and that. the most i spend on is buying my clothes and also drinks

this year i bought 100 plus and coke light yeos kek hua and also rebina...
you can request for chinese tea as well..
but too bad there is only the 'wang wang' biscut that i bought for chinese new year.
i'm wondering whether i should go and buy the 'nga gu' since my friends are coming over to my house during chinese new year.

erm.. cny mood is coming...
wondering i should post some cny song on my blog during the cny?
haha...

yeah this is the time i feel chinese new year is coming...
i love chinese new year...
and guys.. and gals.. enjoy your chinese new year lo..

next month will be a new milestone in my career.
why? i would be having my confirmation that my work performance is up to satisfactory level.

annother bonus on top of the the confirmation is my promotion.
hehehe... i'm promoted up a level as tax semi-senior...
i think that was quiet fast for someone who is new and not very experience in tax.

i think attitude towards doing things would play an important part in doing things.
ability to admit what you have done wrongly is the main point in the career path.

i'm a bit surprise that i was promoted as such a fast pase...
but i think i would want myself to remain humble.
and keep the heart of willing to learn all the time.
and also respect my two senior even they are still at the same position when they come into the company.
but i jus feel weird that promoted but cannot tell anyone
hahaah
except my GL, Senior tax manager and Director know about it.

You Should Be A Libra

What's good about you: A total charmer, you easily find friends and allies What's bad about you: You have a secret side that's easily confused and depressed In love: you enjoy flirting, dating, and the whole process of falling for someone In friendship, you're: very social ... you rather be with your friends than be alone Your ideal job: fashion designer, makeup artist, or song writer Your sense of fashion: very feminine / masculine (depending on your gender) You like to pig out on: sweet stuff like ice cream and french toast

eh... shouldn't this be goh joo joo's star sign? herm.....

sometimes i wonder whether you would feel that you are disturb by people who drink their coffee or milo in a very loud manner like they would sound 'shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhuuuuuuuuuup' everytime they drink their coffee or milo.

i think that is very rude to the colleague who are sitting together with you in the same group.
and i think that really disturb the working mood for myself.

sometimes i wonder how come you have so much time to go and make coffee and you can drink the coffee about 3-4 times a day.
i know the coffee of the company is free but.. don't you think that is kindda too over for you to utilsed the company's benefit.
mayb about 8 and a half hour working half hour you spend it drinking and making your coffee?
erm.. i think that is not productive and not professional at all.

i wanted to sound the fuller.
however i think i would not.
why?
because first and foremost he is my senior.
and secondly he is a guy..
it's bad for a gal to 'tegur' the guy in front of a lot of people.
i never understand about this concept.
because i think gal and boy is indifference.
however in reality yes there is difference.
even we are talking about gal and boy should be having the equal right nowadays.
i would think that the perception as guy would wanna maintain their 'air muka' is always very clearly stated in thier mind.

so now i'm a bit better in the sense that i would not say anything in front of the guy in front of many poeple...
instead i just post it into my rubbish + bull shit blog...
so .. sorry for those who are reading and you have read annother bull shit post...

have you ever think that blogging is actually a very open stuff?
meaning that anyone who have internet access would be able to read whatever rubbish you have posted on your blog if they 'accidentally' or intentionally bump into your blog.

have you ever complaint about others in your blog and you wonder whether they would be so 'hou choy' and bump into your blog and see what you are 'bull shitting' inside your blog?

erm... no worries.. if someday somebody come and tell you i've read your blog...
i agreed with what you think and this and that.
ha... imagining again.

however i feel that blogging is in between of wanting to be disclosed or do not what to disclose what you feel and think.

something there are dark secret that you would not be willing to tell anyone so you would not be blogging it out in your own blog.

however what i like about the blog is the feeling of sharing your thoughts and knowing that someone out there would spend their precious time to read your 'bull shit'

at the same time blogging also helps me to train myself to write and write and 'bull shit' all the way. mayb this is one of my secret of getting my acca at one go...
hahaha....

annother thing i wanted to talk about blogging is that helps me release my stress. enble me to do complaint as 'terible' as i could.
haha...

oops... just realised that i've complaint about my two senior and my boss knows about it? huh 'blink blink with innocent eyes'

erm... i have nothing to say for what i've written inside the blog here.
because sometimes it's just pure 'bull shit' and i would not be held responsible for what i've blog here...

thanks and best regards...
owner of this 'bull shit' blog....
t0m@k0